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rose022 · 9 months

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hi~ im rose! and this is my attempt at an intro post

!! layout by orphic-execution !!

hey meowtuals i have a priv just dm or send an ask and ill give u it unless we've never talked

- dont feel bad about blocking or unfollowing me, just wanna say this. i may make posts abt being confused when i see people leave but curate ur own experience idc be happy

- you can call me whatever you want idc, just lemme know. like genuinely any nickname. i do have two others tbh but ehh

- yeah yeah im an adult so dont block me if i like ur post and u say mdni ight? also for any minors if that makes u uncomfortable u can leave. i dont tend to post anything nsfw here, just sometimes suggestive stuff and i can tag that for you

- pronouns are whatever is funniest in the moment. or just use your own. neos are ok

- asks and dms always open for anything. i won't really reach out first but i promise you can always talk to me about anything. if you don't have anyone else or just want to talk about a particular thing or want to vent, etc. like genuinely pretty please talk to me about your interests i will gladly listen!!! <3

- also you can always tag me in anything!! i love tag games (i may take a bit) and if theres anything you think id like or reminds you of me id love to see it!!

- don't really have a dni but like i will block you if you're a bigot. im a fag and autistic if you don't like that go away idc. also if you are pro cop or military stuff fuck off

- if we're mutuals please tag stuff with cw rose for anything with touya or akito being shipped with anyone else or TBHK nene and tsukasa as a ship, self harm or suicide when talked about more than just being mentioned and please dont joke about wanting to or planning to kill yourself, stuff about spiders (or any bugs kinda) mostly like pictures of them or the mention of them in someone's bed or on someone (bees and most moths are exempt, and i love butterflies theyre exempt too), needles if theyre detailed not cartoony, real life gore animals or humans (not sfx or art just real stuff) and please use tone tags but mostly just for joking or sarcasm as i tend to assume everything is serious.

- MUTUALS PLEASE TELL ME STUFF TO TAG FOR YOU!!! i do my best to read carrds and intros and stuff but i might forget please remind me please. gore and sexual stuff will get tagged as gore and nsfw but it's mostly explicit stuff. things are tagged as what it is, not with cw or tw.

- !!current things i tag are agere, homestuck, eye strain, saiouma, bsd, religion, body dysmorphia, religion, enstars marlo dont look (for nsfw stuff, tbh im not sure what counts but anything with mentions of sexual stuff that isn't just like a joke), elie shoo (csm saiouma gore), orphic dont look (time loops, weight, dysmorphia, ed, sh, sui), suggestive (anything relating to anything nsfw like jokes or anything else)

- tags

#rose rambles - my posts

#rose tagged ramblings - i made a separate one for when i talk a lot in tags

#rose art - quite simply rose's art

#rose ocs - the sillies from my brain

#ask rose! - asks

#rose pics - look i don't get creative with naming these i think you can tell

#rose cosplay - ^^^ yeah

#helpful - things that could be helpful to anyone

#save - similar to above but more so personal things

#important - maybe not technically helpful but i think people should see

#favs - self explanatory, i believe

#sillies - similar to above but not really

#luv - mutual appreciation mostly

#heart! - things made by mutuals!

#liebe - things made for me!

#mecore - woah thats so me frfr

#rose writing - idk man take a guess

(i wanna like fix all my posts to have tags but i reblog so much and itll take me a million years to get back to the start of my account atp. maybe one day.)

- commission info

art:

writing: $2 per 100 words (?)

i also take requests for these!! or other stuff but like it will almost definitely take me a bajillion years to finish so if you wanna make sure i do something, gimme money. but u dont gotta its ok ily anyways

i have a kofi rose226 and dm for paypal

- sideblogs

@nightcord-luka-official

@luka-spotted most active

@daily-akiyama-mizuki hiatus!

@daily-asahina-mafuyu hiatus!

@kokomi-sangonomiya-official

@mafuyu-asahina-official

@wansho-luka-official

@junior-high-enanan-official

@fischl-official

@rosemusictime lol no followers

@oz-the-bird-official (to translate my Fischl)

@ako-udagawa-official this and above in progress

@daily-purple-character send reqs

@rose-poll-account

@aoi-shirosaki-official pjsk oc rp blog

@hikari-itsuki-official ^

@yuki-jigoku-official ^

@kei-makura-official ^

@roseswonderland things i make

@yuki-spotted

@niigo-va-updates

(i may remove u as a follower depending on if i trust you enough for these next few but if we're mutuals ur pretty much safe)

@selfless-lvr selfship/kin

@moonlit-thoughts22 vent

@softrosebud agere

im not active on many other social media but if we're mutuals you can ask for like anything and ill probably have an account. somehow im most active here tho (and in one discord server but u guys cant join)

@shhh-its-rose moots only

and ask for the nsfw one...

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shoechoewarriors · 9 months

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I just finished reading Johnny the Homicidal Maniac by Jhonen Vasquez. To be honest, I didn't really know what to expect going in- all I've ever heard about it was from people going "Can you believe Nickelodeon asked a guy who makes stuff like that to make a children's show!?" After reading it, I can say that it's definitely interesting in a way I don't think any basic plot description could've fully prepared me for, and I kind of want to dump my thoughts about it as I just come away from it.

As the title would suggest, its most noticeable surface-level feature is that there is a lot of gore. It gets about as brutal and graphic as it can with its cartoony art style- I was actually a little bothered by it a couple of times. There are a lot of things reminiscent of Invader ZIM beyond its art style- it shares a lot of the same humor, its randomness (often to the point of stupidity), and the chaotic nature of the story progression. (There are also two aliens that show up in a few pages that I'm pretty sure are the same aliens that appeared in the IZ episode Abducted, which would mean that ZIM and JTHM take place in the same universe...? Interesting.) In a lot of ways, it had the same energy as ZIM, but lacking the restraints of a children's network- admittedly, it was very fun and tickled the twelve-year-old ZIM fan part of my brain.

The story itself is a bit trippy and somewhat disjointed. There are lots of times where Johnny will go on long monologues about how he sees himself and the world (alongside blocks of text at the beginning and end of each issue from Jhonen himself). The actual story is cut up in-between little unrelated comics of various characters getting slaughtered and mutilated in some way, facing their inner turmoils and making other people miserable, or yelling incoherent word salads and then getting murdered. You are often left unsure as to whether some of the story's events were really happening or just Johnny dreaming or making things up. It also gets kind of cosmic horror-ish at one point, but that proceeds to end itself somewhat abruptly.

I haven't looked at any discussion of the comic and what it's *really* about yet, but my first impression coming out of it is that it's... a lot of things, really? It's a nihilistic black comedy, but I got the feeling that it was also somewhat of a vent story- A lot of JTHM is dark humor and absurd scenarios for the sake of societal criticism and expressing frustration with the world. It brings up a lot of ideas about what the "nature" of humanity is, if there is a caring God, the good and bad of living, and ultimately, what the true "evils" of society are and what causes them- all told through the eyes of a weird morally bankrupt loner that likes torturing and murdering people he doesn't like.

Most of the people that Johnny goes after are assholes and bullies, generally bad people, or anyone that just generally upsets or inconveniences him in day-to-day life. His arc throughout the story is discovering who and what "controls" him in his search for true freedom- and through that, he realizes that he, himself, is a massive contributor to why everything is so awful, eventually seeing people like himself as one of society's issues (but not really doing anything to change or control his behavior, which, to me, suggested he really never attained the "freedom" he desired so much). It was quite interesting to have a main character like that.

And, while I do not really know anything about Jhonen Vasquez as a person, a good amount of Johnny's traits struck me as... maybe a bit of a projection? A lot of the blocks of text from Vasquez at the start of issues will have him describe his thoughts and behaviors, and then in the story, Johnny displays a lot of those same thoughts and behaviors, like his hatred of sleep resulting in him regularly staying up the entire night and his tendency to experience loneliness and sadness (though, of course, these blocks of text might also be Jhonen simply putting up a persona as well.) Still, though, I wouldn't be too surprised if a lot of things about Johnny were in fact an exaggerated depiction of the author's own perceived negative traits and turned into an edgy serial killer character (especially since I know that this is indeed the case for a lot of Vasquez's characters, like ZIM in his inability to realize when his ideas won't work and Dib in his undying need to prove himself above all else in IZ.)

JTHM was one of the most unique things I've read in a while- it's one of those stories that sticks in your brain and leaves an uneasy feeling in you when you come away from it, but it definitely has a lot of substance to it beyond the "edgelord serial killer gorefest" surface-level appearance. It doesn't give you any moments of comfort in its overt negativity, but I think it manages to come out as something meaningful beyond just a nihilist "everything is awful and there's nothing you can do about it" message. It's definitely not for everyone, but if you're up for it, I'd really recommend giving it a shot.

#rambles #shoe talks a lot #johnny the homicidal maniac #jthm #i hope none of this sounds too dumb to someone who knows more about the inner-workings of jthm than i do

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dimonds456 · 6 months

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Howdy!

I'm Dimonds456, and welcome to my garbage pile. I'm a bat who stays up way too late and cannot decide whether or not to be productive. I draw, write, animate, play/write music, and I'm also insane so watch out for that.

I'm neurodivergent, disabled, queer, white, a singlet, fictionkin, and a proud cat papa. I am a cartoon character who is way too bouncy for their own good lol.

They / he / xe!

This is my main blog, but my ADHD ass also has a bunch more.

@dimonds456-art - my art blog! Almost all art gets rbed there!

@dimonds456-but-only-hlvrai - my HLVRAI sideblog! Because yeah why not. This is one of me current hyperfixations lol it's bad

@rubberhose-roy is my sideblog used to gush about 1920's-40's aesthetics, music, culture, ect., as well as an animation blog! All my animations specifically will be reblogged there, as well as any animation rambles or gushes I do.

I have more but those are the main three.

My fandom-specific blogs are:

@dimonds456-but-only-hlvrai (again)

@hlvrai-stuck-together - HLVRAI AU I run!

@halfnautica - Half Life / Subnautica AU!

@a-second-chance-su-au - Old SU AU that has been discontinued, but the blog is still there!

@batim-rewritten - a Bendy and the Ink Machine rewrite I'm working on

@cuphead-contract-au - A Cuphead AU where Mugman makes a deal (discontinued)

And, I have my own OC story, Follychromatic! I reblog all that stuff here, but its main blog is here!

@follychromatic

To see pictures of my cat, check the #Checkers tag! :D

Okay great. Now, DNI, trigger warnings, disabilities, special interests, and more below the cut. Make sure you read at least once, k? Thanks.

Welcome to my cave!

DNI

Trigger Warnings

Do not FUCKING interact if you are:

- A proshipper

- A bigot

- An LGBTphobe / transmed / ect

- Trump supporter

- Nazi / fascist / conservative

- Weird about furries or furry art

- Weird about fandom headcanons (specifically trans woman headcanons)

I will add more if anyone wants me to, or we can come up with a custom tag, like what I do for one of my friends! (#dimond don't look)

I will tag as much as I can, and if you want me to tag something specific, let me know! But as a general blog cover, things that appear on this blog often are:

- Current events

- Talk of / discussion of sexuality (sometimes boardering on NSFW but not usually)

- Blood

- Guns

- Flashing

- Talk of proshippers (I try to be respectful but also I don't stand for them and I don't support them. I block and move on, and try to explain why proship is bad, but eh. I've only been listened to like once lol)

- Swearing / swear words

- All caps

- Bugs

- Suggestive content / NSFW (RARE DONT WORRY)

DISABILITIES

Hiiii I'm disabled! Both mentally and physically. I talk about being disabled a lot and try to generate positive talk about it. I also vent about it. I've had quite a few of these, and I also try to reblog as much about others I don't have as I can to increase awareness and understanding. So yeah! These are just the ones I have, but they are not the only ones that appear on my blog!

Hyperthyroidism

Graves Disease

Graves Eye Disease

Astigmatism

Athsma

Audio processing disorder

ADHD

Autism

Trauma / PTSD

Brain fog / disassociation / memory loss

Anxiety

Depression

Cane user

Weak / trembling limbs / trouble walking / trouble holding onto things sometimes

More to be added lol.

This is also a meds/treatment positive blog, a self-diagnosis positive blog, and my general attitude is just "if you think something is wrong you're probably right, you know yourself the best, even if you don't know what exactly is wrong." This attitude has saved my life and other people I know. You don't need a diagnosis or medication to be disabled.

THIS IS A SAFE SPACE.

If you are Jewish, black, brown, Muslim, indigenous, any religion, any race, any sexuality, any weird gender, anything at all- I love and support you. I'm still learning, and I try to learn as much as I can, but I'm not perfect. If I say something offensive or something adjacent, it was NOT on purpose. PLEASE, PLEASE tell me what I said wrong. I will make an effort to improve in the future.

I directly support:

- All races

- All religions*

- All sexualities (except pedos, y'all aren't LGBT, I'm sorry. You're actively hurting children. I've seen it again and again. Stop.)

- All genders and pronouns

- All "weird" identities outside of that as well (I'm fictionkin myself)

- Protests and protesters

- Neurodivergent people of all types (and yes, this means NPD, schizo, and all those other types that are often seen as bad or evil. I love you, I see you, and I support you.)

- DID & OSDD systems

If I have reblogged or said anything that aligns with the bottom list, that was a mistake. PLEASE let me know and I will fix it as fast as I can. You reading this right now, I love you. I hope my blog can help you feel welcomed and like you have somewhere to go if you need it. /gen

I DO NOT support:

- Antisemitism

- Genocide

- Cults (*stuff like Jehova's Witnesses. I support the members, as they are victims, but I actively dislike the people on top who perpetuate the cycle. Not just JWs, but those are the big ones who come to mind. Hearts out to all the victims, I hope everyone gets to a better place soon)

- Racism in any way, shape, or form

- Religious discrimination of any way, shape, or form

- Israel specifically

- Trump, conservatives, Nazis, ect.

- Endo systems

MY FANDOMS / INTERESTS

I HAVE ADHD AND AUTISM AND I'M MAKING THAT EVERYONE ELSE'S PROBLEM /silly

The current special interests are HLVRAI and Half Life, current hyperfixations are Half Life and Poppy Playtime.

SPECIAL INTERESTS:

- Minecraft

- HTTYD

- FNaF

- Undertale / Deltarune

- BATIM / BATDR (unfortunately)

- Subnautica

- Biology

- Steven Universe

- Cuphead

- 2D Animation

- Writing

- HLVRAI

- Half Life

theres more but my brain is an egg :/

HYPERFIXATIONS (interests but not the special ones):

- Little Nightmares

- Hello, Neighbor (unfortunately)

- Petscop

- Portal

- Freemanverse (HELP ME)

- The Amazing Digital Circus

- The Owl House

- Gravity Falls

- Monster High (very first from what I can remember! I remember nothing though! But it's there!)

- Poppy Playtime

- Half Life

- Wild Kratts (I didn't even know there WAS a fandom until very recently, hi guys)

When it comes to ✨me,✨ I have a couple of original works as well! Specifically, Follychromatic! I won't get too into it here (bc shy) but it's 2D animation, rubberhose animation, magic, character-driven, action/adventure, mystery- yeah!

Outside of fandom, though, my special interests are biology, 2D animation, and writing. I am an animator and I suffer for fun.

YOU MADE IT! Have some Checkers for your time! :)

#dimond speaks #intro post #bout time i made one of these huh #dni #pinned post

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thegoldfiles · 1 year

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Ayo I got two anon asks

"how you constantly minimize her actions" you say that as if noody didn't just casually drew Nazi artworks and drew a suggestive gayass OC X OC Nazi ship months ago and harassed minors because "they had similar OCs" AND called me "half delayed mind issues" on her gayass helluva boss discord server alongside with her boyfriend calling me the same thing and then calling my autistic followers the f slur and "virgins", and she especially drew nsfw art of her helluva boss OC with crimson that actually depicts crimson RAPING said OC in her new comic "the white sin" which we recently found out that her helluva boss OC falls pregnant and her son works for crimson and it'll all literally lead to abusive romance AGAIN. Mobox literally did a lot of worse shit and all you can say is what Kev done.

"I think it's kinda screwed up that you share and post private DMS that people send you to moboxcritique" I censored their users, and I only had ONE conversation with ONE person. They were not private AT ALL, and they've spread lies about me in Moboxs posts on twitter. Alongside with spreading lies about Kev, saying Kev is manipulative and a PEDOPHILE/sent "porno" to minors when they have NO proof of that whatsoever. I blocked that person because they were stressing me out in our dms, of course I have to defend myself when they are saying shit about me.

Mobox even said this about me on a new gayass page:

I didn't say "she romanticises her trauma" she's romanticising rape and abuse IN GENERAL. And she called me a STALKER, when people only send me this shit in dms.

Mobox has literally dug up old "evidence" of Kev years ago and tried to make Kev sound like a stalker out of them << Kev was 15-17 AND WAS GOING THROUGH ABUSE, from her family. Mobox literally tried to make Kev a STALKER out of that. Kev only went to moboxs house because Kev was in a abusive household. Moboxs mum ALLOWED Kev to sleep over.

Mobox isn't the only person who's gone through abuse, she says she wants to help abused victims when she's harassed 13-17 year olds over them having similar OCs to hers. Just because mobox is traumatized doesn't mean she can make years worth of comics that romanticise abuse and rape AND transphobia (she's literally cishet).

She made a response tweet to me and she TWISTS my words saying "now you say I support sexual abuse" where did I ever say that?? I said ROMANTIZISED, two different things babes.

"to save yourself after people already saw who you are" babes that was YOU

You guys don't realise she's talking to a mirror and reflecting herself onto me and Kev. "You just want to take everything out of context" that was YOU, you brang up old screenshots of you and Kev talking, Kev was venting to you about her abusive family, and you tried to make it sound like Kev was a stalker out of them, Seriously? We made an entire doc with 200+ evidences, how can you call that out of context. Have you guys even seen her apology posts? She apologises and then she brings up her entire life story, most of her fans don't even know what she done and what she's apologising for. You can't forgive someone if you don't know what they've done. Context my fucking ass

The Nazism shit doesn't even excuse her problems. she wasn't "mocking the Nazi movement" she literally used the star of David behind a stripped lemur with stripped clothes

1 million Jewish people (out of the 6 million that died by Nazi's) died in STRIPPED CLOTHES in one of the death camps, Auschwitz. They died in gas chambers. By Nazi's. This is just disrespectful but apparently all mobox has out of her ass is "I'm not the same person I was 5 years ago" girlie pops most of the shit you've done wasn't even more than 2 years ago, stfu

(I would show the pics of the stripped clothes Jewish people wore in the death camps but I can't add any more pics in)

Mobox literally drew the first picture here, months ago. Not that long ago. Probably somewhere this year. That black eared bunny is a NAZI DOCTOR. You can't say these shit to me and then ignore this shit

Stop obsessing over Kev. Even if Kev was a bad person, or if Kev didn't just fucking exist. Mobox has still done this shit in her free will, stop going over to Kev. Kev wasn't apart ANY of this. Mobox just brings up Kev because y'all are stupid and dumbfounded, I'm sorry but it's literally true. I'm the nicest person and I promise that, but it's the fact this is how you guys only defend mob.

If Kev was a bad person to begin with, of course I wouldn't support Kev or even be friends with her, but so far Kev has been proven innocent. If I wasn't friends with Kev, that doesn't change anything. If Kev didn't exist, that wouldn't change anything. I only stopped supporting mob because of what I found out in a doc about her, Kev didn't just reach out to me and say "oh mob did this and that" I found out on my own.

Stop using Kev to defend mobox.

Literally face moboxs actions, tell me how you're gonna defend her, she technically made CP and included rape and transphobia and put in the f slur all at once in her new helluva boss comic, she admits she ships noda and crim despite the rape and the very abusive relationship between them in the comic and then they have a CHILD. And then she just says "I do this because of my trauma"

She's 23, changing is gonna be a hard process for her, so far she hasn't made any progress. She literally got away from the fnaf fandom and said "fuck y'all" and made a helluva boss comic with her oc in it to do the same shit she did with Rockstar Freddy X lefty. She's literally in denial saying she did change, it's concerning if she romanticises victim X abuser if shes a victim of being abused or sexually abused. If she draws THAT because of her trauma, that's something she should talk to a professional about. But apparently she already had years worth of therapy and she has said that her therapist thinks it's okay for her to draw this stuff. A bunch of people literally reached out to me saying how much they were hurt from her content.

She's been doing this ever since she was 16. It's pretty sad all she does is make content of characters being abused and raped. And then she like, later on romanticises that shit. And then she receives fanart of it. And then she obsesses over her abusive OCs where her fans even simp for her abusive rapist incesty OCs (referring to Austrabhos. Her fans literally simp for Austrabhos in her discord server and mobox is just fine with it)

These guys really believe anything without evidence. It pisses me off, I'm gonna be straight up honest cause I'm sick of having to keep on a filter, you guys need to shut the fuck up if you don't have anything to show that proves your statement and stop being confident little stuck ups that obsess over moboxs work when all they're about is unrealistic abusive transphobic romance

Anyways that's all I needed to say 😋😋😋😋😋😋😋

^^^^^^

The only thing that's wrong here is that Kev never went to Mob's house since the plans fell through. It's discussed in the doc

But anyway, yeah. It's over, it's done with, stop using Kev to defend Mobox. Kev's already apologized for what she did with Blurry's OC, so stop using that as an excuse to defend Mob

#mod cagney #ask #zombify you dropped this 👑#zombifykid

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tomb-bloom-noctem · 5 months

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Stupid vent ignore this but I'm mad about something.

It's been over a year since someone in the Sonic community accused me of being a creep because I had poorly phrased how much I like the character (prompt went, to best of my memory, are you normal about Sally Acorn? Which I responded "I'm sooo in love with her!" Which I didn't intend that in any form of a literal sense. It was poor phrasing on my part. The OP called me out saying how as an adult I shouldn't be talking about a minor aged character like that. I apologized, removed my post, explained it wasn't intended that way. Got called a creep anyway.)

I've gotten some serious internet hate before although most of it themed around my TA&TA fic. But this has stung me bad and still makes me mad and cry whenever I unfortunately remember it.

Just fucking drives me up the wall. Yes I am an adult in a fandom who's characters are teen and kids. I have also been in this fandom since I was 5 years old.

I am also extremely asexual. And I am also extremely sexually traumatized.

I get it's only one person who misinterpreted my statement and didn't care to accept my apology and explanation that it was a mistake. But it was a poor choice of words. It's not like I drew or wrote smut of the character.

The internet has buzzed some lately after Kotaku released an article about pornography featuring video game characters. With Sonic being the highest ranking male character and 6th most highest overall.

*cue my gagging*

Seeing folks tweet about that has just made that stupid interaction hurt again and again then learning shortly ago that an official artist is drawing porn of them. For fucks sake. I'm not someone who's contributing to that at all. Not on Pornhuh. Not on Ao3. I don't make it, I don't want it, I block on sight. I don't engage with sexual content. I don't want it. Meanwhile

Ken Penders. Adam Bryce Thomas. And I'm sure they aren't the only ones. Folks who have worked on the series officially. Making gross statements and suggestive or downright pornographic art of characters.

The Ao3 tag for Sonic being downright unuseable without filters because some much smut content is made for it.

And then the statistics Kotaku pulled there.

I know it's dumb to still be frustrated over but fucking hell. These characters are so important to me. But not at all in a sexual way. And being called a creep because of a poor word choice just. God I can't bear it. Even if it's only a single person who thought it and frankly I'm sure has moved on plenty by now, the idea and fact of someone thinking of me as a creepy pervert for Sonic characters has me royally upset.

#tomb talks #venting

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bronte-deserves-better · 2 years

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Hey yall! So, I've been meaning to put this together for a while, but never got around to it- anyways, I just want a post with important links, tagging info, etc. all in one place.

Starting off simple:

You can call me Gold, or Semper/Semp. I use he/him, they/them, ey/em, and it/its pronouns with no particular preference for one over the other. I'm queer and trans, and I'm not going to get into the specifics more than that because this post would be way too long if I did. I'm also a certified white boy going.

My other blogs are semperaeternumque, which I follow from, and lore-of-the-lost-cities, which I really need to post on more.

More under the cut! (Tagging info, who I Will block, pyren bros au links.)

Do Not Follow If You Are...:

An exclusionist of any sort

A TERF/transphobe

Racist or ableist

Going to be a jerk to me about fictional characters I like

I cannot, of course, prevent you from following to start with, but if I find out you're any of the above, the block button is going to be my friend.

My tagging system:

I tag characters who are majorly featured in art and fic that I post or reblog.

I tag for common triggers with '[x] cw'. Triggers I tag for include: suicide, death, self harm, alcohol, blood, and gore. Feel free to ask me to tag additional triggers.

I tag swearing and nsfw content with 'swearing cw', and 'nsft', 'suggestive', and 'kids don't look', respectively. Not that there's a lot of nsfw on this blog, mind you.

I tag fandom crit and discourse, and I try to tag character crit with '[x character] critical'.

Non kotlc posts are tagged with 'not fandom'.

My random thoughts are tagged with 'semp rambles'. Any rants/vents are tagged 'semp rants' and 'vent post'.

I do have a 'don't reblog' tag- please respect it.

I will not tag for 'q slur'/any variant of queer as a slur. I respect that it may be triggering to some people, but I am queer, and if the words I use to describe myself bother you, I will have to kindly ask you to unfollow for your health and mine.

Finally, my pyren brothers au posts are tagged with 'pyren brothers au'

Semper, what's the Pyren Brothers AU?

In short, a theory of mine that Bronte and Fintan are brothers. In long- well, it spawned an entire universe in which they are, complete with original characters, backstory, headcanons, worldbuilding, and plenty of me ignoring canon. Links below with more info!

Pyren Brothers AU Masterpost

Pyren Brothers tag on my blog

Pyren Brothers FAQ

#pinned post #not fandom

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sparkycinnamon · 2 years

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Finally making an introduction post!

Thought it was the time to make an intro post, so:

Hi! I'm Pipes, though you can also call me Cheesy, Right, or Spark! I'm a non-binary autistic oriented aroace who likes reading, cartoons, drawing, and writing.

Pronouns (in order of preference):

They/them

She/her (only if we're close)

It/its

Xey/xem

Ae/aer

Fandoms (bold indicates a current hyperfixation/special interest):

SpongeBob

Object shows

Bugsnax

Kirby

Roblox

Minecraft (just the normal game, I'm not interested in any of the SMPs or whatever)

Amphibia

Gravity Falls

DuckTales (2017)

Big City Greens

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Cookie Run

My Little Pony (mainly FIM, but also some of the older generations)

Alphabet Lore (and some of the parodies of it)

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The Amazing World of Gumball

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Hey Arnold!

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The Amazing Digital Circus

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Diviners

Two Door Cinema Club

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Retro commercials and snacks

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Scorpion Grass - part 7/8

Pairing: Loki/Mobius, Steve/Thor (background)

Rating, word count (chapter): T, 4.5k, TW: mentions of antidepressant abuse

Chapter summary: A day in San Jose and an important conversation about flowers.

Link to the AO3 post

Thor keeps glancing at him in the car, and Loki suddenly wishes his place was in the backseat and not by his brother's side. He adjusts the visor on his side to block some of the sun's glare. Throbbing behind his eyes, his hungover wears him down. It makes it futile to try to cover up how terrible he feels. He watches the tree-lined streets and suffers in silence, hoping against hope that he doesn't have to talk about what happened, but when they stop at a red light, Thor turns to him.

"You look upset."

"Ingenious deduction."

"Did he break up with you?"

Loki splutters. "Wha - Why do you assume it was him who broke up with me?"

Thor shrugs. "You drive people away."

He does, doesn't he? He has mastered it to an art form. It's easier to protect himself that way. But fuck, why did Mobius have to be so different? Even now, after he has ruined everything, Loki still wants to be close to him and find the guts to open up about the pain that eats away at his heart. How pathetically infatuated is he?

He digs his nails into his thighs through his pants. "You can't break up with someone you're not dating."

Thor doesn't say anything to that, but at the next opportunity, he turns the car around to head back towards downtown Santa Cruz. For a terrifying split second, Loki thinks he's taking him back to Mobius. He raises his voice. "What are you doing?"

"Getting breakfast." Thor pats his stomach as if it has only just occurred to him that he's hungry. Loki calls bullshit, but he can't figure out what ulterior motives Thor might have, other than convincing him to go back to Mobius. They could eat a sandwich at Thor's place, there's no need to take a detour just to eat out.

When they pull over in front of a place called Zachary's, there's a wide grin on Thor's face that Loki wants to wipe away so that it wouldn't clash with his wretched mood. "Steve says their pancakes are to die for."

"Oh, if Stevie says so then it must be true." He mocks Thor.

"Don't call him that."

"Are you going to tell Mom and Father?"

"I don't know what you're talking about." Thor forces his expression to maintain that cheerful smile instead of letting Loki vent his frustration in an argument. "I'm going to try those pancakes. You coming or not?"

Loki shakes his head. He's not like Thor, he doesn't eat himself into oblivion when he's upset. He crosses his legs and rolls the window down as Thor disappears into the diner. The ignition key is right there - he could prank Thor and drive away with his car, then wait for his enraged call around the corner. The sweet anticipation would at least distract him. It's practically offered on a silver platter. He has no idea why Thor continues to trust him like this.

He plays around with the idea for a few more minutes, but discards it eventually. It's too early for such a joke, and he's not in the mood for laughing. He'd rather just curl up and disappear from this plane of existence. Sighing, he rolls the window back up, grabs the key and goes after his brother.

Inside, the place is just as homey as the brick walls and the old sign at the front suggested. The scent of coffee wafts through the room. As Loki walks across the hardwood floor, he thanks his lucky stars for his height because the place is packed, and he might have had some difficulty locating Thor if they weren't towering over everyone like a pair of giants. He catches up to his brother just in time to follow him to a small table in the corner, behind a wooden partition decorated with fairy lights and a potted plant.

They both order the sourdough pancakes, but Thor gets a plateful of unidentifiable mess in addition to that. Loki has to look away when Thor tucks into it, because the sight of homemade fries baked into an omelet makes his hungover stomach protest with vengeance. He starts picking the fruit off his meal, ruining the smiley face the banana slices formed on his thin pancakes. He resists the urge to cry when he thinks of what else he has destroyed today. It's only eight in the morning.

"Aren't you going to miss Portland?" He asks Thor out of the blue. He takes in the bare walls around them and all the people in casual beachwear, then thinks of the funky thrift stores outside and the complete lack of nightlife in the area. "This town is so sleepy."

"It isn't." Thor protests through a mouthful of food. "Just laid-back."

Loki raises his eyes to the high ceiling. "I'd die of boredom here."

Thor takes a gulp of coffee. "Glad we're not the same."

"I'm going to take over your room." Loki goes on, stabbing a piece of pancake. "I'll fill it with books and cover the walls with my posters."

"With those scary surrealistic ones?"

"You bet. You won't be able to sleep when you come home."

Thor laughs, low in his throat, and gives Loki an earnest look. "I'll miss you too."

»»————-　　————-««

Despite his downcast state of mind, Loki doesn't get out of the family trip to San Jose. They listen to his father's 1970s playlist on the way there, driving through the dry conifer forests with the AC cranked up to fight the heat of the sunshine. It's a miracle that the distance isn't too long, because every time his thoughts begin to wander, the vice around Loki’s chest tightens until it's hard to breathe. He's in dire need of a distraction to focus on.

They visit the Winchester House first, the spacious Victorian mansion built for the ghosts of all the people killed by the famous rifle. Loki doesn’t believe in the undead, but he appreciates the construction and its inherently arcane ambiance. Staircases leading to nowhere, doors that open into walls, mirrors arranged to create confusing illusions, stained-glass windows at waist height. It’s a reflection of madness. Walking through it is like catching glimpses of the mind that created it, and Loki could imagine spending more than a rushed tour there, to get properly immersed in it. Looking for hidden corridors, cryptic Shakespeare quotes etched into glass or weird sculptures in the garden.

The house is interesting enough that he’s not on the verge of a meltdown anymore when they go on to the Egyptian Museum. At his mom’s request, he takes some artsy photos of the white-blue pillars and the mosaic fountain, and even musters a smile when she says he has a knack for finding interesting perspectives. Of course I do, he thinks of telling her. When my own outlook is as skewed as it is. He keeps his mouth shut.

After a late lunch on a patio surrounded by palm trees, they head over to some kind of rose garden his mom has been adamant on seeing. Loki understands why. If he had a happier day, he’d probably appreciate taking a breather there. With hundreds of fragrant and well-kept roses, it’s a beautiful place for a relaxed walk or a picnic. Colours bloom all over the rolling green plane; pink, yellow and deep scarlet petals on the ground and clusters of flowers crowning the bushes.

As always, Loki has to pose for a couple of photos with Thor and then with his entire family under a rose arch, but then they leave him alone. He sits on a bench by the central fountain while they explore the rest of the park. There's a couple taking a selfie a few feet away, and he watches the small touches they exchange and the way they copy each other’s gestures as they laugh. He wonders, rather stupidly, whether he could have had that with Mobius if he had been the one moving here and not his brother. Probably not, he reasons with himself. Everything good in his life falls victim to his own self-destructive idiocy.

“Your father and Thor are getting some coffee at that Starbucks we saw earlier.” His mom tells him when she comes over to him and sits on the sun-warmed wooden bench. She smiles, then puts a hand on his shoulder. “I thought we could talk until they come back.”

Loki looks at her in alarm. “What do you want to talk about?”

A group of girls sit on the grass between the rose bushes on the opposite side of the fountain, and one of them is playing the melody of a country song on her guitar. If Loki pricks his ears, he can hear it over the splashing water and the whispering sounds of the redwood trees as their branches move in the breeze. He avoids his mom’s gaze, but it doesn’t dissuade her from cutting to the chase like she usually does.

"Thor told me you had a fight with Mobius."

"Traitor." Loki mutters, toeing at the tiles under his feet.

“You know he can't lie to me.” She smiles again. "Mobius isn't just a friend, is he?"

He shakes his head, still finding his knees more fascinating than his mom’s concern.

“But he can’t be more either because we’re going home in three days.” She says in her gentle but straight to the point manner. This time, Loki nods. She sighs. “I’m so sorry, darling.”

He worries at his lower lip for a moment, then it pours out of him. “I freaked out this morning and said some stuff I didn’t mean. He told me something personal and I wanted to reciprocate but there’s no point, is there? And -” He exhales, glancing helplessly at her, shoulders drawn up. “What would he say, Mom? If I told him.”

“A decent man wouldn't judge you. Give him a chance.” She says. "You need to learn to trust again."

He closes his eyes, turning away once more. "That ship has sailed."

"Don't say that."

"I'll say whatever I want, and it's the truth anyway." He snaps. The small ray of light in his dark clouds disappears again. "Trust is for children and dogs."

"Darling…" She starts, but he stands up and moves away from her. It takes him a moment to come back, hanging his head. He wants to make a scene just to let all his pent-up negative emotions out, but he knows it wouldn’t help. She stands up and looks up at him with a world of sadness in her eyes. They both know that she can’t help - Loki will have to get over this barrier himself. She opens her arms. "Can I hug you?"

Loki’s spitfire anger turns into sadness again. He raises his eyes to meet hers, then bends into her embrace. "I messed up."

"Then apologize." She strokes his back. “Even if you don’t tell him anything else, I’m sure he’d like to know that you didn’t mean it.”

“Alright.” He says quietly.

»»————-　　————-««

The problem is, Loki doesn’t know how to go about it. Apologies are not his forte. Most times, someone has to force him to come out and admit he’s sorry, even if he does feel the sentiment. It’s just… humiliating. And when your whole life feels like a lesson in shame, it’s hard to take more of that on yourself voluntarily. This time though, he’ll have to. Showing up at Mobius’ doorstep seems scary because it feels like backing himself into a corner, but he can’t think of any viable alternative.

He's trying to gear himself up to it, staring at his reflection in the mirror of Thor's bathroom, when Thor walks in through the open door. He's on the phone.

"Yeah. Alright. Next week." He says, then breaks into a strange, dopey smile. His voice sounds whipped. It's bemusing. "Good night."

When he hangs up, Loki gestures at him. "Let me guess -"

"Steve says Mobius is at the Wharf House." Thor interrupts him to avoid talking about his own love life. "I think you can still catch him there if you hurry."

"Oh." Loki frowns. "What else did he say?"

"Nothing." Thor shrugs. "He just mentioned that he and Mobius had a drink there."

"Alright." Loki sighs. He has no more time to waste on stalling. Unless he wants to go back to his original plan... Somehow, the pier feels like a more comfortable option. Neutral ground. It's easy to make up his mind about it - he grabs his jacket and rushes to the door.

His anxiety wipes the short drive to Capitola out of his memory. If someone asked, he wouldn't be able to recall how he made it there, only that his heart was racing the whole time. The lilac dust of twilight has settled on the horizon, and it's going to plunge into the night soon. The beach is quiet. In the dim light, the Wharf House is a speckle of gold in the distance, and the glow coming from the Venetian houses twinkles when he looks back at them. He heads towards the end of the pier and checks every silhouette that has even the slightest possibility of hiding Mobius.

He finds him leaning on the wooden railing at the very end of the pier. The Wharf House has already closed for the night, but some people still linger around, watching the last remnants of the sunset fade into the ocean. Loki walks up to Mobius slowly. His right thumb digs into left palm - he can feel the bones shifting under it when his fingers twitch.

"Hi." He says when Mobius looks up.

Mobius' eyes widen for a moment, then he crosses his arms. A defensive gesture. "Hi."

"Steve told me you were here."

Mobius nods. He waits for Loki to continue, but takes pity on him when he realizes he's stuck. He inclines his head. "Come here."

Loki puts his left arm on the railing and traces the grooves of the old wood with his fingers to try to calm his nerves.

"I'm sorry. It wasn't because of you." He says, steeling himself for a nasty response, for a rejection that stings. "I didn't mean to hurt you. What I said - I didn't mean those things. I panicked."

Mobius studies him for a moment, then opens his crossed arms and steps a fraction closer to Loki.

"I know." He replies in his quiet voice. "Maybe we should have slowed down. It was too much, too fast, wasn't it?"

"Maybe."

He squeezes Loki's hand once. "I always had a hard time pacing myself."

They share a faint smile, and the relief breaks in Loki's chest like a dam releasing a lake. The salty-fresh air finally fills his lungs again, and he takes huge breaths of it, arms trembling as the tension begins to ease.

"I'm sorry." He says again.

Mobius pulls him into a hug. "It's okay."

Loki's vision blurs. He apologized, but it doesn't feel complete yet. Without an explanation, it just hangs in the air like a half-finished thought, a wave that doesn't reach the shore. It's time to heed his mom's advice. He knows he should, but it's so difficult to reveal the skin under his armor and trust that he won't get stabbed.

He buries his face in Mobius' shoulder. "Do you really forgive me?"

"Of course." Mobius strokes his back. "We all say things we don't mean."

Loki sighs. It would be so easy to stop here and forget what his mom said, but she was right. He has to take a leap of faith if he wants progress. "I have trust issues."

He feels the rumble of Mobius' chuckle in his own chest. "Yeah, I noticed."

Loki pulls back and turns to face the water. He looks around - this part of the pier is empty now, save for an old couple on the other side. There's no one who's going to eavesdrop on what he's about to say. It's just him, Mobius and the ocean. Nothing to be afraid of.

He sits down on the bench behind them and waits until Mobius follows him. "Yesterday, I wanted to tell you why."

"Your sealskin?"

Loki barks a humorless laugh. "Yes."

Here it comes. Second try. His heart all but stops, the blood drains from his face, and the usual bitter shame starts grappling with his resolution to say it. After a long beat of silence, the words make it out of his mouth somehow.

"I'm adopted."

It's out. His secret - the revelation that broke his reality when he was sixteen. His blanched face fills with colour again as his embarrassment washes over him. The inescapable feeling that his worth has just dropped to nothing drags his gaze away from Mobius' surprised expression.

"I found out three years ago." He shifts his legs. "I suspected it sometimes. But when it turned out to be true…" He blows a long breath out through his mouth.

He expects one of the hurtful questions his counsellor prepared him for - is your brother your real brother? do you feel lucky? - but those are not the issues that Mobius focuses on.

He frowns in concern. "They didn't tell you?"

Loki shakes his head. He trails his gaze over the pink underbellies of the clouds above them, hoping that looking up will keep the wetness welling in his eyes from overflowing.

"My father thought it would be better if I grew up without doubting I was equal. As if the difference wasn't obvious." He scoffs. "I begged my mom to dye my hair blond when I was five."

Mobius seems to be at a loss for words. Not that Loki could blame him - he doubts that Mobius has ever talked about adoption with an adoptee before and he, in turn, has never discussed his own experience with anyone other than his counsellor and his nuclear family. He doesn't know what to tell. What's too much? He remembers stealing Odin's keys and sifting through every locked drawer in his parents' room, and the dread turning his body to ice when he found the adoption decree. He can't talk about that - it was life-shattering. Realizing he never fully fit anywhere.

"I had a fight with my father when I found out." He goes on, skipping the details. The ache after his screaming scraped his throat raw is still crystal clear in his memories. "I just… lost it. Completely flipped out."

"It's understandable."

Loki shakes his head. "Father bailed out of it. His blood pressure surged, and he collapsed. We had to call an ambulance. He was so angry with me that it almost killed him." He huffs a dark laugh. His resentment battles with his guilt, as always.

Mobius takes his hand. "I don't think he was mad at you."

"You don't know him." Loki says, but there's no bite in it. Only resignation. He looks at the shimmering water and tries to let the rhythmic sound of the waves cresting calm him. He's only halfway through the story, and the part that truly guts him is still unsaid. He clings to Mobius' hand as if it was a lifeline.

"Have you ever heard of Thanos?"

Mobius shakes his head.

"He, uh." Loki takes a deep breath, then another. "He has a gang in Seattle."

"Seattle?"

He can hear the bewilderment in Mobius' voice, can see it in his expression that he's trying to connect the dots. Loki's stomach roils. "When my father was in the hospital, I ran away to Seattle."

A small sound leaves Mobius' mouth as the realization hits. "He got you."

"I was an excellent pickpocket." Loki chuckles, trying to blink the tears away that cling to his eyelashes and burn behind his eyes. He wriggles the fingers of his free hand. "Nimble hands."

Mobius' hold tightens.

"That's why he saw potential in me. He helped me, so that I would get involved in his gang later. He liked to collect strays because they were easier to recruit. He gave me -" Loki's voice falters. Wetness tumbles down his cheeks in thin rivulets until he tastes salt on his lips. The wind blown in from the ocean dries the tracks, but new droplets paint it back on his overheated skin again. He can't breathe through his nose without sniffling, so he takes his shaky inhales through his mouth, stubbornly clinging to his illusion of composure.

"Antidepressants." He manages to say it at long last.

"Did he give you anything else?" Mobius asks. He's holding back, it's obvious, bracing himself for more. For worse.

Loki shakes his head, scattering a tear on his lap. When he swipes his hand under his chin, it comes away glistening in the light of the street lamp at the end of the pier. "We didn't get to that point."

He sees relief flash in Mobius' eyes.

"But that's how he started manipulating me." Loki goes on. This is the point that stirs self-hatred in his guts - the fact that he let himself be controlled like that. "I got extra pills if I did well."

Another squeeze from Mobius' hand. "What did he want you to do?"

"Whatever I was willing to give." He wipes his cheek. "That was his process. He waited for us to offer. He called himself a savior."

"Christ." Mobius mutters. No doubt imagining horrible things.

"I wasn't there too long. Just three weeks." Loki rushes to add. He sniffs. The weight on his chest is starting to ease off. "The pickpocketing was the worst I've done. I swear."

"You shouldn't have been in that situation at all."

"I brought it on myself. I was so stupid." Loki rubs the sticky-damp patches on his cheek. "Sometimes I can't believe that it was me who did those things."

Mobius kisses his hand. "You were a hurt and scared child."

"I don't want you to pity me."

"I don't pity you."

They watch each other for a long moment.

"Hard to believe." Loki says eventually.

Mobius' free hand touches his neck. "I admire your strength for finding your way back from that."

The tears start brimming in Loki's eyes again, but he can't quiet them this time. He lists to the side and lets Mobius embrace him. Mobius' arms shield him while he cries and cries until all the sadness, frustration and fear of this confession drain from his heart. They've barely scraped the surface, but he feels like his whole world has tilted on its axis again. There's someone who knows it now. Someone he's not lying to anymore.

He hopes it's not going to hurt him in the long run.

When his silent sobs have finally stopped, Mobius pulls him up from the bench. "Let's go home, okay?"

"Okay."

»»————-　　————-««

Driving back to Thor's place is difficult with puffy eyes and a chest still hitching every now and then, but he manages to follow Mobius' car somehow, and concentrating on the road calms him down. His head aches. The first thing he should do is sleep on this whole thing and wait for Mobius to think it through, to see if he thinks Loki is a fuck-up who's not worth the effort. He can't do it though. He craves Mobius' company so much that when they park the cars and Mobius walks him to the front door to say good night, he asks Mobius to come up.

"Just to talk." He adds.

Thankfully, Mobius doesn't point out that they have just talked. He says yes, and follows Loki up the stairs to Thor's flat. Thor's munching on something in the kitchen when they walk in through the door. He gives Loki a questioning look when he spots the redness around his eyes, but seeing Mobius there seems to be enough to placate him. He breaks into a warm grin and shakes Mobius' hand. Then, almost immediately, jumps into a conversation about Steve and some story he heard about a giant crab terrorizing the children at the beach.

If he wasn't dog tired from crying, Loki would roll his eyes, but he's grateful for his brother's presence now. Thor can keep Mobius entertained while he pops a painkiller and washes up a little. He pours himself a glass of water and hears the couch creak, then the TV turns on. Mobius comes up behind him and touches his waist.

"Are you sure I should stay?" He whispers.

Loki turns around and looks over Mobius' shoulder - Thor is watching some random documentary, scrolling through his phone with one hand. He doubts that it would bother him if Mobius stayed around for a while.

"Who knows, you might learn something about -" Loki glances at the screen again. "- flowers."

It's quite flat compared to his usual remarks but, to his defense, he's still shaken up from that conversation on the pier. Mobius seems to understand this as well, because he smiles, then gives Loki a chaste kiss. "Good point."

They watch the entire episode together, all three of them on the couch. Loki sits in the middle and zones out, resting his head on Mobius' shoulder. They hold hands. It's the safest he has felt in a long time. He doesn't straighten up until Thor bids them goodnight and shuts himself in his room.

"I didn't think he'd want to hang out." He says as an awkward apology, referring to Thor's third wheeling. "I don't get him sometimes."

Mobius' expression wavers between fond and amused. "I think he wanted to make sure I wouldn't make you cry again."

Loki shakes his head in exasperation and turns off the TV to let a comfortable silence descend on the room. Only the small lamp on the coffee table provides any light. Its shade casts criss-crossing shadows on the walls and Mobius' face. There are a thousand words on the tip of Loki's tongue, he wants to explain everything, to say he's not good enough for Mobius or to crack a sardonic joke about having a villain origin story, but he does neither. He puts his hands on his lap and clears his throat.

"Now that you know…" He licks his dry lips. "Do you see me differently?"

"No." Mobius says, then tilts his head to amend. "I wouldn't put it that way."

"Then how would you put it?"

They share a long look until Mobius gathers his thoughts.

"I know you better now, but the way I see you hasn't changed." He gestures at the TV. "I didn't know that forget-me-nots were called scorpion grass. It's an interesting fact. But when I look at the flower, the name won't make me think it's worth less. I'll still see it as unique and beautiful."

Loki's heart thuds double. Tingling warmth spreads through him from the top of his head to his toes. He smiles. "I love metaphors."

Mobius mirrors his expression. "Me too." He slides his arms around Loki's torso. "I don't care if you were adopted."

Although it's the same sentiment in other words, Loki can't help but blush deeper, pleased and happy and amazed beyond belief. He presses his lips to Mobius' and closes his eyes. For this one night, he's lighter than a feather.

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