#but i’m right anyways sooooo

[willow-lark]

there is nothing cool or sexy about kylo ren he literally fucking sucks. like yeah anakin was also a homicidal facist but the difference is anakin was camp. he was hot while doing it. he had the dramatic flair. he’s badass. he’s intimidating. he’s the most iconic movie villain of all time. kyle is literally just an emo neo nazi. there is zilch that is interesting about his character. sorry for speaking the truth

#star wars #darth vader #anakin skywalker #anti kylo ren #kyle ron #also #anti reylo #posts of lark #it’s been said before but im mad about it so ill say it again #n e ways #filed under: it is PAST LARK’S BEDTIME AND SHE SHOULD FUCKIN GO TO SLEEP #INSTEAD OF THINKING ABOUT DISCOURSE FROM 2017 #but i’m right anyways sooooo

[acrosstobear]

think i'm more alive somehow, i feel like myself right now.

"McLaren were very, very keen to have me onboard in their team and it was extremely nice to be wanted. I'm starting to be able to call it home."

OSCAR PIASTRI — April 6, 2001 —

#f1 #formula 1 #mclaren #oscar piastri #lando norris #f1edit #f1 edit #f1 fancam #fancam #vidvid #right now by gracie abrams #i know i’m sooooo behind on the bday edit but #it’s worth it anyways

[crustycrackhead]

StarHalo is literally when two knights duel: one is honorable and and one would throw dirt in the other’s eye to gain an advantage. Also they’re sweating and covered in blood.

#starhalo #Clay rambles #qsmp #sweet duo #I’m gonna die on this hill #but also like… q!Bbh being so annoying is sooooo he makes me wanna pull out his horns but ZAMN HE’S SO GOOD AT BEING A RAPSCALLION #I say annoying in like positive way btw if you even care cuz I love annoying people so much #like he’s so homestuck troll core if you know what I mean #but anyways that one person taht said the Griffindor and Slytherin analogy is so right for that #THATS THEM?!?? #like dude— most of the time I like just twirling them around my head like little ocs in my noggin #cuz… they’re yuri to me. in my heart of hearts they’re not toxic codependent yuri like 4 halo but a secret third option of rival yuri #rival yuri of the 2 where they start of as a duel but turn a claw filled battle rolling around in mud

[gayestbinnie]

an always sunny promo photoshoot photo can be so personal

#by personal i mean personal to me bc what does this mean #did glenn stick his had thru the loop of robs arm #OR did glenn put his hand there first and rob encircled it :) #also is glenn’s other hand on robs back #i screamed and then i scrumpted #i’m sooooo normal about this #so sos so sososo normal #wheww #rob mcelhenney #glenn howerton #macdennis #this counts as macdennis bc it’s a sunny promo photo right? #or is it idk i’m just guessing #anyways #iasip #always sunny

[itsalwaysforyou]

jay not asking coach about letting lonnie onto the team bc he doesn’t want to do anything coach might disagree with…….

#‘coach trusts me…’ like what if i cried #man i wish they made more of a thing of jay being TEAM CAPTAIN #<- i’ve made a post before abt how easily he gives it up & jay not liking positions of power etc etc #but i do think he treats the role like it could be taken away at any moment #coach TRUSTS him. holy shit coach trusts him #the first positive adult figure in his life trusts him to take care of the team #train them and critique them and lead them to victory #and coach probably wouldn’t have cared abt lonnie being on the team #but jay is sooooo hesitant to ask #coming from the ‘if you want it take it and if you can’t take it break it’ guy #like this is the one thing he doesn’t want to risk breaking……. #and then obviously he gives it up!!!!! #he gives up the thing coach TRUSTED HIM WITH bc it was the only way to let lonnie on the team #& mr ‘my only dislike is women being unhappy’ was like I CANNOT REST UNTIL LONNIE IS ON THE TEAM #it’s suchhhhh a sweet gesture not only from a hashtag feminism standpoint #but also character wise for jay #like this precious thing that coach has trusted him with but didn’t really want that much anyway….. #it’s going to mean more to lonnie if she had it. even though it means everything to jay #oh it makes me crazy #damn my mum was right. i think too deeply about things #im like i analyse things a normal amount and then i’m writing essays about 1 line from descendants 2 #I AM UNWELL #anyway. jesus christ #descendants #jay son of jafar #EDIT i’m not finished actually #do you think jay fears the repercussions? what would happen if he went against coach’s word? #bc sure. he knows coach is nice. he knows auradon isn’t like the isle #but. ‘you don’t want to be at my house at dinner time’……. #he is still scared of his dad. you know. he can never get the lamp he can never do anything right

[carefulfears]

what do you think mulder thinks of diana fowley after biogenesis through amor fati? i don't think we really see anything on screen/in text (though i think it says a lot that he didn't have much of a reaction when scully came to his apartment & instead focuses on scully & their relationship lol)

yeah there’s basically NOTHING in the text but tbh i think finding out for certain that she was working with CSM really kindaaaa snapped him out of some things…mulder doesn’t give a fuck what people do to him, obviously, but it’s a different thing entirely to find out that your ex is involved in something like that. like there are MILES from “my partner makes me feel like shit and is maybe pretty abusive” and “my partner is like 3rd on the call list of a eugenics group that treats women like test subjects”

like, scully was right, diana was monitoring MUFON women and collecting data on them. she was heading up the tests on cassandra. she probably knew the truth about samantha the whole time. just nasty nasty shit.

she’s the villain in the amor fati dream: the dismissive symbol of abandonment that offers another path.

one of the most interesting scenes of diana’s character to me, is in the sixth extinction, when she comes to see mulder in the hospital. and she knows what the effects of the artifact are, that he can hear what she’s thinking. that, therefore, he knows who she works for and what she’s doing. (imagine your ex-husband/wannabe boyfriend/obsession finds out you’re lying to him because he can read your mind….shit is crazy!)

and she tells him that she knows he knows. but that he also knows that she loves him.

and she does love him. there’s no reason to lie about that then, she knows he would be able to tell.

scully knows it without hearing it, that’s how she gets diana to save mulder’s life, ultimately. she comes to her and begs. tells her to please just think of him, who he is, who he was when she met him, who he is now. in the end, because of scully weaponizing how diana feels, diana can’t go through with it. she gives her life to help him.

diana seems to be one of those influences on mulder that’s only really all that significant when she’s close by. it’s like how all the tension in the beginning builds up to him getting in her car when she tells him to, leaving scully, when diana is there instructing him.

i think being able to know who she truly was and her true intentions and allegiances, prior to her death, really goes a long way in the way he responds to losing her.

don’t get me wrong, i think he’s upset. you can kind of see the shock cross his face when scully tells him. but he stays focused on his goal, which is to express to scully how important she is to him, in the wake of how discarded diana always made her feel.

mulder loved diana and grieves that she was killed, he doesn’t have it in him not to, but mostly he…wanted something from her, right? he wanted that approval and “affection” and to please her. he wanted her to believe him. the first thing that she says to disarm him (in the end) when she can tell he’s uneasy, is, “hey. i’m on your side.”

learning who she really is, it’s easier not to crave her approval so badly.

(this is the crux of amor fati’s “last temptation.” it’s diana saying: you’re childish. you are going to fail. your path is not your own. “you have to let go, fox.” and it’s scully countering: we need you. this is who you are.)

(it’s why he responds in the end by telling scully that it’s her that’s the voice of truth.)

and then in death, diana’s not…there for him to want anything from!! so it’s like, again, yeah he obviously feels the loss, this was someone who meant a lot to him for over a decade. but also it’s likeeeeee freeing in a way? it makes things simpler in a way? (he’s able to communicate all of that to scully instantly after hearing diana is gone, after over a year of the tension hanging around it)

if you asked him about diana now, or even a year later, i think he’d be like…damn that’s crazy! 😭😭 mulder doesn’t have an awful lot of object permanence you guys sjdjsjfj

when scully comes to tell mulder that diana was killed, and he says to her, “you were my friend, and you told me the truth,” the language matters so much. that’s what scully called diana, “i know she was your friend,” and he turns it back onto her. you were my friend. you told me the truth.

in my opinion, it’s not that he doesn’t love and grieve diana, but that there’s a freedom in knowing the truth. knowing who someone is, and their intentions. knowing who has your best interest at heart. knowing where you stand in the world, what you want to do.

that’s really what allows for the openness and lightness of s7, in the wake of diana’s absence. mulder’s always seeking, always learning.

#in a lot of ways diana knows mulder sooo well #like her mannerisms and every little word and phrase are so carefully chosen #like that moment in ‘the end’ when she says she’s on his side and takes his hand #her VERY first line on the show is telling a room full of people that she thinks mulder is right. that she believes him. #something she continues to enforce when she needs to #i was just looking at ‘the beginning’ and the way that when he kinda doesn’t trust her after she took over the x-files #and they find her outside #she says ‘fox. i’m going to get out of the car. i’m alone. alright?’ #like she communicates with him in a way where like….if she had good intentions it would be exactly how to help/calm him #but because she DOESNT it’s EXACTLY how to have him eating out of the palm of her hand #very interesting character very vile woman #anyway idk i think there’s something very ‘good for him!’ esque about how quickly he moves on from her 💀 #i think he’s able to for all the reasons i cited here about knowing what she’s doing and who she is #but mulder is sooooo easily wrapped up in trying to please someone or trying to help someone and getting in a shit situation #and that controls so much of their lives for so long #and i was trying to think about it and i feel like diana’s death kinda is the last time that he’s so trapped in that! #he still does it on a smaller extent ofc but it’s less about the person more the situation after diana if i recall #asks #amor fati #diana

[dimidarling]

A while ago I made my best interpretation from memory/assumption of a relationship chart for castleaudios’ Glenwood universe because I love it soooooooo much and was trying to explain some of the characters to a friend, and I realized it’s really hard to explain LOLL so I thought I’d post it for the Glenwood season 1 recap occasion since I’m about to get into the video!

[CW for series spoilers on this chart if you haven’t listened to it btw]

#this series is so easy to get fixated on its sooo good #if u guys like audio stories and reader/listener insert stuff and supernatural shenanigans hit it up !!! #I don’t asmrpost much bc I tend to enjoy it in my own little world but my friends knowwww how bonkers I’ve been abt glenwood #I have fic wips and everything I’m trying to get some of them to listen but #it’s hard (and I love and respect them for it. BUT. BUT.) #anyway I spend too long making this so I figured I’d post cause it seems like there’s a little fandom for it which makes me sooooo happy !! #I hope I got everything right like I said it was all memory/assumption #castleaudios #castleaudios glenwood #glenwood series #asmr #be niceys to me abt it btw I’m shyyy but I think it came out nice ! #rachelle’s is red w no heart btw bc it’s sorta posed as romantic or flirty or whatever but she sucks and it’s fake #fuck rachelle all my homies hate rachelle #canon one at least. friend au is acceptable

[dykestache]

🦷👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🧦🦟🍚

#spotify: *points at me* #DYKE #however it goes hard idgaf. hole is there too ofc #also best cock on the block is sooooo good i love u bitch and animal #i listened to eternally hard in FULL when i was 17 and still took 6 more years to accept im a lesbo . Okay #cannae believe i’m back to ze/hir lesbian identity like when i was 11. dude this is why we listen to kiddssssss #well they/ze/she now but :-) lil me had it right! waow! #i wish i’d never let comphet / trauma / cissexism fuck me up so bad but alas. #we live in a society #ok anyways. heæy im normal #photo diary #elfies

[theboost]

All of the rocky movies are on Netflix so I’ve been skim watching them and I truly think the greatest flaw of the character rocky balboa is not taking his brother in law out back with a baseball bat and beating him with it until something turned into pulp

#man sly stallones directing is rough in rocky 4. though I do always love to see dolph lundgren #there’s a robot here? I don’t understand the robot. I think Paulie is fucking this robot. the movie stops dead to show us the robot #I’m also not sure if rocky is supposed to have brain damage in this one? I know he for sure has it in 5 #I’m sooooo fascinated about this. apollo dies because he’s trying to win the cold war and then rocky wins it for him. it’s so dumb #rocky doesn’t care about politics! he cares about making his wife laugh. also like. sly. my man. I know #okay hold on. there’s a musical number happening. obviously the point is supposed to be American flash versus Russian simplicity but it’s so #strange. anyway I know sly wrote the first one but like he gets that’s apollo isn’t especially patriotic right. it was a gimmick for the #bicentennial. that’s why he had the American flag shorts. and rocky wearing them in 3 was symbolic because it was apollo passing the torch #guys I think this movie might be bad #weird tangent tag

[wantbytaemin]

good god.. been dealing with THINGS. very many of them

#i worked from home this whole week and only went in today and it was expectedly super exhausting and not productive #but i also worked the whole weekend too and i am so totally spent like burnt out emotionally and on every other level LMAO. anyway #i came home to roommate and she was like oh I was hoping you’d want to go for a walk and i was like listen my love i am not in shape to #even breathe-in breathe-out right now without falling apart and she was like ok got it! and went for the walk herself and she brought back #my favorite sour candies and my favorite watermelon cider and . oh my god get this i’ve been meaning to replace the battery on my AirTag i #keep in my car bc I always park it where the fuck ever and forget #and she actually got me the AirTag as a bday gift but i digress. anyway i always forget which battery i need and she went and bought it for #me and said this is to ‘refill your battery hehe’ and i’ve also . been told some other things like borderline incredible things (positive) #(not by her but well. someone else. shan’t say it and such) #and it’s just sooooo much all at once i feel like i’m exploding i need to decompress for one thousand years #like this is mostly positive trust me i just have not been shown love for so direly insanely long and now im receiving it in a genuine way #and idk how to even deal with it or how to express my gratefulness like how do you. how do you begin to give all of that back im dizzy

[redrattlers]

:))

#my 7th hmr show was tonight and i’m just so #ahhhhhhhhh #feeling so much #hmr is the ~first~ band i found on my own and loved right away #i saw them for the first time when i was 14 #i remember crying to my mom begging to let me go to montreal alone with my friend to see the show #im 25 now isn’t that wild #one of the few constant in my life like they’ve seen every version of me in that crowd #idk man the show was so good and i love them very much #OH AND I GOT TO HEAR MY FAV SONG OF THIS YEAR AND IT WAS SOOOOO GOODDDDD AAAHHHHH #they’re so dear to me #anyways #good night #🫶

[bibleofficial]

i’ve been being held hostage by social situations since i got up all i wanted to do was go to get groceries & to the pharmacy for toiletries but then i ran into a neighbour at the pharmacy & then we walk to tj maxx bc he was insistent & i didn’t want to be rude & then we get back to the flats like 15 min before the town hall meeting & then we go & it’s not even a real town hall so i was BEEFIN for NOTHIN & it ran FOREVER & then i ran into the 2 in the flat below me & then raid forcefed me & i got in to my room 5 to midnight 😭😭

#diary #like i’m just #OVER IT #I DIDNT EVEN GET THE GROCERIES 😭😭😭😭 #i’ve just been craving water & that’s what i’m making myself do now like we haven’t had water in forever i can feel my organs shriveling up #but i didn’t even get to workout today which i was also planning on doing but the town hall went forever #like girl #ok love my neighbours but y’all … #SHUT THE FUCK UP !!!!! #IM DYING #my flatmate are wonderful i’ve been seeing them periodically #ok so also chin’s name isn’t chin it’s CHINT bc omar asked him in class ‘what does ur name mean’ like asshole not all names mean things 😭😭😭😭 #he asked jakob what his name meant & it’s that his parents wanted him to go by jake so they used the k ALSKALSKALSKALSKLASKLAKSLA #but anyway back to chint but we gossip abt food bc he bears witness to my insanity at like midnight & he’s like ‘ur cooking ?’ yes :D ‘right #now ?’ AKSKALSKALSKAKKSAKKSALJSLA bc it’s like 1am #LIKE SIR LETS MIND OUR BUSINESS I KNOW UR ASS B COOKIN IN THAT RICE COOKER WE SEE U WE KNOW UR TRICKS #ITS STILL 1AM FOR U TOO MS TING #ANYWAY i love them & i hate my life yall i just want to be dead sooooo bad

[1327-1]

my relationship with religion is soooo like ok god. thank u for making me special in a fucked up way

#yknow when u grow up kindve religious to the point where u took reaaall serious as a kid #and then u’re pulled out of it and no one takes u to church for a lot of variables #and then u learn u were never baptized out of all ur entire family #and then u’re an adult and u still have this longing but just Know u will never know god the same way #and u’re told by ur mother that u should go to church #and everytime u’re around church its comforting but also not without abandon #what can i say im a little black sheep and we all know why i’m not religious including myself #but there is still Something about it #and i would bite someone if they told me ‘its probably for the best’ #poc with weird religious ties can i get a wahoo #prayer has just been sooo its Sooooo…….. #anyways #waking up with normal thoughts #.jrnl #everyone who chose a religious character and started doing saw trap shit to them has the right idea

[rinhaler]

I tidied my office today but at what cost

#🧚🏽‍♀️ — luxe chit chat #I’m sooooo sore #I’ve had the same back problem for like two years now and everything is such a struggle man #I can barely stand and I just have the worst time walking #so doing chores that should take a few hours end up taking the entire day ☹️ #it’s not done but it’s done enough #OH AND MY FKN CABINET GOT CANCELLED #they are sending out a new one with a different courier but who knows when that’ll get here #but hopefully my office will feel a lot nicer when that comes #anyway cleaning all day made me super stinky so I just showered #even standing in the shower was exhausting! #currently sitting on the toilet lid trying to recuperate some strength #did I use recuperate right idts #I wanna be in bed so bad #might have to crawl there at this rate askfslfieu

[sexynetra]

A bit random, but I'm really curious... how did find out you were a lesbian? Because I'm trying to find out about myself (I'm a girl) and the only thing I'm sure is that there are people that attract me and people that don't... not necessarily related to gender.

Omg hi darling!

I wish there was some sort of shortcut to figuring out sexuality but unfortunately it’s a lot of trial and error in my experience.

When I first came out over a decade ago, I identified as pansexual, and I liked that label for a few years. I was like. Maybe 12 or 13 at most and honestly didn’t even fully understand what attraction felt like. That morphed to queer eventually because I didn’t really know how to describe what I was feeling or what my experience was, but I knew it fell under the umbrella.

Probably 4-5 years ago I started… dipping my toe into lesbian identity? Before that all I had in terms of calling myself a lesbian was crying to my friends that I might be a lesbian every time I had mediocre sex with a guy, but i didn’t for real start considering it until later. I honestly started so small, like using lesbian flag backgrounds whenever I made a picrew or making lesbian jokes around online friends, which morphed into lesbian jokes with real life friends.

It was kind of a slow progression but I essentially lived my life as a lesbian, made jokes about being a lesbian, continued to use lesbian imagery online, but kept calling myself queer because for some reason I was scared to take the plunge 😂

Anyways long story short, I kind of fell into my full true lesbian identity by accident, my friends (who knew my family was super accepting and that I was out to them) started making lesbian jokes about me around my parents and at one point my best friend told my mom that Im lesbian (I was out to her as queer, but not lesbian). If I wasn’t me that would have been very bad, but my parents are wonderful incredible amazing Allies and I found it extraordinarily funny, but also it helped me finally get over that last invisible hurdle I had with calling myself a lesbian.

Anyways I’m very lucky to live in a super open accepting community, have super supportive family and friends (and lovely elder lesbian aunts who I would kill for), and not really have any major risks (for the most part) to being openly lesbian where I live, but it still took me MANY years and many labels to accept and embrace myself.

Anyways that’s a super long winded answer and life story you fully didn’t ask for, but in my experience, trying to force yourself to fit into a label doesn’t work out, and just letting yourself exist and like what you like and not worry so much about the “correct” language is going to make you happier in the long run! You may be lesbian, you may not, honestly I recommend trying calling yourself a lesbian in online conversations, putting the lesbian flag on picrews if those are still a thing, just small easy things to see how it feels and if it feels right.

Plus, there’s no one way to be a lesbian! Gender and sexuality and attraction are waaaaay too complex to box things in so narrowly, don’t let the chronically online people tell you you’re doing it “wrong”

Anyways I love you, I hope you have a smooth journey discovering yourself, and my DM’s are always open if you need anything at all. Nothing means more to me than helping other queer people embrace themselves and blossom!!!

#this is so long I’m so sorry #anyways I wish it was an easy process but alas! #your experience is real and valid regardless of what a predefined label says you should feel #and the labels are sooooo fluid and so complex #lesbianism is so much more than the watered down strictly delineated stuff you see on like… tiktok #also! if you try a label for a while and it doesn’t feel right #you can just… switch it up!!! #sexuality isn’t a one and done you don’t lock yourself into a label forever #things can change and what might be right for you at one age is no longer right at another #I think I have always been a lesbian but I also think that for my experience in the world and my life as a tween; #calling myself pan was absolutely the correct thing #and it was an identity that helped me come into my own and gave me a sense of power and pride #so even if I’m not pan now; my decision to identify that way when I was young isn’t something I regret in the slightest #asks #sexuality #lesbian #lesbianism #queer #anyways I love you so much anon you don’t even know and the fact that you came to me with this makes me feel like crying (in a good way) #literally all I want to do ever is support and uplift queer youth like if I don’t go into a career that centers queer activism and support #then I have failed #anyways I am always here to listen please feel free to dm if you want to chat or send in more messages if you prefer to stay anonymous #I will always be here to listen and support and help any way I can!!!!

[peapod20001]

I wonder how many times I’ve googled whether I’m having a panic attack or an anxiety attack...

#vent #hohohahhaoho anyways #I am sooooo bad responding to things.... #anyways I’m literally less than five seconds my heartbeat shot up to 144 bpm so. fun <3 my lucky number 44 wouldn’t have it any other way #anyways I need to cry but I can’t cry so you understand. I’m pacing my room and standing with locked knees #and trying not to fumble or bump into things while makin my sister a snack while smilin and being normal <3 #do u understand. ough what is with TODAY whhhhh. is it the aderall?? did the adderall fuck me up today?? or ?? wha?? #oghghgg why am I so sweaty JUST in my pits like that’s the WORST spot to be sweaty in #kitty is here <3 she can sense when I’m crazy 🤪🤪 #I’m at 160 now <3 ogohohoo ahhhhh I can’t lay down right like that the one thing you shouldn’t do with a fast heart rate #hoho anyways the crippling fear of not being who I need to be for the people I need in order to be #sounds chaotic and strange cus of phrasing but. you understand #anyways my heart doesn’t even get like this when I’m like. performing a full page monologue in front of my peers #I can pretend to be a cat for a minute and a half and tell the dog to stay in their place and not get into mine #uhmmm yea idk I want people to feel comfortable being serious around me and prove I’m the friend to go to for things or be the one who under #understands. but I always feel like. a pariah. is that the word? idk. when I feel confronted with things all I can do is like. run away. cry #suffer alone cus it’s what I deserve. yeaaaa I’m going insane can you tell I think this is the first time since like. February where I feeL #SO bad ugh idk what. I did this to myself the fuck?? haha. hope it doesn’t stress me to hair loss and skin picking and disorderd eating and #bad (or should I say worse HA) sleep habits. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sorry my problems are minuscule to others and I haven’t had a day of #any real discrimination or struggle in my life #i have everything I need. all I have to worry about is doing class work and attending lectures and watching plays. I don’t have to get thing #a myself or worry about food or a place to live. wooofff uhmmm. I wish I had someone here to squeeze me until I don’t feel like crying any #more. oh I feel so bad what the hell. and my nail is breaking ahahaha imagine. a life where my biggest problem I have to face is #a nail breaking mhmhmhaha #haha when you hold in your tears so hard your nose drenches your chin. sorry that’s gross ahaha idk what I’m doing flooding your dash with. #whatever this is. I’ll try to stop now. sorry