#but in a numb way

[sandflakedraws]

the song came on my shuffle and would not leave me alone until i penned this i'm so sorry

#this is way too much effort but like. music makes me feel things y'know? #trolls #floyd #branch #john dory #clay #bruce #cannot recommend Comfortably Numb enough as like. THE listless + dizzy song #no other tune has quite nailed the feeling like you're about to pass out at any second #also the human scream of agony in the middle is great too #either way #don't look at me #is he dead? i couldn't decide so thats up to u #long post #undescribed

[collophora]

More minibatch adventure I need a full show maybe too XD

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #tbb fanart #star wars fanart #I like them for once ^^ #Trying to complain less in my tags haha #now time forrrrrr #my liffffffffffffe #I went back to the dentist today #I thought she would only deep clean my tooth and be done with it #NO #she actually reconstructed my broken teeth #I WASN'T READY TAT #me : hi #the doctor : ok sit down I'm gonna start by using a needle again to numb you #me: “the what” #It was scary all the way #me the whole time: “the bad batch had it worst you can do this” #BUT my teeth is saved now??? #for a reasonable price? #bless #I'm just not ready for the two days without eating 'cause my mouth aches TAT #sight #at least I can drink #water #but still

[smash-chu]

Long distance loneliness

#my art #doodles #smash-chu's art #not having the luxury of being able to just drive and see someone i know and love #having all my human connection come from digital screens when not visiting my family once or twice a year #it makes your heart sink down into a place that is hard to get out of #a place of acceptance that i will just have to live with being lonely #i love my friends #i just wish they weren't so spread out away from me #in a way i was left back here cause i was the only one that didn't move back to their parents #and now i struggle alone being comforted via keeping in touch online #but it can never replace seeing face to face #getting to be right there next to someone #touch starved is a understatement #but for now that is just how it has to be #anyways #my period is frying my brain making every feeling feel more intense so i feel super fucking alone right now #it's fine it'll go back to being numb soon enough #but sometimes you just need to let stuff out

[ruporas]

invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)

[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."

Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”

Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.

At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.

"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.

Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”

Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."

In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]

Credits for ID here and here

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because #it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has #given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably #since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc #of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:) #in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun #but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots #he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at #the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is. #mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax #but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe #the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww #u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww #ruporas art

[lotus-pear]

regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :') #the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!'' #and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

[coffee-cait]

Y'all better be careful out there in the deserts of No Man's Land, there's a Typhoon approachin'.

#fanart #trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #meryl stryfe #roberto de niro #millions knives #legato bluesummers #not tagging the rest bc... well *points at their itty bitty forms* does that really count? #i dont EVER wanna have to go through the mind numbing nightmare that was this gun.. i know it's wrong and way too short #but im so so tired...

[nounaarts]

They both changed a lot, haven’t they?

#lego monkie kid #monkie kid #macaque #sun wukong #at first I was just gonna say smthn about Mac but then I was like hold up they’re both the same #in a way #both changed #I like to think they’re both emotionally numb #they just show it differently #wukong just tries to hide it most of the time #he wants his best friend back tho #shadowpeach cuz why not lol #lego monkey kid fanart #lmk #lmk six eared macaque #sketch #art #nounaarts

[twisting-in-wonderland]

the presumed problem Lilia vs the Actual problem Jade....

(inedible food vs poisoned food... battle of the ages...

who'd you pick to cook for you,,,?)

#twst #twisted wonderland #jade leech #lilia vanrouge #ram's art #i finally read jade's culinary vignette after i got it from the octavinelle showcase a while back........ #i love that rook's reaction to his mouth going completely numb from a strange mushroom is to be :] about it #guy's deranged i love it #anyways j a d e dont . put whatever in meals pls......... #i'd still eat his food over lilia's though... poison is preferable to burnt food i cant stand the taste of anything remotely burnt..... #if like. cheese is lightly browned i cant eat it lol #this art's probably not clear without vignette knowledge buuuut its fineeee #alsoalso look at me trying. bgs........ again................. #and also drawing about an event that . literally happened so long ago it was /before/ i had twst.. wild-- #also!!!!!! shout out to my first time drawing rook :]]]]]]] (i think) lilia also in a way........ #wait- #rook hunt #i . i forgot my pal.........

[neteyamsyawntu]

Day 189 and I’m still down horrendously for this gorgeous blue beanstalk😮‍💨

I swear every time I look at this my pussy clenches UGHHHH. Thank you @cinetrix for all that you do💜This one is going in the stash😏

ON ANOTHER NOTE! I am going to be cracking down hard on I Need You part 2, and I will plan to post it by Wednesday night AT THE LATEST.

Also can we talk about the fact that it’s been 189 days since TWOW came out?👀

#I would ride this man till my legs go numb and my vision blurs #avatar #avatar the way of water #neteyam #neteyam sully #neteyam smut #avatarsmut #avatar twow #neteyam sully smut #neteyam x reader #neteyam sully x reader #neteyam x na'vi!reader #neteyam x human reader #neteyam x y/n #neteyam x you

[ninyard]

[stepping out into your enclosure like a zookeeper with a bucket of fish] DINNERRRRR TIIIIIIMEEEE

#I just got home from the dentist and my mouth is numb and I feel invaded so #what better way to feel better than you force you all to laugh at my jokes

[kanrix]

With your new HURTFUL Post, I do wonder what would happen to Orel if Clay killed himself, like, would Orel follow his fathers path or something.... I DESPERATELY NEED TO KNOW YOUR VIEW

He'd have conflicting feelings about it, he feels some kind of relief (if this is after nature) but also. Horrible. He somehow believes that he's the one to blame for it, maybe if he tried to "understand" or if he just tried to help him a bit harder maybe this wouldn't have happened. Maybe he would be a good dad.

He'd be inclined to follow his way. I mean, that's what clay probably wanted, for Orel to be as messed up as him,

#ask #anonymous #moral orel #later on he prob just realizes that his father was way too messed up and there was nothing he could've done to help him #talking with reverend putty and Stephanie would help him. a lot #i think he firts feels terrible. then the numbness comes #first* #the latter would prob make him feel guilty and a shitty person #idk fellas #suicide

[tillman]

god forbid women do anything

#elendira #trimax #trigun #whatever #i like her so bad #diet dr pepper #dont ask why i did her coat by hand i was half way thru it and then i was like wait i litearlly do not need to do this #whaetver. take this sketch. my mouth is numb.

[zannolin]

no 'cause tony and ziva both going to somalia on separate suicide missions but finding each other instead. surviving instead. reuniting and continuing to live afterwards. like what the hell. the look on ziva's face when tony said he thought she was dead and it completely recontextualized "couldn't live without you, i guess." after everything, everything, they still have each other's backs. he was ready to die avenging her and she was ready to die trying to save him and actually i'm screaming crying throwing up what the hell is wrong with this show why would it do this to me.

#ncis #tiva #im like aggressively eating tiny cookies and staring at a wall rn truth or consequences broke something inside my brain #and they framed it as sort of humorous in the narrative bc it was tony telling it but ur just gonna say he went numb and stopped caring #and gave up on living after finding out ziva was supposedly dead??? you want me to be NORMAL about that? #and the way he totally blamed himself for it too bc if not for him she wouldnt have gone back to mossad and been sent on that missionnnnn #SICK AND ILL!!!!

[c0l0re]

Tbh I think it'd be really interesting if Doorkeay was less just a romantic ship or more of like… at first they were uneasy allies since they had both been wronged by the same person and had some bitterness and anger about it, so they had a common opinion of "fuck the Magnus Institute" even if they didn't necessarily trust each other yet

Slowly, the two spend more and more time around each other, planning things, discussing discoveries they've made, seeing if either has made any progress in figuring things out, and they start to move from uneasy allies to actual friends. They no longer only keep their meetings formal and purely goal-oriented. They find themselves slipping into friendly banter and casual conversation, even when it's not what they came for

They end up realizing they have a lot more in common than they could've ever thought, and that they actually make a good duo and appreciate each other's company after everything both of them have gone through

Michael doesn't try to hurt or deceive Gerry at any point. It doesn't only care about him as a vital ally, but also someone it actually, genuinely cares about

Gerry goes from being wary and suspicious of Michael to valuing his abilities and insights, to actually also seeing him as a friend, and someone he, too, genuinely cares about

They aren't lovers, but they have a bond deeper than others could have ever imagined either of them ever having with anyone. They are important to each other, and they won't let the other go

#tma #the magnus archives #tma headcanons #gerard keay #gerry keay #michael distortion #michael shelley #doorkeay #colore speaks #this can be read as either platonic or queerplatonic either one works lol #but yeah. i am a sucker for non-romantic character duos and dynamics #what if i just want these two to try and figure shit out and end up becoming friends while trying to numb their own pain of lonliness #and also trying to rebuild their senses of trust after being betrayed by the people in their lives that should have cared about them #what if i just want some deeply broken and traumatized people to try and find a way to rebuild their lives. even if its not permanent #even if it barely lasts any time at all

[doll-elvis]

oh.

#suddenly my brain is numb and my mouth is watering #big daddy you don’t know what you to do me #oh to be pinned underneath him with no way to escape #he could suffocate me with that chest and I’d thank him for it #overpower my senses please #god bless bill belew for designing that scoop line #elvis thirst post #big daddy elvis #elvis presley #elvisaaronpresley #elvis #elvis photos #70s #70s elvis #elvis fans #elvis fandom

[hawnks]

The fact that True And Mutual Love Domain ….. looks like that. The fact that Yuuta’s idea of love in general looks like that. Everything he does is for the sake of love. His whole understanding of the world is about love. He’ll do anything for love. He’ll die for love. He intends to die for love. Love is careful and caring and diligent and powerful, but most importantly love is a graveyard.

#the more I think about it the more I’m realizing that Yuuta is not the inverse of gojos ‘love is the most twisted curse of all’ but….. #I don’t even know if he differs from that mindset at all tbh? #love is a BURDEN. he knows that. he readily accepts it #but it doesn’t seem to hurt him the way it does gojo #he seems almost numb to it in a way #I think I just need to mull it over a bit but it’s like…. I don’t think the story wants us to believe Yuutas idea of love is the answer #I think there’s something very dark about the way him and love work together #not least of which that Love is a tool for him in several ways #it’s almost a contract? it’s like love equates to moral obligation to him. it seems to be entirely ABOUT sacrifice. not just that sacrifice #is a biproduct of love. sacrifice IS love #‘it’s not sacrifice if it doesn’t hurt… you can let go of anything. but first — you have to love it’ #ect ect