#death is a day worth living

[cherryficmc]

“Oh yeah I love studying psychology! Is so fun! :)”

*Having to deal with my own mortality*

“Oh… I forgot about that :(“

#my prof sent us a text about death now I’m not that well #AND THIS GRADED #good book btw just have to deal with uncomfortable feelings #death is a day worth living #<- name of the book #(it’s originally in portuguese so good luck) #psychology #rambles #psychology student #psychology studyblr

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[palatinewolfsblog]

Do not live half a life

and do not die a half death.

If you choose silence, then be silent.

When you speak, do so until you are finished.

If you accept, then express it bluntly.

Do not mask it.

If you refuse then be clear about it

for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance.

Do not accept half a solution.

Do not believe half truths.

Do not dream half a dream.

Do not fantasize about half hopes.

Half the way will get you nowhere.

You are a whole that exists to live a life

not half a life.

Khalil Gibran.

#quote of the day #quote of today #inspirational quotes #khalil gilbran #life #death #silence #speech #acceptance #refusal #clarity #ambiguity #solutions #truths #dreams #fantasy #ways #a whole life #a life with a meaning #a life worth living

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why is job hunting.

that's it that's the post

#this is both radicalizing me even more & absolutely harshing my mellow #why. do i need. to communicate with a 'virtual assistant'. to apply at hot fucking topic #you know? maybe i Dont need to apply there. who wants em #everywhere is like you need This This and This #oh look an entry level job! aaaand i need a thousand certifications #Excuse Me Where Do People Who Have Done Nothing With Their Life Thus Far Apply??? #why do jobs exist. why cant we all just vibe huh #each application feels like a new death sentence #cant wait to work myself into the ground for a company that views me as nothing but an easily replaceable part! yeehaw! #cant wait to sacrifice my personal time / hobbies / wellbeing for a nine-to-five 5 days a week job i hate! #absolutely unprompted #this world we live in is miserable and infuriating and i want to SHAKE PEOPLE #fucking!! look outside!!! value yourself!! the company is not your family!! they are not worth dying for!! we are all worth so much more!! #gonna go out in the middle of a field and SCREAM #humans are made for art and kindness and for enjoying the short life we're forced into #why make an already doomed existence even worse huh. #why subject ourselves to that. we deserve better. our pasts deserve better. our futures deserve better. #sorry sorry im just. ARGH. this world!!! this life!!! could be so good!!! #but late stage capitalism rampant corruption among Many Other Issues said noooooooo #happiness is illeeegallllll #what if i BITE you. huh. what then. die #every time i sit down to apply i have to actively Not Think About It or i'll delete all my tabs and stop before i start #we as humans are not built for this life... we did not evolve proclivity for kindness and art just to stress ourselves to death #over silly jobs that do Not require the level of dedication we are forced to apply #abolish the 5 day 40+ hour work week... decrease the horrifying amount of funding given to cops and the military... etc... #i think i need to go lie down for a minute im feeling Too Much Anger at the absolute state of things #so happy to be an american. (sarcasm sarcasm sarcasm)

[freeasfishes]

If you don't want aid to get to Palestinians you are evil. If you don't want a ceasefire you are evil. This is extremely obvious to anyone who has even the smallest sliver of a heart. Leaving children to starve while bombs are dropped on them is evil. None of this is complicated. There's nothing that can justify it. It's just fucking evil.

#-oh but hamas is stealing the aid- i dont care. hamas could steal 99% of the aid and it would still be worth it for #that 1% that gets to the people who need it #how do you not understand this???? #free palestine #look I get it if you dont understand all the ins and outs of decolonization yet because its something you haven't been exposed to #that's whatever just start learning #but there's no excuse not to call for an immediate ceasefire and for aid to be sent immediately #we could argue all day long about who has -the right- to live there but none of that changes the fact #that more than a million people are at risk of death right fucking now

[saints-who-never-existed]

Y’all ever think about at what point in the story Blanky first took Hartnell under his wing?

Part of me thinks it was happening in the background from the very beginning.

Hartnell demonstrates a feel for the ice right from Episode One when he’s the first to notice the descending pack ice, to understand the significance of it, and to call for Blanky’s advice.  But he’s also at his most vulnerable in those first few episodes. He’s rudderless and no doubt still grieving the loss of his brother. That’s half the reason he falls for Hickey’s manipulations at first and I have a hard time believing that any of that would’ve happened if he’d already had Blanky’s support behind him. 

I think the more likely option is that it came about when they were abandoning/preparing to abandon the ships. 

Hartnell’s grown a great deal already at that point - instead of dwelling in the past he’s very much looking forward to the future. He’s gained confidence and maturity but most of all, he’s absolutely full to the brim with hope and courage and I can see that being just as important in Blanky’s eyes as a knack for reading the ice. 

At the end of the day, that hope and courage is what it comes down to. 

I don’t think Hartnell would take up the challenge of learning the skills of an ice master in the first place if he wasn’t hopeful and completely convinced that he was going to survive. 

But I also have to wonder if Blanky, particularly after his injury and particularly having a better idea than anyone of what lay ahead, decided to pass on his skill and knowledge because somewhere in the back of his mind he was convinced that he wouldn’t... 

#The Terror #The Terror AMC #Tom Hartnell #Thomas Blanky #Observations #Random Observations #It's so important to me that wee Hartnell literally doesn't stop learning and growing until the day he dies #Important and gut-wrenching #And again - I don't think he'd be so committed to doing all that unless he was convinced they were going to survive #I think it links back to his relationship to death in some way I can't quite articulate yet #Like it all has to be worth something in the end #There has to be a point to all that death and misery #He has to do something to make sure it wasn't all in vain #As for Blanky - we know he never steps into the horror story but he's also very much a realist #Realest MF on those ships #But yeah I can see it being as much about practicality as anything else for him #He clearly cares deeply about others and wants to support them #But I think he's also aware of his own mortality and vulnerability at that point even if he doesn't show it yet #He knows what they're facing and he knows how unlikely he is to live through it #He knows they're going to need his knowledge and he knows he's not going to be there forever to share it #I've got more thoughts on this so stand by for that

[yonemurishiroku]

Speaking of which. I received news about an artist on Twitter who had their whole life demolished by an accusation of pedophilia just because they drew cartoon NSFW. They lost their job, their insurance, couldn’t afford their treatment, and thus had committed suicide.

And the people still said st like “Thank God I don’t want them to work on a cartoon”

A person fucking died for an unrealistic character’s rights and people would still belike “Thank God.” For what? For protecting the pixels???

This is so sad and disgusting. You would kill a person over unrealistic things that did nothing harm to you, that you could have just scrolled away and forget it for the rest of your life. People would rather end another person’s life over having their pixelated obsession ‘tarnished’. So the world has fallen this low, huh? A world where AI creates and humans cannot? Yeah it’s time for a reset.

#I feel the urge to keep up with my wild fantasies until the day I die. #Whatever kind of God supports a living human’s death to protect pixels is not a god i fine worth believing in. #everytime i read ab this i’m so furious and sad and just heartbroken altogether. this is so stupid omfg #people are fucking insane

[lonelyquail]

ok so while my ds is getting sand poured into it at alarming rates I'm thinking about how jrpgs in specific have a really weird desync with How Important Death Is. like some address it better than others but it very frequently happens where if you take a step back youll go "am I wild or is everybody just like, Really down with murder in this game". and consequences for said murder, especially in a characterization sense but even just actual physical consequences, don't really happen? unless it's a vehicle for conflict but like. when it is a vehicle for conflict it feels weird because why are These Guys actually taking the fact we killed somebody in broad daylight seriously and coming after us for it while all the other npcs and even the main party took it like it was another saturday evening

see I Think where the issue lies is in the fact that everything is in its own little world when you're in a battle? like. when you fight an enemy and you get leather out of it it's seen as something the enemy Drops and not. their hide. when you defeat a character in a battle it does just feel like you Defeated them. unless there's dialogue afterwards that says otherwise you don't even mentally assume you killed em you just wounded them enough to make them flee or dissolve or whatever. and it's Weird to just. have that assumption there because for a lot of games it really isn't clear if you're killing them or defeating them !!

that last point is extra important when you have the specific brand of Skittish Hero / Noble Hero Who Doesn't Kill People / Rational Hero In Way Over Their Head or whatever where you really don't think they Would kill a guy just to get them out of the way. in that case it's REALLY weird because it's hardly brought up. even if it Is brought up that that guy Sure Did Die the mc doesn't tend to actually have a reaction ??? and I don't know why this is ???? like Any written reaction would be more interesting than nothing even if the guy doesn't have a full on crisis about taking another life having them go "oh shit, The Consequences" would be nice. really anything except (oh cool we can advance the plot now).

I will also mention that Some deaths do matter plot wise but very frequently what makes them matter is how much of it is linked to an in game battle I think. if your mc just finishes a fight and comes back to the overworld and the guy's Disappeared or Dissolved or whatever it means they don't matter. if the guy's still around after the fight it means it's more significant, especially if they're still alive but wounded or Really Shaken Up. because this clears up the indistinguishable line between if a battle is lethal or not and if a character decides to deal a finishing blow now it's Way more telling of their character. even though this is basically the same thing that happened in the (killed In A Battle) scenario. just with more dialogue. I will also mention that the person who deals the finishing blow is Rarely Ever that good hearted protagonist and often they'll even go :0 at somebody else committing a murder despite them instigating and helping murder quite a few people. just. In Battle. so it's less bad. I guess.

this is leaving out the fact that in party deaths are often a Major Major Blow because like. ok that's fair. that's A Guy You Knew that's understandable. anyway I don't really know where I'm going with this I just think it's interesting how in these types of games death can swap from not mattering at all to mattering a Lot and if u don't think about it too hard u don't even question it. I'll probably be putting some examples in the tags idk

#i will note that in this specific instance most of my party Is actually super down with murder like vocally #so its less weird but it Is weird that the mc does. Not Seem The Type. #i mean not to say he should have tried to spare everybody i think its kinda neat that he doesnt but #if the fact that he doesnt was brought up at all thatd be interesting. have him acknowledge he killed a dude #but no hes just kind of standing there like (ok what next) no leaning one way or another #these would all be interesting reactions if they were actually Brought Up in dialogue but no its just. oversight #anyway this is about sand but ive also felt this about live a live and even bits of twewy #like specifically in lal the fact that the edo chapter Exists and killing people is just Battling Them made me look at Every Other Chapter #thru a lens of (okay am. am i killing these dudes.) and the answer is I DUNNO #like the guy exploded into a cloud of mist theres no way hes Not dead but its STRANGE #this felt most noticeable in the imperial china and present day chapters because they had mcs who decidedly did not feel down with murder #specifically present day because masaru is fighting this guy for the crime of killing a guys. and woa. he killed a guys. with his Hands #i think theres only a handful of deaths in lal that actually mean anything and you can tell which they are because they dont explode #like in You Know The Part with The Character I Cant Say that guys i think the only time defeating an enemy Leaves A Corpse #ok actually thats a lie the Other Guy I Cant Say in The Chapter Before That also died like that and that was equally important #s also worth mentioning that said first guy can ? also die without leaving a corpse? just turn to ash?? #depending on where u go with him. which is weird right. thats weird right. #maybe that just means (hey youre not supposed to feel bad about him dying this tiiiime) #anyway its 5 am ill post this in the morning #vee shut up

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

going to a beach and laying facedown in the sand would fix me rn

#when i grow up im moving to a place that has accessible beaches #i remember being really young and reading about the tsunami in some short story in english in the south??? and being #like omg i won't ever live in a beach town again ill die #but growing up has brought a strange but calm sort of acceptance about death and like not in the bad way #just that if i die i die everyone dies one day and some things are worth dying for #living is important anyway not dying

[vulpinesaint]

"how do you handle conflict with people you love" well that's very simple. i just very specifically pick people that i know i will never have any conflicts with ever and then if i do i either avoid it as if it didn't exist or end the relationship in my head entirely. no conflict to handle. very simple

#yes this is healthy. i prommy [ actively destroying relationships as we speak ] #is it really toxic if you just let a relationship fester in your mind while putting no emotional weight into it so it peters out 🙄 #not even ghosting just like. i no longer initiate conversation. i no longer say i love you a thousand times. #i no longer put that emotional labor into our interactions. #if you had enough of an issue with losing that relationship with me you would try to fix it. and nobody has so far #^^^^^ hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate #anyway all of my dear beloved close people are people that i do not argue with because we're just good for each other. case closed #in my heart i believe i will never ever have something to argue over with miffy we're just too perfect for each other 👍 #realistically we would resolve issues before they even started i can't see us arguing #realistically or emotionally. that shit would break my heart. #need more bitches with an anxious preoccupied attachment style in my life those mfers are the only ones that get me ‼️ #(other people who are also scared to death of losing people and dislike conflict) #realistically i could work out any problems annelise and i have. but anytime we have an actual Issue to resolve #which is always SUPER minute honestly not even worth mentioning #it fucks me up for Days. and lives with me after. #not uh. not healthy but. dgjkfh that's what we're rocking wit #is anybody out there is anybody listening is anybody perceiving me #valentine notes #relationship posting

[oatbugs]

i think i actually owe my life to sony's noise cancelling headphones like quite literally

#its not just them saving me from sensory meltdowns etc #its that when i was like. at the edge of it. like when i was seriously like yeah death means the discontinuation of this suffering and #i want that. like when i was truly like...Wanting To Die. abt to do it. etc. id listen to one song #loudly . w my headphones. and the detail and emotion etc would sink in . and like id just be lost in sound #and then living was worth it again just to hear another song #im convinced if the music quality was any lower and the noise cancelling was any worse i wouldnt be #left alone with the music in the way i was which means i wouldnt be alive #like music saved my life and im sure it saved a lot of peoples lives but specifically the thing that channeled the music to me .. #its an object but i am thankful to it #those were the xm3s and now i have xm4s which r even better but i literally think of those xm3s every day like truly i miss them #im sorry i lost you :( u got me through so much #i took better care of those headphones than i did of any other possession i have ever owned i think #the only imperfection on them after yrs and yrs was a few holes in the fabric from my cat #deciding to make bread In The Headphones once #i stopped her but she still left her mark 😔 but it added charm and a story to the headphones so its ok

[sk3l3t0n444]

just watched a show that just made me realize just how fragile life is

#like FUCKKKKKK #like the conditions of earth are perfect for us #if one thing was off we would have a totally different life #like if most people arent even a footnote in the history of the world then just make the most out of it all #the meaning of life is to live! #if we hold ourselves back we are denying the point of life itself! #yeah one day we will all die but thats not the point of life! #the point of everything is to live! #live despite all the shit we go through! #live to make others lives better! #we are meant to live with the cards we a dealt! #we exist to be part of a whole! #and not in a depressing way! #remove one person from the world and things change a lot! #life is the most precious thing in the world! #more precious than power or money! #life is about whatever we want! #death isnt the opposite of life! its what makes it worth living! #if life wasnt fragile nobody would care! #death is not the enemy but the reason for existence! #the meaning of life is to realize what has been given to you and embrace it for what it is! even if it might suck sometimes! #if life didnt suck sometimes we wouldnt appreciate the good times!

[tumblasha]

what will happen to me afterwards?

on death and social media - 11 april 2024

(content warnings for ovarian cancer, death of a teacher, death of an online friend, future death, grief)

today, one of my twitter mutuals found out that one of their online friends (known each other for Years) died back in january. they're obviously devastated and it makes me think of a three thoughts that run rampant in my head after every death that happens around me.

it's no secret that my first french teacher in high school died (72 year olds don't really survive ovarian cancer, ya know?). it's no secret that she was one of my favorite teachers. i think a lot about her life. her long-distance husband, the children she's "adopted" by teaching them french for four years (she could never have kids herself), her obsession with turtles. she gave so, so much of herself to her community, over 50 years teaching in my little high school. and she was not celebrated as much as i would've liked. she had a memorial service the saturday after she died, and we all talked to / near her urn in the school gym. the principal didn't give a shit, and her husband didn't show up. the other old faculty member (my us history teacher) retired at the end of the next academic year.

the way i found out was through text. i went through the first stage of denial, saving my grief for four hours later when i fully found out the context behind the "i'm so sorry" sent to the group chat. my french teacher had over 100 turtles, little trinkets she put all over her classroom. and she let each of her students take one home.

for almost a decade now, i've grown quite fond of the community i found on twitter. i made my little fan account, i followed people who were also obsessed with my fav pieces of media, and the rest is history. over the years, i also had to take breaks from being online after reading some "this is X's mom. X passed away last night" tweets or just let a friend fade away after their last tweet ("going into surgery tomorrow! should recover in a few months :3") turned one year old.

and i'm so scared. i think that with the many diseases running rampant on the planet, the lack of secure infrastructure in my country, and other problems, i realize that i could simply go away at any second. and who would know? legally, they have to tell my parents (they're the secondary recipients of health and retirement accounts). legally, they have to tell my job. legally, they don't have to tell anyone else. but i have friends everywhere. the most important ones existing as little icons on my screen or little words in my messaging apps. how the hell are they supposed to know?

when i was a kid, i always imagined myself having at least two weddings: one with my family in peru, one with my spouse's family and our joint community in the united states. now i realize the same might have to happen for my funeral. how am i supposed to plan ahead for that? now that i've finished school, there's never going to be a "guaranteed" place for me to be. i can go anywhere at any time! and none of you have to know!!

there are no conclusions to this ramble. there is only the three threads: online friends leaving but being remembered, people in my real life leaving but being forgotten, and me who will leave someday too. maybe i'll leave behind some turtles, too.

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author's note: no, i'm not suicidal. you should not express concern to medical professionals over this post. i am healthy and happy to be alive.

#and what's crazy is that i have at least two weeks' worth of posts queued up on this blog #when is that going to stop? #and who will take over my twitter accounts when i'm gone?? #and who will moderate my facebook when i'm gone?? #and who will look at my instagram when i'm gone?? #and what about the day where these big companies go bankrupt? #some people might Only have me online #so where will i go? #i might be writing up my will soon tho #bc i don't anyone to worry about death arrangements for me #i'll draft the notes app apology too #'sorry for having too much swag i just Had to die' #dash rambles #death #cw death #tw death #queue that scene in past lives where the man says 'you're a person who leaves' #that movie did a number on me as a college grad who left all their friends YIPPEE

[sangriaking]

(( going to put out some starters shortly, but do you guys ever think about how in a family of people cursed to die young, Joseph is the only one cursed to live ? ))

#☆༉‧₊˚. ∬ 🐍 ∬ 𐃘 ooc #he lives a long life that he never wanted to live. #he outlives most of his family. #he has wanted to die since the day he killed kars #..... not that he'd ever admit it though..... #no matter how many times death attempts to take him it never works #he always comes back or he always survives #and he just he seems so sad and empty the older he gets #I mean even eyes of heaven blatantly has him said that he didn't think life was worth living that long #so.

[theythemmer]

for years my friends have tried to get me back into minecraft and idk how to explain to them that after tosoth the game will never be the same . it’s been A DECADE and this fic still rules over my brain

#and don’t even TALK about snow angels around me i’ll cry blood and vomit tears #that fic gave me SO many trust issues i hve TO THIS DAY #and i KNOW ive ranted about this before but IT GENUINELY TRAUMATISED ME #but i was at one of the lowest points of my life and decided fuck it. i’m gonna read a long fic. i’m usually a max 25k person but i was like #nah let’s get invested in this one. good ol erisol human au. what could go wrong #oh dear reader it turns out that there was something that could go wrong #because at tht time i was an avid ff net user and there are no warnings there #especially not for major character death. #so i’m so invested in this fic #got a few chapters left. and then i start a chapter i swear ive read before in a one shot #and i’m over the MOON bc i know how this ends. they get engaged! so i’m SO fkn happy #and then. all alone in the snow of their front yard. eridans heart gives out. and he’s gone. #as a very traumatised teen who was dependant on happy endings to make me feel like life was worth living #i have never felt heartbreak and betrayal like that. only other thing that ever made me feel that much was my really messy breakup w da loml #i didnt sleep for a week. i was constantly sobbing and breaking down at school #reading about sollux going through their minecraft world and i just #yeah. #haven’t been able to make pancakes since too. used to be the thing i was best at #since then pancakes minecraft and snow angels are forever tainted #absolutely INCREDIBLE fic but i do Not do MCD or sad endings #and i was like being horrifically abused going thru hormonal conversion therapy to ‘fix’ my nonexistent sex drive #whilst dealing with r/pe accusations simultaneously . as a fkn 16 year old baby trans gay ace #so i was going thru it and when i tell you my ENTIRE mental state was depending on the dopamine i got from fan fictions w endings that #gave me hope my story wasn’t gonna end there. for them to struggle for so long to find true happiness within eachother #to them being torn apart by the cruel hand of death #bro i was inconsolable for so long . i still am and im almost 26 LMFAO #know it seems so silly to be so worked up over this but i can’t articulate how much my undiagnosed autistic bpd cptsd ridden self depended #on these fics to emotionally regulate #OBV THIS IS NOTHING AGAINST THE AUTHOR OR THE FIC I WAS JUST YOUNG AND TRAUMATISED AND COPING UNHEALTHILY #but i will never be able to play minecraft happily ever again

[noscio]

so i just got TGCF 6

#tgcf #heaven official's blessing #my god #mxtx really went 'what if i made this man suffer more than jesus' #like at least jesus got to fucking die you know #at least jesus got some time in a garden to prepare himself #pookie's entire life just went to shit one day and keeps getting exponentially worse every. single. day. #at every turn xie lian is like 'im not that great im not worth believing in' #and every time hua cheng (in any manifestation of himself) takes that personally #hua cheng has been running after xie lian even in death #which makes me so giddy because he doesn't HAVE to but every time he chooses to follow Xie Lian and watch over him #like that's what it's all about. when love IS a choice that you keep choosing #also very funny that hua cheng was like 'hey can i kill those people for you- i mean my beloved' #and xie lian literally responds by stabbing himself that would be a suicide attempt if he wasn't cursed to live #and also Hua Cheng keeps choosing violence #you hurt Xie Lian?? you SHIT TALK his highness the crown prince?? #OHHHHH WRAITH BUTTERFLIES!! A THOUSAND WRAITH BUTTERFLIES BE UPON YE #XL could fold any fucker over his knee except for literal SUPREMES and he just chooses not to because he's given up #who's going to be the hua cheng to my xie lian?? #or who's gonna be my xie lian?? i want someone to spoil #also i'm glad we're finally getting to see XL go apeshit #ever since learning that XL most suppresses bloodlust the most i have been WAITING for this man to start cussing someone out and get mad #XL has finally said fuck everybody.