#but the thing is. idk if i could hack it

[roryparis]

course selection is going sooo

#it’s like ok. i think i’m going to go with like ai/language processing/robotics stuff #which yeah that’s fascinating i’m super into that #but. i feel like i’ll really regret not taking the abstract proofs course? #but the thing is. idk if i could hack it #like i feel like i’d get a b and next year grades start counting towards degree classification which is terrifying. and i am going to get a #first. #and also more than that while the proofs course will be super interesting im don’t think it’s the area i want to go into? #and it’s like. do i take a course that’s really interesting if im not sure ill do well and also its not really the field I want #and also the other courses im taking are just as interesting #so it’s not like im going to be doing something i dislike or even that i like less

[cheswirls]

looking @ old fic i started when i was 14/15 is so funny bc im realizing once again why i never mark fics as abandoned even if its been literal years since i've touched them. specifically i was checking docs for stuff i started and either did or didn't post to ffn.

and its like. nothing is bad??? like i can see where my outside-the-box ideal of fic writing comes from. not just fics but writing in general, i'm p sure. even if it's a total cliche plot setup, there are details on each that rly make it stand out like oh yeahhhhhh i did have this great idea once upon a time.

funny too bc was it executed well in prose??? no absolutely not i wrote like shit when i was 15. would i revive an idea one day and revise it to be less cliche or cringy while still keeping the stand-out elements??? yea maybe. i might. everything i'm currently working on that i started from 2021 up to now still holds my supreme interest, but like i'm not gonna say never.

esp since i write fic first and foremost for my own need and specifically what i like to read, it makes it impossible to consider an idea i've thought extensively about "not worth writing anymore". anyway not making this too long i jus found everything interesting to consider

#writing #this fic i pulled up from JUNE 2014 crazy was the old chosenshi au i was trying to write for a friend #i dont ship blue/silver and never will and thats prolly why i never finished it #but i do still like!! the idea of rocket!blue raised w silver and breaking free of tr while running the hoenn branch #no idea how i remembered bc it wasnt in the plot pts on the doc but she was gonna get sent to the battle frontier #to nab jirachi and have encounters w frontier brains and change her mind at the end of it all #hell i could go back and not make it ship fic at all - have silver be a little one-sided obsessed or #even jus like.. attached to blue as a rivalry like as a way to show her up at every turn #another fic around the same time was the old pokespe hs au where i changed all the dexholder's names for some reason #i have no idea where i was in reading spe bc i put lyra in for some reason and had the sinnoh trio even tho i never read past v2 of dp #idk if it was more gameverse or what but its so funny looking @ the ship list n seeing i had gold paired w black #bc i had manga!ss and manga!ferriswheel so was it rly speverse or was i projecting???? #actually i think black was supposed to die and gold was gonna go thru this whole thing abt grieving #looking at the ship list so funny bc i never shipped gold/crys or entourageshi #and clearly i did not know the superiority of pmshi if i threw lyra in jus for silver #god but i do love (most!) of the alt names i gave them #would absolutely fuck up the ship list if i ever redid it tho #also have perfectworld tho im sure i have the most recent rewrite on pen and paper somewhere #that one i also gave up bc the idea i had for flare!sycamore was cringe along with #every time i went back to work on it enough time passed that i thought my writing sucked #i rewrote that damn thing so many times but oooooooo i still love the idea #as long as i changed the cringe parts to smth better i could still rock w most of these #that fic rly had everything... psychic!korrina. leaf/serena. sycamore hacking the secret to mega evo. lys/syc that ends in failure #bc of the ending line i will never forget > only in a perfect world could you and i be together. destined and doomed from the start #im rambling n im boutta run outta tags gimme a sec

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[wabblebees]

im like if the most useless boytoy twink was also an incredibly handy butch lesbian

#this post is about me collapsing as soon as i got home from work #where i used a garden hoe i sharpened myself to hack down+tear out a truly impressive thistle 3× my size while 3 of my coworkers watched #swung it overhead like an axe until the centre stalk (almost the size of my wrist) was felled. then hoed around it until the roots came free #& i could grab it with my hands where there werent any thorns. turned around and all 3 of em were lookin at me like 😳😳 lmao #but now im sitting in my bathtub bc i cant stand long enough to shower anymore hdksgsk #knew this morning it was a bad pain day but pushed thru it anyway bc!! there was work to do!! but now im gonna be totally useless for 24hrs #cest la vie i suppose #after the thistle was properly disposed of just kept tilling+weeding+fixin tomato cages in the fields. came home & felt sooo dykey+hot lmfao #was like ''fuck yeah man idk what was up with me this morning im feelin fine now! great even!'' #then took my knee braces off to get into the shower & almost busted my ass on the tile when both of em gave out🤦 #my shoulders are now reminding me that i Dont Have the muscle mass to use a bigass hoe like anything but a hoe w/out Paying For It later #its a good thing i have the day off tomorrow bc im going to turn into a slug as soon as im done steaming meself like a little dumpling #definitely thinkin about using my pathetic-wet-cat-charm to get someone to bring me food tonight tho... hmm #anyway. wheres that post #''im not a butch but i believe their beliefs'' #its my exectution thats lacking lmao. but in any case #mwah. mwah mwah mwah #<-for all the butches out there. ily tysm youre wonderful #and to all the useless boytoy twinks out there: o7 <3 #godspeed fellow hopeless fags. ily too. keep doin what yr doin lmao #bee speaks

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#so on the one hand im having A Lot of existential thought spiraling issues lately. like. idk if its ever been so bad in my life #in this particular manner or about these particular things. so for the first time in literally years therapy is on my mind. #but on the other hand i have a psychiatrist to help w the actual mechanics of my intrusive thoughts-- IS THIS NOT WHAT THE MEDS ARE FOR?-- #&i have so incredibly little interest in general therapy. what the fuck is a psychologist supposed to DO for me. #my existential crises are not unique but the circumstances surrounding them are specific&as per there are only a million reasons why #general therapy isnt only probably useless for me it can be potentially literally unsafe if im totally honest-- you know. #how therapy is supposed to be used to actually see results. #so my solution to this has been to read a bunch of fucking books on dialetical behavioral therapy&cognitive behavioral therapy lmao. #next up: acceptance&commitment therapy. #if i could hack my literal physical health hell will be freezing over before i give up on hacking my mental health too lmao. #**therapist. what the fuck is a therapist gonna do for me.

[misterbaritone]

Y’know if Guilty Gear, for whatever reason, decided to suddenly change genres (again), I wouldn’t mind seeing the series take a stab at being a Hack n Slash.

And I mean a proper hack n slash not that RTS/MOBA bullshit we got in Overture.

#that said what TYPE of hack n slash is up for debate #I would hate for it to be a God of War clone(because they suck) or a Musou type game(they suck even more) #a Bayonetta clone while fun wouldn’t be…. idk weighty enough? #like Platinum Hack n Slashes/Beat em ups aren’t mondo floaty or anything #and the witch time mechanic would make sense here since there could a in universe magical explanation for it #but there’s just SOMETHING about Bayo clones they just ain’t meshing with GG in my head… #on the other side of that coin I don’t think I’d want the game to feel TOO heavy like that Valkyrie Elysium game #piggybacking off of that; not entirely sure I’d want it to be a action RPG either. well I might but depends on who’s making it #guess that leaves the option of it being a Devil May Cry clone #which is surprisingly easy to imagine since Overture already has its own version of DMC’s lock on+directional input thing #however minuscule it is in Overture #plus DMC is probably the only hack n slash I know of that has air dashes and we all know Guilty Gear codified that shit in fighters so #it fits even better #guess let Itsuno give it a try #matter of fact didn’t Hideaki Itsuno help make the combat for that new Final Fantasy game? how was that? #a taste of that might help “fortify” my decision #or make me backtrack on it #in any event: Guilty Gear hack n slash wen Ishiwatari? #guilty gear #guilty gear 2 overture #devil may cry #platinum games #hack n slash #beat em up #fighting games #arc system works

[intomybubble]

I think i know what this person’s type is

#desiree talks #idk the pink one on the right end but #the rest are the younger/cuter looking ones and of the available LIs #i havent played all the games but from what i know #tokisada: religious; likes sweets; his hormones + catholic guilt results in him running when things start getting steamy #i swear to god when i checked his route out of curiosity he ran off like 3 times #YOU STARTED THE KISS WITH OLYMPIA YOU CANT KEEP DOING THIS #orlok is also religious and i think an assassin? i know he isnt a mob leader like the other LIs in his game #his only kiss cg is in his tragic ending so no good end kisses #noritsune is a hothead and likes a fair fight #his route is like that dude in mulan that fell for her before finding out she was a she #the last idk his name but hes In variable barricade and i think his a masochist puppy boy #i also tend to like the cuter LIs #but i also like the surprisingly bold types; the teasing flirts (asmo; helvetica; azuma); and like the (relatively) short grumpy ones #i remember at one point my favorite LIs were the cute smart green guys who hack and live in ‘america’ #luke - with en tears of themis could be in america #crow from bustafellows from a fake US city (alt NY) #and sasazuka from collarxmalice who lived in the US as a kid #the other green - though not a hacker but still smart - sasuke from ikemen sengoku

[bumpscosity]

This post was just literally just gonna be “god furby connects are annoying” but I ended up writing like a whole essay in the tags anyways stop burp fart shit humor in kids toys 2022

#i love pinky she’s so round and cute but by god I cannot keep him on for more than like 5 mins why are they like this #loved the Goodnight Bestie before he fell asleep like they really made them say goodnight bestie. #apparently the app had memes at some point that your furby would react to but it doesn’t work anymore 😔 #I’m gonna try hacking her with this fluffd thing it looks complicated but if I can #give her custom music to dance to it’s all worth it. shitty 2010s kids bop music here I come #sassy speaks #furby #i LOVE the idea of this physical toy reacting to content on your phone but it feels like it’s so bogged down by shitty games and the most #annoying voice in any electronic toy I own #and I own a lot of em. #there’s a way this could’ve been done right and still COULD but this isn’t it #i LOVE how their physically designed tho they’re a close second to 05s as the best furby design imo #don’t get me wrong I love 98s but the rounded shapes and these cool ears…. connects ftw #I’m also really surprised how WELL the Bluetooth works it’s seamless with the app it doesn’t lag or anything #her eyelids are broken unfortunately idk if they can be fixed #they’re stuck down permanently. when they’re supposed to be down they can’t be pushed back up #but when they’re supposed to be up they sorta loosely dangle down #oh another random thing is I rly don’t mind the tail as much as I thought I would design wise #i always thought the tails looked so bad on furbs but on connects it isn’t so bad #still hate it on booms and 2012s tho idk why #i love the antennae too I love the way it moves like a joystick #like I love that it actually does stuff and doesn’t just light up. quality feature. #i wish the feet lit up like the antennae tho why make them semi transparent if you’re not gonna shine light thru ‘em #something I’m VERY glad they carried over from 2012s and booms is their rounded bottoms #when you have them on a flat surface they move like CRAZY it’s so expressive #their bottoms aren’t AS round as 2012/booms but anything is something #i hope that they make a new gen of furbies like this or maybe even a new app for the connects and just. make them less annoying. #take out all the shit fart humor maybe not all of it but they do not need to be burping and farting every 10 seconds #I’m gonna make a post abt this in a second I’ll be back with more hot takes

[astrxealis]

wondering what game to play but hmm maybe! maybe i’ll just first play the dmc5 demo (properly, this time) :O bcs i Lov dmc (mostly characters and music) <3 also in preparation for ffxvi ... ?

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #listening to saudade from re2 while typing this LMFAO re is a series i'm scared to play and i've accepted i likely wont #unless i have friends watching me or there w me. i think theyd laugh at me screaming every second tbh #but YEAH. i have yet to play a dmc game tbh but i know stuff from the games and not just 5 and i lov vergil and dante (TWINS!!!!) #and nero is SO COOL. super in love w the music from 5. and devil trigger just came up on my spotify rn hell YEAH. #not the biggest fan of gameplay of games like dmc5 tbh but idk really. what kind of games i like now #considering i like gbf (gacha and uhh. you click stuff) ffxiv (you click stuff and move your character.... theres rotations and all btu #yeah basically that but it's really FUN) uhm. fe3h strategy octopath rpg ?? turn-based! nier is a mix of diff gameplays which is so cool #dmc is like. hack and slash iirc ?? #YO DEVIL TRIGGER IS SO GOOD. sorry i'm a nerd i llike analyzing music as well amongst a lot of other things #HOLY SHIT I COULD PLAY THE WITCHER 3! OKAY THAT WORKS. i lov ciri. and geralt. and yen. nd triss. #i love the show but i knew the game first but i never played it yet!!! rbut i love the witcher series a Lot #i might be cowardly though so... maybe nvm ...... i'll do whatever while waiting for lune to catch up again in automata T____T

[killmebythebeach]

So was anyone gonna tell me that s5 is so unbelievably sad or was I supposed to find that out myself.

#like obviously i knew itd be sad but im two episodes in and ive heard tim for the first time in 40 eps and sasha for 120 #and gerry. ze boi. i didnt even realize it was him till the comics. why does he read like a teen protag in a ghost hunting story. #the leitner jumpscare to. sir. half the people in the institute would kill you on sight please go back to the tunnels. #elias being weird at jons birthday for no reason. like. i swear he wasnt that strange before the pipe murder dropping stuff for no reason? #'i like to keep an EYE on these things' sir with all due respect (none) shut the fuck up?! #idk why but tim and sasha talking like that just makes me so sad. of course its understandable for them to be frustrated #but also its not jons fault jonah chose him cuz he was traumatized by a spider book :( id be angry if i was sasha though #its also funny cuz i thought tim/sasha was a pyre fandom thing. no. tim literally calls it a 'will they wont they'. hes like a sitcom #gurtrude recording that tape to sasha basically lmaoooo #and i saw someone point this out in the comments but. gertrude keeping the place messy might have killed people. #not having easy access to information that could have saved them. such as her tape. ough #one thing i missed about tim in s3 is the charm. of course he was angry at. everything but it was heartbreaking to see tim change #so the tapes really made me just yearn for the like. two times tim was there in s1. #also the fact sasha knew about tims brother. and martins application. and that tim knew too. #i never really understood the fandom 'expert hacker' sasha but i think i get it now #i cant even remember if she hacked anything in s1. feels like so long ago even though i havent even been listening for 2 months #on that note martin and jon are going over to kill elias woo! #martin: hey this house is evil we should butn it #jon: nah. theres a lot of evil #holy fuck i forgot how stupid these characters can be sometimes. like even if you think it wont wotk just try? hello? #sasha calling gertrude a bitch is giving me life. yeah. she sure was. idc what she did she put micheal in the distortion #but im still so just. distraught by how somber the tone is. even with the s1 crew goofing around its just so. oof. #the funny quippy s1 crew cutting off to jon trembling alone in a corner does wonders for the tone #martin really went: i found the tea lets get this bread #king shit honestly. go get that bread and kill elias and stop the apocolypse or somethung. idk the goal of the season yet #like s1 focused on prentiss. 2 on stranger. 3 on the unknowing and elias. 4 on extinction and peter. im excited to see what 5 is #i dont even think weve met her but gertrude mentioning agnes. mwah. love you baby. doing great. shouldve gotten a coffeshop au. #sigh. statement ends #the magnus archives spoilers #the magnus archives

[lapis-lazuliie]

gives myself silly little projects to do when i'm sick instead of. like. resting.

#that is a toxic trait of mine i need to be sat down and knocked on the head for that #bought a new desk last night and when it gets here i'm going to assemble it while hacking up a lung :) girl 💀 #i get BORED and TIRED of being sick my brain can't just be i have to do something or i will descend it's awful #how can people let themselves rest bro i have to build something or make something or idk give myself a thing to accomplish #brain wants to rearrange bookshelf oh my gOd. 💀 will i do it? idk but i am tEmpted #maybe tommy could fix me fr......😌👉🏼👈🏼 i would say yes to him. #u can all unfollow me it's okay #she speaks

[arthur-r]

guess who gets to have chipotle today

#it’s me!!!! the last time i had it was my birthday in april #and i keep asking if we could have it and the answer is always no and then. a couple weeks ago when i was at work #my dad and sister had chipotle without me. and that made me real sad #but today i get to have chipotle!!!! im so excited #chipotle and red robin are my two favorite restaurants not counting [redacted pizza restaurant] where i work #and i have a secret kids menu hack that gets me super cheap food at red robin but it’s expensive for the rest of my family #so we don’t go there often. chipotle on the other hand is still a special treat but it’s a more equal special treat #where everyone can feel like they’re getting their moneys worth and im always in the mood for it #and so im really glad we’re doing it today. i love chipotle so much #we’re just gonna go order takeout and then eat it at home but that’s better than sitting in the restaurant with lights and loud people #so this is the most ideal meal possible. my dad went a couple weeks not really feeding us anything but this is the second day this week #that we’re getting food as a family. i guess he’s doing that cause my mom and little sister are almost home so he’s making the most of the #last week. other things he’s taking advantage of being able to do: smoke weed cause he thinks i don’t know the smell so i won’t know #i do know i just don’t want to be confrontational about it. we’ve almost made it through this entire time with no fights and im really proud #so im not gonna mess it up calling him out on something like that. for vague context i live in a state where it is a crime. but i don’t #really care from that standpoint it’s just. idk i just wish that when he’s supposed to be a responsible adult he would keep his wits up #like. my mom told me once that when i was growing up she would smoke weed before she hung out with me and my sister so that she would be #in the right headspace. she would smoke weed so that she’d be more childish and fun to play with #which i guess i appreciate the goddamned effort but it didn’t work because as long as you still have power over somebody #any superficial idea of equality isn’t going to do anything. three year old me did not cry less when my mom got mad at me if she had been #high when she was taking care of me earlier. that is not how that works. so anyway i guess it’s a sore spot #he’s only smoked once the past couple weeks and now he is again today i could smell it when i went to the basement to do my laundry #and it’s just not a great vibe. hang on i heard the dryer song from far away im gonna go move my laundry #anyway this is actually a happy post because i get chipotle so um. sorry for all the weed talk i got distracted #drug cw #ok i’ll see you guys later i have to move my laundry and then im getting dinner!!!! very excited #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[ayakashibackstreet]

It's me, your boy, the one who's been helping people with IT stuff since the age of 12, on his bullshit again (his bullshit being helping people with IT stuff)

#my brain sees someone with a problem I could maybe potentially solve and short circuits #five minutes later I find myself being thanked for offering help #and arranging for a potentially incredibly infected and/or hacked laptop being brought into my house #(it could have also gotten stuck but it sounds like a RAT to me idk) #It's not even an empathy thing I barely have any empathy I don't know man #I guess I just like helping people?? I guess??? #EDIT: oh shit that laptop is a Macbook what have I gotten myself into #guess I'll give it a try I mean #worst case scenario I'll just say I couldn't do anything

[nival-kenival]

Ngl figuring out how to use Linux on my steam deck is giving me such amusement. And it looks so dumb with my ancient tiny tablet keyboard from 2016 plugged into it

#nahl no #idk why this makes me feel like i could hack things but it really does #i think its the hodgepodge of technology being brought together for weird activity #especially because i can make my phone my mouse? its just such a weird set up it makes me laugh