#but like. fuck man. im so fucking scared of everyone all the time. scared of them and for them

[garfunklefield]

HIII❤️can you write sukuna x reader with narcolepsy🙏

I’m Gon’ Talk You Thru It!

18+ viewer discretion is advised

Fem!reader/Ryomen Sukuna Warnings: established relationship, soft sukuna, consensual somnophilia, oral sex [female receiving], vaginal sex, creampie, this isn't realistic at all IM SORRY Word count: 1594 DESC: Your boyfriend battles your narcolepsy!

This was such a creative ask, thanks!!

The first time it happened, he genuinely thought you died. You’d think being in a committed two-month relationship would make you apt to tell your boyfriend you had narcolepsy, but it slipped your mind. Ryomen just sat there momentarily as you drifted to sleep, first thinking you were joking. Then he called your name, then again, then again. You didn’t wake up. He grabbed your shoulders and prepared to drag you to the ER himself when you let out a breath and began to snore. Oh. You didn’t die. Still, you confused and scared that man half to death. After doing one Google search he concluded everyone just falls asleep mid-sentence at some point in their life, right?

Once you did wake up though, you told him about it. You didn’t give him many details just, that you fall asleep sometimes and it’s tough to wake you from that kind of sleep. Sukuna didn’t have many questions, which brings us to the current picture. 

Your boyfriend was balls-deep in your wetness, sending mewls of pleasure from your opened mouth. He was pounding you with no sense of how rough he was, giving you all he had. It was hot and sticky. His cock clung to your walls, getting stuck from how you clenched around him. He fucked you good, but never like this. Something was different. Maybe it was that small little skirt you wore or that new perfume. But Ryomen couldn’t keep his hands off of you. He groaned into your ear, hips thrusting against your own. 

His hands were groping any part of you that he could grab, while yours were scratching against his back, “R-Ryo..” You whined, leaning your head back, “F-mm sh..shit.. F-fuck.. I’m gonna…” You dragged out the last syllable, bringing your face closer to his. He could see the pleasure building in your features and he loved pleasing you like that. He was the only one who could fuck you this good. 

You had met Ryomen Sukuna at college, he was on your track team. The two of you never spoke, until you were paired for a partner race. He was notorious for being loud and menacing, which he was. You tried to switch out with your coach, but he wouldn’t let you. So, you stuck it out. In doing so, you got to know him better and saw Ryomen wasn’t that scary, once you peeled some layers back. He was competitive, a fire lighting inside him when you won the last half of the race. His cheers were loud and they made you realize he wasn’t too bad. Maybe that’s why you gave him your number, and maybe you developed feelings. It was slow, but your relationship grew strong. 

The only thing was, in being with him for a few months, your narcolepsy had never interfered with your sex life. You were on medicine, so your fainting spells happened rarely. But today, you had been more tired than normal. You didn’t say no when Ryomen initiated, even when you started to feel one coming on. 

Your grip tightened on his shoulders, “I’m.. I..” But then your eyes rolled back and you laid limply against the bed. It took your boyfriend a moment to register you had fallen asleep, or more like passed out, underneath him. 

He slowed his thrusts to a stop and slowly leaned back, resting on his knees, dick deep inside your pussy, “Hm.” The man just sat there for a moment, debating exactly what the hell to do. 

You had told him what to do in case this had ever happened, but he wasn’t sure. Yeah, he was a scary big man, but he wouldn’t go past your boundaries. Typically, he’d ask before ever laying a finger on your lovely form, that’s why consensual somnophilia took him a second to get adjusted to. You told him it was okay, in fact, you encouraged it. He had your word it would be okay, but he still hesitated. It took Ryomen another minute of debating before he sighed and got back into position, laying his front against you and thrusting into your pussy. Still wet, aching for him. You were tight, clenching around his cock as he slowly pushed himself in. Warm, sticky, perfect. He let out an involuntary moan and ground his hips to the sensation of your cunt swallowing him whole. 

“F-fuck,” he whispered, “Mm..” His voice was gruff against the squelches from your pussy. You lay there, mouth slightly open as he fucked into you. You looked so pretty and helpless, lying there without moving. Ryomen trailed his right hand up to your cheek, cupping it gently. He was never the type to be vulnerable, or even gentle, especially when it came to sex. But, the way you just took it, laid there, it elicited something deep within him. A fire, something burning in his stomach. Your back arched to the sensation as he hit your pretty G-spot. He knew how to fuck you so well, making your body react without you even being aware. 

Defenseless. Helpless. That’s what you were in that moment. And Ryomen had never felt more connected to you. Something about feeling you, holding you close, making you pleasured even when you were unconscious, it was hot. He could feel your body reacting, almost in a primal and instinctual way. That’s what was beginning to send him over the edge. His jaw clenched, teeth grinding as he began to feel himself fall apart. You didn’t wake up, not even when he came into you, thrusting in spurts of cum from his tip. You moaned, mouth opening to make a small O-shape before it closed and you let out a small snore. 

Sukuna continued to push into you, longing his orgasm as much as he possibly could. Once it was done, and all he could do was feel a tickling sensitivity down his shaft, he pulled out. You were still asleep. One part of him was offended he didn’t fuck you good enough that you’d wake up, but the other was thrilled. He could continue to do things to your body until you woke, maybe even mid-orgasm if he was good enough. He liked that control, being able to touch you in any way he wanted. However, he only stayed within the bounds of what you two had agreed on. 

Your boyfriend pulled out, groaning at the sensation. Typically, he’d wait and let his cum seep out of your tight hole, then eat you out. But the fire was still burning hot. Besides, he didn’t mind the taste of his cum. Ryomen knelt, face to face with your pretty pussy. One hand hovered over your clit, while the other spread apart your folds. His mouth connected with your cunt and he could taste himself on his cum. It seeped into his mouth and rolled along his tongue, his tongue that flicked around your cunt. You inhaled sharply and groaned softly, moving your hips to the sensation. Unsuspecting and totally aroused. 

One of his fingers lightly rubbed on your clitoris, making your moans louder. You were being so good for him, it was making him strain against the bed. His hips started to rut into the mattress, giving Sukuna some sort of stimulation. Your gasps and light whines were doing things to him that they hadn’t done before. Maybe it was the fact you couldn’t control how your body reacted to the pleasure, or the fact it was his pleasure that was making you sound so cute. Either way, he could tell you were becoming close. Your breaths got quicker, your moans louder, and your hips ground harder. 

“Ry..Ryom..” You suddenly spoke, causing him to tilt his head to look at him. Your eyes were hazy, sleep-riddled, and your smile was lazy, “Aw.. b-baby..” You cooed, a small hand running through his hair. He could have melted right there, you were so pretty, even with messy hair. He pulled back from your cunt and assaulted his lips with yours. You gasped and caved into the kiss, wrapping arms around his neck to press him in against you. Two tongues collided, followed by some teeth. Saliva pooled at the corners of your mouths as he licked into you. Needing you. Wanting you so bad it was starting to hurt. 

“Let me,” he broke away from the kiss, “Put it in..” Sukuna’s voice was gruff and low, spilling into your ears like honey. You nodded, pulling his lips back in. It felt so good as they molded against each other, breaking apart for air and then delving right back in. His rough hand slid down your front and grabbed his swollen dick, pressing the tip to your throbbing pussy. You wanted to cum so much and on his dick. You were teased, poked, and prodded, aching for release.

Ryomen thrust into you, causing a whimper to escape your lips, “Pe..perfect,” you gaped, trying not to make too much noise. It felt so good, how his big log rubbed against your insides and made your tummy bulge. 

Even if it had just been a few months, you loved him and he loved you. Although, you hadn’t said it yet. Would now be a good time to say it? Ryomen was really debating it as he buried his cock into your warmth. But the seconds slipped into minutes and he didn’t say a word, letting the room be filled by your pathetic moans. 

You two really needed to do this more often.

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[b4kuch1n]

OOOUGGHAAAAAAA I DID IT I MANAGED TO DO INK WITH A DIP PEN

NEXT COMICS MEDIUM IS FUCKING SETTLED. YUUTO YOU WILL BE FED

#bakuspeech #hi I am Fucking Excite #litcherally. the last time I tried using any kind of dip pen it was a bamboo calligraphy pen #and I was. 18. the previous time I was 15 and even worse at it than then #fully went into this attempt already accepting I will probably be maybe marginally better #but!! it was pretty fun I did much okayer than expected!!!! #I need to be more confident with the pen but I can do that. I just need to do this a Lot #but like. I was Really scared. I didn't remember how a dip pen behaves at All #I tried freehanding some stuff before but it really is very different from a fineliner #half relieved my 200k vnd wont go to waste lmao. man. I was ready to bruteforce it #but I wont have to!!! as long as I have a decent concrete sketch!! itll be alright!!!! #yuuto origin comic is a fucking go. I WILL do this. mom I AM going to be a mangaka #well. a doujinka perhaps #dgsjdjjs sorry Im just. this is 13yo baku's unattainable dream!! part of why I #turned to wholesale digital art and eventually brush inking was because dip pens were #deeply scary and messy to me back then. I got ink Everywhere #now I didnt even make a spare fleck on this one!!! I can do it now!!!! dreams do fucking come true!!!!!! #literally bringing this piece of scrap around showing everyone like a kid who got perfect score on a test lmao #Im just. Im happy guys. Im so!!! auuughghhhh #I'll practice more tonite. I will Get Better At This. I will scribble a bunch more of yuuto #to get used to the style. I need a buncha outfit refs anyway #have a good day!! holds u hand everything is possible. try something u didnt have the chance to be good at as a kid again #life is fucking good sometimes!!!!!

[nyxi-pixie]

i dont trust a bitch that hates ronance

like wdym u like stedd1e(<3) or god forbid fucking h4rr1ngr0ve(😒) but you dont like ronance🤨🤨🤨🤨

like if u dnt ship it bc ur rooting for robin and vickie or ur a super yay jxncy person or smt sure whatever. but if u HATE ronance??? i do not trust you.

#anyone thats 100% insistent and totally sure that nance is straight gets my side eye tbh #bc like did u listen to murrays lil expose on her💀 'ur scared to be urself and instead rely on safety of conventional man' #yeahhh not queer coded at all #when we talk abt how mlm ships need 100x as much evidence as straight ships to be considered plausible??? #yeah that but x10000000 for wlw ones jfc #like steve can have a male friend that says hes got nice abs or smthn and everyones WOOF WOOF BARK GRR GAY PEOPLE!!! #sure okay have fun besties #but nancy is like 🥰robin ik i wanted nothing to do w u 5 seconds ago but ive actually decided ur my fav person🥰 #🥰we are gonna spend the rest of our time on this world saving mission glued together ok🥰 #anyway. do i believe it has any shot at endgame?? no! #but i do not like the way that people are like st3ddie<333❗❗❗ (i love it too dont get me wrong fruity four my loves) #and then totally ignore ronance. or worse. see them as side characters 💀 #i have so many thoughts on this but just. im usually a defender of why fandoms fixate on mlm ships bc women tend to have less development #(im a byler first. bc theyre the most obviously romantically coded in a Oh this one has Actual Potential way) #but robin and nancy are fairly well rounded characters. and they interact a fuck ton in s4. so. usual defenses are a no go #and now im ready to sword fight the haters #ronance #this is incomprehensible #but im right #only censoring ship names so i dnt end up in their tags i love stedd1e and jxncy dw

[luigis-mogai-mansion]

Im so fucking tired of allistic people man...

They always present like 2 choices for you and go on for days about how they understand either choice, they won't judge you no matter what you pick and how they'll be fine regardless then act all disappointed and whiney when you make that choice and they didn't get the answer they wanted.

I'm sorry, how was I supposed to know that was the wrong choice™️. If you wanted me to do something why didn't you say it. I don't care about all your little social shit, be honest with me. I didn't choose based on your wants when I don't know what you want. I made the "selfish" choice despite everyone around me saying they supported my decision and totally understood. Then I'm the bad guy. For making a choice. That I was assured over and over again that I wasn't going to be judged for.... I'm so tired of this... I'm so tired of allistic people setting these fucking landmines for me. Like they enjoy my suffering. I always get fucking burned in these situations. I can either just do what I think they want with varying response or I can be honest and unmask and do what I think is best for me then they all collectively sigh and look away like Im the disappointment...

If it's not truly safe, don't fucking tell me I'm safe. If I truely won't be judged, don't judge me. If I can't safely unmask, don't tell me to be myself and make my own choices. Even allistic people who had no fucking skin in this game judged me. I chose the option that was best for me and now I'm the villain. Again. Fuck allistic people man, fuck those wishy-washy judgey ass people.

#clover speaks #clover vents #its ok they said just do whats best for you they said #and my dumbass was just like yeah sure 😚 and now im looked at like a monster for taking a choice they gave me #and encouraged me to take! ill support you no matter what my ass #it makes me feel so fucking unsafe in my chocies like a fucking saw trap #its always multiple choice questions and nothinge ever seems like the right choice #they are always wrong and everyone always despises me abit afterwards #even when i know i didnt do anything wrong i didnt hurt anyone and i made a chocie for me #its all supports and i love yous and its oks up until the tism comes back out and i get the cold shoulder #i get the look aways and the silence #they know they are hurting me and they dont care about the betrayal i feel over being basically lied to #i know its your choice but i felt like- ok then why didnt you say anything BEFORE I MADE THE CHOICE #FUCK ALLISTIC PEOPLE IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THEIR QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS GAMES THAT MAKE ME LOOK HORRIBLE FOR NO REASON #IM SORRY I DIDNT READ YOUR EXPRESSION ITS ALMOST LIKE I HAVE A MODERATE MENTAL DISABILITY THAT PREVENTS ME FROM RWADING EXPRESSIONS #i just wanna say or do something right and they always judge me no matter what #im never safe around these people because everything is always watched and judged according to their morals and what they would choose #as if their morals are superior to mine because they are fine with throwing themselves at trains over nothing and im kot #fuck allistic people man #im so stupid for believing them and thinking this time ill be safe... #im never safe i will never be safe #im always so scared of looking like a stone faced unfeeling monster who dosent love anyone or anything and they always make me into it #no matter what i do or how much i try to express it #i feel things i love people im not a robot #this hurts so much... #sorry for the total lack of context but you dont need any #i dont want or need any more allistic judgement

[bigothteddies]

forever thinking about the one smut story I read years ago that had incredible world building for this werewolf pack of men in a normal setting and detailed more about relationship dynamics and emotions than anything to do with sex

#unimportant thoughts #it wasnt what i was looking for at the time #but every time i think of it im like #damn. that was an incredible read. #this poor dude getting with his first girl since becoming a werewolf #having to talk to all his new packmates about how sex works now and how he was scared of hurting her #all his packbuddies explaining to him how it works and taking care of their new member #his pack leader being so fucking caring #like #goddamn #i wish i had friends like that! #i wish i had a big werewolf knotted cock too!!! #god I’m obsessed with his transformation story too #he was just playing pick up backetball with some random guys one day and one of them scratched him and drew blood #and all of the sudden everyone playing with him circled around him and got worried #and the pack leader was like ‘I’m so sorry man….you have no idea what this means for your life now’ #and them adopting him into their pack because its their fault hes one of them now <3 #SO FUCKING CUTE #god somone please turn me into a werewolf #i would die for some amazing platonic cis male friends and a fat knotted cock

[borderlinegerard]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

#personal #my posts #so fucking tired oh my god #just yelled at my sister so loud that my throat is sore over a piece of fuciing plastic #sometimes ecerytbinf feels so bad and its like. what do i even do #like ok i relapse and i need a break from someone and they loose their fucking shit on me #taljing about how you always deal with my shit and youre tired of how i see you as the worst in the group #as if i didnt literally repeat to you over and over again that i love you and that i always will even when you kept denying it #all of the times youve left all the servers and the gc and all that and i was there to comfort you #theres a reason im always the person you go to #byt yeah . im neverrrr there for you #like is it just that im not there for you in the Same Way that youre there forme ?? #does it need to be completely equal to be fair #and idk. i know hes struggling too but its so fucking stupid because ive been struggling for months and i dont treat u like tjat #im tired of feeling like i have to do two times more than everyone else ro be worthy of their love #like sorry man but im fucking sick and tired #i know ill be fine without you but like youre so sick right now that i dont know what youll do without all of us #idk im just like. you used to be so kind but now youre writing your name in mu blood #and sometimes i feel bad because i didnt mean evedytbinf i said to you but lets be honest #you didnt mean everyrbinf you said either #and i dont know if you were ever the right person because a lot of the time i think we are just two chemicals that werent meant to mix #but ill always remember you when i hear that one song and im making it sound like this is some kind if goodbye but it Really isnt #but like there was a time when i would tear myself apart for you. mot even because i liked you that much #i guess i just wanted someone that liked me as much as you did??? #and when j say that it isnt even about one soecific oerson. its an amalgamation of ecery person tgat has ever loved me #a little more than they were supposed to #i think i hate ahen people love me Too Much because i dont want to be adored like that it scares me #iknow what thats like and i dont want to be someone fp Its so scary #okay if im being honest i dont know whbat the fuck im saying right mow #byt like. idk. im tired and i think im done. tbh

[elegyofthemoon]

most embarrassing moment is when my friend describes me from their perspective

#I JUST SOUND LIKE A SCARED CAT ALL THE TIME FROM HIS PERSPECTIVE DAMN LMAOOOO #he was explaining like 'dude when we crossed paths u were just out of sight out of mind w everyone' #AND THEN HE WAS LIKE 'dude i saw when u were throwing ur trash out u like hesitated before giving a weak throw and running off' #BRO THAT IS SO EMBARRASSING DONT SAY THAT LMAO #anyways that was the price i paid for using him as a meatshield against The Rats here JGBDJDJDNS #friends tag #man what the fuck jgjdjdjdjs #like ok i get it bc i dont like being in peoples ways bUT THE TRASH THING IS WHAT GOT ME JFHDJDJD #'u were just in ur pjs and ran off' oKAY BRO MIND YOUR BUSINESS IM SCARED OF EXISTING LMAO #orz ahhhhhh #snow speaks #i mean thats. honestly fair #i think i talk too much here bc i just fixate and talk about That stuff #if u meet me irl im sooooo awkward and quiet bc im just Scared of everything sjfndjdksd #IT WAS A GOOD DAY THO we went to get groceries together and got tea :]

[fleshdyke]

me currently ^

#(csa warning for tags) #jeeesus i am so done with everything. its not wven that bad i dont know why i’m as upset as i am #school is just fucking hell the past couple days for some reason. even though we literally just had march break. idk. the cycle is really #hitting me hard lately i guess #and my fucking anxiety is coming back like i swear to god everyone is staring at me and laughing and i know it’s not true but jfc it feels #like it. it hasn’t been this bad since before my diagnosis #and i’m absolutely convinced my friends fucking hate me and we’ve kicked ppl out of our friend group before (they were racist and #transphobic) and im so fucking scared it’ll happen to me #and i know it’s a completely unfounded fear but oh my god its fucking paralyzing #and i feel like im seven again and completely and utterly alone and im so so so scared of it happening again #im so fucking scared of being alone. i just want someone to talk to #and like the reason i’m spiralling isn’t even important. it’s literally bc some of my friends have stopped eating lunch with me #like it’s so fucking stupid but i can’t get over it #and two of them don’t bc they got imto relationships and im happy for them and i know its not expected or anything to get into one in hs #like logically i know that and i tell myself that all the time but godddd it doesnt stop me from feeling like im fucking broken all the time #literally not a single person has ever seen me as anything other than a friend. and im not even fully convinced abt that. #like. why does everyone have experiences with ppl liking them and not a single person ever has liked me #like what the fuck is so wrong with me that no one will ever love me #literally the only fucking person who has ever wanted me. EVER. was a grown fucking man that raped me as a child #and i cant even fucking remember it. I CANT REMEMBER WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE WANTED #and i know its some sick twisted way to look at it. like this grown fucking man raped me when i was younger than 8 and all i can think about #is how that was the only time anyone’s ever wanted me #and like i don’t even actually WANT anything. i just want someone to like me. i want someone to like me so fucking bad #the scariest part abt it is that i want it to fucking happen again because i just want to be wanted #i’m absolutely fucking terrified of never being wanted. ever. it’s the scariest shit in the world to me #bc as far as my life has been it’s been true. all my childhood bullies have been fucking right #the only time i have ever been desirable was when i was younger than 8. now people literally fucking gag when they look at me #and i dont fucking know what to do #rambles #vent

[semercury]

.

#stuff sarah says #i think the problem is that im me #i somehow think it would be different if i was anyone else #not that im uniquely horrible or anything (i am tho. am i? i am not. i am?) but just that i have so little to offer #anyone else is allowed to do whatever they want within reason #but somehow im limited #and i just hate it! and i hate myself even more for it!!! #i bet if i just sucked it up and did the things i wanted things would be fine #but theres that what if. what if theyre not fine. what if something bad happens and it was indirectly my fault? #maybe i spoke too soon when i said i was fine without therapy #its been a while since i rawdogged life #and tbh im still medicated. so theres actually still a buffer. this isnt even as bad as i could be!! #i just. want to withdraw from everyone except like 3 people and my family #bc i think those 3 people are okay enough with me that theyd support me in my endeavors #and maybe thats shitty of me to say and want to do #but like. fuck man. im so fucking scared of everyone all the time. scared of them and for them #i think i need yo be prescribed 3 months by the sea #or a lobotomy #one of the two idk #i just dont want to be me. i hate her. #i hate that she has to worry about everything all the time #but someone has to. #might as well be me

[mayonakano-archive]

love when my dad talks to me about Adult Things and Uni like yeah i know nothing about my senior shit nor the colleges i'm applying to, nor have i done anything we discussed when i turned 18 a month ago. peace and love <3

#leoposting #vent in tags #kinda??? w/ever #no wonder i am stressed 24/7 like ghughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #college makes me wanna sob when i think about it and i am. incapable of functioning :) #i struggle doing things on my own. doubly so when they're stress-inducing #and man if college ISN'T. #all the schools i'm applying to are tech schools minus one yet i'm here like 'maybe i'll just study accounting :)' like #im dogshit at the sciences and mathematics and languages AND programming #i can barely do basic math at times it fucking SUCKS. my only skill is knowing a bunch about random crap while knowing nothing at all #and well. i can put PCs together? idk #i'm kind of a useless person and i wish everyone else would see it. what am i good for really? #what good is someone who can barely function on their own? who barely has the energy do to anything? #who is in pain more often than not despite waving it off 99% of the time? who barely feels they can keep up with /school/ #much less a job? i'm fucking useless man. #i'm terrified of working and i'm terrified of uni and i'm just. scared. all the fucking time. but like hell that i'm gonna admit it #yeah yeah i have a vent sideblog but sometimes i want attention

[emodennis]

the problem with trying to treat my acne is that i am not willing to change anything about the way i live my life

#seeing a dermatologist for the first time on friday #terrified she's gonna come for my diet #like sry but im not gonna stop eating my sugary and fatty foods at night #so scared shes gonna b fatphobic ab it :/ #like nothing has changed that i can think of. sigh. #somehow i got acne 6 months after STOPPING testosterone #and my mom makes comments and is all like 'do whatever it takes to get it treated' #like fuck man i wish the way i looked wasnt so important to everyone #phoenix talks

[our-inspire-verse]

Mr. Kitty save me.

Mr. Kitty

Save me Mr. Kitty

#ohhhh man im in my fucking feels rn #music helps but sometimes its literally just like “oh fuck man im mentally ill” omg this song is so me #thats all I hear from them is that general “i am VERY unwell” feel. which is so me rn like. god damn #all that buildup of self hate regrets flashbacks and other shit. forcing myself to do well and eat every day and fucking actually sleep and #all that shit. its so fucked like. the better i do the worse i react afterwards like im on a kick rn that i should delete everyone and like. #isolate myself completely and let it all take over. i know im starting to enter that final trial of “are you sure you'd rather heal?” and my #brain is testing me but im so scared im gonna fail. like ono im gonna choose to get worse i can just feel it. #and its not the average worse before it gets better i think im just gonna suck bad balls for a minute there. im so scared all the time #system babbles #im scared im not gonna love myself enough to stay as safe as ive been. im very afraid. #inthrum #im actually so scared its like not even funny and nothing comforts me rn

[ajdrawshq]

you love them...... 0(-(

#today you're happy . #oh boy i gotta run thru the whole house this way. time to 100% this shit i guess #unless i can loop forward . hopefully #woageoahwoahwoah woah. hey. siffrin my buddy???????? are u good. holy shit dude #WOAH. okay. thats. hm. YOUR ATTACK LOWERED? #theyre literally nerfing themself so they dont scare the shit out of everyone. well #SADNESS WILL FLEE FROM YOU. OK #things are gettin weird today #ooo his title changed.. when did that happen.. #HEY !! ANOTHER SIFFRIN AGAIN. is spacetime getting fucked over by all these loops. not that ive had too many.... this is loop 20-something #oh. oopsie. looked at too many things and Odile is onto me. uh oh #surely that wont come back to get me later right. right #that is actually a bit scary tho. tbh #oh shit bonnie WAS listening to that conversation huh #man it would suck if i lost this loop. but i dont think i could stomach doing that on purpose lmao #it would also be hilarious if i died to pineapple right now. which im assuming is a thing bc of Loops warning earlier #omg i love bonnies interactions when theyre not being mean to sif theyre so silly #why is everyone treating him like a puppy today.. except for odile . who is still suspicious. #even if she figures it out somehow i dont know how she'll like. bring it to light? or do anything abt it?? #will she react badly to it at all ???? i mean its Weird but half of the evidence shows that sif did it to help more than anything #tho she could draw different conclusions.. #isat #isat spoilers #'you feel happy???' 'even though youre not friends.' hey dont do that.

[sleepyjim]

first night without taking benadryl to sleep and Uh its bad again what the fuck man context and also giant rant in da tags

#basically for several weeks before leo benadryl era(tm) i could not sleep at all for many days at a time i was just Not Tired At All #and my sleep schedule was so fucked up and bad and terrible i would sleep for a whole day then go many days without sleeping over and over #And It was Bad so like last week i got sick of it and took like a billion shots of benadryl juice(tm) and Slept and it waswonderful #so ive been doing that every night since then and ive gone to sleep at 10 and woken up at 8 every day and world was so beautiful forever #cept like four days into leo benadryl era i figured i had gotten into a routine so i Did Not take anything that night and #didn't feel tired. At All . ruined everything for a whole day #so i continued #but now we're out of benadryl cause ive drank it all #and im not allowed to buy it myself cause its a drug #and i cant tell my mom cause she doesnt understand #and im like . Stuck Now lmao i really really dont want everything to suck again i was doing so well this past couple days #its 2 am an im not even sleepy and if i dont sleep tonight then i will during the day and then everything will get fucked up bad again #idk!!!!!! #i dont know what to do man #i think i either got like too uh relying on the benadryl maybe or perhaps theres Sonething Wrong With Me #while we were in the RV i was scared for like a day thatmy body just straight up forgor how to sleep #and idk if that's actually possible but . :/ #i have to go to a thing with my mom tomorrow too so im sposed to get up along with everyone .at like 6 in the morning and so i have #like 3 or 4 hours to sleep and im so Eugh man cause thats like a third of the amount of time a sleep i need to function #i am suffering !! #i cant even sleep if i tried tho Fuck my baka life forever #anyways #text #jason rambles

[munch-mumbles]

trans people working retail should be allowed to tell one customer a day to ***

#i had a guy earlier ask me about the pronouns on my nametag before going youre joking right? like ok. fuck you man #im mad that it genuinely ruined my day and really hurt me tbh. like i know the best bet is to just let it roll off of you #but its not the first time someones said something bitchy about it and it wont be the last #like thanks for reminding me i dont pass at all thanks for reminding me why i literally loathe loathe despise my voice #whatever (teary eyed) #at least my coworker showed some sympathy but a lot of other people i work with have started misgendering me again recently #which is probably why im extra sensitive about it because man i dont have the energy to keep correcting everyone #especially when who AM i kidding i dont fucking pass #goddamnit. first cry of 2023 #not looking for anyone to talk to about it anymore by the way i just had to get it out of me after seething all day #i wish it was as easy as oh just go on testosterone #which i do want. really fucking badly. but i have worsening phobias with needles/bloodwork and my parents dont want me on it #so im scared theyll yank my health insurance out from under me which i cant afford rn #whatever. (still teary eyed)

[coypurat]

#i hate when it hits me that im on borrowed time #like im dicking around with a part time job when my mom wants me to move out and the only reason she hasnt kicked me out #is bc im dragging my feet on getting into a morticians school #i dont fucking want to work full time i dont want to spend 40+ hours a week in some job that i fucking hate #im so fucking scared of locking myself into a job that im not going to enjoy #like i feel like such a whiny kid rn complaining about working a full time job when everyone else does but like #the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach #i skipped my meds last night and woke up like man i have got to be sad about everything ever!!!! #also fuck the us and all the shit surrounding people trying to block trans healthcare im so fucking sick of feeling like a criminal