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skitskatdacat63 · 6 months

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no because these are deeply unwell

#tumblr hates me and wont let me post on mobile today( i think ive spammed too much or smth and its cursed me)#so just know im so unwell that ive literally gotten dressed to go out in 10 mins but i had to sit down and pull out my pc to post these #like had to sit down and take ss from tha vid because my fucking god #please tell me guys im not just being delulu right?? like he is more captivating than ususal this wknd right????#idk. i just dont know how to be a normal person after eveyrthing from today #gonna hnag out w my friend and only be able to think about THIS #HIS EYES ARE SO HAZEL IN THSEEEEE AND HIS STARE IS SO INTENSE???????#fernando alonso #f1 #formula 1 #catie.rambling.txt

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anonymocha · 1 month

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I CANT SLEEP IM PRAYING SO HARD THAT KAALAA BAUNAA GETS A SKIN ON 1.8 PLIS PLIS PLIS PLIS

#idc about ms newbabel voyager 6 shamane medpoc IDC #PLEASEEEE KB SKIN AMEN #down so bad it got me clenching my hands in prayer #DEAR GOD: IT WOULD BE SO CUTE #Ok but an Eternity skin will be ok too #BUT KB SKIN???? Artagqhhwjwjj3jehhhj)))))))))))))#dear lord please let your silly little lesbian win for once #mochats #modownbads #MB I FORGOT ABOUT JESSICA....#i also dont care about her GIMME A KB SKIN (i do care)#its almost 1 am dear lord help me #captain o captain your disastrous dyke is going insane #i bought roaring months just for her #if it isn't too much then a Baby Blue skin will also be appreciated i love her sm my daughter #priority skin wishlist: 1. kaalaa baunaa naturally 2. eternity because of course 3. baby blue because baby 4. medpoc bc i kin #im literally. disintegrating. pls give kb a skin omg i beg #what if i pretend idgaf abt kb skin so it will come for real....

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flutt3rb4tz · 4 months

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i hate when people who dont have marfans make/headcanon characters with marfans as some quirky trait. i really do, i've seen it a lot in my life as someone who was diagnosed at 3 with the condition and it honestly grinds my gears they always do the most stereotype-y traits, or ignore how much of a struggle it is to live with marfans, or how marfans can fuck up your body further by just how much shit it causes.

to put it into perspective, i got tagged like a fucking animal at school because they didnt want to take too much care into explaining that i needed extra care if something happened, or that people should be gentle with me because i could die on school grounds. ive sat cooped up in my home most of my life, i've only been on a fair ride once because getting on a roller coaster could harm me as well. i need help walking or getting around because my body cant always handle it, i have other problems due to marfans that have hurt me greatly for my entire life.

i'm slowly going blind from marfans and theres nothing a doctor can do that will stick. i risk aortic dissection simply by being hit in the chest, i used to be afraid of going to bed because if anything hit my chest too hard i could literally fucking die then and there, because my heart would fucking collapse on itself and theres a decent chance that i wouldnt make it to the emergency room.

it's not just some trait, it is a disability. and it's not quirky!! it was never fucking quirky!!! getting discriminated against for being disabled by the age of 4 wasnt fun! it wasnt silly! it was traumatizing!!!!

if you're going to make a character or headcanon a character with marfans take into account how much of a stereotype you're making them. there are short people with marfans, fat people with marfans (like myself), poc with marfans, there are people who cannot walk or function because of marfans, people with marfans arent scary or shy or weak all the time. we're human people! we vary!

talk to actual people with marfans. look up posts about the condition from people with the condition. dont confuse marfans with EDS. just have common sense!! its exhausting trying to look at content from people like me and either seeing headcanons, EDS posts, or people telling everyone with marfans that they have no hope (this ones common on reddit, but it applies).

people with marfans dont immediately die either, btw. i saw a post recently that was just "haha this character better have had amazing doctors or his marfans would kill him in 2 seconds!!!" and that's not how it works. of course it can be fatal thats with all things, but dont act like its an immediate death sentence, please. i'm sure a lot of us have heard it enough already

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charlie-artlie · 8 months

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this happens to me like. every day.

#fnaf #charlie chatterbox #please god free me #help me to make better financial decisions 😔🙏#i just get #obsessed with a new weird niche fnaf merch item every day and like #make it my mission to track it down and own it #i dont need these things. i dont need to be doing this #this is from the grab n go mystery packs made by phatmojo i believe? anyway ive got two in the mail #now im getting obsessed with the snaps figures #i didnt realize it has actually been a blessing that every other fandom ive been in has had like. no official merch up to this point #home/stuck vld ok/ko tma NO MERCH #there is some sort of addicting chemical in receiving a little totem of your blorbo in the mail….#and just putting them on your desk and staring at them #if they ever release any gr bonnie merch im literally doomed #because anything they release ill have to buy a freddy buddy for him #and if i get a freddy well i should have a monty too to complete the polycule #but then it’d be fucked up not to get chica and roxy…….#and at that point i should also get the vanny to have the whole set and lets be real the vanny piece is usually the best one in any lot anyw

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lottieurl · 1 year

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me realizing some people were emotionally hit by the twist that it's a dream sequence while i was watching it the whole time absolutely sure it wasn't real but still worried it might be and thinking about how the true horror was shauna being all touchy feely towards the baby

#happy for the people just to be clear i wish i didnt feel let down by this ep #but i felt super underwhelmed and it felt very #hm. like. oh my god are you scared of rly getting into pregnancy as horror. you were setting up shauna as someone who is A BAD PARENT #a fucked up parent even from the first scenes of the pilot #and shes having a baby as a 17yo (18? by now? whatever) in the wilderness. the pregnancy reveal caused her best friend's death #and shes not shown to give a fuck abt that baby before its born either like #you rly want me to get hit emotionally with this? well im too busy trying to figure out why shauna is acting like uh #a woman who just gave birth to a planned baby she wanted lmao #like my god can we PLEASE have tv thats unafraid to show pregnancy as horror #and characters who dont feel that quote unquote magical 'maternal' haze blah blah forgot abt all the pain bc oh look at the fucking baby #sorry im disappointed #just to be clear im not one of the I Hate Kids freaks in fact i adore children i just hate pregnancy and would rather die than get pregnant #was p excited for fucked up pregnancy shit and we got this . lifetime lukewarm take on shauna pregnancy #someone write horror shauna pregnancy fic i swear this has to be done #anyways. rant over #yellowjackets spoilers #yellowjackets blogging

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angellurgy · 11 days

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKFUCKFUCK #CONDTANT UNENDING SILENT SCREAMING #NO WORDS BUT FORCED TO UNDERSTAND STILL UNESCAPABLE I CANT I CANT I CANT #ill never be anything ill never be anything ill never be anything at all to any of you #too fucking tired to go out of the house for so long no way to stop being tired its all wearing down on me like a fucking curse. too much #CANT CANT CANT take 10 more days of this waiting itll just go back to normal after #TRIED TO LIVE BUT WHAT IS THE POINT WHAT IS THERE EVEN FOR ME NO LOVE NO CARE NO IMPORTANCE NO PLACE #FADING MEMORY REMNANTS OF MY SOUL DRIPPING OUT OF MY HEAD LIKE A GUTTER. NO ONE WILL REMEMBER. EVEN I CANT.#AAAAAAAAAAA rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrot wish i just had a fucking dad to hold me wish i had a brother to show me the loving care noone will #please. llease. please. nothing left nothing left everyone wants me less with every single post but icant stop #cooped up inside. tumblrs knly good when you have a life outside of it. i cant fight it tho bc of this fucking EXHAUSTION #caused by the emotional pain and exclusion. eternal loop. let me.out #NOT LIKE IT MATTERS TO ANYONE BUT THE FEW WHO CANT HELP. THE FEW WHO CANT MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. I JUST WANT A GROUP.#I KNOW COMMUNITY ISNT REAL BUT I FUCKING WANT SOMETHING. PLEASE #LET ME OUT. GIVE ME LIFE. INSTEAD OF THIS CONSTANT FUCKING VOID GROWING BLACK MOLD ON THE CREVICES OF MY SKULL #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing is giving me life right now i want sometbing i cant create anything i dont wanna die but i have no choice #FIGHT THROUGH THE TIREDNESS WALK INTO THE FOREST IN THE NIGHT AND ROT.#SLIT MY WRISTS EVEN THOUGH IT WONT DO SHIT. LAY ON A BLANKET AND LET THE COLD TAKE ME #WOULDNT BE THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN CLOSE TO IT. LEAST I CAN GO ALL THE WAY. GOD WHY DO I TRY. I WANT TO TRY. I HAVE NOTHING TO TRY FOR.#NO OTHER CHOICE.

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trivialqueerstions · 11 months

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Getting dressed in my cutest clothes, my favorite heels, and spreading myself across the bed to use the vibrator before my partner gets home. Fuck, and i know that they'll open the door, and just won't be able to help themselves. Not when im dressed up so pretty, just for them.

Maybe they'll apologize, beg forgiveness as they pound into my boycunt, whimpering sorry as they fill me again and again, make me such a good fucktoy, the perfect stress toy. Biting me all over and moaning, barely able to thrust into me properly over their own pleasure.

"fuck baby, you feel so good. So tight around me, milking my cock dry. I can feel you squeezing around me, fuck, you're gonna make me cum again. Is that what you want, pretty boy?"

And I'll whine and push back against their hips, beg so nicely for their fingers, their cock, their tongue, anything. And they'll give me it all- fuck me until I can't breathe and then fuck me more.

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months

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#holy fuck. knock on wood. fingers crossed. press my thumbs. i think the pain is cycling down #like probably its this bad bc my body is weak from fighting an allergic reaction and i think lam1ctal can cause some menstral issues #but like holy fuck. i cannot go thru that again. just hours of being nauseous and crumpled in pain #i was very very very seriously considering going to the hospital. but like ive ridden in an ambulance before and i dont wanna spend like #1000 dollars to go like 10min down the road. bullshit. god i hope its stopping #it was just like so much pain i didnt kno what to do. absolutely intolerable. ugh.#please dont let this happen tomorrow 🙏 please please please. i have to teach #and ny roommate is staying here the next 2 nights after not seeing her for like months #y now? 😭 im gonna have to b like hi *visibly disheveled* if i talk i might puke. bye.#i wish i could just sleep thru this. ibuprofen is not helping 😭#im just worried if i went to the hospital theyd make me wait for hours in the waiting room. shaking with pain. and then id b fine by the #time they got to me. like yea srry i was jusy being a lil bitch abt a normal bodily process lol. god. ppl with high levels of chronic pain #how tf do u do it? i dont think im strong enough. but i guess u probably get used to it. god that sucks so bad #ugh. i wish my mom was here. i want her to just pet my hair until i feel better 😭 but nooo shes going off to have fun in canada #so she's gonna b even farther from me than normal 😭#unrelated

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widevibratobitch · 6 months

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my god. skinny people really just have like. No Idea huh just absolutely not a single clue lmao it's almost funny to watch fr but then id lie if i said i wouldn't fucking kill to be able to be that ignorant

#girl i am SO sorry people react with surprise when you say you're studying to be an opera singer because you're #*checks notes* skinny and attractive. so so sorry that must be literal hell for you huh how will you ever recover :((((#no no please keep talking about how equally bad that is to the brutal fucking fatshaming and ED glorifying #in the industry that me and the only other fat girl in the room were talking about before you interrupted us <3 #anyway. we were talking about this one review of a quite famous professional music critic whose only comment about a fat mezzo in the cast #was 'miss xyz.... lose some weight'. not a single word about her singing/acting/whatever. but yeah no you're too sexy for an opera singer #and THAT is the real problem here girl i totally understand yeah <3 thoughts and prayers dearest.#earlier that same day this same girl was standing next to me in her bodycon dress and went #*pointing at her stomach that's so flat its almost concave* 'ughhhh what do i have to do to not look pregnant in this dress 😩😫'#and i said 'girl' and just looked at her and like the sudden horrified realisation on her face was lowkey hysterical #like omg you really did forget you're not talking to your other skinny friends with whom you can pat each other on the backs #and reassure each other that 'dw girl ur not fat at all ur so so sexy!' huh sjshsjshsjs #but yeah i dont like making people uncomfortable irl so i did reassure her she looks hot and pretty and skinny as all shit #let at least one of us have a nice evening and not feel Absolutely Fucking Disgusting ig <3 #and the day before that after i saw our (last ever btw never photographing myself with them ever again <3) picture and had a mini break down #the other even skinnier and smaller and petite-er crouched down next to me with the most guilty fucking expression and quietly asked me #if im alright and do i want her to delete those pictures (that she posted on two separate social media pages) and like #the look of immense fucking pity on her was even worse than seeing those pictures #like i know she meant well and was trying to be nice but my god. this really is how you all see me huh #like looking like me would be fate worse than death for yall #not even gonna mention the thing i just learned this friday that the retired ballerina who leads our ballet classes said about me #trying to cheer up the other fat girl who happened to have a bit of an emotional breakdown in the middle of the class :)))))))#like i am sooooooo so glad and honoured to be an inspiration to you. really. always happy to help. the exemplary Fat Girl Who Fucking Sucks #But Doesnt Let It Bother Her <333333 #like on one hand. yeah it really does make me wanna jump off a cliff. but on the other. its just hilarious sjdgsjsgsj #you sure are right miss ma'am. i sure don't let this bother me at all. i am famous for my uncanny ability to Not Be Bothered by all this <33 #but shes new. its ok. how could she know about the last two years when i was getting panic attacks and sobbing myself to sleep every tuesday #but yeah no. [lauren cooper voice] am i bovvered? am i bovvered tho? i aint even bovvered!

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am0ngtheb0nes · 1 year

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Kyo promised no boys. This is not a ‘boyfriend hoodie’ and he did not spend the night at Shiro’s house for any other reason than it was dark and rainy and it would be unsafe to go home alone. It was a responsible decision. No he is not blushing. Definitely not.

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valdrift · 1 year

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sometimes i feel like a shitty dog owner and tht im not doing enough for my pubby but then i see the dogs we get at work and im like ah . ok i think im doing alright actually.

#life update i work part time at an animal hospital now! very busy lately with work + school + life u_u #anyways SOO many dogs tht are either a) untrained and not desensitized to different stimuli #or b) old as shit and being kept alive through pharmacys worth of drugs when tbh . they just gotta be let go #and theyre always extremely overweight with overgrown grinch ass claws #like good lord . getting a dog made me realize how many ppl DONT train or care for their animals and it stresses me out #my dog isnt perfect but at least she isnt gonna bark/snarl/lunge at other dogs or ppl .#and if she jumps shell at least listen when i tell her to back down #GOD. TRAIN UR DOGS . PLEASE

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talkorsomething · 23 days

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This is it lads i think i might be ready to trans it up at dayton in a week

#theres like an inch of binder panel space not being used LOL #trans ftm #transmasc #binder #like . the stitching may now be more susceptible to pulling out but WHO CARES theres an inch of rib space no longer complaining at me #i did stretch a neck muscle weird though so we're hoping thats a side effect of the original length i stitched it down to #next test: can i .... can i get through warmups without dying ....... god please let me be able to practice in my binder #it would be way better than having to switch out comp days ....... i dont even do that but i dont want to. lol

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elibeeline · 2 months

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Idk if its the hormones but im emotional over soup again

#well its stew but soup by definition #the age-old love of preparing food and sharing it out #dad's made it and its so good and the chicken falls apart so easily and the stock is just the right amount of salty #i love you. please live to see my wedding. please walk me down the aisle. i love you this meal is so good #and im so happy share it with you #(you better live to see my wedding i swear to god please dont let some stupid chest infections get you too early you old bastard)#its more than just soup and after those revelations its more than just hormones!!

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tiredstressedemotionalmess · 2 months

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i really really hate that even after so many fucking years anytime i feel anxious or upset or really any negative emotion my gut instinct is still to pray

#like rn im worried im gonna get sick bc my little brother is and my dad's staring to feel sick too #and every time i think abt it gor more than a few seconds my brain is like “dear god please dont let me get sick” without me even telling #myself to think that and i just. i hate it all it does is send me further down the spiral of Thinking About It #and i hate it because thats what i was told would help for years and and i never fucking did #and im not trying to sound like a bitter edge lord or whatever the fuck i just. i dont know i just feel gross about it #maybe if i didnt thunk of it as praying it would help more. i dunno what it is but praying just sound so...#i dont know. i dont know i dont know #i just really cannyget sick right now and i am so fucking stressed and i hate that i feel like im talking to no one #but then again ive always been talking to no one so

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autistic-shaiapouf · 3 months

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It's 11pm so I know this is influencing my feelings but. make it make sense, no one in this household has beef with me bc 1) I'm never home and 2) I ingratiate myself with everyone so everyone thinks I'm on their side, when in actuality I can't stand any of them. What I am witnessing has me developing more bitterness for other people than my year and a half of customer service has done. Not one person here has a functioning brain and yet expect me to feel pity. To reach out.

Leave.

#i am metaphorically taking a drag from a cigarette. god. god.#i don't purposefully play nice with everyone; im just kind of laid back; you know what i dont think i wanna be everyone's friend #i am becoming everyone's savior and i am becoming increasingly embittered by it #I'm just. tired. i was gonna stick this in my drafts and call it a night but i think i want this out in public actually #this is the equivalent of yelling at a wall with neighbors on the other side. one roommate got the cops involved against the other #you know. maybe magnolia is right. maybe i should be allowed to attack someone rabid animal style.#manifestinggggggggggg the pleasant dissociation from the increasingly strained environment here. please.#let it go past me. uncaring. unbothered. absolutely flourishing. roasting a smore over the flames of hell. that's what it's all about #turning this into a growth moment. something like that.#shai speaks #have been listening to take care as I've been typing and ngl it's helping me feel a little more calmed down lmao

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killuaisaprincess · 4 months

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reminder GONKI IS MORE CANON 😤😏 so anytime some kg person tries to send hate at you remember it’s just cuz they’re big mad Gonki more canon eheheh 😘🤭

#IS WHY I WONT LET ANY LOSER GET ME DOWN 😤#I KNOW ITS JUST CUZ THEY ARE BIG MAD THE DIRECTOR CALLED KI WIFE AND KIS VA TAGS STUFF GONKI EHEHEH 😘🥰#Naturally sadly on the west side there’s wayyyy more kg people so I don’t mean alll of them obvi but please #on twitter- I mean x #I am like the sole person in the English gonkillu tag mostly #And these kg fans got big mad when there was dare an artist in there for a while who was popular and used gonki tag #LIKE HOW DARE THEY LOL #Losers got so mad over a tag that has hardly anything in it #SO DONT LET ANY OF THEM DRAG YOU DOWN #Most the time they’re hypocrites and losers #AND I WONT LET ANY OF THEM EVER STOP ME #🤧😤🥰#Honestly they’re free to hate it like I hate kg but the fact they go to bully an artist the moment they dare to use the gonki tag is not #Acceptable #That tag isn’t there for you #Its for us few #ANYWAY ILL ALWAYS STAND MY GROUND FOR THE GONKIS #And trust me this is no lie I’ve been harassed ive seen people leave that were gonkis I have even had friends!#open gonki people tell me they are scared to post #LIKE WHAT YOU WANNA BUT LEAVE US ALONE #And no none of them can use the excuse of “heteronormative” or whatever else they want to get away with bullying #ESP NOT WHEN THEY WILL TURN AROUND AND DO THE SAME TROPES WITH THEIR VER LOL do what you want but do not be a hypocrite to send threats #Its all fiction there’s no need to play purity police god will def let you up into heaven cuz you told me to kill myself for #Having Ki in a dress #NOT LOL! TOO BAD 😤 AND KI IS A PRETTY PRINCESS WHO DESERVES DRESSES 😤 PERIOD #I’m sure there’s been a few rotten gk people I don’t accept them as my kin either but from the few of us I do know #We’re never gone to the kg tags or go to those people’s posts and fics LIKE WHY WOULD I EVEN WANNA SEE STUFF I HATE IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE #AND YES I HAVE TWO FOLLOWERS AND NO I HAVE NO ISSUE SPEAKING OUT ESP WHEN PEOPLE I KNOW GET HARASSED SPECIFICALLY BY A KG PERSON #I WILL GIVE US A PEP TALK 😤 ITS JUST CUZ THEY ARE BIG MAD YOU KEEP DOING YOU GONKI IS CANON 😤

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