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inchidentally · 1 month

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Um, these 60 seconds of recent content between Lando and Oscar made me realize one thing, are these two really only knowing each other for a year or their whole lives?

the audience does not know !!!

like there's a very specific 'united front' thing I can see in a lot of partnerships and it's founded on different things but ultimately manifests in a feeling of cohesion between the drivers. (and I am so sorry bc I saw in passing someone else made a similar post to this but I cannot remember who so lmk bc I don't want to be ripping off their idea !! I have my own separate feelings about it so it's not a copy but still I wish I could have kept that on my dash long enough to rb)

like most teammates fall in the neutral category of professional politeness and friendliness but also the need to push for their own advantage wherever possible. totally fine and normal. also allows for a few fireworks occasionally which is just as good for fan engagement - sometimes more - than if the drivers were always cool w each other.

aberrations like Senna and Prost, brocedes, and sebmark are not to be included - way too unique. could even throw Esteban and Pierre in there.

you've got consummate professionals Lewis and George who are both careful about cultivating their own separate images and who hold a baseline of genuine respect for each other - but part of that respect being that they both know they'll look out for themselves first. so they're very much similar and equals even in operating very independently. ultimately they want the mess to get cleaned up and to shake hands and do business as usual. I could see them genuinely having to hash out something truly ugly and shake hands and move onto their own lives no problem. which like, they clearly have lol.

then there's a situation like Alex and Logan where the dynamic is so incredibly imbalanced BUT you have someone as humanly decent and warm as Alex (even if he maybe wishes he were less so for competitive reasons) and Logan has already become very skilled at dealing with being an outsider/almost unwanted :( and it's clear that they both see how hard-working they both are and what a massive thankless task they have in trying to just achieve points - undetermined if they're mostly friendly out of trauma bonding or will remain friends after being separated but there's absolute friendliness and respect.

then there's The Charisma Guys of Daniel and Carlos and now Lando (who mooched a lot of his F1 charisma off of Carlos and then Daniel). Daniel and Carlos replicate an almost identical dynamic with all of their teammates and it's predicated on what most drivers are already well versed in, which is: playing gay for fangirls, bromance hugging/camaraderie/ribbing for sports media and fans, and taking care of their own brand and career separately from their teammate. it's a powerful tool to have especially for leveraging the popularity of whatever bromance they're in towards their own image without having to lose power over their own image. individual sponsorships being a driver's second goal after winning races and WDCs also makes this an exceptionally good skill to have. it only starts to break down when the personal fortunes of one of the drivers start to hit hard times (current example being obvious).

the Carlos and Charles dynamic absolutely pulls a lot from the charisma/bromance stuff but the huge difference is that Ferrari would - like any F1 team - not give a shit if they didn't get along and just hitched on a bland smile for the cameras. Ferrari aren't remotely behind C2 being what it is, that's all Charles and Carlos. don't get me wrong Ferrari social media teams are MORE than happy to jump on! and sure, the challenges and content are a fun bonus thing to sponsors but three things here: one is that Ferrari IS the brand and they're a top 3 team like they're not grasping for sponsors asflgaslf. two is that as many partnerships have shown, you really don't need to do that much to satisfy the brief. and third, sponsors are like 99.999999% interested in the team's standings and the drivers' individual popularity with partnership popularity coming dead bottom - the bromances are only worth it if they're engagement darlings like carlando. and charlos doesn't do anywhere near those numbers or that widespread corporate social media appeal. you gotta do major impact with crazed fans for it to at all influence a brand's decision where to put their money. so all of the pop off the screen fun and genuine enjoyment we see Carlos and Charles have is fully legit. when they're being tongue-in-cheek levels of cutesy they literally say so. 2025 onward will see how much of a friendship there actually is, but as far as them being very happy with the partnership and collaborating exceptionally well within it, they're far more rock solid and natural at it than most. and the fact that they're if anything even tighter when there's zero incentive for it ?? and when their families and fanbases and their team principal and garages are constantly feuding ?? like it says everything about how much they respect each other and actually feel affection for each other to remain such a united front and so happy and affectionate. nobody else benefited from Carlos asking his team to tell Charles' team to come celebrate his win with him. nobody else in Ferrari or on the grid made bank off of about Charles rushing to congratulate Carlos while he was still in the car. (especially not when carlando did a quick hug and it got brands and official accounts posting tiktok ship edits to the predictable delight of thousands of fangirls. and for them all to cough cough conveniently ignore the embrace with his gf to push the image further.) there is no PR benefit behind C2 that would justify them hitching on such a dramatic facade - and if anything the people around them would prefer they kept separate so that they could celebrate one without the other. whatever their relationship is after this there will always be that massive respect IN SPITE of what the world around them wants.

but Lando and Oscar are such a major aberration not just in them both being so incredibly young and arriving into F1 so hot and already being so close in ability, but their specific 'history' and personalities. they were already such an easy fit together that it surpassed the professional need for a bromance buffer - and at the same time their bond being partly on how naturally private and shy they are made them poorly suited for a PR machine.

Oscar had already said - and a lot of fans already knew - that there were several friends in common and that the shifts in careers and being separated professionally by more years than their ages is the only thing that meant they'd never crossed paths before privately. as K said back when Oscar originally opened that TikTok acc it was so long ago that he followed Max F but that Lando didn't even have an one yet.

but also as many people close to Lando have said (good example that was posted recently) and that we can often still see in streamer Lando - Lando is very much like Oscar as a person at his core. pretty much all of the 'famous person' stuff we saw him become happened after 2019 and directly because of latching onto the social lives of guys like Carlos, Daniel and Martin. he's always referred to as extremely shy and he's said before he likes for others to lead. but his comfort place is still either hanging out in private with close friends only or to get on stream and laugh with his friends. Lando himself said that he considers Oscar to be very similar to him as a person outside of F1 and for all that in some ways that seems surprising, when you look at who Lando is when he's not in Professional Mode or Party Friends Mode he genuinely really fits in with someone quiet like Oscar who loves spending hours gaming w his friends and not being in public. I don't know enough about Martin Garrix as a person but I rly honestly see that with him as well. yes there's the Party Friend aspect but for them to travel solo for two entire winter breaks in a row ?? clearly Martin is a peaceful, quiet guy on Lando's level <3

and ofc I go onnnnn and fucking on about how while we all hate it bc it means we don't get as much content, the fact is that Lando and Oscar are the type of friendship/partnership where it's quiet and private and not something that translates to a bromance on camera. it's never going to be strategic.

so the fact that they have this "twinning" thing isn't that they are identical or that they even look all that similar, it's down to actually slotting in really well with each other as people! as always who knows how deep these friendships actually go but the whole mind-reading and synchronization and total lack of drama between them as drivers comes from genuinely being similar people and liking each other - that's what we're all picking up on when we watch them together.

the fact that they honestly find it awkward as hell when the media try to get them to "package" their friendship in bromancey soundbites or when they look at the camera a bit like an intruder that's making them dance their friendship around for media, like. that's so incredibly relatable for how any of us would feel with one of our actual friends having to do all that. having a camera aimed at us and some stranger being like "so you two get on really well huh?" and practically leaning in for an expected answer ???? it would be so stupid and weird and the whole way Lando and Oscar work together in unison to dispel how weird that is is so natural !!

idk it's like there's different things to take from different partnerships and literally all of us are suckers for a fun bromance and great professional chemistry. but I think this whole universal 'twins' thing that everyone sees in Lando and Oscar is genuinely two guys who are similar in all the fundamental ways and who actually slot together in ways where they naturally just agree on everything and therefore can predict a lot of what the other person is thinking if that makes sense ??? like yes Lando has Single Guy Party Times and professional motivations where Oscar does not but for a friendship and partnership to work, those are the two least relevant things to need to be similar about y'know ??

#inchreplies #landoscar #guess who won't shut up again it's me !!!#inchidentallyanessay #don't answer the same as me

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makoandharu · 4 months

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You've had a lot of haru with the tachibana in-laws hc, fo you have any makoto with the nanase in-laws hc?

yes but also it depends on what mood i am. Like am i in a "Nanase's are actually nice and not neglectful and Haru doesn't have abandonment issues bc of them" mood?

then, when Mama Tachibana was pregnant with the twins she was so incredibly fatigued that Makoto basically lived at the Nanase's for like half the year. Makoto would join them for every outing, big or small, he would go shopping with them and get to pick out his own cereal and favourite snacks and fruits, he was always allowed to have an input on what to have for dinner (if Haru was being extra grumpy then Mama Nanase and Makoto would just share a look before Makoto would say that he wants mackerel, bc they both know Makoto doesn't actually but that if they don't, then they're both have to deal with Haru's crankiness.) He joins them for big trips, of which there are many, the first time he visits the aquarium is with the Nanases, his first trip to an amusement part is with them; once during those 6 months they go to visit family in Osaka and Makoto joins them, bc ofc he does, he's family.

Papa Nanase is the reason Makoto can do maths. Whenever they come back to visit Haru, they always bring a present back for Makoto too.

When they're off to uni, I like to think about Mama Nanase teasing him about never having to worry about Haru back in Iwatobi bc she knew Haru-chan had his Mako-chan. Makoto would blush so deep, and she'd laugh at him. She'd tell him the only reason she could make such a difficult decision of leaving her son behind was bc she entrusted Haru to the one person who worried for him the way she did.

When MH are enganged, Haru says he wants to take Makoto's last name, but Makoto would feel super bad about it (bc Haru's an only child etc) but Papa Nanase would assure him that they're completely ok with it bc not only has Haru always been a Tachibana, but they're not "losing" anything when they're getting the best son in law imaginable. Makoto wears Papa Nanase's wedding tie to his own as the "something borrowed".

but when I'm in a bitter mood I just need Makoto to be resentful. He'd never say anything bad about them in front of Haru, bc Haru never has anything bad to say. But even that passing comment in s2 when Makoto asks when his parents will come home and Haru says at the end of summer, and Makoto responds with "your parents are such free spirits" i need that to be a snide remark that Makoto can't hold back. I need him to be petty. Because they're Haru's parents, Haru who's precious and deserves every ounce of love a person has to offer, Haru who is kind and independent and doesn't like to make a big deal of things when it comes to himself. Haru, who's looked after Makoto all his life, but never had anyone to look after him. Any comment about not needing to worry about Haru bc he was "in good hands with the Tachibanas" would not be met with kindness from Makoto. Yes, the Tachibanas love Haru like their own, but they should've loved him as such WITH the love of his own parents. The Tachibanas shouldn't have been a replacement. Makoto would be calm when tearing them apart, never raising his voice, never getting rude or disrespectful, but he'd be thorough, and absolutely make them face their sins.

#ask #anon #headcanons

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saintsenara · 1 month

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I always thought that wizards weren’t immune to muggle illness but that they just had advance technology (magic) to help them fight it more effectively. When muggles are able to create medical advances throughout the years their average lifespan goes up and I just figured it was the same with wizards (so basically if wizard didn’t have access to any spells or potions for some reason at the age of 100 they’d be in the same state a muggle would.)

i suspect this is what the text would say it was going for [although, given that the wizarding equivalent of lemsip makes steam pour out of your ears, i don't entirely back it...], but i am definitely fond of extending the wizarding world's generally old-fashioned technological vibes into the medical system and assuming that they're still stuck in the age of leeches and ron's horror at the concept of surgery isn't anything to do with wizards having evolved beyond needing this but because they don't know what anaesthetic [which begins to be used in the muggle world in the 1840s] is.

the separation of the muggle and wizarding worlds happens hundreds of years before the modern discipline of medicine - its principles, specialisms, and systems - is invented. and this is also the case for other scientific disciplines - chemistry, physics etc. - which undergo their major period of expansion from 1700 onwards.

it's striking to me in canon that a lot of the worldbuilding around wizarding science - by which i largely mean the way the discipline of potions is written about - draws on the medieval and early-modern history of science. the magical ingredients which are integral to so many potions are traditional herbal remedies in the muggle world - dittany, for example, is mentioned by hippocrates [who died c.370 bc] as a cure for wounds. it's important to note that many of these herbal remedies did and do genuinely work - many modern medicines are developed from botanical sources, modern doctors owe a great deal to our colleagues from centuries past, and modern patients should be aware that herbal remedies are not always benign and that they can interact incredibly badly with other medications - but the fact remains that their preparation and application would seem baffling to someone working in healthcare today.

i like the idea that wizards' longevity is either a fluke which applies only to the lucky few [virtually no hogwarts students appear to have grandparents, which suggests that life expectancy is actually lower than the muggle equivalent] or that it's something which comes with having the magical gene - and that wizarding medicine is a discipline which has developed independently of the advances in muggle medicine to still have a slightly... archaic vibe.

after all, in 1689 - when the statute of secrecy was signed - britain's doctors were all rushing to prescribe an exciting herbal remedy which had been "discovered" in the colonies of the new world, but which it would be absurd to find offered on the nhs now...

what was it?

chocolate.

#asks answered #on medicine

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blacknidstang · 2 months

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Big personal rant

For the time i was logged out i learned this one thing that as great and peaceful and amazing as it is to be away from extremely ridiculous online, especially fandom discourse and have no argument in your head about some fictional character and feel squicked by dumbest shits possible, fixating on such thing is truly the brain's way to avoid colossally horrible real life situation and worries. Like i truly felt a sense of superiority not being bothered by any poll and bad fandom takes but you know what was on my mind when i woke up everyday? If the direct war actually starts here what do i do? How do i escape the country, how doomed i am, how much of my life is wasted. What am i doing. Even if i don't get bombed, am i in the right track of life? Is everything pointless? Am i wasted and done for?? What do i do with my anger, what do i do with my sense of being trapped because I can't find the independence and I don't where i should be right now and i dont know if someone i love would one day hate me so hard and i dont know my close friend even sees me as a friend and i dont know how to deal with the world that could never rise up to the bully who is committing most atrocious genocide and there's so much hopelessness and confusion in every inch of my life that maybe thats why i was feeling so much anger when i would see a dumb take about how straight sam is because, god knows that doesn't matter, but it's easier to be angry with and get over bc everything else is sooo impossible to move on from. Anyway sorry. my panic attack is over but the horrible mess in my head is ongoing and i cant stop crying so please forgive me and dont mind this

#personal rant

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permettez-moi · 7 months

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The burning bridge audiobook thinkies:

So you are telling me that in the burning bridge alone, we discover Halt has not only tossed a baron into the moat, but he also yeeted Gilan in the river before making him his apprentice, I fear that's where it started (or maybe he's dealing with his past trauma xD)

Also the fact that Halt basically yeeted the baron in the moat bc he missed Will so much

Halt admitting that his grim face is trained 'cultivated over the years'

The reader of the audiobook reads Alyss as al-iece/ al-is / al-ise (he kind of drawls out the 'yss' part of her name, instead of saying Alice, which is how I say it in my head, which is therefor the only correct way, so it hurts my ears

ALYSS BRINGING UP THE MOAT INCIDENT

HAHAHAH I'M DYING TO THE FACT THAT ALYSS BASICALLY SAID SHE'S SCARED WILL WILL TURN OUT LIKE HALT (grim and silent) (also the fact that, when Alyss died Will did turn so brb crying)

I am obsessed with Gil fangirling about Horace's swordmanship

OMG OMG OMG the scene where Halt and Alyss are out to convince that one absolute asshole of a baron(?) To hand over troops to Arald, because he has refused before, claiming independence from Redmond fief, and he is being a misogynistic shit, and Halt steps up, SAYING HE IS TO ADRESS ALYSS AS 'LADY ALYSS' AND NOT AS GIRL OR SWEETHEART OMMGGGG I AM FANGIRLING SO MUCH, MY HEARTBEAT GOT RAISED FROM THIS

I am dying please help

THE BOOK STATES THAT HALTS BOW IS 60 KG, AND BECAUSE HE HAS TO DRAW IT OFTEN AND EASILY, HIS ARM PROLLY HOLD A LOT MORE STRENGTH THAN THAT, AND I GENUINELY DON'T MEAN THIS IN A HOE WAY, BUT I WEIGH BETWEEN 60-70 KG MEANING HALT COULD PICK ME UP WITH EASE, AND IT IS DOING THINGS TO ME

3 people. Halt has, so far, tossed 3 people in moats. I always thought it was just the one guy. (And Gil isn't technically a moat, but I am counting it)

Let's not talk about Halt kind of crushing on Alyss after she kisses him on the cheek. Let's just pretend it doesn't excist

EVANLYN EVANLYN EVANLYN

Not Gil saying he'll hang the bandits

Okay okay, hear me out, Evanlyn/Gil (or Cas/Gil)

Poor Duncan thinking Cassie is dead makes me cry

Crying again at Duncan discovering Cassie is still alive

The small detail that Arald, too, was sad about Will being kidnapped

Halt crying about Will

Okay but Gil seeing Horace's move with the dagger before anyone else is a really fun detail

Morgarath is called insane here, and I think it really works

RODNEY SCREAMING TO LIL BABY HORACE BC HE'S AL WORRIED AND UPSEt

The scene at the boat between Halt and Will is being listened to in class, and my emotions are very hard to contain

Help I finished it already, but it's like €10 for each book, and they're only about 10h of listening time, which is approximately a full school day (I listend while I work) and when I tell you I don't have to money for this 😭😭 (any of you know where I can 'loan' the books read by William Zappa?)

#ranger's apprentice #ra #rangers apprentice #john flanagan #the burning bridge

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furiousgoldfish · 1 year

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what are some suggestions to get some form of freedom under extremely controlling parents?

I heard it all, ‘you’re an adult you don’t have to listen to them’ ‘just move out’ ‘you shouldn’t be doing what they tell you to’ etc but it’s just not that simple, and nobody seems to understand.

I currently live with them, and bc this economy is terrible and I’m not financially independent, I’m unable to break away from them anytime soon.

And it’s depressing whenever they try to make me do things I don’t want to do, or constantly having control over and using some of my social accounts, or be controlling over as much as my life as possible, and I’m powerless to stop them because according to them they ‘are my parents’ who ‘gave birth to me’ and ‘raised me through hardship’ and because ‘I’m the kid’ and ‘it’s for my own good’. Not to mention all the other familial issues that caused the trauma I’m going through right now, the trauma that I learned that I had because I finally attempted to learn more about myself.

But anyways

Thank you for being the voice that the most of us aren’t able to have, and keep up the good work

You're right, that advice is bad. Controlling parents don't just tell you what to do, they enforce it. There are consequences, and most often if you don't do as you're told, you're risking abuse, fear, panic, and negative changes for your own life. You're risking losing something, being punished, humiliated, threatened or worse. It's a serious problem, not something you can change by just acting differently or saying 'no'. And moving out is not easy! Especially with controlling parents, who often go to great lengths to find out just what you're up to, and to sabotage you.

It's heartbreaking you have to deal with all this, and trauma on top. I wish I could offer you some good advice, but all I know is that resisting control can often end in abuse, and the only things you can control are those you keep secret. I'm sure you already are doing absolutely everything you can. It's good to write down what they're doing to you, whenever they do something, so you know you're not crazy and they are, in fact, abusive and controlling.

I can tell you that none of it is for your own good, and that you don't owe them obedience for being born. If they raised you with expectations of servitude, thats on them. But if they enforce servitude, they're infringing on your human rights, and you're right to recognize this and to hold them accountable (once it's not dangerous to do so).

The only way I'd managed to get a slight bit of power over my parents was to threaten them with the police if they attempted to get too violent or abusive, this only sometimes worked, because often they would just claim it's not illegal and get siblings to agree and proceed with whatever they wanted. It's good to collect evidence on their abuse and stash it somewhere safe (behind a computer password, for example, and secured in an email account).

Another way to gain at least a little bit of autonomy would be to refuse to share information, for example if my parents asked how much money I have saved up, I would repeat 'I am not obliged to give you this information' until they would stop asking, and I wouldn't say anything else. They have slightly less power if they don't have the knowledge of what you have, where you go, and what you do. (But also, I don't know how controlling yours are and if they're tracking your every move, I know some parents do this as well.)

I wish you good luck, and I'm sorry you're forced to live like this. Nobody should be forced to live like this. If anyone else has any advice on how to gain a bit of your life back from this while unable to move out, please share.

#abusive parents #controlling parents #child abuse

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alphabetboyluvr · 6 months

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hiii holly! i hope november's treating you kindly so far!

i wanted to ask whether you have any advice for writers that are just starting to publish. literally any modicum would be greatly appreciated.

it's really hard to assess whether one's writing is any good when literally no one ever reads it :( at the same time, I know I should write for myself first and foremost. can't help but want to be held accountable by the possibility of an audience, tho (maybe that's just my brain chemistry??) I fall into the pit of thinking "if no one's reading it, why am I even writing? I can daydream indefinitely and be satisfied. Why write?" Yet I always come back to writing; it's something magnetic.

it's not the same to ask close friends to read ur stuff bc they are ur friends, and may not give you the sincerity ur looking for so as to not discomfort u. conversely, they might not be interested enough so as to pick up on the fine details.

f/u question: how do you deal with publishing your work on the internet for free? does it ever scare you that strangers could copy and republish ur work without your knowing?

I guess that's one of my main apprehensions about posting loyally on writing platforms. I'm scared I'll write something I'm very proud of and have it plagiarized and not be able to track it back as my original property??

anyways, enough of my self-exposing on your q and a's feeling v vulnerable sharing my doubts so openly lol

thank youuuu :) ly <3

hiyaaa!! it's getting chilly, i won't lie, but other than that November has been pretty typical. likewise, i hope it's treating you well too!

honestly the fact you casually drop words like modicum probably suggests you're a paygrade above me in terms of writing hahaha

my answer is a long (srsly i just kept on going lmao) ramble, so I'll put a read more here haha

i've many lovely friends who i absolutely adore that I've met through writing that are now irls, but none of my friends that i know independently outside of writing have ever read my stuff - I've even got irl friends who are deep in the ao3 trenches, who are paying for other tannie writers' patreons, but we have an unspoken rule that my work is not to be read by them. i just don't let my friends read my work, full stop, so i get that sentiment.

the thing is, humans are naturally inclined to be storytellers - it's been that way for thousands of years. our tales are meant to be told. sharing is just a very human thing for us to do.

I've been publishing on wattpad (within the tannie space) for 4 years, now. readers didn't appear overnight - i actually recently found a screenshot of you up? from march 2021. it had 28 parts, 2.03k reads and 313 votes.

it now sits at 62 parts, 1.45million reads and 55k votes.

that's a little bit perspective for you, i guess - i'd written half of an entire novel that was averaging around 70 reads per chapter, but i loved that world, and i had story to tell, so i told it. some people viscerally hated it, some loved it. i was writing for me, and the numbers prove that. if you worry about the numbers, you'll never satisfied.

similarly, comparison is the thief of joy, or so they say.

comparing yourself to other writers is never healthy. there are far more 'successful' authors on wp in terms of reads, but i genuinely mean it when i say i think i have the most fulfilling and rewarding space on tannie wp because my readers are so unbelievably lovely. i wouldn't trade my current readership for bigger numbers, not a chance.

in terms of plagarism, there are 170,000 words in current use within the english language, and 36 plot types. we've exhausted a lot of them, already. overlap and similarities are bound to occur, so i try not get fixated on it.

take cv for example - i was so gassed up with myself when coining the terms mono and multi, only to find out after i'd finished writing the story that there was a drama with a similar concept that also used the term mono for a similar condition that aired after i'd already started writing cv. overlap happens.

similarly, we're a product of the media we consume. endeavour is my favourite word, because it was in a song i liked when i was a teenager and it stuck with me. i use it all the time, and we can trace it back to the pen of alex gaskarth lmao.

I've seen readers of mine publish work that's been heavily inspired by my work - with and without 'permission' - and i just sort of shrug my shoulders whenever i notice it.

the way i see it, we'll never tell the exact same story. likewise, no two readers will ever read identical texts the same way. i encourage creativity, and know how important it is for me to empty my brain, so I'll never go for someone's throat for doing the same. that's how myths were born, right? people telling and retelling the same stories over and over again? how am i gonna write a romeo & juliet x greek mythology inspired fic and then get annoyed for someone taking inspo from me?

just like the way hair will always grow back after a terrible cut, new words can always be written after a disappointing discovery. idk, i just don't take it very seriously, i guess.

as for whether or not your writing is any good - it's totally subjective. there are people who have explicitly, publicly stated their disdain for my writing. I've had cruel opinions about my writing projected and amplified to large followings. and it sucks.

but there are people who have been exceptionally kind about my writing, too. i get some of the loveliest messages in the world. there are tiktoks with hundreds of comments of just unadulterated loveliness directed towards my work. I'm afforded so much grace and love that it can be overwhelming at times.

not everything is for everyone, and that's okay. you can't let yourself get hung up on pleasing everyone.

the one thing i will say, is that if you're seriously concerned about your IP, write original characters, and use wattpad as your platform. i know they have a reputation, but they give a shit about copyright infringement and the second someone gets reported for plagiarism, they'll investigate it, and take down the story.

no reward without risk - you gotta decide if the risk of plagiarism is worth the reward of sharing your work.

and plus, ai is taking over anyways. may aswell write while we still can lol.

so i guess tl;dr - don't let outside influence impact your internal need to create. the right readers will find your work eventually, but it's not an overnight miracle kinda thing. if i stopped writing just because i didn't see results in my stats, then i would have stopped after kumiho, and we'd have never gotten throttle, or bd, or anything else of mine you might have read.

do it because you love it, and it fulfils you. i love the communities built around my stories, and that's why i share them. writing without sharing doesn't fulfil me in the same way.

okay i've really rambled too much so i'll leave it here, but i hope that helps a little!!! or at least has given you insight into my brain!!!!!!

luv u byeeeeeee

#ask #honestly im not sure im qualified to answer this #but i really appreciate you asking me for advice #sorry for the ramble lol #hope it helps a lil #if u publish #lemme know!!!!

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summercourtship · 3 months

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Um… hi Kyra! Be prepared bcs this will be a long one…

So, I finished KCU about four months ago, and let me just say that I think it’s a masterpiece, everything about it is perfect, one part in particular that I loved was how relatable the reader was (Believe it when I say it, it is HARD to do that, especially when you don’t know WHO is reading) I could definitely see myself doing exactly what she was doing! I loved how possessive Kylo Ren was and how he as also extremely conflicted about the reader herself, you managed to portray his turmoil really well! A part that BROKE me was when Leia was talking about how he got his soulmate phrase… Damn… you’re telling me this kid, that already thought of himself as a monster, was super happy that he HAD a soulmate, because that was a confirmation that he could be good and be loved unconditionally by someone, only to have his hopes CRUSHED when HIS MOTHER read to him what it said???!!!! DAAAANNGGG GIRL!!! You woke up and chose violence!!!!

But anyway, let’s get to the point that I wanted to get… ahem… if you’re comfortable… AND ONLY IF YOU’RE COMFORTABLE… (if not, ignore this part all together) I wanted to know if you have plans to continue it, i have been searching in your profile (stalking) for a reason why you stopped(not that i am obligated to have one!!) and the only thing i could find was that you stoped writing for KCU was bcs you felt that people wanted to end in a certain way and you didn’t (I could be wrong btw it has been a long time since I saw it) and that’s so sad! BUT I am really happy with the chapters we have! I love re-reading them! In the end you should put yourself first, if it’s not making you happy then you should not stress about it!

Also… if you don’t have any plans for it… I think it would be really cool if showed some BTS! I saw the other ask saying the same thing about STBOTDI (amazing fic btw) and i thought “hey it would be pretty neat if she did it for KCU too!” so if you’re feeling generous, feed this starving woman?

Anyway! thanks for listening to my rant! Thats all Folks

oh, kingdom come undone, my beloved. thank you so much for your kind words- it's been a while since I've looked back on KCU. I'm pretty sure I cackled when planning the part with Kylo's soulmark and the revelation about how it appeared because it's so sad lmao.

I do have plans to continue it, eventually. I want to go back and edit earlier chapters (and truly EDIT them, like overhaul level of editing) because I want to put it back on track to the vision I had for it originally. A big part of why I kinda fell out of love with writing it is because I felt like there was going to be a lot of people upset that I didn't make "Ben Solo" happen because fuck that shit, I like Kylo Ren bc he's a piece of shit who is sad sometimes not because he's an uwu soft baby who made a lil mistake.

But also, I started writing it in a really hard time- I had been dealing with extreme isolation due to both COVID and some things that happened with my friend group that ended up separating me from them (I had my family and I'm very grateful but there were months before I returned home from my college apartment because I wanted to be independent and believed it wasn't that bad and ended up just... not coping well with that, I'm afraid). I started planning KCU when I was in Pennsylvania for my grandmother's funeral and was writing it while dealing with extreme anxiety and depression combined with the struggles of being on different medications. So, while I do hold KCU in my heart and I love it, I do view it as a time capsule and know that I was writing it to distract myself from and cope with the shit I was dealing with. All of that makes it hard for me to go back to it because it feels very vulnerable, even if it doesn't come through in the text. I don't know if that makes sense.

BUT yes, I would love to one day go back, give it some TLC, and finally finish it for you all. I don't know if I have any BTS I could share right now because I really want to sit down with it and fix it, but once I'm comfortable with the state it is in, I will share.

Thank you so much. <3

#oops i got personal!!!!!!!!!!#ask #anon #kcu

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creamy-boy · 7 months

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🥹🥹me when someone else sees my vision of Alfred with a lactation kink and most likely has a wg kink. bc look at this man and tell me he does not have at least one of the above.

Ok but like, first off, a classic, rusame, i need Alfred to be like 5'11, hefty himself, but Ivan is 6'9 and he only ever feels small around him, and Ivan, as we all know, has fat fucking tits, and just through some bulshittery, maybe via a surplus of food, both in the man and the nation, he is lactating and ooohhhh Alfred has to drain his tits and fukcing makes the most of fondling his love handles and tits and ass and everything else.

Another one, bit screwy (i hopw you don't mind USUK), but Arthur cocked up and he is now lactating, which is not the best for I'm since you need nutrients to lactate and the man forgets to eat for 3 days in a row quite regularly, but unlike with Ivan, Arthur is thin as a rail, and is also not ready to admit that he cocked up so bad till some Shenaniganery(tm) has Alfred's attention drawn, and he takes full advantage of it, Arthur is a good deal smaller than him in most manners, and he treats Arthur like glass, when Arthur wants to be treated as rough as Alfred could (Arthur, the whore of the seven seas and beyond hshdhdfh) and he ends up absolutely demeaning him and, turns out, the hornier Arthur gets the more he lactates, and the hungrier he gets, a self perpetuating cycle that Alfred feeds (ha!) into

I have more, but please to tell me if any of this is going too far

Okay okay SO Admittedly I am not the biggest (lol) weight gain (I assume that's what wg stands for) person HOWEVER!!!!!

In small doses I can absolutely get down with it and I can TOTALLY see Alfred seeing a little chub on his partner and loving it esp as a sign that like he's taking such good care of his s/o and treating them well and besides he's soooooo touchy-feely all the time it's not like he would turn down to opportunity to have a lil more bod to squeeze and hold onto ahsjddfl

Not to mention he would love love cooking for his partner and bringing them takeout. Despite all his talk of independence he loves to serve lmao

Also I swear every time I draw Ivan I try and draw his tits fatter than the last time I wanna squeeze his chest so bad fr!!!!!

And on ur second one I USED to be massively into usuk/ukus and while it's been slightly pushed aside in favor of rusame/amerus I do still enjoy it and I'm lowkey reminded of an old rp that had Arthur w cute lil accidental magic tits and Alfred could NOT keep his hands off em esp w how Arthur reacted bc like it was kind of a new sensation!!

#raaaaagh now i wanna write/rp/draw more hdjjfk #wfsn #hetalia #aph america #hws america #answer time

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thoughtfullyrainynightmare · 11 months

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this might sound random, stupid even.. but have you ever desperately felt like you wanted to be a part of black clover? like, you ever wanted to be friends with the characters in that anime? i feel like this often and it makes me so sad and disconnected from reality, i don't know how to deal with it. but i was wondering if you had ever felt something like that. sorry if this is super weird ;-;

Hmmm...

I don't think I can say that I've felt like I want to "desperately" be a part of the show, but I've had intrigue of it. As in, I've had the line of thought of "wouldn't it be funny if I was isekaid and..." which has resulted into multiple scenarios that I've played through.

Sure it'd be interesting to sit down with them and have a chat. I know I would love to have a conversation with Fue and... though I know that he doesn't need my sympathy (let alone pity; and I don't pity him), I would like to tell him how strong of a person he is for dealing with everything he is dealing with.

Which is why I wrote a book (or 2 and am writing the 3rd), where I can write out a lot of the things I'd like to say to him. I suppose that's my way of getting the things I want to say out of myself. But it's more about the story in my head that "wants to be told" so to say.

When I was younger I used to feel very disconnected with the people around me, but then again I was always independent. That's to say that it's not that I didn't have friends, but that I preferred spending time by myself because I didn't feel that I had such a deep connection with them. But nowadays I have a spouse who makes me feel very connected, so it's difficult to relate to the feeling right now.

The wish, and longing, for a genuine connection isn't weird though. And the thing about characters, in shows such as BC, is that they're always there. We see them being supportive and caring, and we want something like that for ourselves, because we want to be cared for.

I'm not sure what else to say, really. Because I don't think that the wish for a connection with people is strange by any means, but I do genuinely wish that you'd have such a connection in real life.

thanks for dropping by ^^

#anon flamelets

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roobylavender · 5 months

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I wrote this during my breakdown so I'm not actually crying rn jshshjs

Being in a desi family means no matter what I'll do for my parents, I know they will always choose my brother over me, well at least my father will. I will never get the justice I deserve as long as I live in this family. Sure, my mom tried for me but that only lasted 5 minutes at most before she gave up. Maybe she knew it will never happen so that's why. It still hurts tho. Only trying once and then never again. And instead preaching ME to not get on my brother's bad side. I really, really loathe living in this family. I loathe desi men. My parents will never raise their voice for me to my brother. They will never defend me as he continues to bully me whenever he wants to. And as I continue to type this as I cry, I know it's pointless. Tomorrow I will act like nothing happened and continue to please my father, as if I don't have this thoughts running through me everytime I talk to him. I will continue to talk to my mom as if I don't think how she will never fight for me even if I told her all of this. Because what is the point knowing it will cause a meaningless discourse in the family that will only last a few hours or a day at best and embarrassed myself. Knowing it will be me who will get lectured. And I'm not even crying because of my brother rn it's the fact knowing my parents never did, and never will fight for me. I might've forgave my brother if only my parents did something and he apologized. But they never did. Every day I loathe and love my parents. Being in a desi family sucks.

i want to apologize again for getting to this so late and while i am more than familiar with how this is unfortunately a perpetual, never-ending kind of deal, i really hope that today you’re feeling at least a little better than you were when you were typing this. i’m not sure how old you are but speaking from personal experience i really think the best outlet for any desi kid is to try to be independent as soon as possible. if your family can afford it go for an undergrad degree in a different city. keep connecting with people so your network provides you with opportunities to get out and get a job. prioritize financial stability so that you have the means to move out even if it’s into an apartment. it depends from family to family obv but sometimes there’s a point where some families will not change and you have to do what’s best for yourself and that’s okay. i think it’s easy for us to harbor a lot of guilt that we’re ungrateful if we don’t stick around and try to fix some of the baggage ourselves but what i’ve learned is that even if you want to try to fix the baggage you need to be in a mentally stable place to do so. living at home doesn’t necessarily facilitate that. and i don’t know what your thoughts on it would be personally but if from what i assume you’re a girl then i again would highly highly recommend doing whatever you can to forge financial independence for yourself. even if it means working a minimum wage job for now. i feel like in a lot of desi families there’s a tendency to look down on that sort of thing (odd, no?) but it’s really a vital developing experience all people and esp desi women should invest in. my lack of financial experience has hindered me in so many ways and kept me tied to a familial situation where i am often very unhappy. i love my parents very much but we have ideological and practical divides and we’re at a stage in life where we need our space from each other (and i imagine that’s true in your situation too) and yet i don’t have the means to execute it bc i’m still figuring my life out. it’s easier said than done obv but i think if you develop the conviction early to get your life in order and work towards creating your own space where you can control how you’re respected it will be worthwhile. the pain of your parents’ faults and inability to protect you is always going to sting and esp within desi families there’s a very deep trauma every child goes through when evaluating what their parents have or haven’t done for them. but that sting will hurt more when you’re completely at your parents’ mercy (and your brother’s, in this case). when they’re not in control anymore it will be easier to manage, and i really hope whatever your circumstances that you’re able to forge that path where your life is your own and you’re not bullied for existing within this familial structure. iA let me know if you ever want to vent again, my dms are open as well so if you want to talk more privately that’s welcome, too. love you lots 🤍

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paridoliaaa · 2 years

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howdy may i rq an obey me head-cannon with mammon, levi and simeon ?

something like mc naturally having that intimidating subconscious glare and the body language just naturally scares everyone around them, how would those 3 react if mc single handedly takes out a big ass demon who tries to pick on luke ?

fem! mc or gn! mc if you’re uncomfortable with it, thank youu - 👺anon

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OOO YES 👺 ANON IM ROCKIN WITH THIS REQ

tbh i've been waiting for someone to request sim, i fucking love that dude so tysm for the req 💗💗

AND AN INDEPENDENT AND STRONG MC??? ILY FOR THAT MWAH 😽

as per usual, we have my normal long ass intro abt i'm so sorry if anyones ooc, and again as always if you sent this req and would like me to make any modifications, please please let me know! id be happy to change to meet your expectations 👺 anon <33 i am so sorry for the delay, I was super busy this weekend 👁. also if you don't want an nonplatonic relationship in these PLEASE TELL ME. i'll fix it no problem!!

Content Warning(s): Fem!MC, MC is a whole badass, swearing, mentions of harassment, teeny teeny small dash of blood/fighting, huge ass RAD student and higher level demon gets his ass handed to him by MC, his name is Chad bc i'm unoriginal 💀, swearing, and this very long content warnings section (it deserves the warning i'm so sorry-)

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When you showed up to the Devildom the first time, it was no surprise everyone and their dogs were just a liittleee bit intimidated by you. Nothing personal, honestly, it was just the way your face rested, like you held a deep personal grudge against the world. And when you got mad, dang MC you even have Lord Diavolo shivering in his flamboyant red uniform. It was not unusual for the lower level demons to be wary around you, your menacing aura just daring them to try to mess with you like they did with their other peers. And the best part? While you were well aware how your resting face and general aura came off menacing, it wasn't intentional in the slightest. You weren't a troublemaker like Lucifer had imagined you'd be at first glance, and the other brothers, angels and the sketchy sorcerer came to know you were enthusiastic and excitable at some points just like them. So seeing you side swipe the higher rank demon Chad across the face in the middle of the RAD hallway?? Yeah that was a huge fucking surprise. Even more so when he noticed you had bloodied your lip, and droplets of your blood was staining your uniform. 'MC??' he blurted. Unaware you had an audience, you whipped towards the call of your name, shocked to see,

"Mammon?!"

"Uh, sorry Mammon just one second!" you yelled, dodging Chads swing to your head. Swiftly moving behind him you jammed your fist into his vagus nerve and whacked him in the center of his back, successfully bringing him to his knees. Kneeling between his shoulder blades, you kept him in place firmly holding his head to the ground while Mammon watched in awe. "Now listen to me now Chad, because this is your last warning. If you and your big macho demon buddies don't leave Luke alone from here onward, you will have me to deal with. And I promise you this, I will make your life a living nightmare." Annunciating your words with one more shove of his head into the ground you let him go and dusted yourself off. You presumed you'd have to do damage control with Mammon later, but you wanted to take care of one more thing first. "Luke?? Are you okay?? He's gone now, and I made sure he won't bother you again." Luke popped his head out from behind the wall parallel to you and ran to you, wrapping you in a tight hug. "I-I'm fine MC thanks to you that is!" He praised, still hugging you tight. Laughing to yourself you spoke gently into his ear. "Luke I'm glad I was here to help, but I need you to run along to class now okay??" He nodded and took off past Mammon as you walked over to the man himself, fully prepared to apologize. "Uh Mammon??" you questioned, as he seemed to be zoned off in the direction of your previous battle with Chad with a stupid look on his face. He only snapped out of it when you grabbed his arm to check his pulse, as you were getting anxious about your lack of response. "M-MC! That was so-" "Mammon I'm so sorry you had to see that!" you cut him off, ashamed. "MC that was the coolest fuckin' thing I've ever seen!" Mammon yelled, sporting a bright blush. "Really?? Most people would be terrified if they saw a mere human kicking a high rank demons ass in the middle of the hall like that!" You asked hopefully, craning your head to make sure Luke had made it to class. When you saw he had, you made sure you focused all your attention on Mammon. "Yer a lifesaver for that MC! I don't give a shit if tha' douchebag is a high rank or not, everyone here was waiting for someone like you ta humble him. A-and as a thanks for yer bravery, the Great Mammon is allowing ya ta come on a date with me!" He stumbled through his sentance, more a demand than a request, but you could tell he was genuinely interested in his own, tsundere way. "I'd be honored, The Great Mammon." You leaned into his side, walking towards the exit. "C-course ya would, who wouldn't be. Say, MC, how did this big fight start in the first place??" "Well..."

It was a normal, boring day at RAD and all you wanted to do was finish your last class, and book it back to the HoL for a much needed self-care session with Asmo. That was the plan, until you heard the tell-tale screeeches of Luke in the secluded back hall. Throwing your stuff into your locker with a bang, you shot off in pursuit of the peril-filled scream of your close companion. Finding him on the ground, being berated and kicked by the known douchebag, Chad. And boy did it enrage you. You know Luke would never wrong that demon, so it either is out of sport or for a petty reason like wanting his lunch money. So, you walked up to Chad and pushed him away from Luke, who scurried behind the wall you had just appeared from. "What do you think you're doing?! Huh?? Now what, you're taking advantage of the young angels in this school? Is that it?? Well not anymore you ratfuck, your torment ends here." You antagonized him from a fairly safe distance. Truth be told you were terrified. Not only was he a demon and you a human, but he was also a decent five times the size of you, in other words he was fucking huge. However you were well aware of your scare factor and decided to use that to your advantage. Plus, you had taken a self-defense class up in the Human World, so you knew you had a decent chance. "Eh, who cares!," Chad exclaims, throwing his hands in the air and stepping towards me. "What is a puny human like you gonna do, huh?? What could possibly make you think you could beat me??" "Well, skill of course." You snapped, getting in his face. You vaugely remembered being told you could pleade a convincing case if the other person started the fight, so bracing yourself you choked, ''C'mon then, I'll let you get the first hit." Chad smirked, bringing his fist back to slam in into your lip, causing you to spit up blood. "Okay... My turn." Smiling to yourself you turned to walk away getting a running start and sliding to the ground in between his legs, grabbing one and yanking him to the ground. Moving quickly, you kneeled on his arms, slamming punch after punch into his face, making him more bloody than you were. "Never *punch* ever*punch* ever *punch* think *punch* i *punch* won't *punch* kick *punch* your *punch* ass *punch* again *punch*." Chad threw you off of himself and you slammed into the wall. Pushing yourself up with a groan, you moved to continue, when he threw a punch and a shocked voice called your name.

"I guess thats it then." you sang happily. "MC YER A BADASS!" Mammon yelled, passing through a hoard of demons heading to Majolish. When Mammon spotted Beel in the crowd he raised your intertwined hands and yelled, "BEEL! MY S/O IS A BADASS!" "S/o huh??" You teased, smirking. "YA KNOW WHAT I MEAN!" He shrieked,red as a tomato and clearly embarrassed. "Well, Great Mammon I would be delighted to be your S/O!" you finished, pecking his cheek with a kiss and walking off happily.

"Levi?!!"

Worried now about being preoccupied with Leviathan you muttered a quick "One second Levi! Sorry!" And continued with your intense battle with Chad. Ducking under his swing to your head, you dropped to the ground, sweeping your leg underneath Chads bringing him to the ground. With a swift jab to his vagus nerve, he was out cold, laying on the ground bloody and bruised. Finally, you could focus on Levi and Luke, who was standing by the otaku in fear. Stumbling over to the stunned Leviathan and relieved looking Luke, you cleared your throat and exclaimed "Hey guys! How are both of you?? Luke, are you okay??" You questioned moving back to assess his injuries. "I'm okay MC thanks to you at least!" He engulfed you in a quick hug while Levi was still yet to respond. He couldn't stop thinking about how you had annihilated the still uncouncious Chad. You were just like the main character in the new anime he watched,'The School Bully hurt a Student so I Taught Him a Lesson'! You were definitely final boss status! When he finally broke out of his thoughts of how badass you were you had already began furiously snapping in front of his face to confirm his wellbeing. Upon seeing you so close to his face the otaku broke out of his trance and trying and failing to hide his blush he spoke "MC t-that was so c-cool!" He exclaimed shakily, and your beloved otaku thought he truly was just going to pass away when you threw your arms around him in a hug. "Really!" you exclaimed "I thought you were gonna think I was stupid and a troublemaker and not wanna talk to me anymore." Seemingly upset, Leviathan decided it was now his personal mission to cheer you up, he couldnt let his Henry be upset of course! "U-um MC... would.. would you li-like to come to my room now?? Theres a new game in from Akuzon and it's a t-two player so...." He muttered, bright red. "YES YES YES!" you shouted, grabbing his hands and dragging him along in the direction of his room.

After hours of gaming, Levi turned to you to ask the question on his mind for the past couple hours. "MC?" You paused the video on your D.D.D to adknowledge Levi with a nod and a smile. "Um.. why did you even fight Chad in the first place?" "Well it all started when.."

'MC IS just like the main character in 'The School Bully hurt a Student so I Taught Him a Lesson'! No wonder you were his Henry!" Suddenly your face changed into a happy expression. Leviathan was confused, as you had just sat in comfortable silence since you told your epic story about your showdown with Chad. That was, until you spoke. "I'm your Henry Levi??" you asked hopefully. Did he say that out loud? Oh my Diavolo he said that out loud. Now you're gonna hate him because he's just a gross, yucky, shut-in otaku- "Woah hey get out of your head. I'm glad I am.. Actually I wanted to ask if you wanted to be my partner??" after moments of silence you followed up with "I-it's okay if you don't wanna I under-OOf!" Tackling you in a hug Levi whispered a small "yes" Under his breath. Smiling to yourself you thought only how you couldn't be happier to finally be with your player 2.

"Simeon??!"

If you were afraid of Chad this had to be 20 times worse. Simeon, being an avid rule follower would certainly not appreciate this, and even Lord Diavolo himself is terrified of an angry Simeon. So truthfully the big ass demon you were in the middle of fighting was nothing compared to the scolding you were sure to face after you took care of this situation. "Um! Simeon! One second!" you shrieked, kneeing Chad in the stomach. Simeon turned to Luke, also standing behind the pillar he was observing from behind. "Luke, why has this happened?" He questioned worriedly. "Um.. well, it was because of me." He squeeked. "Very well, I'll ask MC then-" He was cut off by a loud CRACK from your direction. Worried for your safety, Simeon decided he needed to assist you. Taking a step forward, he was ready to interfere when a hand grabbed his arm. "Wait a second. MC can handle it." Luke mumbled. "I trust your judgement.." Simeon looked distraught. "But I don't want you around here when MC finishes with Chad. So run along to class yeah??" Waving a small goodbye, Luke ran the other way, leaving Simeon to stress. Then, he realized it was unnessicary. You had already struck down Chad, who was now bloody and groaning in pain on the ground. Deciding to start damage control with Simeon, you moved that way. What you didn't account for was the drop of energy you experienced, adrenaline wearing off. Your legs grew weak and you folded to the ground. Or at least you would have, if Simeon hadn't caught you. "Little Lamb are you alright??" A frown creased Simeons brow, a worried look adorning his extravagant features. "Y-yes Simeon, I'm fine. B-but I can explain." You muttered into his chest. "Yes, please do." Simeon petted your hair and dug around in his schoolbag for a water, which he handed to you as you began.

" You.. you don't hate me now? I hope you don't since y'know I like you and all and all I was trying to do was help but I understand if you don't wanna be around me anymore-" "Little Lamb?" Simeon cut you off. "Yes?" "You like me? Well I'm glad. I have been wanting to ask you to accompany me to The Celestial Realm for quite some time now, so I'm glad you return my affections. Although I do wish I would have been able to go through with my original plan. And I could never hate you. I am, as it seems absolutely enamoured by you." Giving Simeon a tight hug you exclaimed happily "I would love to!' He beamed, and chuckled, light and airy, 'It's a date then."

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faeflowerz · 2 years

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Happy Birthday Riddle Rosehearts 🌹🌹🌹

No, I'm not late. I didn’t get caught up in Enstars. I didn’t forget to write this. I am also ignoring the characters I missed until their birthdays roll around again. also am not upset that i don't have his first bday outfit. Got his union thoooo ayyyy~

So I already knew I would love Riddle when I started playing. I'm not even a Wonderland fan (Neverland all the way babeyyy) but that lil tomato makes me tingly inside. What can I say? He's small in size but big in taste!

And have yall seen prototype!Riddle??? Uhm?!?!? Hello?!?!?!?! Can I have both?!?!?!?

Let's get to it.

So what has changed about the tiny tyrant? He was the first chapter and he ushered in the series with his Mommy issues. He's the best foot forward. I'm serious. Chapter 1 is solid compared to the others. It's my favorite chapter (1,6,3,4,5,2) and everyone sets the setting well.

I think he's also up there on the most substantial change in characterization. While he's still got a stick in his ass, it's not as deep. He's showing more of his empathetic side and putting forth patience that the QOH isn't known for. A good queen must be fierce, but she also is fair in her deliverance of justice. She tends to her subjects and holds them to reasonable standards. Well, I at least think so. He's a palatable leader.

Something I've started to notice about Riddle is that he's naive. But his naivety also gives him courage? While he has been sheltered most of his life, Riddle is sure of his skills. He's willing to fight Malleus if the fairy ever tries to come for his spot. Now, if he would win is not the point. The fact that this little boy is willing to say it to Mal on his birthday speaks volumes. He would probably lose if he challenged him as is. That's his naivety/confidence. Now, if it was like, after a year or something, he would go down swinging for sure. That's his talent and skill. He's also interested in the duel being a learning experience which is a mature way of viewing a dorm leader battle. I would say every battle is an exp but the stakes are meaningful in a leader duel.

Speaking of which, it's cute that he would go there. Sure, it's to balance out the other picks, but Riddle would flourish in Diasomnia. He's packing a lot of power despite his size and if he learned how to keep his temper on lock, god. He'd be a big deal. Also he's good at fire magic for some reason like, is he an arsonist in training? Also the rose thorn motif on him sounds kinda hot. His OB uses thorns soooo.

Uhm, let's talk about his pick for a brother.

You know…he's probably hiding the real reason why he wants Jade. Think about it. Riddle is the one who told Trey how Jade controls everything. Riddle shares a homeroom with Jade. He experiences him as much as he sees Silver and Sebek (maybe more depending on when they meet for clubs). He's right that Jade is seemingly polite and seemingly compliant with rules and shit. He's surreptitious with his power. That's what makes him efficient and dangerous. Riddle wants someone like that on his side. That's what he's not telling Azul. Hell, Riddle even admits that he's not fond of Jade's other traits.

As his younger brother amuses me too. His naivety is at work. I'm an only child but younger siblings won't always listen to you. Jade's too independent for any of that. He could probably be a better big brother since he steps back when he knows someone's gotta learn a lesson. Jade gently tried to offer to nip the Leona issue in the bud in chap 3. Azul foolishly barreled forward with his plans regardless. Azul fucked up and Jade knew it. So he let his bestie learn. So in Riddle's case, Jade would be a better older brother than little (bc Jade will deprogram his naivety). But I think he's got a better option for a little brother: Epel.

I was torn between him or Jack but I think Epel could benefit from Riddle's brand of micromanagement. Vil is strict, but Epel doesn't listen to Vil bc as we saw in chap 5, he was out to fix Epel. Vil does care and wants Epel to grow but the ulterior motives muddied their relationship. With Riddle, they both get to have a brother. Plus, size matters. A lot. Riddle, as I said before, is small but a powerhouse. From their interactions and voice lines, they seem fond of each other. Riddle is firm and he will get Epel to show more formality and respect but since he's the same height as him, Epel will be more receptive to what he has to say. And notice how Riddle always tells people to speak loudly and be 💯 instead of mumbling? That trait needs to be preserved in Epel.

Riddle wants to do good and be a good mentor to his peers (imma talk about his career goals in a sec) so if Epel were to be taken under his wing, they would be fond of each other while also seeing Epel reach new heights that wouldn't be impeded by negative relationships. Plus Riddle is a little feminine (bc he emulates a queen too) so Epel will still unlearn toxic masculinity.

Okay, so Riddle wants to be a doctor. A doctor. That's…unexpected. Well, not entirely. He has a classic doctor tiger mom (more on that later I promise) so I can see this being a "carry the legacy" type of thing. But as we can see, Riddle is clearly great with students.

In his element, Riddle can educate upperclassmen as well as underclassmen. He's extremely smart and I think helping people in an educational setting is significantly more beneficial to his potential. Professor Rosehearts sounds super hot. He's firm yet gentle, and when he asks you to see him after class, you've got butterflies. He's handsome and when he talks, you're hooked on every word. You know he's scolding you for being so scatterbrained and distracted, but you can't help it. You're in love with him even though you know he wouldn't regret it if he would just take you and pin you to his desk-

So Riddle's mom is pretty…rough. I see people making jokes about her, usually projecting their own mama onto her. I personally think Riddle's mom wanted him, as in, he was a planned pregnancy. It only makes sense that they would only want one and then go to painstaking lengths to raise him "right". But unfortunately parenting is trial and error. I'm curious about how their family life has changed since he’s around other kids. I'm assuming he was homeschooled? Do we have any information on that? Anyway, school is usually when kids start finding their own identity and I wish we could get updates on how the OB gang is doing in specific areas where they were struggling. Since Twst is overloaded with characters, you gotta do your research on them rather than get main story satisfaction.

So what do I want for Riddle going forward? I unno, he's perfect. And I stand behind that. He's working on himself and that's all I can ask for any of these characters. Each of them are sentimental to somebody in the fandom and as long as they continue to mature and develop through the series, I'm content. So to round out the last of the birthdays with the one who started it all,

Happy Birthday, Riddle! ❤🌹

#twisted wonderland #faes character reflection #twst posting #riddle rosehearts

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holiciouspursuitofenvy · 9 months

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It took me a really long fucking time to acknowledge why i can't handle boundaries/end up being manipulative as fuck to real and sometimes online people.

EVERYBODY FEELS LIKE I HAVE TO WALK ON EGGSHELLS WITH! I truly did not understand stand that consciously, i only ever chalked it up to social anxiety. No matter how many times i told myself i wish there was a class on how to talk to people and what people will judge you on.

I grew up with parents who would be gone from home long periods of time (due to their jobs bc we were poor and childhood divorce). And when they came home would either fight eachother or their children (me and my siblings). Belittling us for little things we did or want which oftentimes was extremely normal kid stuff. And because i was the youngest, i was an honorary child of the eldest teenage sister who obviously was a bad mother but also actively bullied me for years.

Not to mention parents who would constantly tell me don't trust anyone, everyone is judging you and out to get you. So they sheltered you home minimizing play time or hanging out with other kids. I actively remember being a kid and trying to set up healthy boundaries like "hey mom, it really hurta me when you yell at me for crying when i get shots or needles, I'm trying my best." And her going "fuck off, you're just sensitive and you need to get over it by now." Or my dad actively triggering me when he does his angry sound tell so i asked him to please do it less and he angrily calls me a child in a long drawn out paragraph and huffs away.

I was/sometimes still am stuck in a toxic cycle of needing to learn how to set up boundaries for myself and telling people, namely my family, to fuck off if they don't. I used to have a hero complex where i would help people at the expense of myself to often but then i said fuck that and now I've made my over defensiveness even more obvious.

But i also couldn't acknowledge this extends to EVERYTHING. In real life when someone says you did a bad thing suddenly it feels like a volcano of the most angry emotions stir inside of me BECAUSE I AM FURIOUS.

I'M FURIOUS that no one acknowledges how hard it was to walk on eggshells all the time. How I'd need to pat myself on the back every time i completed a social interaction successfully or comb through every detail of them to find something to improve on. I never felt i was progressing to normal but that i was stuck incompetent forever.

I get told a lot that I'm very mysterious and never tell anyone anything and this is why. I HAVE MAJOR TRUST ISSUES. This is where the hyper-independence, the closed offness, the combative nature against people i trust especially comes in. Why I'm always surprised people who don't see me everyday or run to me anytime the see me say I'm their friend. I'm sure i came off super cold when i asked them why but i was genuinely surprised. Because being teased, bullied, and dismissed by everyone close to me growing up fucked up my view of people and relationships.

I don't mean for any of this to come off as an excuse but as an explanation. And me trying to reach people who've gone through the same things i have but kept getting back into the cycle of needing to defend yourself by all means possible to people who just said "please stop, i don't like this," or any other variation of you have done something wrong. Especially if you went over the line online and someone said "hey thwt way too over familiar, don't talk to strangers like that." because yea STRANGERS ON THE INTERNET ARE NOT YOUR THERAPIST OR PUNCHING BAGS.

I really need people to understand this isn't from entitlement, it's subconscious mistrust in everyone you meet bc subconsciously i believed everyone was out for me. Someone i needed to defend against before or after they talk to me. No matter how nice and gentle it comes doesn't matter. Everyone has to be lying and think it's the biggest deal in the world actually or this is a greater sign of you being awful all along. Like everone did that to everyone elae. And if anyone just casually calls this narcissism I'm hitting you with a 2x4. Those posts never resonated with me. They felt dismissive for me personally.

I AM ALWAYS IN A PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE VICTORIAN ENGLAND TEA PARTY WITH A BAD REPUTATION. Or better yet I'm always walking on eggshells with people.

Coming from someone who knows they're mentally fucked up but not knowing exactly how for all your life but especially in the past 5+ years of not going to therapy except when it was closeby and free a couple times but never being truly open with them because you learned vulnerability equals dismissal and pain 99% of the time.

So yeah, i highly recommend looking back on your childhood and examining when you were dismissed or had your boundaries broken. Then work on active trust with people and be open to more people because not processing my trauma but trying to steamroll being a functional persom also fucked me up.

#Mental health #Therapy #Trauma #Emotional abuse #Manipulation #Neglect #rant #God that felt good to finally say #I will block any and everyone who tries to dismiss this post as me excusing my bad behavior or “needing to grow up”#Paranoia #Trust #Coping mechanisms #Obviously it's not just a personal responsibility thing but a social norm symptomatic of society that rewards and encourages abuse.

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