#but then I remembered some truly garbage takes that were so smelly

[clayandstuff]

Becho Musings Part 2

Some more musings about Becho while simultaneously addressing unfounded blorke takes that make my blood boil and have no basis in reality. Focusing on S5 and on since I’ve already covered Becho’s relationship before they got together, this will look at them specifically as a couple. Posting this for posterity on my blog.

TL;DR

Not to accidentally validate any of these blorke claims by talking about them or giving them attention, but they’re so easily debunked by canon I can’t help myself... 

Garbage take #1

Echo is just following Bellamy, she doesn’t love him, he is her King, they have a spy/king dynamic (lmao this isn’t even a real thing like wtf does this mean? You can tell blorkes are pressed about the knight/princess racist trope their ship falls into but you can’t just make things up! What a sad, misguided attempt to create a false equivalence between bellarke and Becho. A spy/king dynamic is literally not a thing - and unsurprisingly, it doesn’t accurately represent the relationship between Bellamy and Echo at all - but nice try I guess), Echo is only looking for someone to follow and take orders from, etc. 

There’s so much to break down in this hot garbage take:

Before I get into absolutely destroying this hot garbage, let’s quickly address how the subtle framing of these “arguments” purposefully doesn’t acknowledge Bellamy’s feelings for Echo. Attempting to discredit Becho by designating Echo as a follower deliberately disregards Bellamy’s active role in his relationship and his feelings for her. Bellamy loves Echo and that’s clear throughout the show, but it’s wonderfully vocalized on screen multiple times in S5. Bellamy considers Echo his family (5x01 “we’re family and nothing can change that”) and it’s explicitly verbalized in 5x07 (”Our friends are there. People we love”) and once again in 5x12, from Clarke herself, when she told Echo “Bellamy loved you”. So, ya know, Bellamy loves Echo. That’s not debatable.

So first off, Echo’s relationship with Bellamy is not at all like her relationship to the Azgeda royal family (who she was in servitude of and essentially employed by). This is one of the worst takes I’ve ever seen and I’m not sure how anyone can logically come to that conclusion? (Which is mainly due to the fact that this claim is made in bad faith and isn’t actually based on logic or what we’ve seen in canon, but I digress). Not to mention Echo refers to Roan and Nia with honorifics and obviously does NOT do that with Bellamy, seriously wtf show are blorkes watching... Being loyal or devoted to someone does not mean the same thing for every relationship. Context matters. People can be loyal to each other for a variety or reasons, family/survival/clan/duty/temporary alliance/self-preservation/etc. Echo's never even hugged Roan, that already contextually makes her relationship with Bellamy very different from her relationship with Roan. Being devoted to someone because it's your job to protect the royal family (as a member of the Queen's guard and spy for the Ice Nation) is not the same as being devoted to someone because you are in love with them, in a romantic relationship with them, and want to keep them safe because they’re precious to you. Hello?? 

The other glaring inaccuracy with this garbage take is that Echo is not someone who just follows people or orders. That’s never been her character. She is a soldier, like Bellamy - but even when she was loyal to Azgeda she was never just a good little follower. She singlehandedly took control of Polis for Azgeda and commanded the entire Azgeda army in Roan’s absence. She doesn’t sit around waiting for people to give her orders or tell her what to do next. That’s simply contradictory to what we’ve actually been shown on the show. Mischaracterizing her as such is nothing more than a blorke ploy to minimize (and outright ignore) her strengths and agency as a character, intentionally erasing the fact that she is a brilliant strategist, skilled warrior, and a trusted political confidant. 

Also, did blorkes forget that she’s literally a goddamn spy?! Being a spy is not the job for a follower who can’t think for themselves and needs someone to take orders from. A spy is given a mission and it’s up to them alone to make it happen. There’s actually an enormous amount of freedom and trust given to a spy. No one gives you step-by-step instructions to achieve your goal. You are literally on your own, often in enemy territory, having to think on your feet, adapt, and come up with a plan to get the job done. Oops embarrassing they forgot she’s a spy (it’s laughable to watch S7 and think she would ever actually betray her friends. She. Is. A. Spy. Infiltration is her job - we even saw her successfully infiltrate Diyoza’s camp in S5 and Diyoza herself actually admits she “got played” by Echo - CMON. Loyalty is her defining characteristic. PAY ATTENTION)

Calling her a follower is such a gross mischaracterization. Just look at her relationship with Roan (her actual King). She constantly argues with him, gives him push back, and even insinuates that he’s weak (to his face) on more than one occasion (in 4x01 when she flat out tells him “we can’t afford for our people to think you’re weak” and he gets offended enough to call her out on it, and then again when she’s sparring with him in 4x02 and offers to take his place once she knocks him on his ass). She doesn't even follow orders all that well if we're being honest (bless her little panda heart). She's the one who tells Roan to "send me to Arkadia" when she thinks Skaikru isn't being honest. She's the one telling Roan, the king, what to do! Not only does he let her talk to him like that, he actually values what she has to say. 

Furthermore, the one time we see Roan actually give her a direct order (to bring Octavia back alive) Echo ends up NOT doing that (lol). She isn’t afraid to speak her mind or make her own decisions. One of her biggest character defining moments (that gets her banished from her clan) is when she decides to act of her own volition and go directly behind Roan’s back, to cheat in the conclave. No one ordered her to do that, it was all her. And there’s also all of the S7 Bardo Disciples plot which further proves that Echo isn’t just some mindless follower (cough cough Bellamy with the Shepard cough cough and Pike...). She’s always been her own person who thinks for herself and does what she believes is best for her people. (Even as far back as her introduction in S2 when she realizes Bellamy is Skaikru but still decides to trust and work with him in Mt. Weather. She also silences all those grounders in the cages with a single command and they ALL shut up and obey her, but sure yeah she’s just a follower 🙄🙄🙄)

So now that we’ve established how she interacts with Roan, let’s look at how she interacts with Bellamy. I’ve already detailed their attitude towards each other before they get together here, but now let’s look at how they act as a couple. 

In S5, we see in their first scene together that they are very affectionate towards one another (so much kissing, arm rubbing, smiling, and forehead touching) as they mutually comfort each other. Echo is apprehensive about things changing on the ground because of Octavia and the fact that she’s still banished, but Bellamy makes an effort to get her to smile (even going so far as to joke about her “almost killing” his sister and him being more stubborn than Octavia. He gets her to laugh with him and even exclaims “good!” once she finally relaxes and smiles). He also tells her “we’re family and nothing can change that” - very different from her relationship with Nia (who Echo bowed down to when in her presence) who used Echo as spy/weapon of war, and Roan, who cast her out after using her political knowhow to effectively lead. Then on the Eligius ship in 5x03 they get their battle couple on by working together and fighting side-by-side to take out the prisoner who woke up. Later in that same episode, they jointly come up with a plan to deal with the cryo-sleeping prisoners that isn’t just murdering them (ultimately utilizing Echo’s plan to use them as leverage since Bellamy doesn’t want to kill them and Echo knows that it’s a strategic mistake to leave their enemy with reinforcements if they can stop it). When they don’t agree on something, they always talk it through and compromise (a sign of a healthy and mature relationship, where both people are regarded as equals and their input is valued). 

Also, Echo was the one who came up with the plan to counter McCreary’s forces when he’d stolen Diyoza’s battle plans. Echo and Bellamy share a voiceover as they both relay the plan simultaneously to their separate groups. Once Bellamy finishes explaining, Octavia says to him “tell Echo I said well done”, giving Echo credit and acknowledging the fact that this is indeed Echo’s idea. Can someone kindly point me to where Echo is being a follower waiting patiently to be given her orders from her “King”?? Because as far as I can tell that never actually happens...

Side note, anyone else remember how blorkes were irate that Echo was the one leading Spacekru at the end of s5. They complained that it didn’t make sense for Echo to be in charge because “Raven was smarter” and Echo was being “so bossy”. Let’s just take a moment to acknowledge the contradictory nature of the arguments “Echo is so bossy and leading Spacekru” but also “she’s just a follower with a spy/king dynamic to Bellamy”. She can’t be both 🤣 stick to a story please. (Also, I LOVE Raven so this is in no way me shading Raven, she’s amazing and brilliant). Bonus: when the show runner is sick of your garbage takes and calls you out

To reiterate, the contradictory claims and clear disregard for facts and the truth of the show just further proves that their “complaints” are made entirely in bad faith. They are rejecting reality and demonstrate no comprehension of canon - their garbage takes should not hold any weight and are merely a form of lashing out because they’re upset their fanon ship never happened.

Getting back on topic...

So, S5 is where Becho are canonically established as a romantic relationship and the audience gets to see, for the first time, how they interact after 6 years in space and falling love. (Can I just point out that the entire purpose of a time jump is to have our characters change and be in emotionally new and different places - it’s a storytelling device to change the status quo and shake things up - it’s perfectly acceptable to have Becho get together during it given their history with one another. I address this in more detail later so we’ll put a pin in this for now)

Once they get down to the ground, Bellamy fights for Echo (both figuratively and literally) with Octavia and at every turn he doubles down on his love for Echo. To summarize, Echo won’t turn in the defectors and is willing to be banished for it, leaving Bellamy to stay in Polis with Octavia so he can still have a relationship with his sister. However, Bellamy won’t let Echo do that. He doesn’t want her to leave and he doesn’t want to be apart from her. He offers to defect with her! He would chose to give up his relationship with Octavia and Clarke (who he just found out was alive and reunited with) to be with Echo. Echo doesn’t like that plan because she doesn’t want Bellamy to be in harm’s way. She even tells him “we’ve been through this. You’re not going with me” to which he responds “like hell I’m not!” and she tells him “you are not dying for me”. Bellamy seems inconsolable at the thought of her leaving and can’t even look Echo in the eye when he’s telling her that he’ll be in the rover and it’ll only take him a few days to get to her, and once again Echo comforts and reassures him. 

While Echo is at Diyoza’s camp trying to take down the eye, Bellamy has been staring at the monitor nonstop for 8 hours waiting for any change or sign that Echo made it there safely. Harper has to come in and tell him "you've been staring at that all night" and to “go, get some sleep”, knowing that if left on his own he would emotionally exhaust himself worrying about Echo and her safety indefinitely. Bellamy responds that the eye should be down by now and even says that he "wishes it was me over there". (This line reminds me of when he took her place in Mt. Weather to get bled in the harvest chamber. He is always willing to put himself in her place if it means getting her out of danger - he loves her and would do whatever it takes to keep her out of harm’s way). 

Eventually Bellamy marches through the desert and carries Echo’s sword for her. He even sits by the fire and holds onto her sword because he can’t reach out and hold Echo (meanwhile Echo is being comforted by Emori that she’ll be together with Bellamy soon - I love a good yearning parallel!). When they reunite at the end of the season, they hug, grip each other tightly, and stay pressed together just being in each other’s embrace (again, this is NOT how she acted with Roan or Nia... this is a romantic relationship, and it's obviously played out on screen very differently. Echo never received a singe bit of comfort - physical or otherwise - from anyone in Azgeda). 

Before they get out of the rover after rescuing Octavia, the minute Echo and Bellamy are reunited, Bellamy reaches out for Echo's hand and holds it (a callback to earlier in the season when he was reaching out for and grabbing onto her sword in her absence). Then they battle-couple-it-up again and take out the gunners making it possible for Wonkru to march through the gorge. They are equals (and partners) on and off the battle field.

S5 ends with Bellamy staring at Echo in cryosleep, yearning for her once again. And in S6 right off the bat they compromise with each other to get things done. The planet is dangerous and Bellamy doesn’t want to take fighters but Echo counters that it might be a mistake not to bring their to best fighters (Echo vouches for Octavia here) and Bellamy doesn’t want Octavia to come so instead he agrees to wake up Miller - another compromise where they make decisions together and work as a team. In S6 we also see in real-time Echo opening up to Bellamy and trusting him enough to let him in to her traumatic past, strengthening their relationship (directly in front of the audience) as Bellamy promises “from now on, we look forward not back” and comforts her with a loving forehead touch and a kiss. 

Bellamy and Echo both come up with the plan to rescue Clarke from Josephine (Echo directly gives Bellamy the go ahead to “go save Clarke” while she stays back and saves the rest of their friends after they set off the EMP taking down the radiation shield). While Bellamy is in the forest, he expresses regret and worry for Echo explicitly two separate times (Bellamy asks Clarke “what about the people I left behind” and Clarke assures him his actions helped to keep Echo specifically (as well as Madi) safe. He has another separate conversation with Octavia about Echo where Octavia reassures him that “Echo’s strong” and “she’ll be okay”). Bellamy also gets more reassurance from Murphy, who informs him that “Echo is in trouble” but he’ll “do what [he] can for her”. He tries to console Bellamy because Bellamy is currently captured and can’t get to her to help. Once Bellamy returns from his mission in the forest, he sees Echo smiling right at him and he sprints into her arms, hugging her desperately and smiling into her shoulder with his eyes closed. Becho is a loving, healthy, mature relationship filled with trust and mutual respect, where both people are treated as equals.

So yeah, no follower spy king dynamic BS. Equal partners in love.

Garbage take #2 

Becho is toxic because he got mad at her and called her a spy, etc.

 Blorkes love to incorrectly imply that Bellamy’s little outburst in 6x04 at the party means that “Becho is toxic”. Well, if you actually watch the rest of the episode you’d see that there was a loving resolution to this “fight” 🙄

As Echo is walking away from Bellamy at the party, Bellamy instantly hangs his head in regret. He then immediately goes to find her and apologizes. He tells her “I’m a jerk. I was taking my feelings about Octavia out on you” and “I’m sorry”. Then we see Echo open up to him about her past and would you look at that! Their romantic relationship is being explicitly developed on screen! The trust! The love! The tears in Bellamy’s eyes as he listens (it hurts him just to hear what she’s been through)! The way he gets up on his bad leg (thanks Clarke) and goes to comfort her, kisses her head before he even sits down and tells her “Everything we’ve been through has brought us here. From now on, we look forward, not back”, fully committed to her and reaffirming that they’re in this together. Then Bellamy touches his forehead to Echo’s, but that’s not close enough so they kiss to be together. Their love is so palpable. 

Show me where this is toxic??? Because it’s not and you can’t just say things. Words have meaning. I don’t understand how anyone can deny that lovingly resolving a misunderstanding only strengthens Becho. Getting in disagreements/arguments is part of every relationship. Becho having one (one-sided) “fight” doesn’t make them toxic. Especially when Bellamy immediately goes to apologize, knows that what he did was wrong and wasn’t fair, and they talk about their feelings and work through it together. That’s like the exact opposite of being toxic.

It's fine not to ship them, but there's no need to be willfully obtuse about canon or what the show presents. Their romantic relationship is not toxic and is arguably the healthiest one on the show.

Garbage take #3

Becho’s development happened off screen, Becho has no development, etc.

In season 5 Bellamy and Echo are revealed to be in a romantic relationship. I’ve already addressed how the ‘no development’ claim is just a blatant lie, so I won’t repeat myself here (you can just read about it in my other post which was previously linked). But let’s talk about why this “argument” is also pretty garbage and is once again made in bad faith.

S5 is THE definitive Becho season (and it absolutely slaps). Blorkes couldn’t accept that Becho were a couple because they intentionally chose to ignore all of their previous development and then had the nerve to (falsely) claim that it all happened off screen. (Which is blatantly untrue, but even if it was true - quick reminder that “lack of development” doesn’t seem to be an issue for Marper - it’s just a problem for Becho 🙄 even though most of S4 was explicitly focused on developing Bellamy and Echo’s relationship while Harper and Monty had sex once and then were instantly a couple...hypocrites 🤷). It’s the flagrant refusal to accept what’s being shown on screen that bothers me. You don’t need to make up lies and spread asinine comments about the characters - you can just acknowledge that the show is going down a route you don’t personally like. You don’t need to twist yourselves into a pretzel to justify your preferred ship. Just be honest about what’s really upsetting you.

I’ll admit that it’s fair to say you wished we could have seen more of their development becoming explicitly romantic, but the ground work is absolutely there and to say there’s NO development and that it all happened off screen (ala Gina the walking plot device who didn’t exist as a character until she showed up as Bellamy’s gf for all of 5 mins before getting killed off) is just simply untrue. And while I’m addressing genuine criticism/complaints, it’s definitely frustrating that we never got to see any flashbacks of the Ring during S5 despite getting to see both Clarke and the Bunker during the 6 year jump. Thankfully, we did eventually get to see Becho’s first kiss flashback (swoon 🥰) in S7 but even without explicitly seeing Spacekru flashbacks during S5, all of Becho and Spacekru’s interactions throughout the season made it perfectly clear how much they all loved each other and were a family. The writing and character interactions easily convey to the audience Spacekru’s closeness and tightknit bond and it was a joy to watch. Because Octavia becomes Blodreina, you need to see at least some of how that happened, so we get bunker flashbacks. And Madi is an entirely new character, so we have to see how she met Clarke. But it’s actually not that big of a leap to get to romantic Becho since it was clearly set up (we also don’t see Memori break up, but again it’s not a big leap to understand why they would given the explanation we got), so Spacekru flashbacks aren’t actually necessary although they would have been greatly appreciated.

Garbage take #4

Bellamy doesn’t care about Echo and abandoned her for Clarke

This is somehow the narrative blorkes like to perpetuate about S6, but again this is completely factually incorrect. If what they are referring to is Bellamy going to get Josephine out of Clarke’s body while Echo stays back and looks after everyone else, it still makes no sense. There is no reading of the show in which this garbage claim has any basis. Bellamy would never willingly leave Echo behind (splitting up to take care of something they previously established they were going to do is not abandoning her 🙄x50).

Here’s what is actually happening in that scene: Echo is the one who tells Bellamy that she will stay and “keep the others safe”, and that he should “go save Clarke”. (keep in mind that saving Clarke actually isn’t the end goal of what they are trying to do here anyway. They are trying to get Josephine’s mind drive to use as leverage with Russell so that their people can have a place to live). Echo told him to go because the alarms were going off and they needed to get Josephine to Gabriel instead of waiting for Jackson to get to them and take out the mind drive. Context fucking matters. Blorkes just love to twist anything onscreen to fit their agenda and it just ends up making them look delusional.

As for “Bellamy not caring about Echo”, show me where????? S6 gave us one of their softest and sweetest scenes (as well as a fireside cuddle) that begs to differ. All of S5 begs to differ. Hell, all of S4 begs to differ too. In fact, the entire goddam show begs to differ. Bellamy “sprint into the arms of my girlfriend Echo” Blake begs to differ. This garbage take has no basis in canon. It’s once again just another bad faith claim by blorkes who are hardcore projecting. Because guess what? Not caring about the other person is exactly the way Clarke feels (or more accurately doesn’t) about Bellamy. Clarke left Bellamy to die in Polis in S5. Clarke physically slapped him in his face. This is canon. That’s THEIR ship, that’s not how Bellamy feels about Echo.

Blorkes like to say Becho don’t have any scenes together, but they’re really just so tilted that Echo gets her own plotlines every season, has relevance to the story, and actually isn’t solely defined by her relationship with Bellamy. She can’t be “just Bellamy’s girlfriend” while blorkes claim that “Becho doesn’t even have any scenes together“. Those are two contradictory statements guys... again, stick to a story please. So we have Schrödinger’s Echo, who is somehow both “just Bellamy’s girlfriend” and also “doesn’t have any scenes with him”. Give me a break. Neither of these statements are true and they’re honestly just dumb. It makes blorkes furious that Echo gets narrative focus each season, so they decide to twist that into “she and Bellamy don’t share any scenes”. But guess what? Queen gets both 👑. She can cuddle by the fire with her little spoon boyfriend and also spread the seeds of revolution while sniping at Russel with her bow and arrow during an execution to save her family and friends.  

Also to the people who think S6 was so good for bellarke

Why didn’t Bellamy actually realize that Clarke wasn’t Clarke. Josephine reveals herself to him, he didn’t figure it out 🥴 (Echo was able to piece it together though, so Clecho Endgame I guess)

At the naming day lantern thing, Clarke tells Bellamy that she “lost sight” of him (supposedly) being important to her. She tells him that he is her family too (which he doesn’t verbalize back oop) and she won’t forget it. How nice that that’s something Clarke COULD forget and that she said that to his face 🥴

Bellamy is oblivious that Josephine is impersonating Clarke, so much so that when he hears her say “chill out” to Gaia, he repeats back “chill out? Happiness looks good on you”. He can’t even tell that’s not Clarke and he actually thinks she looks happy 🥴

Why was Bellamy completely unfazed, not jealous at all, and totally cool with Clarke having sex with Cillian. He even says “I take it you had fun with the doctor?” and Josephine!Clarke says back “let’s just say it’ll be a while until he recovers” and Bellamy couldn’t care less that “Clarke” is talking to him about her sexcapades with other people. There’s no angst or jealousy or longing looks or sadness lsdjsdkf. He’s genuinely happy for her. Then he makes an “ugh TMI” face and turns away. As if the thought of Clarke having sex in general is uncomfortable. Great blarke content, much romance  🥴

When Josephine has control of Clarke’s body she flirts with Murphy (and not Bellamy... a huge L in the metastory)

When Josephine is in Clarke’s mind and has access to all of her innermost thoughts and feelings - there’s no mention of any hidden or repressed romantic feelings for Bellamy (but we do get Josephine taunting Clarke about an actual love interest - “it’s why you cry when you think of Lexa”). Where was all this good blarke content guys?? 😩

The crumbs were extra stale in S6 if you ask me... almost as if the story between Bellamy and Clarke is, in fact, not a romance  🥴 🥴 🥴

ANYWAY

Becho as a couple are emotionally supportive of one another, unshakably stable, communicative, open, and loving. They support each other, they fight for each other, and they absolutely cherish each other. Whoops looks like I accidently wrote a thesis paper (and I’m sure I still managed to leave a bunch of stuff out). Thankfully, the show is the show. And it will always be about canon romantic Becho. And blorkes can die mad about it while we rewatch and enjoy the show to our heart’s content 😊

#The 100 #Becho #Echo Kom Azgeda #Bellamy Blake #anti bellarke #Becho positivity #becho musings #this started out as just looking at Becho as a couple #but then I remembered some truly garbage takes that were so smelly #I had to eviscerate them #so please enjoy my now incoherent Becho ramblings #with some anti bellarke sentiment splashed in #I hope this makes some kind of sense #I had to get all this out for my own sanity #help this is so long and maybe a little bit all over the place #TLDR; all blorke criticisms of becho are just them projecting the worst parts of their ship they refuse to acknowledge #I'm so envious of new fans who never have to witness blorkes firsthand #I sincerely believe blorkes don't have a single brain cell between them #thanks for coming to my TED talk #grab a bagel on your way out

[onceuponawildflower]

How has your sexuality affected your religiousness? I know when I first starting following you years ago you were very involved in the church. Please feel free to ignore this question if it is uncomfortable/too personal/whatever. I just know many people who are afraid to truly be themselves because of the judgement that typically comes from their church families (among others I’m sure)

no it’s okay i don’t mind answering.

a few years back, back when i was v involved in the church, i also got v involved in nonviolent protesting and political activism (circa the noDAPL movement, Bernie, the big swing into immigration rights we’ve recently seen, the Syrian genocide, and the rise of Trump, etc). the more i got involved in those things, the more i became alienated by the church. i was asked to be part of worship less and less, some people distanced themselves from me. 

it eventually got to a point where i talked to the pastors multiple times, asking them what we were going to be doing to take a stance on human injustices. they told me that, i kid you not, ‘what you’re doing on the left end is as extreme as the far-right wing.’ they told me they wanted to stay centrist and not take a stand. in my last encounter with them they told me that they loved me as a sister, but they wouldn’t ever talk about the issues i was passionate about bc it would ‘go over peoples’ heads’. i left before the service that day and almost immediately after, i was excommunicated. like i lost my entire friend group and church family, i was taken off of worship, my pastor left one inflammatory comment on something i posted on fb and then blocked me. it was a whole to-do which really hurt. but also made me livid. but also i was exhausted, having tried so hard to encourage people to care for others as their religion had always encouraged and kept being met with comfortable apathy…

so while i was kicked out of that church and that was a whole lot to deal with on all facets of my mind, body, and soul, i also see it to be a blessing bc it opened up this whole new world for me, one that i never even gave myself an option to believe previously. i explored all the facets of spirituality and mysticism that i knew very little about other than the christian church saying they were sinful and demonic (purely bc they weren’t protestantism). i also began to explore sexuality beyond the purity garbage force fed to christians. and that’s where it probably started.

once i realized it was okay to dismantle the crippling system imposed upon people, mostly womxn but also men, that told them that sexual purity was of utmost importance but the same system that never provided any sort of guidance through anything sexual, ever, i started to heal my own wounds of trauma and naivety and began to love myself. like my whole self. not just as a physical being but as a spiritual vessel and goddess soul resting in flesh. 

i still have a long way to go and christianity really does fuck you up with ego and self-doubt and guilt and perfectionism, but it can be healed. i started listening to jamie lee finch and reading more about spiritual mysticism. i got into tarot and witchcraft and i know a lot of christians out there are probably rolling their eyes or laughing at me rn when they read this, but there is SO MUCH knowledge and wisdom around us in the natural world, much more than a book written by a bunch of men thousands of years ago. women hold so much power and goodness and wisdom and divinity, but christianity has all but wiped them out and done all it can to invalidate and eradicate the feminine divine. 

that feminine divine however, is what gives me life. it fuels me. it reminds me of my agency. it reminds me of my power. 

while all of this awakening was happening spiritually, so was my sexual awakening. it came in little nudges, like i would see womxn and want to cuddle them or hold them or kiss them or have what i thought was platonic relationships (nonsexual, intellectual, emotional lifelong partnerships). it scared me at first. a lot. i actually remember actively denying it. but also kept asking my queer friends about this sensation. i didn’t want to be pan at first or anything not straight. i actively opposed it bc i couldn’t imagine having to go through that transition with my family or my own self. i have been pretty emotionally exhausted for years now, and i didn’t think i could take that on too. while i was lgbtq+ friendly and an ally, it can be a totally different experience when you realize you’ve been suppressing something deep deep down unconsciously for decades. it’s really hard to explain really, and it’s still relatively new to me so bare with me here, i’m still feeling it out. 

the more i ignored it however, the stronger it came on. at one point i surrendered to it. i couldn’t help but just embrace it bc otherwise i was lying to myself. i allowed myself to be open and honest with myself and that was terrifying, but also very liberating, just getting it out there and allowing my sexuality to exist in the same space as me. i tried to figure out what exactly i was feeling and if i could categorize this to help create some clarity (virgo here). what resonated most with me was pansexuality. it wasn’t like i was attracted to men and women and that was my marker. it was more like i was drawn to someone’s energy before i even considered their sexuality/gender. someone’s emotional presence and aura drew me in and everything else came second. it didn’t matter to me if they were mxn or womxn or something more fluid and in between. i just was there for the energy. 

so i’ve been ‘out’ to my friends for a few months now, but i don’t think i’ll ever tell my parents, at least, i don’t think i will. i just know them and while they love people they love them through that christian lens. i’m very jaded still and forgive me for that, i will definitely need to go to therapy once i get insurance to help move beyond this. they still have a lot of resistance with lgbtq people, and that makes me really sad. i can’t imagine even nodding to the subject bc i know that we’re not going to meet in the middle. both of their kids are really liberal and not christian despite their best efforts, and they have become slightly less conservative since i was young, but now they’re just where that church i was kicked out of was, right in the middle, unbudgingly. 

i suppose it works out for us now, since i am openly pansexual/queer and my partner is a heteronormative male (though not entirely cisgendered and he’s comfortable being whomever he wants to be and i love that about him). from the outside, we look like a heteronormative couple, which is cool and convenient for my family. honestly, since i left christianity, i’ve had a different relationship with my parents, and i miss how close we were. but i know it’s not going to change bc i have 0 desire to return to that religion and they have 0 desire to explore anything outside of it. what relationship we do have now is nice, in its own scope. i just wish i could be real and honest and open and deep with them and that they would go there with me. but that’s okay… i have friends who can meet me there and a supportive and open partner and so this is really the best it can get for me realistically. i am v grateful for the people i have in my life. 

i don’t stay in touch with literally anyone from that church. no one talks to me anymore. they’ve all cut me out and as they know they can’t pull me back in they’ve exited altogether. that’s the christian agenda though, no? it’s all about bringing people in (at its best). just like door to door sales, if they know they don’t have a chance of making that sale, they’ll stop wasting their time and move on. bigger fish to fry. it hurts that i was only a (black) sheep in their flock, but at the same time, i have grown so much since i realized i could think for myself and be okay and not crippled by lack of a deity. i have no desire to return, and if those people couldn’t accept me then, they sure as hell won’t accept me now. but i don’t want that sort of energy in my life. i want authenticity. i want realness. i want vulnerability and openness and unconditional love. if you’re not willing to bring that, then i don’t really want to invest in you. simple as that.

now i’m not saying the way things went down for me are how it should be for anyone else, but i do encourage you and anyone else out there to feel your feelings. don’t be afraid of them. walk into those murky waters, if even with trepidation and wariness, at least move forward. bc otherwise you’re stagnating and stagnant water is dangerous (and smelly). foster a community of those who want to join you in your journey, who love you without any agenda. it is hard and can be incredibly painful but i do believe it’s worth it to live a life true to yourself rather than lie to ourself to appease the comfort zones of others.

that’s all i got. 

#personal #sexuality #church #christianity #my story #pansexual

[petitprincess1]

How To Torture Your Heroes

Summary: Demencia and Clem teach the gross cockroaches of the world how to properly obtain and torture your enemy better than some nerdboy could!

Words: 2,454

Characters: Demencia, Flug, Clemencia, and Black Hat (briefly)

Warnings: A bit of torture, but nothing too bad.

I had too much fun with this

Demencia sat at the metallic table with her arms crossed and glaring at the shaking Cam-Bot and Flug, who was clearly smirking underneath his bag. She just narrowed her eyes at him, while, at the same time, erratic noises and lights that were going on beside her. She then slowly glanced over to her side at seeing Clemencia strapped up in a chair, wrapped in a straitjacket, and her mouth covered by a mask. The unicorn witch was currently vibrating in the chair, hearts in her eyes changing various of colors, and her powers were sparking from her horn. She was also making many high-pitched squeaking sounds and they only became louder the moment Dem’s eyes were on her.

Demencia’s stare went back to Flug, who was setting up Cam-Bot and ordering, “Alright, remember that Black Hat wants you to do this. Honestly, I wouldn’t care and the only commercials I would have you do is one for rabies vaccinations or one where we send you off to space.”

Flug was expecting Demencia to make a “witty” comeback like her becoming queen of the moon-people or something that idiotically implausible, but she just kept glaring at him. He just rolled his eyes and then looked as Cam-Bot’s recording light come on, saying, while holding up cards for her to speak off of, “Okay, Cam-Bot is recording. Go, Demencia.”

Demencia narrowed her eyes further at him before speaking in an even, annoyed tone, “Welcome, you bottom feeders, are you sick and tired of using the same old methods to capture and torture heroes? Do they always get away from your clutches? Always stealing your shit-” “Demencia, stick to the cards.” “Ugh! Always stealing your equipment,” she mocked in an obnoxiously nerdy voice by plugging her nose and then continued, “and leaving a mess everywhere? Then, fear not, for- this is so fucking stupid! Couldn’t you at least have tried to make the script sound like me, instead of your disgusting, lameass nerd language!?”

Flug pinched at where the bridge of his nose would be and then spoke in a professional manner, “You know, I really did try to, Demencia. However, you must understand that it is quite difficult to translate caveman speak to our natural, everyday colloquialism.”

Dem slammed her hands down on the table and shouted at him, “Say that to my face, punching bag!”

“You’re literally a few feet in front of me! How is this not saying it to your fa-” “Because it isn’t, chicken shit! If you were brave enough, you would say it right here, instead of-” The two began bickering over one another. Flug giving out the most intellectual disses the world has ever known, while Demencia resorted to “colorful” language, gory descriptions of Flug’s demise, and the occasional, never defeated “bleh bleh bleh” method. 

Meanwhile, Clem watched the two fight amongst one another like a child watching their parents argue. She casually shimmied out of her straitjacket, unbuckled the straps, and took off the mask. Skipping over to Flug, she looked down at the cards in his hands and asked, “Can I see those?”

“Yeah, sure,” Flug said absentmindedly, as he just went back to quarreling with Demencia like the goof that he is. Clemencia just went back to her seat and sat down, reading over the cue cards. Cam-Bot turned off its recording for a few seconds to look in-between the two villains and shook its ‘head’, wondering how it hasn’t short-circuited from all this madness. The only thing that was able to break them out of their squabble was Clemencia shouting, “Whaaaaaat!? Dangle them over hydrochloric acid? Painful injections? Lead them to you with what they love? What is this absolute crap? I thought you were supposed to be the best in the business, Flug!”

Flug immediately put a hand to his chest, feeling absolutely offended, while Demencia snatched at the cards and started reading them over. The scientist shouted, “Okay, listen here you randomly generated Tumblr OC, I don’t need someone like you telling me that-”

“I'm gonna stop you right there because you clearly do! None of this would truly work! It's, dare I say, old hat! I mean, who dangles people over acid anymore?” Clemencia asked, while Demencia finished reading and winced, “As much as I hate to agree with sparkles over here, I think she's got a point.”

Flug crossed his arms, scoffing and sputtering, before taking a deep breath and giving in, “You know what? Fine! I'll let you both take over, see how well you do, but I'm not gonna be responsible for how Black Hat reacts!”

The two multicolored women weren't even listening to him, as the two were writing down suggestions and even making some pictures on their garbage writ- er…“script”. Clemencia then pulled down a large, long projection screen out of nowhere and the two hid behind the screen. Clem whispered, “Aaaaaaaannnndddd...action!”

Cam-Bot just shook its head and then rewound the footage before starting it back up again. Suddenly, an image of a half lizard and half unicorn skull crying out rainbows in front of heart that had nails all over it appeared on the screen. The two magically poofed in front of the screen. Demencia was holding a bloodied baseball bat that had nails all over it and Clemencia held a pink and gold axe that had hearts within the blade and pink bows along the handle. Flug groaned, as he sat down with a mug in his hand that...possibly held coffee, “Oh boy.”

Demencia greeted, “Welcome, you gross boils of the underworld, it's your ruthless, badass Demencia to teach you scrubs about how to truly capture and torture your victims, whether they be a hero or a disgusting, useless, sidekick, nerdboy!”

Flug gave loud sigh, but didn't say anything. The lizard woman pointed to Clemencia and introduced, “And who better to check over such methods than with- Gah!”

Clemencia suddenly brought her into a spine-crushing hug and lifted her off of the ground, exclaiming, “Than with her no-as-equally-but-pretty-dang-close-at-least-hope-so-or-I’ll-cry-in-the-tub-again-tonight gorgeous girlfriend, Clemencia!”

Dem growled, as she hit her over head with the bat, “I'm not your girlfriend, dumb broad!”

Each hit that she made just made a squeaky toy noise. Flug blinked at the both of them and then cleared his throat. The two stared at him before going back to their normal poses and Dem went on like nothing happened, “Than with this horrible excuse of a hero over here!”

The unicorn witch smiled and giggled, while her horn made random sparks of pink magic. The screen then changed while Dem continued, “Now, some idiots would give you stupid little ideas that you can lead your victim by using things that they love,” a drawing of Clemencia had her being led to a trap by a Demencia doll on a string, “or being hung over acid,” another image of Clem being hung over acid that she just changed into jello with a confused, smelly Flug, “or, even lamer, with injections,” and then the final was another Flug with the words “gross nerd” over his head poking a confused hero in the eye with a syringe.

Clemencia then quickly added in, “Well, I never thought they were lame or anything, just that I know you can do it a bit better with that big boy brain of yours, Fluggy~!”

Flug corrected, “That’s Dr. Flug Slys to you.”

“Ya got it, Flug-bug!” Clemencia smiled with a cute little wink afterwards, making Flug just take bigger gulps of his “coffee”. Demencia put a finger to her mouth, fake gagging, and asked in an annoyed tone, “Are you two done being weird?”

Clem mumbled, looking slightly concerned, “...I-I was being…” and then a fully forced smile came across her face and she said cheerfully, “Yes, I am, my wonderful savior! ...Um,” she then levitated Flug’s mug to herself, grabbed it, and then tossed it right into his face with a blank expression. The mug spilt all over Flug upon impact and he fell back with a loud thud, shouting, “WHYYYYY!?”

Demencia blinked at the whole and then went back to the commercial, “Anyway, a little help from Dem and Clem will get your ass back in line with these three easy options! Number one: Don’t go for all that complicated garbage! Your own body should be plenty to attract those dumb heroes.”

The image on the screen changed to a drawing of a hero cornering Demencia in an alleyway, while she was wearing chainmail armor lingerie that had a the Black Hat logo on her panties. Clemencia’s eyes turned into hearts, despite one of them twitching at the “dumb heroes” comment, and added in, “Which should be plenty easy, if you’re as sexy as Demencia! However, if you’re not- which a good majority of you aren’t -then this second option is for you! Number two: As much as we heroes love kicking your butts from here to Atreno City,” a Clem drawing had her kicking villains, while they’re curled up on the ground, like Flamme, Mother Poltergeist, Mawrasite, and, of course, Flug, “there’s nothing we love more than peaceful agreements.”

Next was a copy-and-pasted picture of the signing of the Declaration of Independence, but they had a bunch of villains’ and heroes’ faces drawn poorly over all the political figures’ faces with Clem and Dem sharing Thomas Jefferson’s face. The actual document was scribbled with Demencia’s crayon and Clemencia’s sparkly marker writing that read: “Blah blah blah,” “Dem for president,” “Clem was here <3,” and a signature “Flug the virgin.” Clemencia went on, “However, we also have a high sense of smell to know when there's bullshit afoot, so try to at least seem a bit more genuine than what you’re actually doing,” a picture of an annoyed Vanity appeared at a dinner table with Dark Phantom in a suit, who was looking extremely nervous and holding a ray gun behind his back.

Demencia then said, “And, finally, the torture! The fun part! Now that you’ve clearly used the first method to capture your foe because the second one is for complete morons-”

Clemencia shifted on her and chuckled nervously, “Heehee...right…”

The lizard hybrid then went on, “The best way that you can torture your hero is by causing them the slowest amount of pain possible and that their screams are filling your entire lair!”

The image on the screen showed a hero tied up to a chair, looking absolutely terrified, while Demencia was doing various tactics on them like using thumb-screws to drill through their fingers, using a red hot iron rod to brand their skin, or reading bad fanfiction. All the while the hero seemed to be in extreme anguish. Demencia then added, “However, if the hero is somehow resilient, you can also do the same to the sidekick or family,” the drawings changed to her doing the same to those people, instead of the hero.

“Whichever one you do, the hero should be able to do whatever you wish after a whole 24 hours of torture, but if you’re as good as me, you’ll have it done in less than 30 minutes. Heroes are absolutely traumatized afterwards though, so make sure to throw them out afterwards,” drawing Dem was throwing the hero into the incinerator, “Although, that may be hard because most heroes are stupid and useless already to begin with. Right, Clemencia? ….Right!?”

…

Dem growled as she sharply turned to her, only to stop at seeing Clem holding onto herself and also shivering. Clemencia started tearing up and she stuttered, “I-I’m...I’m n-not useless….o-or….stupid...r-right?”

The lizard hybrid just bit her lip and looked away, causing Clem to whimper and then teleport out of there. Right as soon as she did, Flug came back into the lab, holding a cloth covered ice pack on his bagged face, and asked, looking around, “Hey, where did the poster child for insulin shots go to?”

He then noticed Demencia looking somewhat saddened and guilty, as if she made a mistake. Flug was about to reach out to her and ask if she was alright, but then suddenly the projector caught alight by red flames, as Black Hat rose from the flames. His eye completely black with a red, slitted pupil and his form shifting and changing as eyes, mouths, and tentacles appeared. The tentacles squeezed around the two, strangling them, and Cam-Bot quickly ran out out of there before it got taken. Black snarled at the two, “What is going on here!?”

Demencia made a stupid comment about Black Hat always taking her breath away, while Flug made his famous dying seal squeaks.

At White Hat’s manor, as the moon was rising, Clemencia hung half her torso off of the balcony connected to her room, sighing at all that Demencia said and wondering where exactly she went wrong. She messed with the bow on her ponytail, while her unicorn hoodie’s eyes started tearing up. She mumbled to herself, “Maybe I’m just too bubbly at times...and I doubt myself too much...and...I eat too much cake! Ugh! I need to change my ways! I need to get tough and more wild like Demmie!”

She then lifted up her body back up to the top and the moment that she did, she felt lips press against her cheek, as well as catching the scent of roses, spray paint, and raw meat. Clem summoned a large mallet and shouted, “How dare you steal Demencia’s scent!?”

She then looked around and saw nobody there, but did see a note placed onto the railing of the balcony. She tilted her head as she placed the mallet back into her hair and grabbed onto the note to see what it said: “I wasn’t talking about you being useless or anything like that, dum-dum! You’re pretty...alright. I just gotta keep up an image, ya know? Now stop being so emotional or else I’ll have to cuddle you! >:3c”

Clemencia blinked at the letter before her eyes turned into hearts and a dopey smile grew across her face, while hugging the paper close to her chest. Yeah, it wasn’t anything all that poetic, but it was absolutely beautiful in her eyes. She then looked down at at her balcony and noticed some red and green paint that was on the railing of where the note was. She turned the note around and saw red and green painted words that read: “By the way, got ya a surprise! Turn around!”

The unicorn witch spun around with a bright smile and saw a bomb with “Dem waz here” spray-painted onto it, making Clem coo, “Awwww, Demmie!!!”

I’ll probably make some fanfic about the other two...uh...*looks at hand* Shite Bat and Plug

#villainous #villainous fic #villainous au #heroic #heroic au #villainos #villanos #vilainos #vilanos #clemencia #clementia #demencia #dementia #kenning flugslys #flug slys #flug #dr flug #black hat #fanfiction #writing #writers on tumblr #my writing #pastel punk

[magic-and-moonlit-wings]

Chapter 42: The Show Must Go On

Becoming The Mask

It felt so good to jump back into his usual routine on Monday morning. Jim hummed as he diced vegetables for omelettes. He'd need to go grocery shopping after school, or maybe shop tomorrow and do coupon clipping today. How much leftover pizza did they have? Enough for dinner?

Maybe dinner for one, he confirmed, checking the fridge, so he really should pick up something more substantial. Unless …

Yes, there were cans of mushroom soup in the cupboards, so if they had that for dinner tonight, Jim could put off grocery shopping for one more day.

He brought Barbara's breakfast upstairs. She'd remembered to take off her own glasses last night. Jim kissed her forehead on reflex, and then froze.

Barbara didn't stir. He let out a whisper-soft sigh.

For the past week, Jim and Toby had been brushing their teeth side-by-side, since the Domzalskis only had one bathroom and there was only so much time in the morning before school. Jim had started checking on Jay-Jay using his cellphone instead, even after Toby learned he was a Changeling. Today, brushing his teeth alone, he spat on the mirror again.

Toby deserved something special for lunch, Jim thought, considering how well he had been handling all the strangeness and stress that Jim dragged into his life. Let's see, there were still more eggs …

Jim went through the first few steps of making French toast, but as soon as one side of the bread was finished and flipped, he put cheese on top to melt. He was frying thin slices of onion and tomato and some diced red peppers as well.

Toby loved Chef Jim's Famous Ultimate Grilled Cheese.

Jim left Barbara's lunch in the fridge, like usual, and left to bike to school with Toby, like usual.

It felt wonderful to cook in his own kitchen again.

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Jim seemed chipper, Walt noticed. He hoped that meant the boy was in positive contact with his Familiar's mother again, not that Jim was putting up a façade.

Of course he wanted Jim to be able to hide his feelings well, especially vulnerability. Such thespianism was a vital life skill for any Changeling. But he could hope for Jim to genuinely experience whatever positive emotions the young Changeling expressed as well.

"I've got some worrying news," Jim announced, popping into Walter's office after school. The words were at odds with his tone, grin, and bouncing step. "We have a ticking clock, of sorts? The kids want to tell their families trolls are real. Mom hasn't met them but she knows they exist and she's given us a month to do it before she starts trying. So, they're trying to persuade Vendel it's a good idea. Thoughts?"

Walter just gaped. Jim had barely gotten the door closed before he started bubbling out this very disconcerting information. He was still adjusting the piano stool.

"I suppose the possibility of a troll being photographed or filmed and spread by social media could make it worth attaining human allies who are beyond adolescence."

Mrs Nuñez was a local politician, and Mr Scott was a police officer. The scope of damage control they could truly offer in the event of a secrecy breech was limited but existent. Truly, Dr Lake would probably be the best 'respectable figure' to calm the public, if it came to that, since many humans assumed their politicians and law enforcement were corrupt in any case, but first it would be best to try discrediting the evidence and minimizing its exposure.

"Yeah, Mary pointed out basically every human has a camera at all times now." Jim turned idly side-to-side on the rotating stool. "I'm worried about Enrique, though. If Claire exposes him to their parents … He can't 'stay with a friend' like I did while they cool down. But if they're only letting him stay for appearances and don't get a chance to calm down –" He spun all the way around. "D'you think we can talk her out of it?"

"You know Ms Nuñez better than I. Do you?"

Jim made a whining noise high in his throat and spun the stool again, in the opposite direction this time.

"If it's any comfort," Walter offered, "I've seen Ms Janeth's rehearsal and performance schedule for this week, and I imagine Ms Nuñez will be too thoroughly occupied with the Montague-Capulet feud to want to create additional family strife off-stage."

There was a rehearsal for the first three afternoons that week, with the full dress rehearsal Wednesday, opening night on Thursday, and with Friday and Saturday performances to follow.

He should tell Jim about his own worrying news, his plans to leave Arcadia once he found a deputy who wouldn't be subverted or murdered, but Walter hesitated. Face to face with Jim, he found himself wondering if he ought to leave at all. His presence offered some token protection; Otto knew, even if the Polymorph survived a fight with the Trollhunter, Walter would bring about consequences. But if Walter were gone, Otto would have time to disappear.

But Jim was an excellent fighter in his own right, Walter chided himself. The boy had successfully stabbed Bular and lived to tell the tale! And he'd be safer still if – when – Walter's plan succeeded.

Still, he hadn't found a deputy, so perhaps he needn't add to the boy's worries yet.

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"There's a school play," said Jim, apropos of nothing, at dinner on Tuesday night. "Later this week. I'm not in it, but, do you want to go anyway?"

"That sounds nice," said Barbara. "I'll try to clear my schedule."

"It's three nights. I could get tickets for all three. You know, school fundraisers, they're not going to turn down extra money."

"What's the troll school system like?" Barbara had decided to try to ask this sort of thing casually whenever a conversation seemed like it could flow in that direction, to get Jim used to telling her things about trolls and get herself used to hearing it.

"I have no idea. I've never seen a school in Trollmarket, though, so they might do an apprenticeship instead of general education? I'll ask Blinky. Or you could ask Blinky."

Barbara hesitated. She wasn't sure she had the nerve to go back underground yet. "You should invite him to dinner some time."

Jim laughed. "I don't know if you'd want that if you knew what trolls ate." He gasped at his own words. "I meant garbage! The stuff trolls eat is usually really unappetizing to a human. Smelly socks are tasty snacks. I mean, we've – Changelings – we've found some stuff that tastes good in both forms, but I don't know how good they'd be to an unaltered troll."

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"Where have you been, young lady?"

"Dress rehearsal?" Claire frowned at her parents. "The school play, remember?"

Enrique made a happy noise from his doorway-mounted baby-bouncer. Sometimes that dispelled the tension. Tonight it didn't.

"We're very proud you're keeping your commitment to the school," said Javier. "But you have to call us when you're going to be out late. We were worried."

"I told you when you dropped me off this morning!"

She had. Enrique had been in his car seat right behind her. He hated that thing. It was cushioned, and his Familiar's parents had been very fussy about making sure the straps weren't too tight when they noticed he always cried when they put him in it, but that wasn't the point. He hated not being able to move. He couldn't wait until he got big enough not to need it anymore.

"You at least remembered you promised to come tomorrow, right?" Claire continued, narrowing her eyes.

Ophelia checked her phone. Behind the parents' backs, Enrique winced.

"Of course. For opening night."

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"Nay, gentle Romeo, we must have you dance," said Logan – Mercutio – to Steve.

"Not I, believe me: you have dancing shoes, with nimble soles. I have a soul of lead, so stakes me to the ground I cannot move."

"Steve's a better actor than I thought," Toby whispered to Darci. He and Nana had ended up beside her and her parents. Darci's dad was a huge, muscle-y guy who had given Toby a suspicious look when the teens greeted one another by name, but hadn't tried to stop them from sitting next to each other.

Steve seemed utterly woebegone, being dragged by his friends to a party to make him forget the girl Romeo liked before meeting Juliet. Toby hadn't known Romeo had a past love – he'd never actually seen the play, but he'd thought part of the point of it was that first love made the characters reckless?

Mercutio launched into a speech about some fairy queen creating nightmares until Romeo interrupted him – "Peace, peace, Mercutio, peace! Thou talk'st of nothing!" – and Benevolio pointed out they were missing the party they'd planned to crash – "This wind you talk of blows us from ourselves. Supper is done, and we shall come too late."

Toby had to choke back a laugh, midway through the next act, when Romeo approached his priest friend and Friar Laurence fretted that young people didn't tend to be awake so early, and so Romeo must not have slept.

"The last is true. The sweeter rest was mine."

"God pardon sin! Wast thou with Rosaline?!"

Who knew Shakespeare had snuck so many raunchy and risqué stuff into his work? When Mary, as the Nurse, thought Juliet was simply sleeping in as opposed to faking her death, she teased that Juliet's arranged marriage would be keeping her up late soon and so it was best Juliet got as much sleep as she could before.

"Why, lamb! Why, lady! Fie, you slug-a-bed! Why, love, I say! Madam! Sweet-heart! Why, bride! … What, not a word? You take your pennyworths now. Sleep for a week; for the next night, I warrant, the County Paris hath set up his rest, that you shall rest but little. God forgive me," she added idly, in that way that meant she was only apologizing because it was expected, not because she was truly sorry.

There was a curtain across the stage, dividing Nurse from Juliet's 'bed' while the audience could see both of them.

"Marry and amen, how sound is she asleep! I must needs wake her. Madam, madam, madam!" Mary pulled the curtain back. "What, dressed and in your clothes, and down again? I must needs wake you." She started to shake Juliet, growing increasingly frantic as Claire appeared limp and unresponsive. "Lady? Lady! Lady!"

Mary's last cry was a full-on scream that made everyone jump.

It wasn't really all that different from a soap opera. Even with all the death and tragedy, Toby was quite enjoying the play.

At least, he was, up until the last scene.

"What's here? A cup, closed in my true love's hand? Poison, I see, hath been his timeless end. Oh, churl – drunk all, and left no friendly drop, to help me after? I will kiss thy lips. Haply some poison yet doth hang on them, to make die with a restorative."

Juliet leaned over Romeo. Toby had heard, once, somewhere, that the hardest role in theatre was a dead body, because the actor would feel the urge to move or laugh. Steve let out a brief little "ha!" at the kiss, and then went back to being dead.

"Thy lips are warm … Then I'll be brief. Oh, happy dagger," drawing it from Romeo's scabbard, "this is thy sheath!"

Toby, and several others in the audience, gasped as Claire pressed the prop weapon to her stomach.

"There, rust … and let me die."

"What?" Toby whispered. "Juliet dies in this? No!"

The curtain closed, and Eli came out to deliver the epilogue. "A gloomy peace, this morning with it brings. Go hence, to have more talk of these sad things; for never was a story of more woe, than this of Juliet and her Romeo!"

The audience applauded, and cheered, and whistled, and Claire and Steve got up and started bowing. But all Toby could see was his friend collapsing from a stab wound.

"Toby?" said Darci, putting her hand on his. "You okay?"

"I can't believe Juliet died …"

Jim kept warning them that troll stuff could get them killed. Toby had tried to take the warnings seriously, he really had. This, though, actually seeing Claire die – even a staged death she got right back up from, like Juliet's first, fake death with sleeping potion – this hit Toby harder than all of those warnings all at once.

He forced himself to his feet, forced a congratulatory smile onto his face, and forced his hands into applause.

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Whee, I figured out a way to make Romeo and Juliet plot relevant!

I actually read a transcript of 'Romeo and Juliet' to prepare this chapter. I really wanted Mercutio's Queen Mab speech, but couldn't justify quoting the whole thing, so I just referenced it happening on stage. (No, I didn't study this play in school. The Shakespeare plays we studied were Twelfth Night, Julius Ceaser, Hamlet, and the Scottish play with the cursed name. You know the one.)

Logan is the guy partnered with Mary in the flour babies episode. Darci mentions, "Logan and Mary already killed theirs. They gave Dwight D. Eisen-flour a bath and he turned into mush." Based on screenshots of the classroom, I think Logan is also the unnamed boy seen in the seats at play tryouts.

My high school typically did three performances of the school play, on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Arcadia Oaks High School seems to do only one performance, but I think that's because the first half of the first season ends on opening night and the writers were done with that plotline. The next episode starts a month later, according to Toby's dialogue. That's plenty of time for more performances.

In other news, I’m thinking of doing a podfic for this story. My computer has a decent microphone, but I can’t seem to convert M4A files into MP3s, except by using external websites. I’ve followed the tutorial for doing the conversion with Windows Media Player exactly and it doesn’t work. I need MP3s if I’m going to post podfic on tumblr because tumblr can’t accept M4A uploads.

Apparently I’ll need to have the files hosted on another website, because AO3 can’t accept audio files downloaded directly or works imported from tumblr. SoundCloud sounds like it would work? Do people have recommendations or suggestions? 

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[my-emotional-self]

The Accident Chapter 24

Pairings: Chris Evans x OFC

Warnings:  Swearing, Smut, Angst

Summary: After yet another fight with your boyfriend Chris, you go for a drive and get into a terrible accident.  Upon waking up in the hospital, you find both Sebastian and Chris sitting there.  The only problem?  You have no recent memories and you think you are still dating Sebastian.

A/N: Hold on to your knickers everyone!  Next chapter is when all hell breaks loose!

Serene. Tranquil.  That was the only way in which you could describe the way you felt as you woke up the following morning.  Your body was warm, but that was because Chris was behind you, his right arm draped over your stomach, holding you close.  

It had been just over four weeks since your accident happened, and while you hoped to have remembered more memories by now, you were happy with what you did remember.  You still had a long way to go to recovering all your memories and you hoped that one day, it will happen.  But right now, you were blissfully happy, encompassed in Chris’ arms, and fully sated from your sexual encounter last night.  

There was a soft grunt coming from behind you as Chris’ beard tickled your bare shoulder.  Placing a hand over your mouth to stop the giggling, you listened to him opening and closing his mouth, no doubt dry from sleeping all night and well into the morning.  It wasn’t like you to sleep so late, but it also wasn’t like you to get such a well-rested nights’ sleep as of lately.  

As Chris began to stir from behind, you felt his warm breath on your neck and you couldn’t help the moan that escaped from your mouth.  Chris’ arm tightened around your bare stomach as his lips began to place soft, open mouth kisses along your neck and spine.  Instantly your clit was begging to be touched, just at the touch of Chris’ soft lips.  The fact that this man turned you on with a few kisses made you weak in the knees; and you knew if you had been standing up right now, they would have given out on you.

You felt his tongue begin to graze up and down your spine, just below your neck.  “Chris,” you softly whimpered.  Your bare pussy got wet at his ministrations and you needed to feel him inside you right now.  Arching your back, you ass dug into his growing cock as he hissed at the feeling. “I need you Chris,” your words nothing but a plea.  

You felt him leave your backside and you rolled over to see him fishing a condom out of the drawer; hastily placing it on his ready cock.  As he moved to hover over you, you took his cock in your hand and aligned him at your entrance before he stopped you.  “Wait wait wait, are you ready?” he asked with concern.  

With a provocative smile, your hand left his dick and instead gently gripped his wrist and placed his hand at your open pussy.  He groaned when his fingers felt the wetness.  “Yeah you’re fahkin’ ready,” he growled before lining his cock up.  Drunk or horny, that was when his Boston accent appeared the most.  I’ll have to remember that you thought to yourself.

In one quick push, he was fully sheathed inside of you as you both cried in pleasure at the feeling. His member filled you to the brim as he gave you a minute to adjust.  Once you were ready, you wrapped your legs around his backside, urging him to continue.  

Chris wet his lips, your hands tangling in his hair as he began to thrust into you with rapid fire. With just a look, and your cries of desperation earlier, this wasn’t going to be slow and sensual but rather rough and quick, just the way you wanted it.  He began to pound into you with such fervor you had to place your hands behind you and onto the headboard to keep from moving.  His name fell breathlessly from your lips as he moved onto his knees, never slipping out of you.  Reaching over he grabbed a pillow and placed it under your ass as your heart skipped a beat.  This is new you thought as he began to move his hips back and forth.  

“Holy shit,” you breathed out as you now understood why he chose this position.  His cock was hitting you at such an angle, that his tip kept hitting your g-spot each time he thrusted in and out of you.  It was like nothing you had ever felt before. You watched as Chris took his eyes off you and down to where his cock met your pussy, slowly pushing in and out of you in a teasing way and the sounds of you getting even wetter echoed throughout the room.  Chris was literally watching his cock enter you as a deep burning of desire flooded your body; it was the sexiest fucking thing you had ever seen.  

He knew just where your g-spot was as he teased you; his tip just hitting it perfectly back and forth in the same spot.  You felt your high reaching from his teasing alone and once he felt your walls begin to clench, he pounded back into you quickly with his unrelenting hips.  

Your hands gripped the white bed sheets as it felt like the Earth stopped spinning.  Your walls spasmed around his cock just as he stilled his motions, leaning down on his forearms as the two of you rode out your highs together.  

~~~

After taking a shower, together, you and Chris got dressed for the day.  It was May 2nd, and checking the weather, there was a brisk wind today.  You put on a clean pair of black boy shorts and a matching black cotton bra before slipping on a pair of dark skinny jeans, black tank-top and a light grey cardigan.

Chris was wearing a pair of light washed jeans, white t-shirt and blue flannel; looking ever the sexy lumberjack man with his beard.  Once he placed his baseball hat on, the two of you headed out of the hotel room and towards the elevator.  

“How long is it to Sebastian’s place from here?” Chris asked as he snaked his hand with yours after getting into the elevator.  

“Ummm, probably close to a mile,” you guessed.  

“Did you want to walk or take a taxi?”

Although there was a brisk wind, it was still a beautiful day outside.  “Let’s walk!”

Hand in hand, you left the hotel with Chris.  It was much louder outside compared to the quietness of the house back in Los Angeles. When you awoke without your memories, you were upset to find out you were now living in Los Angeles; mad that you wouldn’t be around the hustle and bustle of New York City anymore.  But now that you were here, you were glad for the peace and quiet that was your home in LA.  

Cars and people littered the streets and sidewalks as you held Chris’ hand; the two of you maneuvering rather well down the crowded sidewalk.  Cars honked as they were stuck in traffic and you knew, better than anyone that honking your horn during traffic won’t get you where you need to be any faster.  

After living here for so many years, you had gotten used to the smelly streets, but now that you had been away, the smell was more awful than you could remember; the wind not helping as it now wafted the smell up and down the streets.  

The breeze, while annoying because of the strong smell of garbage, was actually soothing on your warm face.  You, and Chris it seemed, couldn’t stop smiling all morning long from the rendezvous both this morning and last night.  It felt like your relationship was really coming full circle, and your heart felt full with joy and happiness.  

Of course the only thing missing in your life was your mother.  You missed her greatly, and you knew at some point you would have to mourn her loss, and you will.  With your birthday tomorrow, you just wanted to have fun with your friends and enjoy the time you had with them before going back home and taking a break from everything to grieve her.  Your heart felt empty without your daily phone calls with her, but Chris was there for you, and he was mending the hole in your heart.  

Walking into Sebastian and Margarita’s apartment, it was just how you had remembered; everything was the same except for a few new art pieces on the walls.  For a minute, it felt like home, but then Chris placed his hand on your lower back and you melted into his warmth; HE was your home.

“Hey babe!” Margarita called as she got up from the couch and pulled you into her arms.  

“Hey Margie,” you replied with a giggle as she didn’t want to let you go.  

Margarita pulled you aside and into the kitchen as the guys talked on the couch; her smile never leaving her lips.  “You are glowing,” she whispered, not wanting the boys to overhear her.  

Turning your head to look at Chris, you suddenly blushed thinking about this mornings activity. There he was, sitting with Sebastian, laughing at something he said.  It made your knees weak just thinking that he was yours.  Whirling back to Margie, you chewed on your lower lip before nodding your head; it was girl-code and she knew what it meant.  

“Holy shit Erica! About damn time!  So, tell me everything…don’t leave the details out.”

“Haven’t you heard this before?  Like, the first time it happened?”

“Well Sebastian and I were new to our relationship, but yes, you did tell me the spicy details once you and I became best friends,” she shrugged nonchalantly.  “But I want to know if you feel the same way as before,” she finished with a wink.  

You took a deep breath, closing your eyes as you remembered the last two encounters you had with Chris, the way he looked at you, the way his hands caressed every part of your body, and his tongue, fuck, his tongue was a piece of art.  Opening them slowly, you peered into Margarita’s eyes.  “Would I be cheesy if I said it was magical?”

Her mouth dropped open as a squeak escaped her lips.  “Girl that is what you said the first time around!”

You smiled back at her. “Seriously Margie.  It was unfuckingbelievable.  He is, without a doubt, a master of the art.”  

“So, is he better than Seb?”

You playfully nudged her, “I’m not answering that!”

~~~

The four of you headed out to lunch at your favorite pizza place called ‘Ops’.  It was a place that you frequented a lot while living here, and their pizza was to die for.  

Your time at the restaurant was filled with good company, and a lot of laughter.  By the end of the day, your stomach truly hurt from laughing so hard.  Being with Chris, and your two best friends, you couldn’t have asked for a better birthday present.  

Heading back to Sebastian and Margarita’s apartment, the four of you agreed to sit down, relax and watch a movie.  You didn’t care what movie you watched as you just wanted to get off your feet; forgetting how much walking was done when you lived here.  Now you were spoiled with driving around every moment of the day.  

Sebastian put on a movie and you crashed on the couch, cuddling up to Chris as you pulled your knees upwards.  It was relaxing to be in near him, at any point of time and you let out a content sigh. But too quickly, your head began to throb.

As the movie began to play, you tried in vain to ignore the throb of your head, thinking it was just a headache.  But as the movie progressed, so did your headache.  “Have I ever seen this movie?” you asked the group, trying not to wince at the pain in your head.  

“Nope.  It just came out on Netflix last week, so none of us have seen it,” Chris replied as he placed a tender kiss to your head.  As much as you wanted to love his kiss, it made your headache worse.

About half way through the movie, the ache in your head got so bad that you doubled over in pain. Clutching your head, you clenched your eyes closed as, what you could only imagine, was every memory from the last three years came flooding back to you.  It was as if you were watching your own home movie, you being the star.  You saw everything; every last glimpse from the last three years.  And you would have been happy to finally regain your memories, except you weren’t. They lied to you.  What happened to your mother was true, but the events leading up to it, was all a lie and they left that all out.  

“Fuck is she alright?”

“What’s happening?

“Should we call an ambulance?”

As your mind cleared you began to hear voices; voices that you knew, that were familiar.  Opening your eyes slowly, you felt that they were wet as you went to rub them.  Sure enough, tears were evident on your eyes and face; your chest heaving and your throat sore.  Turning, you saw three very worried pairs of eyes looking at you.  

You wished to tell them you were alright, but you were anything but.  With your eyes narrowing, you stood on shaky legs, walking backwards and away from them as Chris tried to come towards you.  

“I can’t BELIEVE you!!!  You fucking withheld the truth from me…..all THREE of you!  How COULD YOU???” you screamed before storming off to the bathroom and slamming the door on, who you thought were the three most important people in your life.

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[szopenhauer]

write a random lyric. I'm sour candy, so sweet then I get a little angry, yeah

how many times have you been in love? dunno what I can count and what not are you the type of person who always needs to be in a relationship? nooo

are you generally a happy person or a depressed person? depressed what is your biggest weakness? not gonna tell you do you think you’re a strong or weak person? both, it’s complicated have you ever ridden on the back of a garbage truck? nope have you ever been miserable, yet happy at the same time? not really, I am miserable and the fact that I joke/laugh about something or I enjoy part/something about a certain thing/moment doesn’t immediately mean I am truly happy do you think everyone is beautiful? sorry but no, it’s a matter of perspective, one person can be pretty to someone and ugly to others or just during the certain time or look better in person than on a picture etc. do you believe that all members of the opposite sex are basically the same? all people are basically the same and yet they’re not  when was the last time you were let down? today is there someone you just cannot stand to be around? majority of society what is the best fingernail polish color? black is music a daily part of your life? could say so do you drink alcohol regularly? not at all

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. na tę historyczną okazję kupił lepszy, kolorowy model Without looking, guess what time it is: 22.00 Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 22.01 

*I was worried it’s like 22.10

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? nothing :3 What are you wearing? crop top with a guy hidden behind the balloons, my gf would hate that shirt  Did you dream last night? I don’t think so

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? my own apartment  Do you like to dance? whatever Would you ever consider living abroad? I can’t imagine that  What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates? sigh...

Have you ever read a Shakespeare piece? had to but didn’t like it What colour is your sleeping bag? I didn’t use it for years so I don’t remember

Ever made a bucket list? there was website about making those Do you drink the recommended amount of water in a day? try to but probably fail Ever felt as if a teacher was thinking of you in a lustful manner? hope not, gross Where do you get your jeans at? I don’t wear jeans anymore but would buy them in second hand if I need any  Do you use any specific acne medication or do you just wash your face? I just wash my face as meds do more harm actually Have you ever worn a ankle bracelet? like once Favourite Disney movie song? not a fan of those in general Do you use body mist or perfume? neither but body mist is a better option for sure

Have you ever placed an ad in the paper? For what? nooo

What kinds of things do you own that are plaid? less than 5 items

When was the last time that you felt sad/mad about something? What was it? this day, I already complained about it on tumblr but don’t want to nor can get into details 

When was the last time you did something that was bad? Did you get away with it? what’s good and what’s bad? :(

Do you use the word “tad” to mean “a little bit” sometimes? I’ve never heard of it before 

Do you ever refer to something as being “rad”? I don’t recall using that word

Are you close with your dad? we’re best friends

When’s the last time you visited your grandparents? almost 3 years ago

What do you think of people with animal heads on their wall? if they’re vintage (or natural death taxidermy) then it’s fine but if they hunt then I’m against it

Do spinny chairs = greatness? I prefer not spinny ones Do all bottled water brands taste the same? not to me but some are very similar

When’s the last time you walked backwards? couple of hours ago for fun Growing up, did you have an imaginary friend? I invented some friends but I knew they don’t exist, I used them for daydreaming Are you afraid of spiders? am not Do you like touch-screens? meh Which person do you wish had more time to spend with you? father? Which extinct animal species would you like to bring back? dodo, moa, mammoths What’’s your favorite thing to snuggle? my fav childhood toy that is sitting near my bed last months because it is falling apart due to being so old and loved  Do you throw things when you get mad? I throw stuff that can’t break or hurt anyone when we’re teasing each other but that’s all Who do you wish you could live with? I wish I could live ALONE Have you ever been afraid of being replaced? I know I will be but it’s still disappointing Do you like magic tricks? why not Do you have any unrealistic goals in life? even easy ones feel like they’re unrealistic to me Ever just stare at the moon? it happens What is the last awkward question you were asked? someone asked me after what I take the most smelly poop, srsly When you like someone, is it obvious, or are you good at hiding it? can hide it well but don’t wanna  Are you good at following advice? I shouldn’t >.< Is your closet messy or clean? it’s a little disorganized Who do you worry about a lot? myself Do you wear make up for yourself, or for others? I don’t wear it lmfao If you HAD to choose, what would you want to be trapped in? a good dream? Are you optimistic? I’m a pessimist, close to realist, still slightly a dreamer

did you ever date the last person you kissed? we’re dating

pepsi or coke? I don’t drink soda/pop but I liked pepsi, it was more fresh, minty, cold - cola is warm, sweet and sticky what is your favorite sport? I hate sports in general is your computer a laptop? desktop who is in the room with you? no one where is your mom? in bed, sleeping where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? second hand in Ełk  are you texting someone? not currently would you kiss the last person you kissed again? we plan to do you own something tie dyed? I hate tie dye

does gore in movies bother you? very

what would be your ideal vacation? staycation is fine is it harder for you to fall asleep or stay asleep? fall  do you ever play board games, or have you grown out of them? you can’t grow out of them :o do you celebrate christmas? sure did you see the movie avatar? wasn’t interested

were you a quiet child or a loud child? quiet

would you ever have a threesome? it ain’t for me

when did you last feel the most free?: never?

do you think you could last six months without cheating if your significant other went away on a trip?: 100%

do you know anyone who is part native american?: in my whole life I saw no more than 10 native americans

did you ever love someone and feel like it was wrong?: tell me about it...

the last time you felt like just disappearing?: 24/7

what’s your favorite bug?: moth, I know snails don’t count but gonna mention them anyway

do you like rock or rap music better?: rock

do you go to cemeteries a lot?: no but I wouldn’t mind

ever known someone with an eating disorder?: at least one person

have you ever had a white christmas?: 20+

ever stayed in a hotel room over night?: long time ago

last time you tripped over something?: last week

what’s something you want to do but aren’t sure of yet?: *shrug*

worst relationship you ever had?: ...

[thetruthgoddess]

The pain in a child’s eyes shows you can clearly see they’re high possible drinking as well not because it’s cool something is truly wrong here, and they want to mask the pain of it. I wonder when Corey Feldman will reveal the names of these Hollywood hotshots who get off on children. My question is to Corey Feldman  Why are you covering up for these people? Maybe they have something on you too.(hmm) Let’s not forget that Corey Haim and Corey Feldman had a major falling out around the time of his death.These Hollywood actors kicked off in the 80’s, and these child stars name were up in lights, and everyone wanted a piece of them, and according to the rumor mill, these two young stars were passed around at these holly wood parties like chips in a bowl, and one body helped them.My theory on this is they both were sexually molested in the industry, and Corey Haim being the better looking of the two Corey’s was sexually tortured in the industry, and this waded on his heart and soul ,and because of the silence of this secrete it eats away at him until he couldn’t take it anymore . Being a victim of sexual assault myself I understand this. There’s only way out of this type of pain, and that is to talk about it and get it out of you or else you can never heal from it. I think even Corey Feldman know this as well, and that is the reason for his book. It’s his way of getting the pain out there, and out from under it so he can heal.I am sure that Corey Feldman has had years of intense counseling something Corey Haim could have benefited  from, but he held his pain inside convinced he could make it just go away or push it down so it didn’t affect him or relive the trauma he endured, and these feelings would come up, and out like an explosion when at the surface as evident on the Two Corey’s reality show. There were all kinds of drama with the show, and it went off the air. My guess is that Corey Haim felt betrayed my Corey Feldman and felt the producers in the industry were not taking him seriously, and he got snubbed out of the Lost boys 2 which problem stuck in his craw because he was pretty much the main character in the first movie. When that happened shit hit the fan.Corey Haim started acting up on set, and it showed in the show, and as is anger grow he through that bomb in.That they were sexually assaulted as kids during the filming of movies and Hollywood parties. There is way more to this, and pedophiles in Hollywood are just the tip of the ice burg, and we know it. Pizza GATE do you really think James Alifantis,

James Alifantis is a LIAR!!! Just another detail to the pile! -…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3a_H2U0tr8Cached

Obviously, they are TRYING HARD to cover up all the Pizza Gate evidence, and FAST! First, the Besta Pizza changes their symbol from the Man-Boy Lover symbol …

James Alefantis answers questions about Pizzagate – YouTube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKTiUaloDDACached

James Alefantis, the owner of Comet Ping Pong, gives an impromptu interview outside of Comet Ping Pong. He is asked about PizzaGate, the children’s images

James Alifantis – Image Results

                        SICK FUCKS !!

        LOOK@ THIS SHIT 

   FUCKING, LYING, SMELLY BITCH DEMON.FUCK YOU

, John Podesta, Tony Podesta,  and the Clinton’s are just hanging out at random pizza joints enjoying greats pizza with their freaky friends, and sick Instagram pics of kids strapped to tables, and weird Podesta, and Alifantis art is just cute then FUCK-YOU your part of the problem.We need to be aware of the fact that there are too many things being hidden ,but remember this it’s in plain sight all you need to do is look at things with fresh eye’s let go of all beliefs because you need a real open mind to detect these things, and still things might slip past you .That’ why we need to work together to go over the clues and put this puzzle together.Trust me when we put all the pieces to the puzzle together we will change everything so it is so worth it.Keep fighting friends we got this.for sure don’t worry or fear that’s what those sick bastards feed off of our negative emotions like, ANGER, SADNESS, PAIN, DEPRESSION, AND FEAR.No shit that’s their food make them starve. Laugh , sing , dance , be happy , and creative even if things are shit you right now.Change of heart inspires the change of mind, and creates positive action.So next time your down try it even if you think it’s stupid , and trust me it works. This how we stay strong to fight.Keep your head up it won’t be long till the truth is exposed , and no longer hidden.

                                 Let’s go down the rabbit hole

THESE WERE NOT YEARS OF INNOCENTS FOR THESE KIDS .. MAKES ME SAD:(

THEY FELL OFF THE SPECTRUM FOR A WHILE AND OUT OF THE LIMELIGHT

During their later teen years, you didn’t hear much from these two.They were both dealing with trauma from being abused , and their drug addictions which Corey Haim struggled more with.In these years Hollywood had thrown them away like they do.They use you when your young .Mess you up , and then when the new kid comes around they discard you like garbage  and use up that new kid. By then most of these stars are drugged up  and suffering major trauma. They don’t get work  or they shut them out.After all, they were only sex kitten’s to the elite. Not  look after , but to exploit , control , manipulate , abuse , and then through them away when they became damaged goods.

                     THE TWO COREY’S

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               THEN THE BOMB GETS DROPPED ON THE TWO COREY’S       

                   THE FIGHT

         Corey Haim goes his own way 

          THE COREY’S GET TOGETHER AGAIN , AND MAKE PEACE FOR THE MOST PART COREY HAIM GET’S AN INVITE BACK INTO HOLLYWOOD

 QUESTIONS RAISE ABOUT WHAT WAS SAID ON THE TWO COREY’S

     THEN COREY HAIM’S TRAGIC DEATH

               WHAT HAPPENED?

 COREY FELDMAN SPEAKS OUT FOR COREY , BUT IN LIGHT OF THE RECENT EVENTS WE NEED TO QUESTION HIS MOTIVES AFTER COREY HAIMS DEATH

TAKE A LOOK    

Check out Kiefer’s reaction about Corey Haim , like hr knows something , and wants to avoid the subject at all  cost , practically running away from the reporter watch his body language .He can get away fast enough even after he’s away from the reporter .WOW .

Is it possible that these two were  MK ULTRA mind control victims ?

There is no doubt that these two were victimized in a trauma based much two young boys living in a completely grown up world .Going to grown up Hollywood parties with executives , and producers , and no doubt in light of recent discovery  politicians , and Elite.where you know there was alcohol , and drugs of all types filled with creepy men , and women looking to take advantage of  hurt children for their own sick sexual pleasure.Getting them hooked on alcohol , and drugs , and when they can’t function normally any longer they cast them aside , and choose new prey, Why do you think all childhood actors bug out in their teens .Trust me it’s not just normal teenage action’s or behaviour. What to need to understand is that MK ultra is a secret government experiment , and has been long running .Some of these first test subjects didn’t take as well as they hoped for some test certain types of  subjects thus the program was worked on , and if you understand this you will have a better understanding of what is happening to certain celebrity’s in ,and out of the industry  these days ,and why them seem odd or even strange now instead of charismatic , and smooth . Not all victims reject this way of life some of them accept it , and adapt it the life style of it .Which makes them the perfect victim .They think they have no choice , and try to convince  others to comply instead of resisting .Ask yourself if Corey Feldman is acting like a friend .He knows exactly who did this , and is trying to play with us , by dangling the names in front of us like a carrot , and I guess were the rabbits. all the while trying to profit from a tragedy , and the death of his friend instead of really speaking up .Yeah he’s worried whatever he was one of the highest paid actors in Hollywood in the 80’s I’m sure he could get away if he needed too. Edward Snowden did it , and he’s not even as rich .He might be afraid for his safety ,and his family ‘s safety ,but he sure is dragging this out , and lets face it if they wanted him dead he would be, and if they were going to go after his family members this would have been done already right yet he hasn’t said much of anything really just superficial fear based comments.So come on Corey Feldman stop playing Games , and talk or Shut up cause we will find out who these pedophiles are with or with out your help.Really seems like your just playing with us . The pedophilia is real no doubt to that , but Corey Feldman is not the only celebrity talking about this , and it’s be going on for a long time most people in the industry have accepted this stead of fighting against it in fear of being oust ,but still there are some celebrity that go against the grain ,but when the do there not famous anymore , and if they try to proceed the break them , and if they can’t be broken they die of “drug ” overdoses .

                          EXAMPLES

                WHAT ARE COREY FELDMAN’S ACTION SAY

  IS THIS TURN INTO A PUBLICITY STUNT NOW FOR COREY FELDMAN? SAD 😦 REALLY WHY COULDN’T HE TALK WHEN COREY HAIM WAS ALIVE

          PEDOPHILIA IN HOLLYWOOD

         THIS IS WHAT SHOULD HAPPEN TO THESE ASSHOLES REALLY !!!!! BUT IT  NEVER HAPPENS WHY ? IF IT WAS YOU FOR SURE YOU WOULD BE IN JAIL right THIS IS NOT  EQUAL JUSTICE .IS IT?

           OTHER CELEBRITY’S SPEAK OUT

This is real , and some stars are coming out , and speaking , and up fed up with the way things have been , and calling for change .They are begging us to look at this , and we should. To all you parents out there who are trying to get your cute little kids into this industry I hope you realise what you’re doing putting your children in this lions den. I really hope justice is served to these pedophiles , because I personally would like to watch a movie with kid stars , and not worry if somebody behind the screen is hurting that kid , Get aware , and informed you don’t have to beleave one single word you see here ,but what i ask you to do is think ,and put the puzzle together for yourself so we can change things , because knowledge is power . Don’t forget that.

                     TRIBUTE TO COREY HAIM

 WE LOVED YOU COREY HAIM !YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MISSED !

             R.I.P COREY HAIM

THE COREY’S STORY The pain in a child's eyes shows you can clearly see they're high possible drinking as well not because it's cool something is truly wrong here, and they want to mask the pain of it.