#drawing things i hate to cope (??????????????) apparently

[quirkle2]

ihate drawing shoes i despise it everybody look at these or ill cry right on top of u

#qktalks #hi good evening #lots of anxiety lately. i think it needs to get the hint that it's almost christmas and let me enjoy life <3 thats what i think personally #drawing things i hate to cope (??????????????) apparently #it's ok tho i've drawn lots of clothing folds in the past two days so it balances out. yay clothing folds <3

[perictione00]

Oops!...I Did It Again

Ch 4: Fuck me like you hate me.

Pairing: Nanami x reader

Warnings: MDNI, smut, unprotected sex, angst, use of curse words.

Synopsis: When life was throwing you uncountable curveballs, an unexpected reunion with your high school friend helped you dodge every single one of them. Coping mechanisms leave you both in a complicated situationship. So what happens when one of you ends up catching feelings? The cliche or the unexpected?

Jujutsu Kaisen Masterlist

Ch 3

Fuck me like you hate me? That particular expression from you conveyed the exact opposite of Nanami's sentiment. The dynamics between you two underwent a noticeable shift after that exchange. Previously, you instigated random conversations with him while sharing dinner, but now you steer clear of interactions and instead aggressively approach him with sex on your mind. Suddenly, that was all it was about. Secret visits to his office evolved into regular and conspicuous events. He wasn't complaining; he enjoyed having you in his arms; however, it felt like there was a wall that kept him from reaching you.

"You're doing it again, y'know." He confronted you as he saw your form entering the room.

"Doing what again?" you inquired, diligently drying your hair.

"Pushing me out-"

"You're just too big for me, but I promise I'll try to make it fit this time." You replied playfully.

Kento audibly sighed at the apparent endeavor on your part to ignore his inquiry with an innuendo. His gaze traced your motions, uncertain if you intended to swiftly segue into intimate matters or address the pending discussion. The predictability manifested as you opted for the former, leaving your bathrobe on the floor, settling onto his lap, adjusting your damp tresses, and drawing him closer, close enough to kiss. Your mere presence proved intoxicating, and despite his earnest attempts to grapple with his dilemmas, the overpowering sensation of your lips meeting his was enough to conquer his doubts and uncertainties. And right when he had started to drown himself in the kiss, you pulled away. It looked like you wouldn't listen to him, so he decided to speak your language and give into you.

What were you doing to him? You pondered as you observed every detail on his face that reflected nothing but his unwavering devotion to you. He was a great person, and yet you could never be the same as him. A lingering feeling of fear, borne of past disappointments and betrayals, veiled your sentiments. You had experienced them far too many times from far too many people you considered close. Your trust was fractured by the scars of abandonment etched by some friends, some endgames, who left you when they were bored. Were you the problem? Were you the catalyst for their departures? You don't know. There's one thing you know for sure, though: you are never going to grant anyone that power over you. You're never going to surrender dominion over your emotions or believe in anyone because people suck no matter how perfect they appear to be on the outside. You are tired of being on the receiving end of pain. Maybe now you'll take your sweet time giving it. Kento appears to be flawless, and that's uncanny because you don't know what you'll do if he leaves you like everyone else. So you have decided to own him without having him—an attempt to possess without being possessed—to lay claim to his heart without the surrender of your own, as yours remains beyond his grasp.

Kento lithely guided you onto the plush mattress, divesting himself of his shirt. A heavy breath escaped him as he traced a path of delicate kisses along your neck. Captivated by the allure of your taut nipples, he indulged in drawing one into his mouth while ardently caressing the other, savoring the sensation of your hands entwined firmly in his tousled locks. Sucking indelible marks on your bosom, he earned fervent moans from you. Intertwining his fingers into yours, he slowly moved down to your pussy. Interlocking his fingers with yours, he moved down to your pussy to bestow his attention upon the realm of your desire.

"Ah, Kento!" Your limbs entwined around his head, where his adept mouth and tongue worked a beguiling dance upon your sloping core, his hands asserting control over your hips. The vice of your thighs clamped down upon his head, giving him an unspoken insistence to continue his abuse, and so he did. Swiftly, Nanami wasted no time, seamlessly immersing himself between your parted legs.

"Don't move," he commanded as his sizable hands encircled your hips, conveying a tacit warning to stay still when you tried to move away due to the overwhelming sensitivity.

“K-Kento, I'm coming.” You whimpered while grinding your cunt against his tongue, riding through your orgasm.

Without a break, he pulled you onto his lap, seating you with your back leaning against his chest and his already-leaking cock rubbing against your bare cunt. Keeping one thick arm around your waist and the other holding your jaw, he kissed you passionately as he entered your warmth.

"Shi-shit, hah-...fuck" Curses slipped out of his mouth as your wet pussy swallowed up his whole length. He started drilling his cock into you at a dizzying speed, snapping his hips against yours.

"Does this feel like I hate you?" He asked in between his thrusts.

There it was again. Why doesn't he understand that the thrill will be lost the moment they commit? Why can't he just continue this no-strings-attached relationship? Why can't he accept that this feeling of love won't last and all that will be left of it will be dispair?

"A-answer me?" He questioned you as he violently rubbed fast circles on your clit and mouthed at your neck, savoring your taste.

"No."

This wasn't the answer he wanted to hear. It frustrated him to no end that you would go to such lengths just to deny his questions. Pounding relentlessly into your cunt, his tight hold on your waist left bruises.

"Umf-yesh...jus like tha..." You arched your back as he started thrusting at an animalistic pace, each stroke greater and more urgent than the last. You were nearing your climax once again. His teeth pulled at your bottom lip, kissing you over and over as you continued bouncing on his cock. You came with a high-pitched squeal, causing his jaw to clench as he felt your pussy spasm around him.

A series of guttural groans escaped his lips as he climaxed within your embrace. Exhaling deeply, he gazed upon you, a glistening sheen of sweat enveloping your entire form. Your disheveled, damp locks clung haphazardly, yet in this disarray, you appeared flawless. The most beautifully perfect being. Why couldn't you view yourself through his lens?

"I can't do this anymore." He smiled softly, his eyes gleaming with tears.

"What? Why? Is the sex not good?" Why was he doing this?

"Can we be something more than this?" He asked hopelessly, almost sounding tired.

"Where's this coming from?" You inquired.

"Answer me."

"What the fuck is this-"

"Why can't you see it?!" His sorrowful voice gave away his dispair.

"I dunno what you're talking about. Y'know what? Let's take a breather." You stated to avoid the matter at hand.

"No... please. I need to know."

"Kento, let's not-"

"I love you."

"No. Don't do this."

"I love you-"

"Stop it!" you screamed, gasping, a tear escaping your eye. "It's not worth it; let's act like this never happened."

"I can't-"

"Why not? What more can you want? I'm giving you everything, aren't I?"

"I want you." Nanami embraced you in a hug. "I want all of you, and I'm willing to wait."

You pulled away.

"There's nothing there for you to wait for. I don't want you if I can't have you like this. I'm sorry, Kento, but I guess you will only ever be just another good fuck for me."

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#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen x reader smut #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk x reader #nanami x reader #nanami smut #nanami x reader smut #nanami kento #kento nanami #jjk angst #nanami kento smut #jjk fanfic

[ladyluscinia]

Izzy, Bottles, and Apologies

Izzy's arc in S2 has been a wild ride.

The S1 Izzy enjoyers are feeling vindicated as hell, many people are fully revising their opinion of him, and the people still hating him have a new criticism or off the wall theory daily. David Jenkins LOVES Izzy and is having the time of his life trying to make sure everyone else does too. They had Con O'Neill sing in drag!

And naturally I have thoughts.

This is gonna be a two part post, I think. First, as much as people are celebrating Izzy having realized his arc and come into his own - from the singing to the apparent BlackBonnet shipping - there are some threads they could pull on that might reveal more arc to come. And I am really hoping they pull them, so I'm gonna tell you why you should too!

And second, I have some minor points I dislike and concerns that this might be the end of the arc. Which would be disappointing but I think I get why, so I'm gonna discuss that too.

To start...

---

"How are you handling all this so well?"

Here's the thing about S2 Izzy - while I need to be clear his behavior is not OOC or inconsistent with S1, it is happening rather fast. I'm pretty sure that has a lot to do with out of universe reasons I'll get into later, but in-universe it stands out. Now, he's hardly the only one operating on an accelerated schedule - the timeline for this season is an insanely fast not-even-two-weeks - but Izzy's defining struggle in S1 was fear of change. That was the cause of his friction with Edward, and what made him an antagonist in the first place.

In S2 he's gone through a lot of trauma, yes, but that fear is noticeably less present than I would expect.

Izzy in 2x06 has been cleaned up from his sobbing mess phase for just over 48 hours and he faces Edward with a joke, and then that night sings a moving French serenade to the crew. The next morning he's teasing them about finally hooking up and spends the day offering both Stede and Edward relationship advice.

He's a newly realized man... shedding repression and embracing who he could be. Accepting his breakup with Edward and trying to openly support the relationship that's better for him.

It's fun!

It's also, potentially, a bit of a flag. Maybe not a red one, not yet, but... pink-ish? A bit orange?

Let's look a little closer at those frayed edges.

---

"Well, you see, I have a system..."

There's an exchange from right at the start of the Pilot episode that has echoed through the entire series so far:

"Bottle it up?" -> "No, Frenchie! No, that's the worst thing you could do!"

Not talking to other people, not addressing your traumas... that's the kind of shit that just builds and builds inside you. When the cork eventually pops, the resulting damage can be a lot. Look at the finale of S1, where all of Stede's bottled up guilt and insecurities laid waste to his relationship with Edward, and then inadvertently became the first domino in the Kraken.

S2 is quick to bring this scene back into the forefront. The first time we see the Breakup Boat crew talking in 2x01, Frenchie reveals that "Bottle it up?" wasn't just a random comment he made, but a philosophy of his:

"Ah - well, you see, I have a system for dealing with all the terrible things I've seen. There's a box, in my mind, and I put the things in the box, I lock the box, and then I don't open it again. Works like a charm."

Apparently, Frenchie is the only one it actually seems to be working for.

Now, the show has been drawing some interesting lines between Frenchie and Izzy. From both serving as Blackbeard's First Mate to being frequently shown as a duo - tormenting Navy guys together on Sunday's raid, Frenchie holding Izzy's hand, Frenchie leaning on Izzy's leg in the cell, Frenchie behind him raising the flag in 2x05 - it's fitting that Izzy echoes Frenchie's preferred coping method. First he frames the non-acknowledgement of harm from Edward as just... part of piracy. He's a pirate, so he's fine with it.

And then we get Izzy's little whittled shark reveal and the conversation with Lucius about his leg:

"I don't know what you're talking about. Shark did this... dangling my legs over the side of the ship. Served me right, too."

Lucius calls him out on the unhealthy behavior, and Izzy concedes his point:

"O-kay, that seems healthy. Using a bit of fiction to help cover up your trauma." -> "Yeah, well... not moving on is worse. Twatty."

And to give him credit, he's right in his advice to Lucius. Filling his sketchbook with pages and pages of Blackbeard trauma is Lucius's form of bottling it up - thinking in endless recursive circles about his tumble off the ship and everything that followed. We already know chasing revenge instead of living is bad - Jim and Spanish Jackie established it last season, and Pete just echoed them. When Izzy advises Lucius to move on, that's what Lucius does.

But what Izzy is doing with the shark? That's not the same thing at all. He's lost a leg, grazed a bullet off his own head, and was snarling drunken accusations at himself in the mirror... he's not moving on from that. He's bottling it up with a nice dose of self-blame.

Cutting the legs off the unicorn for not doing it's job right and saying "served me right" about his fictional shark? There's a real dark knot of emotions there.

(Recall, too, that Edward deflected his hurt from Stede's abandonment into a "fictional character" during his chats with Lucius, and that delayed the explosion but couldn't stop it.)

So... Izzy's definitely coping with trauma in a way the show does not advise and often circles back to. Can we see any signs in 2x06 and 2x07?

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The Weight of Things Unsaid

At the very start of 2x06, Izzy gets the thing he spent all of 2x05 mentally bracing himself to never hear - an apology from Edward for his leg. He walks up to initiate conversation and begins talking like nothing has changed. Edward is back in his leathers. Appropriate, given that his penance onesie was nothing genuine, just "how long do I have to wear this fucking thing for?" And Izzy is ready for them not to address the obvious hurt, to just smooth over a few jabs and go back to normal... but even Edward's mumbled little "Sorry about your leg" is so significant and difficult he flees as soon as he gets it out, leaving Izzy to sit, incredulous, with the acknowledgement.

It's still almost definitely not enough.

There was so much between them in 2x01 - 2x03. The writers literally did BlackHands love confessions on both sides. An apology from Edward Teach - a man who historically does not apologize - is a huge first step but still only the first step. The real things unsaid are so much bigger than a leg.

We get something else, too... Edward commenting on Izzy's drinking.

"Jesus. Really putting that away, aren't ya?"

Izzy has had booze a lot this season. He lost a leg and pain meds aren't really an option, so not surprising, but notable. Edward, advocating for substance abuse to deal with bad feelings, calls him a lightweight in 2x01. When they are found with the dead seabird in 2x03, Izzy takes a pointed drink from his bottle, and then 2x04 he spends the entire episode completely plastered. He seemingly sobered up for 2x05 - probably to focus on sword training and his whittling project - but now the bottle is back again before Izzy disappears for several hours.

And a little liquid courage might explain his going all in for the Calypso's Birthday performance.

I do appreciate that the performance on it's face is something completely unexpected for Izzy, but when thinking about it... it does make sense.

We already know music and performance were available on Blackbeard's ship even before Stede. Edward learned to play shanties on the piano somewhere, and singing is a common and encouraged part of sailing culture. Izzy's choice of song to perform is something a lot more emotional, but this is probably not his first performance for a crew.

Makeup, too, is in fashion for men and women at this time, and OFMD has shown it as such before. Izzy has never worn fashion makeup, or tried to be beautiful, but the concept wouldn't be alien to him. Wee John's description of a dramatic party look might even have intrigued him specifically because Izzy has actually done "looks" before - of the terrifying "theatre of fear" kind. The Kraken did have his whole crew in makeup for their raids. Taking the opportunity to embody something a bit more vulnerable and try to bring joy to this crew that took care of him is meaningful as fuck.

And it's still a drag performance!

It's a good pair of moments - before and after Ned. Proof that all this isn't just coping method - that's not what I'm arguing here - and even if Izzy's still bottling up a lot of feelings he's not doing the same full pressure bomb thing as he did in S1. There's been growth!

(This is why the flags are only pink-ish / orange-ish right now.)

Episode 2x07 though... I'm not so sure he's doing good as much as pretending it's all good.

Showing up to make his joke in the morning is a fun moment. I especially enjoy Edward's little "fuck off" with no bite to it 🤣🤣🤣 Reminder they do live together on a ship, so this is likely not even close to the first morning-after that Izzy has gotten front row seats to. But, at least to me, there's also a very performative feeling about it. Izzy being very Look how normal I can be about you fucking your boyfriend, Ed - and Edward picks up on it too. That's why he turns to Stede and whispers "He's jealous" as Izzy walks away.

Izzy continues to make jokes and give advice through the day to our main couple, but he's... subdued. I think his fake chill also disguises that he and Edward aren't on the same page about what they discuss at the docks, hence his poor advice to "listen to it" when the "it" in question is Edward's immediate desire to run away from Stede and become a fisherman. They are talking again, but haven't resumed communicating.

I also think it's relevant that Izzy goes to try and support Stede after Edward dumps him, because we're still waiting for Stede to stop bottling things up. He doesn't talk about Badminton or feelings of inadequacy or even the babiest little olive branch to Edward about "hey my dad kinda sucked too." Edward's two exes are sitting in the bar corner together, thinking about all the shit they won't talk to him about until it kills all three of them. Exciting!

The pressure is building. It has to circle back to Stede in S3. I'm hoping at the same time, it circles back to Izzy, too.

Hoping we get to explore some of his anxiety, and his internalizing negative self-image and blame. At the moment, I think Izzy might have less gotten over his anxieties and more just let go of the wheel of his life entirely, and fortunately had people around to steer him in okay directions. It would be really interesting to explore that more.

(Even if I have some concerns they may not.)

---

Subtle as a Cannonball to the Face

Izzy's character arc was always going to be a long journey - not because he was somehow morally worse than everyone else, or required particularly painstaking growth, or even because there was going to be some great need to "hold him accountable" for S1. No, it was going to be a long journey from an antagonist start for the same reason I mentioned earlier: Izzy's core struggle is fear of change.

OFMD opens with two protagonists recklessly pursuing change in ways that harm themselves, their relationships, and others, and a primary onscreen antagonist resisting change in a way that harms himself, his relationships, and others. There's no easy morality here - they all fuck up. And they all require the entire show to actually figure out the correct balance of change and growth and facing the past.

"I think the three of them are on an arc together that's pretty inseparable." - David Jenkins (Source, 9 Oct 2023)

So... why is there a chance that everything I've mentioned above is going absolutely nowhere and Izzy's arc has been wrapped up with a bow in S2?

Well.

It's late March 2022, the fandom's age is still only countable in weeks, I personally haven't even watched the pilot yet, had only even heard of the show 3 days before... and one of David Jenkins first post-finale statements is telling people to pay attention to Izzy's POV and his and Edward's love story on rewatches (Source, 25 Mar 2022), and then soon after comparing Stede to a homewrecker in Edward and Izzy's toxic marriage (Source, 15 Apr 2022). Lots of links because this stuff was available to the fandom from the start.

By the first half of May 2022 (while poor Mr. Jenkins is still anxiously trying to get his series renewed for S2, since the confirmation won't come until June 1) the takes on Izzy have soured a lot. It's not a "homophobic gay" joke anymore. Now it's "Izzy is the embodiment of colonialism who enforces a racist and homophobic ideal of Blackbeard on Edward" and "pretending Izzy could be canonically gay is homophobic" and "Izzy bought Edward as a slave from the British". Harassing anons have already started on tumblr. No first hand experience with Twitter but I've heard horror stories. These takes are spreading like wildfire through the fandom, with a heavy backing of white fans accepting and spreading anything that sounds vaguely racially-conscious as something they just missed in their privilege and need to listen to POC about. Or listen to other white fans that say they've been listening to POC.

The anchor hoist in 1x09 (that was a complete directing coincidence, as the crew confirmed in late May) is being taken as incontrovertible proof that Izzy is a violent racist, and the relatively small Izzy fandom pushing back against any of these reads is being likened to toxic fangirls declaring Kylo Ren a poor widdle victim because they think violent white guys are so hot their brains fall out. This is happening loudly and in the public forums of social media.

Can you imagine being David Jenkins right then?

This is one of your favorite little guys, who you wrote a silly little homoerotic pirate jealousy arc for. He's kinda cringefail and tends to be a dick, but you cast a guy who you think embodies him with so much sympathy and genuine emotion. You're so excited to explore his direct relationship to the main couple of your series even more. Unfortunately, you and a lot of the cast and crew are also engaging maybe a bit too much in fandom spaces, which very few of you have much familiarity with navigating as creators. AND there's still renewal stress!

If I were him, I too would consider that perhaps my intended Izzy arc was a bit too nuanced and drawn out, and maybe I needed to clear up some misconceptions as soon as I got the opportunity.

Enter S2.

MAX reduced the budget for the season significantly and it shows - particularly in the whole thing having to squeeze into 8 episodes - and I wouldn't be surprised at all if worries over a S3 renewal / S3 budget impacted S2 writing as well. Character arcs got pinched, goals had to be prioritized... and from the looks of the season, "make sure everyone knows Izzy is not a homophobic villain tormenting Edward as fast as possible" came out as a big goal.

I mean they open with a dream sequence that literally mocks the idea of a heroic Stede rescuing Edward from the dastardly Izzy. It's not subtle.

And the lack of subtlety is kind of what's concerning me.

Izzy's arc is (I think) leaving enough threads that they can extend it into S3 with the reveal he's not actually fine and done developing, but they also seem to want his S2 arc to end in a place where maybe he is. Lots of giant signs pointing to him and saying "Look! Everyone likes him!" or "Look! He's also gay!" at the expense of some of his cringefail or dickish charm. My guy had anxiety he dealt with poorly in S1, and I do think they are trying to frontload or adjust the arc so he's basically (or at least seemingly) over that before the next hiatus.

The best way I've seen it described is that the show no longer trusts the audience to pick up what they are putting down, and so they feel the need to really hammer it in. Not necessarily OOC, but definitely de-emphasizing any of his rough edges that were originally just written to not be any worse than the other characters.

This is why Izzy gets shot by Edward in the very first episode for a bunch of complicated reasons that are really good character work and not super hard to discern, but then later they have Izzy point out to Stede why he got shot twice. It's all very "look into the camera and say the themes", because to some degree they are afraid everyone is going to get easily convinced Edward shot him for calling him a namby-pamby that one time.

It makes me worried they are too afraid of misinterpretation to commit to the arc they originally conceived of, even with the finish line in sight in S3.

And, again, I get it, Mr. Jenkins. In October 2022 he made a funny quip and a boner joke on a tweet about Edward's blanket fort and the hordes descended to scream victoriously about how he was cutting down the Izzy stans for their racist infantilization crimes of thinking Izzy would *checks notes* help hold up a blanket. It's a very reasonable conclusion that this fandom cannot read and needs to be spoonfed Izzy's arc.

It just sucks that a toxic section of fandom's misinterpretations appear to have undercut a strong - and, honestly, not that complicated - character arc so much that S2's BlackBonnet arc can be about fuck ups and backsliding, but Izzy needs at least the illusion of having no flaws left come hiatus time.

#our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd meta #my meta #izzy hands ofmd #izzy hands #character arcs #ofmd 2x06 #ofmd 2x07 #and here's my associated izzy meta because i love to talk about both my blorbos lol #ladyluscinia #david jenkins

[akiramona]

What's this, Cassadee AFK Journey fanart? 🤨 Ughh... sometimes hate myself for not drawing enough and ESPECIALLY not drawing my own thing--- BUT I was stolen by the colours and pretty designs and pretty style of the game 👉 👈 I've used it to cope with my recent endeavours 👉 👈

They're also having a fanart contest? So that was like the initial motivator and reason... But apparently, you have to post your work on insta or twitter so i ain't getting those participation rewards am i? NAAAH it will be FINE! They said 'should' not 'has to' >:) In the end it's just in game currency--- maybe the real prize was the art made along the way! And BOY do i like it :>> ...kinda... then i saw the time it took me to do ._.

Another reason was that--- i have an assignment to record a video and cut it and my procrastinating ass concluded that reccording myseld drawing and then cutting 16 hours of drawing footage mixed with chatting, playing videogame, watching youtube and occasional breaks (in which i didn't stop recording) was a good idea ^^"

Anyways, see you next time in infinity, folks!

#EsperiArt #AFKjourney #afk journey #ms paint #fanart #original art #artwork #my art #i don't know what tags i've been using #it's been a while #aaaaaand the video is still rendering ._. #it's been stuck on 2 minutes for a while now huh #it said QUICK export! >:(

[dollywheeler]

October 2nd, 1996

Dear diary,

Apparently, mom has run out of things to clean and is in instead coping with her nerves by continuing to sort through the stuff in the basement. She said she'd noticed some things while we'd been clearing space that she thought Mike might want back. It's already waiting by the door, as if she wants to make sure she doesn't forget - as if she only has one chance to give it to them. I almost tripped over the box when I rushed into the house to change and shower before coming here.

I don't think I'm nervous about it anymore. Sure, I'm worried about Mike and mom interacting - I have no idea what to expect from that. The theater had already been awkward enough that was only a conversation of about five minutes. Now they'll be spending the entire evening together. Hell, do they even know how to cook? Mike's letter said he could, but I just assumed he meant being able to boil potatoes and cook sausages to an acceptable degree.

It's going to be weird seeing him host.

The first time with Nancy had been weird like that too, seeing mom be the guest for once instead of the one in charge. Except, Nancy had been happy to let mom help, recognising mom's instinct to take care of her children. I doubt Mike will let her even step foot in the kitchen. Mike has always been stubborn like that.

I think he's caught on to me and Daniel - I mean, obviously he should have seen us at the dance, but he disappeared for a huge chunk of the night so I thought he'd missed most of the slow dancing. By the time I noticed him and Will return, the night was almost over and everyone was making the most of dancing with all their friends one last time. Still, he has this knowing look on his face when he watches us now, like he's sizing Daniel up. If he dares give his opinion though I might strangle him. So far he hasn't said anything, but he's generally been really good at being professional at school.

He doesn't go out of his way to talk to me unless I approach him first - which I only did to ask more details about Friday. Maybe I'm starting to look forward to it. Just a little bit. I just want to know what their house looks like from the inside, and even though it's going to be awkward talking about what they've been up to the last eight years, I can't help but be curious what life has been like for them outside of Hawkins.

The Stevenson's hallway light just started flickering, so I had to grab a chair and screw the bulb in tighter. Luckily that seems to have done the trick.

I hate when lights do that; it always sends chills down my spine. It's funny because I know it's nothing, it's literally just a faulty bulb, and yet I'm bothered by it. Sandy would joke it's because it wreaks havoc on my sense of perfection, which honestly might be the case. Blaming that one nightmare would make more sense, except nothing about that dream had been all that frightening. I think about it often, so even if it had been scary at one point, it's just a cool curiosity to me now, a weird association my brain makes; table lamp -> weird dream I had when I should have been too young to remember.

Speaking of; I handed in my final assignment for Will's class but I don't know if Will liked it. I mean, I think it's as well as I could have made it - even though the details on the wallpaper are lacking - but he always gets this weirdly pinched expression when he looks at it. Usually I would assume it was disappointment, like he'd hoped I would have done better, but even I'm proud of my drawing so I doubt that's the case. We'll see when I get the grade back.

Anyway, I'm going to get back to practicing guitar. I got distracted playing - or at least attempting to - 4 Non Blondes before, but I should get back to Where's My Mind? so that I can at least play one full song before jumping onto other things.

Love, Holly

#holly wheeler #the third wheeler #mike wheeler #stranger things #fanfic #byler #will byers

[arkus-rhapsode]

Fell Xenologue Royals

So this is a companion piece to a post I did listing what the retainers were apparently like in the alternate universe. But for the sake of completeness, here is the royals personalities. 

Alfred: Has ascended to king, was apparently more violent and battle hungry, now he’s clearly breaking down. The responsibility of king is weighing on him and he can’t cope. He just wants to go back to when the Divine Dragon was alive. 

Celine: More haughty and prideful than ever. She’s quick to action and irritable. 

Diamant: Clearly traumatized by losing his retainers. He’s very defensive and just wants to protect and secure things he cares about. 

Alcryst: Superiority complex, believes he should be king. Considers Diamant useless and himself more accomplished. Cares not for outsiders. Does blame himself for Lapis dying considering it his failure and sees normal Alcyrst self loathing as mocking him.

Ivy: Worshipper of the Fell Dragon. She’s very extroverted and confident. Haughty and evil queen like, she killed her own father to ascend to power. Never got along with Hortensia and constantly told her how much she disgusted her. 

Hortensia: Introverted and hates herself. Very miserable after years of being told how much of a useless wretch she is by her sister. Doesn’t consider herself cute and doesn’t like drawing attention to herself to survive. She doesn’t even have her heart mark on her cheek. 

Timerra: Hates singing and is vegan. She’s stuffy and stiff. She’s stoic and rules very upright and blames herself for the loss of her retainers.

Fogado: Sadistic and gleefully evil. He’s condescending and has fun playing with his opponents even if he doesn’t care to remember everyone he’s killed. He’s also unafraid of death, having died once and returned he sees it as something he’ll just come back from and go another round with.

#fire emblem #fire emblem engage #fell xenologue #fe Alfred #fe timerra #fe ivy #fe alcryst #fe fogado #fe celine #fe hortensia #fe diamant #alfred #timerra #diamant #ivy #hortensia #celine #alcryst #fogado

[clinicallyinsanedumpsterrabbit]

I already wrote out this entire thing but it didn't save so I am grumpy.. And there was a ton of writing. I am very very grumpy.

Anyway, I come with more feral side of Dave's soul content, because I love this emotionally unstable wittle creeture

He about to lose his shit in a jealous rage, he wants some loving gentle forehead bonks

Now for my art style that has more effort that took...

... *sobs in my art takes way too long to make*

(The lil comic took 6 hours.. These two pages apparently took 47... *sobs)

Now some facts about this clinically insane rabbit man.. (that I already wrote out before but it didn't save >:( ):

-He's still mostly jackalope as you can see from the sawn off antlers, as a jackalope he's "genetically" mostly hare, but does have some rabbit in him (specifically American fuzzy lop and some angora rabbit, what's why he's so floofy)

-He is indeed a rabbit/hare so he can be a bit um... Let's say "flirtatious" especially in the spring and summer... Tangerine men beware.

-As seen in the lil drawing of him being an angy lil dude, he may have some mild electro-kineses, he can't direct it anywhere, just zap things touching him, mostly when he's angy

-He hates the above power because it makes his fur go all static and uncontrollable, so he tries to never use it

-He and his reasonable side (I'll just call him Reas from now on) are constantly fighting, stressing Jack out a ton

-Reas tries his best to keep Jack away from Feral as he can be more dangerous and unpredictable than Reas, but with Feral also being just as, no, even more obsessive and possessive of Jack, this just makes him act out more.. Making Reas keep him away more, creating an entire negative feedback loop of misery and loneliness for Feral

-Since Feral feels so alone, he has sort of doubled down on the doctrine his so-called father figure taught him, trying to find purpose in his old work to not feel as alone and lost, but he'll never say he feels alone or lost, he has pretty unhealthy coping mechanisms, mostly destructive, making people keep even further from him and masking his misery with false confidence

-He's extremely emotionally unstable if you couldn't tell, but he's so extremely desperate for any positive affection that if the right person came along (pretty much any jack adjacent person) and gave him that affection, no matter how little, he'd just melt like putty in their hands... Sometimes literally, turning into some amalgamated goop rabbit, looking like glitchtrap at the end of Princess quest.

I hope you enjoyed how surprisingly dark and sad that got, and enjoyed my crazy ramblings about this damn lil creeture, may he haunt your dreams and cuddle all the versions of jack in your minds, bye bye for now

#art #digital art #dsaf #day shift at freddy's #dsaf dave #dsaf jack #davesport #dayshift at freddy's #i love this wretched little creeture so much #im gonna make him miserable for my own entertainment

[qedmirage]

Episode 10! This one took me a while. I got distracted by all sorts of things. The stage mechanic is a pain in the butt!! Even having had pre-prep with it from CC events, it is depressingly common for the artillery to switch targeting at the last minute because you missed one enemy in the pile of guys coming at you.

This little scrimblo is the face of evil. Cause of many leaks. If you're kind of sleepy or out of it or tired after a long day of work the Second Defense Artillery mechanic turns into a slot machine that sometimes just kills your clear for no apparent reason (you forgot that this character had 1 higher block than this other one) Story thoughts and unmarked spoilers after the cut!

I'm slow to get to Act 2 of the Arknights story. Over the time I've seen people in various fan communities talk about how they don't like it, how it feels slow to them, or how they think all the Sarkaz are irredeemable bastards. Well now with episode 10 I'm into it proper and while I see the complaints I like the story! I like reading academic works about military history and the history of genocides now and again, so, I'm definitely not the 'normal' audience. But the Kazdel Military Comission is very familiar and 'realistic'.

Theresis and his bros. There's not many...

First off it doesn't have the support of all, or even necessarily most Sarkaz. There's the Confessarius, a small secretive organization that's hung around the crown like ivy; the Sanguinarch of Vampires and the Nachzehrer king, two absolute freak monsters; the Damazti Cluster, who's just One Slime. Certainly Theresis has a lot of soldiers; but of the political leaders that make up Sarkaz politics, he essentially has the trust only of the most violently extreme half of things. Theresis's plan seems to be to simultaneously wage war on the nations of Terra, to restore Sarkaz glory or at least give teeth to their anger at constantly being persecuted. And man I don't think that's gonna work out very well for you! But the nature of the KMC and its job brutally occupying Londinium will drive away any moderates on its own. The KMC is radicalizing itself, from an attempt at governing Kazdel to what is functionally a murder cult, focused on just killing the highest number of non-sarkaz possible. It's not a happy story! And not one that, I think, is going to be 'fixed' by Amiya doing some cool sword magic. Victoria is on a fast track to becoming a failed state, and that's not going to be good for anyone around. Character thoughts! Blunted by having taken months and months to finish this. -Misery, it's cool to see another RI elite and this one's kinda, shifty? Behavior, is fun. Not a pillar of gung-ho courage, but he Gets The Job Done. -Mandragora, poor little meowmew. I do wonder if she'll turn out to have survived, I do feel some sympathy for her after the chapter was her getting kicked in the face repeatedly as everything goes wrong and her one friend dies -Manfred, this is the kinda guy who goes on trial at the Hague, but he's actually trying to like, run a country, so he ends up being one of the more reasonable KMC people. Yikes! -Damazti was very fun, their curiosity in meeting the Eartha crew is neat. Look forward to seeing more of the tricky slime. Closure is a great addition to this chapter, because you have the KMC and all the problems Sarkaz are causing and then RI sends in their Sarkaz and she looks like this:

How could anyone hate that face. Rita is another favorite from this chapter because she is just Not Having A Good Time, and it seems to only be getting worse. Is she coping healthily? Not really!

I think the Glasgow gang wasn't much of a draw. They're dancing around it, but it doesn't really seem like Vina wants to go kickstart the Victorian monarchy again, nor does the game seem to think that would fix things. So they end up kind of spinning their wheels, as the lion gets poked and prodded towards a thing she doesn't want to do.

#qedmirage plays arknights #arknights #arknights episode 10 #shatterpoint

[mecchimon]

"I dont support it in real life!"

Then why write about it? If for coping purposes, why post it online for others (especially actual predators) to see and consume? Then why portray those things in a positive light instead of condemning them?And you're seriously going to tell me that just because as an adult you want to see a fictional minor (that mind you, is usually designed to resemble an actual child) depicted in sexual situations doesn't mean you don't share that same view concerning children in real life? You find fictional minors attractive but not real ones? Why does the line between finding someone who is (and usually also looks like) a child sexually attractive get drawn at whether the child is real or not? I'm not calling anyone pedophiles, but if the shoe fits... And also no, I am not talking about 18 y/os finding 17 y/os attractive. Use your brain. Creating content of underaged characters is still questionable regardless of age, however.

Wow.

Well hello to you too. Thanks for the ask and I hope you have a great day.

Now, at what point during your scrolling through my blog, filled with Sanrio characters and drawings of adult fictional men. May I repeat, adult fictional men, did you manage to make up this baffling scenario that I somehow condoned pedophilia ? Where in the numerous reblogs of Pompompurin and My Melody did you see me wishing harm and abuse on real life children ? How does one even come close to that scenario ? Why do you guys immediately hear pedophilia when the word proship is involved ? "Minding your own business and not harassing others online regarding their ship" means pedophilia now ? Is this what we're doing ?

Do you know how crazy you sound coming into a complete stranger's asks to make up grave accusations without any proof whatsoever ?

Not even talking about how weird it is to assume that I'm condoning absolutely everything I post online because apparently fiction and reality are absolutely one and the same to you, and I'm not even going to toe that line considering you won't listen at all, why are you making this random assumption that what I'm posting is vent art ? Because I'm not a victim of sexual assault nor have I been assaulted or raped as a child. It's rude to make assumptions.

And who the hell are you to dictate what they should or shouldn't post ? Your own displeasure or ick shouldn't interfere in anyone else's business, what you should consider doing is actively shutting the fuck up and educating yourself properly on what the words that you spout actually mean, because you just sound dumb right now.

And how twisted do you have to be to casually imply that everything I post online enables pedophiles. Do you know how sick you sound right now ? Pedophiles don't give a fuck about me or my art, they just want to exert their power over children and rape them. And you are relishing in the idea that I or someone could be using my work to do that. That's a good thing to you, that a child could be abused right now ? Where you should be horrified and contact CPS or possibly the authorities, you find glee knowing that the person you're interacting with could be a pedophile who wants to sexually assault children or enable this ?

And excuse me, which children are you talking about exactly ? Because all of the characters in THH are confirmed to be 20 years old. Is a 20 years old a child now ?

You know, you should seriously think before finding random strangers online to acuse them of being pedophiles and maybe find real problems. Because by actively watering down serious problems, you're making things worse for children and those who actually care about children ? Ever thought about that ? You're not protecting anyone, you're making things worse.

Don't you have like, anything else to do ? There has to be at least one thing that you like to do instead of being this hateful, so go do that and stop such being a rude shithead online.

And now I'm disabling anon asks before more twats like you swarm in and start saying the vilest stuff because you think that you can do that with no consequences. I didn't put it there so you can say whatever like I'm a fictional character. I'm a real person, you cunt.

Again, I hope you have a lovely day, and go fuck yourself.

#proship #my first anon ask and this is the bullshit i have to deal with #yay i guess...

[dailycupofcreativitea]

Hello I love your blog so much and I was curious- how do you think Teen Gohan coped with the fact he killed someone? Specifically his father. After the Cell Saga of course. Like would he hve preferred he was dead instead of Goku?

^^"

Hey, thank you so much! And sorry I didn't get around to this sooner, it has been stewing on the back of my mind for ages and I wanted to draw something for it but couldn't come up with anything concrete...

ANYWAYS

I am very, very torn on interpretations for this tbh and swing many ways. I've read all the fanfiction and seen all the fanart, from Gohan being basically on the verge of suicide (I don't like those fics, but I've read them) to Gohan being overjoyed because he hated his father apparently (I, unfortunately, liked those at one point...) to Gohan having normal reactions and everything in between. Depending on my mood and the goal I want to accomplish in a story, the way I prefer he react changes. I also think many different interpretations sound more or less canon; I don't really have a staunch canon interpretation.

That being said, if you were to ask me right now I'd probably say...well, even now I'm torn XD My brain is thinking a few things:

He was fine, albeit a bit guilty at times. Goku made it clear to him during the Cell Saga fight that it wasn't his fault, that Gohan should direct his anger to Cell instead, that Goku was having a lot of fun with King Kai, etc. And it's true that without Gohan, the Earth wouldn't have been saved. And Gohan has lots of other support in his life: Chichi, Piccolo, Krillin primarily but also the others, and they would beat him up the moment they notice he's blaming himself again. So I think he mostly thinks about his father in a positive light: reminiscing on good times, feeling nostalgic, appreciating his father for protecting him, especially on Namek against Freiza (which seems to have impacted Gohan the most), and just generally thinking fondly of Goku, not having it tainted by memories of the Cell Games.

He felt guilty, but hid it well. This comes out in some DBZ games I think...there was that one game that had Cell come back and Gohan got angry at Cell, telling him he killed Goku, but Cell threw it back at him, and Gohan got angrier but clearly still beat himself up for it. In DBZ Kakarot, Piccolo calls Gohan out for still blaming himself for his dad's death, and Gohan decides to keep the Super Saiyan hair for a while to process his dad's death and his new role as protector. I think this Gohan channels his guilt into trying to be the new protector of Earth (in a self-destructive way, like "why can't I be stronger?" or "I have to be stronger so that doesn't happen again" kind of way), except that just makes him uneasy because Gohan's not like Goku and taking on the burden of being Earth's sole protector is a lot for him.

Gohan does say something like "I wish it would've been me" right after Goku dies. So I think it's plausible that this feeling comes back time to time, but I see this feeling coming back for any of the survivors (I'm sure Krillin's felt the same multiple times for multiple people).

Sorry for the essay LOL but those are my thoughts! Hope I answered your question and thanks again for the ask (and sorry for the long wait!).

Oh, to add: Gohan doesn’t like killing people, but Gohan has killed before. I don’t really know what Gohan thinks about the people he killed, but a lot of them were grunts and a lot of it was in self-defense -- I don’t think it keeps him up at night. Or maybe it does? I don’t have concrete interpretations for this, but part of me thinks it’s just par for the course of being an overpowered half-Sayian forced to protect his friends and save the world against genocidal villains...

#asks #this was SUCH a loaded question omg #in a good way #but wow i have no coherent thoughts

[mudefrau]

son of a witch x rammstein ❤️‍🔥

NO ONE ASKED FOR THIS but there is no musical so let me cope making a playlist. i've been writing this little thing since yesterday; i know no one's music taste matches perfectly so i give up directly exchanging recs with people, but this is what *i* like.

my song picks are mainly associated with liir, trism, shell, and cherrystone and here i explain why (sorry candle, despite being the musician, in my heart you become more relevant in out of oz.)

CW: typical r+ covers; soaw -typical dark themes

LIIR

of course the song called mutter (mother) had to be in. here, the narrator is conceived in a sterile way & the mother has abandoned him, let alone loveless in the world ("no sun shined on me, no breast cried milk"...) and he resents her. the resentment is a biiit strong for liir & elphaba ("i'll send her a sickness and throw her in the river")...THOUGH it ends with a repetition of "mutter, oh, gib mir kraft" (begging this mother to "give him power" eventually) which is SO them. (as a bonus, the sentiment matches a few of my hcs for shell & melena who died in his birth, hence "abandoning" him from shell's pov)

dalai lama is about fear of flying (the song was initially going to be called flugangst, literally, but the current dalai lama has a fear of flying in planes apparently and they changed it to this more unique title), it's based on a classic goethe poem. in the original, a father and his son meet an "elf king" who attempts to lure his child, the father tries to protect him in his arms just to find out he's already dead. in r+'s song, they meet the "wind king" but it's the father who accidentally holds his son too hard in fear and suffocates him to death. it's one of my favorite songs from r+, really underrated perhaps because it's not their usual style.

hilf mir's (help me) lyrics remind me of the fire of bengda since it's one of the rare r+ songs with fire that isn't pyromaniacally enthusiastic (lol). it's a child alone at home & feeling alone and they play with matches, accidentally puts on a fire and is calling for help; but also sorta trying to find company in the fire (?? it's how i interpret "the fire loves me, the fire loves me not"). this also reminds me of cherrystone-liir: liir SHOULD hate him to death given what he did in kiamo ko and yet cherrystone is (consciously or not) exploiting liir's craving for a fatherly figure so he doesn't. interestingly the bridge burning happened shortly after shell (/ his friends) burnt the scarecrow, i think of it as a parallel.

TRISM

well mein teil is about that one famous consensual homoerotic (?? its been a long time an i don't feel like looking it up again man) cannibalism case in germany. and i do associate trism with eating human flesh even if he's not the one doing it! (the dragons are) and something animalistic about it, about drawing the line between urge and reason, between human and beast, it speaks to me about him. i think that's a big theme in his character, who is used to training beasts and then lashes out at liir like one. because HE is trained like one. (by shell!!!)

SHELL

every rammstein degen sex song fits him and they have *a lot* of those so i'll just pick the iconic pussy. it's one of the rare r+ songs majorly in english because it's the pov of a foreigner, a stranger- just like shell is in southstairs: he's a dandy but he's coming down there for "pleasure" (and well, intel, in his case). the foreigner in question is going to berlin seeking legal prostitution and the lyrics, even if not super violent (compared to other r+ songs at least), show the narrator's entitlement to these women. shell DEF buys prostitution, it's hinted a few times; but the way he presents himself is as if he's the one selling himself. and even if i hc there's a part of truth, all we know for sure is that he's a professional liar.

CHERRYSTONE

waidmannsheil is a phrase to wish hunters success before their hunt. so this is a song about hunting, not necessarily military, about wanting to chase and kill the creature no matter whether it's on land or in sea. according to some interview with r+ it's about rape culture (since the song does specify "young female deer" as the prey), but i believe more than one interpretation is possible and to me it could well be about violence from soldiers in general (which, yes, includes rape).

#Spotify #playlist #son of a witch #gregory maguire #i thought i was going to include something from sehnsucht but eventually didn't a

[ryuzatodraws-archive]

Honestly I agree with twig. Seeing both terzo and copia preg seems to have really helped me view my own body and gender identity through a much more pleasant life.

I'm technically a seahorse dad. I was like just fresh into college when I had my squeaks. I had people yelling at me saying some very discouraging things to me the whole time and I remember just hating my body and feeling so disgusted.

But them I see these trans satanic popes looking so handsome carrying their babies and I'm just like yeah?? Yeah. Being trans and a dad rocks!!

- 🤡

CLOWN ANON IS THAT YOU? I MISS YOU MAN

like i know i used to not wanting to draw any of them preggers not because im disgusted, but because im afraid i cant portray them right without making it look comical if that makes sense? now im just reading more media about it and overall just learning to love your own weird bod. cuz thats your bod and it fuckin rocks. you shouldnt be afraid of your bod.

my coping mechanism is weird anyway XD but if it helps with my self esteem and apparently help other people as well i consider it as a small win :3

i mean hey who knows, maybe one day i will have a kid on my own

#we're all holding hands now #ask

[crevulois]

Watching Nimona: Spoilers (+Weird Thing I do Alone or With Family)

Sometimes when a gay scene comes on during like a movie (note I’m Bi Saying this) I actively try to emulate a homophobic recoil despite the fact most of my family knows I’m Bi already. Sometimes When I’m alone I simulate/play act my take on a theortical bigotted reaction too just to see how that’d go down..............Its a very weird brain thing Which I’m not sure is conditioning or just a strange cope trying to process this bizarre world covered in nonsensical bigotry.....Maybe its both......I just started watching Nimona btw. 

Note: Netflix Times

8:13 GOT, OH NAH WHATS IN THE SWORD?!?!?!?!?

WHAT THE HELLLLLL!!!!!!!!!~~~~ Ain’t NO WAYYYY~~y~~y~y~y!

10:39 That....I hate How the Pupils Don’t Move so Much 

11:43 Yaassss We Love Our Terrorist Queens!!!!!!

12:55 Thats a good ass cut away gag. 

14:09 The Profiling is actually extraordinary. Also I hate when stuff like this happens. Unless shes the villain or some shit it ain’t make no sense to not investigate that at all. 

16:20 Reminds me of that time shrek and donkey beat the shit outta all them knights in the ring. 

18:30 I like this track. If the rest of this movie is going to be like rock in the ost that’d be something I might have to go back to. 

22:17.....Thats.....So On the Nose.......

25:18 

???????????????????????????????

26:03 Nah She The Main Villain Bro. I ain’t Like the Way These Lines Being Delievered Rn. 

29:40  George Michael? also that sax segment in the song is the magic of steve gregory apparently. No Idea who that was before googling, but theres a fun little fact for you via my curiousity. 

33:20 WOW THAT IS SO ON THE NOSE!...........See I normally don’t care and being honest right now don’t even really care all that much as I’m still largely enjoying the movie overall. It just feels like.........There is a more provoking way I feel in which this theming can be carried out that’d feel less like being bashed in the head repeatedly by someone yelling “THEME! THEME!”. Like.......It takes me out of it somewhat, because I know there has to be a more graceful way to deliver the same point. 

34:18 

Nimona “leading me to a Wishing well”

Ballister “ A Wishing Well?! How did You Know it Was Just a Regular Well?”

Nimona “do you want to tell my story for me?” 

That transaction I like. I do appreciate the lining and framing of ignorance here.....Actually Maybe this is the right amount of non subtly and I just need to give it time. I get that the story is trying to set up the narrative that even within the realm of outcast there is ignorance and a lack of understanding of one another its just......It feels forced somewhat. Like Ballister needs to be ignorant over very dumb things so the story can draw out its theme and while it in itself speaks to reality it just....Bothers me how much the writing is really trying to gun it without like....any extra sauce to it. Feels too easy a Road. 

35:03 

“When them Vamps Outside lil Bitch You Better Be Ready.” 

“When them Guns Outside lil Bitch You Better Be Ready.”

37:39 

41:28 “who would protect Todd!??!” I love that line reading. 

42:13 I want to say I knew it like I’m smart, but that was so obvious. also DAMN this nigga Down Bad as Hell. 

43:12 Nigga Got the Dick All in his Mouth “Shaboing Boing” type beat......Also tell me if I’m out of bounds, but it feels weird the lack of dichotomy there is with race. It feels like its aligning towards like....the lgbt and racial things mixing in a blind way I don’t like seeing in real life as a thought process other people have, because it doesn’t hold any sort of intersectionality in regards to the split in these concepts. Like trans people equating their struggle and identity as exact equivalents to black struggles and black identity. It feels.....eh put simply....but idk what I am suppose to expect. Theres the

1. discomfort of like having to address that as white writers. 

2. A slightly higher degree of space management trying to wedge that between everything else thematically.

3. Seemingly Utopian-esque Environment in which such issues can be thrown into the hole of nonexistent/unexplored world building and ambiguousness.

.....Part of me wants to call it a tall order and off target, but another part of me just wants to say like “Get Better at Writing” kinda......But I’m not a writer and I don’t know if the white to minority ratio in that writing room would make any sort of execution of such Good or valuable to any degree So I’ll just shut up on it for now as I am clearly talking out of my boundaries a little without enough knowledge to make a truly proper deduction...........

44:47 This is a Really Good Scene/Moment no Funny Shit. 

49:38...You know....I just don’t like how obvious the framing is; taking in what i’ve watched so far. Its like less a matter of it being a bad thing inherently as much as it is an annoying thing to just kinda deal with throughout the film for me. 

Like....In the scene at 44:47 it felt more to the point with observable layers of depth just paying attention throughout the movie you can pick up on along the way all aligning to the topic/issue of “the model Minority”. Its a more neatly put together trodden piece of text/commentary. With Nimona She has good set up just within the world around her, but it feels so....unserious when they’re trying to push the trans allegory, because it feels so just....summoned for the theme rather than comfortably integrated within more of the dialogue or actual events. The same with like......The confusion Ambrosius has when he sees ballister with some random girl (Nimona). “You’re Evil AND BI!?!??!?!” It just.....Doesn’t Feel smooth in a way that is continuously noticeable throughout the movie in certain areas...at least for me.....

Though of course there are like Cool Moments like 44:47 and 34:18

Theres just what I feel to be an inconsistency in the quality of the deliverance of certain points per-say. Like “Is that it” is a common sentiment, but I might just be greedy with what I want from this 1 and a half hour animated film so Once again I’ll shut up on it, because I’m not sure if I’m being just reasonably opinionated and critical or Picky and ignorant. Its blurred to a point I need it to just sit a little so my actual problems can become a tad more clear.........Plus I haven’t even finished the movie lol.

52:53

“We’re Going to Kill The Director of the Institution Ballister.”

53:44

oh nah, Here She Go Going into Her evil Back Story and Shit. 

55:34 THEY GOT HER ASS HAHAHAHAHAHA

58:35 This going too well.....Also Conservative Director Apologist have to be going off in this universe if that video got that wide spread. Gnome Rogan and Mage Milo of yianiaus have to be Going Off in the mythical underworld of twattorium. 

1:00:40 DRAKEN!?!?!?!?!?

1:02:50 ??????????????????????????????

1:04:56 ........I’m actually annoyed. Just TALK nigga damn......I hate movies making things more aggro than they need to be to progress the story. 

“You’re a Ni-” 

That woulda been a very different movie. 

1:05:25  “Your Doors Broken” 

1:09:05 What the fuck???? Yo??? These Villagers aren’t shit (Takes a minute) ah I get it now. 

1:10:02 YOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! HA, She Really Said “Die Monster!” She a Whole Belmont fr. 

1:19:20 ................She a Whole Shooter.

End

wow..........They almost had me. I woulda been actually upset as fuck if thats how they ended it..........7/10. Pretty Good Movie. All the iks I have are like....Minor mostly and overall I had a fun time. Good Watch. 

#spoilers #Nimona

[majachee]

Sorry this is a v late ask but it's been simmering in my head

Why do people hate tmnt Raph?? I would've killed to have a brother like him growing up. He's the sibling you mutually beat up and then go out n get ice cream

Probably cuz he's "meaner" than his siblings and gets into fights a lot more, I guess???

Also, apparently in later seasons the 2012 writers decided to make Raph occassionally punching his brothers into a more violent comedic schtick? Which... Yeah, that sounds uncomfortable. 2012 Raph also had his few healthy coping mechanisms ripped away from him and he never got help for his anger issues, which is sad cuz he's literally a traumatized 15 year old. Some fans seem to take his more aggressive behavior and not-taken-seriously anger issues and conflated it to a more... negative, more extreme thing.

Raph is genuinely an interesting character in every continuity he's in, and its kinda upsetting that he doesnt get as much love as his other brothers (even Rise fanartists dont really draw him a lot, and he's the Raph with the least amount of anger. Guess it's cuz he's big and muscular, and people tend to gravitate towards drawing the skinnier dudes. Give Raph love smh.)

#ask #anonymous #maja needs to shut up tag #tmnt #text #long post #raph is my favorite though. i love tmnt raph. he is my son. i adopted him.

[petitmonde]

Arson (Daya centric)

TW: Arson and violence + it's bad

There once was a very angry punk rock girl named Daya. A lot of things pissed her off, but her current coping mechanisms didn't work. Drawing was fun until she tried to post her work online. The internet being mean as fuck, heckled her ability. So that hobby went to the trash pretty quickly.

Her three girlfriends, Gigi, Bosco and Jasmine, all smoked weed. Daya was calm when she smoked weed bunts with them. Truly happiness that was. Until some jerkwad came up to them to be a loser transphobe. He really ruined their vibe, so Daya punched him. Punching the transphobe felt good, so she did it again and again. The dirt bag laid on the floor, bloody face and all. What a loser.

If it wasn't for her three girlfriends pulling her off him, the cockroach of a human would have died.

"He's not worth the jail sentence." Gigi pleaded with her. She was right, logically speaking. So Daya listened to her.

"You're right. I'm sorry I scared you." Daya kissed Gigi and held Jasmine's hand. That little minx liked getting her hand dominated like that. Gigi still tasted like weed.

"Come here babe." Bosco grabbed her face by the finger, then blew smoke into her mouth. So hot. Daya would fuck them later as thanks for being such a hot piece of ass.

Everything would have been fine and Daya would have found a new coping mechanism, if it hadn't been for the cops that arrested her for assault. Apparently beating transphobes was illegal.

After a short stint in jail, Daya was once more free to find new ways to deal with her anger. She took up sewing these cute little grotesque bears to sell on Etsy. It went quite well, though now Daya is rich. Daya hated capitalism, so she dumped all her money into a pyramid scheme to get rid of it. Essential oils would take off any moment now and end the corrupt healthcare system. And Daya couldn't wait for that to happen.

Anyways. Daya still needed to cope with her anger. Reddit told her arson was cheap and available - and Daya couldn't deny fire was pretty. With a new sense of purpose in life, Daya made a list of things that could burn and die in a fire.

US Congress for being bitches

The Supreme Court (no explanation needed)

The Arby's that fucked up her order that one time

Canada

Grocery stores for being retail hell. Fuck you Sally for being such a petty bitch

Suburban housing

Satisfied with her list, Daya got to work on finding the necessary equipment to do the deed. She didn't tell any of her girlfriends of her plans, knowing they'd approve and then beg her to fuck them senseless. That part could wait for later.

Daya stole gasoline from BP oil as a fuck you for the oil spills and found a lot of lighters at a Walmart. To think people won't stop you if you just look angry enough. The Walmart pissed Daya off, and it was on her hit list so the only logical thing to do was to prepare its demise.

She broke into the back of the store then poured a good amount of gasoline on various items that would burn. She flicked the lighter open to set a piece of paper on fire, then dropped it. The fire quickly caught on and then Daya was gone. As pretty as the flames were, she couldn't get caught just yet. She had many places to burn down. Luckily for her the Walmart was close to suburbia, so that one also got crossed off her list.

Faster than a senator can lie about being involved in a scandal, Daya was at the Arby's that had slighted her. Capitalist scum, Daya thought as she put the place ablaze. The fire was glorious. She admired her work for approximately 2 minutes before getting the hell out of there too. An arsonist doesn't rest.

By contrived logic, Daya was now at the Supreme Court. It looked mighty flammable, and she was sure the Senate would be just like it. Damn police were around, but Daya was faster and quicker than them. In a mission impossible style breaking and entering, Daya was in the building. With her spite and anger, Daya set the place on fire just like the other places before it and skedaddled. Even the fire brigade showed up with the cops. They would have a hard time putting out all the fire Daya started and it served as the perfect distraction as Daya almost teleported to the senate.

The final destination before Canada. No one had caught her, she was too fast and furious 2 for them. Her final lighter got thrown into the building. "Burn motherfuckers." Daya muttered to herself, and so they did. Everything was fire and soot. She could hear the delicious screams from the scumbags.

Daya casually walked away from the glorious fire. Now only Canada was left. Well, that was until she got sent a nude by someone named Kiara. Fuck she was hot. How could Daya forget all the good booty calls she had in Canada? She shook her head. Canada is saved.

Daya went home to fuck her three weed smoking girlfriends. She deserved it after accomplishing so much.

#dont actually read this idk wtf this is #daya the arsonist #rpdr fanfiction #rpdr 14 #daya betty

[raishell]

     hey look, it’s lorelei cohen! they’re twenty-three years old, they’ve lived in shrike heights for eighteen years, and they’re currently working at life rose on. i heard they’re pretty indecisive, but i think they’re so good-natured at the same time. can they make it out alive?

tw: cheating

past

☁ lore is third child of the cohen family, leaving her smack in the middle with four siblings. middle child, and it shows. mediating is the name, avoiding conflict like the plague is the game. ☁ although not exactly family orientated, her siblings still matter a great deal to her. she's the fun big sister to her younger sister and brother, usually the only person who spoke to them like an adult and let them get away with many things their parents wouldn't. ☁ her parents always wanted a big family and they seem to be on the right track. they moved to shrike heights from maine when lore was five, and they lived here pretty much ever since. their house is located downtown. ☁ as a kid, lore absorbed any and all fantasy media she could get her hands on. a d&d nerd through and through, she also loved drawing all the characters at her party. she grew out of the phase in high school, but still pursued art and wrote horrible stories for fun. ☁ high school also saw her actually getting some friends that shared her sentiments. one in her friend group especially, a boy named rick, got close to her in a way that slowly bloomed into her first relationship. ☁ you see, rick was everything lore dreamed her first boyfriend would be. they dated for three years all through graduation, after which rick announced that he was getting the hell out of shrike heights and he wanted lore to go with him. by the merit of her nerdy hobbies, lore might seem like a shy and awkward person but her friends and rick knew better. she was ride or die for him, which meant that she was all in for this venture she still wasn't ready for. ☁ they moved to boston, got a place and both worked two part time jobs. this arrangement only worked because their respective shifts never coincided with each other and they hardly saw each other. ☁ as time went on, it became apparent to lore that this wasn't the future she wanted for herself. she had such little time for her art anymore, rick barely showed her any of the interest he did back in shrike. ☁ one day in 1986, lore went to see Labyrinth. ber boyfriend said he would be working, so she was by herself. the movie was cathartic for her. she saw her and rick's past mirrored in sarah and the goblin king, who spirited her away from her old life into chaos. except she wasn't sure if her will was as strong as rick's anymore. ☁ at the end of the movie, she noticed a couple leaving the threatre holding hands. that would be it, except lore knew exactly who the guy was.

present

☁ she moved back in with her parents to shrike heights that year. came to a few realizations about herself, briefly worked at creepie's bar and somewhat settled back into her old routine. ☁ leaving rick was the biggest choice she had to make for herself. bullet dogded, her family told her. her big brother had moved out while she was gone and they were more than happy to get their daughter back. ☁ lore is a bit more reserved than she used to be, less likely to share the things that used to excite her. one thing is constant though, art. she still draws her feelings, even sometimes her nightmares. her style is a lot more macabre than it used to be. ☁ when it comes to the attacks, she doesn't know how to feel. her or her family hasn't been personally affected yet, but she hates thinking it's only a matter of time. ☁ after quitting her job at the bar, gets a job at the flower shop in shrike mall called life rose on. she is aware of the recent attack there, though cannot begin to imagine how her coworkers are coping. she would desperately want to help them.

wanted connections

☁ really think she should have an enemy, or someone she doesn't get along with, that either knows or doesn't know the reason for her moving back to shrike but still uses that to spread rumors about her. ☁ dnd friends!! equally nerdy friends to talk about movies! ☁ an older, protective presence in her life who sees how lost she is for the past two years and is willing to help her find her path.

#shrikeintro #shrikeintro.lore