#this is incomprehensible

[itsjustelian]

BEEFLEAF THOUGHT (Mainly He Xuan thought but fuck it he's intertwined with Shi Qingxuan and therefore all He Xuan thoughts are beefleaf thoughts)

So so so, in my readings of tgcf and the wonderful mess that is all of the internet thoughts on it I've come to the personal conclusion that to become a supreme you have to have *big* feelings. Very big and very deep feelings.

Our big-brained, obvious example of this is Hua Cheng. Man's big feeling is devotion, love. He is absolutely besotted for Xie Lian. Would do anything for his God. We're so proud of him for it too.

But He Xuan? He's the only other real supreme we have aside from Hua Cheng (Jun Wu, I'm sorry, you're wonderful but Godhood fucks with a man) and the idea that his big feeling that turned him into a supreme was rage and hatred never sat quite right with me. It's not that hatred and rage aren't powerful enough emotions to make a supreme, and those being his emotions on the surface make him a wonderful parallel to Hua Cheng. But rage isn't really what fuels him. If it was, he'd have dissipated after the Blackwater arc. Taken his revenge and called it a day.

Yet, he sticks around. He *never* dissipates. He just sits at the bottom of the ocean for all eternity. Which doesn't sound like rage or hatred. I mean, you'd assume a calamity built on hate would continue his revenge path until all of heaven is gone and no one can have godhood because he couldn't. But he doesn't. He just... waits.

This isn't to say he wasn't angry, btw. He was absolutely angry, and he had every right to be. His desire for revenge had to come from somewhere, let alone the emotional payment to actually planning and pulling it off. I just don't think that was his greatest regret/feeling/desire at death. I mean, He Xuan had his whole life taken from him. All of it. His family, his fiancee, his passions, his work. Everything he worked towards and for got stolen from him by others. And while it's clearly very rage inducing for him (I mean he has a mental breakdown and kills everyone who's ever wronged him), the underlying feeling through it all was probably despair. He probably just wanted things to go back to how they were when his whole family was around and alive.

And this despair and longing doesn't just go away when he learns the truth of what's been done to him. He's still a person. He can't just throw away those emotions because new ones have taken center stage. But rage is a way easier feeling to work with than misery, so He Xuan defers to it. He jumps on the bandwagon of revenge against the people who wronged him once again and goes with it. And it gets him through Mt. Tonglu and up into heaven and right where he says he wants to be. Right up until he can execute his revenge. And then he just stops? And decides that he's going to be best friends with Shi Qingxuan for a few hundred years first? I'm no rage expert, but that doesn't sound very revenge like to me. Which leads very neatly into the point of this post, took me a while I know.

He Xuan's reason for sticking around is he wants to be loved.

I mean, look at it. He says he hates Shi Qingxuan's guts and wants him and his brother dead more than anything, but also spends hundreds of years hanging out with this person he hates so much when revenge is right there? He could have done it whenever. There was no logical reason I could wait to wait as long as he did. Unless he was enjoying Shi Qingxuan's companionship. And Shi Qingxuan clearly loved him (even just platonically. We love our friends in this house). And He Xuan hadn't had someone care about him that much since his death. It was probably insanely overwhelming and equally as wonderful.

And then he fucks it all by actually going through with the revenge but feelings are hard and he's clearly not great with them so oops. But but but, his great famous line during the Blackwater Arc is him telling Shi Qingxuan that they've used the wrong name. He, even if it's just subconsciously, wants Shi Qingxuan to see him as He Xuan, not Ming Yi. He, in some capacity, wants Shi Qingxuan to see and love He Xuan, not the mask he had on.

But then, after the revenge, he doesn't disappear. He straight up goes out of his way to return Shi Qingxuan's fan to them. To make something right. To return something to how it was before.

Except this time, he can't blame the people around him for the change. He can't turn his rage at the rest of the world because he's the one who ruined the only thing he wanted for himself. So he finally, *finally*, has to face this sadness and longing that's been plaguing him from the start. He got his revenge, he got all the anger out, and it still wasn't what he wanted. Because from the beginning, all he wanted was to be appreciated and loved and wanted and not have that torn away from him.

And he fucked it for himself in the end because lets be honest if he had a civil fucking conversation with Shi Qingxuan and didn't literally threaten their brothers life things would have gone SO MUCH BETTER.

Anyway, I'm crying now. If you read through my jumbled 2 AM thoughts all the way, thank you. I will edit this when it's not 3 am. and post it.

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Editing me: wtf was I on? I don't remember half of these thoughts??? I'm posting it because somewhere in this hot mess is a point I'm trying to make, and I'm not going to deny 2 AM Elian the chance to share it.

#theory #tgcf #tgcf thoughts #tgcf theory #beefleaf #he xuan #shi qingxuan #long post #this is incomprehensible

[bisexualisaaclahey]

everytime i rewatch the "no i mean you. i don't want you to get hurt" scene i lose it a little bit. the eye contact. the face isaac is making. the earnestness in scott's voice. the face isaac is making. the way the camera follows isaac as he watches scott leave. the face isaac is

#this is incomprehensible #but like. holds them SO GENTLY. I LOVE THEM #scisaac #scott mccall #isaac lahey #teen wolf #mtv teen wolf #gay ppl were invented on that night #raving the episode that you are

[goingtothebes]

“you better not be fourteen songs about seven people, two houses, a motorcycle, and a locked treatment facility for adolescent boys when I get back”

me fr:

#the mountain goats #it posts #this is incomprehensible #and stupid

[caddied]

spiderbit memory loss indunced marriage in pride month love wins

#this is incomprehensible #qsmp

[fia78]

Okay, so one of the saddest lines to me in the entirety of season 1, is when Glenn sees Nick being scared of Spider-Henry when they try to escape the Meth Bey supermax. He says like "Oh, so some things are still the same." and it is not really explored, but like... IMAGINE that you give up your kid, he's not even your kid anymore, in the eyes of EVERYONE, even the universe itsself, execpt for three other people, that is not your son. And he is the opposite of how he was when he was your kid, dresses like your worst nightmare and now doesn't like you for all the same reasons he used to love you.

Like, I know that was objectivly the funniest thing, for Nick to become Narcolas, but in actuality? When both Glenn and Nick describe each other as their best friend? That must have hurt so fucking bad. AND THEN!! THEN, you see a blast into the life you used to have, that you on some level know was years ago, that you knowingly chose to give up to spare your child more trauma, and you know that some thing ARE STILL THE SAME. That some parts of your child are the same, no matter what timeline you're in, seeing these things, knowing them so well, and not being able to do anything about it, or even talking to him about it, 'cause he does not like you/despieses you. Like FUCK.

Anthony was Fucking Brutal when it came to the choices in the trial and although it was probably the best thing for Nick, getting two parents instead of none, it must hurt so much that he doesn't know at first, but in some ways he still is the same.

#this is incomprehensible #whatever #it's such a small line #but it is something that can be so personal- #dungeons and daddies #glenn close #dndads #dndads s1 #dndaddies #nick close #nick foster

[angstydiaz]

maybe the basketball court can be our couch-

#this is incomprehensible #i make no apologies #buddie #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #evan buckley

[natjennie]

okay not to be all "never beating the makes everything into hadestown allegations" but. the captain attending that veteran's event was him looking back. but then instead of havers being condemned to the world of the dead, he was stuck in the world of the living. the captain had to look back. he had to check, he had to know. and because of that they lost everything they could have had. but he knew. he had nebulous knowledge that havers was alive presumably, the war was over, he could have continued living, looking forward and getting them both out of the situation alive. he could've gotten some contact information from somewhere he could've waited outside the gates he could've he could've he could've. but of course he didn't. he looked back. just as havers looked back from the gate as he waved goodbye. he looked back, and it killed him.

#is anyone listening!!!!!!!!!!!!! #its interesting bc throughout the show we have a very ghost-centric point of view #so the afterlife sort of becomes just normal life #and to them- the further they get from their life- the more the living world feels strange #so you can kind of graft life onto ghost-hood and death onto the living world #i go back and forth all the time about who is who in a capvers/hadestown thing #and i do ultimately think cap is eurydice. #but this was his looking back #bbc ghosts #this is incomprehensible #capvers

[prodigalhound]

weak and fickle boingo fans (boingo ‘94 haters) when a real boingohead (obsessed to the point of insanity w the entire discography) comes at them

#oingo boingo #danny elfman #this is incomprehensible

[moreclaypigeons]

hey don't cry. Ten million gonna make it through this year if it kills me's, alright?

#sierra speaks #this is incomprehensible #<3 #tmg #the mountain goats #mountain goats #i am gonna make it through this year if it kills me

[the-laws-of-physics-were-harmed]

Idk I want to be gender nonconforming and be a guy who dresses in a feminine way but it kinda feels like I'm obligated to do that as a transmasc to like… apologise for not being a girl. Like there's a whole thing of like… "All men are evil" and it just kinda sickens me to be a guy because of it, but I know I am a guy. But when there's the whole "but trans guys are okay though" thing it just feels like I'm not seen as a guy because I'm not part of their "all men". Idk.

#transmasc #vent #this is incomprehensible

[messedupdoilies]

god the raw fucking power of spuffy developing in alternate directions though. she accepts her darkness, he accepts his light.... they meet in the middle and fall in love and.......... Insane!!! it’s INSANE!!!!!!!

#this is incomprehensible #spuffy

[corals-corner]

I am a firm believer that Eclipse is finding ways to bring Solar back. He's been asking very specific questions, not to mention in the LAES episode where he and Lunar speak, he was "thinking". Tbh he doesn't have much to think about other than ways to kill Ruin. Not like he wants forgiveness from Lunar, Sun or Moon.

I feel like he's not doing it to bee a good person, but only to prove that he's "worthy" of being an Eclipse. He knows he's just a copy, his only memories are from the videos. During his conversation with Lunar, they(lunar) called him a "lesser" because he's a just copy, and he knows it. Eclipse would see this as a challenge for himself, to build a body and a code from scratch in the way Ruin did to Blood Moon. Maybe if he does that, he can prove that not only is he worthy of being the original, but also that he's smarter than the original

#this is incomprehensible #not deltarune #the sun and moon show #tsams #tsams eclipse #eclipse #lunar #solar #i really want solar to come back and i want eclipse to at least show that hes not all evil #even if its not his intention

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

today on things that i analyze significantly more than i should; omitb edition: something about theo being named after teddy (different nicknames, obviously, but presumably both named theodore) makes me insane because like. theo’s entire plotline is about living in his fathers shadow and how teddy has sort of taken advantage of his sons disability as a way to control him; roping theo into his criminal enterprise, making him do the dirty work, even when they both get arrested everyone frames it as “we caught teddy dimas!” as if theo wasn’t also taken down with him. so the fact that theo’s own name is in his fathers shadow? named after him and forever unable to escape the impact of his dad, always associated with him in a way beyond his control?? absolutely destroys me.

#this is incomprehensible #but the main point is that theo dimas is the character of all time and i have so many Thoughts about him #only murders in the building #omitb #theo dimas #eli.posts

[archduke-enver-gortash]

need to finish that gort is simultaneously great and terrible at being “religious” essay some day

#don’t read this i’m just spitballing #this is incomprehensible #follows a set of values he himself imposed on himself more than any god but bane aligns with those #for the time being and furthers his goals so he’ll grab that opportunity like another tool in his arsenal #but this adhering to these values is so fervent that it makes him automatically the best candidate for chosen #then again following this logic means that his allegiance is not to bane who is more of a tangible manifestation of these values for gortas #thinking of that hannibal quote ‘hannibal isn’t religious but he believes in god intimately’ and how it’s sort of the opposite for gortash #he’s ardent work seems very very religious but there is nothing but the machine in the end. #the god of his own religion/self imposed values as the machine

[movedtohypnocus]

asks you about black holes

teehee

#postnocus #doodlz #this is incomprehensible #i ran out of energy half way through #ton 618 is still the biggest. to me

[gravyhoney]

I was scrolling through your blog and saw your power ranking about the new DR characters, I was wondering if you can eleborate on that?

Yeah uhhhhhh yeah I can do that.

1. Euphrasia, I really truly and genuinely believe that wind has the potential to be extremely powerful, and even new wind users have the ability to cause pretty extreme devastation with it.

2. Sora, she’s above Wyldfyre mostly because she got the spark from Riyu for a long time and that has to count for something.

3. Wyldfyre, it’s not clear if he ever really reached his true potential, and honestly. With ALLLLL the love and respect to my beloved daughter. I think he’s a one trick pony right now.

4. Arin. Due to. The absence of an elemental power. I think he’s strong in different ways!! I’m gonna be real, in terms of like, physical strength (not factoring in powers) I think he’d be first on my list. But his jank Spinjitzu seems very. Not powerful. Love him to death though 🫶

Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense I have a raging headache rn.

#this is INCOMPREHENSIBLE #anyways :3 #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising #mason posts #mason talks