#ended so its like the gap wasnt even that huge

[danvillecheese]

looks like SOMEBODY doesnt know about milo murphy's law

#phineas and ferb #candace against the universe #this is the thing right like yea catu happened but pnf never really left? like as soon as it was revealed in mml it was set in danville #it was like oh okay we're in the same universe so we're gonna see characters from pnf. and mml premiered like just over a year after pnf #ended so its like the gap wasnt even that huge #especially when you consider that there were probably bigger gaps between the pnf seasons themselves (not fact checked btw) #im just saying like there have been pretty big gaps between pnf episodes airing and especially toward the end when they were winding down #back to my main point though like people who havent deep dived into the dwampyverse have no clue. genuinely #like mml happened almost instantly. it was being made the same year pnf ended. it never needed a revival bc it never truly died in the #first place LIKEEEEEE #do you see what i mean #anyways #im very normal about this. i should actually write that analysis lol

[basslinegrave]

i was being a completely sane person today (/s) and was creating a timeline tree for snm would anyone even be interested in that. and collecting my shipping thoughts (or specifics about them being a couple etc). know that i still consider my knowledge of the franchise as poor. its just tidying it up in my head so when i talk about something i can pinpoint a specific thing (i was too deep in fnaf theorizing so now i have to suffer thru a franchise that doesnt even have a canon)

in short/tldr the comics are the base that happened in every possible timeline and everything else is derived from that, happening after, except the cartoon, which shows some events the same way so that would be more intertwined; not everything is connected/within one timeline. and the cartoon is my most fav and where i see them as a true couple.

long rant ahead

on one hand i really like the time travel theory where its like comics -> ttg -> cartoon etc by them travelling back in time for that, however there are many holes especially thinking about their families and stuff so

i like the idea of things branching off. one branch is comics - htr - cartoon, as something more intertwined

second is comics -> ttg -> poker night 2 (since it references ttg events) (idk bout 1 i havent played/seen that)

third would be comics -> ttiv (or comics -> htr -> ttiv, i have no idea atm if bosco's is mentioned in the comics but it is in htr and mentioned in ttiv. ttiv is also set in the year it came out, so theres a huge gap inbetween ttiv and htr but i wouldnt say its where the ttg games happened!)

and i dont mean this in like a multiverse way, since the creator seems to dislike that, its simply just a very loose canon that differs with each installment (simply due to different people working on these imo. nothing too deep imo)

but the juicy part!! i even made brackets that im too lazy to remake digitally so i will just write it out for each bigger installment. im excluding poker night 1 as i havent played it nor watched much gameplay

M = married, BF = best friends (in all technically)

comics: M - unlikely; BF - yes absolutely

htr: M - possible; BF - yes

cartoons: M - i take it as canon here. BF - yes million percent

ttg all seasons: M - no; BF - yes.

poker night 2: M - not sure, implied dating, i take that as good enough; BF - yes

ttiv: M - absolutely not. not a couple at all. BF - they seem too tense, yes, but from my experience playing, their interactions were imo the worst in all of their media, so i wasnt buying it at some points

note - ttiv has to be like the straightest they ever were and i also see it in S.P.'s more recent work. im looking too deep into that, perhaps, but im just thinking were never gonna get anything similar to what we got from back in the 90s again, if theres any future projects

people are also saying they got married like 4 times and its making me a bit confused here. do people mean cartoon, htr dress up card, cake topper and tdph ring scene or am i missing something big?? because to me that is married once, other ones being just for jokes (first one as well but its less vague), and in the ttg games its so extremely vague i cant count that (being realistic here) that said its still fun to joke about them getting married several times, but in this case wouldnt it be more of a marriage per timeline?

and to end this, a personal tierlist

my most fave obviously is the cartoon. not only is it the easiest to work with for me, with the fast pacing and short watch time (but ofc i wish it was longer) i absolutely love how their relationship is depicted there, even if a lot of stuff there is just jokes, but if everything is a joke then its also fine to take everything as canon within this media, to me! like when haters say that people only take the wedding scene out of the intro and ignore the rest - as if the other stuff couldnt happen (isnt one of the shots them fighting a giant octopus, which they end up having an episode about too. like cmon. anything goes here) even if it was contained within this specific part of the franchise, im ok with calling them a couple here. and its S tier overall

another S tier is the comics. nothing else to say

HTR is like A tier to me, only taking off points because its soooo sloooowwww and playing it after watching the series took 3 years off my life immediately. otherwise gud game.

ttg is like A to B tier for me, because of some specifics and preferences but thats just me being nitpicky so, the games overall are good. A- it is. thats all

poker night 2 is fun, i watch the gameplay a lot lately when im too tired at midnight to do anything else, A tier

ttiv. oh how mixed i am about you. gameplay by itself and my first experience with the game - S tier. it made me so giddy more than one time and i kept wanting to come back until i finished the game fully. i dont mind the bugs, its just what i expect in VR games and even tho it made me a bit frustrated at times it wasnt all that bad. its also the only vr game i played for over an hour once and didnt get motion sick - the exception was the level at the store which seemed too bright and actually made me nauseous. which is a feeling that somehow comes back whenever i think about this game. what i dislike was the dialogue, while most of it was fun and fine, i had moments where i just burst out laughing, they (or max especially) were way too mean towards the player. i know its a joke and you could chalk it up to max being unhappy with us/jealous, but it got like, generally unpleasant very quickly. with stuff like good throw - "nice!" bad throw - *neverending insults* and the second was how painfully straight it was and like. the vibes i got from them two was like, oh theyre fed up with each other and my shipping self was just left quite disappointed. i did not get all lines during my gameplay which made it great but upon going thru every line manually after, i was just more and more uncomfortable with what they said in their banter. this drops the game to like C for me? maybe B if i squint. being generous. i also got sick of their talking animations over time... the models are fine just got to be too much. bonus points for max ragdoll physics tho. coming up with a conclusion that this is a completely separate timeline and has nothing to do with anything other than the comics and perhaps HTR. i talked so long about this one cause its the one thing that prompted all of this lol.

but its not that serious! i just knew this franchise for ages as "oh its the two animal guys that are married and its funny" and now that i got into it fully, i see a lot of the shippers are obviously daydreaming and taking things out of context - which is fun, i agree!! i also do that. but it just painted a completely different picture for me. so no. theyre not married, theyre not a couple, except for the cartoon, where its implied, which stays on top for me. but in ttg at least, they love each other, its not as romantic, but i can ship them there (so i ship them in the context of the cartoon and ttg basically)

anyway. nothing is canon for them, everything is canon for them, and everything they say or do is a joke so. its not that deep at all. they gay tho

#insane ramblings #i will tag this #sam and max #for the 2 people that will read this 🫶 #thoughts are being thunk #long post #i just went on an unplanned rant here #i was home alone today and spent most of my day thinking about ttiv and how much i hate it and love it and hate it #one could even say its textbook queerbait but since its a separate game i cannot say it #but going from showing them getting married to 20 years later sam dating random women its like. uhh idont like that #obviously #i hc him as bi or pan so its fine its just so lame. like who are they? you know. random off screen characters that mean nothing to me #and max being jealous of the player being there but allowing sam to date is so lol. i havent found the line about the other woman yet #but ive had the lines open for way too many times and i dread going through them further. but i might bite the bullet i just want context #wonder if one of them is that one afghan hound (?) from that one valentines art #when the characters get ooc in official media /j

[oscpaistry]

Hey guys! This is a story about Virgil van Dijk! This is my first time writing ON Tumblr. I also post on Wattpad! Thank you already for clicking on this! English is not my first language btw!🤭😨

Warning!! Filthy Smut, Size-Kink, Virgil x femreader, Begging and Daddy kink

"Please"

As you were cleaning the house you heard Virgil coming home. He was home earlier then other days but thought practice got cancelled or something. "Shoes off Virgil!" You just mopped the floor. You shout through the house. He didnt respond. You went downstairs and see dirty footsteps on the floor. "Godverdomme Virgil!" (God damnit) you shout. You follow the dirty steps and see your husband on the couch with his face buried in the cushions. You stand at the foot end of the couch. "Van Dijk!" You say. Virgil turns his head around and says "Whats wrong Y/n?" "Whats wrong? I said to take off your shoes, i just cleaned the house. Not even 20 minutes ago i mopped the fucking floor! Then you come home and ruin the perfectly clean floor!!" You're mad now. But as you look at Virgil you see his face with a grin on it. He likes to see that your angry. But now you weren't in the mood to play around. "Im sorry babe. I didnt hear you. Besides you were blasting music. So its technically not fully my fault." He says with his eyebrows pulled up. "Yeah yeah whatever. But didnt u atleast smell the bleach?" You roll your eyes and turn around to go back to your cleaning.

"And take your dirty fucking shoes of Virg!" You shout. You hear him groan with wasnt a normal thing he did after you would shout at him. You go back and ask what was wrong. He was taking off his shoes. You sit next to him and ask him again. You look at him but now his face was red. You take his hand "Take your time with what you wanna say." You say. "I was thinking about you at practiceandigothardanddidntknowwhattodosoijustleftpractice." He says fast. You understood everything but wanted to hear it again. "Mh what did you say i couldn't catch that." You say and try to hold back you laugh. He sighs and says it again. "I was thinking about you at practice and i got hard so i just left practice and didn't know what to do..."

"See it wasnt that hard to say." You say. You turn your head to him and grab his face to kiss him. It wasnt a very long kiss. You grab his shoes and put them aside. You use his thighs to not fall off the couch. He even jolts at you touching his thigh. You giggle. You stand up and feel his stare burn into you. You want to tease him so you just left him there. He whimpers as you left. You went to the kitchen and grabbed so water. You came back and see Virgil layed back on the couch. Seeing his shirt riding up his abs and seeing a huge bulge in his pants. Eyes closed. Eyebrows furrowed. Hands on his thigh and him biting his upper lip. You go up to him to go and sit on his lap. He jolts at your action. "Do you need any help with something Virgil?" You said in a submissive tone. You feel his big cold hands going under you shirt to firmly grabbing your hips. At that you grind on accident. His head jumps to see your face. His eyes widened and still biting his lips.

"Please" he says.

"Please what honey?"

"please Y/n i need you."

You smile and get off his lap. You get on your knees infront of him and grab his legs to spread them apart. Then your hands on his waistband pulling his shorts and boxers down. His hips jutting up to help you. You see his hard dick standing infront of your face. Its so hard it must be painful. You look up and see Virgil already looking at you. You grab his shaft and spit on it. Then you only put the head of his shaft into your mouth. Still holding eye contact with him. Then you lose him. Head lolled back, eyes fluttering, moaning your name, his hands in your hair and mouth gapped open. Then he thrusts his hips. Now your deep throating him. You hear him moaning but also giggling. Your already wet but this is making a whole ocean down there.

You're so turned on. Maybe it could be the way how hes moaning my name or slightly tugging on your hair.

Or it could be the way how his beautiful abs look like from this angle with sweat covering them and making his skin shine.

Or it could be the way he throws his head back, eyes fluttering, eyebrows crossed, biting his lips, mouth gapped open and moaning everything that comes to mind.

Either way im enjoying this side of him. Begging for me, crying out for me and more. My thoughts are interuppted because Virgil pulled me off his shaft. I look up with an confused expression on my face, thinking i did something wrong. I see him biting his lips. Now i understand. I almost made him cum.

You stand up, now standing in-between his legs. He looks at you like a lost puppy. You take of your shirt, pants and lingerie. Throwing them somewhere in the living room. "What do you need Virg?" You say locking eye contact with him. " Y/n i need you, please please. I really need you!" He says. "Go on, you can have me however you want. Own me Virg." You say with a big smile on your face. He pulls you by the waist onto his lap. He takes his shaft and lined himself up to your entrance. You arms around his neck. You lower yourself down onto him. Throwing yourself into his neck. Moaning his name. He squeezes your ass hard trying not to ram inside of you. You lower yourself completely onto him. He waits for you to adjust to his size. Hes a big boy. "Virg, your so big." You moan as you lolled your head back. He groans at your statement. He loves when u say things like that. He has a huge size kink. Finally he thrusts into you. Hard.

Hearing him moaning makes you so wet. He thrusts into you while you rocking back and forth on him. Hes a moaning mess. One of your hands going down to your clit. You touching yourself makes you going over the edge.

"Oh Virgil im going to cum!"

"Thats not my name sweetheart" He half moans into you neck.

"Please daddy." You moan into his ear. He also has a daddy kink. He would go crazy if you called him that while having sex with him.

"Thats a good, good girl"

Finally you let go. He looks down and seeing you hitting you climax makes him reaching his climax as well. Before he releases inside of you. Instead he takes you off his lap and says "Go on you knees please."

You go onto your knees and open your mouth. He came all over your face and in your mouth. You lock eye contact with him once again and swallow.

You come back up to sit next to him. "Thank you so much Y/n. I really needed this. Thank you thank you..." On and on he thanks you. You smile a give him a kiss. Then you lay down and close your eyes. Maybe you should be mad at him more often, to see how it would turn into. Because this was amazing.

#virgil van dijk smut #football smut #virgil van dijk #hornie #hot as fuck #artists on tumblr

[bismuthburnsblue]

ok so!!! i revisited my work from yesterday, going in and properly blocking out the style lines and strap (still up for change as i get into better fabrics but this is a lot more representative of what they would actually look like now!) (though i am noticing ive set my hemline lower- even extending it on nora, when anne's is quite high, so ill have to see how comfortable i feel with that)

i also took a bit out of the hips on the ally pattern which definitely helped with the shape (i was really just being lazy not doing this, ive used this pattern before and had to do that, i knew it was gonna be an issue)

Theres more notes on my personal thoughts on both patterns below the cut :)

same cw's as before for body image stuff :) (maybe this is silly but i just feel far more comfortable putting warnings + a readmore for corsetry)

(also! i will be doing a post properly introducing this project soon :) ive got a lot i want to say!!)

First up! both of these patterns are by Aranea Black, pdfs of these patterns are still available online but her website is gone now)

Ally is a 6 panel corset with extreme hip spring- heres what the pattern looks like:

i do think the hip spring gives a really dramatic shape, but i do worry that with my upholstery weight faux leather, it just wont sit nicely. on this mock up i had to slit my entire seam allowance at the waist to make it not tuck too badly, and that means cutting my boning channel in half (i think, still deciding details like that) i cant really afford to waste fabric recutting panels if i sew it and it does tuck, either.

(Technically i do have the option available to me to do a twin stitch like Anne's original corset actually has, but this wouldnt be traditional, and wasnt in my plan (even if i wasnt gonna have the bones in the leather layer, i like the /look/ of felled channels on the outside.) a twin stitch however would probably negate most the tucking on the waist point, as it opens it up rather than folding to one side.)

Secondly, the one gripe i have about this pattern is that big line of wrinkles below the waist- now some of this will be from the fabric and it not being worn in, but the "daily wear" version of this corset ive made before still has some of these wrinkles even now, especially over the first hip spring panel. i know theres ways to adjust the fitting to counter the ones over the hip, but those i think are largely from the way the fabrics pulling around the curve- its covers such a large area its bound to pull a little weird in places. I really want a smooth look, a clean finish is the most important thing to me, and i worry no matter what i do they will still be there.

I will say, Ally has a lacing gap designed into the pattern, which is something i want, as Anne's corset has one, and it automatically gives you more leeway in the fit that patterns without it just dont have.

Nora on the other hand is 8 panels, with the hip spring spread across a much further space. On paper it looks much less dramatic, but theoretically should still hold a significant amount of shape, just distributed over more panels.

I guess that would be my first area of concern, that the shape just isnt quite as dramatic as the shape on Ally. i really want something quite striking for this project and though pattern modifications can be made, i was hoping to not have to do too much past simples changes.

The 8 panels also means this pattern will likely eat up more fabric. if nothing else, theres 4 extra sides of seam allowance that the other does not have (though, these pieces will nest together better, so it could end up being negligible) it is a concern however, as im working on a very tight yardage.

One of the immediate positives of this pattern however is the lack of that wrinkle band like Ally has. Since this is worn as an outer layer thats a huge point in its favour, a nice clean finish is basically the top of my requirements list.

Nora also has no lacing gap, which is an issue for the reasons mentioned above (annes costume has a lacing gap, but also lacing gaps give more leeway in the fit, allowing you to be a little tighter on some days than others.) Its possible to draft in a lacing gap relatively easily, but it is something i have to consider.

Its completely arbitrary, but i also feel like the way the strap joined onto this pattern was nicer- it lined up better with the pre existing panels and i think it'd join on as a continuous piece better. again, its extremely minor, i just think its cleaner with less fiddling on my end.

I think im still thinking the same way i was yesterday, that Nora is probably the pattern thats working better for me for this, but its still very up in the air for me. i feel like theres more pattern modifications to do there, but that its probably going to be worth doing the work? but i am definitely interested in what anyone else might think!

#hA sorry for the vibes of the yesterday post i was frustrated w some stuff and not achieving as much as i wanted #and fitting is always. a Task for me #anyway! here is your usual obnoxiously long post i bet you really missed this :) #i would apologise but. no. sewing talk makes me happy so! #but if u read it all. kisses and then i am very interested in input #anne bonny cosplay #also lol i was testing some shit w the top visual wise pls ignore that mess actually

[pitynostars]

ok so first things first, i loooove gatwa's doctor so much already. if nothing else, i love the masterclass in acting he's putting on, his expressiveness is so impressive. he brings a very fun energy to the role

the church on ruby road has me feeling a bit mixed as well. the plot was kind of meh, and i didn't like how in the alternate universe ruby's mum was just so mean without her. it didn't make sense. like what makes ruby so special, hm 🤨 what's this one white blond baby got that all the other babies in the world don't 🤨 i know the point was to show how much ruby meant to her mum, but like. there are other ways to do it than have a complete 180 in characterization.

i'm honestly not super interested in the mystery of ruby's parentage (which apparently seems like it will be a huge thing unless they're just making stuff up to fake us out, in which case, good on them). but i don't want it to be some big reveal i'm sorry 😩 especially not because if it is, people will bend over backwards to say how great storytelling it is when they'd never say that if moffat did a plot like this. i hadn't even considered the possibility really, when i'd first watched it, i thought it's just not that deep, but maybe i'm wrong. the people who are theorizing that ruby is rose and tentoo's daughter are sooo funny though like

ur only saying that because she's blond and we all know nobody on this show can be blond without being related to The Blond(tm) 🙄

that literally means they abandoned their kid. yes. such good parents 😫

i also feel like we didn't....really get to know ruby that well? i'll reserve judgement to give them more time obviously, and millie seems very green (not a judgement on her, and she and ncuti seem to have a lot of fun energy together) so there's still time and there's a lot of time in general for the stories to get going, and it had to do double duty as a christmas special and an intro episode for both new doctor and new companion so like, my feelings may also change with time. anyways those are my thots for now

yesss i was sold on gatwa very quickly i just hope he doesn't become 10th doctor rehash number 2345932853845 i am so tired. give him something new. also praying him and ruby don't have a romance angle there were a couple of moments in CORR i was like. GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT AGAIN.

CORR plot being meh i agreeee but also xmas specials plot is a lot of times like a wafer and as someone who watched it quite roasted ngl i kinda appreciated it 😂

YEAH omhg tho with ruby disappearing and her mum (i want to say carla??) completely changing as a person??? i get that the point was supposed to be like one little change can make such an impact etc etc as well. but also i was just like. .... ok but what about the other kids wasnt good enuf ???? maybe i'm a cynic lol. but fr have another MORE kids on the wall bc she's trying to fill a gap she doesn't know is from what !!!! IMAGINE.... especially with it being sort of set up as a doctor/companions parallel oh my god

nooo oh my god i know what you mean about rubys parents i like that theyre setting it up as a counter to 13s "it doesn't matter i'm good as i am my past doesnt define me" etc. but i really want it to not be interesting. i want her parents to just be like. normal people who had to make a hard choice lol. oh my god. i just realised. we're gonna go thru a fucking rey star wars arc with her im gonna lose it byee... imagine she ends the series like "im ruby doctor" :) i would quit watching.

but yeah 100% it's gonna be a big thing. atm i dont care but i guess we'll see and hope they do something interesting with it.... prayers she's an alien tbf

rose and tentoo would be terrible parents tbf i said what i said.

YEAH i know what you mean i feel like that about gatwa too i think its hard making the first intro for both an xmas special because it has to be kinda silly and rompy so you cant rlly get too into the grit of the characters?? still reserving judgement on them both, but its taken me a while to warm up to like. everyone in dr who since bill--- wait i take that back i loved bel in flux from like her first scene but she's not a doc or companion.

#replies tag #long post #dw spoilers

[drowninginthepond]

NPD and reality

during my research i came across a lot of stuff that essentially sums up to "narcissism is a self-delusion to hide an unbearable truth". i keep seeing this and the more i do, i realize how wrong this is for me, at least in the classic sense.

a lot of what my NPD consists of now has been reality for me when i grew up. if you go through the diagnostic criteria, it basically goes like:

has a grandiose sense of self importance

i do. i never considered this to be grandiose in the past because it was objective fact to me. i grew up with people believing me to be a "league above them" that they were never be able to touch - i functioned by a different set of rules altogether. i wasnt just winning at the game everyone played, i played an entirely different "higher" game. because i grew up this way, i still assume that people automatically recognize my superiority, i expect it, because im used to it.

believes that they are special and unique and can only be understood by, or associate with, other special and high-class people.

this is reality. there are quite literally people who are ill-equipped to understand me, because they entirely lack the knowledge and braincells to. try walking up to your peers or even adults when youre young and tell them youre deeply emotionally bothered by the future of robotics/a.i. and how technology can increase the already huge gaps between classes because its primarily made and used by the capitalistic elite when theres a chance that this could help to create utopia in a different economical system. of course the only guy to talk to here is some philosophy professor.

requires excessive admiration

simply something im used to and therefore addicted to. admiration, idolization, envy, hatred. thats pretty much all i get as a "consolation prize" for the aforementioned issues. its more like a drug i crave so i can blend out the negative emotions.

has a sense of entitlement

when i was young there were often rules that didnt apply to me or i could ask adults (or bat my eyelashes) to bend them for me. i was sometimes exempted to write exams in the first place and corrected the exams of the other students. i sometimes had different school work from the rest of the class or did other stuff entirely like reading and drawing. so understandably i now have the sense of entitlement that rules that apply for everyone dont apply to me.

is interpersonally exploitative

this one is kind of funny because my special interest as a child were social power constructs. i basically had to learn to successfully manipulate others for social status because otherwise i would end up as the bullied autistic nerd. i did this so well that i ended up being intellectually fascinated by it and used it for my own gain (which eventually ended up being internet fame, lol). coughs. prestige dating.

lacks empathy, is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others

ive always struggled with empathy and i was told so very very often. this might be a born trait, relating to autism too. its something i cant change. i just learned cognitive empathy and compassion instead!

is often envious of others, or believes others are envious of them

as ive said. fact. had some girls ripping my art apart out of envy, had people beating up themselves out of envy, the whole circus.

shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes

i mean... i do think of myself to be superior to everyone. it surely comes across as that, especially when im becoming frustrated when others are lacking. i learned to mask this a lot though cause people kept telling me.

______

alas, NPD isnt some kind of self-deluded fantasy i invented, its been the actual truth for me, mostly because of other people telling me the exact stuff and treating me in the same ways that are now part of a diagnostic criteria. hilariously, there are "narcissistic lies", specifically a very big one in the grandiosity point. an intense focus on my intelligence/giftedness and the relation to others. other people have a bunch of strengths that i lack in as well, like social and physical skills which im honestly hilariously bad at sometimes. the narcissistic lie in this is that intelligence specifically puts one above others in terms of human worth, and lack thereof makes one lesser. this could be the same with any other adjective, but it wasnt.

"narcissism is a self-delusion to hide an unbearable truth" is solely true if its interpreted as it being a gigantic fawn reaction that hides feelings of isolation.

#here have my self psychoanalysis or something #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b #actuallynpd

[kaijuconfessions]

person who dated a 13y/o as a 16y/o you are not alone in having a shitty relationship you cant really vent about because the age gap makes you sound predatory/gross if you mention it.

when i (transmasc but at the time not out so “still a girl”) was 14-about-to-turn-15 i was friends with a 12 year old who developed a crush on me and he asked me to go out with him. for some reason i said yes, i think i felt bad turning him down since i was like his only friend at school? aaanyway this was not a good decision on my part i still regret it.

once we were actually “dating” he started to cross boundaries SO fast. he would ask me to skype call him like, every night and he would just spend the whole time either a) spend the entire time venting about how depressed he was, claiming he wanted to kill himself constantly and fucking telling me i was the only reason he hadnt, i saved his life, i was his “guardian angel” and he would kill himself if he didnt have me, etc (which kept me in the relationship longer because i genuinely believed it). a couple times he actually threatened suicide, asking me what i would do if he just took a knife and slit his throat right there on call while i watched. OR 2) masturbating and asking to see my tits/watch me touch myself. i was never comfortable with this but he kept pressuring me so i went along with it way too many times -_-

oh also we lived really close to each other (next neighborhood over in a suburban area) so sometimes he would ask me to meet him out in the wash between our houses. specifically there was this huge bridge we would meet under since it was the most “private” area out there and we would idk make out and such. he would always want to finger me even tho i clearly wasnt into it. he wanted to actually have sex (“at least put it inside just to know what it feels like”) but i was TERRIFIED of getting pregnant so i shut that shit down. but he asked me to “at least” suck his dick and i didnt feel like i could explain refusing so i did. i gave the worst blowjob imaginable lol i just put it in my mouth i like barely moved and did not suck it at all but he was like “ughhhh youre so good at this 😫” LOL anyway he didnt tell me he was going to cum in my mouth. it tasted like fucking hand sanitizer. he asked if i would let him actually fuck me if he got condoms but thankfully that never ended up happening.

anyway i somehow managed to end things with him. i felt bad about it for a while worrying it would make him more depressed and shit but a few years later he dmed me on discord going “heyyy just so you know my cock is way bigger now. like 8 inches. oh gode im sooo high rn” and i didnt feel quite as bad anymore bc anyone that does that shit to people just sucks lol.

but yeah i cant vent about this shit to ANYONE because “i dated and engaged in sex acts with a 12 year old” automatically sounds awful and i still feel like i shouldve been more “mature” and shut him down bc no matter how you look at it a 12y/o should never be engaged with sexually esp by someone older. and i know people would still judge me for it even hearing my side of things where its clear that i was manipulated and coerced and shit.

anyway sorry for the essay in your inbox youre doing the lords work running this blog tho 👍

Sure he was just a kid but so were you

[ninkerbell19]

Firstly i just want to say a HUGE sorry for the radio silence, I'm run down anyway because of my thyroid issues but all the stress I was dealing with made me feel even more run down so I ended up making myself extremely ill so I had to step back to recuperate... I'm still not feeling 100% but I'm getting there and im slowly easing myself back into daily life and CC creating... That being said I've gone back to basics, i started out creating wallpapers because because i hated the fact that the choice wasnt that great, a lot of what i was coming across felt old fashioned and there seemed to be a real gap to create nursery wallpaper because it was lacking in modern designs so ive been creating a HUGE batch of wallpapers.. some of them are swatches ive found on websites and some of them like the chanel wallpaper are original designs that ive created from scratch. PLEASE NOTE - THIS ISNT ALL OF MY SWATCHES, ITS JUST A SNEAK PEAK.

I have also made all the patreon posts public, i still have some items to upload but everything on there is now available for public download - https://www.patreon.com/Ninkerbell19cc

[kin-the-muffin]

haha soooo many things happening rn and i feel like i have so much time to do nothing like i used to but when i take a step back sure i have less but i still have a lot but then i remember that theres homework im already ignoring in my classes and new friends to know and be known by and old friends to either dump cuz theyre toxic and i never realized or try in vain to keep ahold of a slipping relationship and im in my senior year now hahahaaaaa

vent below

i auditioned for my school’s musical and i finally got a speaking part and im also technically a lead and that rly cool but it also means im going to have to stay at school for twelve hours almost every day until the second week of march when the play ends

im in my school’s honor choir and its a zero hour so i have to wake up at unheavenly times to get there and sing for two and a half hours

i get to be in a rly big state choir too and thats coming up in february and i havent looked at the music yet and i cant get the remind to work and all the emails are so long-winded and badly-formatted and confusing

and my english class is nearly full of students so thats fun and my school has zero, count em, Z E R O good senior english teachers but im pretty sure i have the better of two devils and i had her last semester so i know her and she knows me but i also know the kinda bs shes gonna throw at us and i just have to hope that she wasnt lying when she said that this semester would be easier because we’re not working on senior papers this time (mine was about mental health in schools not that anyone asked lolll)

i also have the same government teacher as last semester which is both a blessing and a curse because i know what to expect but like none of it is good and he makes us do these stupid unnecessary tiny group projects and why tf cant i just work alone i only know one person in the class and his lectures are so pointless and please just let me take all the tests and be done with this heaven-forsaken class already

then im in studio art which is basically the highest level art class at my school and you have to get permission from an art teacher to be in one of their hours then you work on one huge independent project the whole semester and my art teacher knows i draw on my ipad and said i could make a comic so now i have to figure out what its about then i can hopefully start the ball rolling from there but i have too many ideas and not enough at the same time and none of them are developed enough to make a 22-page, fully edited-and-colored comic

and my choir director is so incredibly passive aggressive but not really on purpose, he just knows he has a rbf and so he overcompensates to make himself more friendly but then when his patience runs thin he yells and i wanna cry and die and quit high school and cry some more

and im trying so hard not to stress over college because i know im gonna take a gap year so i can think about it then but two of my sisters have offered their homes to me and i love them both so much and ive been thinking about just getting an apartment and a roommate but i have to tell them that because one of them is going to renovate their basement with my potential living there in mind and then i end up stressing about college anyways like what major and what minor and what school and what even is my endgoal???? i dont know?!?!??!?!! i dont know what i want to do with my life, not specifically! my biggest dream rn is to be an mc streamer and thats just cuz im back in my mcyt phase and the old pipe dream from my childhood has returned but i know it cant actually work out btu the dreamer in me says it can but i know it realistically has like a .000002% chance of actually happening

and thats all i have the energy to say rn

sorry for the rant

sorry for not posting

ty and goodnight

#kin’s rambles #vent #high school #it sucks #i swear i wanna die #*rasputin voice from anastaisia* #mark my words #me myself and i will die #before i graduate #i want to rest so much and end my bloodline #forever #/j #man i really hope none of my friends and family see this cuz a few follow me on here #its just a question of do they look at it enough? #probably not

[po1songore]

it's 3am rn but i just had a thought right hear me out,, you and michael go to a party together and get like slightly drunk but you can both function properly and remember what happened/is happening so like imagine like william or something along those lines coming to pick you up at like 3am but michael knowing william has a thing for you and proceeds to have sex with you in the back seat of his dads car in front of him (reader and mikey are like 19/20) also im sorry for flooding your inbox 😭

THIS IS GON BE A RIDE HOL UP-

hUGE TW; dad-son threesome, oral sex, drunk sex, teasing, dumbification, slight masochism, age gap and more. AFAB reader, she/her more

"wait wait wait watch out-!"michael said laughing, his hand around your waist holding you up after you missed the second step out the house the party was happening. now it wasn't very late,but you two were already tipsy enough to go back. your laughs filled the cold air, his jacket around your shoulders.

"god michael when is your dad coming.."you whined leaning on him.

he turned his wrist to look at the time on the watch, only for some of the alcohol from the bottle he was holding to pour down on the pavement."uh..3 minu-shit my drink-"he said as if the bottle wasnt still half full.

after a few seconds, surely enough the familiar car pulled up. a chevy impala '67 in a deep purple color right in front of you, windows rolled and soft jazzy music playing although your ears were occupied from a muffled sound from the loud bass.

"next time take more time dad."mike said making you laugh and helping you in the backseat without breaking your ankles.

"heyyy mr afton-"his eyes met yours from the rearview mirror.as always, he wore a black suit, black shirt inside unbuttoned slightly, one arm off the window and his hair slicked back.

"y/n, you surely look like you had fun doll."

closing the door behind him, michael sighed a bit and fixed the jacket on your shoulders with the bottle still in hand.

william turned around to look at both of you before snatching the bottle from mike, shaking his head.

"Ive told you whiskey isn't for your age mike."he said and took a sip right off the lid, before passing the bottle back to michael.

"god..when do we reach home?"you whined out throwing your head back.

"doll, its not up to me to move the traffic."

doll huh?now michael always had this idea that his dad really fancied you and,he knew he was right.but god, he would lie if he said he didnt always like competing with him.it was like his thing, since he looked just like him people always compared the two, he wanted to beat him to everything he could, even to things like..you. looking at william from the rearview mirror, his hand slipped on your inner thigh making you let out a small gasp as his fingers traced your underwear.

"michael."

no response, his fingers messed with the fabric, placing them aside gently. your face turned red as you saw william's leg tapping up and down,shaking nervously. michael's finger slipped inside you, making you place your hand on his wrist and push it deeper.

"mmhm..f-fuck.."you whispered under your breath.

after maybe, five minutes you were parked on the end of a cliff, having the whole city on sight under the dark.on one side, you had michael fingering you with two,your wet running down his hand. under you, william had you on his lap, his lips on your shoulder and neck.one hand on his neck wrapped softly, the other slipped under your shirt and gropping your breast gently."shit.."

"m-michael i..f-fuck.."your hips swayed back and forth in sync with his fingers, a grin plastered on his face a bit your moans filled the car.

"doll,you might not want to move that much there or you may be sayin two names soon."

you teasingly continued grinding against the man's crotch,which made him look at your body sway.his hands slipped on your waist, guiding it back and forth, a small groan leaving him.

"f..fuck....fu-ck i .."you moaned out,a small slap landing on your ass. william's lap hit against your ass, his hands on your waist as he pounded inside you in doggy, barely fitting in the car as his fingers dived inside your waist harshly.

"hell, you look so good with my cock inside of you..think you can properly form a sentence yet?"

"n..no..i..need..more.."you whined out watching michael seated in front of you against the door, letting his cock out from his underwear and holding it out for your pretty mouth to cover.

"i think she is saying she wants my cock..what do you think?"he said with a little grin as the older male glued his lap on your ass, his cock hitting right on your spot as he held both your hands back with one of his,his other one playing with your clit now.

"only one way to find out..what do you say you open wide, pretty face?"

you nodded and opened your mouth, tongue sticking out for michael's cock to rest on your tongue, his tip slippery from precum as it slid in perfectly, your mouth wrapped around it.

"mmhm..thats right..take it like a good girl.."your friend told you, his hand on your face softly caressing before giving you a small slap on the cheek, making you suck harder and faster on his dick.your mouth, his hips and william's movement all kept the same pace as you felt your body in full pleasure.

"look at you movin on my cock.."

"such a pretty face to be sucking so good.."

"cant even keep a straight look, what a whore."

"should have known that pussy was gonna feel so good when we were alone."

it took no time for you to feel yourself reach climax.william's hands dived on your thighs as he glued you on his body to cum inside you, his white liquid dripping out of your weak cunt as michael's cum filled your throat leaving all three of you in moans and pants..

#william afton x you #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #michael afton #william afton #william afton headcanon #williamafton #fnaf 4 #william afton x reader #michael afton x reader

[1apple-fox1]

card technology and how LDS basically owns the market on not only real solid vision systems but also cards

this is gonna be a wordy post and i apologize in advance. ok first off i just wanna say i am probably the only person who thinks about this shit but i find world stuff and the like interesting to think about. call me obsessed, idc, ive watched arc v 5 times and i just really wanna share this.

it is canon that standard did not start with the other summoning methods, that they are relatively new. we arent ever told what cards are made out of specifically- but considering past shows and their connection to spirits we can assume they arent just simply cards. EX- gx and the crystal beast cards being made from actual gems.

for arc v, id say its the ‘energy signature’ of a card. reiji is shown to have technology that is able to read energy and also tell what kind of energy it is. He also uses a machine to copy pendulum monster cards and they are similar to the originals but not exactly the same. so either the ‘energy’ is the monster spirit itself, or its the magic nonsense that allows it to summon said spirit. either way- a card is not simple to make in the universe.

so that begs the question- how did LDS manage to get the other summoning methods?

well its shown that LDS actually has dimension hopping technology, though it seems rough and unfinished, i have no doubt reiji tried to use it again after his initial teleport to academia. whether he went there physically or not idk, but i theorize he was able to capture or hone in on the cards of those dimensions and copy them the same way he copied yuyas pendulum monsters.

except the LDS fusion/xyz/synchro cards are all weaker than the originals because he probably had limited data.

for fusion its easy to back this up since, anyone from standard who uses fusion doesnt actually use a regular ‘polymerization’ card- because reiji wasnt able to copy it one for one... (your probably thinking- what about kachidoki? well ill get back to that)

Even other characters like yuya, yuzu, and reiji himself are shown to not actually be able to use ‘polymerization’ more than once. standard users who have fusion monsters rely on other methods such as deck themed fusion cards, monster effects, or in the case of reiji: contract cards

this extends to the other methods too but in more subtle ways. hokuto is only able to xyz summon after changing his monsters levels, yaiba can only synchro summon using effects that treat monsters like tuners (both him and gon only have one tuner in their decks at the start) you could also argue that the fact they are missing ‘rank up’ cards or any support magic cards for synchro monsters as another way in which standard made xyz/synchro are weaker.

so- where the fuck am i going with this? well LDS is shown to be the only thing with access to these other cards. its not clear, but it looks like using the method can take a toll on the users body and i do not know if thats a matter of energy needed to summon a monster and having to train ones body or what but-

these cards are not easy to make, and there are limited copies in stock.

other summoning method cards are expensive to buy in standard. why am i saying this? well one- yu show duel school is shown to not have access to any, shuzo himself says hes never used the cards, and its possible that its because he cant afford it. none of the other schools in the tournament use other summoning methods. that is except...

kachidoki and his school.

not only that, but they also have a regular ‘polymerization’ card. your probably thinking this is where all this falls apart. but think about it- ryozanpaku is shown to be probably the second most popular and highest grossing duel school. its not a stretch to think they PAID LDS a hefty sum of money for their own stock of cards. and what did LDS give them? their first copies of the ‘polymerization’ cards. they are weaker but relatively work the same- but most of the students still rely on it AND monster effects.

but if thats the case- if these cards cost so much and only LDS has access to them... not only do they now own that market, theyve basically created a huge gap and money cap for players of the game in standard. people arent gonna wanna go to a duel school that does not have the means to teach them these other methods of play. standard summoning becomes a laughing stock- no one can win with just standard summoning! duel schools start going out of business because they simply lack students. LDS and only a FEW other schools remain and all of them focus on those methods- not standard summoning...

LDS has complete and total control of the market.

of course arc v doesnt show us if anywhere else in the standard dimension has this tech but if we’ve seen anything from reira- its quite likely japan is the most advanced in this field, as weapons and cards seem to go hand in hand because of their innate power to destroy... ANYWAYS

what does this mean for the game in standard? well if things kept going how they were its quite possible the level of entry into the game becomes so high that you have to be born with privilege to even have a chance at grabbing a spot and not being immediately kicked out.

but something more interesting- and the real like theory part i guess is... when something becomes too expensive to get- ppl start making knock offs. people start making fake cards, some of them work on the duel disk- others do not, but the older the card the easier to copy and cheat the duel disk code. suddenly theres a bunch of copies of strong ishijimas cards, or even yusho’s cards. (thats how the bully managed to make an exact replica of strong ishijimas deck)

theres just a group of people now who just dont even use duel disk and just play on mats- denounce the new summoning method and actively hate what the game has become- but its still seen as lesser... and still other methods cannot be copied.

theres no real end to this theory beyond the fact that this shit is kinda messed up and mirrors shit in our world to an eerie point but like... uh i hope you enjoyed this? i like thinking of the game duel monsters in the world of arc v instead of the normal ass card game that it is irl so-- uh yeah pls tell me what you think about this and add on to it if you have something to share! sorry for the long post--

#long post #arc v #theory #head canon #leo duel school #yugioh #ygo arc v

[awindylife-writes]

The Eternal Chamber (Some Pirates and a Chest pt.2)

Relationship: 10th Doctor x reader

Summary: there's a pirate ship with a peculiar chest on board. Something powerful lays sleeping in it, but what happens when it's opened? (Established relationship)

Warnings: mentions of slavery and human trafficing, a trigger for claustrophobia, mentions of kidnapping and drugging

Author's notes: this is the one where the reader has powers (like, all of them. I went crazy.). The reader first appears in the second chapter and the Doctor first appears in the last.

The crew had formed a line stretching from the captain's and the first mate's quarters to the deck. They emptied all drawers and closets, all nooks and crannies, and then handed their contents dawn the line. Everything that had belonged to the traitors was brought to the deck where the sun could burn their sins away. The pile of rich clothes, credits, keepsakes and weaponry grew bigger and bigger.

Suddenly there was a sound of a distant crash. Everyone around looked towards the living quarters where it had come from.

Mike Lagden (gunner) ran out. "Captain, ya need ta come see this," she said, breathless and eyes wide.

~

As captain Tir stepped into Esleron's and Smith's former room, the first thing he noticed was how vast it felt. The bookshelf and closets stood empty, all shelves on the walls the same. The beds were stripped of their sheets and the bedding had been taken into storage. His eyes found a hole beside the dresser.

The opening looked like someone had crashed a piece of furniture into the wooden wall, which was probably what had happened. There were pieces of wooden boards in various sizes littering the floor and tufts of dust in the air. Some kind of a large metal crate or a chest was peeking through the gap.

"That's what we called you for," Latror (cook) told him. "It's hidden, it's big and it's like nothing we've ever seen."

Tir stepped closer to the wall and looked through the hole. The cook was right, the metal container was definitely strange. Judging by the fact that they were pirates and had certainly seen a lot of chests in their lives, that was saying something. The chest was metal, but which kind couldn't be discerned. Dusty and scratched in some places, though it still gleamed in the soft light. It was definitely a piece of technology judging by the array of blinking lights, buttons and monitors on its left side. From what Tir could see, the design itself was complicated unlike the storage containers the population on Paloma used. It was dark, so he couldn't make out all the details.

There was something else about it though. Something that made his hair stand on end.

Pulling back, he cleared his throat. "Bring this thing to the deck so Yaski can have a look at it. And be gentle. There's definitely something valuable in there and we don't want it damaged."

The three crewmates nodded and got to work, pulling out the pieces of broken wood.

Tir turned to leave when Mike's voice stopped him. "Captain, send us two more people ta help. This thing's bloody heavy," she grunted while trying to lift the side of the crate with a lever. It didn't even budge.

"I will," he nodded and headed up.

~

The five crewmen came up to the deck about half an hour later, balancing the crate between them with a lot of effort.

It seemed even dustier in the sun and gave off a strange feeling, like it wasnt quite right. Everyone who looked at it wanted to take a step back.

The crew made room as Cole, Mike, Latror, Naaska and Kkar set the crate down. They all wanted to see it despite its strangeness, so they ended up forming something like a circle around it as they let Yaski have a look.

His eyes shone as he examined it. After about ten seconds of inspection a huge grin split his face. "I can't believe it," his incredoulus voice came out. He sat on the floor and started giggling in excitement. The crew looked at each other.

"What is it?" asked Fala, the first mate, accompanied by several similar questions from the others.

"It's an Eternal Chamber," the technician breathed. After the crew made their confused noises, he went on, "It's basically a big crate, but whatever you put in it is trapped in a bubble where time stands still."

He got up suddenly and started pacing in delight. His hands gesticulated wildly. "It's held in stasis, in the exact moment you set the lock. That moment stretches on forever, keeping whatever you put in there exactly the same. It's brilliant, it's the perfect container!" he exclaimed, full of admiration for the technology.

"Or a perfect prison," the navigator Stu spoke coldly. Everyone felt a chill go down their spine.

A shadow passed over Yaski's face. He seemed to think something over while he looked at the chest with subtle apprehension. "And what is it doing here?" he asked the others as much as himself.

"They're rare," he explained, looking up at his friends. "Extremely rare. I read about them because l wanted to know how they were made, but l never thought l'd actually see one in person. So how did-" he stopped himself, anger suddenly at the surface. "How did they get their hands on it?"

"And why?" Fala asked. "What on Paloma would they want to put in there?"

"All excellent questions," the captain interjected. "How about we get some answers. Yaski, can you open it?"

"Well, because it's so valuable it can have a lot of locks. I can try?" he offered. The crew had brought him his large toolbox, which he now set beside him. He started pressing buttons on the front of the chest, a little unsure.

After about a minute of getting acquainted with them, he seemed to understand. He started typing in a sequence and opened a small hole below the lid. "There," he pointed. "That's the first one. It needs a key, a physical key. I can't open the Chamber without it."

The captain looked down at his shirt and then pulled out the pretty chain Fala had taken from Esleron. "Anything like this?" he presented the rectangle of metal on it to Yaski.

"Yes, exactly like that," the mechanic smiled. He inserted the key into the hole and turned it two and a half times counter-clock-wise. The screen lit up.

"Okay, good," Yaski swallowed. "Now all we need a password, because apparently they didn't set any other security. From what I can tell, it's just one word. But what could it possibly be?" he turned to the others around him.

Fala frowned. "Well, we know them, sorry, knew them very well... What would Esleron and Smith want to lock away?"

"No, it's more than that," interjected Kkar. "What would they want to keep under control, in their possesion only. Something only they could have, something they could bestow or withold as they pleased? "

A stone-cold silence followed. The wind whistled in their ears.

"Mercy," Philiasen, the medic, said gravely. She was looking at her hands as if seeing much more in them than the others.

The crew agreed. "Mercy," Yaski nodded and typed it in on the screen.

There was a click, and the lid decompressed as white vapours flowed from beneath. Some crewmen clapped and a few whistles were heard.

"Good job," Naaska told the mechanic warmly.

The young man blushed at the praise. "Captain, would you...?" he turned to the man.

"Well, you're the one who opened it," Tir told him, hesitant.

"Fala found the key," the mechanic suggested.

"Phil figured out the password," someone else said. To this, the medic replied with an impatient, "Just get on with it."

The first mate stepped forward. "Together?" she asked the mechanic, eyebrows raised.

"Together," Yaski nodded.

They stood, side by side before the Chamber, and grabbed the lid. In that moment, only the wind and the waves were heard. "On three," Fala decided.

"One, two, three!" They lifted the lid and let it bang on the floor on the other side. The world seemed to hold its breath as they stood in silence, staring down at what was inside. Everyone clambered around for a look.

"No," Fala breathed, almost begging. The wind rushed around them, ruffling their hair and clothes.

There was a woman, a young human woman curled up in the crate, sleeping peacefully. Her striking face was serene in rest, her chest rising and falling slowly. Her eyelashes ran shadows down her cheeks and her beautiful h/c hair covered her shoulders. She was wearing a colorful shirt and dark blue trousers of curious material, though both were stained black-grey in some places, crumpled and torn. Her shoes weren't ones anyone recognized. She hadn't moved from the fetal position she had been curled up in when the Chamber had been opened.

There were gasps, and there were sounds of denial. Fala shook her head. "Is she a slave?" she demanded in a tight voice from no one in particular.

"No," Philiasen, the medic, answered. "They didn't care about slaves. If she were one, they wouldn't have kept her,"  the words didn't fall easily from her tongue, "in a chest this expensive. They wouldn't have kept her like a treasure." The others nodded.

"She's cuffed," Cole, the assistant medic, noticed. He was close to crying and his voice showed it. "Gods, what did they do to her?"

"Right then," the captain's voice cut through the rising tension. He was scowling, a great anger spilling through. He reigned it in with a breath and looked up from the woman in the crate. He focused on the person he was speaking to. "Here's what we'll do. Yaski, get those cuffs off of her. Kkar, you carry her to the med bay. Phill, Cole, check her over, carefully. There could be any number of side effects from this thing, it probably wasn't designed to hold life."

"It wasn't," Yaski's sad voice confirmed.

"Right. And find out why she's sleeping. I doubt she got in there and just fell asleep before it closed. When she gets the medical attention she needs, we give her anything she asks for." He took a deep breath. "Well, we give what we can give," he clarified. "And we'll take her where she wants to go."

The crew nodded in agreement.

Yaski got down on his knees and reached into the crate. He hesitantly raised the woman's arms to the light, careful as if she were made of glass. Then he held her wrists with one hand, reached for a specter blade with the other, and got down to work.

After seven minutes, there was a click and the handcuffs opened. The mechanic pulled the woman's hands out of them and laid them back down into the crate. He stood and moved away, still holding the cuffs in distaste.

Kkar stepped forward and slowly reached in. She pulled the human up by her shoulders, then gently picked her up bridal style. The woman's head rested on her shoulder when she straightened up. Kkar turned and left with Phill and Cole on her heels.

"Right then," Fala began. "Back to work."

The captain sent the others to their tasks, but Yaski and her stayed with the Crate. There was more to it still.

When the pair shifted the blanket the girl had been sleeping on, they found a few more items. Some, like the sparkling emerald jewels, were obviously valuable. They also found more curious objects, like a simple metal key on a chain. It looked like something Yaski's great aunt used to lock her front door with. No one else on Paloma had used such a key in decades, so why would it be worthy of being put in the Chamber?

Still, the captain kept all keys. Fala took the thing to him.

~

Phil and Cole took very good care of the sleeeping woman. She was now lying on one of the two sickbeds, hooked up to the central monitor.

"Heartbeat, blood content, brain function, sugar and mineral levels are all normal," Phil ran through the readings. "There's just one thing, well, two things l don't like." Her eyebrows were furrowed in worry. "The first is that her body produced an awful lot of adrenaline before she fell asleep. The second is that she didn't fall asleep, she was drugged." Her expression turned murderous.

"So they definitely took her against her will," Cole replied sadly, staring at the floor. He sighed at the 'Seriously?' look he receaved from his friend. "I just hoped-" he shook his head. "But no, they really were bastards."

Phil nodded, pressing her lips together. "And we set her free," she told her right hand sternly. "They won't do this to anyone else. We stopped them."

"Yeah." Cole's reply was barely audible.

#doctor who fanfiction #doctor who x reader #tenth doctor x reader #10th doctor x reader #the doctor x reader #tenth doctor #10th doctor #reader insert #the doctor #pirates

[panlyv]

i wanna know the teaaaaa on semantic error i haven't been vibing with the drama need some validation please everyone seems to love it

hello anon!! sorry to answer a day later, but i wanted to finish the drama so i can answer you with my opinion of the whole show.

i don't think there's any tea tbh, idk if you read my previous anon but the thing with the cast i mentioned is simply an issue i have with age gaps in casting in general; not everybody is bothered by it so it's my own personal issue with it rather than any drama involving the cast.

i was a huge semantic error fan and ive been waiting for this drama for more than a year now, but my expectations were never high because sang woo and jae young have a loooooooooong way to go until they actually get together, there's a lot of back and forth and i knew the drama wouldn't be able to go with that kind of storytelling with the limited time they had. i tried to watch it as someone who didn't read the manhwa and i do think the drama holds up on its own, you get the gist of jangchu even with the crazy fast pacing they went with, but one of the things that makes jangchu so good for me is that back and forth, so i was a bit disappointed about the way they structured the timeline, like bro just do a quick montage so we can get some sense of the passage of time, but instead they had jae young say he only pestered sang woo for four days??? like what 😭 it was at least a few weeks till sang woo understood his feelings and came after jae young :/// but besides that the drama is good, i liked the addition of yuna as a recurrent side character, since in the manhwa we only meet her past halfway and only when they are in the studio. i haven't read the book which inspired the manhwa, and they did say they only based the drama on the manhwa, but the france thing,,, idk how i feel about that and idk if that's how it went in the book, bc in the manhwa they just barely got together and s2 ended like 2 weeks ago, but yeah, that little drama in the end wasnt my fave.

ANYWAYS. we are all entitled to our own opinions, im sorry u didnt vibe with the drama, but as someone who already knew and loved those characters, i think the actors' portrayal of them Felt like them and in the end that's what matters, how well they can translate the characters to the show

#damn sorry i need to shut up #anyways sorry for the long ass answer that probably isnt what u wanted but jdfhsdf #hope u are doing well anon!!!!!!!!!! #dawn.odt #anon

[misterbitches]

i live in a universe where if i were to walk down the street i could get murdered willy nilly cos im black but men are out here going around being like “my boyfriend and i met when he was a junior in high school” i don’t believe in jail and i try not to make jail jokes but HOW IS THAT FAIR? JAIL!!! GUILLOTINE!!!! GET THIS MAN A RETIREMENT FUND AND A THERAPIST

that dialogue was fucking embarrassing. he shoulda just said “im 12 yrs older than him” no one needs to know u were 30 dating a 17 year old u insecure freak. retire bitch and get away from her

 i wanted muren so badly to be like “LMAO SRY didnt mean to seem surprised i just like men my own age i guess?” i wouldnt have even apologized if i was surprised. my friend was dating someone ten yrs younger than him and i made fun of him for it and he was like “i know” bc he does know.

just a tip: i don’t like getting hit on by men way older than me, a lot of people don’t. i’ve had men who are 36 interested in me when i was 23, and i reciprocated, but now as i am 29 and older i realize how much it confused me and how i didn’t like it.

age gaps are what they are. ther’es many times i do not like it especially if it is a pattern (this is what happens in tv shows and movies and the opposite of that isn’t gay age gaps or power imbalances or women much older than a younger man ok that’s not progress it’s just peopl ewanting to be like cis men and no one wants that) and esp if the person’s peers are all their ages. people seem to forget that we travel in the same social circles on purpose due to our environments and also our world experiences. the only way to meet an older man is outside of school and yet adults can’t seem to control themselves?

i saw this person who was one of the editors of sexual hegemony (a book on capitalism and homophobic laws and sex basically idk google it it’s interesting) and he was trying to have a foucultian outlook (i hate focault btw doesn’t mean what he says wasnt interesting but it does mean i am not okay with psychosexual philosophers who take advantage of people. the only testament against him having reltaions with younger people is a bunch of young people i nfucking tunisia and there’s an excuse that he wasn’t a fucking pedophile he was those ebebebbeopopopo people and it doesnt matter when ur in fucking tunisia as a white french algerian fucking preying on children) how age of consent laws desexualize younger people. they were passed for  abunch of reasons like any law but here is the thing

we have no business in being in spaces to determine children’s sexual identity and teenagers in their own realm. THEY need to figure it out. our job as adults is to PROTECT THEM full stop. not intrude on their lfe and not give them the tools to decide for themselves. age of consent laws are meant to protect not to facilitate children against some boogeyman of sex. the issue is the way our society views it but young people are sexual AS YOUNG PEOPLE. it has NOTHING to do with adults and it shouldn’t. that’s why it is extra fucking intrusive when you are literally wedged into someone’s life who you have no business being around. it’s only by fucking circumstance. it’s abysmal and not cute. 

what this tells me is that the age gap is salacious. not in the way that i was 23 and a man was 36. in the way that he was 17 and this dude was 29. that’s interesting right? it’s “oooh” and it means we shouldn’t balk at it. saying 12 years would have sufficed, raises some eyebrows, and we can figure out the dynamics after but you just had to put that in BECAUSE YOU FUCKING LIKE IT but the thing is there’s no part of it that was fun. i’m just going to assume you like fucking teenagers bc that’s what it’s telling me lmao

i rarely talk about this couple but to put them in my eyeballs and then have that stupid conversation it was insulting lmao god please get a fucking script supervisor fuck but none of them care about sotry or any of what i fucking laid out. how stupid and careless and just unfun. i don’t like it. also ew at the idea of 2 tops and 2 bottoms talking oh my god i am gonna give myself a heart attack i’m already so fucking anxious i have to see my family lemme chill

im 29 and feel bad having a crush on a 23 year old CELEBRITY ok and i SHOULD feel ashamed and it’s not even a big deal that’s how everyone should approach life tbqh u walk around like ur 100 yrs old to avoid children. oh what’s that this korean cebrity learned english and moved to america to start a family with me and i find him very hot and i like his voice but we’re 6 years apart i’m not sure if i would work (how fun of a drama would that be. pointless and ridiculous. i love it.)

oh there’s a great review on CMBYN and its history and how the isolation and seeclusion was so fuckign capitalist bougie patriarchy and yea idk if anyone is interested. i think it’s ironic the ending for the people in CMBYN irl bc it’s just. so indicative of this shit. i dont like guadignino (idk is that how u spell his name) and think he’s not a great....person or director (i love the look of suspiria tho likke visually and edited. the DP was thai btw! he did an amazing job!!!) but it critiques this film from a perspective of someone who clearly at least cares about artistry, no matter how poorly i think he executes it, and just how hollow it is. the thing about “escapism” is that it relies on the harsh realities of the world to make it opposite, everything has context, nothing is apolitical. to make something that exists in a vacuum is negligent and it doesn’t help you escape it makes you even more tied to this world and its flaws because it doesn’t do anything to mitigate it.

people view it as like “we can put something stupid on screen and people have to accept it in this world” but that isn’t how IT WORKS. you hvae to build up the stakes of the world. but i can’t see introducing some “taboo” (see: stupid) elements and pretending the escapism is seeing this and allowing it. how could it be when the problem is the nature of the rship itself? what world are you taking us to? and why does this world ignore the pressing realities? and i wouldnt say either of these are explicit escapism (i think i hate that word now) becuase um they arent. this fantastical generally rich people escapism isn’t about bending things that don’t work to mold it into our society because WE DO THAT ALREADY it’s about taking those things and twisting them to something we can accept and like or something that has real consequences for people. it’s so funny how marketing and the idea of pc culture and shit and conservative ideology seeps into these. they have  an explicit interest in holding the status quou of taking advantage of people and using their power; age is a huge structure to do so. in this society when we struggle why would its existence not be challenged? because rape, ridiculous rships, abusive rships, torture etc is a power move, conservatives rest on it and people who gain power. what about that is appealing? making it gay? well, no. especially because men DO have power. 

every fucking thing in BL is a reflection of of patriarchy honestly. i can admit that and i’m not okay with it but it’s consumption. there’s a way to make this decent or entertaining without it being so fucking poorly done. and atp i dont even want to call things bl it’s a tv show just bc it’s for a certain audience doesnt mean anything do better idiots

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hello <3 since i got these asks at the same time i decided to combine my thoughts on them in this post. yet another annoying sjw essay from yours truly on this blog 

before i get into these i think i need to preface why im like. i guess overly hyperfocused on a certain unproblematic base (same age au / platonic canon) for them and avoid the ped0philic content like the plague lol

tw for pedophilia ment, rape ment if that makes you squicky. ALSO THIS IS LONG AND RAMBLY

as i’ve mentioned a couple times already, ive been into the ship since i was 12, back when it was very very common to not only post untagged (nsfw) canonverse content of the two in writing and in drawing but also non con and the like, so you can imagine how bad my first impression online was. thinking back on it ...as a child i found it disturbing but didnt really register how problematic it really was?? (i know, but i also lived in the middle of nowhere and had no one explain this to me) 

skip to 2014 aka me coming back to naruto at 17ish and i had kinda become hyper aware of the fact that there was an increasing amount of people online who had come forward with explaining how fictional problematic content, mostly pedophilia, had been used to groom them into starting relationships with adullts. it was also a time where a lot of people didnt believe these victims, not registering how common it was for minors to be online friends with adults who had no boundaries and no qualms exposing them such content. not gonna get into my personal life here but i was lucky to not having gone through this myself. like... it kinda was my first time truly realising how fiction can EASILY be used to manipulate others irl (and yes i will not argue this, if you dont think fictional media can form and manipulate people’s opinions on attitudes, countries, cultures and virtues, pick up a book about the effects of propaganda media at least once please) 

i, being young, still liking the dynamic but not really the romance, would point this out here and there in the fandom and get into fights with grown adults in their mid 20s who assumed i automatically hated the ship(s) and tried to restrict their freedom of speech or whatever, heard everything from the “age of consent doesnt exist in naruto” to the “sasori looks like a child what does it matter” despite people clearly playing on him being older and experienced. it made me so upset that people were just consuming all this content uncritically and exposing children to it tbh?? not really just sos but a lot of minor/adult ships in naruto in general. and thats where i sat down and thought, i do not want to be a grown adult talking down to children that point out how unsafe the fandom is. theyre absolutely right in drawing these boundaries and calling out adults who defend the uncritical consumption and creation of this content. i do not want to consume or create content that predators could use to groom minors, and i absolutely do want to let younger people in fandom know that i am respecting their comfort zones and want them to have a safe and fun experience. after all, naruto is not an adult show and i think a lot of people forget that!!!! i am not perfect in that regard but its something that i, at the age of 23, am very passionate about and strive towards to.

and i guess thats where same age au was born for me and i have been sticking to it ever since. 

so finally we can move to the first question 

aside from the fact that we both dont like canon sos, i dont think it would work out even if i wasnt prejudiced to it anyways. in all honesty, 35 year old canon sasori is not a redeemable character to me, given the fact that he’s easily amongst the cruelest villains in naruto (torturing and killing and taxiderming people for his own fun personal gain, never for a goal that served anyone but himself. how do you redeem having over 300 corpses in your backpack that you felt absolutely no remorse for killing). sasori was legit one of the only cruel villains that didnt had someone else pull the strings, which sends a clear message on kishi’s part, who absolutely loves to redeem villains LOL.

being that old, he obviously had already been very manifested in what he believed in, even if it was shakey, to the point where the first crack in that world view (sakura and chiyo protecting each other) immediately had him give up on his life all together. that, in my opinion, is not a man who’s going to know what healthy relationships would look like, regardless of it being romantic or not. 35 year old sasori to me has the same appeal as an expired can of tuna and he’s probably very happy 6 feet under. he’s supposed to be a failed gaara in that sense that he had no one to look out for him and therefore was never going to experience anything but a bad ending in life. its fine that hes dead honestly, it wraps up his short character development the best IMO.

adding to that, seriously, sakura was obviously interested in knowing why he was that way, and called him out for being seriously fucked in the head, but it’s weird to me that people assume she had any interest in actively rehabilitating him, let alone starting a serious romantic relationship with him. sakura who’s not only very, uhm, immature and straight forward when it comes to her romantic viewpoints also, as a big bootlicker, wouldnt soil her standing in the village by starting anything with a disgraced and far too gone criminal like sasori. shipping that version of sasori with sakura intimately is still going to set her up for a huge power imbalance that would be difficult to handle imo, even if she was the one in the fight ultimately exerting her power over him. i would still look at it and think damn she deserves better than having to play therapist for man like that lol.

additionally, even if you ignored all of this, you cant really ignore that sasori had already known her as a child, and that had been his first and most impactful impression of her. i dont think that sasori would look at 35 year old sakura and see her as a grown woman and not the little green girl she was in the fight. plus, you easily fall into predatory comparison territory between the “childish” and “womanly” and i have seen way too often in fic just being boiled down to her now being fuckable. a lot of of ships do this and i would just like to remind yall thats it not normal for adults to want to start relationships with children they have seen grown up or known as a child when they themselves were fully grown adults. therefore, maybe if sakura hadnt met sasori before it would be less of a problem? but that also obviously defeats the point of the dynamic and the reason he died in the first place. so yeah, it sounds kind of doomed especially if you were to make it romantic. 

WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE SECOND QUESTION

let me preface this that im not fundamentally against age gaps, even if im not super interested in it. after all, colorblind had a 5 yr age gap (with sakura being 21), even if, say, i wrote similar fics today i probably would make it smaller lol. i think it can be handled well if both parties have enough life experience to deal with it, and the author is cautious of where the age gap starts, i think a 10+ year age gap would be fine in a scenario where the younger party (i guess sakura) was at least 25-27ish, meaning she has completed most of her most formative life stages and probably had been in relationships before, meaning she would be able to handle it without having to fear a huge power imbalance. the older the younger party is the less the age gap is going to matter tbh .TsukiHoshino and AngelOfDeath10 both handle age gaps in their fics really well imo, so i do not mind reading about them.

unfortunately, a lot of people in this fandom think making sakura barely "”””legal””””” (18, not even 20 which is hilarious to me because the source material is obviously japanese) because they both cannot stand her being past her “prime years” of being young fertile and fuckable to much older men as well as thinking a 20 year old is automatically old enough to handle that type of relationship. ive seen a lot of unironic takes that believe it will absolve them of callout posts if they throw around age of consent and “shes 18 now suckers!!!” enough lmfao. absolutely hilarious. aging a minor up without aging the adult down seriously reeks of predatory “cant wait until youre 18″ narratives and thats why i find it similarly disturbing as straight up pedo shipping.

ultimately, sasosaku is and will always be a inherently problematic ship in canon, which is why i think it should always be handled a little more responsibly in fandom spaces, ignoring or outright excusing the main problem factor, which is sasori, isnt going to convince anyone that the dynamic in itself is well written and interesting enough to explore in aus, like giving sasori the redemption most of us wanted him to have by aging him down to a point in time where he was still realistically going to allow being positively influenced, similar to gaara. 

so really, what i think is well handled age gap and how most people handle age gap in the naruto fandom are two different worlds at times lol 

tl;dr

canon shippers have never been anything but gross when i was younger and i didnt wanna be like that, even if youre “smart”enough to differenate, actual creeps dont really care and might use your content to blur the lines, sasori isnt rly redeemable so romantic canonverse realistically wouldnt make much sense and is still iffy, age gaps are fine if they are handled well, but given that the dynamic doesnt really need the age gap to still work im not that invested on making that an essential part of my shipping experience.  

thank you for reading and hope this makes sense!

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