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gasping and fainting over her collarbones like a victorian virgin seeing a naked ankle for the first time

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i think what’s on a person’s nightstand is very telling so reblog this and put in the tags the things you have on your nightstand

#my water bottle #some hairties and bracelets #deodorant and lip balm #and my multivitamins and hayfever meds and a tub of e45 #if you count the space between my bed and the nightstand then i also have snacks and stim toys

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I dont rugby much but its the womens six nations now so im a little bit more interested 🥰

#and we're winning! which always helps #i was about to say france has a good team too but they just got yellowcarded

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I hate my job again 🥰🥰

#i. fucking hate it here. i hate the Impatience. the glaring. #i hate that its 'my fault' that they sit in a 15 minute queue and its 'my fault' they have to wait #and my coworkers are pissy and the customers are pissy and i want to scream and cry and leave

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I will in fact be hiding in bed all day, but less bc im Depressed and more because parents are waiting for an ambulance

#i hope hes gonna be okay and they finally get the right diagnosis but i will be distancing myself Just In Case

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Im gonna need the fyp to stop giving me those harmonising girl vids while im feeling like this

#stop showing me pets passing away and the awful kind of nostalgia #and those horrid horrid ' would your father still love you if you looked less like your mother' sorts #i hate it i hate it i hate it please bring back the happier stuff i dont have the stability for this

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hmmm why does my uterus hurt and why do i feel kinda off. weird. surely these are not the warning symptoms of a predictable biological process that occurs on a regular schedule. anyway. im going to wear white pants today.

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Dad came home during mine and sib's 'youtube on the big tv' time so now he's also watching Jacksepticeye play firewatch

Update: he doesn't like the swearing, and is bored (a loss for him)

#he is 57 and doesn't understand gaming youtube because he doesn't do the tech #i have tv control for the next ten minutes until he gets it back for his shows

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(Am i allowed to miss duolingo, can i use it again or is it still awful to their staff)

#i dont like rosetta stone the lessons are too long and too repetitive

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When i planned on doing absolutely fuckall for the next 24 hours, that's not the time for dad to bring his mate home

#they are both as loud as each other

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Might rewatch jjk just to feel something

#i need to rewatch the kfc breakup knowing the significance of what im watching

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Can we not have serious conversations in the silent staffroom while ppl are trying to eat 😭😭

#i feel like im breaking the tension but this is hella intense and i feel so awkward #its one guy losing contact with his kids for context but my food is so loud

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Not even twenty minutes into my shift we get an influx of about 30 customers

#where are you all going at this time of morning. dont you have beds?? #it was all tradies and bus drivers etc so i assume they were all off to work #the golden arches were just especially bright i guess but ughhh #there is however Drama Within The Workplace #its lowkey sad a little bit

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I hate work I should be at the (remembers I don't want to go to the club) the imagination

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And now i cant sleep :')

Okay now im finished with the current show my brain is empty and telling me some real bad shit

#i dont think its gonna happen :/ my alarm goes off in like 5 hours almost

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Okay now im finished with the current show my brain is empty and telling me some real bad shit

#im TRYING to get some sleep here #its currently trying to tell me my bipolar is actually just depression which is a reasonable assumption. however. #can a depressed person do this *hallucinates. believes theyre telepathic. has a brain telling them theres hands and bugs in kettles* #(/genq bc if thats possible and treatable i would be delighted to get that properly diagnosed)

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And what in the fuck was that???

#they give us a split second of whatever beast itadori summoned??? thats not fairrrrrr #i will be finding a manga translation somewhere trust