"I felt Kurt tonight when I was chanting. All up in my heart. Genuine grief. Clean grief, not mixed in with anything. You know that guy was so sophisticated and witty. I know we'd still be together despite my doubts. He could hang. Just... That sort of compatibility comes once in a blue moon. I genuinely, cleanly miss him and wherever he is, he knows it. It burns me up that I'm a 'widow'. I hate the word. And I hate what this has done to my beautiful daughter; hardened her edges even more than I have. Her soft & blurry beautiful bumpy clumsy edges. Oh Frances Bean you are the queen and your dad was a prince I wish." -Courtney Love in her diary several years after Kurt's death