#feeling very very fixated rn

[hollywoodsargeant]

I need to know if you've seen the GQ 10 things Logan can't live without video, and your reaction, just for science, so I've linked it below

https:/ /youtu.be/NXKJTIPW7-Q

YES I WATCHED IT AND I ALMOST CRIED (again) had me giggling kicking my feet he’s so fucking cute 🤧🤧🤧 his little smile the whole damn video… i love that man. help

also he’s so stupid his essentials were. Yeah. i mean they all put their helmet up in that but this man fr said he can’t live without THE WOLF OF WALL STREET. why am i not surprised. but respect for a man who loves his lemonade lemonade is good shit. “can we keep the lemonade over…” i love u. stupid bitch. THE VICTORY POSE TOO… i do like that pose. it was a little much at first but the longer i give it the more it grows on me. idk maybe i just like him

and i KNEW he was in a committed relationship with that fucking hair gel. the big ugly sunglasses too… he’s lucky he’s so cute. he pulls it off but he’s an idiot. help

fucking burger sauce. him rapping the eminem song was cute too he was so flustered i am putting him in my pocket and keeping him forever i love him I LOVE. HE.

#ask #feeling very very fixated rn #so much love for logan sargeant #he’s my favorite my darling boy #and this video he is so adorable #i can’t Breathe #i need. He so cute #HE SO CUTE !!! #baby!

[nightcolorz]

I love the implications that come from aging Armand up with the intention of keeping his dynamic with Marius in tvl the same (marius regrets making Armand bcus his existence is a crime against vampire kind/an abomination and warns Lestat to not make the mistake he did) bcus there's literally no reason why Armand's existence would be in anyway a crime now so to keep that regret it goes from "I should've never turned a child into a vampire bcus he's fucked up now" to "I should've never turned a weird fuck up like Armand into a vampire now he's even mooore fucked up" and that's so funny to me 😭😭😭 im sorry armand ily king but the concept that he is just such a weird freak that its genuinely dangerous and abhorrent to turn him is iconic. Lestat musical did this and it kills me every time laughing. VAMPIRE 101!!! NEVER TURN SOMEONE WHO IS UNFIT FOR THE BLOOD FOR EXAMPLE A CHILD OR A STRAIGHT PERSON OR ARMAND OR YOU WILL!!! BE PUT TO DEATH. I am in full support of making vampire rules as vague and dubious as possible and if Armand is key to that bring it on

#Imagine they do this in the show #I would live for it #Marius @ Lestat in the musical: never turn a boy with huge eyes and strange fixations into a vampire he will become insane #I feel like this post is incoherent it's bcus I'm very tired and deranged rn #Lestat musical ilyy #Lestat musical #vampire chronicles #the vampire chronicles #tvc #vc #interview with the vampire #armand #the vampire armand #iwtv #marius de romanus #The vampire Lestat #Tvl

[narzissenkreuz-ordo]

ah. im gonna leave this link here talking abt aventurine's real life 'inspirations' (link is to the leaks sub on reddit but the comment itself is just abt aventurine's background & its connotations from the 2.0 quest only)

of course this isnt something im overly educated about but its really disappointing and upsetting hyv went with this kind of portrayal when their storytelling isn't suited to be exploring real life cultural commentary with their characters & world building

#this really does sour my overall impressions of penacony and for a character that i'm already very attached too #im glad im playing ffxv rn so im not like super fixated on hsr after playing the trailblaze mission #because this does not feel good #im just here to pass on these comments and am in no place to actually talk & educate others on this matter but i can at least pass this on #for people to draw their own conclusions #yappin

[rapidhighway]

Bro I really can't make myself do things I do not have the willpower to even get myself to care. I'm going to sleeb

#i will fail this semester bro...... #cant even do the easy parts canttt do it #-_- #i guess im fixated on one thing rn very hard and i just can't focus on anything else #ouough #i feel really bad but it doesn't motivate me it just makes me upset #and im very tired from constantly being stressed and upset... you might notice a circle here... -_- #whatever I'll just go to sleep ughh..

[more-jon-mess]

charlie day is soo special to me. he's like me if i was a 50 year old man

#sorry guys i tried to hide the new fixation cuz i always feel bad posting about non dgd stuff #but like dgd isn't very active rn or at least i don't have twitter. plus my obsession died a little teeny bit #always sunny #always sunny podcast

[opens-up-4-nobody]

hypothetical struggle between Christianity and paganism in bbc merlin? 👀 one that's very neurodivergent? 👀 do tell

Okay, so Athurian times take place in the early dark ages. Which was probably a weird time for religion in Britain. Because the Roman occupation had just come to an end, leaving behind the structure of catholicism at least with those in positions of power. But religious beliefs were still in the process of blending together with the local practices and other religions, leading to some odd gnostic beliefs. Obviously, bbc merlin doesn't talk about Christianity within Camelot but I think we can assume the catholic church would have a position at the round table. Presumably, Arthur would grow up instructed in catholic belief, go to mass, and have bishops or whatever advising him. He would rule by Devine right, sanctioned by the pope and magic would be characterized as demonic. And that somehow raises the stakes for me, imaging magical merlin within the walls of a very catholic Camelot.

I just have this image of merlin in the back of a cathedral as Arthur attends mass. Kneeling in this beautiful building, head bowed low as the congregation sings praise to a foreign God in a foreign tongue. A God that would apparently have merlin tied to a stake and burned alive. And merlin choking out his empty prayers, echoing in the verbal praise under the isolation of his nonbelief and magical association. Full of fear and venom.

The hypothetical struggle I imagine is one of catholic enforcement pushed by Arthur's religious advisors and Arthur's morality. Because Arthur is a good person and slaughtering a people on the basis religion is insane. So, what does it mean for Arthur if he stops listening to his advisors and starts accepting magic? He has to contend with a spiritual struggle, not just the secular issues presented in the show. And I would looooooove to watch that. The bending of Arthur's beliefs into something more flexible and less rigidly Christian according to the church of the time

#my knowledge on this topic in terms of historical accuracy is blurry so im im wrong: pls for the love of god correct me #but idk if arthur was catholic the entire structure of his idea of the universe would have to change if he started accepting magic #and i think that would be a super interesting transition. where would he land? would he shift to being a more gnostic style Christian? #lose his faith? idk id probably make him like my dad who thinks hell is a human construct and that all are welcom in the kingdom of heaven #and that people should just be kind to eachother. very les mis to love another person is to see the face of god #bc i loooove that idea. i find it fascinating. idk i just think religion is interesting #bc its like how ppl fundamentally understand the universe to work and that is so wild. like i can understand why it was so important in ye #oldy times lol. idk im just a bit fixated on it atm. like its the type of obsession thst feels too big for my head so its straining at the #seams. its also weird bc since its religion my brain is doing that awful thing where its questioning my interest in the topic like r u #questioning ur lack of faith? and im like bro no this is academic interest leave me alone. bc im prone to intrusive thoughts and obsessive #behavior. so thsts fun. but its not too unmanageable rn. so its interesting #idk i probably sound unhinged. lmao i headcanon ✨️ catholic!arthur ✨️ and his fall from grace in the eyes of the church rip #ay religion in not necessarily bad but human institutions are usually fucked #merlin rambling #unrelated

[raccoon-sex-dungeon]

tagged by @1000-geckos-in-a-trenchcoat <3

what are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Hell of a Ride - FIZZ

High in Brighton - FIZZ

I’m Just Ken - Barbie (2023)

BAD BITCH - Tessa Violet

Eat Your Young - Hozier

And I’ll tag @human-leather-hat-appreciator @darkshrimpemotions @vacuously-true & honestly anyone else who wants to bc I love hearing what people are listening to :^)

#i am in SUCH fizz mode rn honestly #and idk what about im just Ken made me fixate on it so hard but i have been SCREAMING that shit in the car every single time i drive #i think it’s partly that it uses the lower end of my range but I can hit everything Ryan gosling does which feels very gender #also it’s just a bop #very much in bop mode this summer #music #tag games #rose.txt

[dappersautismcreature]

I get oh so very nervous O____O very nervous abt government on mc servers, because there is often very little control over players, and even with the qsmps mod team and such, I don't know how much anti-gov characters can play around here. as someone who’s opposed to structural power, and cannot avoid rp-ing as characters opposed to structural power (its the autism) I am oh so very nervous. 

also I hope a lot of the creators read the fine print and become very suspicious of this whole process, since it is closely tied to the federation. 

#I am very bad at change I will admit #hyper fixation please don't make me a control freak over this #O_______O #anywho #I await for peoples reactions #eugh #feeling the bad feelings rn #qsmp #qsmp liveblogging

[cloudsrust]

Currently trying to rewire my current main fixation with one of the lesser ones since I need tame and relaxing thoughts atm,,

It's hard.

#the cloud can speak oh boi #I love PM games but they do stress me out a bit too much- thinking of dropping Limbus C. exactly for that reason #I could still follow someone else's gameplay afterall- I'm still very sad about it;; #but yeah- I'm in a very stressout mindset rn that is really taking a toll on my health #and I'm trying to change everything I can into something more relaxing #obvs cannot change classes and projects so that's unremovable stress alright #so I'm trying to get my brain to fixate again on more chill stuff- like Pokemon and Professor Layton- #or on comfort games like Smile for Me (oh boi how long has it been since I was in that fandom?) or deltarune #...god instead of getting better it just feels like I'm getting worse and worser- this really isnt my year #and I'm so sorry all you all are hearing from me is just rants and complaining;; it's just- rough.

[hollywoodsargeant]

no i don’t think you understand that picture of logan with the f1 bear actually made me shed tears in real life

#not like #omg i’m crying!!! #like #omg i ACTUALLY cried #sat in my bed for 20 minutes so air in lungs #tears in my eyes #crying. #he’s so special to me #little guy #favorite guy #I LOVE HIMMM #feeling very very fixated rn #like. of all the things to be fixated on #it’s his american ass ??? #god #i need water

[neurodivenport]

sometimes i get worried my fixation is gonna go away but then i think about chase and i get so excited and happy i have to wiggle my entire body

#i look insane #also like lab rats is a fun fixation to have #because if i ever feel burnt out with it i just find a new season to fixate on #like i rotate through seasons to keep the fixation fresh #and its very fun #rn its season 3

[scp-113]

I love to love things?? it's so fun just being able to watch/read/play something and then adding it to the collection of things that make me happy. being passionate is fun. being excited about anything and everything is fun. I recommend it.

#i started watching rottmnt and i can feel a fixation overtaking me #being obsessed with different things at once is very nice and keeps my brain occupied #theres so many sources of serotonin for me rn #sonic. acceleracers. lightyear. rainbow high. now rottmnt and bluey. i think I'll tackle mega man next cause why tf not! #talkingdemon

[altruistic-meme]

hi! I totally understand if the answer is no but I’m just curious, do you think you will be continuing “(why is there) joy in this poison”? it’s one of my favorite fics, so I’m just wondering if that’s something you’ve decided to abandon or maybe continue

hi darling! sorry this reply is a few days late but i was on vacation :')

i absolutely DO plan on continuing (wit)jitp!!! i am actually working on both chapter 11 and a bonus chapter for it currently :D i know it's been. *cough* a year. since i've updated it but trust me i have been very very aware of the passing time.

alas, life simply decided to hit me over the head with several various hyperfixations and an additional handful of stressful issues (that i am unfortunately still dealing with some of) that meant that most of the time i just didn't have the energy to write at all and the times i did have energy, i was writing for whichever fandom my brain was actively attached to at that moment, which was simply never aftg.

but yeah! YEAH!! (wit)jitp is definitely getting continued. hopefully soon, but that really depends on a handful of factors so i make no promises. but it IS being worked on actively.

#rip i haven't even posted any writing to ao3 since FEBRUARY WHAT #jeez :( #but YEAH #i'm working on (wit)jitp as well as maybe another aftg fic #and i've got another project PLUS my capri and yr fics so i HAVE done some writing #but i've just not had as much energy or time or brain to write as much as i wish i did #i am however going to do my absolute damndest to finish this fic bc there is SO SO MUCH still to go #and its such a big and important project for me so #aftg and capri are my backup fixations btw bc i can literally just trigger my fixation by rereading them sdkfgskhg #and when i feel my attention leaving whatever had it then i turn to one of these #capri was simply what i turned to last time so it got triggered sooner than aftg #but #ohhhh i've also gotta finish my aftg touch thing.... #i should work on that.... #but yeah again i was on a short vacation which was hella fun and i am literally not gonna be able to talk tomorrow probably skhfkshf #my voice is very soft rn #both my sister and i spoke more over the last 3 days than we had in like. the whole month. #but well thats what two 18hr days in a car together will do to you lmao #sucks bc i have to talk kinda loud at work but my coworkers will be fine #askers #(wit)jitp #anon #shh ac

[princemick]

anyway, uh, hoping I feel uh yk, semi alive/ok by Thursday so I can do the race week stuff

#i honestly dont even feel a sprinkle of enthousiasm for f1 rn #idk why #feels very no more hyperfixation but that wud b weird bc I've never in my life lost a fixation this suddenly #i just idk think its the depressive spiral I'm on #bc nothing not even painting makes me enthousiastic rn #only the sims and thats more bc it makes the timr go by fast #anyway it sucks #i feel shit #haven't been this just #bland like neutral nothing in years n its exausting #i just wanna sleep n play the sims n if that isnt THE biggest show of me not doing okay idk what is #dont feel motivation to dress nice. be nice. be social. make things. feeling nothing #just wanna sleep and waste away time #feels like im 15 again #v fun #my mom went 'oh no we heard that before' when I went down to finally make food and said I'd been playing the sims #n i was like 'its just been two days' n she just looked like .... #anyway yea #I'm fine #ill b fine #I'm on my period i hope n think that's just it

[falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand]

had the best day evers :]] yippieeeeee

#kiwifae says shit #my friend invited me to hang out a some of her friends (i did kinda know a few of them) and it was such a blast i had the actual best time #we ended up playing video games and fucking around for the entire day #it was so funnn!! #i'm a very physical kind of person and i'm really not used to ppl returning it but today i ended up wrestling w one of the kids multiple #times #and sharing a couch w four other ppl while we gamed and by the end me and the guy who was the host were leaning on each other as we played #ik that's like a little thing to fixate on but i'm just really not used to physical contact in a friendship cuz my other two friends who i' #had since forever are so not into touching (or maybe just from me idk) like i feel awkward just patting them on the shoulder #so this was really nice :] #they even had a cat lol #and at the end when i left i swapped numbers w the host and he outright told me that 'he really liked my vibe' and hoped i'd #be able to hang out again sometime :] #and im just v happy rn

[maraschinotopped]

relating to those doodles i posted yesterday, i actually have more vitamin connection doodles that i made like. just before new years. here (inflicts onto you)

#[cherry on top] #i remember getting obsessed w in when it first came out like (checks calender) IN 2020? #jeez. that was a while ago #watched a whole playthrough of the game bc of the fixation (thank you stormsfunnygaming on youtube.com) #personally its not like a goty or anything its got issues #its mainly story issues like plot holes #(also taking a really hard turn in the last act which was .. sort of foreshadowed? but not very well ig it still feels out of left field) #but the artstyle + character designs are cute #and the music goes really fucking hard for no reason (kururi casmir pavlovs bell and 'final boss 1' (according 2 yt) are my favs rn) #most of the ost is up on yt !!! go listen to it #..also i think i should mention that elec-tron (yellow one in bottom right) has a new yorker accent #i dont know /why/ the developers chose to do that but. i approve of their choice #it doesnt detract from the game experience at all. i think it adds onto it actually #im an elec-tron stan. 4 evah ✌️✌️✌️✌️ #fhdsjcghdsjgddz