#do you ever get writer’s block?

[farfromstrange]

Tell me why I’ve been struggling to get inspired to write for WEEKS when I had the time to actually do it, but the second I sit down to work on my academic responsibilities, my writer’s block vanishes and the creative juices start flowing. It’s like my brain WANTS to find ways to procrastinate being responsible, and for me to turn my focus back on Matty and other dark-haired sad boys™️ played by Charlie Cox. What is this madness?

#lizzi talks #matt murdock #matt murdock x reader #i blame charlie cox #writer’s block #do you ever get writer’s block? #just try being productive and the need to procrastinate will take care of it on its own 🤝🏻 #it’s probably a psychological thing #like i can’t concentrate on my studies for shit when it’s NECESSARY but I can write 5k words in one sitting

[passthroughtime]

i hope you don’t mind me not participating in sunday six for so long and not updating my fic... i’m having a bit rough time handling my life irl right now

#meaning i’m having the worst start of the year ever #i’m EXHAUSTED fucking exhausted from my living situation and it doesn’t seem to get better any time soon #naturally i don’t have it in me to write because i don’t have enough time to relax. it’s been three fucking weeks. #i just don’t know even my body gives up from this stress and not like something terrible is happening #it’s extremely upsetting also considering that i love writing and it’s the only activity that makes sense to me #and always has been like that it’s in my core #and i. can’t do it. i can’t. i have no willpower or strength and it’s not writer’s block i’m just SO TIRED ALL THE TIME #therapy and years of medication mean nothing at this fucking point. props to me for not killing myself tho. well done 👍 #sorry for ranting i am so frustrated that i can scream. i have actually. didn’t help. #well ahem i hope you understand 🙏 i feel bad that i’ve promised the chapter a long time ago and NOT TO BE THAT AO3 AUTHOR but #i really wanted to keep my promise. fuck me i guess #putting letters together one word at a time

[moregraceful]

put 712 of the worst words ever put in a google doc tonight BUT! it is 712 more words in the google doc than i had yesterday. this fic will be more than 2k, so help me god

#the past six months have been so weird after posting over 200k last year (including the longest fic i've written since bandom) #i think i would have been fine continuing to post 1-3k one shots all year if i had not just had to request extended time off of school #but between that + having no idea if i have a regular schedule at the library + my nonprofit boss sending a harrowing welcome back #i'm like by god jason robertson we are going to take a couple of leisurely 7-10k+ strolls to get you a boyfriend or two this summer #well all that + being horrendously writers blocked on the other two longer projects lmfao oh my god #10k deep in one and every time i open the google doc a portal to hell opens up in my living room #0k into the other bc every time i open my outline another different portal to hell opens up in my shower #i get no rest. i get no peace. every morning i wake up and 5 more demons are- oh my god #bro my fucken train of thought just got completely derailed by spotify. i know i'm the last person in the world to know this but #3oh!3 and big freedia remixed rebecca black's friday?? and it's completely unlistenable?? girls what did you do #3oh!3 kill me bc no time traveler ever took their faces in hand and kissed them gently on the forehead and looked into their eyes #said ''please focus on coloradosunrise it will literally course-correct the trajectory of your career from frat house gimmick to #rowdy but respectable indie edm artists. you can remain true to your warped tour dirtbag origins but you HAVE to develop THAT sound'' #like the chainsmokers are a joke but i feel like THAT + ANGRY EMO GIRLS + THEIR TOTAL DISREGARD FOR MARKETABILITY... could have been THEM #when the piano drops?? hello?? i had so many mental breakdowns in college listening to that song they could have defined a generation #like who else is gonna get noah cyrus and ashe and gayle and olivia rodrigo's vision. only warped tour dirtbags. #me @ myself [so lovingly]: what are you talking about. how old are you #me @ myself: talk to me abt earth 2 in which 3oh!3 remixed i got so high that i saw jesus....and it whipped ass #also. i had to google how old i was. THREE TIMES last week. #the minute i turned 32 apparently i was like i'm in my mid-30s now the rest of this decade is NOT my business until i turn 38 #this post was supposed to be an uplifting reminder to myself to keep pushing forward and trying hard and to not let the rot consume me #but i think i just drove off a cliff like fully my god #i need listen to big freedia more she rules #fresno oilers.txt #another banner day in the tags with kasper moregraceful

[persephoneflouwers]

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#hello everyone how are you? #I hope everything is doing alright! from my part I can say life is treating me well lately #and I feel very light and okay #I am here mainly to get things straight #I saw an anon going around some other blogs talking about me #saying I am an hater and I shouldn’t be writing larry fics #I think this is the same anon that I blocked some weeks ago #because they told me I should not use Harry for clout (????) #and I want to say only one thing because I don’t care of defending myself on this website anymore and that is #it’s not clout and it’s not easy #being a (new) writer here is not easy because people don’t care what you do and there is definitely not clout around me #im not using harry to gain anything #if anything I am constantly questioning whether I am somehow good at writing silly stories and putting myself out there for people’s judg #*judgement. and I promise you it’s not always nice #especially when this place doesn’t like people who you don’t always agree with #especially when you are blocked by half of this side of fandom (larries because I had said something in the past that they didn’t like) #louies because im a larrie ergo I hate louis (???) and harries because i dont care about Harry as much as they do #so no I am not ashamed of writing and I am not ashamed of writing giving my characters #(that rarely have anything to do with H/L irl) thei #their names and physical features #and honestly people like you anon should definitely stop to play this stupid game of fandom police #deciding who can read what and who can write what #because this actions only affect new writers in the way that #they will be alienated. they will feel alienated #and this whatever this fandom is shouldn’t be about that #ever. you don’t know what people go through every fucking day #you definetely dont know how this sort of silencing mission you have going on #will affect people on the internet and their mental health #stop defending the imaginary people you think H/L are and start treating people in this fandom as actual human beings #and since you probably would like to know this: I am not currently working on any project because i am fucking scared of reaction like this

[opalthea]

also, hello padisarah nonnie !! it's good to see you again :>

i decided to not answer your ask regarding the wholeeee stuff.. because i don't really care what they want to do anymore. i've done my part of speaking up about their behaviours and calling them out - which made a lot of people open their eyes for once instead of ignoring the warnings they got from me or other people. and i think that's all i want to do.

THIS WILL FORMALLY BE THE LAST POST ABOUT THEM. I will not answer any asks regarding it anymore, so if you want to make your own posts regarding those users, please use your own platforms, thank you.

as much as i encourage speaking up, i also don't want to give a flying duck about them anymore. y'know, like, i spoke up because i couldn't tolerate them and their behaviours anymore - couldn't just keep quiet when my mutuals are knowingly or unknowingly talking to shitty people like that. if they started a new blog, just let them. i don't really care anymore 😭 all i hope is that my mutuals and those that see this are more aware of internet safety and who you surround yourself with. it was already exhausting trying to warn others about them and not being listened to until i made this shit public — i'm not going to start becoming a blog that runs on discourse just so some can finally realise that this person was shitty and that person was the devil.

thanks for also caring abt me and informing me of their new url, i appreciate that a lot! it's on my blocklist now + the mutuals they've tagged on that post too 💀 if, however, i blocked you without a good reason why, or if i blocked you before you knew of this and had already cut ties with them, feel free to send me a message or ask on a different blog! i took precautionary blocks when it comes to having those kind of people as mutuals so .. yeah.

#visitors from teyvat : padisarah anon #thea answers #the post was made because i just couldn't stand the audacity of certain people still claiming to be the victim. #imagine claiming yourself as the victim when your story wasn't even straight. #venting in public but you can't even pick a plot. were you banned or did you leave willingly first without being punished? #then proceeded to say you were wrongly banned when you were literally guilttripping the mods . what did you think- #was gonna happen when you come back? did you think our arms were open then? #you left first . to avoid consequences . now that the consequences are staring right at you #you chicken out? you curse at the effects of your actions? YOUR actions? what about the people you've affected . #you say you aren't the same person you are a year ago but you only left a few months ago and you still affect the mental health of many . #our server wasn't even a mental health server. it's a positivity server. you're supposed to use it to get serotonin boosts #or boost other people. not a place for us to be your therapists and fix your problems. #i still can't get over the fact that neither of them can get their stories straight. wdym a year ago lmao. it was literally 4-5 months ago. #and you still act the same as ever. venting about how you wanted to kys or break down when a damn post unrelated to you talks- #-abt ur fav character in a scenario where they don't love you. #do you realize that the artists and writers' works you consume are for the general and not just you. what is your logic . #and i know you see this . you vague about us all the time. did you think i didn't notice. #the only mercy i've granted you was the peace for 4 months. you tell me i was dogpiling on you but you didn't change at all . so entitled t #-your ways of thinking and what you think is right. #in the first few weeks of u in that server i was the only one who thought better of u. funny how that turned out. #cuz u didn't change then and you wouldn't change now. #idk how many times i hv to repeat this but i blocked each n every ONE of them. including their moots. #and including anyone who interacted with them. im not sorry. if you were wrongly blocked then u can shoot a dm. #otherwise stay blocked and stay mad loser L.

[dustyspines]

i like when it's 2am because my exhausted little brain always seems to churn out the most unhinged introspective sort of sentences that hit like a bag of bricks when I reread in the morning to make sure they make sense

good night !

#moonstone history and paper-thin present slaps a little bit I will not lie #me: why am i so tired in the mornings #also me: 2am doing this shit working my little brain to the bone #gl #it's so fun tho! #i can foresee another month long writers block in my future so why not churn all this shit out now and hope it forms into #a fully fledged project instead of lying abandoned in my WIP documents folder #rip wandmaker albus/muggle scorpius piece i swear you will get finished one day #also this is my first time like ever writing longform in scorpius' perspective i feel like im treading on eggshells this is unfamiliar!!!

[miqojak]

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#people will cheer about how others should set boundaries and uphold them for their own well-being #until those boundaries prevent them from getting what they want from you #I have to constantly beg people not to use this OC blog as an aesthetic resource blog for their own OC blogs #It's a roleplay blog - which means it is effectively a scrapbook for *my* OC - and a place for people who want to interact with me/my OC #it is NOT a place for complete strangers who have no interest in the OC to come and shop for their OC's aesthetic #but people get SO MAD when you tell them you have this one and only boundary that is 'please don't use me like an object' #is it so much to ask that people who follow an RP blog actually interact with that OC? #why else would you follow an OC's blog if you aren't interested in interacting with them as a character? #anyways it's always a bummer to come across an OC blog I like that has blocked me because I insisted they not use my blog as a resource #just go follow the same resource blogs your favs do if you really don't want to interact with their OC - but you really like their aestheti #if you want to share aes. posts from someone...maybe try sharing their original creations as well so it doesn't feel like you're using them #and it feels like you're actually supporting them AND you like their aesthetic - that's all I've ever asked of people and they get SO mad #when asked to consider that there is a human being behind the screen who doesn't want to be treated like a resource... #- but as a creative/writer who is seeking contacts to do improvisational creative writing with others #the amount of strangers coming to my blog lately not to interact or share my work - but just take the 1-2 aesthetic posts I share is vexing #to all who do share: I love you and I see you and I appreciate you #and I've seriously considered just doing a random gift/giveaway from a pool of people that only consists of you guys #just to give back to the maybe 5 ppl who actually interact with me & others and support them by sharing their original work

[kulemii]

mkay, i usually dont do this. i usually mind my own business and shit talk in my head but i'm not going to lie i'm so annoyed, i really need to get it off my chest before i go about this the wrong way.

hating female characters because they dared to be your fave's CANON RI IS NOT CUTE! and at alot of yalls big age, it's kind of embarrassing and pathetic.

i'm 25 and i am into a character that has at least two canon love interests and one that pined after someone. i'm not going to lie and say that that doesn't bother me on a mild jealousy level- i am saying this to put out there that i am NOT shaming any adult for having crushes on their faves and getting a little put off by them having CANON RIs.

I'm not and anyone that knows me would know that. (just wanted to say so in case this reaches anyone that doesn't)

what i AM shaming though is when yall are childish about it and go after these CANON RIs and rip them to shreds because let's face it, it's not you. at this point it has nothing to do with the characters not having enough character development, not having enough time with the character to make it make sense, not having a likeable personality or whatever bullshit yall have used as excuses to rip these typically female characters apart for having a CANON relationship with your faves and i'm tired of being nice about it.

yall sat there and HYPED YUKI UP when she was just an awkward girl that might or might not have had a lil crush on someone- which so many people decided to ignore and box her into the sibling category, just like the rest of the hostesses when it's obvious they all fell for him. and yall like to go 'oh lol those things aren't canon' because it's not in the main story- BITCH IF THE ORIGINAL WRITERS WROTE IT IT'S MOTHERFUCKING CANON! but let a substory or something come up that feeds into whatever fucking idea you've been feeding yourself yall will shout from the roof tops how it's canon and no one can take it from you.. i'm not gonna take it from you, but at some point, i hope you realize how hypocritical you sound.

yall sat there and hyped yuki up FOR YEAAAAAARS and the second she gets casted as kiryu's love interest you wanna bring out the torches and burn her at the stake??? it was never about the character, it's always been about you. and your jealousy that you're too emotionally immature to realize is JUST jealousy and you make it every fucking female character with romantic ties to every fave you've ever had's problem. i mean think about it, if you can sit here and smash characters together that have never so much as stood in the same room as the other, is it really about canon chemistry? it's not and you know it's not and you should learn how to reevaluate your relationship with these characters before you CONTINUE to make a fool of yourself because it's pathetic and i no longer have the patience to rationalize what you 'really mean' anymore.

something i want yall to remember when yall get mad at these girls for being there instead your selfship oc or another character you are clearly attracted to, at the end of the day, that's HER man. and YOU are stepping in where you dont belong. not her.

grow the fuck up.

and where i stand on this personally? oryo and ryouma are a cute ass couple and it's the ONE time we get to see kiryu end up with someone and be HAPPY about it! oryo and ryouma had a whole year of history together before you even saw them and when you did see them, they had something!! they had plot! you even got to spend time with her unlike other LIs. WHY NOT BE HAPPY FOR YOUR FAVE???? and if oryo existing bothers you soooo much, dont make it her fucking problem. write an oc and ship him with them but dont spend 12 pages bitching about why oryo wasn't good enough for him as a RI.

#might lose friends with this one that sucks but whatever man im tired #i have no problem with not wanting to acknowledge canon if you're looking to ship your own self or ocs with characters that have canon RIs #this isn't about shipping at all #it's about yall losing your breath at the keyboard typing up these bullshit longwinded ass assaults #on why every female character ever isn't good enough for your fave #it's sad and pathetic and i'm tired of it for real #imma start blocking people over this because i dont wanna see it anymore #delete later #i'm not saying you have to be a fan of a canon romantic or seemingly relationship #because you dont you can deadass pretend they dont even exist so long as your not being a fucking moron about it #hell i've written an entire love story for y0majima with my own oc because he was my fave and did i go and rip makoto to shreds? #or even acknowledge their relationship? NO! but i did mind my own business and leave that girl alone because it has nothing to do with her #when i see canon romance but i have no intention of acknowledging it in my work i get happy that i have something canon to work from #great the writers gave me the tools to create a romance that is believable for this character #and i say 'thanks for letting me copy your homework g' and then i mind my own business afterwards'

[martyrbat]

👍👍

#im bout to be whiny before getting nauseated at being kimda vulnerable and end up deleting this but just #shoutout to my friend (who was the only person i ever shared my writing with for over a year) #just telling me they've always just skimmed my fics AND infodumps because they dont care. like has read at most a handful of me talking & #usually skips any rare audio message that i sent when SUPER excited and made up drama to have an excuse to change topics #again. for over a year. #then getting guilt trippy when i was hurt by it until i apologize instead which !! lmao fuck ok ! #its just... very hmpth :/ bc it eas already a shitty night and week of nonstop migraine. and then this #and taking into account im someone who NEVER blocks any of my friends tags or doesnt read and invest myself in their interests #even if i dont like it; i love seeing people (even strangers) excited and talking about what they like so of course im going to #at least watch them talk on it and/or actually research into it because i want to be able to understand their happiness! #and because its whats important to them !! i dont expect the same and im not shaming anyone for not doing the same its fine I guess #but to tell me? and to say they dont read my writing or give a single shit about me talking about something #when i always put 100% into their interests? am i that shitty of a writer and that obnoxious to listen to lmao #like i feel shitty for even being hurt over it and even venting because you guys arent here for that and its mean to force it on ur dash #and i dont want to be too whiny but also. jfc man #ill stay silly starting tomorrow and post about batmans balls or whatever. sorry for the vent just. bleh. #that ‘december please bro please im begging just a break please man’ post but its me throughout this February too apparently

[craycraybluejay]

Name and shame @/jonsnowislovejonsnowislife

Block this idiot

I love how they flat out say anyone called weird or a freak deserves to be bullied. And also their seeming lack of comprehension of dramatic lit pieces. And also also the audacity to criticize either my character or work without knowing me-- despite the fact that I can promise you this person hasn't made anything creative in their life that's worth more than a kiss from mommy and a participation trophy. Maybe they wouldn't be so vehemently in favour of bullying unspecified groups they don't understand if they weren't the kind of person who mindlessly consumes corpo media and is as a whole ungrateful and uncaring towards the craft that goes into art + unable to appreciate the diverse range of human existence.

Imagine seeing a lit post about how hypocritical and scathingly conformist "normal" culture is and deciding it's about every specific group of "freaks" you think you have the right to bully and *then* going for the ad hominem on someone who spends more time creating than you ever will even using your small mind to learn more about the people and world around you. It's rude, it's pathetic, and it's truly a striking example of exactly the kind of crowd I was referring to in the post.

I don't usually make "callout" or "blocklist" style posts but please if you're a creative or are being bullied, block this person and anyone like them. No one with this much vitriol for othered groups and creative expression deserves your time of day or space in your circle.

I'm a freak? I deserve to be booed? Well. At least I'm making something, at least I'm doing something with my skills and my life. At least I don't defend the bullying of people for mental illnesses, sexualities, culture, etc. You, Tumblr stranger, should feel ashamed of yourself for being so mask off hateful.

#blocklist #'none of this would happen irl what is this lol' #have you ever heard of this really amazing thing called writing? #writerblr #anti bullying #anti censorship #if being 'normal' requires being cruel to people different from you then I don't WANT to be normal #writers on tumblr #the shit us writers go through we should be paid 1 million dollars every time This happens #writer problems #oh boo hoo you want to bully strangers tough shit get off my blog #block this person #your soul is so empty of art how do you live like that #hate comments #hate mail #you people are so obsessed with me #why? #fan behavior

[primordyalsoul]

Normalise getting food poisoning once a year. It builds character

#ooc; onion girl enthusiast #((ohhh the misery)) #((jk I'm doing much better now but yeesh)) #((that tweet or whatever that was like 'u ever throw up so hard its like you're turning into a werewolf)) #emetophobia #emetophobia tw #((BUT i was thinking a lot about stuff in my inbox and drafts whilst drifting in and out of the mortal plane so I'll be on after sleeping)) #((well. sleeping more)) #((tldr my protip is if you ever get writers/artist block get food poisoning))

[lunaetis]

@avaere asked :

There is a letter addressed to no one else than Eula Lawrence, her named written with such pristine caution, yet scribbled by the hand of someone whose writing has been neglected for the sake of weaponry;

"Dear Eula,

The lantern rite is growing near and i find myself far more occupied on these busy days. Swirling around in the street is various food, stalls pulling up, readying themselves to partake in Liyue's highlight. You would enjoy this, I am certain; maybe we could share drinks under the lanterns some day? To walk the pier of Liyue alongside you would do me well.

I miss you, and the days without you grow tedious.

In moments of solitude I find myself dreaming back to our heated moment in the moment. The memory of your lips against mine, hands on my chest, keep me warm on nights the cold prove bothersome; I have never felt such belonging as the one I found within our entangled hands, lusting bodies.

Next time I want to feel all of you, over and over again. I want your hands around my shoulders, your breath mixed with mine... even writing this makes my chest ache with desire, longing.

Would you meet me in Liyue for the lantern rite? For you I would make time, all the time you'd want and need. I would show you the beauty of the Land of Mora, even though it falls bleak in comparison to you, and we could wish together under the lanterns (I will show you how).

The way you uttered my name under your breath still rests with me on lonely nights... It keeps me company for the time being, making sure nightly hours go by faster.

I hope to see you,

I will wait for you in Liyue.

Yours truly,

Ajax."

LANTERN RITE ( unprompted. ) || always accepting

─「エウルア」─  heels clicked against the street lined with cobblestone, making a rather distinct sound as the KNIGHT CAPTAIN stepped out of the ordo favonius headquarter. the latest expedition and mission had been a success and with the report itself being given to the acting grandmaster, the lawrence heir paused her step for a moment, pondering her next move now that she was given a bit of a FREE TIME after a long mission. the knight had sent her team members back to their homes, knowing how their families would want every second they could give now that they were back in mondstadt. the night air was, in a way, quite comforting. dual-colored hues lifted upwards, only to take notice of something.

                a ... bird ? a HAWK ... no, a falcon was flying over her way. it took eula a few moments to realize that it indeed was heading towards her that she held out her arm, allowing the winged creature to land safely in a graceful perch. what caught her attention was an envelop tied to its leg. she could make out the front of it that addressed with her name.

                " you have something for me ? " the FALCON itself seemed friendly enough, as she carefully untie the envelop from its leg, walking over to the nearby bench and letting the winged hunter perch on the armrest while she focused her attention to the envelop at hand.

                at first glance, while she didn't immediately recognize the handwriting as someone she knew, the way her NAME was written in such care was more than enough to have her heart race a little. there was a sense of anticipation as she opened it, eyes scanning the content of the letter and absorbing each word carefully. she could feel her heart thumping louder the more she went on, the more she took in the written words filled with emotions as though she could hear his VOICE so close to her ears.

                gloved digits gently traced over the words written by a hand that was used to hold a WEAPON than a pen. archons ... she missed him. reading his hand-written letter like this, she wanted nothing more to see him once again. how it had been weeks ever since their last meeting. since when had she grown so impatient when it comes to their absence ? as it seemed, she wasn't the only one feeling that yearn after their night of intimacy. how she could still feel the warmth of his fingers against her skin, the words of love whispered so ardently under the foggy mountain and snowy landscape. how he held her so carefully, treating her like she was his TREASURE rather than a soul damned by the past like those around her would.

                " lantern rite ... " she remembered that, remembered the time dated back a year ago when she saw the floating lights in the distance while she stood upon THE TOP OF DRAGONSPINE, remembered the way his form stood right next to her and telling her about the festival celebrated in liyue. she still even recalled wondering why he was there by her side instead of celebrating it with those he knew in the land of contract itself. the question, of course, was never uttered even now. she only had a few guesses on her end.

                it was the first time she saw him smile a little differently from his blood-thirsted one.

                " had it already been a year ... ? " time sure flies. thinking back to their FIRST MEET, surely the aristocrat wouldn't have thought their relationship would take such a turn. many things changed during the year, and her lips couldn't help thinning as she gazed warmly over the yearnful words he conveyed through his handwriting.

                for you i would make time, all the time you'd want and need.

                aah ... her eyes were BURNING slightly when she read this. he was the only one who had made her priority, he was the only one who would treat her as though she was something special, as though she was his whole world and words were stuck in her throat as she inhaled sharply. how was it possible that everything he did was making her heart race like this ? the LAWRENCE HEIR could never explain it.

                but ...

                gloved digits came to caress over the crimson sigil she had been wearing on her person ever since the day he gifted it to her. he had always been the one who came to her. he RETURNED to her after a long journey back home to the land of winter, and he sought her out in the city of mondstadt itself when he couldn't find her in the snowy mountain. that was why ... she wanted to go to him.

                tenderly and carefully, she folded the letter and put it back into the envelop, gathering the WINTER FALCON perching next to her. she scratched the bird of prey's head gently as though to thank the creature for delivering this letter to her before heading back to her living quarter. she had a letter to write.

                the SNOW FALCON was once again seen flying through the sky of liyue after a successful delivery to the LAND OF FREEDOM. as it returned to its master, however, this time, carried with it was a unique envelop containing a specific sigil belonging to the SPINDRIFT KNIGHT. upon the front of the envelop itself was the name ajax written in blue ink, the very color of the lawrence heir as the content of the letter itself was unfolded to the eyes of the reader.

dearest ajax,

thank you for your letter. i have received it safely. such a wonderful companion you have there. winter falcons are said to be extremely difficult to tame and train, yet i am not surprised that you manage to do so.

your skills in taming wild animals aside, i have to admit that when i first plan to write a reply, i had thought of detailing my feelings for you and how your absence had been felt so dearly by me. how you had been occupying my thoughts, in wake and slumber, or how despite myself being accustomed to the cold weather, not feeling you here with me had affected me in ways i couldn't put into words.

that, and i hardly think that even having been educated and given various classes as to how should conduct oneself and express oneself through words and written form, i am certain there is no known vocabulary i possess within my knowledge could convey the ardent feeling i have for you. any words i could choose would pale in comparison to what i hold in my heart.

i want to show you the extent of my feeling in person, for you to see the way my eyes would glimmer just a little brighter as you had light up the world for me, the way my cheeks would rise in temperature when our hands made contact, or the way i'd have no control of my heart increasing in its rhythm in your presence. i want tell you the depth of my love for you that words cannot hope to capture.

the lantern i had seen with you last year upon the mountain of dragonspine, i want to see them with you again and make that wish together.

ajax ... my ajax ...

please wait for me.

this time, i will be the one to come to you.

eternally yours,

eula lawrence

#avaere #.answered #.[ eula.lawrence ] #.[ you are the only person who has ever been able to find me: tartaglia & eula ] #[ i WAS SO DETERMINED TO GET THIS DONE -BEFORE- THE LANTERN RITE #I HAD BEEN WANTING TO GET TO IT FOR DAYS #but i'M GLAD I MADE IT IN TIME #also omg i'm so mad at beta editor bc i accidentally press ctrl+z while writing this #& IT ATE THE WHOLE LAST PART OF MY REPLY INCLUDING THE LETTER I HAD ALREADY WRITTEN OUT #SO I HAD TO REWRITE THE WHOLE THING & IT'S NOT THE SAME BUT HJLKHJLKHJKL I HOPE IT'S STILL GOOD #TUMBLR I S2G WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME #BUT YES LOOKIT ME BREAKING MY WRITER'S BLOCK BY WRITING THESE TWO #writing abt them makes me so happy cries thank you aven ] #.long post

[gottagobackintime]

I upset some I*zy stan with my previous post because I said in my tags that trash shows like Riverdale get season after season while shows like OFMD gets cancelled..

After all these years… am I… am I involved with fandom drama?? Do I get people who hate me and my opinions on my blog now?? Have I made it??

#I think they blocked me because I can’t see their reply on my post but I got emails about it #and honestly I don’t care if they get to shit on ofmd because they’re upset that they killed of ONE queer character in a show #that has like 99% queer characters.. #and want to pretend that a show that has a queer teenage girl doing pole dancing in a room full of adults and a gay character #that more or less punished for being gay (Kevin) look at that guy and tell me the writers didn’t give him the stupidest storylines #then I get to call Riverdale a trash show #I watched riverdale for several seasons until I just couldn’t take it anymore #and it’s not like I’m the only one in the world who thinks so #also if you’re glad that they cancelled ofmd or hate the show now just block me and save me the trouble because I don’t have the energy #for your weird takes #this is actually the most negative towards other fans I’ve ever been I believe #I normally don’t acknowledge fans that annoy me but you come into my house and all that.. #Nicole watches stuff

[emberwhite]

I spent the last 11 months working with my illustrator, Marta, to make the children's book of my dreams. We were able to get every detail just the way I wanted, and I'm very happy with the final result. She is the best person I have ever worked with, and I mean, just look at those colors!

I wanted to tell that story of anyone's who ever felt that they didn't belong anywhere. Whether you are a nerd, autistic, queer, trans, a furry, or some combination of the above, it makes for a sad and difficult life. This isn't just my story. This is our story.

I also want to say the month following the book's launch has been very stressful. I have never done this kind of book before, and I didn't know how to get the word out about it. I do have a small publishing business and a full-time job, so I figured let's put my some money into advertising this time. Indie writers will tell you great success stories they've had using Facebook ads, so I started a page and boosting my posts.

Within a first few days, I got a lot of likes and shares and even a few people who requested the book and left great reviews for me. There were also people memeing on how the boy turns into a delicious venison steak at the end of the book. It was all in good fun, though. It honestly made made laugh. Things were great, so I made more posts and increased spending.

But somehow, someway these new posts ended up on the wrong side of the platform. Soon, we saw claims of how the book was perpetuating mental illness, of how this book goes against all of basic biology and logic, and how the lgbtq agenda was corrupting our kids.

This brought out even more people to support the book, so I just let them at it and enjoyed my time reading comments after work. A few days later, then conversation moved from politics to encouraging bullying, accusing others of abusing children, and a competition to who could post the most cruel image. They were just comments, however, and after all, people were still supporting the book.

But then the trolls started organizing. Over night, I got hit with 3 one-star reviews on Amazon. My heart stopped. If your book ever falls below a certain rating, it can be removed, and blocked, and you can receive a strike on your publishing account. All that hard work was about to be deleted, and it was all my fault for posting it in the wrong place.

I panicked, pulled all my posts, and went into hiding, hoping things would die down. I reported the reviews and so did many others, but here's the thing you might have noticed across platforms like Google and Amazon. There are community guidelines that I referenced in my email, but unless people are doing something highly illegal, things are rarely ever taken down on these massive platforms. So those reviews are still there to this day. Once again, it's my fault, and I should have seen it coming.

Luckily, the harassment stopped, and the book is doing better now, at least in the US. The overall rating is still rickety in Europe, Canada, and Australia, so any reviews there help me out quite a lot. I'm currently looking for a new home to post about the book and talk about everything that went into it. I also love to talk about all things books if you ever want to chat. Maybe I'll post a selfie one day, too. Otherwise, the book is still on Amazon, and the full story and illustrations are on YouTube as well if you want to read it for free.

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[byoldervine]

Types Of Writer’s Block (And How To Fix Them)

1. High inspiration, low motivation. You have so many ideas to write, but you just don’t have the motivation to actually get them down, and even if you can make yourself start writing it you’ll often find yourself getting distracted or disengaged in favour of imagining everything playing out

Try just bullet pointing the ideas you have instead of writing them properly, especially if you won’t remember it afterwards if you don’t. At least you’ll have the ideas ready to use when you have the motivation later on

2. Low inspiration, high motivation. You’re all prepared, you’re so pumped to write, you open your document aaaaand… three hours later, that cursor is still blinking at the top of a blank page

RIP pantsers but this is where plotting wins out; refer back to your plans and figure out where to go from here. You can also use your bullet points from the last point if this is applicable

3. No inspiration, no motivation. You don’t have any ideas, you don’t feel like writing, all in all everything is just sucky when you think about it

Make a deal with yourself; usually when I’m feeling this way I can tell myself “Okay, just write anyway for ten minutes and after that, if you really want to stop, you can stop” and then once my ten minutes is up I’ve often found my flow. Just remember that, if you still don’t want to keep writing after your ten minutes is up, don’t keep writing anyway and break your deal - it’ll be harder to make deals with yourself in future if your brain knows you don’t honour them

4. Can’t bridge the gap. When you’re stuck on this one sentence/paragraph that you just don’t know how to progress through. Until you figure it out, productivity has slowed to a halt

Mark it up, bullet point what you want to happen here, then move on. A lot of people don’t know how to keep writing after skipping a part because they don’t know exactly what happened to lead up to this moment - but you have a general idea just like you do for everything else you’re writing, and that’s enough. Just keep it generic and know you can go back to edit later, at the same time as when you’re filling in the blank. It’ll give editing you a clear purpose, if nothing else

5. Perfectionism and self-doubt. You don’t think your writing is perfect first time, so you struggle to accept that it’s anything better than a total failure. Whether or not you’re aware of the fact that this is an unrealistic standard makes no difference

Perfection is stagnant. If you write the perfect story, which would require you to turn a good story into something objective rather than subjective, then after that you’d never write again, because nothing will ever meet that standard again. That or you would only ever write the same kind of stories over and over, never growing or developing as a writer. If you’re looking back on your writing and saying “This is so bad, I hate it”, that’s generally a good thing; it means you’ve grown and improved. Maybe your current writing isn’t bad, if just matched your skill level at the time, and since then you’re able to maintain a higher standard since you’ve learned more about your craft as time went on

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[burntoutdaydreamer]

Weird Brain Hacks That Help Me Write

I'm a consistently inconsistent writer/aspiring novelist, member of the burnt-out-gifted-kid-to-adult-ADHD-diagnosis-pipeline, recently unemployed overachiever, and person who's sick of hearing the conventional neurotypical advice to dealing with writer's block (i.e. "write every single day," or "there's no such thing as writer's block- if you're struggling to write, just write" Like F*CK THAT. Thank you, Brenda, why don't you go and tell someone with diabetes to just start producing more insulin?)

I've yet to get to a point in my life where I'm able to consistently write at the pace I want to, but I've come a long way from where I was a few years ago. In the past five years I've written two drafts of a 130,000 word fantasy novel (currently working on the third) and I'm about 50,000 words in on the sequel. I've hit a bit of a snag recently, but now that I've suddenly got a lot of time on my hands, I'm hoping to revamp things and return to the basics that have gotten me to this point and I thought I might share.

1) My first draft stays between me and God

I find that I and a lot of other writers unfortunately have gotten it into our heads that first drafts are supposed to resemble the finished product and that revisions are only for fixing minor mistakes. Therefore, if our first draft sucks that must mean we suck as writers and having to rewrite things from scratch means that means our first draft is a failure.

I'm here to say that is one of the most detrimental mentalities you can have as a writer.

Ever try drawing a circle? You know how when you try to free-hand draw a perfect circle in one go, it never turns out right? Whereas if you scribble, say, ten circles on top of one another really quickly and then erase the messy lines until it looks like you drew a circle with a singular line, it ends up looking pretty decent?

Yeah. That's what the drafting process is.

Your first draft is supposed to suck. I don't care who you are, but you're never going to write a perfect first draft, especially if you're inexperienced. The purpose of the first draft is to lay down a semi-workable foundation. A really loose, messy sketch if you will. Get it all down on paper, even if it turns out to be the most cliche, cringe-inducing writing you've ever done. You can work out those kinks in the later drafts. The hardest part of the first draft is the most crucial part: getting started. Don't stress yourself out and make it even harder than it already is.

If that means making a promise to yourself that no one other than you will ever read your first draft unless it's over your cold, dead body, so be it.

2) Tell perfectionism to screw off by writing with a pen

I used to exclusively write with pencil until I realized I was spending more time erasing instead of writing.

Writing with a pen keeps me from editing while I right. Like, sometimes I'll have to cross something out or make notes in the margins, but unlike erasing and rewriting, this leaves the page looking like a disaster zone and that's a good thing.

If my writing looks like a complete mess on paper, that helps me move past the perfectionist paralysis and just focus on getting words down on the page. Somehow seeing a page full of chicken scratch makes me less worried about making my writing all perfect and pretty- and that helps me get on with my main goal of fleshing out ideas and getting words on a page.

3) It's okay to leave things blank when you can't think of the right word

My writing, especially my first draft, is often filled with ___ and .... and (insert name here) and red text that reads like stage directions because I can't think of what is supposed to go there or the correct way to write it.

I found it helps to treat my writing like I do multiple choice tests. Can't think of the right answer? Just skip it. Circle it, come back to it later, but don't let one tricky question stall you to the point where you run out of brain power or run out of time to answer the other questions.

If I'm on a role, I'm not gonna waste it by trying to remember that exact word that I need or figure out the right transition into the next scene or paragraph. I'm just going to leave it blank, mark to myself that I'll need to fix the problem later, and move on.

Trust me. This helps me sooooo much with staying on a roll.

4) Write Out of Order

This may not be for everyone, but it works wonders for me.

Sure, the story your writing may need to progress chronologically, but does that mean you need to write it chronologically? No. It just needs to be written.

I generally don't do this as much for editing, but for writing, so long as you're making progress, it doesn't matter if it's in the right order. Can't think of how to structure Chapter 2, but you have a pretty good idea of how your story's going to end? Write the ending then. You'll have to go back and write Chapter 2 eventually, but if you're feeling more motivated to write a completely different part of the book, who's to say you can't do that?

When I'm working on a project, I start off with a single document that I title "Scrap for (Project Title)" and then just write whatever comes to mind, in whatever order. Once I've gotten enough to work with, then I start outlining my plot and predicting how many chapters I'm going to need. Then, I create separate google docs for each individual chapter and work on them in whatever order I feel like, often leaving several partially complete as I jump from one to the other. Then, as each one gets finished, I copy and paste the chapter into the full manuscript document. This means that the official "draft" could have Chapters 1 and 9, but completely be missing Chapters 2-8, and that's fine. It's not like anyone will ever know once I finish it.

Sorry for the absurdly long post. Hopes this helps someone. Maybe I'll share more tricks in the future.

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