#cause i do . plenty.

[slavhew]

hm

#hom3stuck #homestuck #john egbert #jade harley #dirk strider #dave strider #karkat vantas #davekat #lil hal #autoresponder #inspired sketches because i went thru a bunch of artblogs and wanted to be dynamic and artsy too #also love to listen to songs and then try my best to draw something for the duration of it. this isnt quite one of those times but #hey the names matched up nicely #idk man. tonight is a sad about dirk strider day turned into sad about dirk strider night. davekats to make it go down easier #anyways ever think about how a captcha of 13 year old dirk doesnt want to die but the 16 year old version does. #cause i do . plenty. #these seem like sketches ripe to do something with but i dont feel like touching them more so. black and white up they go

[ghostlycleric]

I just can’t get over the cool cool scene in Will’s bedroom oh my god.

The fact that Mike “gets kicked into gear when the people he loves are in danger and usually makes apologies and confessions in the heat of the moment (or hes forced to either by circumstance or friends after refusing to apologize)” Wheeler goes up to Will to apologize and get him back without any danger involved. As far as Mike knows, they’re just about to go on a “roadtrip”, and the danger is far ahead of them.

They had the other heart to heart before this, less centered around eachother, but still sweet and a clear indication of being on good terms. Mike could’ve went with that. He could’ve been satisfied with that. BUT HE WASN’T.

He purposefully goes to Will’s room just before they leave, before any danger arrives, to make sure they’re best friends. To make sure that Will knows Hawkins wasn’t the same without him, and that their friends are great but they’re not him. He apologizes without prompting, after a heart to heart that he totally could’ve considered enough.

May I also point out that Mike didn’t have to saying anything

BUT HE WANTED TO

#byler #byler endgame #anti mileven #i could write an essay about how important it is for byler to want #instead of just need #and how theyre already doing that #mike wants to be needed and he is needed #but imagine how hell feel when he realizes will wants him #whats going to happen when mike realizes he doesnt have to be some knight in shining armour to be loved #that he doesnt have to be lois lane or superman #that he can just be mike #a nerd whos made plenty of mistakes #and be loved and wanted that way too #edit: grammar-ified cause longer posts look better with grammar

[thebroccolination]

THE EX-MORNING SERIES CONCEPT

By now I think many people have heard that KristSingto’s upcoming series is an original script that was written for them. What we also have confirmed is that it was written about them.

[source]

KRIST: This series was written by P'Backaof and directed by P'Lit where they created this script from the start deliberately for the two of us and they got information for the characters etc. from KristSingto directly. In the series, the name for P'Sing is Tamtawan, and my name is Phatapi. And Tamtawan Tamtawan and Phatapi are KristSingto themselves.

INTERVIEWER: Does that mean you play yourself?

KRIST: [laughing] Yes, we act as ourselves, so it's not difficult at all.

Today, Aof elaborated on his part on Twitter:

[source: @backaof]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

And Jojo added:

[source: @jojotichakorn]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

So, two gay men are the leading creative minds behind KristSingto’s comeback series. Time to study up on your KristSingto history, kids. \:D/

Long live sanctioned RPF. 🎉

#krist perawat #singto prachaya #kristsingto #the ex morning #i’ve already seen the same tired ‘guess rent was due’ about krist and #i see on twitter when people link my thread about krist to people still insisting he’s homophobic #man’s rich #he works constantly #he even said it’s something he regrets now that his grandmother who raised him passed away #he worked so much he didn’t have as much time for his family—who he helps support #he is quite literally considered bl royalty #he has more queer people in his circle than straight #waa (gay) is his mentor #aof (gay) wrote this series and jojo (gay) thought up the concept so even professionally he's supported by queer people #you don’t have to like him #and you don’t have to admit to sending death threats to a stranger who doesn’t speak your language based on rumors you didn’t verify #just y’know #admit quietly to yourself alone in your head that you were wrong and you caused harm to a person who didn’t deserve it #plenty of actors use bl as a stepping stone to bigger jobs #he’s not one of them #he wanted to do bl for years but gmmtv told him he could only work with singto #so literally the only reason kit didn’t do bl until BMF was scheduling issues because singto wanted to study abroad #and singto couldn’t get a fixed date for it and then the pandemic messed with his plans even more #i’m glad to see more and more people are understanding who krist is recently #and even in the series they made pathapi’s controversy an impulsive act of anger #krist has said he used to struggle with being hotheaded #and one of his apologies for the igs was even something like ‘i acted without thinking of how it would look out of context’ #he just wanted people to stop harassing him for his sexuality but the context isn’t in the igs #anyway my go-to when i’m too tired to talk about this is always this #if he had ever been homophobic thai people would be the ones leading the charge against him…but it’s interfans

[dwellsinthebog]

he better not be throwing that old man around

#renkaza #akaren #rengoku kyojuro #akaza #TO BE CLEAR THIS IS AN OLDER KYOJURO IN THE PIC NOT SHINJURO #the missing eye should give it away but i am leaving this in the tags just in case #i imagine akaza would start wearing more clothes after he regains his memories but only when he wants to. which isnt often #something about how wearing clothes makes him feel more human which he finds both comforting and deeply unnerving #he prob only has like 1 or 2 kimonos of his own but he mostly just steal kyo's #kyo secretly gets more cause he thinks akaza is just wearing the ones he likes. he sees akaza wearing one and is like #“hey...u can keep that one if u want? i have plenty :) ” #and akaza is like “NO i want THIS one cause it hasn't been washed yet and it smells like you” #kyo is like “wow that is gross :D why do i like it.” #kny post-canon #kny #rengokuposting #bog's art

[kayleerowena]

adhd meds are costing me $150 this month because of the vyvanse shortage so: if you like my work and have spare change, i'm sliding this link to my tip jar in your direction very subtly

#kaylee.txt #not art #i'm not going to do commissions for this (at least at the moment) bc i still owe a few from the past couple months #and i don't want to add more stress onto my plate right now #but this whole situation is really quite stressful + i've been without my meds for over a week already which has sucked! #(also if you don't have spare change absolutely no pressure. its fuckin rough out here for everyone rn + theres plenty of other #causes worth giving your money to!)

[amphibia-a-day]

Day 986 of Amphibia Screenshots

Episode: Maddie & Marcy

#Amphibia #Maddie & Marcy #Amphibia Maddie & Marcy #Maddie Flour #Rosemary Flour #Lavender Flour #Ginger Flour #Amphibia Screenshots #Amphibia Screenshot #hi also sorry if you've noticed that I've been pulling from the same batches of episodes for. a little while #i tend to draft a handful of screenshots from a handful of episodes at a time so I have that to work from #and i haven't had time to draft more in a while #...i still have plenty of screenshots drafted in tumblr and also plenty on my computer ready to draft #i just haven't had the time to get them from my computer to my tumblr destial #cause doing that takes... a little while #...... are there any episodes anyone would like to see more of? any characters #any scenes? i can't promise I'd get to it soon #I've been meaning to make a separate post asking for it but again time... and i keep forgetting also

[birdinabowl]

the same people who slander Rose because of her mistakes are the same ones who would hate her if she didn’t make those mistakes because she’d be a Mary Sue

characters are allowed to do bad things or make mistakes but it doesn’t mean they’re morally bad

#characters who make mistakes and poor choices are fun because they’re realistic #there were plenty of things Rose did but alot of them happened durning the war and I feel like that’s logical for a character #because like #it’s war?? #ehh I’ll probably come back and explain this once I feel better cause I’m still sick and dying sjskksks #Anyway I love rose so much I could write an essay on her #birds rambles #steven universe #rose quartz steven universe #tldr of this post is people do not like women characters #/j

[skitskatdacat63]

2011 - Jense & Seb - Parc Fermé

#i wanted to make a gif for my banner and then ended up making all of these oops #god watching all these parc fermes is making me so excited to watch seb's prime era #ill admit it was kinda painful to watch cause i vowed to only gif their interactions right? but theres so many good other moments AGHHH #but my rule for myself is that im not allowed to gif the whole post race unless ive watched the full race #do note they had eleven podiums together but unfortunately didnt have parc ferme *moments* in all of them #if they didnt hug in parc ferme they end up hugging in the cooldown room which is very sweet <3 but it doesnt count for this post! #Well ig it just gives me something to look forward to!! Im gonna have a lot of fun with these next 5 seasons!!(including the one im on rn) #im not gonna tag all the races but they are in the alt text btw :) #and also are in chronological order #this post is literally: 'just read solar flare' core like god....i did not realize 2011 was so plentiful... #i am in my sebson era hehehe 🤭 theyre so underrated ngl like cmon look at them #and the fact that this is only like a tiny percentage of their interactions even within 2011 #sebastian vettel #jenson button #sv5 #jb22 #sebson #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 2011 season

[aroaceleovaldez]

hello i believe you asked to be reminded about petalpressed? that sounds very interesting do explain

Hello yes! okay so rundown of Petalpressed:

In general, Petalpressed is an AU template I created that focuses on flower symbolism. It's like a combo hanahaki and soulmate tattoos au, except only taking the best parts of both. So everybody has a "living" tattoo somewhere on their body of a plant (or plant-adjacent, it's very broad - so fungi, lichens, algae, etc also count). The plant, in some way, represents or symbolizes the individual, usually via flower language, though it's totally a personalized thing so you can get as funky with it as you want. It can be absolutely anywhere on their body (face/head, back, legs, etc), take up a completely random amount of space (tip of finger vs entire torso, etc), and it will change based on the state of the individual.

Okay rest including PJO-ification under the cut cause this got long:

For example, when the person is a baby their tattoo will appear as just a seed or bulb or whatever is applicable for that plant. The plant will also probably be semi-ambiguous at that point or change plant types as babies don't really have a ton of defining traits. By the time they start settling into being an individual they'll get a more clear plant and it will most likely stay that for the rest of their lives, unless they experience a major shift in their identity that would cause it to change. It also is unlikely to change locations on the body unless for the same reason. The plant will also reflect the person's physical or emotional state, such as wilting if they're very sick or upset, blooming if they're extremely happy, etc etc. Some people may also have generalized versus specific tattoos, such as general "roses" rather than "roses of a specific color" in which case their tattoo may change colors to match mood/plant language associated with that specific color of the plant/or just at random, depending on person.

The soulmate/hanahaki thing comes in when the person develops romantic feelings or enters a mutual romantic relationship (specific because i'm aroace so I like including normalization of not having a partner, even QPP - there's still leeway there though with how individuals categorize "romantic" and obviously it's a template so there's freedom to mess with it). If they have a crush they may start coughing up the plant or parts of the plant associated with that person, though it doesn't cause them any physical harm. Does the coughing-up-petals thing go away once the relationship is reciprocated or is it just a thing that Happens When You're In Love Sometimes At Random? Who knows. You decide. If they enter a mutual romantic relationship with someone, their partner's (or partners') plants or a part of their plants will appear beside their own, and will change depending on the state of the relationship or partner's physicality or emotions. If their relationship is going well, the plant may bloom, if it's going poorly it may wilt, etc, and same if the partner(s) are upset/sick/etc. If the relationship breaks off or is no longer reciprocated the secondary plant will disappear, and if it left a particularly strong impact on the individual, residual parts of the partner/partners' plant(s) may be left behind, such as leaves, seeds, or petals. It depends on the person/relationship if those remnants will ever go away or how long it may take.

"Plant compatibility" is totally a horoscope-type thing in this universe alongside stereotypes of types of plants, and that's where the "soulmate" concept comes in. It is up to discretion if it is actual soulmates or just coincidental, but in-universe there is an idea of "If you share an exact plant with somebody, you are soulmates." Again, re: horoscope thing, here it could totally just be a coincidental thing based on "If you share a plant that is meant to symbolize you, chances are you have similar personalities and so will get along." There may be people with the total opposite perspective - "Don't date someone with the same plant" because maybe having similar personalities means you'll totally clash. Those concepts probably co-exist in practicality. Lots of variety. Also totally up to customization if the plants have to be local to where the person's from or be from anywhere or how much you want to stretch the definition of "plant" or etc etc. Lots of fiddling options.

I do have a sideblog for it as a more generalized template - @petal-pressed. Since it's a template, it's meant to be applicable to any fandom and totally free to use, and I occasionally post prompts on that blog. And again, the template intentionally lots of room for fiddling and freedom.

Anyways the PJOification of all of this:

"What ships are this au" Whatever's funniest/most dramatic in the moment. Go wild. Make your own variations or whatever.

Everybody's plants: (subject to change)

Percy & Annabeth - Bluebells (They match) - Annabeth's on arm where she got stabbed, Percy on small of back.

Grover - False goat's beard, placement undecided

Piper - Anemone (plant not animal), placement undecided

Jason - Forget-me-nots, right forearm

Leo - Hydrangea, placement undecided

Hazel - Clover, possibly forearm

Frank - Undecided but Snapdragons maybe, possibly forearm

Reyna - Jonquil, possibly forearm

Nico - Dandelions, wrist

Will - Sunflowers, side of torso/back

Luke - Originally Lilacs on face, changes to Rhododendron and spreads to shoulder/armpit.

Thalia - Eastern White Pine, placement undecided

Calypso - Undecided but Hibiscus or Zinnia maybe, placement undecided

I have some other notes for other characters but theyre all very noncommittal

I made a lot of random moodboards for this au but since they were just for personal use I don't have the credits for the images and so will not post those. If people are interested I might take requests to make new ones though. They're quite fun for me to make.

And random doodles - The first one is an extremely old one that was just me fiddling with random designs + cameo Solangelo to show off how the plant tattoos might look

And then some more recent ones:

I usually do aro/ace Leo for these aus, so here's him pretending to cough up plants as if he had a crush ^

and some silly Jasico ^

Some other misc fun notes I had for random things:

"Is this canon-verse au or non-canon-verse?" you may be asking. The answer is. Depends. You decide. Again this is not a fully fledged singular au it's just me rotating a template in my brain and it happened to be formed around PJO initially.

Because Percy and Annabeth both have bluebells as their flower, when Percy disappears and loses his memory, both he and Annabeth can't tell if they have only their own flowers or the flowers of two people and it totally freaks them out.

Also because they share flowers, when Nico has his crush on Percy and is thus coughing up bluebells, people presume he has a crush on Annabeth because those are her flowers too. He's not having a great time.

One variant of the thoughts my friends and I brainstormed for Jason was that he and Reyna were dating before he disappeared, and when he lost his memory it also made Reyna's flowers disappear from his tattoo completely. It took longer for Jason's flowers to fade from Reyna's tattoo and she just got to watch Jason's flowers change depending on his state wherever he was until they disappeared too.

Nymphs are obviously pretty one-for-one with their plant. If they even have tattoos is up to you. Either way this does mean Lavinia is coughing up poison oak though so she's having a bit of a rough time. She thinks it's totally worth it though. The coughed-up plants don't really hurt you as bad as the actual plant might, if at all, so she's fine in general.

I had other thoughts too but i'm forgetting.

uhh anyways yeah i think that's about it. woo flower au.

#pjo #riordanverse #ask #spaceyaceylesbian #petalpressed #au #my art #ask to tag #yippee. this au is very fun to me #just cause you can mess around with a lot of stuff #i do have other doodles/designs of this au if anyone is curious to see those #but they're general random designs not pjo-specific #again this is basically me looking at both hanahaki and soulmate tattoo aus and going ''im going to take the fun parts of both of these'' #''and just ditch the rest'' #still plenty of angst potential if that's your jam but also way easier to keep it fluffy #also i only half-proofread this so if clarification or further detail is wanted on anything feel free to ask #i am always happy to talk petalpressed i think it's neat

[nadiawritessomething]

Davis brothers but there's a little more in their past stories than "one was better one the other was worse" or "they were equally hopeless teens until Jeff decided to become a cop".

They both were troubled children messing around in the neighborhood, being either famously unfamous or just thinking they've already hacked the system because of stolen gummy bears pack from the nearest shop (usually both).

But I tend to think there always were some difference between them. Not in terms of "Aaron was a full-time trouble and Jeff always secretly stood on the side of justice" because that's NOT what they were. Instead, I chose to believe that Jeff was just a little bit more looking-forward person that Aaron possibly could be.

He was the one to plan their little criminal shenanigans, he was the one to collect stuff and imagining scenarios in case police finds them and/or they were arrested. Not because he thought that what they're doing is 100% wrong — not at the start — but because he was the first one to think about his and his brother's future. Just like he decided to focus at this future in the end, deciding to change a side, being grown enough to understand that counting to do what they were doing means slowly digging himself a grave.

Aaron looked at all his papers, all his plans and thoughts and just straight-up laughed, not mockingly but without any belief in that being serious, giving Jeff an uncertain look.

"Hey, did you decide that we're goin to end up in the cell or something? Don't worry about this, bro. Everything is in our hands, remember?"

Jefferson would like to say his brother also knows where to stop. That he also knows the moments were risk is a useless flow of adrenaline, where it's better to wait, to think about what's next.

In reality, he didn't. There's plenty of time, Aaron thought. He thought they were the youth who hacked the system, that everything is so easy, so cool for them that there's literally no reason to worry. He didn't want to worry about the future when it's so, so far away and they're still young and open-minded.

While he has Jeff on his side, everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to be easy because there's nothing they can't go though together.

Aaron called it being optimistic. Growing up, Jeff started to think that he was just blind. Kind of both of them being a trouble, yes, but sometimes Aaron just... didn't have any breaks.

Because time flew by faster then he thought. Because Aaron has digged himself a grave, because he didn't stop thinking in this criminal world deeper and deeper with every second. Because Jeff was his breaks.

Yeah, that how they were.

#across the spiderverse #atsv #jefferson morales #aaron davis #character analysis #seriously guys it's always something in-between #they're so tragic in every universe I can't #Jeff saying that If they end up in prison Aaron would be the first to escape no matter what #Aaron laughing at his suggestions and saying that he's not gonna live his big bro even If it meant to return to police himself after escape #“There's plenty of time” no #No Aaron there's not #We're they both a bunch of trouble without Aaron being bigger and Jeff being smaller? #usually #yeah #would Jeff teaching his brother how you CAN'T to fight with random school bullies every five seconds cause you will be hurt and that's all? #also yeah #because Jeff believed sometimes you have to wait and rather not do some crazy stuff with no pros and only cons #Aaron thought that everything is possible just because and #you got me right?

[paradisepoisoned]

Last dumb sketch for now I promise. I'm just in mourning that I'll never be able to afford a ball jointed doll and this is the only way I know how to cope.🐰🪓🫖

#death note #death note fanart #near #nate river #near death note #WIP #my art #do you guys like my scribbly sketches??? #i used to think it was bad posting so many WIPS but they get more likes than the finsishe art lol #not that im complaining jist trying to have a census cause i got plenty of scribbles i can post #i have 3 fics i needs to finish writing and 100 wips in procreate and yet here i am #drawing puppet near looking like a wonderland version of bozo the carnival clown #but he has a little tea cup hat

[shallowseeker]

You've shared some things about seeing Jack as a baby as being ableism and I was wondering where you stand on this issue?

I'm assuming this is about the poll I shared. I think where I land right now on this particular issue: I assume the most charitable view I can. Escapism is the point for a lot of folks, so I try not to begrudge them that.

Some other, more rambling thoughts:

1. Jack had a longer anticipation phase: Unlike Amara and Emma, who are also supernatural born-adult cosmic entities, there was a longer anticipatory phase with Kelly, where we were excited about her pregnancy and anticipating her baby.

We journeyed with Kelly through being anguished over her decision-making and bonded with Cas over buying diapers etc etc. We also got to know Kelly (and Kelly's parents) way more than Emma or Amara's human parents. I think this attenuates some of the fandom preferences. NOTE: (Amara refers to herself as a child when she came to earth, saying of Crowley, "He tried to control me when I was a child." So I think the prodromal phase to her primordial emergence isn't as cut-and-dry as we'd like either.) But the thing with all of them is their growth is clearly presented as abnormal and outside the scope of a typical "human" experience. They are all characterized by their powers and their massive, massive intake of information. They all overshadow human sensibilities with their vastness, and over power them by leaps and bounds.

Simply put, they're much much much higher on the food chain, and that causes intense anxiety in their human relationships, something AU Michael keys into for Jack in The Spear:

via @spnscripthunt

Jack was afraid Michael was right. That he'd grow into thinking of his familial loyalties the same way we humans think about hamburgers or clothes.

I'm also thinking of this quote:

"As exquisite as the natural world is, however, there exists a violent underbelly that, for some reason, mostly goes unnoticed...In point of fact, the survival of any one species depends entirely on how successfully it's able to willfully kill--and usually eat--its neighboring species. Even human vegans and vegetarians survive by the demise of plants. Moreover, if you're wearing clothes as you read this, you're wearing death." -Randall R Scott from Entanglement is Not Spooky

In physics, the word information is closely related to microstates and probabilities. In some limited circumstances information is functionally similar to entropy. However, information is no substitute for knowledge and experience. I think the cosmic entities have way, way more information than humans, but not always more wisdom, so the power imbalances aren't super cut-and-dry. (This is why I write Jack-Harper like this.)

In fact, I think humans can naively latch onto the "perceived" playfulness and strangeness of the cosmic entities as a means to ease the anxiety of the inherent, extreme power imbalance. (Example: sexual inexperience is not a meaningful indicator of "innocence" when the same character is also an experienced war mongerer and cannibal. For a human to assume that is silly. Naive.)

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2. The Jack infant pushback analysis is helpful for me: I've found the ableism analysis really helpful for delving into Jack's own perspective of who he is, how he relates to and moves through the world, and how he is perceived by others.

Simply put, I like it.

I'm a weirdo, (I test around 21-23 on the autism quotient, around your average chess champion), but that's a long way from having enough autistic traits to say what is or isn't ableism on this issue.

Even if that's not your primary mode of viewing Jack, I found it helpful for viewing Jack, not as a fanon wish fulfillment (though wanting happiness for character is, as I said above, completely understandable) but instead as a complex character all on his own.

And for that, I love how it tickles my brain. I'll start tagging it #complex jack and #culture hero jack if that helps!

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3. Is baby Jack my favorite thing? No. But I've decided to focus on just...writing more actual Jack meta instead.

I want to emphasize the complexities of his role as WAR SON and the idea of his effervescence as at least partly defensive performance (a la analogous to performing!Dean). He's a pretty sassy mofo; Kelly Kline is too.

I think a lot of his interiority being similar to Mary is fascinating. (They are both child soldiers.)

I also like how the TFW dads’ views on Jack are often analogous to how they view themselves.

So you'll find I write a lot of that kinda stuff instead.

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4. Culture hero Jack: I think if I had to characterize where I'm at with Jack as a character, I get the most mileage out of the Born-Sexy-Yesterday trope (Like Vision from the MCU) and Culture Hero myths (which often features babies born as adult males who are at war with their murderous God!grandfathers).

It's not to say that's better or more right. I just dig it. You'll find that I write and share what I find personally compelling.

There are a lot of opinions that I find well-argued that...simply don't do anything for me right now. Sometimes it's a vibe I'm just not feeling, sometimes it's a topic I exhausted in my youth and am just extremely played out on.

For now, I just focus on the ones that do it for me. :-)

Sorry that got rambling.

I hope that answers your question and makes you feel open to me sharing some of this stuff without feeling like maybe I'm bashing you if you enjoy that content? Anyway... :-)

#ask #jack stuff #complex jack #amara #emma winchesters #fandom wank #for blocking purpose only #this isn't wank at all #i eat what i like #there are plenty of analyses i think are great but don't share cause they just don't do much for me anymore #and i don't overthink that! #culture hero jack

[somewillwin]

I've had literal death and rape threats thrown at me because I'm a Jew. I've had men scream they will rape me because I am a Jewish woman. I do not have an Israeli passport. I do not have an Israeli flag on me. They have all done it under the guise of being "pro-Palestinian". My family have asked me to not wear my star of David in public because they are scared for me. I get you want to do the "right" thing. But seeing you reblog a post about anti-Semitism, that is from someone who is not Jewish, is disheartening. I want peace. I want to live without fear. Shame on you.

Wait what???

What does me being against the Israel occupation in Gaza and ask for a free Palestine has to do with anti semitism????

It has literally nothing to do with people being Jewish, at least that I know of.

#gabi answers things #also #I’m sorry you are getting death threats and stuff on the internet but there are literal people being killed and bombed right now #what Israel is doing right now is horrible #it’s genocide #and they are committing actual war crimes and no one is doing anything to stop them #si I really have no idea why you being Jewish has anything to do with me reblogging a pro Palestine post #there are plenty of Jewish people against what Israel is doing right now and asking for a cease fire #I will stop speaking about this issue now cause I don’t know much #but I do know what war crimes are and I’m not for that

[nervouswaltz]

still figurin out everything i want to say but i think theres an important distinction between saying "people who hurt other people should be held accountable for their actions because that is the only way they are going to concretely change" and "if someone does something bad they are Bad Forever and i Hate Them and Everything They Do and i Hope They Rot." like. you see the difference right.

#CAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE SOME PEOPLE DO FUCKING NOT! #and like. listen. i would be a bitchass hypocrite if i didnt think people could grow and change #i have fucked up and hurt PLENTY of people in my life. and i was held accountable for it. and im a better person now #but like. sorry! holding someone accountable for hurting another person is Messy and Uncomfortable and Feels Shitty. #and i think ignoring that in favor of pretending like nothing is wrong just perpetuates the environment that caused this shit to happen.

[dolokhoded]

(coming out of the tomb three days later covered in blood sweat and tears) never doubt the power of friendship

#EVERYBODY CHEER I DID THE APOSTLE DESIGNS. actual insanity. #there is something very weird going on at tumblr dot com slash dolokhoded. #god spoke to me. while making these. so like just trust me bro with characterization. #cause they're gonna be around probably. #im not religious just insane.jpg #remember when i had an art tag #the new testament is my favorite work of fiction. #this one does not do my judas design justice. but I am DONE with these imcjust throwing him in #there will be plenty of better judas examples anyway

[aceofstars16]

It’s 7:30 in the morning and I’m exhausted but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fall asleep again any time soon….

It’s like I was *just* starting to heal from having my heart and trust shattered 3 years ago, and now it’s happening all again, only this time I don’t have the church to go to for comfort/prayer/encouragement. And instead of a friendship I had for 2-3 years, it’s a church I’ve been going to for TWENTY TWO YEARS

I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone, this can’t actually be happening, right?

(I’m not okay, I keep crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare)

#I don’t even know what to tag this as I just can’t #I was literally just telling my counselor that I feel like I’ve never had the ‘years of plenty’ #only the suffering and trials…and now this happens to seem to confirm that #and it doesn’t help that I was already having trouble trusting the leader after last year #and now it’s like a big ‘I told you’ from my brain which isn’t gonna help me trust anyone in the future #I was already having a hard time taking chances and trying to trust again ans NOW THIS #I know I should at least try to sleep again I just…I don’t even know anymore #I’m not even gonna tag this as any normal stuff tbh #how about just #aceo get her heart broken again #not to mention I’m terrified I’m going to fallback into the numb empty depression pit I only just kind of got out of #and faith? bro I understand how people left the church or faith cause it is HARD to differentiate between the church and God #I’m still trying to pray and stuff I just feel so empty and I can’t do this again #it doesn’t help that the church claimed that they felt ‘lead’ to this crappy situation whatever THAT means #I only heard it second hand tbh…I just…can this stop please? can this all just be a horrible dream that I wake up from? please