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My Personal Surgeon and Their Clinic

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First Every Phalloplasty Procedure - Surgeon

Michael Dillon- Trans Pioneer (First phalloplasty patient)

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[puppyeared]

#WHERE IS HE NINTWNDO. WHERES MY FUCKING BOY #Gray went ham beating up those monsters and threw hands with shmelda #so now were in Faron trying to find the fifth sage. collecting the farosh armor and still need to do the Ritual but ran out of time lol #I’m assuming since it conducts electricity it should let me into the stormy ruins right?? I don’t think theres armor for the light dragon #but it would be so cool.. #and the satori armor is designed so that you drop rupees instead of losing health. is that what’s happening when you shoot a blupee??? #euhhhh need to find the headdresses for the naydra and dinraal armor though. I wanna do more Misko quests Theyre fun lol #tears of the kingdom #totk #loz #loz spoilers #totk spoilers #tears of the kingdom spoilers #loz totk #loz tears of the kingdom #yapping #I LOVE THIS GAME I KNEW IT WOULDNT END SO QUICKLY. IM SO SUS ABOUT TOBIOS HOLLOW BC THERES AN OWL RUIN BUT IDK WHY

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tom & B'Elanna give off closeted gay vibes in that I think if you asked them to describe their ideal woman and man they would respectively describe a swimsuit model (bonus: who's Not Like Other Girls) and the lead in some sort of romantic novel. Nothing even close to a real person. The most generic you can get about straight romantic and sexual attraction.

#B'Elanna would say that OR she'd just name some incredibly basic things that make you sad when you hear them #I can 1000% see a canon scene where B'Elanna is upset about random ensign guy not meeting her standards for a date #and everyone's of course of course of course like 'well YOUR standards aaare a little high B'Elanna' ha ha ha and B'Elanna's like #(she's upset but trying to work to take her mind off it) 'Is it SO hard to find a guy who-' then proceeds to list off basic things #the writers think women want and it's all soft romantic things and Tom's like (bc this is ostensibly a romance scene between them) #'B'Elanna are you serious?' (What???) 'If you went out with a guy like that you'd eat him alive. You need a guy who can keep up with #your-' (I swear to God if you say my temper.) '-Passion.' <- his hands are held defensively in the air and his tone is sarcastic. B'Elanna #is pointing a space wrench or something at him. she quickly pulls away. frustrated and embarrassed. #and everyone's like wow this a very good romantic scene we did that really well I think. #in reality the scene was B'Elanna being upset - Tom making fun of her and ignoring the fact that she's a romantic but in the writer's minds #its Tom being romantic and charming and signaling that he's interested in her

[sun-marie]

Brb gonna go throw hands with a goddess 👊🏻👊🏻👊🏻

#i chose “seek her forgiveness” bc I want him to find a cure quickly #and what she has to say is such bullshit omgggg #*now* he needs the truth. so she knew this whole time and just. didn't tell him? #and it just breaks my heart how he responds to her #my last playthrough I chose “don't give anything away” #and it feels so much healthier bc he's like “you had no right to ask that of me” #anyway. Gale needs a hug #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #gale of waterdeep

[abstractlesbian]

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

#trying to be as vague as possible even tho this is someone I know offline and no one involved follows me online #on one level I get it that relying someone who is forgetful and does things slower/differently than you can be frustrating #but like its a medical condition. and u dont need to know someones medical info to have some empathy instead of assuming malice/incompetence #i just found out they have adhd today but day one i was able to go 'wow i did not like the way they handled that but i dont think they were #being hurtful/careless we just handle this task differently. rhey didnt do anything wrong and i can let this go and adjust my expectations' #not to say im perfect and never ableist towards others. my first reaction to seeing traits i dislike in myself (from my disabilities) #in others is often to get annoyed and needing to adjust my thinking #i get annoyed with myself when I cant focus / cant be coherent or concise / cant finish tasks quickly etc #→ get annoyed sometimes when I see others doing that → realize thats not fair to them → realize thats not fair to myself #→ assume good intentions and find ways to communicate/collaborate better with them → get along better and maybe make a new friend! #sorry i am rambling #idk its scary seeing someone being disliked for adhd symptoms/traits that im mostly doing a good job of managing/hiding in this #social environment so far and knowing that could happen to me in the future #but im also like ready to have this persons back #me 🤝 them: prioritizing the wrong tasks and overexplaining things and struglging to get our points across #and not noticing when we talk too loud and forgetting tasks halfway thru etc #not to be that guy but : without love it canmot be seen!!!! #lifes so much better if u just assume ppl arent doing things a certain way to be annoying + let go of / adapt to the thing that are annoying #but not harmful #thats not exactly what without love it cant be seen means but thats one of the ways i apply it in life #just like dont assume malice. assume u dont have all the info. approach ppl/situations with empathy. #or youll make yourself more miserable needlessly #again like only for shit that's not harmful obv #i need to shut up and go to bed

[the-casbah-way]

rich people should be required to give every trans person a little bit of their money so they can afford hrt and not kill themselves i will die on this hill if you're rich and reading this you're obligated to give me some money so i can get hrt and not kill myself

#diy is still like insanely expensive too #it's like sixty quid for a tiny box of TINY testosterone gel things #like. where are you people getting this money. give it to me #like surely 60 quid for such a tiny amount would rack up so quickly that it'd be cheaper to go private #that's my thinking anyway based on what i can find at the moment #but i would need to actually find a clinic that doesn't rob you blind and doesn't have waiting lists longer than the nhs one

[toxiccaves]

i think something about ppl reblogging ai art without noticing it also comes down to how we should already be making sure its not reposted or stolen art. i know thats how a LOT of aesthetic blogs are run, but with photos too, i get not glancing twice if it seems to be official/stock/brand imagery or some old timey painting, but you should always in the first place be making sure any art you rb is uploaded by the creator, or if not, sourced properly

#i know its troublesome to bg check and find the source of everything we wanna rb but genuinly we need to be responsible in what we post #quickly pulling out the OP's blog on here and checking the bio or pinned rlly doesnt take super long!! you should make it a habit #not to mentiont his is helpful incase of checking any boundaries in a DNI #as for recognizing ai art; it has gotten a lot better and can be harder to notice in photograph type ones but rather than inspecting the #image itself; i think researching the source is easier if the other is too difficult #another thing u can do is check the reblogs and or replies section! sometimes ppl point it out already

[mettywiththenotes]

I think one of the things I love the most about Haikyuu is that even though the whole manga comes from a place of love from Furudate who created the story specifically to get people into volleyball, there is nothing to make you feel bad about not wanting to play anymore

There are characters who are completely obsessed with volleyball. There are characters who aren't obsessed but are interested enough to keep going. There are characters who weren't into it but did it anyway and then just couldn't stop. There are characters who started doing volleyball and then realized they didn't like it anymore, then left and were better for it. There are characters who are like "this was cool and it was nice but I don't want to do this forever". There are characters who never play but still support the teams anyway

And the story validates every single one of these experiences. There's no "this experience is better than that experience", there are just characters who like it, don't like it, are obsessed with it or can appreciate everything that happens in a game regardless of their feelings towards it

It's just really nice to go through the story and feel the whole acceptance through the writing itself, to see that Furudate is encouraging you to try volleyball, to experience how fun it can be, and if it's not fun for you or you fell out of love with it or just don't want to do it anymore, then that's fine! At least you experienced it! At least you tried! At least you learned something about yourself! And hopefully you made friends along the way!

Haikyuu inspires people to try something new but never does it show a characters negative feelings or lack of feelings towards it as invalid and wrong. It just encourages you to do what makes you happy. I really appreciate that

#there's obviously more characters who have other experiences too that i missed #but still i think i made my point #i need to rewatch and reread this series #spoilers in the tags from this point on -----> #i think this ESPECIALLY hits home after the timeskip #learning what every character was doing in the future #how there definitely were those who went into volleyball as a career #but there were others who did something else like being a veterinarian or a singer or a fashion designer #the way there were characters who were so good at playing volleyball but it just wasn't what they wanted to do all their life #like nishinoya and tendou #ALSO #when udai was revealed #and he was literally just. some guy #hinata and others idolized him and he was just a guy who didn't wanna play volleyball #and the most important thing is it wasn't a big deal that he wasn't a little giant anymore #hinata moved on quickly and that was a good thing for him and his development into finding who he wanted to be #it really does show that udai's decision was valid. he inspired people with how great he was but he just didn't wanna do it anymore #AND AND he probably STILL ends up inspiring kids anyway because he became a mangaka who created a manga about volleyball!! #the cycle is complete!! #the emphasis on doing what you want because its fun and makes you happy is just!! very important i think!! #haikyuu!! #haikyuu!! manga spoilers #haikyuu!! spoilers #mettys posts #metty posts

[starpros-sunshine]

Cooking isn't even hmthat hard now if I only learn how to properly season then I might actually be good at this

#cooked myself some something for lunch and I mean. it's not bad. not bad at all #could've used more wine though #my whole exposure to seasoning has been 'just throw it in there you don't need to measure or follow a scheme' #which. this thing has honey as well as curry as well as Kurkuma as well as sesame oil and butter in it #and a shit ton of pepper #would've thrown chili in there too if we had that in the house right now but apparently we're out of it #what else ....garlic I threw garlic in there too #and some red wine on accident #intended to use white but well i didn't find that one #and milk to thin it down when the cream got thick #onions too you cpuld taste those I think I accidentally burnt them #did I mention the honey #it's genuinely a good looking thing and it tastes well as well but it's pretty mediocre #next time I'll throw some chicken in as well that usually adds a Lot #the broth really didn't substitute which I suppose isn't the intent but you know. experiments. #i was debating if I should add some walnuts too but then that idea quickly vanished when I noticed we haven't any here anyways #could've worked out though I believe in the walnuts

[transingthoseformers]

I need the mecha to learn about Yellowstone because they'd have three conclusions:

Oh that's so cool, wow

Hey! We had places similar to this on cybertron! (They do iicr, and they'd start reminiscing about home)

(or, my current thought right now upon hearing the word "Yellowstone" on the TV,) Primus and the thirteen that is fucking terrifying

#maccadam #transformers #yellowstone national park #i love the place and it's pretty and we need to protect it #but #you'd have to pay me good money to get me to go there because it scares me beyond belief #it's not the dormant super volcano part that gets me oh no no no it's the wildlife and the //pools of boiling acid water// #the fact that ah yes you can take a step onto what seems like solid ground and you'll get melted alive way too quickly #i was thinking about this earlier when listening to this one girl talking about how the features regularly have bones in them #it's on Riot's list of ''things xe find super pretty and interesting but also xe're deathly afraid of'' #along with fireworks_ thunderstorms_ and fire #i have two entirely different trains of thought in my head right now and they are crisscrossing in impossible ways

[spaceratprodigy]

was thinking about somethin somethin nicky "breaking up" with iris while slow dancing with her

#extra salt in the wound if it's the night ellie and trav surprise them with a makeshift date night #breaking up in quotations bc at this point they wouldn't really be established but It Would Be Obvious ya'know #idk I've been messing around with parts of iris's story again for funsies and wanted some change of scenery #so playing around with ideas #such as nick even if he does have real feelings for her beyond not necessarily wanting their partnership to end #he's incredibly aware he is never capable of being the partner she needs in the ways she'd really want #he doesn't doubt how much she loves him. he knows she does #he also knows how quickly and easily she would sacrifice herself desperately hoping that love would last #and he doesn't want to see her unhappy clinging to something. to him. when she deserves more. someone who can give her the life she wants #thinking about him. her in his arms. the shotgun blast to the heart. saying the first I love you while pushing her away at the same time #also really really really have been thinking up the chain of events that would lead up to her dropping everything and going back on the road #alone again for the first time in a long while #needed a catalyst for her just kinda ✨disappearing✨ for a long while and no one not even deeks can find her #travis trying desperately to contact her at her home base. but she's not there to answer the radio #and he starts trying to talk to her through dcr because he knows she's listening #his lil stumbly voice telling her how sorry he is for what happened. that he wants her to come home. that he's worried. that he misses her #rambling #miss ma'am iris is that you

[faithfromanewperspective]

I feel like a lot of discussion in worlds of how we do socialism and also people trying to (with varying levels of genuineness) do philanthropic or ethical versions of capitalism we talk about ‘the working class’ as if either they’re some people to empower or a human rights problem to fix. and yes there’s a struggle of power and for ownership of profit and yes we need to do that fairly and ethically but I think what people miss either deliberately or from trained and systemic invisibility of marginalised groups is that the working class have never been the lowest class. in fact the average person you could say is and has always been working class (don’t let the middle in middle class fool you). there are an entire diverse caste of people who have fallen out of the bottom of society due to inability to work or fit into a nice role in the system and when some of us don’t fit, none of the systems people think of to ‘help’ are going to work when they’re within the same narrative. disabled people can’t work the same as a abled people, so what is a fair share of the profits? neither can addicts, at least not without help. and this group of people often do actually require more capital to have their needs met in ways your average working class person doesn’t. like I don’t want to invalidate your working class plight but. do we not remember centuries of shame when something befalls a relative causing them to fall into that category, be it at birth or later? do we not remember the people we locked up away from society? to those of us who have always existed and exist now, I love you. you deserve to have your voices heard and your needs met and your value not tied to your productivity. you deserve to be centred and not sidelined in these discussions and you deserve a new conceptualisation of how we create an equitable society. and while I don’t see that in mainstream yet I want to normalise as able, working to meet our own needs and then some for those we love who we can feed into the ecosystem and invest in. I want to normalise celebrating the work of existing and being present and staying alive and caring for yourself more than working to feed the economy. that’s work we can all do. and I want to be careful in saying this, but I want to normalise the idea that there is no leisure until we can all have liberation and sustenance. there is rest and reminding ourselves we’ve done enough and we are enough. but there’s no sitting back in comfort, which many of us raised in middle class lifestyles might be used to. not while part of society is still invisible.

#this is mostly a critique of discussions of socialism tbh #and like. many of us are disabled I know what we define as leisure is well needed rest #many of us fall into multiple conflicting social classes #and I’d say for those of us it’s parts of us too who are invisible #but like. I really want to discuss socialism and look at possibilities but I find it very hard to take seriously rn #when often the lucky ones of us use our middle class privileges to survive our disabilities #and when talking about workers’ rights (important) quickly becomes You Must Work 40h/wk To Survive #I don’t mind working more. but I also have to be very accommodating of how I need to work in order to do it #and I am so aware of others for whom this isn’t the case #that tbh I don’t think I’ll ever stop working as hard and as smart as I sustainably can #at least not while peoples needs aren’t met #socialism #sustainable development goals #neurodivergent liberation #mad liberation #disability rights #disability liberation #punk christianity

[brookheimer]

jesus christ i am incapable of being concise. but yall asked for a long shiv take so really this one's on you >:)

#someone: what did you think about ___? me: glad you asked. so basically [500000 word essay] #tl;dr did not like the shiv ending but i WOULD have liked it were it better built up to and developed but as it is it just feels forced and #rushed -- forgoing realistic character development/continuity in characterization in order to get shiv to the place they wanted her to #which COULDVE BEEN DONE AND DONE WELL had there been more time allotted to ya know. getting her there. not just woop! shiv now is able to #subject herself to indignity when it means future potential for power! even tho her fatal flaw has literally always been her inability to d #that! #like ok ideally there would've been some time in between ken vote and shiv return to tom. she would not ever NEVER be able to #stifle her anger that quickly and play the good wife so immediately. she would take a few days THEN maybe come back to access his power -- #and that's a MAYBE #she would need to find a way that worked for her ie wouldn't make her look as pathetic and weak and humiliated and Woman as the current #outcome does. she would neeever willingly let herself look that vulnerable and pathetic and failed esp when it's related to men #ok i've talked enough about this for now i need to shut up LOL #succession #succession spoilers #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy

[outeremissary]

Poll about creating characters for a game really has me thinking about my methods because while I don't usually situate a character in the world/create a full backstory beforehand I feel like I need such a strong sense of who a character is, how they behave, and at least the skeleton of why they behave like that that I usually get bored and feel like I'm playing some flat nothing when I don't have that. I guess that isn't the same as having a fully rigid concept, especially since I'm happy to change things radically in conversation with a game when it's going well, but it's still enough of a distinct Guy Who Already Exists In My Brain I couldn't call it a loose concept. And usually when things go well for my looser concept characters and I develop them during a playthrough I just hit a point partway through where it's like... cool! I have completed the concept for this character now, I can stop playing and relocate them to a Real Story. They almost never feel like they fit right until they're in something where they're starting from that state, haha. I'm like this with tabletop stuff as well. I'm not always the ten page backstory guy but if I'm not at least coming in with some needlessly complex portrait of personality the character is not going to stick for more than a oneshot. Just doesn't interest me to play! I don't feel like I'm seeing through their eyes yet. Can't get in the right zone mentally. I think that's what it's really about for me- a loose concept is rarely immersive, and without that immersion I just struggle to feel like the actions are coming from the character instead of me and come together into a cohesive story about the character (rather than one about me pushing buttons).

#I think it's also not true for me that rigid concepts are less likely to click correctly with a game's tone than loose ones #my most successful PoE1 run had a loose defined-as-I-went character I quite liked who developed swiftly into someone who sucked for POE1 #she just did not fit the game at all and it was hard to interact with the world through her. and she was made by playing the game! #her whole concept emerged from early game dialogue! #but partway through it was like hmm I gotta pull kiryana out of this she doesn't belong and right now she can't tell a good story here #felt hard to RP her in that game. #she's a success story though I couldn't tell you anything about half of my dao characters they were totally unmemorable for me #maybe the winning sauce for the loose ideas is that I need to find something specific to keep building on very quickly after starting #for kiryana it was her intense romanticism. for kasander it was a stubborn and radical (but not naive) optimism. #for my brosca it was the gap between her dreams of heroism and rough lived experiences. #when I think about it the thing all of these have in common is games that provided early opportunities for interaction with personal past #the origin in dao. the talk about goals and reasons in poe1. the emergence of durge... durge-ness. #makes it feel grounded without needing to do all the grounding. anchors a character. starts the conversation with the game properly. #(although I've also had plenty of dao and poe1 characters who still didn't inspire enough to feel anchored...) #you guys who do multiple playthroughs to iterate on what was only the lightest concept at first are so strong lmao #I can't do that. not in the same game. if they weren't compelling to me in it the first time there will absolutely not be a second. #this is a TRUE rambling post good god. just wanted to get thoughts out of my head and procrastinate on getting out of bed for Tasks #rambling

[bitchfitch]

Savant syndrome is not a real diagnosis and is largely just used to deny neurodivergent folk supportive care based on the belief they're the ""right"" or ""more special"" kind of neurodiverse. but boy howdy does the spectrum of symptoms it's used to lable absolutely fucking ruin your ability to communicate about what you're passionate about without sounding like a bragadocious ass.

#hi im completely incapable of reading social cues and thus understanding what other people find difficult is impossible #if they dont outright tell me #and i can very quickly learn new skills with minimal effort and almost no guidance #so trying to figure out if something is actually hard or not is basically impossible. #Stained glass? easy. Blender? easy. Realistic paintings? easy. wood work sewing knitting crochet whatever othe bullshit im on this week? #easy. #But i know its actually not easy. #I know these are skills its supposed to take months to learn and not something you can just pick up when you have a free weekend #and an impulsive thought #but that doesn't Feel right #they're all just steps. just a process you follow from one end to the other. #theres no thought or effort needed beyond the initial generative design stage. #anyways you too can learn new skills rapidly by following this three step plan: #1. Fuck up #2. Examine the fuck up #3. do it again but better

[katyspersonal]

Also another highlight of ER gameplay is how much Patches helped me without intending to (Fantomette don't read if you didn't find him yet)

So like I explored god knows how much and leveled and seen all kinds of caves yet, until I went down in the lake one (haven't killed dragon there yet, I am working on it). So there was that basic bitch boss cave ok? And I waited for like TEN DARN MINUTES for the boss to appear! TEN minutes!! I thought the game lagged so I gave up and decided to dig in the chest, and MOTHERFUCKING-

HE WAS THE BOSS HGKMKKGYHV LITERALLY THE LAST THING IN THE WORLD I EXPECTED!!!! PATCHES WAS A BOSS AAAAA

And so many years later he invented a new trick than just throwing the player off the cliff gfhfjgb And this time it is ACTUALLY player's fault because he didn't ask for help, nor gave advice, nor tossed shiny coins near the cliff, he just... left a chest near a place that looks like a camp, so it was ACTUALLY unfair to open it if you think of it. Damn, they made him have a point instead of being hostile when you didn't even do anything bad ;-; He's grown so much xD unlike his hair

As for how that helped me, I returned in that cave later. He wasn't there (later I learned if you take too long he leaves, so I had to see what he'd say in Youtube), but there was the trap chest. It teleported me in unfamiliar area but I already knew THIS kind of bears was dangerous, so I just snuck away for a bit... Found some sort of chapel, stepped on the round lift there, and it was just. Going down and down and down until it opened such a beautiful sight????

So apparently that took me into a super fun secret map UNDER the main map, it was so entertaining to explore! I could not stop taking the screenshots because there THE SKY AND THE COSMOS ARE THE ONE, and there I found those herbs I needed to craft the anti-madness boluses but had NO idea where to find. Also there were pillars I kept igniting and pillars on the way up the stairs, so when I found them all I got to fight a cool giant reindeer!

Basically the coolest adventure ever that would have missed out on if Patches didn't do his thing bykgjhgfg Because I honestly doubt I'd be able to find that spot on my own.

#gameplay log #thank you patches hfjjjhjj #also i prefer to do the 'let character write themselves' with such games. idk if you remember how i wrote rena #but basically what happens in game all goes into effecfing character (especially effective in first playthrough) #so me and val made a joke that the next time she sees patches she basically- #-kisses him and thanks him for helping her to find exactly what she was looking for #and he'd quickly realize to lie that he did intend THAT and totally not her death in case of being greedy #and probably also ask reward for 'help' jfjgkhjgmnhjjj #thats him ok #lmao this is so fun how many random things can happen xd #it is still hard to put er lore in my brain because it is all full of blorborne #.....bloodborne #i can't fucking fix tags from the phone AAAAAÀAAAAA #but yeah hfkhkhhb #sooner or later.... #damn how does my brain fit more complex universes inside????? #i need a second brain because the first one is too packed with bloodborne like computers hard disk #help #also val if you are reading this - no i am NOT simping for patches #go mind your own business contemplating whether godryck gave himself extra dicks or something arrrgh #( /j and /lh just in case someone doesn't know we bully each other every day hdkjhjjljnh)