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found-the-secrets-in-your-eyes · 1 year

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#the funny thing is the one time someone was hateful towards me on account of me being a fag i dont even remember the act #i just remember the feeling #i remember going up to my parents at the ripe age of 12 and saying my best friend is using the f slur #and them asking if he was using it against me #and me lying #i remember knowing i was lying when i said no #not against me #and i remember feeling hurt #and then talking to another kid as i hung around the back of the group instead of with my old friends #and him asking if i was doing 'she loves me she loves me not'#and me saying 'yes thats what im doing'#and him lighting up #and i knew he was gay #and i was so glad he was there #and i dont know if he knew he was gay yet #we were catholic school kids yk?#but i remember feeling heartbroken #and then that kid

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berryblooo · 9 months

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Scaramona (as in the Harbinger, Scaramouche, and Mona) will always be the blueprint for the bickering, the clash of beliefs and worldviews, but more and more I come to love and appreciate Wandermona.

As the Wanderer, he’s now had to confront his previously held notions, to challenge his sense of self and his place in the world. He is discovering who he can be in this second chance he’s been given.

Mona’s story is still just beginning. Like Scaramouche, she has a very defined sense of self—genius astrologist, set on surpassing her master. I believe that also like Scaramouche, she will be forced to confront her worldviews when they are thrown back in her face (“The stars, the sky… it’s all a gigantic hoax. A lie.”) and have to redefine herself with this new knowledge.

Where Scaramona was about bickering and clashing ideals, I see Wandermona has an opportunity for discovery, reflection, overcoming. Traveling Teyvat together is one of my favorite headcanons (it’s almost a motif for me at this point) for them, and it suits Wandermona even more than Scaramona.

Mona and the Wanderer, trekking across the seven nations, sleeping under the stars, stopping by every bookstore and library to read, arguing about academics and the nature of fate and self-determination.

#scaramona #wandermona #this was all spurred by that gif of wanderer napping on a rock #I’m imagining Mona coming across him while making her way through Sumeru #she doesn’t remember him but he never forgot her or their encounter #he knows he should let her walk away but he finds excuses to accompany her #somehow someway they become travel companions (for a time it’s only temporary he tells himself)#he’s invested in her astrological research and what it can tell him about his own existence #eventually Mona remembers everything #it’s both exactly what he wanted and what he feared #Mona is hurt she is betrayed she is furious she is heartbroken #you lied to me #you deceived me #I didn’t #this is who I am #how was I supposed to tell you?#where do they go from here? they are at the edges of the world and the moon feels closer and more tangible than the rest of Teyvat #it’s just him and her and the scattered pieces of who they are #so slowly and painstakingly they work together to put them together to form a more complete picture

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nagihonos · 8 months

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i actually love the zakenna butlers so much, theyre genuinely one of my favorite things about max heart. literally worlds silliest creatures

#I CANT THJNK OF WHAT HAPPENS TO THEM? DO THEY DIE?????????#no i feel like if they died i would remember id be heartbroken #fwpc #futari wa precure max heart

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karlyboyyy · 10 months

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I think what makes me so insane about teenage Gojo and Geto is the fact that this part of the story takes place in 2006. You know who else was a teen in 2006? Me. And these two cocky loser idiots are exactly the type of cocky loser idiots an awkward 14-year-old me would have gone gaga bananas over in real life

#like I can actually remember multiple dudes I had crushes on who looked and/or acted just like them lol #so basically they make me feel like a squealing schoolgirl #what’s even funnier?#14yr old me probably would’ve been too wrapped up in my own feelings to realize they were actually in love with each other #lmao I would’ve been heartbroken for like 30 seconds #only to be like ‘actually no this is so much better’#jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen season 2 #jjk #jjk season 2 #jjk s2 #gojo satoru #geto suguru

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pragmatic-optimist · 1 year

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It doesn’t always look like darkness Disheveled Discombobulated Sometimes it looks like dance Like joy Like syncopated rhythms Like grace Like choreography channelling Ancestor’s dreams Powerful Successful Enviable Sometimes we get so good At the act At the entertainment At wearing the mask That we can fool ourselves A little bit Long enough for the public To believe That we Have it all together That the airbrush portrait Is real The Instagram smile Is permanent The the steps aren’t automatic That happiness 24/7 isn’t toxic But the truth is Living is hard Lonely is real Grief is too heavy to hold People don’t check On the strong friends The smiling friends The dancing friends The friends who look like They are on top of the world Looks are often liars Hopelessness can grow Like weeds in the most beautiful Garden It doesn’t always look like Darkness And it’s so hard to say the words Out loud “I need help This is too much I don’t want to try anymore” Because we clap for stunning Clap for the performance And ignore those in pain It doesn’t always look like darkness Sometimes it just looks like Our reflection In the Mirror Sometimes it’s just too hard To stay in the light If life feels like it is too much to take one more step let someone hold your hand while you walk You aren’t alone You aren’t the only one I’ve had those thoughts too You are not alone I promise National Suicide prevention lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Poem by Lesle Honore.

Rest in power and light, Stephen.🕊️🖤

#this beautiful man was pure light ✨#i am truly so heartbroken over this #going to remember him always #life can be really fucking hard #when life feels overwhelming #please remember you're never alone #twitch #stephen twitch boss #stephen boss #tw: death #tw: suicide #tw: sui thoughts

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cainware · 1 year

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Physically ill over the thought that if Wolfwood were to be reincarnated, it would be Vash's luck that he never finds him until he gives up looking completely and then seeing that familiar face in the crowd hits him like a truck

#cainscontent #more thoughts im bringing here from twitter #reincarnation is a trope that i both adore and despise for how it breaks my heart #you never find what youre looking for until you stop searching haunts my dreams fr #can you imagine it how you spend so so long #probably centuries in vashs case #looking for the man you loved more than anything your best friend your one person that knew you better than anyone #and its only when you finally give up #tired and exhausted and heartbroken and with the vague sense of hopelessness #that you see his face in the crowd and its like being hit by a truck #the faces in the crowd blur completely and all you see is him #the man youve longed for and mourned and missed and failed #and here he is again and you feel your world shatter all over again #because do you deserve thos #do you deserve a second chance to be happy with him?#would he even want to know you if he found out you were seeing a past version of him in everything he did?#would he remember you?#and would you forgive yourself if you left him alone to live out his life without the curse of knowing you?#wolfwood #vash #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #trigun

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strawberyslut · 2 years

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My luna moth is on day 8 of her week-long life.

#me #pastel #my face #selfie #moths #insects #luna moth #tw bugs #i feel kinda bad taking photos with her #but i want to have something to look back on to remember her #plus she likes sitting on my hand and it makes me feel like a princess #i love her so much #im going to be so heartbroken when she passes

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possession1981 · 9 months

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keira knightley has been married for 10 yrs that's wild

#p #bc i remember when i was mildly heartbroken over this it does not feel like 10 yrs ago skjfkjsdgb

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roaringroa · 2 years

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me at 12 am: okay, i really need to sleep since I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow

my brain: i recognize that but what if you had the urge to write 1.4k words worth of a messy character analysis of nozomi from liz and the blue bird/hibike euphonium

me: goddamnit

#hibike euphonium #liz and the blue bird #i love the movie as a whole but every time i watch it i find myself focusing more and more on nozomi #she's so interesting!!!#mizore is stoic but easy to read while nozomi hides so much of herself despite her outwardyl cheerful appearence #and in a much more subtle way than most characters i've seen who just straight up say things like #i pretend to be happy or whatever #but with nozomi if you don't pay attention you take her for a social butterfly who doesn't need mizore as much as mizore needs her #like i've seen ppl call her a bitch and say she doesn't care about mizore when that can't be further from the truth #can't you see how heartbroken she was when she realized mizore was holding herself back?#can't you see how guilty she still feels about the whole 1st years situation?#how she can't handle confrontation which is what caused that situation in the first place #and why she keeps interrupting mizore when shit gets too real?#can't you see that despite what she tells mizore she does remember their first meeting?#that she tells mizore otherwise because that's her way of making mizore let go just like liz did?#that she compliments mizore's music not because she doesn't reciprocate mizore's confession but because mizore needs to #understand she's truly special and she has to pursue music for herself and not for nozomi #nozomi can't reciprocate and tie her down again right when mizore is about to take flight!#anyway i love this movie and i love these two and i love nozomi #and i hate nozomi haters #you all owe me an egg #my post

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polaroidcats · 8 months

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just got reminded of one of my favorite bittersweet memories from the closet/denial - when I was 15 we had an exchange student from the US stay with us for a few days and I got along so well with her, and we wrote endless fb messages and emails and letters and I just felt like we were soulmates and cried when she left and couldn't wait to visit her a few months later on a school trip, and I remember sitting in her car with her and singing along to Katy Perry's "I Kissed A Girl" because i had just bought cherry chapstick so she started playing the song, and my heart started beating faster when she started to sing along and I just remember not knowing what it was but knowing it was a special kind of friendship. I attributed it to the circumstances and the traveling and all the excitement of a school trip, and only years later, when I read her coming out post on facebook something in me clicked and made me realise how obvious it could have been to me that I had a crush on her if I'd had the language for it at 15.