#executive dysfunction said hello

[psychhound]

reposting homebrew!

hello all! now that things with wotc have Settled i've decided to repost my 5e homebrew as itch exclusives! enough people said they hoped they would go up again that it seemed like it was time to make them available once more. i'll be posting a few homebrew each sunday so keep a look out!

so without further ado ...

autism & adhd mechanics

11 total traits for pcs and npcs to mechanically emphasize their autism and/or adhd. includes disability specific and shared traits, including executive dysfunction, sensory processing disorder, motor issues, rejection sensitive dysphoria, and more! pay what you want! updated since the last time published!

wild magic artificer subclass

includes subclass spells, two brand new artificer infusions, a custom wild magic roll table, and access to magic tattoos!

witch class

a constitution-based half caster class with a brand new way of casting spells to add more strategy and risk to spellcasting. includes nearly 30 curses at levels 3, 10, and 15, including curses specific to your coven. adopt a familiar who grows in power as you do. includes the Enchanter - a coven focused on illusion and utility, the Hedgewitch - a coven focused on heals and buffs, and the Jinx - a coven focused on combat and necromancy. comes with a custom character sheet by bees baldwin. co-created with @beatricexbenedick

#dnd 5e #dnd 5e homebrew #homebrew subclass #homebrew class #HAPPY WITNESS AUTISTIC PEOPLE MONTH #PUTTING HOMEBREW BACK UP #a lot of these are going to be updated since the last drafts and some of the prices discounted #spreading the word much appreciated!! i know people were wanting these back up

[insomniacaesthetic]

Hello! Would you be able to write Severus with an autistic reader?

YES! I’m so glad somebody asked me for this.

Disclaimer: although I am not formally diagnosed, my therapist and I both believe I am somewhere on the spectrum so I hope I can do this prompt justice. But it will mostly be based on my experience. Feel free to tag me in or reblog with your own headcanons with this prompt too pls.

Headcanons of Severus Snape with an autistic partner.

Gender neutral

Enjoy this gif of Snape stimming

Severus would do really well with an autistic partner. Especially since I headcanon that he’s neurodivergent as well.

He loves to hear you talk about your special interest. Whatever it may be, he’ll listen to you discuss it for hours. He’ll even do his own research so he can bring it up with you.

Feeling overstimulated? He’ll wrap you up in his cloak and hold you. His cloak has the most soothing texture that calms you instantly. Severus also naturally smells good without the use overwhelming colognes or fragrances so his hugs are always welcome.

If you take medication, he’d be the one to remind you especially if you had the tendency to forget. He’d do this with water and food. Not in a controlling or overbearing way. He just wants to make sure you’re okay.

Severus is no stranger to fidgeting or stimming so there’s no need to worry about him asking you “what are you doing?” In fact, he quite enjoys when you mess with the buttons on his frock coat.

You got a safety food? Best believe he’s stocking up on that. Perfect for those times you show up in the great hall and there’s nothing there that makes you want to eat. Or those days when the executive dysfunction is high and you can’t see yourself leaving bed for a meal.

If you had small little preferences or had a strict routine in place, he would be sure to memorize these. Prefer a small spoon or smooth fork? Can only drink out of particular cups? He’ll be sure to have those ready for you. If something was apart of your morning routine, he’d help make sure nothing threw it off. If he was buying you clothes, he’d make sure it was a fabric you liked and would cut out any tags if there was any. Considering I HC his love language as acts of service, I think he’d quite enjoy doing these things for you.

“Is this okay?” “is that too loud?” He’d ask in most situations. Knowing that sometimes it’s hard to voice those opinions. If you both were somewhere and someone was making unneeded noise he’d immediately ask them to quiet it down.

If your social battery dies or you can feel a meltdown coming, it only takes one look and Severus will be there at your side to get you out of a situation and help you feel safe.

If you aren’t a fan of physical touch, that’s fine. He’s happy to be there for when you need him.

He would always be very specific about what he meant when speaking so there’s no confusion or misinterpretation of his words/feelings. Expect reassurance from him too that he understood what you were trying to convey and there’s no need to repeat or reword it.

No need to force eye contact, he would tell you it’s not necessary if you’re not comfortable with it.

In terms of less wizarding world stuff, here’s things that bring me comfort to think about / imagine. This part is hella self indulgent I’m sorry

Sev becoming obsessed with your fidget toys and even getting a few of his own. He loves a good tangle and the small dimple pops. They stop him from picking at his nails.

You wearing your noise cancelling headphones around him for the first time and being hella nervous about it and you’re like “is this ok?” And he’s like “why wouldn’t it be?” 😩

Him loving said headphones and getting himself a pair. You catch him wearing them while he’s in his office, working on some potions or grading papers.

Feeling comfortable enough to unmask in front of him.

When doing your vocal stims he doesn’t look at you weird.

Snuggling with him under a weighted blanket

Finally, just him being there for you on those days where you have a breakdown and keep asking “what’s wrong with me?” after a particularly bad meltdown bc of overstimulation or a disruption to your routine or something else, and he’s just there whispering how there’s nothing wrong with you, and you’re perfect just the way you are.

#severus snape #pro snape #professor snape #pro severus snape #snape #severus snape x you #severus snape x reader #harry potter reader insert #snape love #snape fic #snape is hot #snape fanfiction #severus snape headcanon #snape headcanons #professor snape x you #severus snape x y/n #professor snape x reader #snape x reader #snape x you #severus snape hc #severus x reader

[lady-of-endless]

Hello! May I please request a one piece matchup? If you're too busy please feel free to delete! <3

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BASICS

Name: Mochi

Gender: Female (she/her)

Sexual Orientation: Pansexual (any gender match is ok!)

SIGNS AND TYPES

Zodiac: Libra sun, Libra moon, Leo rising

MBTI: INFP

Enngram: 4; the individualist

Alignment: Chaotic good

House: Slytherin

Love Language (Giving): Physical touch, quality time

Love Language (Receiving): Quality time, gift giving

PERSONALITY

Likes: Video games, reading, drawing, writing, crochet, cross stitch, Sanrio, frogs, mushrooms, cows, coffee, sweets, summertime

Dislikes: Chores (executive dysfunction), cold weather, bitter foods, crowded places, overload of sounds (sensory issue)

Personality: I'm a very quiet person, but I'm also very friendly and bubbly. I love making friends even though I have social anxiety around new people. I'm not the most talkative, though I can hold a conversation: I'm a great listener, at least! I love spending time with my loved ones, especially my special person. I try really hard to make people feel welcome and relaxed when they're around me. Despite being quiet, I'm generally quiet communicative. When it comes to negative feelings it does have to be dragged out of me a bit, but otherwise I'm an open book!

I'm very chill most of the time, and can be very laid back. More a follower personality. I can be a bit cavalier as I deal with everything through (often quite dark) humor, but if I ever make someone genuinely uncomfortable I'm good to stop. I do need to be told peoples feelings directly though as I'm not a good judge of others unless I already know them well. Because of this I don't sus out peoples intentions well and see the best even when maybe it's not there. I'm pretty naive and gullible tbh. If you dig my humor, though, I'm really funny.

I'm very mental health aware. I suffer from anxiety and bipolar II, so I can be a lot. That being said, I'm very observant with those I love and very good at dealing with ups and downs in myself and others. I'm very introspective and always in my head for better and worse. I'm always striving to better myself, but tend to doubt myself and give into negative self talk.

I value my found family above all else. There's nothing I wouldn't do for them and I've been told I'm too loyal. I also value accountability, a growth mindset, and ambition.

Im very indoorsy and a bit of a homebody. That being said, I don't mind being spontaneous from time to time or going out if there's something interesting to do.

I have my moments of insecurity for sure but I'm pretty confident most of the time. Like I said, I'm an open book - I'm not shy to talk about anything with someone who asks and is seemingly well-intentioned! I honestly just have a huge interest in how people think and love picking their brains lol. I also love silly theorheticals for this very reason.

I'm a big softie who unsuccessfully pretends to be a tough guy. I've got a major weakness for cute things and wouldn't hurt a fly in reality. Soft candy with a gooey centre fr.

APPEARANCE

Hair: I have shoulder-length very dark brown wavy hair with a side part and grown out fringe. My hair is plain but it's soft!

Eyes: I have beautiful, big chocolate brown eyes with long lashes. They're one of my favourite parts of myself!

Body: I have olive skin, a pear figure, and am overweight. I have about 7 smallish tattoos, and piercings in my lips, ears, and nose.

Style: usually I'm very hobo-chic with all sweats but my preferred style is either full alt or cute pink dresses and bows.

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Tysm for your time! Don't hesitate to message me if you have any questions!

Author's Note: Thank you so much for this request and how detailed and well structured it is! It made my work really enjoyable. As a side note, you seem such a nice person. Hope you'll enjoy it! 🌹

I ship you with...Trafalgar D Water Law!

(lovely gif is not mine, please show appreciation to the OP)

- Your chill and laid-back way of being is what naturally draws him to you. Afterwards, your bubbly side is what keeps him close, all whipped and annoyed.

- He hates to admit that you are exactly what he needed.

- You both seem loyal, mature and ambitious. Once he discovers those traits in you, he decides that he wants you close. An ally, maybe. That's what he sees in you initially.

- A softer demeanor is what Law needs to heal from his past. You being a softie is what will keep him getting better. Is also a side of you that he wants to keep as a secret, not wanting others to try to use it as manipulation.

- Being introspective is a mutual trait so at times, it will be a little complicated for you to figure out and communicate what's happening between you two.

- He's the first to notice that you're feeling anxious. Maybe because he's a doctor or maybe because he worries for you, who knows? (Hint: It's both.)

- The innocent gullibility you mentioned is something that triggers Law to take care of you. And also to tease you, good luck.

- Soft hair? Lay next to him as he's studying and let him run his fingers through your hair while he's reading.

- A cute scenario? You two would have late night convos about tattoos and piercings. Both being half asleep, talking about what other tattoos or piercings you want/consider cool.

- About your style, I think you two would make a great power couple when you go for the alternative aesthetic. If you go for the cute pink aesthetic, there's something about it that makes him whipped.

#one piece #law trafalgar #trafalgar d water law #trafalgar law one piece #one piece matchups #one piece matchup #one piece x you #one piece x reader #law one piece #one piece trafalgar law #trafalgar law #trafalgar law x reader #trafalgar law x y/n #one piece requests

[hom3landr]

How long until another bakerverse? Do you have any other Homelander fic recommends? 😅

Hello! 💖 I’m sorry for the long wait for a reply. I promise I’m never ignoring anyone. I just forget to check my inbox sometimes. 😅

I’m gonna be real honest, it’s pretty hard to predict when I am able to get things out. I have some stuff going in my personal life that takes a lot of mental energy. I also frequently have to battle executive dysfunction even for things I want to do like write. I promise I’m not giving up on requests or bakerverse and I’m honored that people have given my fics the love they have.

That being said, there are some incredible writers in this fandom that I highly recommend.

@blindmagdalena - The reason I started writing. So many amazing fics and PEAK Homelander characterization.

@sehtoast - I’m in love with his OC Ben and his reader fics are perfection.

@theonlymanintheskyisme - Gives me heart palpitations fr. SO HOT.

@irenadel - Pygmalion has me giggling and kicking my feet with every chapter.

And so many others.

Also this has made me realize that I should make a fic rec tag.

#anon once again I am SO sorry it took me so long to answer #😭😭😭 #sweet anon

[androcola]

Hello once again! I might not talk to you much this week due to a sewing project I’m working on. But I saw the ask of Micky’s ADHD, and I wanted to know if he has shut downs(I’m asking for some art that I will be making), because sometimes i experience them. I know you have said that Micky stims almost all the time, and that he’s not very aggressive, so I wanted to know if he ever experienced a shutdown or a breakdown

I think he definitely experiences crazy executive dysfunction and even the occasional shut down where all energy has just left him. During these times he definitely acts a lot different. Low energy, quiet, and just generally tired, and even though it's not good for him, it's one of the times mike can actually hang with him without getting overwhelmed, himself. But at the same time he gets really stressed over it because he knows Micky isn't a quiet or low energy guy, and even though he's not very good at helping to make it better, he sticks by micky very closely during these times and tries to do things to help him feel better

Micky is a very easy to cheer up guy, fortunately,and he always feels better just knowing that mikes there for him 😁

#asks #davidjoneslockeer #mikes not very good at cheering people up so he takes what hes learmed from micky when hes tried to help him

[sad-leon]

Hello! I hope you're having a good day!

So many people in my life seem to be going through something right now, and I just wanted to give you an opportunity to share anything you might be going through. Good or bad, as specific or as vague as you're comfortable with. Or feel free to ignore if you'd rather not. No pressure at all!

I hope things are going well for you! But if not, I'll be sending prayers your way if you're comfortable with that!

I am... not.

and i haven't for a long time

I'll preface this entire post with a warning: THIS IS A VENT POST the only tags will be trigger warnings

I thinks i've said it once or twice, but I started school this year. This is my first year in college after taking a gap year and also telling everyon i wasnt gonna go. I know jack shit about what im doing and its fucking exhausting. Theres so many things that i feel like I should know but dont because all the college information given out in my highschool was geared toward the college in that town specifically, which is not the college im going to.

I've also moved. im entirely on my own, physically and financially. I just met with my job and am starting very soon which is not good because my sleep schedule is all wrong. I may be switching jobs soon, but i can't just quit becuase, like i said, im on my own.

and those are only the big two. lets speedrun this. my anxiety, my autism, i need new glasses, my feet hurt more than i think they should, im a system, my eating disorder, my aversions that make it hard to drink the water up here, the burnout, the exhaustion, executive dysfunction, i also likely have adhd which mean rsd. im touch starved and touch adverse

those are just what i can think of off the top of my head

but all of this had been leading to what might be a pretty nasty breakdown and soon.

im so fucking tired all the time and that makes it hard to draw, but thats one of my only ways to relax. i like playing mc, but i get bored easily and also i cant sit at my desk for long becuase it feels like my head is too heavy for my neck. it hurts. everything hurts and my job doesnt help me at fucking all.

i was able to draw tsob while dealing with most of my issues becuase all i had to worry about was work. looking at my current schedule, i can find the free time. the issue is using that freetime to draw and not just sleep or dissociate. finding home is very dear to me, but drawing it the way i am can be exhausting and i dont want to start hating it, so i just.. dont draw it most days

i stress constantly about how i appear on my blog becuase i want so badly to do this right. i want to be good at something, like, as a person, not just as an artist. but i hate myself too much to believe in any progress i make.

i know its the rsd mostly but i see groups and i feel gross. its not as bed now (any of you beans that have made it this far, ily /p) becuase i found a community i can actually interact with, but it still comes up, especially because i've moved away from all my irl friends and its so fucking hard for me to make them in the first place. like.. actual friends, not just people i can work with at school

if i keep going i'll probably talk myself in circles, so ill stop it here. theres a lot more but im not going to ramble about my suicidal, intrusive, or sh thoughts on this blog. this is a post to inform you guys of the state of mind im in. im lonely and sad and its all building up to a massive breakdown.

im not going to be leaving tumblr or giving up on my comic, but i probalby wont update as often as i did tsob. i just dont have the energy.

i also will probably post some of my traditional art cuz i gotta fill up a sketchbook for my animation class, so that also takes away from the time i use to draw digitally.

im so tired

#vent post #tw vent #long post #tw exhaustion #tw burnout

[adhd-attention-deficit-dumbass]

Is it a sign of adhd if i want to do something but my mind would be like that would be exhausting even if it is something simple like a 3 step skincare and won't let me do it?

Hello friend👋🏻 thank you for you question!

My ’official’ answer to this is that I cannot determine if any singular behavior is a sign of ADHD because ADHD is a complex collection of symptoms which has a severe negative impact on a person’s life. It’s important to remember that it is the collective experience and severity of the symtoms which determines whether it is ADHD or not.

With that said, to me it sounds like you’re describing a situation where you have difficulty starting a task, even a seemingly small one. This can be a sign of executive dysfunction, which is a common occurence in people with ADHD.

However, the most important thing isn’t to determine whether or not what you’re experiencing is a cause of ADHD. The most important thing to consider is how much this is affecting your life in a negative way. If you are experiencing any form of chronic behavior issues that severly affects you in a negative way on a daily basis you should definetly seek treatment regadless if it’s related to ADHD or not.

I hope this answer was satisfactory andhelpful and I wish you good luck 🌼💛

[kakushigotofanclub]

Hello hello! I am a English major and classical pianist who really likes Demon Slayer! Main blog is @ras-at-shadow-dojo

My name is Clementine, I’m 19, and my pronouns are she/her.

I am, like I said, a English major, so I am mainly here to write fanfic when I need a break from my original creative writing projects. Here are some of the fics I've written (A ■ next to the title indicates particularly heavy and potentially triggering subject matter):

Talk to Me - Post-canon Zenitsu/Nezuko but not particularly very shippy; about childhood trauma and parenting

Unstuck - Giyuu & Shinobu; about executive dysfunction and loneliness

Picking Up the Pieces [incomplete] ■ - Post-canon Sanemi & Senjuro; about grief, forgiveness, and found family

I really really really appreciate feedback. It would mean the world to me if you could take the time to leave me a comment; it absolutely makes my day and motivates me to work on my other projects (I have a few I'm really excited to share with you once they're ready!)

[guiltygearconfessions]

Faust is my favorite character of all time, I think about him every day and this whole essay isn't even the tip of the iceberg of how much he means to me.

[Warnings: ABSURDLY long text, mentions of suicide, mentions of antidepressants]

My goodness fucking gracious, I absolutely adore this guy. I don't care if he isn't real, he's so damn gorgeous and I would kiss him every day, every night and anytime.

I feel like those weeb guys with their anime girlfriends, but honestly? I don't care anymore. I want to hug him and cuddle with him, give him a box of the best donuts I can afford, listen to anything he has to say, tell him how important he's to me, take him to therapy and why not, marry him.

This weird and chaotic doctor saved my life. This is not a joke, this is not an hyperbole: I have this... executive dysfunction and DPDR disorder. I struggle to do what I want to and instead I just sit there, reading or doing small things because my mental health... isn't the best (I get to almost evey place really late because I can't even move)... but this man, yes, the bald guy from the met fighting game truly is helping me overcome this problem. I even reduced my antidepressant dose - which I've been on for almost two years.

I also have identity issues, a complicated relationship with my past self, an "I NEED to help people" mentality and tried to end my life many times (reminder: he almost committed suicide in Missing Link). Can you imagine how I reacted to the Another Story ending? I. Cried. Three. Times.

The moment I saw that official art from the Skullgirls gallery (indeed, I'm the same guy, hello) I said, internally: "Wow! I really like his design. Where is he from, though?" Then I forgot about it for a while until I... don't remember, I won't lie. However, I hyperfixated to a concerning extent with him and now... here I am, listening to his soundtracks, doodling him, collecting paper bags (I already did that before knowing about his existence, though), having almost 600 fanarts in my phone, planning to cosplay him in January for a convention, sewing a mini Faust plushie and... writing this.

So... we can summarize this by saying fifteen words: I love him so much, his story saved my life and he really deserves best.

Live your truth, people.

- A (signing this just because it's funny :])

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#tw suicide #that's really lovely anon! #confessions #faust #guilty gear

[sweetdreamspootypie]

I am finally encountering social situations where I have to work out how to address misgendering and now finally relate to the Grumpy People of Tumblr Discourse Past

In that... what 'adult sounding' terms can I even point to to use in casual conversation as a nonbinary person?

Enby is the default suggestion which I guess I could try

But my problem is compounded by the fact that I don't actually have any terms that I already use

Whenever I say anything self referential, it is exclusively always in the context of telling someone (or myself) that I beat the executive dysfunction ('i did a thing' millennial style)

So my existing terms of self reference are just

Good noodle (who did the thing)

Very Helpful Engine (what my mother says when I do the thing, and is a reference to Thomas the Tank Engine)

Or, very rarely, just

A Bean

And while cutesyness works for internal processing, it doesn't really cohere to the desired public facing quasi-butchness I'm going for

I have not actually said anything since the first instance bc

Them: "very impressive furniture shifting and renting and driving a truck all by yourself! What a woman!"

And my instinctual response was just to blurt out the correction "bean!" and skitter off...

[side note: it was interesting that the dad also used the same instance of furniture moving demonstration of physical prowess go emphasize and affirm the son's masculinity - directly in reference to the dad's masculinity "that's my son", in the same moment as the mother saw it as female empowerment for me... Almost as if the boost in the sense of self efficacy and self concept and achievement that comes from a satisfying hard task is a gender neutral experience... But we just experience it as gendered bc our self concept includes gender...and it is also projected upon us by others who see us as extensions of themselves]

Anyway I need to find a work around for this bc I am historically a praise starved bitch (the other self referential term which also doesn't work) and finally have a mother figure trying to say nice things but the shots go wide lol

Might just have to lean in and reclaim dyke

Hello yes please exclusively refer to me as the excellent lesbian sleeping with your son

#My posts #My life #Dunno how it is this long of a post #Gender neutral terms #nonbinary #trans stuff #gender stuff #gender #The workaround used with the boy sadly will not work #The parents calling me k*tten would miss the mark twice as wide in the other direction #Might have to go with something else. #Tribble #The trouble with tribbles is that they require gluten free cooking and are insufficiently familiar with the bus timetable #I can't remember if they are sufficiently star trek people for the reference to work #.............. To be fair. An affectionate nickname that is a plurality might help with getting people to they/them #Like. Gender neutral and plural. Got you coming and going. #Please understand me as A Multitude #The Swarm #The nonhuman entity #The fae which haunts and burrows under the house #That takes the illusion of human form to reach the cocoa powder on the top shelf and cuddle the boy #The Forest Moss #Plz #I am manifestation of Concepts #With a pink hair and a craving for chocolate #And cosy cosy beds #I have a low grade fever and am mildly vague but I'm right

[missnobodymadness]

Hello 🩷 how about 3, 20, and 11 for the oc ask game? I hope you're having a good day or night! (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

Hiii!

Thank you so much for the asks and the wishes, it means a lot to me and I hope you are also having an amazing day/night. ♥

Alright, getting to it now!

"3. Share your favorite art of your OCs that you made in 2023!"

Unfortunately I haven't done any art other than bases and screenshot edits this year, doing art from scratch has a very negative effect on my mental health (because I dislike everything I do, no matter the improvement and realized that every time I did some original art my mental health would decline a lot) so I avoid doing it, either way, I am not too good at it anyway. ^^'

However, I could maybe show my favorite edit? I don't really post them here as I am always afraid of being accused of tracing (which would not be a lie but I don't think people understand the difference between editing a screenshot from an anime and tracing fan art..) but yeah, here is my favorite edit I did this year:

A 5 years old Myline being saved by Konan. ♥ I wish I could find the motivation to edit more but my executive dysfunction and depression won't let me. >.<

"11. Which one of your OCs received the most fan art (or commissioned/traded art) in 2023?"

Now, this came as a very big surprise to me...if I had to tell my memory I'd say maybe Sahamara or Evelyn BUUUUUUUUT, I just counted and found out it was actually Mybuza!!! How??? I don't know, I guess people enjoy their hair or something? Most were freebies from Toy House, I don't tend to get lucky at these so I guess Mybuza somehow was able to catch some attention, I should probably offer them more often. xD

"30. What was your favorite OC related memory of 2023?"

The first time my AOT OC, Evelyn, was noticed around here by a fellow AOT OC creator! I've always had that need for belonging and tend to always feel like an outcast so seeing my character of said fandom being noticed was such a special feeling and memory for me, you have no idea for how long I had been trying to find a community of AOT OCs to join, Tumblr was my best option so far, it is really hard to fit in when you are not an artist yourself though.

#ask game #asks #oc #oc stuff #mylinenarutooc #mybuzanarutooc #evelynaotoc

[hauntingcryptids]

[Image Reads]

Anonymous said - Hello how are you? I would like to please request a dhawan!master x reader request where the Master has to go and do something dangerous but he doesn’t want you going with them, they need to make it so you stay in the TARDIS. (Maybe the Master has tried to hypnotise the reader and the reader has said something like “I know what you’ll do if I look into your eyes.”) Maybe he could trick the reader into being hypnotised or use another method to keep the reader safe. Have a great night/day. P.s If you’re not comfortable then I understand.

(The image above is my copy of the request because I accidentally posted it too early and deleted it.)

Hello! Thank you for requesting, anon! I am finally getting this fic posted! I have had it finished for a bit now, but I had multiple anxiety attacks through the editing process on top of everyday executive dysfunction. So, I am really sorry that this took so long to post, but I hope that you enjoy this fic.

I will post this fic on Friday and link it below once it is posted.

Safety Over Teamwork - Dhawan!Master x Reader - Saturday, 22 July 2023

Thank you :)

- Ghost

#ghost's posts #fanfiction #my writing #x reader #doctor who x reader #doctor who #the master x reader #the master #anon #dhawan!master x reader #dhawan!master

[roleplay-abiogenesis2]

[Sensitive] Let's Talk RP and Mental Illness

//Hello hello, Saru-mun here to post a lil disclaimer that I felt to be due on my blog for quite some time now.

Let me preface all this by saying that yours truly has past and present long-lived experiences with mental illness, as someone affected directly by it and even indirectly when co-existing with others affected by it. Nothing in this post comes from a place of ignorance, intolerance, or even indifference to it.

I've always been a reserved person when it comes to my personal mental health. Oversharing and "trauma-dumping" have put a stigma on being overly open about these things, and I for one loathe the idea of being labeled as the person "playing the victim card". That said, I'm happy to find that this personal choice of mine does not reflect in my writing and roleplay. I like to write on these topics and explore their intricate and deep thematics like most other people here.

With THAT said as well however, I am also someone who puts a priority on realism before all else.

We live in a very lucky time for mental health awareness. Psychology studies have made leaps and bounds and uncovered, identified and explained many aspects of mental illness that I still remember being completely misunderstood and unheard of when I was a child. I think it is great and am thankful for this progress.

This however is due to the world we live in and the many advancements research has made over the years. This is a factor that I am never unaware of and that I am unwilling to cheapen by pretending it's to be given for granted.

What does it mean exactly? It means that when writing in settings that do not match our present-day progress, I will keep that in mind and have my muses match the emotional intelligence and knowledge that I would expect to be average in the world and universe they live in.

You probably should not expect Cyno the desert-dweller with a degree in elemental studies to know much about things like autism, PTSD, identity disorders or depression. The world he belongs to simply does not reflect that degree of awareness towards these conditions and as such, characters that belong in it should not be expected to understand them like we do in real life.

What should you expect? Ignorance and the mistakes born from it. Expect him to think your muse with executive dysfunction is lazy. To point out smell and filth if they are not able to keep up with their hygiene. Expect him to be confused by things like panic attacks, or to not understand one's deep-rooted anxieties.

In fact, Cyno himself has some degree of mental health problems that he is completely unaware of. And I've made him this way on purpose, because I remember the way I behaved about my own mental illness when I lived in a time where it was poorly understood. I downplayed it to personal flaws of mine that I should overcome.

You should expect this from any of my muses who live in a universe that is not as advanced as our real lifetime. My Mystic Messenger characters for example are more likely to be aware of these issues compared to, say, my Japanese feudal era demon lord character.

Why have I decided to go this route? Because I think mental health is important, and so is its history. I do not like the idea of pretending that the problems surrounding it and our understanding of mental illness never existed. These are stories that truly happened, and I want my readers to remember this, because it is by its mistakes that humankind has learned to be better. I want the ignorance of my muses to be a lesson, and a warning.

With that out of the way, I am making this post because the last thing I want is to make you uncomfortable. If you think something like a negative or indifferent reaction to your muse's mental illness might be something too insensitive for you to handle, then please, please please refrain from bringing these topics to the table with my muses.

You can talk to me OOCly if you're unsure how my muses would respond to these topics as well. I don't like breaking character (or what I perceive to be in-character for my muse anyway), but I am open to discussion and compromise on the language used in my responses if it will help you be comfortable with my portrayal more. A solution can almost always be found.

This turned stupid long already, so I'll be back to draft mountain now. You be good and stay off my soda.

Saru-mun\\

#00a || saru-mun is still alive! [ooc] #cw: mental illness mention

[crownedrottenthorns]

Rambles

It truly is just disheartening how our mental health app has become so unsafe for us as a system. Our host is still on it and uses it, but a lot of us alters just...don't feel safe. It's quite sad since it was Angel's first time using our shared account and it was one of their agere posts that caused some issues. All we wanted was to feel safe due to the few rough months we have had between issues with our medication, our body, family issues, just a bit of everything, as well as seasonal depression we all get. We aren't quite comfortable existing as a system on other spaces so I guess this shall have to do.

We don't particularly care about interacting with others, but we do tend to care deeply for our mutuals. So hopefully we make meet and befriend some lovely mutuals.

And because I feel as though this needs to be said: Even if us fictives are active to our sources, we are not a 1:1 of the characters in it. We exist to aid the system and help us all cope with the issues that we have and a lot of our fictives are trauma holders or symptom holders. We are not here to be "real versions" of characters, but formed for some reason to help our system. Even if we are quite close to our source characters, we are still different in some or many ways. We don't want to engage in fandoms much anyway aside from fanart and fanfiction as our system and host has not had good experiences in fandoms and does not desire to be an active part of any fan community. :)

Most of all, I just truly hope our system can find a safe space for ourselves here. We quite isolated and are trying to cope with a lot of stuff. Most of all, we just want a space where we can ramble and rant. We may be active infrequently as we have a lot of "bad" days as well as low energy days.

Oh well. I suppose that's all unless I wish for this to turn into quite the long little ramble.

Ah I should introduce myself. Hello! I am Alastor though I usually go by Ally and sign off as -Ally-. I am a holder for NPD, ASPD, and SZPD traits. I'm certainly one of the most active for the system and quite close to host and Husker in our system. As well as close and fatherly to our system's Niffty. I suppose I sort of act as a "co-host" for the system. My pronouns are mostly he/him, but I may use they/it as well. I also help host with physically taking care of our body as executive dysfunction and fatigue can get to them a lot.

Our system is a bit...complicated, I suppose. We don't fully understand it ourselves especially since we have known we were a system for about a year now and most of that time was spent for host to simply come to terms with the trauma they were allowed to know. A lot of the time us alters have to keep information from host so a lot of us that front often do not have much information. It's a...confusing experience. We deal with a lot and each of us can be...rather different since we embody and hold very different things. I mostly focus on spending time with my dearest friend, our host. It's distressing to dwell on how our system functions especially for host.

I don't particularly know if I have anything more to say for this post. So just a hello and nice to meet you! Aside from our rambles, we may reblog stuff that host feels too anxious to reblog on their own blog. I can't wait to see what becomes of our new space here. :)

-Ally-

#system rambles #alastor fictive #system #rambles #system stuff

[kexing]

Hi, MJ, just saw your notes about being neurodivergent and mental health and trying, and i just wanted to add to that. I’m not autistic but I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety since i was a teen and only just recently found out, in my early 40s, that what i thought my whole adult life was just me being LAZY and UNMOTIVATED and GENERALLY BAD AT ADULTING is probably me having executive dysfunction. I mean, i’m still a procrastinator at heart, but when i can’t bring myself to do THE THING even though i know i HAVE TO DO THE THING and every moment i spend NOT DOING THE THING fills me with anxiety? That’s my brain fucking me over.

I’m a public servant and my department has been very big on mental health since COVID and mandatory telework. But the message is always the same : you gotta eat well, sleep well and exercise. Like it’s that easy, like self-care doesn’t take a huge amount of effort when your brain doesn’t want to cooperate. Doing anything is hard for me because i have zero motivation and i can’t relate at all to things like Being Disciplined and Feeling Accomplished. Even things i enjoy! I’m behind on series i want to watch because i just can’t bring myself to press play and sit there and watch. So i rewatch the same series over and over again.

So my self-care is doing my best and trying not to compare myself to others. I get my work done on time (even if sometimes i have to get up earlier because i wasn’t productive the day before), i shower at least twice a week, i eat a vegetable a day. I pay my bills and my taxes. I vote. I’m not a danger to myself and/or to others. I’m alive. I’m alive. So if it takes me a week to unload the dishwasher and to load it up again with the week’s worth of dirty dishes, if i never fold my laundry, if i buy soup instead of cooking for myself, who the fuck cares?

Neurotypicals don’t get it, they don’t understand why we can’t just DO THE THING (like my dad, who loves me very much, but does not understand why i can’t just ‘cheer myself up’ when i ‘feel sad’). They don’t understand that in order to implement the tools (clean eating! sleep! exercise!) that might help us cope we need to have the motivation and the energy and the resources (therapy is fucking expensive!) to even try to make the effort. ‘It’s not that hard’ YES IT FUCKING IS.

So i just wanted to say, i see you, i understand your struggles, they are valid and so are you. I hope the people around you appreciate you and your efforts. I hope YOU appreciate you. Because you rock. Sending you lots of love. 💖

hello friend!!! i feel you. i suffer of severe executive dysfunction and honestly it just keeps getting worse which consequently makes me even more anxious 😩😩

exactly!!! eating well, sleeping well and exercising can definitely help you improve but when your brain simply refuses to do those tasks, it’s hell. and honestly, people who don’t live in a constant fight against their own brains have NO idea how it is. only the ones who know the struggle know what it takes to do the most basic things.

beloved :( i understand your struggles. i know i’m just a stranger running a silly little blog on tumblr dot com but i really do understand. i can motivate myself with fiction sometimes but real life? it’s just not for me and some days i feel so lost and yet so overwhelmed by how lost i feel, that it sends me into deep depressive episodes. i mean, i’m not clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety but fuck if i haven’t struggled with those bitches my entire life.

(i have been thinking of getting a diagnosis and i thought about asking my dad for some financial help and you know what my mom said to me, “don’t even bother, he thinks you’re faking it”. i mean, not surprised at all but still a little disappointed.)

and you’re doing great!!! read this very carefully: YOU ARE DOING FUCKING AWESOME!!! you’re taking care of yourself and doing things at your own pace and you’re alive and not harming others. that’s just so so so much!!! and i’m proud of you for moving forward despite all the hardships!!!!

oh parents. they might love us but they rarely understand us. and that’s okay i guess. but don’t let that get to you. only YOU know what your brain can and can’t do. it is also NOT your fault that you have limitations, okay?? everyone does!!! we just happen to have more. but you’re not unlovable or a terrible person!!

you’re soooo right!! therapy and diagnoses are ridiculously expensive. at the end of the day, we’re usually alone carrying this massive invisible weight. and nobody can see how hard we try and how much it takes from us!!! sometimes being alive hurts and staying alive is the best we can do but we are still here!! despite everything that nobody gives us credit for. we are still here!!! i still need to work on my self love and acceptance but i don’t take it lightly how much i try to do things and i do appreciate the fact that i’m alive.

thank you SO much for reading my tags, for reaching out and sharing your experiences with me. you are incredible and i wholeheartedly mean this!

i tend to feel very lonely because most people around me don’t really understand me. it’s such an alienating feeling, sometimes it’s like i’m drowning in it. but i also know i’m not the only one who feels like this and your message does comfort me in that way.

so thank you SOOOOO much!!!! sending you lots and lots and lots of love right back!!!! and that you’re able to feel it across the distance between us and have a great week!!!!! ❤️💙

#also thank you for caring 🥺 #means so much to me #i’ll probably reread this for comfort every week #you’re so nice #bless you ❤️💙 #anonymous #mj got mail!

[chaotic-archaeologist]

Hello friend and wise advice-giver. Do you have any tips for how to force yourself to do school work (mainly reading far too many books) when your dysfunctioning executives are kicking your ass?

I do really enjoy learning but... brain said No Thanks.

I would really love to Not have to force it but honestly I really have no choice right now :(

ty :3 (and ty for all your other advice as well)

First, I'll direct you to two of my recent posts that you may find helpful: How I Organize Things and Rest is Work. You might also try using the pomodoro technique for time management, that's been really helpful for me.

I wish I could give you some life hack that would suddenly make studying easy, but what works for my brain may not necessarily work for yours.

I think that the best advice I can give you is to ask yourself: why does my brain not want to work right now? Do you have a mountain of work and it's too daunting to even find a place to start? Have you been fulfilling basic needs like sleeping and eating? Are you dealing with non-school related stress? Your brain has a reason for not wanting to cooperate, and it's not that you're lazy. Dealing with those underlying causes can help you get back on track and stay that way in the future.

-Reid

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