#did anyone connect these two

[kitkitkittycat]

Did anyone else connect the scene where Gojo refuses to recognise suguru with the scene in Songs of Achilles? No? Just me? Am I the only insane person

"I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world."

#jjk #songs of achilles #if it best friends to lovers to enemies #satosugu #gojo satoru #suguru geto #did anyone connect these two #no? #am i insane

[bonebabbles]

I keep starting and abandoning posts that go into my drafts, as I try to stay tasteful about how fucking revolted this part makes me. Like, I'm legitimately unsure if the very relevant trauma I have is making me see things that aren't here

But first we see that Star Flower is trying to ingratiate herself to the group, just after she reappears from chapter 5. Chapter 5 is about how Clear Sky is still abusive towards his son, and she comes in after stroking his ego, stressing how alone she is, and appealing to how she'll be loyal unlike his child. (She glances over at Thunder, directly implying this.)

Now in Chapter 9, she's babysitting and trying to care for Milkweed's kits (in spite of discomfort from Milkweed), taking a wet sleeping space away from the others, and pulling more than her own weight "without complaint." Putting herself through harsh sitations to prove her worth.

All while trying to appear extra attractive to Thunder, and later Clear Sky. Basically every man in power who can "protect her"

Like, am I going fucking crazy? With how we later find out that Star Flower was "promised as a mate" to One Eye's subordinate Slash, is... is that hypersexualization? One of the extremely stigmatized symptoms of sexual abuse?

She goes to find Clear Sky alone to throw herself at his paws, and he's very quickly attracted to how she promises to perfectly obey him, have no needs of her own, and finally be the perfect servant that he desires

"I don't deserve your trust because I am dirt. I understand you because I also regret something. I'd die for you. I'll never betray you unlike those who have."

This isn't manipulation. She means this. The story is playing their romance sincerely. She's comparing "betraying" Thunder by telling her own father about an assassination ambush to Clear Sky's history of child abuse, physical assault, and murder

She believes she's on the same level as this; a monster who murdered a childhood friend in a fit of entitled rage. She was a victim of One Eye who really believes that the way her father used her means she "understands" this monster, deserves this treatment.

And Clear Sky LIKES that.

He likes that she will have COMPLETE FAITH in him. That she will follow him WITHOUT QUESTION. That she will OBEY his orders. That's fucking verbatim, that's THE TEXT!!!

WHILE HE'S STILL CRYING ABOUT "ive tried to atone every day" FOLLOWING THE LAST TWO BOOKS WHERE THE ONLY SHITTY THING HE DOESN'T DO IS MURDER INNOCENT WOMEN

Am I insane?? Am I wrong??? Am I missing something here???? Why the fuck is the fandom takeaway "haha sexy girl steals his dad." Did I read the same book

#Csa mention #Did they once again do a misogyny so hard they accidentally gave their woman character trauma #My tip to anyone in a draining relationship. If your partner fetishizes that YOU would never leave or betray them unlike ''all the others'' #RUN. #There may be a reason their exes cut ties with them and they're praising you for ignoring red flags #Especially when your partner is significantly older and more experienced #Theres nothing noble about constantly suffering for the sake of 'loyalty' #Star Flower PLEASE get out of here you dont fucking deserve this you did nothing wrong #Bones reads dotc #Dotc hate #I thought i was just remembering things wrong when i was adding the subtheme of thunder having a connection to star via abusive dads- #-in my dotc rewrite. But no it's right there. It's in the text and it's something clear is attracted to #I abuse the shit out of my son and he left me once over it #But i can abuse this girl his same age and she won't run. Finally! A victim who won't leave! #And then they become mates and she births at least two litters #Cw abuse #sa mention #EDIT: I've changed the language just slightly #because the timeline COULD work out that starf was an adult when she was promised to slash for a very brief window of time #and hypersexualization is a symptom of trauma resulting from many types of sex abuse. Even that done when the victim was an adult. #it's just more common in CSA

[431989]

more resident alien posting. predictions... spoilers so beware

well. i'm upset that the shows going to have a difficult time having more serious scenes now. and that's probably what it's going to try and set itself up for.

i reaaaally would have loved to see this show do something ACTUALLY different and good. by different i mean in terms of writing and not necessarily drifting from source material. yes i'm still sour over last ep, but i wouldn't be AS sour if everyone on the show didn't treat harry and asta's relationship as "mother and child." and also if the show didn't take such a nose dive into the type of comedy it's putting out.

ALSO? IN A RECENT INTERVIEW? Sheridan going on to state that harry would lose his first """love""" (more like lust. awesome that a show trying to teach human emotion gets those two things mixed up) and then realize there's love everywhere or something? why does this feel like "weird" people are forever left to the role of outcasts. already fucked it up once i guess the guy's trying to fuck it up more. could've just left it at "he'll lose his first love, then he will have to reconcile with his feelings." but he had to drop in that last corny bit.

like. the show's source is already good. i don't understand all these decisions they're making to try and make it seem "unique." and now to get numbers back they're dumbing it way down. WHICH. BY DOING SO. HOW ARE YOU GOING TO HAVE YOUR DRAMA? like how am i supposed to take anything seriously in the show. i *could* in season 1 and parts of season 2, but now it's just whatever. it's too goofed up for me to care. and now people who love the goofy won't give two shits about whatever message you want to drop or plot you want to develop. i dont give a shit about the greys!!! i dont care what theyre doing!!!! who gives a fuck if theyll blow up the earth. none of the characters really care anymore either. oh well!!!

also, predictions kind of. i'm not trying to say this will be the be all end all but it certainly could be a turn the show takes. in one of the issues of the comic (suicide blonde i think), harry is investigating the "suicide" of a woman. by the end of the issue, he catches up with her ex-lover and ex-roommate. they were both ladies. and the girl who died had a drinking problem btw. and was constantly seeing boys. i'm all for gay couples on screen as a gay guy myself but it'll feel so cheap to pair darcy and asta together despite the way theyve been played on screen. maybe its doable. i don't know. but i genuinely could care less considering the overall tone of the show's drifted more towards a sitcom than anything else. i think the small handful of 40+ year old gay wine moms would probably love it, but the vast majority of viewers wont. either they'll hate it and say it's forced diversity (there's already people saying that about the gay couple on screen this past episode) or it'll be another nothing moment to a further nothing story. if anything it'd feel one step removed from tokenization, considering they see harry as a manchild. ableism! show's trying to seem fucking wholesome but they can't be bothered to care about their nd viewers. like "haha look we have a main gay couple!!! what do you *mean* our show has rampant ableist tropes, we have a gay couple!"

i'm just so bummed. the show's cornered itself into a sitcom so meaningful moments aren't a thing anymore. plus the comparison of harry to a child is really getting at me. like he's a grown man as a human, and hes a grown alien thing as an alien. it's such a big slap in the face to any person who cherished the witty and unique story telling of the first season... like.... i don't know.... people who would've been fans of the comic too? i have small gripes about the comic, but at least it takes itself more seriously. but the show runners haaate the people who read the comics. why? i dont know. well maybe i do know. probably seen as too nerdy and weird for their idea of the show's viewerbase. despite the fucking basis of the show being weird and nerdy.

they couldve done the darcy asta thing better if they do go down that road. i'm just saying i wouldn't be surprised. they already scared off everyone who would've cared for something like that, so i don't know how they'll manage to find an audience that cares. everything in s1 was so organic and felt real!!!!! now its just!!! nothing!!!!!!!!!!

im also thinking about the fact that after posting that one resident alien drawing i did, i've had to block tons of people because they're freaks. loud and proud conservatives. man this shit sucks.

#resident alien #ra posting #sorry this one's kind of long #i'm still mad #i'll still keep up i guess out of spite #no i'm not paying for shit either LOL #i'll also clarify that i was in a sleepy daze when reading the comic #so i could've glazed past some things or the connection i made in my sleepy daze might not make sense now #which do correct me on that #but buhhhhh #whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #god forbid a guy have meaningful development in a show he cares about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #also for anyone tempted to read the comic its written by two english guys so. keep that in mind i guess. #this is alllllll making me want to make my own thing #guhh #tbvh the show took out a lot of the comics... mysticism... but then the show shat all over the work they did to make it real and charming #flanderization hit it hard #feels way more tokeny. and also harry atp is nothing more than described as a manchild #EDITTING IN THE TAGS THEY DID CALL EACH OTHER FAMILY DIDNT THEY #technically they hadnt done that yet for asta and harry on screen i dont think but the interviews are still there #god what a mess

[wormboyfriendcentralstation]

what the tags to my posts have taught me is that the wurthering heights stans are eating devouring enjoying while im locked in Moby Dick Jail with the ahab starbuck emotionally draining yuri that lives only in my mind-

#me staring at the direction that they decided to take starbuck's character #LOOK WHAT THEY DID TO MY BOY #also sometimes i get annoyed about the way that pip and ahab's interactions were adapted #like if anyone could have dragged ahab's ass back from the edge. ranked. 1. pip and 2. MAYBE starbuck had a small chance but like #not really #pip and starbuck are like....... two examples of how ahab's damage couldve been averted #pip and ahab are SUCH an important relationship that got kinda lost #bc it shows that ahab COULDVE walked back his ego for human connection. he and pip wind up kinda getting each other in a weird way #pip in moby dick is like. if apollo was the ocean pip would be cassandra. do you understand. #pip and ahab know how each other tick in the book. #they were like each other's One Chances bc ahab couldve left his ego and done the one damn thing which would've REALLY saved #the one goddamn person who he's come to genuinely care about #and pip gave ahab the chance to have someone sort of get how actually scared ahab is of the ocean and how that fear was the biggest #damn insult a dude like that could have. bc if you read the book and how ahab was treated directly after losing his leg. #it wasnt JUST moby dick it was the way his ship treated him. you understand why he's Like That. #the ocean AND the whaling crew fucked them both over. #uhhh meanwhile starbuck Thought that he could walk ahab's ego back from the edge! #but in reality the way that starbuck was ahab's One Chance at not killing everyone on that ship is if starbuck had shot his ass in the cabi #limbus company #IM GLAD THE WURTHERING HEIGHTS FANS ARE HAVING FUN THOUGH IM GL

[guruguruguruguru]

the longer i sit with it the more it really gets me how nobody ever really mentions obito and rin before obito's reveal in shippuden. kakashi vaguely mentions his old friends and i think other characters allude to the tragedy of kakashi's past but rin and obito themselves are lost to time. something about that is so fucking haunting and so gutting. you would think it would be a pretty big deal that two kids from the same class died within a year of each other, but the nine tails attack probably wiped so much clean that nobody could really carry the grief... still, when we see their class in flashbacks, we recognise almost everyone else, so... there's something really sad and hopeless about their absence...

there's a lot a LOT to say about it from a lot of different angles and i don't really feel like going into meta posting territory i just have big feelings about it you know? and to me i guess obito encapsulates a lot of the anger. for the people who get left behind and forgotten. and that can mean a lot of things

#two of my classmates died on separate occassions in short span of time in high school and i wont claim that grief because #i didnt know either of them well but i did feel a lot of anger and overwhelming hopelessness. that life keeps relentlessly going on #even when people get left behind #it feels so unfair and so painful... there are so many more aspects to it though as well #like people who are left behind in other ways due to circumstance or class or race or etc etc- often a combination of those factors #and obito as a kid reminds me a lot of a good friend i had when i was little who was late to class every day #because of those outside circumstances #and again someone in high school who i was late WITH every day. because ya #and i feel very big about that. and about rins death as something so fucking preventable #the tragedy also of baby teacher minato who was so so not ready to be in charge of anyone. but. that's something else #anyway i guess i just really feel a connection with that anger and despair #sorru was watching niji and felt fucking insane about it #obito and rin are like two sides of one thing. maybe of one person. of one concept #part of why i'm so so crazy about obito being trans is because i see him as also using rin's memory as a conduit for #his anger and grief about his own lost younger self. hence: baby obito is also a little girl #i think they are best friends. its so important. idk none of this is wider narrative meta #its just my feelings about them in particular #haunting dead girl and the ghost who has to carry on and can't rest

[dangerous-advantage]

i refuse to believe mxtx has not listened to at least one or both of the songs 'viva la vida' by coldplay, and 'pompeii' by bastille. i refuse

#this isn't even me like vaguely connecting lyrics to characters like i love to do (see 'third eye' and 'third eye (demo)' for hua cheng) #like istg i could make a full analysis post about how these two songs (especially the latter) #relate to xie lian and bai wuxiang respectively #i could do it right now #and NO this post was not brought about by my ardent desire to have an actually GOOD mash-up of those two songs #that combines elements of both while keeping a fair balance between both songs. #like come on PLEASE i *need* to listen to a mash-up where the person doing it confidently puts together the respective bridges #it CAN be done and if you do everything else at least semi-well and it sounds smooth then you WILL have created a masterpiece #i would do it myself but i have neither the means nor ability #anyway. didn't mean to ramble off on that tangent. #jk i totally did lmaoooo #this post is about tgcf btw. if you didn't pick up on that. lmao #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #xie lian #bai wuxiang #this post is so vague i feel bad tagging anyone else lmao #hob #heaven official's blessing

[seventh-district]

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again. #i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to- #-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries* #it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good.. #all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’ #to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from- #-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!! #it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s ​like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :) #anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as- #-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell. #i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

[peggycatrerr]

and like i know that anon had no way of knowing that i literally have a screen studies degree and am doing a masters but i do find it really funny that anyone out there would think someone like me would give more of a shit about a “ship [being] canon” than about a well written and compelling narrative. I’m sorry i can’t get over this it’s just the funniest thing anyone could’ve possibly sent to me

#steph’s post tag #and just bc i know what this website is like: you don’t have to be studying this stuff academically to feel the way i do! #it’s just that if anyone i went to uni with cared more about shipping & whether it’s ‘canon’ than the actual narrative when comparing thing #i’d be like dude what are you doing here. why did you pick this as your major #Like out of everyone they could’ve gotten mad at and sent an ask to they picked me. #and even if i didn’t literally study this shit you can tell from my blog title that i’m an x files fan #and yet you think i care more about whether two characters kiss or not than i do about their deep connection and the story as a whole?

[fluentisonus]

genuinely genuinely this haunts me so much. can you imagine. would you not also be unwilling to teach someone your language -- a language created specially for you by the deity that made you -- if they were that distasteful and apathetic about it. like the complete disinterest in learning to communicate with or understand you

#this firmly from my dwarf apologist stance but this bit reads SO much like an elf that. just did not connect these two things maybe #we thought their language was ugly & barely anyone learned it. but that's okay because they didn't seem very enthusiastic abt us learning #these two things are surely just a happy coincidence #thoughts #tolkien #the way they say all this abt not learning their language all while calling them naugrim even tho they *know* they call themselves khazad. #boo hiss. misery on all of them

[zaggyzoo]

today after homework help i also did braids but im so anxious she didn't like them lol

#for the kid's sister #bc she doesn't know anyone who can braid #she wanted two half french braids that connect and half hair down #but it was my first time in a while doing braids on someone else and i did the kind that folds over not under and kept them soft #bc i didn't want to hurt her and also that's how i like them too #so. why am i so nervous about itttt fjfjjfjf it's not like i want to be hired??? lmaoo i just hope she likes them

[constantvariations]

gimme your top 5 hot takes about rwby

I'm afraid I don’t have an accurate gauge of what qualifies as a “hot take” (or even what it actually is. Is it merely a controversial opinion?) so if any of these are ice cold I apologize

Adam and the Rose family should be connected in some way. Visual cues are important and there's so much spicy potential, especially if the dynamic originated with Summer

For Roman, the best and longest standing villain of the show, to be one of the few on-screen Grimm deaths is borderline parody. Personally, I think Ruby should’ve had a more active role in his death, even if by accident or setting up circumstances like she did Neo

Ozma’s situation is far more horrifying and sympathetic than Salem’s. The gods proved that they could bring Ozma back to life in his own body, but instead he’s forced to be a body snatcher? That’s fucked up in so many ways. She may be able to die again and again, but I think it’s way worse to die knowing you’re dooming several people at once

May Marigold isn’t that great of trans rep. She’s so unmemorable and inconsequential to the plot that the only reason I remember her at all is because she’s The Trans One. Like, glad they made her trans, and the reveal was respectful and clear and not even plot-relevant!, but maybe make her a good character first?

If we’re going by the show’s queer golden rule of blushing = romantic feelings, then Ruby had a crush on Emerald in V3 and it should have been explored way more for angst purposes

#rwde #thanks for asking #i will never shut up abt adam/rose family connections and theres nothing you can do abt it #blake or weiss being the one to take down roman would also be interesting but i think the most effective dynamic is ruby and roman #honestly you could make a sitcom w those two and id watch the shit out of it #'my roommate is a mob boss' #(depending on how old Roman actually is. RWBY isnt great at depicting ages unless youre on an extreme end) #(idk age them up for college lmao) #also i 100% hc ruby as a trans lesbian #qrow took her to get her first dose of E #trans solidarity babeyyyyy #this is a completely different topic but yangs existence in canon makes way more sense if both tai and raven are trans as well #canon raven does Not seem the type to allow herself to be in a long term relationship much less get pregnant #or if she did she'd take the child to raise as a protege. a true heir to the branwen name #not leave the kid behind for... reasons #why did raven run again? i think the show ended on 'she was scared' or smth. or didnt trust oz bc... bird #idk the show was dumb abt the whole thing #anyway i'll happily explain if anyone wants more elaboration ^w^

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

I’m sorry but when I hear that wilmon “dated for only a few weeks” as some type of….defense for the royal family’s actions (or rather, their inactions), I just hear an attempt to diminish the bullshit that simon went through.

#………..no. #it’s about respect…lying about lying is the main issue here. #it’s not about how long they were ‘together’ or not #the whole ass scandanavia doesn’t deserve simon tbh #and wille would agree honestly #otherwise why else did he do what he did at the end of S2 (season two speech my beloved) #he agrees that simon deserves better that’s the whole point of the s2 ending! lol #and also weren’t they friends first lol it’s not like they knew each other for 2 days #also the show makes it clear there’s a deeper connection between them anyway #football scene anyone? #also why is length of time the primary determinant on if someone should be treated with love and respect wtf #also there are people who break up after 5+ years of dating or marriage even bc of serious issues #sooo lol #and wille is honestly too good for his parents tbh #and september wishes he had half the class in wille’s pinky finger but alas he will never #sad! #young royals #wilmon #you claim you ship it….yet say stuff like this? #make it make sense lol

[theflyingfeeling]

stupid stupid stupid stupid I am so fucking stupid

(LONG rant in the tags. originally a little longer still but apparently there were too many tags so tumblr deleted the rest lol)

#ahahahaha so i applied for a (fixed-period) job that was like. right up my alley? #and i was one of the two applicants and they invited me to a Teams interview which was supposed to be last monday #but when i heard the other applicant is someone who's been working for them for the past semester i was like 🤡 #hmmmm i do wonder which one of us they'll hire!! 🙂 #and i was crushed because why can't things go my way for once #being a job-seeker in this area on my field is so stressful and depressing if you don't have the right connections #so i cancelled the interview with an email on the morning of the interview #because i just couldn't motivate myself to go even for practice. i just couldn't #i did consider calling the place and asking if the sitauation was like i suspected #but i didn't because i am not a fully functional adult ✌️🤷‍♀️ #well. today i noticed that they have opened the position again 🤡 #which means that for one reason or another they're not going to hire the person who's been doing that exact job for them before? #and now i'm crying because lmao what kind of impression i'll be giving of myself #if i call them now and tell them why i cancelled the interview? #''yeah so i stood you up because i'm a hardened pessimist and thought i had no chance pls hire me lol'' #who's gonna want to hire a loser like this 🙃 a loser who couldn't even bother calling them like a normal adult would've #and also what if my employment agency finds out i didn't go to the interview? they could cancel my allowance ahahahahahAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAA #god i hate being unemployed and i hate job seeking so much it hurts #my self-confidence is nowhere near it should be if you were actually to do well in job interviews etc. #''why do you think you'd be good for this job?'' I'M NOT! YOU'LL BE DEFINITELY BETTER OFF HIRING ANYONE ELSE!! #and some people's advice for job interviews be like ''just be yourself!'' like honey no #if i'm myself at a job interview absolutely no one's gonna want me ahaha #job-seeking is just so fucking crushing and humiliating #like. when you're studying and you have an exam? you can study for it as hard as you can and try to do your best #and you'll get the grade you deserve. if someone gets the highest grade it doesn't effect YOUR chance to get the highest grade as well #but when applying for a job? you can write a splendid application text and answer the interview questions as best as you can #but if there's another applicant that's significantly more qualified or experienced than you they WILL be hired over you #so you can try your best and IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH #and that's why i didn't go to the job interview. because i wanted to protect myself from that heartbreak again #doing the best i can and still not getting the job

[missmeganlee]

WAIT WAIT WAIT- I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING ABOUT THE S2 PICTURES

Wille’s sweater in this picture:

IS THE SAME AS IN THIS PICTURE:

#did anyone else make this connection? #I haven’t seen any posts about it #young royals #edvin ryding #wilhelm #young royals season 2 spoilers #young royals season two #yr season 2 spoilers #yr s2 spoilers

[saviourkingslut]

sometimes i listen to tchaikovsky's music and i get so emotional not simply bc of the music but bc of the thought that he existed and felt and created it and i get to listen to his heart a little like that. listening to the gentle warmth and exuberance of the nutcracker and im like he made that! for us! i love you

#waltz of the flowers making me emotional. ok. #maybe it's bc im so stressed anything is bound to make me cry nowadays #did you know i threw out my back again two weeks ago and still haven't recovered completely #probably bc im so stressed #im specifically saying tchaik bc no other composer truly makes me feel the way he does #actually so much to say about how if there's a popularity contest for composers he almost always wins by a mile #something abt the incredible potential for emotional connection in his music i think. he touches hearts. #if anyone says that he's popular bc his music is 'approachable' and not of high complex classical standard or whatever im killing u #(im looking at you spotify description) #'even if it lacks the formal boldness and harmonic sophistication heard in the compositions of wagner and bruckner' #BRUCKNER!?? BRUCKNER????? fuck off fr #wagner couldn't reach tchaik's emotional sweep if he tried. but i rarely listen to him anyway bc he was a massive antisemite #i should stop reading tchaik's description on spotify bc every time it makes me seethe it's so patronising and degenerative it's unreal #curry rambles

[blujayonthewing]

I think about that time aubree got a casual hookup a lot I think largely because it was a time something nice happened to her with no downsides

#I am imagining her being treated softly. I am imagining her being touched gently. I am imagining her falling asleep in soft arms. #aubree talks about cooking with a gnome who named herself after an herb and drinks wine and has sex and wakes up and makes coffee for two #and doesn't think or talk about The Horrors even once. for twelve blessed hours. what a concept #I've had three glasses of wine and I am now crying about my blorbo ahskfdlsh she just has NO SUPPORT in the PARTY!! #justin has built a world full of kindness and goodness where being kind makes a real difference #where you can form real and rewarding connections with people in a living and responsive world and it's so wonderful #but we travel because we're adventuring!! so aubree only has the party actually present!! #and the party consists of a bard who works overtime to be rude and mean and make a BAD impression everywhere we go for no reason #and an overwrought teenager whose trauma is 1) the only trauma that matters and 2) overpowers ANY of those real and meaningful connections #her player constantly like 'ooOHhhHh justin your GRIM WORLD you are PUTTING LISBET THROUGH IT hohohooo' #ACTUALLY the entire POINT of this grim world is to highlight the power of love and hope in the face of darkness and despair!! #but you keep CLOSING YOUR EYES TO THAT!! and CHOOSING TO PLAY GRIMDARK NO MATTER WHAT!! #so I'm just sitting here like :) this is a world full of kindness and hope and aubree doesn't get any #cause she's the only one IN the party BRINGING any!! #and we don't stay long enough with any one NPC for them to be there for her #LAYS on the FLOOR. #it's a weird contrast with mel who is ALSO profoundly lonely because mel doesn't understand that #and if she DID she HAS friends she could lean on-- zhartook at the very least and probably also claire #aubree grew up in a big family in a tight community-- she KNOWS she needs connection and right now doesn't feel like she HAS anyone #sucksss #about me #aubree