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cynica-thought-onlive · 2 months

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I don't feel well anymore. I have a terrible obsession of gtwscar and grian. (The character/persona, not the irl version. I do find them attractive but No. Never. That hella Weird.) I hate it I like them.

Why.

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kneelingshadowsalome · 11 months

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ok tbh…fellow readers don’t kill me but i feel like konig is still using readr for sex…or like actually doesnt love her yk…like anyone can fill that role and she is cause there’s no other woman around 😭 IDK i can’t put my finger on it

Ok, this is a tricky one and I'm glad you asked! Because... (and I also hope my readers won't kill me for this) like I said in my answer to this ask, I profiled König as a sociopath. And I can and I will put my finger on it 🫠

The following are my thoughts on the subject & antisocial pd (otherwise known as sociopathy). I hope you read about this m. disorder if it interests you, pls do not take my words as gospel! I also wish to remind that this is fiction and I'm practically ready to bend the laws of physics if I have to, to force even the most disputable, unstable and corrupt of characters give and receive love because that's just my cup of tea. 🩷

First of all, sociopaths are typically viewed to be incapable of love and empathy. They use manipulation to get what they want. Being in a relationship with a sociopath is described to feel incredible and passionate one moment, and confusing and scary the next. If you know what's good for you, you wouldn't even want to be special to a sociopath.

Sociopaths themselves often claim they do love those selected few they respect, just not in ways "normal" people regard as love. And this, I think, is where it gets interesting.

The definition of love as unconditional, sacrificial and selfless care for another person is not a sociopath's definition of love. They might care about a tiny amount of handpicked people, to some extent. For a sp, love is when they refrain from harming those few they care for. That's pretty cold, right?

Still, sociopaths are not devoid of emotion even if the most common emotion they feel is rage. They are not narcissists even if they are manipulative, emotionally cold, and act entitled at times. There seems to be dispute over whether sociopaths feel empathy or not (psychos don't, they simply can't because of an impaired mirror neuron system). Their defense mechanisms consist of manipulation, extreme detachment and extreme impulsivity; it's been their only way to survive in a disorganized, unloving and unstable environment.

König is someone who has been neglected and abused, who has never been shown what love even means. Everything has been conditional. He's lived in constant fear and anxiety; he has never had a loving or a stable father, his mother practically denied the abuse he had to suffer by not intervening, he has never had any friends (like he says himself in ch. 1), has only ever received attention through fear and disgust. The only dream he had in this life, the only possible redemption arc, so to say, went to shit.

It's not anyone's job to fix this kid, sure. But when, from where, or from who would he have learned to love?

When reader comes along, she shows kindness to him, forgives his trespassings over and over again, and chooses to trust in him even when afraid. If we only talk in terms of sociopaths/manipulators and their victims, then yes, this is a horrible setting, because it is the perfect setting for abuse.

And it's true: there is no one else around. All the yearning and thirst and starvation is immediately projected onto the first and only person who finally shows him some kindness, even after all his drastic shortcomings. So she isn't "special". But in a way, she's more than special: she's world shiftingly, groundbreakingly special 😐

What we know is this: König asks if he is harassing her and if she wants him to stop. He vows multiple times he would never hurt her. He assaults someone who, in his mind, mistreats her (and who reminds him of a person who mistreated him and his mother when he was a kid), leaves reader eventually alone when she shows signs of not forgiving him/wanting him in her life anymore.

These are all toxic breadcrumbs, and this whole setting is unhealthy and problematic. A sane and cynical person would say that this is manipulative and abusive. A sensitive, overly compassionate person might say this is a sociopath's only way to love.

Reader may not have been special when she first came into König's life. He saw her as a plaything first, but can you blame a touch-starved man for trying to get some intimacy? König doesn't trust anyone, doesn't know how to give or get comfort other than through sex, so of course he would opt for sex first. (Also, let's be real: who would suffer this kind of man if he wasn't so hot? No one, for goodness sakes)

The connection that blooms afterwards, I imagined and wrote as real, no matter what or who he is (because I'm a naive romantic at heart 🥰). He's not a green flag man by any means, but he's trying his best (which will never be enough). Had I wrote him a psychopath, the story would have been way more darker, and even the minimum amount of empathy and true love that is, at times, present in this fic, would not have been there at all.

König also sacrifices himself for reader at the end of the last chapter. A through-and-through sociopath would not perhaps deem it in their best interest to go that far, even if the "gains" were abundant (reader's deepening attachment and eternal gratitude). This is why this particular scene is important, because it poses the question: is he really a sociopath? Why would he do this? Because at this point, reader is indeed very goddamn special :D

I'd also like to entertain the question: how special is König to reader? I mean, don't we all just want to take these broken men like Ghost and König home and "cure" their sadness by giving them some— ahem, *gunshots*, this was a little off topic, but you get the idea. Savior complex is real, too!

If König is ever diagnosed with APD, reader would probably educate herself and find that sociopaths cannot love, and they cannot change because there is no cure: the damage is already done. These people will only use and abuse those who don't get out of the relationship. She would also find that there are sociopaths who are still in touch with their families, who have kids and partners and who have learned to "behave" for the sake of their loved ones. Either because they actually care or because it serves their interests (of being loved? Don't we all want to be loved?).

Again, this is fiction. I don't wish to justify this character's actions nor condone this kind of abusive behavior (should go without saying but perhaps it's best to state it at least sometimes to be clear ❤️). Nor do I want to condemn the reader for having feelings and empathy for this big, abused wreck. And the reason why I can't give you a clear answer on this is because there is none :')

If you people have thoughts on this, something you wish to share, I would love to hear and chat and just…*pls* this is such an interesting topic! Don't be shy 🩷🤗

(Also pls don't kill me)

#answered #yandere könig #könig headcanons #ramblings #i need to be gagged

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lilgreenhouse-blog · 6 years

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awesomeuchuu · 4 years

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FULL NAME : Tsukinaga Leo

╳ flaws.

♔ strengths.

🖌 skills & hobbies.

𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝘆 : @subserviiient

𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 : @bloody-moon-vampire & @ladies-man-69 CHU

#About Leo #I might get unlazy at some point and poke the others too #MAYBE

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subserviiient · 4 years

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FULL NAME : Anzu Kobayashi

╳ flaws.

♔ strengths.

🖌 skills & hobbies.

𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝘆 : @madamhatter

𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 : @awesomeuchuu @musessinabag

#ooc. ( she's not so quiet )#Headcanons.

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aokiryo · 4 years

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Thought this would be a nice first post since his bio ain’t up yet B) ________

FULL NAME: Aoki Toshiro

NICKNAME: Toshi/Aoki-chan ^was originally used to grind his gears, but he prefers “-chan” over “-kun” from those he’s close to now. Sofu(grampa)-chan ^is accepted from close friends, around his age or older.. but anyone much younger than him better not ;))

TITLE: “Zurui-Rei”(Cunning Ghost) -Locals who’ve seen glimpses

The greater ghost hunting community are a lil more elaborate, giving him various names that typically follow “Shinjuku no [X]-rei”([X] Ghost of Shinjuku)

» bold: applicable » italics: somewhat or conditionally applicable » strikethrough: goes to great lengths to hide it

╳ FLAWS.

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

Tagged By: oh I stole it @a-vxiding-the-situation

Tagging: -

#kisaishita(mentioned)#But I wasn't I stole it #Starting the blog out on a lie #Seems fitting

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sharkybaeshaw · 5 years

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Character traits

Tagged by @somewillwin (Who also drew this amazing version of Lucy and so earned my undying adoration for life)

Tagging: @heraldsbootycall It’s all on you now, Andy

Lucy Kovacs

Bold applies all the time, Italicized for sometimes

Flaws

Strengths

Skills & hobbies

#fallen hero: rebirth #sidestep #sidestep support group #Lucy Kovacs #I love my depression child

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bloodofvalyriaarchive · 5 years

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character traits | alice macneil

i was tagged by some people to do this forever ago and i cannot remember whomst but i love you and thank you!! ofc i chose my feral deputy, alice.

i’m not sure who hasn’t done it so i’ll tag some pals anyways @statichvm @casino-lights @stormklinge @outranks @outlawers @starsandskies @rumhqm @lesbianarcana @pavus and anyone else who wants to participate!

bold = always, italics = sometimes

FLAWS

STRENGTHS

SKILLS & HOBBIES

#oc: alice macneil #far cry 5 #deputy rook #tag meme #sorry im doing this all on main now but #its just how it gotta b ok

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zhauric · 5 years

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{ ｂｏｌｄｗｈａｔａｐｐｌｉｅｓ }

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

Tagged by: @red-dawnbringer My thanks

Tagging: @divine-ruin @nocturnedreaming @captainkurosolaire @cadrenebula @nihil242 @moonlight---melodies @yuki-yukichan @afreesworn @ylaziel @secretsmokeandmirrors @manawalls @swainandco @chidorifarcloud @lulu-ffxiv @eviloblivion @salpphie

#kaelivh stormborn #character traits

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itisweselton · 5 years

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╳ FLAWS.

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

//tagged by: sealeft

//tagging: everyone!

#sealeft

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fortitudina · 5 years

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FULL NAME : Jophiel Morningstar NICKNAME : Jo, Jojo, Baby girl, Ma’am

╳ FLAWS.

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

tagged by ➤ @jxhncxnstantine

now tagging ➤ @angels-of-la ( Nick ), @ofinfiniteuniverses ( Michael ), @azraelcfdeath, @detectivecdecker, @stcrsloved ( momma ), @multixdisaster ( Ivedyiel )

#* JOPHIEL { HEADCANON }

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cynica-thought-onlive · 2 months

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I'm not even going to finish my math homework since I hate it so much.

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ofinfiniteuniversesa · 5 years

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FULL NAME : Michael NICKNAME : Mike, Mikey

╳ FLAWS.

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

tagged by ➤ @fortitudina

now tagging ➤ The one reading this right now

#✲ Heavy Is The Head That Wears The Crown (Michael) ✲#✲ Heavy Is The Head That Wears The Crown (headcanon) ✲

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blarraveniing-blog · 5 years

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╳ FLAWS.

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

tagged by: I stole it from the meme god @ofnifl and @f-anaticism tagged me as I was doing it!

tagging: YOU! HA! GOTTEM!

#| ✦ OOC | ᴹʸ ˢᵗʳᵃᵗᵉᵍʸ ᶦˢ ᴳᴼ ᴰᴼᴺᴺʸ ᴳᴼ |#| ✦ HEADCANNONS | ᴬᶰᵈ ᵉᶰᵈᶫᵉˢˢ ˢᵉᵃ ᵒᶠ ᶦᶰᵏ ᵃᶰᵈ ᵇᶫᵒᵒᵈ⋅ |#{{Beep}}

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eternalrosx · 4 years

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bold for consistent, italics for occasion. ( val . )

╳ FLAWS.

♔ STRENGTHS.

🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

tagged by: stole it from @spellfear

tagging: @itsdeadlights @withoutka @the-prisxner and whoever else want to do that

#dash games #gamblings of a rose(memes)

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cynica-thought-onlive · 3 months

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What with my dream these days?? So today I had of me trying to evade a Spirit who was trying to kill me. First half, is me, trying to sell a curse item. It probably got mad since I'm trying to sell it ,also the item is a Roblox item??? Huh?? So then the spirit brings me and my brother also..? At this dark place. There is a gas station and house next to it. So I had to try to survive the night, and I successfully survived. Woohoo. Yay. I escaped the game and I went to tell my parents what happened, and surprisingly they actually believed it. After that my family and I went to a mall. I was with my father and brother. It tries to kill me again ( don't know which one this is.. probably the same one last time) I managed to evade it from trying to kill me. So while I was hugging my dad and asking is there someone behind me and he said yes. It tries to swing at me again which leads to a tug of war with them. Possessed dad and the spirit vs me ( quite unfair really) as I was a bit away from it. I wake up

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