#death's walk

[konstskvaller]

#magnus enckell #death's walk

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[bungledown-chim]

i cannot explain how much kristen needs to change her marketing tactic

she keeps going around and saying that cassandra is the goddess of mystery and doubt and the night, but thats not quite true. cassandra is the goddess of finding safety in the unknown. of not being afraid of doubt.

she is the belief that even if you don't know where you are or what to do, if you are lost and alone in a dark forest, there will be something on the other side, and all you have to do is get there. Cassandra is the goddess of staring into the cold, uncaring void and feeling a warm hand clasp your own, of a whisper in your ear saying youre going to be okay. you aren't alone. it is going to be scary and hard and uncertain, but you will never be on your own because i am here with you. you will never be lost because i know where you are

#though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death #I will fear no evil; #For You are with me; #girls the religious trauma is showing back up #the inherent comfort and safety in having a divinity #there are times i still miss it :( #fhjy #kristen applebees #cassandra #fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high junior year

[v0idwraith]

the amount of historical references they’re making this season is giving me LIFE

#he told ned to walk the plank and i went OOOO OOOOOOO #ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #ofmd s2 spoilers

[captain-flint]

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#our flag means death #ofmd #ofmdedit #ofmd s2 spoilers #blackbonnet #blackbonnetedit #gentlebeard #gentlebeardedit #edward teach #blackbeard #stede bonnet #taika waititi #rhys darby #literally what do i do with this #WHAT DO I DO WITH ANY OF IT #THERE'S TOO MUCH STUFF MY BRAIN REFUSES TO PROCESS IT #im not even capable of reblogging things yet bc my chest feels like i've been gargling and swallowing glass #i keep having to get up and just walk in circles #i've hyperventilated 73 times since yesterday #i knew david was gonna give us everything we ever wanted but that doesn't mean i was ready to see any of it #anyway i just needed this in the highest resolution on my blog #my stuff

[thecoolestcowboy]

girls be like “i’m fighting demons” and the demons are some little rich dude who wears a little striped night gown with a matching nightcap and snores ‘HONKK shooo HONK shooo’

#BRO WALKS AROUND AT NIGHT WITH A CANDLE. #our flag means death #ofmd #our flag means death stede #ofmd season 2 #ofmd meme #blackbeard ofmd #ofmd kraken #ofmd stede #stede bonnet #stede fucking bonnet #ed teach #edward teach

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Don't Wormy About Me.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #yu ziyuan #Please allow me to make it clear how important I think the hug between YZY and JC is in regards to several aspects of their characters #For one - it is the resolution and reveal that behind all the harsh words and bitterness...She really did love her son. #A hug is a soft gesture that you would never expect from someone like YZY and the fact she shows JC this affection now - #-Tells us how she knows that this upcoming battle is a death sentence for her. #Her giving away Zidan is honestly overkill but another sign of her truly showing him how she loves him and wants him to survive. #The dread of knowing she's walking back to a fight without zidian and trying to keep up brave face one last time...chilling. #Zidian represents legacy and promises. And this is going to both save and destroy Jiang Cheng as he carries this weight alone. #Heartbreaking stuff! Didn't draw it in the comic because I wanted to draw a silly worm on a string! #WWX tried to help JC out of the knot but got stuck in it. #Those worm on a string tricks are harder than they look! #Also; it's been about a year since the last boat joke - but indeed this is the 11th boat of pd-mdzs. No need to do the math.

[lucksea]

just had to resurrect my cat for a second time the friskies temptations were too strong

#null havoc damage #cult of the lamb #he didnt even get put in 3 more rituals. i fought him once and was like ok that takes a while ill just cycle the others #WHY ARE *YOU* MAD AT ME. AGAIN. I HAVE NOT DONE THINGS TO YOU THIS TIME #my comrade in death. you are the one who walked to the bar. not even my fault

[bizarrelittlemew]

this man looks more uncomfortable with a woman in his lap than he did picking up severed noses from the floor of Spanish Jackie'z

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 teaser #stede bonnet #our flag means death #ida.stuff #i hope ed walks in 😇 #ofmd gifs

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Bruh emotional support ghost kid? Well thats what they are calling him

Suicide cases in gothem are about to fucking plummet boiz cause this one weird blue eyes, black haired boy is now heading to your location.

How does he know where to be? Having a bad day and are all alone? No the fuck your not cause don’t turn around now but theres some shiny blue eyes coming at you from that dark ally. Oh shit hes here to drop some information about you and your lost loved ones that he should know. Oh god the closure. How could you have been afraid on this sweet, creepy, boy who just helped you find your way.

Meanwhile Danny is chillin in Gothem cause the GIW hate it there (none of they equipment actually functions in Gothem so it’s either super haunted or actually not haunted at all). Then all of a sudden he gets approached by a random ghost begging for his help because their sweet baby girl is about to do something horrible. Oops now all the ghosts are following their most loved ones around just to make sure they are there to rush to Danny for help when all else fails. Now hes getting to fulfil his protection obsession double time because one hes helping protect people from themselves and two hes protecting everyone in Gothem by stopping people from becoming villains for revenge. Plus he gets to see first hand how hes making a difference because all those people he saved are sending him some good vibes from all across Gothem.

Thank god he followed Jazz around so much to slightly absorb some of her phycology knowledge over the years. Plus it was actually pretty interesting so she gave him her old text books. Shes also helping him deal with the rare events where he can’t save someone. Just a moment too late or he stops them but they later succeeded in the hospital. Neither are his fault. Now only if he could convince his core of that.

Anyway why Gothem you ask? Amity Park would have been just as good tbh but imagine Batmans face when he finally gets to be face to face with the emotional support ghost boy. Why is he here? Bruce is fine. Batman is fine. Hes not gonna do anything crazy. It’s just a hard time of year. Around their death always gives him grief. But hes an adult and can manage it.

“You know they are so proud of you.” The boy states. As if it’s clear as day, even though it’s Gothem and never a clear day. Batman blinks at him, stunned for a moment. “What?” This boy can’t possibly know that. No one will ever know that, Bruce can only hope. “They see their home, full of such life. That big house that felt so empty, so cold, to them as well for years. Then you filled it with Family and Love like they had always wanted for you. They are so proud of what you have turned it into. Somewhere full of life and warmth.” A small smile graces his face as finally “you have made your parents so proud” and its all he can do to contain himself. Emotions are running high and sue him because he really did need to hear that ok. The boy suddenly looks to Bruces right with a confused face “aren’t all basements like that though?” Before Bruce can even get a word in hes gone. Just vanished before his eyes.

#danny phantom #danny fenton #dpxdc #dp x dc #batman #I just wanted to write danny walking up to the buggest toughest batman and make him cry tears of relief #danny is helping his subjects find closure while always feeding his protection obsession #let him be interested in his sisters word #also god imagine bruce just having a bad time of it cause is the anniversary of his parents death #than the ghost kid just walks up and tells him exactly what he needed to heat #yes they are proud of the word batman does #he knows he has saved lives #but what about him as a father #would his father be ashamed of his parenting skills #would his mother be discusted at how he treats his children #he always remembers his parents as good parents so he wants to do right by them by also being a good parent #anyone can risk their life for another but few can be a good father #actually it’s easy just love your kids and sont walk out and leave them with an insane bitch of a mother #dad im lookin at you #and dknt marry your fucking step sister dad #isnt our family tree circle enough. why must u follow in grandmothers footsteps #at least with him is marrage related aye? #oops im rabling about my daddy issues teehee

[scribbyizback]

does anybody feel Zesty abt ldr Sun?? oh hey yeah not me pffft nah. spirals

love death and rollerskates by @spadillelicious

#fnaf #dca fandom #scribbits art #art #lovely magma w sneeb and slime last night :DDDD #i didnt include bikini sun because i wasnt proud of that one but #yk #sneeb sleeps on sun ever so happily #wish that were me fr fr #also my dad walked in while i was writing the dialogue for the last image #he only saw “c-can you kill me” and he was upset and told me not to write that sorta stuff but #i think he would have many more words to say if i zoomed out a little #love death and rollerskates #sun fnaf #fnaf sun #tw suggestive #suggestive #cw suggestive

[soymilklatte001]

He had to look up a yt guide on how to stitch himself back up lol

#lawrence oleander #btd #btd2 #boyfriend to death #cw: gore #btd lawrence #the fact that Lawrence just walked out of ren’s house after being murdered always makes me giggle lmao

[sunflowergraves]

#been a solid minute since I posted #welcome back to memes only I find funny #solangelo #will solace #tsats #nico di angelo #also lowkey kinda funny that will was on the verge of death the whole book and he still managed to take L after L from everyone #Tripped after being told to be careful #Coffee spilled on him after reassuring Nico the subway was awesome #summoning a mini army of birds and dogs when he tried to take a silly walk #cheese hat and shoelace soup after traumatizing nightmares #nearly knocked into The Abyss #hit in the face by his sun globe #like damn honestly i would also be pissed and cranky #how could i forget when he tried to speak trog and accidentally said he was going to eat them #and losing the oars to the canoe trying to build nico a cute minecraft house #i can't stay anything because im like this on a daily basis. i feel for both our boyfriends

[femmeconomics]

hate to say it, but part of ending the stigma around sexual assault means not assuming every woman blames herself. yes, female socialization encourages it, but that doesn’t make it a given, and the goal of all of these campaigns is to eventually diminish the proportion of women who do blame themselves. it is entirely possible, and increasingly common, for women to experience sexual assault and not feel shame or guilt, which we should be happy about. but instead, there are only so many times you can hear “you know it’s not your fault, right?” before it sounds like “it was your fault”. and there’s only so many times you can hear “don’t blame yourself” before it sounds like “you should blame yourself”. because it feels good to say, doesn’t it? sure, you don’t believe she’s guilty, but you do believe she should feel guilty, so that you can disabuse her of the notion. just something to consider.

#i think we are very pleased with the idea of female shame #even among people who genuinely do not believe women are at fault for being assaulted #you are still meant to pay the penance of suffering and self destruction #god fucking knows why #“i got mugged” “aww don’t blame yourself for walking around with those fancy shoes and visible wallet okay? it’s not your fault” #you’d be like girl what. i didn’t fucking say it was my fault but your mind sure jumped there fast 🤨 #“my mom died” “wow. do you feel terrible crippling shame for everything you’ve ever done wrong in your life? #up to and including causing your mom’s death? because that would be totally wrong if you did” #like how could that possibly be an appropriate response #genuinely i think the feeling that i was going completely insane post-being raped because no one would believe i didn’t blame myself #was like. solidly half as traumatic as the actual event #like. it is okay not to feel guilty and shameful. it’s great actually. you’re not having the wrong response.

[nenehyuuchiha]

#zosan #black leg sanji #one piece #meme #roronoa zoro #zoro x sanji #it's literally them #it goes both ways #love that cene where Sanji literally takes a wanted poster of Zoro from his suit #are you walking around with pictures of your boyfriend all the time baby? #to be fair he gets lost a lot #zoro is so lost he lost himself in the character and now they're basically married #“i came back from hell to fulfill my promise to you” lmao gay #not even death can separate them #gay gay homosexual gay

[hedgehog-moss]

Jour de brume

#crawling along #in the first picture they are waiting for hay #and pampe lay down to make me feel guilty. i was barely 15min late #when i walked past to go get the hay in the barn she even stretched out her neck to lay her head on the ground #so she was shaped like a chicken drumstick but in her mind she looked nobly sorrowful #''i've been waiting for hours... my poor legs.. can no longer carry me... weak with hunger i await my end #i will suffer a death without glory... poldine go and save yourself. life is no desire of mine anym-oh here's breakfast''