#can't rot what isn't there

[furiosophie]

#soapghost #ghostsoap #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #call of duty mwii #cod mw2 #saw this quote and blacked out for like 48h #listen it's about the longing the we can't we shouldn't this is going to end bad and we both know it #but what if i just look what if i just stare at you from the shadows what if i let you see me like no else can isn't that enough #anyway #the brain rot is so strong y'all my fic wip is at 18k now i need an intervention #id in alt text #soph arts

[eorzeashan]

instead of just fighting the agent in 1v1 on his ship Jadus should've transformed into a manifestation of the agent's fears and chased them around the Dominator's halls like a horror monster. who said that

#swtor #ooc #cheap mascot horror jadus isn't real he can't hurt you #jadus centipede monster???? /holds out cup #and fighting him should've felt impossible too give that mf 9999 defense #i like imagining him in a buglike form now because of vector being there and calling him rot in the hive #i wonder what vector would imagine him looking like #my official headcanon is that he is obscured bc you don't know what kind of form fear can take. and his dark side aura twists and hides it #i like the idea that he can fuck so severely with your head that his self is always in question #anyways i wish swtor had chase sequences.

[keeps-ache]

smells are like ghosts.. when did this pomegranate get in the room

#just me hi #[suspicious squinting + peering] who's there [<- knows its ghost fruit] #where are you.. !! [<- it's ghost fruit and is displaced in time and space] #why!! [it's ghost fruit] #i think the weirdest ghost fruit has to be banana. like banana isn't even a strong enough fruit to Have a ghost #maybe its something else pretending to be ghost fruit ?? #or Apple. Apple is just terrible hbfvsh #lemon is a concerning one though because you can't get lemon on many things unless you tried Really hard or tried to Not try Really Hard #you get what i mean ! #//and speaking of fruit since my minecraft worlds have Also been nuked that means i start with a clean slate !! #it's not a setback if you weren't really moving Bfhsvbhfsd #//the smell of rotting meat vs. rotting fruit though is interesting #not enough for me to stick around it. but ykno lol :> #meat is very Rotty and fruit is grossly sweet #well. all plant foods are actually #when i said 'fruit' i meant 'plants' hbdhs #//well #:P

[bonefall]

how do you get yourself to write about such upsetting topics (mainly the fascism/bigotry) without getting upset yourself?

Oh, but I do get upset. I don't write like a detached, passive observer. The trick isn't to not get angry at all, it's to channel it into something constructive.

#That's me though #Know yourself and your limits. If you can't write about something without hurting yourself then don't do that #But anger and self harm are two different things #But I get upset all the time about what I read and write. I just try to act in good taste about what shows up in my work #Sometimes I'm angry #Sometimes I'm uncomfortable. But I push through it because I feel better when I talk about it #And I have thoughts that I feel resonate with some people #Art is connection at its core or something #How else do people deal with the rot of the world? Just bottle it up and try not to think about it forever? #I put it into a fake little guy and then scream at him #I think the hardest thing to write about isn't even the heaviest topics it's the abuse #Oh oh wait no it's when a character is feeling guilty #Writing that emotion is fucking excruciating #Especially when they've done nothing wrong but still feel bad #Godddd writing that makes me squirm

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Oh man I really agree with your tags on that one post. The whole king of delusion thing is terrible to me bc like. Delusions aren’t some gotcha you can use against him? It’s a serious mental health issue? But I’d also like to add I hate when people mock him for smelling bad or having poor hygiene or w/e… :/ It’s not funny when people with mental illness can’t properly take care of their hygiene lol I thought we were all understanding of this?

EXACTLY. It's not like "wow look how wrong you are and how terrible you are for being delusional".

Also the hygiene thing pisses me off too. I know lots of his fans use it as a joke, even affectionately, but like... he was homeless. He was living in the slums. Most people around him probably smelled bad. I'm sure they and he cleaned up whenever they could, but buddy, the slums isn't a public showering area. They'd be lucky if they were able to bathe. It's not something they take for granted. Even the "smelly cape" jokes bother me.

I've met homeless people. I've lived in a shelter where I met people who prior to that shelter lived in tents. Showering and bathing isn't something they could just get up and do before being in the shelter. Those people are lucky if they can even go to the bathroom in a proper bathroom, let alone being able to bathe.

Then like you said, on top of that, he's mentally ill. He's not thinking about his next bath. He's talking to people who are dead, believing they are answering him back and responding to their answers to him. There's also the general idea that Lambert's last words were not actually what were told to us via Dimitri's flashback, but the words he remembers because of his illness. He is very likely remembering wrong, because that version of Lambert matches the version of him that Dimtiri talks to, but does not match the version of him in Rodrigue's flashback.

Even depression can cause a lack of proper hygiene, and that's also a mental illness. In his case he has full on episodes of either psychotic breaks or having conversations with people who aren't there, and when he's out of those states he's desperately trying to do what he's been told to do by those voices. He's trying to do it both for those people and because, as he expresses later into AM, he wants them to stop. Those voices harass him day in and out and ridicule him and it hurts him, so he becomes desperate to do what they tell him so they stop tormenting him (which is part why he's so hellbent on hurrying to finish his tasks in the first half of AM).

It's an absolute spiral of a situation, where he already has these delusions but now on top of them feels absolutely terrible and like someone who has been emotionally abused by loved ones for years and years. He loves them but is terrified of them because they always say awful things to him or try to say things about him that aren't true. The worst part is that these are delusions of people who loved him and were nothing like this, so it causes even more suffering for him.

I don't really understand why it's so funny to people to poke fun at characters with or for bad hygiene. Like, firstly it's... just not a funny thing/topic? And secondly I'm sure there are people uncomfortable with it because they have bad hygiene or lower than "socially acceptable" hygiene due to mental illness and feel they're being laughed at as well for their hygiene. That's definitely a stereotypical mindset and something society does to make fun of people less fortunate than them, be it physically, mentally or both (like not having access to bathing.

Rich people can bathe whenever they want and often in media look down on "stinky people" who are always the poor, generally living in the slums). It's a very unfortunate dominant mindset and almost always comes from people who are more well off and haven't experienced it for themselves to realize how awful it can be (and there are of course people who don't need to experience something to know how bad it is, and I wish there were just more people like that).

I just don't understand what's so funny about hygiene. If anything it just feels like people laughing at the concept of someone not being up to society's standards about health, and it's what literal kids do to make fun of each other. Like, if someone smells bad, I feel like we should be more concerned about the person and why that is... and that would be the case if society raised its people to think that way, but since society raised people to be the opposite (to make fun of smelly people), most people who haven't experienced it for themselves make fun of it.

Like... idk am I missing something lol, I just don't see the humor in someone smelling bad. Even without considering any implications behind it I still don't see the humor in it. Considering Dimitri's circumstances though it just feels very wrong to see people make fun of him for that. I know fans of his that do it are doing it harmlessly and most likely wouldn't make fun of real people for similar things, but it just doesn't sit right with me. There's just nothing amusing about poor hygiene.

Using it as fuel to hate on him though is just is a show of someone's true character and who they really are. :/ Anyone who makes fun of him for his hygiene and mental illness are the kind of people who look down on people with those problems and deserve to experience it for themselves to see just how awful that shit can be. It being fictional doesn't change the fact that it's a show on someone's true character to be able to make fun of someone suffering, and especially to the extent Dimitri does.

Like yes, Edelgard suffered, but she has her own way of moving past it. She's not suffering in the same way as Dimitri or handling it the same way and comes across as "strong" for that - another societal mindset from people who think it's "strong" to not show that you're suffering or have suffered. It's how she handles it, sure, and that's fine... but it's people's reactions to how differently they handle their trauma that's so obnoxious.

People can only be pushed so far, and people hate on Dimtiri for his violence despite that being part of his illness and trauma. Hating on people for being violent as a result of their feelings or past is an awful thing and I really think anyone who can hate on a good and well meaning/intentioned person (real or fictional) simply because they're violent toward bad things needs some serious introspection (like Dimitri having violent reactions to seeing innocents being slaughtered in front of him at Remire. It was an impulsive reaction that he would've hid if he could have, but he wasn't able to).

Like oh no, how dare someone be violent and aggressive toward murderers! How dare someone say off with their head when they've done terrible things! Not everyone is perfectly peaceful and puritan. Hell, Edelgard isn't either and chooses violence as her first and foremost answer to everything, and only considers "negotiations" (i.e. anything that will benefit her/the Empire and only her) if she's losing and only stands to gain from them.

Her first solution to everything is violence, and yet Dimitri is the one who gets shat on for... being violent. Because of his trauma and illness specifically, both in game and out. But since Edelgard has been able to moved past her trauma for the most part and has a different way of handling it that "looks better", he looks "bad" for not having gotten past his trauma yet. Good for her to be able to handle it the way she does, but why is it "bad for him" that he can't handle it "better"?

#DCB Ask #skybluelion #using mental illness as a gotcha against someone isn't cool and doesn't make you cool #it makes you a terrible person and very disgusting. using it as an excuse and fuel to #shit on someone is disgusting. BLAMING people for what they say/do for their mental illness is disgusting #the whole ''it's your fault you're like this'' mentality is the most disgusting gross horrific thing #it doesn't matter what the illness is. it's not someone's fault that they have it #you can dislike Dimitri as a character without using very real real life examples as fuel #bc that shit just expresses exactly how you feel abt real ppl with those problems #it's just admitting it via a fictional setting to avoid the backlash you'd get if you said that shit to real people #I know most Edelgard stans use that shit as fuel just to hate on him bc they just don't like him opposing her #and so use any reach they can get to hate on him but to pick those factors specifically is very telling #ESPECIALLY coming from the character who plans to make a Fodlan where only strong-by-her-definition ppl #will actually thrive and the rest will just rot bc ''it's their own fault they're weak'' #same exact energy as ''it's their fault the mentally ill live like they do'' #like damn man you know many mentally ill ppl would LOVE to be mentally NOT ill and live and thrive and do great things??? #I can't speak for every Dimitri fan but as someone with mental illnesses and heavy fatigue and no real talented physical capabilities #a character like him is an example of and an inspiration for mentally ill ppl being able to actually be seen as normal #and to exist happily and to be able to get by in life and have chances like anyone else #I remember when the game came out how so many ppl applauded AM as a positive spin for the mentally ill #but that quieted down when the game wasn't new anymore and all that was left was the vocal discourse #unfortunately that resulted in us witnessing all the worst people showing their true colors

[angelsberrymilk]

I just know Cas would lose his mind if he knew what situationships and whatever the fuck is micro flirting are. I struggle to even wrap my head around the concepts. like I don't even have the energy to play mind games or follow unwritten rules of the stupid fuck ass dating world.

It's either you love me or you don't.

I just know Cas would be so confused like "why are humans making their lives hard on purpose??"

#Castiel is me im sorry #not because he's an angel #just because he's an outsider without not really being one #like he's being involved with humanity for ages and seen them do stuff but is still a stranger to so many concepts #and that's kinda what I feel like #like I hate mind games so much #and I hate doing things and it being interpreted into something it isn't #like I DIDNT REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES IN A WEEK BECAUSE I WAS BUSY TRYING NOT TO ROT #I DONT HATE YOU PLEASE #or twisting my words and intentions #like I do things just because I feel like it and I hate it sm when the meaning changes like huuuhhhhh #anyway #Cas you get me dude #he's me #sorry not sorry #and he doesn't understand sarcasm #and I can't either #like for the life of me I can't get it #idk when people r or not #and slang bro #I don't get it #and I'm 19 #I know some terms but I can't keep up most of the time #or I just never use it even if I know what it is #because it feels weird in my mouth #Castiel #dean winchester #supernatural #sam winchester #spn

[lunarheslwt]

.

#idk I can't stop thinking #about how I'm 25 and how it feels like life is over #like ik it isn't I'm not dumbbut it feels like it #feels like it's too late. for everything. like all chances are lost #EVEN THO IK ITS NOT TRUE #Its like. what have I achieved? I'm still the same as I was at 15 #a little more deranged but still as alone and lost #ik there's tons to appreciate about life but I feel like a rotting carcass dressed up to look pretty #idk I have a giant screen flashing game over at me every wakeful second #anyways #this is a rant

[monty-glasses-roxy]

If anyone's wondering why I want the info on all the cool animatronics from the books...

First: They're cool. I just think some of these guys are neat! There's a seadragon okay?? And sharks!! And that's cool as fuck!!

Second: Very relevant to Meteors AU! Meteors also gives me perfect opportunities to explore a world outside of the Plex, which can and does include other Fazbear locations. If there's a cool location or animatronic concept in the books, I can explore them through Roxy and Cassie's eyes in my own way. Like the penguins mentioned in Submechanophobia? Eddie can be repairing one that Roxy snags from the workshop to make friends while no one's looking. Felix/Sly the shark? Can get Roxy more comfortable with water stuff. Tiger Rock? Another access point to the horrors that Fazbear have committed.

And through all of this, Roxy has a unique perspective. She knows what Fazbear is like. She knows how it feels to be a fully aware animatronic. She knows what it's like to be expected to show a marketable appearance and to struggle to do so. She knows the fear of the consequences for mistakes that cost the company money. She can tell when an animatronic is acting of their own volition and not their strict programming. The question is, can they tell? Do they know what she was? What she is now? What she's trying to do when she talks to them one on one? Would they answer her if she asked how they're really doing?

And would they appreciate her offering a safe place to hide at the Pizzaplex should they ever need it?

#meteors au #this isn't limited to the books by the way!! #any animatronic that isn't a glamrock could be involved in this #because the thing is #meteors is about the exploration #it's about someone discovering the world for the first time and trying to learn everything she can #but its also about the realisation that so many more are experiencing the same isolation that she and her plex family did #she can see the full extent of what fazbear has done and continues to do more and more as time goes on #she sees the life and the joy of the world but she can also see the injustice and cruelty #roxy can explore the world now and maybe she can make someone else's life a little easier #give them a little hope that what happened to her can happen to them as well #that if they want she can come back and visit and tell them all about what she's seen and maybe help with what they're going through #is roxy in a rough spot herself? yes. absolutely. #but unlike them she has a sense of safety they've never had before #the kind of safety they can only feel when they've been abandoned and left to rot #there's another way to get it and she wants to give it to them but the fact she can't... #well offering her support to those she can is better than nothing #and oh the things she learns... #i have more to say on how complex a situation visiting Fazbear locations is for her but that'll do for now

[lonesomedotmp3]

the thing is that uni is good for me when it's not being horrifically bad for me like it's complicated

#overrall being at uni has made me better than I've been in years (which isn't actively good but. better.) #i like so many things about it but the assignments are genuinely just crushing me #the loneliness the little everyday chores irritating flatmates etc etc all that shit i can deal with well enough #but that on top of the assignments has destroyed me. and i know that's dramatic but i really do feel deeply broken right now #and i don't know how to make things better because I've done nothing but try and try and I've tried optimism I've tried searching #for little joys I've tried finding good in every day #and I've tried the deep pits of despair and I've tried rotting in bed and I've tried thinking nothing's ever getting better #oh my god I've tried all of it I've tried everything and I'm still here my whole life i can't remember ever not feeling this way #and i thought it was getting better but it's not. it's literally not getting better. #and all the optimism in the fucking known universe all the little films i watch all the posts about kindness or whatever i rb #all the platitudes and the hope and the trying has not gotten me anywhere. #so what now.

[anaalnathrakhs]

oh no oh no oh nooooo my aunt invited me to a waterpark this summer what do i do

#okay so pros: #fun. i liked it a lot when i was a kid. family bonding. it busies up a day instead of rotting in my room all the time. #my policy to say yes every time i am invited to something if no strong reason to refuse #cons: somewhat expensive. participation in wasting water. i'm gonna HAVE to get a proper new swimsuit instead of swimming in underwear. #i'm also probably going to be in some state of physical decay bc vacations are fun when you can't eat #and okay okay don't take this as a humble brag it isn't but i'm a little afraid i'll be under the minimal weight for some slides #which are obviously exactly the slides i'd want to do little adrenaline junkie that i am #what do i do. #broadcasting my misery #ed tw #vent

[imwritesometimes]

when other people in their 30s say they feel lost in their life/don't know what their purpose is/feel nervous abt life: ur gonna be fine babe I ❤️ you and you are fine this world is a hell hole and we are all doing our best you are fine you are valid ❤️

when I try to apply the same things to myself:

#things are going good! they're great! and I am fine! #I think the worst part of all this is not actually having the ability to control like allllll this shit #like the shit happening in my life very much is also just kinda... happening to everyone. #wages are too low. impossibly low. hustle culture has rotted ppl's brains. healthcare is unattainable for real in this country. #but also like on my own personal end like this is so stupid but #not beingn able to actually write anything is kinda killing me #writing used to be what I'd turn to when I was so overwhelmed with it all #to have fun and decompress and not think abt that shit and how it feels like I'm living through the collapse of an empire #but now like. lmao besties. I opened my laptop last night for the first time in over a week #and besties. friends. countrymen. it did not go well. #I could not make myself focus on that shit for ANYTHING #I have lost 1000% my ability to write. and it fuckin KILLS me. it's KILLING ME. I am being KILLED. #like I sat there and could peck out a couple sentences and then my brain would be like #ok but no do something else now this doesn't sound good this isn't flowing right booo watch reruns #and I KNOW that the answer to this is oh focus anyway baby steps turn off the tv! #but the thing is I cannot write without the tv I can't it's NOT happening for a bevy of reasons #but also no matter how much I tell my brain like ok no focus now #it doesn't happen #do you know how much this is killing me #normally I can force myself to do shit. I forced myself to quit SMOKING. #I hate this shit it is making me severely unwell and insane and unstable and mad and depressed #and obv unhinged look at these tags #erin explains it all

[asjjohnson]

I just looked up how tall pumpkin plants grow, and it said they can grow up to 20ft (6m).

I don't have anything that tall for my plants to steady themselves with.

#I guess this is the problem with growing seeds from fruit at a grocery store #I thought pumpkins were supposed to be Vines. I didn't know they were giant tomato plants! #I don't know their specific variety so I can't do a specific search for them. Pumpkin plants are said to grow somewhere between 2 and 20 ft #...maybe I could check to see if I'd taken a photo with the sticker on the pumpkins. I think it had some kind of sugary name... #I tied a rope to a shed roof but they really dislike that rope. And the fastest growing one is almost to that roof already. #I probably should've suspected the plants wouldn't be like what I'd pictured. When I bought the pumpkins last year... #I'd always assumed pumpkins were these solid Things. Instead they were like large bell peppers. They rot. They're just an average fruit. #But they're also a lot like cantaloupe. Very cantaloupe-like. They have cantaloupe innards. #But the plants are like tomato plants but with larger flowers. #I found a photo! and... it just says Pie Pumpkin. ...that's... just the general kind of pumpkin isn't it. Not what plant it is. :/ #Well at least the pumpkins are small? Forgot how small they were. And I'd figured if I get 2-3 to grow this year then they'd be smaller. #Since I'm not taking care of them like a farm would. So I figure they'll be pretty small. Probably could hold one in the palm of my hand. #...like. unless I'm wrong and the pumpkins end up growing huge. Or if there ends up being a whole bunch of pumpkins. Who knows. #Pumpkins are weird.

[tyrannuspitch]

people on this site seriously need to stop assigning so much damn importance to blockbuster movies

you guys will literally be like "oh my god... utterly shaken to discover that captain america 5 is shallow and boring. this is going to rot people's brains! i can feel myself losing literacy skills!! this is the death of art!!!" like babe i promise you art has lived through worse.

#there's a lot to dislike about the mcu but you guys act like it's the end of the world lmao #like the world isn't already full of shallow conservative cashgrabs!! like it hasn't always been!!! #like people talk about in such weird hyperbolic terms... #'death of art' is not a paraphrase i've seen multiple people say literally that #and like. what #begging u guys to let go of ur reactionary diet culture mentality wrt media #literally no story has the power to 'rot your brains' you sound like a snobby parent talking about video games. or tv in general. #a superhero story is not gonna poison you no matter how much time you invest in it #if someone can't see its flaws that's part of THEM the story didn't CHANGE them #stop being weird!!! shut up!!!

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[hohuios]

Tag drop: 2/2

#[ visage. ] you know another man as good looking as i am? the correct answer is no; by the way. #[ mini study. ] is it decided from when we're born then? ones born without much power are fated to be stamped out by you? #[ meta. ] one who's let his soul rot can't measure up to someone with a real soul just by getting power. that's not how it works down here. #[ essence. ] it’s a cruel and random world. and yet the chaos is all so beautiful. #[ humans. ] you think humans are weak. yeah; their bodies lack the physical ability of demons; but they posses something that demons don't. #[ demons. ] he understands love; so he'll make it fine as a human. the only things i choose to exterminate are demons. #[ rebellion. ] i always wondered; why did my father give me the rebellion? if the yamato can separate man from devil… #[ sword of sparda. ] he split his power in three parts. one bore his own name; the second blade was named to embody retaliation... #[ yamato. ] ... and the final blade was named to embody a god of death. #[ sparda. ] why do you refuse to gain power? the power of our father sparda? / father? i don't have a father. #[ eva. ] she loved humanity; a demon and her children. it's far out of reach now; that warm smile from my childhood. #[ vergil. ] jackpot! -- why you gotta leave me hangin'? we used to love saying that. / i have no recollection. #[ nero. ] i should thank you. / that'd be out of character. maybe you should just throw an insult my way instead. / that sounds better. #[ patty. ] well patty; if I'm not mistaken this is one time that i might owe you a little thank you. #[ trish. ] if you get sick of it; you can always come back here. / why that's uncharacteristically kind of you. #[ lady. ] can i come along? / do what you want. but don't expect to get paid. #[ morrison. ] damn; you make me wait forever and then you go making selfish requests. / sorry. #[ v. ] for a second there I thought you were gonna shish kabob me. / i know how stubborn you can be. #[ mundus. ] again i must face a sparda. strange fate; isn't it? / strange and ironic that it will end the same way. #[ syd. ] well then strong and gentle lord dante of the 'real soul.' you'll let me live even now; won't you? just like you did before.

[shotmrmiller]

simon isn't a man you take home. he's for the literal streets. dresses like he's homeless because all that matters is that his throwing knives and handguns are pristine. the only reason his home is spotless is because he doesn't live in it, it's all for show. his pantry has only salt and mouse traps, his fridge a long expired bottle of ketchup and something that if anyone ate, they'd gain superpowers.

he's got a crazy look in his eye, and who can blame him after all that shit he's been through? gut-wrenching betrayal, unimaginable torture, then buried alive shoulder to shoulder with his ol rotting buddy, ol decaying pal? he joined the military a butcher's apprentice, and now he's an echo of what simon riley used to be, a fading silhouette that wanders the corridors in base. a ghost.

he has to play music whenever he's not at work just to keep the screaming voices in his head at bay, and it has to be loud enough to drown out the incessant high-pitched ringing in his ears. a cacophony of noise that wears his thin string of patience into in-existence.

he's a killer, he's a man who's donned his skull mask for so long that he's forgotten the face underneath.

you don't bring a man like him home. and when you eventually did, even your parents had agreed.

he looks one clown short of a circus.

he hovers over you like a ghost. (ha)

possessive, obsessive, paranoid.

he'll kill you if you try to leave him.

simon heard everything, not like they had tried to keep their voice down. it hadn't really mattered to him, empty words pelting knotted flesh only a sharpened knife could cut through. but you hadn't taken any of it.

his little hero, coming to his defense. it'd been the first time- in a long time- that his icy cold, tiny heart skipped a beat.

simon's always been his own savior. he saved himself from the shit life he had with his family by joining the army. he'd clawed his way out of his own grave, freshly turned soil stuck under his fingernails for weeks. he'd gone after the head of roba, in the name of vengeance. even now, he's a part of the justice league, the task force 141.

unsung heroes.

and here you were, standing in your parent's kitchen, all bared teeth and scalding temper- over him.

simon's so aroused that when he rises from where he's seated, he sways on his feet. there's no stopping him from briskly walking over to you and hoisting you up and over his shoulder, heading for the door.

there's no stopping him from throwing you into the backseat, and climbing in after.

you weakly try to stop him with stammered words, just wanting to know what the fuck he's doing but when simon starts to impatiently undo the button of your jeans, his confined manhood pushing up underneath you, it clicks.

you don't want him to stop when the calloused pad of his thumb rubs your slippery clit with expertise, thick fingers curling inside your swollen cunt.

you definitely don't want him to stop when his cock slides through your slick folds, his hand wrapped around his thick base. his tip pushes inside, mild discomfort already flaring. gravity then does the work, slowly sinking you onto him until his thighs are flush against your arse. the sweet, decadent burn of him splitting you in half sparking your nerve endings alight, from the waist to your knees.

you beg him not to stop when he fucks you in earnest; desire, sticky and wet, dampening the coarse trimmed hair of his cock. the air inside the truck muggy, heavy and thick with sex. he places his hand under your navel, right when he knows he is, and grunts when he gently presses down. the noises coming from you and your sodden pussy are obscene, lewd, downright vulgar and he wonders if you'd let him record it- to replace the banal music he usually listens to.

your breath hitches beautifully, and simon makes sure to watch how you let go of his shoulder to weave that hand downward to take yourself over the edge.

"impatient little pet, can't even wait f'me to get ya there, eh?" the low chuckle he lets out is cut short at the feeling of your slick walls fluttering around him, making him groan. he keeps his sharp gaze on you when your body tenses, back arching as you jerk fast, little circles over your pearl. he plants his feet and begins to thrust upward, your weight nothing to his strength and-

how beautiful you look in the pleasure he brings you.

it's cliche, truly, that he comes when you do, but he couldn't care less in this instance. your cunt squeezes him like a silken fist, a tight vice that milks his cock almost painfully so. his grip around your waist is bruising, but it only adds to the sensation- the delightful bite of pain prolonging your pleasure.

the base of his spine tingles from his climax, and his breathing is ragged. alive. your hands skim the wide breadth of his chest, as if brushing off the dirt he'd once been buried under.

his little hero.

you took him home, so now he takes you to his.

(...don't look in the kitchen, pet.)

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