#genuinely sorry about this

[ssstrawberryflowers]

uuhh life update i guess? tw for parental issues, self harm and suicidal ideation

had a talk with the section director on how i hated working on my project and how worse my situation had become and would become if i kept going. usual therapist pushed me to keep going cause “at least I’ll be busy with something” and given the next step in our project is the production stage (aka 3d which i fucking hate) i’d just be miserable most of the time. the only classes i genuinely liked and still like were life drawing, outdoors sketching and videogame history, and none of these have any sort of impact on our projects. section leader is fine with me dropping out, she told me she’ll try to explain to my therapist tomorrow, and my parents if needed. this shit has lasted for a fucking year, i’ve literally started self harming again because of how utterly miserable i felt.

the therapist that saw me at school told me I needed to at least take a break, my usual therapist made me go back to make my days busy, and my parents believe my usual therapist because “she’s seen you for years of course she knows best”. jesus fucking christ.

it’s an amalgamation of so much shit. art youtubers yelling “art school is a scam!!!!” while only talking about shit typical for the us. my parents both telling me “you can do it! you’re strong! you’ve been through worse!” at the same time as “you chose this school. you’ll be the one to assume the consequences if you drop out”. meds losing effectiveness before switching to something that doesn’t even work as a placebo. slowly creeping and growing self hatred, thinking everyone must hate me because I’m an annoying and pretentious attention whore. frustrations about my art. it just kept piling up. if i were to keep going i would either end up miserable at a clinic where i can’t do anything that would make me truly happy or pushing daisies.

my mom keeps asking “what will you do after you drop out?”. i don’t fucking know. find a part time job. take up comms for real. practice the type of art i really care about and that makes me feel fulfilled. start fighting sports again. i could tell her all of this, and she’d just look at me with an air of disapproval because i didn’t get a diploma for a job that doesn’t even need one to get hired at a good studio.

“i’ve been a student too, you know, i know how it is” shut the fuck up. you didn’t wish to destroy the skin of your arm because of how miserable you felt. you didn’t feel like everyone hated you because you didn’t know how to go forward. you didn’t start thinking “i want to die” constantly in a non-joking way.

who cares if i chose this school if even school staff sees and agrees i should stop? diplomas don’t mean shit in the art world.

#hb rambles #hb talks #no one cares but I’ve exhausted my options for venting #genuinely sorry about this

[segretecose]

is this yall’s generational songwriting talent

#sorry. i genuinely tried to give her a try more than once #but what the fuck is this #how can you be satiric about something you are one of the cornerstones of like. i beg

[ryssbelle]

Drew a bunch of Marinettes in a bunch of different artists styles it was a lot of fun!!

Artists who's styles I mimicked: @buggachat @hamsternamedmarinette @ladybeug @sabertoothwalrus and @anna-scribbles all epic artists 🤟😎

#my art #marinette dupain cheng #miraculous ladybug #miraculous fanart #style mimic #sorry for the @s btw #yall should go follow those artists if you dont already also #this was sort of inspired by a post the three artists on the top row made #i think they all got together and drew with one another #which is really cool #but i was genuinely confused because i mimic styles a lot #and ive seen others do it too so i was just like #wow they really know each others styles really well #until i thought about it and read their posts some more #style mimicking is really freaking fun and i think its really good practice #and a good way to explore other ways of doing things #like you really have to learn new techniques and get out of your comfort zone #also anna scribbles i could not find a recent pic of marinette in her main outfit #so thats the only marinette i drew in different clothes cuz i couldnt find a more recent ref of you drawing it #anna scribble marinette has privileges thats the others dont #but ye #i also threw my own style in there as a frame of reference to what me draw like #ive drawn marinette before just not in a loooong while #sabertooth walrus was the hardest for me to mimic cuz they have a broad range in their style #so its like which sabertooth do i wanna be in this pic #Buggachat has such a distinct style thats very clean and consistent which is amazing so they were easy #being easy or hard arent bad things either it also has to do with like styles meeting up with one another #buggachats and mine arent too too different in some shapes and aspects #so yeah itd be easier plus they drew marinette like 3 sec ago so i have more recent of a ref #as opposed to sabertooth who i have a recent ref of ladybug but not marinette so we got two diff styles in one

[forecast0ctopus]

#‘sorry about the microaggressions’ was gonna be the whole joke but then i thought stupider #hes pulling his leg he knows perfectly well what bones means #star trek #star trek tos #star trek tos fanart #star trek fanart #spock #leonard mccoy #dr mccoy #mr spock #leonard bones mccoy #spock: your conduct was quite visible to the naked eye. but if you insist [microscope] #he got the microscope from hammerspace #i think bones should apologize but ill only accept some goofy exchange when hes trying to be genuine #it only makes sense. to me

[vaguely-concerned]

can't believe garak went from 'hope you have fun following my little breadcrumb trail of maybe-truths doctor it builds character ;)' at the beginning of the show to '*sigh* fuck it here's the whole loaf. the entire fucked up bakery of my soul. if you somehow still wanna have sex with me after this you know where I am, yours in infinite longing etc.' in a stitch in time. has anyone ever been so pathetically horrifically enduringly down bad as garak is for julian (laudatory)

#that's some real lodestar simp stuff you've got going on garak and I'm so happy for you/sorry . I guess that's the thing about love #garashir #elim garak #star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #I take the same approach to 'a stitch in time' that I do to deacon's final story in fallout 4 -- I'm agnostic on if ALL details are true #but overall it's certainly *emotionally* truer than even the truth could be sort of situation. genuinely emotionally intimate finally. #which I think is the more important part #and part of that is being weapons grade longing material fjdskjafsa. off the pining scale.

[egophiliac]

happy new year Ego!!! Just wanted to let you know that I absolutely adore your twst fanart and the tags are just an absolute pleasure to read! You are my greatest inspiration for my personal twst art and I just wanted to thank you for your wonderful masterpieces <333 if possible, may I ask what are some of your headcanons for the diasomnia family? If not for diasomnia then any other characters are fine as well!

thank you, and happy new year! 💚💜💚 that is amazing to hear; it's always a little bewildering but super flattering that other people like my silly little doodles so much!

I don't think I really have any really solid headcanons and also canon keeps validating me left and right (FLUFFY DOMESTIC DIAFAM IS REAL). mostly just kind of...impressions and general thoughts, if that makes sense! lately though I've been kind of obsessed with thinking about Lilia's hair, and specifically when/why he ended up cutting it. (l-look, we're bouncing around the timeline and I gotta make decisions about these things when I draw, it's relevant) (I mean I would probably be weirdly fixated on this anyway, but.)

I think I've settled on the idea that he kept it long until he went to NRC, partly because 1) I like drawing The Ponytail, and 2) I think he thought of NRC as a chance to reinvent himself a bit! he gets to go and be a wacky carefree teenager for a few years and have fun! (officially he's there to keep an eye on Son #1, but how much trouble could he get into, really.) so he gave himself a Cool Teen Haircut to go with his fresh new Cool Teen Persona!

also maybe he had some reflection on his hair's troubled past with three kids...

...and had to weigh his vanity versus the fact that he was going off to be around hundreds of kids on a daily basis, and. the choice suddenly seemed obvious.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 6 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 6 spoilers #this is my blog and i'm going to write a million words about lilia and you can't stop me #but anyway i do genuinely get the impression that he's using Pretending to Be a Teenager as a chance to be even sillier than usual #he's a very silly man he's just being EXTRA silly #supported by his recent birthday card where he says he was specifically trying to cast himself as an adorable little brother-type #because he wanted the other students to give him free shit and save him seats and things like that #it worked for about a week before he turned out to be way too good at stuff and everyone just kind of ended up in awe of him instead #and he was like DANGIT. I'VE RUINED IT FOR MYSELF. #(then he and epel went on to talk about their hypothetical vtubersonas because the birthday cards are INSANE but anyway) #i'm bad at headcanons :( sorry! #unless it's dumb things like...what pokemon they would have or whatever #(malleus would have some kind of special fancy-colored dragapult) (but i digress) #i have a hard time putting things into words. just know that i love the grampa bat and his weird kids very much. #my brain is also still kind of fried from the last couple of weeks #i am however starting 2024 off the way i intend to continue it: in deep contemplation of anime hair #(sorry if these look weirdly aliased) (i realized about 3/4 of the way through i was using the wrong brush and i didn't want to restart :U)

[ssalballoon]

bold words from god's favourite princess

context: my favorite interview

#idk much about shadowheart... hopefully this is accurate enough! #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #shadowheart #my art #sorry if someone has done this before! i'm genuinely just obsessed with this video #i recite this video like a lunatic

[meagancandraw]

You ever think about how neither of them got to say goodbye?

#TSAMS #Sun and Moon Show #The Sun and Moon Show #TSAMS Lunar #SAMS Lunar #Sun #SAMS Sun #FNAF Sun #FNAF #Five Nights At Freddy's #MeaganCanDraw #I love New Moon a lot don't get me wrong but Old Moon's and Sun's relationship wasn't black and white (as much as NM wants to insist it was #YES Old Moon treated Sun horribly YES he wasn't the best person but #their relationship was also complicated and messy and they both genuinely loved each other despite everything #So much of what they did was for each other and that adds even more to the tragedy of their relationship and Moon's death #Sun and Old Moon's final conversation was them fighting #Moon's final in-person words to him were “I love you and I'm sorry” #to which Sun didn't say anything bc he was mad at him (which I don't blame him for given everything that happened in that episode) #Do you think Sun has realized this? How often does he go back to that moment #How often has he imagined himself saying or doing something different? Something that would've resulted in them leaving that bunker togethe #Meanwhile Lunar lost the person who gave him a new life and a family that actually cares about him #And he was in Moon's head for months and saw first hand how much his regrets and trauma affected him #Both of which would eventually destroy him due to the cycle of self-loathing he was trapped in #How much does HE think about that? #Anyway sorry for not posting for nearly (checks watch) two years?? #It'll likely happen again #1k

[markscherz]

Happy World Frog Day! 🐸

I hate to make this a commercialised holiday, but you may be interested to know that I sell some frog-related merch on RedBubble, including the poster shown above, stickers, and other fun stuff like an awesome froggy shower curtain! I have one at home, and it’s excellent. Profits go towards supporting your local frog scientist.

#world frog day #frog #frogs #amphibians #shameless self promotion #sorry about that #I am terrible at advertising the things I sell #because I hate ads with a passion #but I think some of you might genuinely like to own some of these things #so here we are

[waterghostype]

volume cw (i tried lowering it but jic. also loud swearing)

#ninjago #lego ninjago #jaya #ninjago jaya #jaya ninjago #nya ninjago #nya jiang #nya smith #ninjago nya #jay walker #aphid’s ninjashits #aphid philosophy #procrastinating studying for my wr… #ive made like 4 posts in a row about jaya like idgaf… #why so jaya? - the jayar #you watched skybound and then you had nowhere to ship #i couldve started going on ao3… #no if jayatar’s friends didnt ship you you wouldve gotten seabound syndrome #i know my own jaya streak uncle… #is it your own jayastreak or is it a jayastreak someone else tried to pose on you #<- is this comprehensible to anyone else please tell me someone understands this reference #if not i look genuinely just like brainrotted really #sorry…. #the jayamaxxer #these are like the worst tags sorry again

[wasyago]

im just gonna uhmmmm leave this here

#fellas is it gay to perform an ''act of love'' with your friend while he's crying about how nobody loves him? #and then you both roll nat20 on how *genuine* the kiss is? #and then your dm goes feral and describes your kiss in unnecessarily high detail and says that it was the best kiss in your friend's life? #and all this is happening while your third friend is drowning right next to you? #jokes aside gill did eat a raw fish that morning so im very sorry for chip if THIS is what his best kiss looks like #jrwi fish and chips #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #my art #yago but better

[theravenlyn-art]

she was like an angel to me

#artlyn #mcu #the marvels #monica rambeau #photon #// #sorry for posting about mcu lol #and i guess for vague spoilers #but like genuinely seeing monica glow filled me with so much awe i was close to weeping and like damn maybe thats what people talk about #when they tell stories about crying because they saw an angel #not to overhype the scene lmao #but also theres a bit as an aside to kamala where she's like ''dont worry about it baby'' and i was like :') #also khan family appreciation i love them #anyway whipped this up in an hour or something because couldnt get it out of my head

[n0ahsferatu]

pov you are a locked chest or perhaps someone bleeding to death

#hello 🤙 #it has been 84 years i am SO SORRY #im genuinely going to try to stick around this time!! #this may be a broken ass website but you people are lovely and i have missed you :3 #anyWAY. VIDDY GAME #noah gaël gamer era #baldur’s gate 3 is not a video game it is a magical place that stores all my boyfriends #you can have this weirdo though i don’t want him #/lying #but he is still SO RUDE. TO MY TAV #every morning my tav wakes up and casts lesser restoration on himself and this is how astarion repays him? #worthless boy. mean and impolite #he keeps getting away with it because I’m still silly about him though :( #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #baldurs gate astarion #astarion #bg3 #bg3 fanart #bg3 astarion #artists on tumblr #digital artist #illustrators on tumblr #noah.jpg

[metukika]

when ure apparently the only social person in your friend group

#like uknow that qna where one says hell go to parties during christmas? #i genuinely think hes like a stereotypical popular kid. #i completely forgot about dimple im so sorry #teru like 2 years post canon replying to something idk: ...shou im not a virgin.?? #shou: WHAT #mika draws serizawa #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #teruki hanazawa #ritsu kageyama #shigeo kageyama #shou suzuki #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #tome kurata #metukikart #comic

[socialist-microwave-laser]

incredibly uncomfortable finding out a mutual of mine (thankfully one i wasn't very close to) has been rbing shit complaining about "theyfabs." absolutely vile, if you think that shit is anywhere near okay please weed yourselves out. unfollow, block me, whatever. apparently i haven't been vocal enough about this

your transphobia and bioessentialism is not made progressive by supposedly doing it in defense of other trans people

afab trans people don't have privilege over amab trans people. different experiences do not inherently mean one is better, more desirable, or more privileged than the other. it means they're different

afab vs amab is a reductive binary that not only ignores so many complexities of experience and brushes away even the attempt at intersectionality, but it contributes to the ever-present problem of perisex trans people only acknowledging that intersex people exist when it's convenient to do so. also your bioessentialism is not made progressive by supposedly doing it in defense of other trans people

i've made nicer worded posts about this but they seem to have gone under the radar so let me try again. tme vs tma is a dumb ass fucking excuse for any sort of "analysis" and shows everyone you have no idea what the hell you're talking about. NOBODY is "exempt" from transmisogyny that's the fucking point of systems of oppression!!! they're SYSTEMS!!! white people are not racism exempt! non-muslims are not islamophobia exempt! skinny people are not fatphobia exempt! straight people are not homophobia exempt! stop talking out of your ass and think about your words for longer than five goddamn seconds! also! your bioessentialism is not made progressive by supposedly doing it in defense of other trans people!

stop attacking other trans people! there is an entire fucking attempted genocide happening and you're here just spinning your wheels in the fucking mud getting pissy at random trans people over the internet who are in the exact same struggle as you are! you're not getting anywhere! all you're succeeding in doing is LITERALLY creating new slurs to be used by transphobes against those who should be your fucking siblings

your transphobia and bioessentialism is not made progressive by supposedly doing it in defense of other trans people. it wasn't cute when kalvin garrah did it. it's not cute when blair white does it. and it's not fucking cute when you do it either

#i'm sorry this is so angry i genuinely do believe in the importance of having constructive conversations about this. this post isn't gonns #change minds. it'll just piss some people off. but right now i'm hurt by the fact that somebody has managed to be mutuals with me for two #months and think that this is something i would in any way shape or form be okay with #queer #transgender #anarchist #transphobia tw #discourse tw #transandrophobia #tme/tma #intersexism #intersectionality

[mod2amaryllis]

my infinite wealth journey

#sorry about this #genuinely though it's one thing for him to be such a great adorable character but then they went and made him middle aged..... #m2a #m2art #like a dragon: infinite wealth #ichiban kasuga