#but articulating is hard

[mmavverickk]

The way the fandom somehow forgets that the only reason Iapetus became Bob is because he was straight up trying to kill Percy. Percy didn’t actually have an obligation to the murderous Titan he memory-wiped to save his life and his two cousins. The only he thought about Bob after SOH was probably something along the lines of “one less Titan to fight” and nothing else, because again, he tried to kill Percy. This doesn’t even touch on the fact that Hades would not allow Percy to visit the Underworld to visit Bob; the very next time Percy comes to the Underworld, he gets locked in a cell. Like, nice of Nico to talk to Bob and all, but Percy had no reason to think this was occurring or to ever think about what was going on with that one Titan who almost killed him. I beg of some of y’all to think about context

bestie i love Bob but i could list reasons why Percy has no obligation to him, and vice versa.

Bob came into being because Iapetus was trying to kill Percy. he was borne from a fight to the death that Percy only survived because he was smart enough to use his surroundings to his advantage. Percy could have left him alone, confused, and empty on the banks of the Lethe. it would have been well within his rights as a kid who'd just almost died at this being's hand. instead, he took him to Hades, who would, if not take care of him, at least keep him safe. any obligation Percy may have had to the titan ended there.

and Bob? he didn't have to go down to Tartarus for Percy. that he did just shows how kind Iapetus could be, at his base, with no memories interfering with his loyalties. Bob remembers Percy saying they were friends, and that's it. nothing more from him. he goes to help because Nico told Bob how good a friend Percy could be. and once he gets to Tartarus? Percy immediately starts manipulating him again. rather than 'this is who you are,' it's 'this is what to do' and it's subtle enough that it can be disguised as a friend helping a friend! and Percy may even think of Bob as a friend, but that's not what he is first and foremost. first and foremost, he's a titan who needs to be kept in check.

gosh i love their dynamic. it's so intricate.

#this took awhile #but articulating is hard #bob the titan #percy jackson #dark percy jackson #mav.ask #pjo #pjo headcanon

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[tinartss]

something something two guys walk into a garden

#don't perceive this too hard LOL i am just doodling while thinking abt them (specifically haitham’s teaser) #but!! stumbled upon this rlly beautifully written thread that perfectly articulates this particular flavor of them omg #https://twitter.com/lanwanggia/status/1741372268888867308 #do links hyperlink in the tags #idk i guess we will find out #haikaveh #kavetham #genshin impact

[kait-bait8]

I will never stop thinking about the fact that the Hunger Games was canonically a drunk hypothetical. It wasn’t some great government scheme.

So many bad dystopian novels that have some crazy world building premise make it seem like some great creation from powerful minds. Some great construction. Think of City of Ember with its box or Divergent with its weird scientists(??) or The Selection with its bachelor premise, they are always “grandly designed.” Even in Catching Fire with the Quarter Quells the Games give off an air of grand planning.

But the hunger games were a HYPOTHETICAL. A crazy, extreme, what if. They were never supposed to exist. They were never supposed to be real.

Who wouldn’t drink themselves to death knowing they thought of the idea in the first place?

#it’s just SO good in ways I can’t articulate #I’m tired and words are hard #BUT IT WAS A DUMB DRUNK CONVERSATION #probably just angry ranting #but then real children killed and were killed by other real children #ugh it’s too much #the hunger games #thg #tbosas

[poppedbubblgum]

Back on my nonsense with another self indulgent comic turned storyboard and value practice.

But for a bit more context, Raph gets massive migraines after the invasion as result of the krangification and mind probing. Mikey definitely knows what’s going on, but can’t get Raph to admit that he needs help.

#my art #sketchy #rottmnt #i have a lot more thoughts on the post-invasion situation but I’m bad at articulating my thoughts in words #just know that this conversation has happened more than once #also if it’s hard to tell who’s speaking tell me and I’ll fix it

[glitterghost]

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like there is a particular kind of sadness (or loneliness, if you will) that ace/aro folk feel.

#asexual #asexuality #aspec #aromantic #aro #arospec #lgbtqia #am I wrong or no? #its like a sorrow on a frequency only other ace folk can detect #or say ah ha yes i feel this #this makes sense #i can incoherently ramble a feeling or a thought and others who identifying *get* it like it's a language we both speak #fluent in a common wave of ace-solation if you will #anyway just wanting to throw this out there again #i know i had a vague post similar to this that blew up but its always so hard to articulate the feeling #and maybe this will reach others that relate and agree to this that will make them feel less alone #wow these tags are messy and full of typos #lots of love to my loney ace and aro specs buddies #💜💚💜💚💜

[stardustdiiving]

HI… I MADE A GENSHIN QUIZ… You guys should take it and tell me what you got

#Genshin #fern.txt #quizzes #SORRY THE ANSWERS ARE WORDY IM FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE #let me know if it’s accurate it’s kind of hit and miss but I’m #forcing myself not to nitpick it more #it is really hard to articulate the vibes of each vision I had like every genshin characters tab open to study their vision stories #and then there’s always that one guy who makes me have to reword how to describe the element SMH #(i actually did most of it last year but revamped it) #fandomferns

[bisexual-steveharrington]

something something Buffy has paint on her face in the same place Spike has blood on his face, something something red string of fate, something something destiny

#btvs #school hard #its another rewatch #buffy the vampire slayer #spike #buffy summers #buffy #buffy x spike #spuffy #SOMEONE ELSE ARTICULATE THIS FOR ME #also trashbag pictures

[codename-adler]

i’m afraid of diving into good omens tumblr discourse but i just–i have to say

Aziraphale’s face. it’s. that is the expression of someone who does not want to be kissed, but knows it’s inevitable. though even more subtle than that, it’s the face of someone who does not want the thing to happen not because they don’t want it, but because they do, they really do, and yet it is not the way they wish it would be. Aziraphale knows something here. and he isn’t telling Crowley, nor us. he’s got some kind of higher pressure weighing down on him, forcing him to act against his nature and heart, forcing him to act against Crowley. he backs Crowley into a corner with his talk of joining Metatron in Heaven, and knows it. and that is what he wants, because that’s where he needs Crowley to be–away from him; but he pushes too strong, pushes Crowley to risk it all and end up cornering Aziraphale right back. all Aziraphale wanted, all he needed to do, was protect Crowley by breaking his heart and abandoning him, but you can’t undo 6,000 years of companionship without a miracle. it’s a failure.

whatever the Metatron told or did to Aziraphale that was hidden from us, it terrified him enough to make up a wobbly plan that could keep Crowley safe, if he would just go along with it. Aziraphale may have been strong enough, may have loved Crowley that much, to put his heart on the line and sacrifice himself if it meant Crowley could live on, but he underestimated Crowley’s love for him. underestimated Crowley’s courage and capacity for honesty.

the angel lied and the demon spoke his truth and everything crashed and failed.

and it is painful failure and remorse that i see on Aziraphale’s face.

it’s Please don’t ruin my attempt at saving you and Can’t you see what I’m trying to do and I’m sorry I’m breaking your heart but I have to if I want to keep you and To choose you I have to choose Heaven but I know you’re not seeing it that way and Crowley look at me I’m lying just go along and

Oh no, you believed me entirely too much, what have I done?

with the kiss, Crowley seals his fate as undeniably tied to Aziraphale’s. and Metatron will know.

#sorry aftg fam for this special good omens broadcast #anywhoo #i’m trying so hard to articulate what i see in every line of aziraphales face in this shot #he’s so afraid #not of crowley but FOR crowley #like he’s watching Crowley doom himself all over again but this time it’s for him because of him #and he wasn’t good enough to protect his demon #´No Crowley no no no no don’t do this please don’t do this he will know Metatron will know you mustn’t please!’ #nothing can stop Crowley’s love for Aziraphale and angel wants to cry for the unfairness of it all #where does this face fit in the grand scheme of s3 i don’t know #good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #ineffable fandom #neil gaiman #david tennant and michael sheen #david tennant #michael sheen #anthony j crowley #aziracrow #good god good omens #terry pratchett

[thelaurenshippen]

I think the thing that, like, has me fully frothing at the mouth about the way the last of us transformed bill's story is how it flipped on its head what bill does in the narrative. in the game (at least in my interpretation), he is the epitome of the living vs. surviving dichotomy, an example on how you can do everything you can to survive as long as you can and be absofuckinglutely miserable and alone if you continue to shove down parts of yourself and keep everyone at arm's length. he's what joel could become if he's not careful.

and in the show, he's the opposite - he's the example of how you can change your ways in the worst circumstances, how letting someone in is actually the most powerful thing you can do, how surviving isn't enough, isn't worthwhile, if you don't have love, if you don't have something to live for. and where in the game he was a portent of joel's future if he continued down the path he was on, in the show he's a contrast of what joel already is. joel, who couldn't tell tess he loved her, joel who can be detached enough to dispose of the corpse of a child, joel who doesn't allow himself to mourn the death of his friends for more than a few seconds. bill of the game was that way, except he still helped joel and ellie out. joel of the tv show is where bill was, but he still gives ellie his jacket when its cold, his food when she's hungry.

and in doing all of that, and with knowing what's coming, the last of us has said "love will save you. it doesn't matter if its romantic love or familial love, no matter the people involved, love is the most natural thing we do, and if you try to push it away, it will be that that kills you."

#the last of us #tlou #the last of us spoilers #tlou spoilers #idk if this makes ANY sense #I'm having a hard time articulating my thoughts exactly #but just like #joel has SO much further to go to love ellie in the show than he does in the game #which is WILD bc he has so far to go in the game #and I looveeeeeeee that #I love that he is going to have to work so hard because THAT'S THE POINT #letting yourself love isn't easy but it IS worthwhile #lauren feels things

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #masato arakawa #ryo aoki #snap sketches #AH jumpscare #i aint drawn aoki or masato (funny as hell i have to distinguish) in forever BYYYYYEE i miss him. i want him to be even more dead #my favorite genre of masato art is aoki killnig him so its my turn to do that. kinda. in spirit #Understandably its always aoki as the aggressor but i wanted to ask myself Can I Flip It #evidently aoki wasnt happy even with all of his power and all.. it makes me wonder how much his self hatred exists in aoki #A LOT EVIDENTLY LMAOOO but im having issues trying to articulate what i mean #aoki is very much a persona Fake Through And Through so sometimes i wonder if aoki ever gets tired of having to act all the time #he's on edge all the time and constantly trying to figure out how to use people instead of just. chilling LMAO GROW UP #he refuses to let himself be genuine and vulnerable with others yet at the same time he wants the love that comes with that #sure his new persona gives him the life he wanted but its gotta be wild to think 'people only like me for what i can do for them' #its hard to accurately describe what i was thinking while drawing these i just know i like rattling masato in a can #there's just so many layers to him it makes my brain itch SOOOO bad #having the love and sincerity he said he always wanted but not being able to see it because of his own self hatred... wild... #relatable... im gonna throw up... he still sucks tho lol...... #ok bye im gonna contemplate drawing something moody cause i guess it's a moody sunday idk sue me

[hoofpeet]

I'd probably have to read the printed version and web version back to back at some point to note all the differences but... ough

#sorry i'm going to be excited about this comic for the next month #nofna #okay having finished this now-- #and sorry if this doesn't make sense to anyone who's completely unfamiliar with this comic in advance- #the 'popcorn ending' (printed version) is nice to see but i think the web version hits harder. if that makes sense #so i'm kinda tied on which ending i 'prefer'- i think both are good though #also considering i've read the web version a good 4-5 times and the printed version only once- i probably can't make that judgement yet #easy answer- i do like Nutsedge :] so it's nice to see the ending where nothing bad happens to her #but also- NT suddenly becoming a greenie-esque villain out of nowhere felt a little jarring #as well as SV suddenly turning a corner and becoming a 'good guy' (arguable)- considering the first three books are about #/him being too stubborn to change or accept any outside worldviews . Him suddenly coming to his senses felt out of place #<- probably biased because i like characters being bitter to the end and ultimately destroyed by their own hubris #the web version is probably‚ objectively‚ a bit better #but - #(spoilers- if you're planning to drop ~70 bucks on getting these books) #the conceit of SV actually perfecting his style‚ using it once‚ and then immediately getting tooth-brained- was pretty cool #assuming it's meant to parallel him spending months tormented by trying to perfect it while something's still missing- #and then dying before he can narrate it to the audience‚ so that we never know what he figured out. #hard to articulate these thoughts but tl;dr- popcorn ending also had a lot to think about

[hylianane]

Do you think. That after Sanji asked Zoro to kill him. He took a moment wonder if, had Kuina lived to adulthood, at the end of their journey, would whoever killed Mihawk first have to fight the other to protect their title? Do you think the next time they fought after Sanji’s request, Kitetsu would cut just a little too close to Sanji’s throat, because her master was too preoccupied thinking, would I have been able to do it? Kill her, if it came to that? For my dream? and later when he’s carefully wiping Sanji’s blood off his blade, do you think, that maybe he would think- the dream was hers before it was mine. Would I have felt betrayed, then, if she killed me? Or proud? Pleased? Happy?

When Sanji interrupts his thoughts to say, what the hell has got you so distracted? Am I too boring for you to take seriously? do you think Zoro would glare at him in silence cause there’s no way for him to articulate that he’s never taken anything more seriously in his life.

#Sanji and Kuina taking up the same space in Zoro’s brain my absolute beloved. #Like yeah there’s also a parallel you can make between Kuina and Luffy in how they represent Zoro’s dreams but #Their dynamic as friends is different #Zoro is able to communicate rather freely with Luffy #With Sanji its more of the same thrown insults and play fights and secret admiration and inability to say the word ‘friend’ #and now I’m thinking about how Kuina died the same night her and Zoro spoke honestly for the first time #and I wonder if Zoro regrets that #I WONDER if he didnt realize he has a second chance at fixing it until Sanji’s life was placed in real danger #This is all so hard for me to articulate does anyone get it. Hello. Hello? #one piece #roronoa zoro #blackleg sanji #shimotsuki kuina #zosan #cause a death pact is always romantic #my post

[kumatm]

Tumble should also know that I’ve got a girlfriend and I love her very much

#do not fucking tell her that I’m up rn bc I’m always getting onto her about staying up late #anyways its 2am and I love her very much #I have a hard time articulating how I feel and it’s my business not yours #BUT #she’s so sweet and funny and gets me in a way that no one I’ve every met in my entire life has #it’s as though we were made in the same mold by different chefs #anywayyyssssss I want to kiss her so bad it’s making me actually I’ll #explodes and tries to go to sleep (failing) #ily Wiitty

[terrazooid]

Ok so!!!! Still not sure what I’m doing but here’s some character reference sheets for my turtles. I don’t don’t know what to name this au yet but I do know that I’m going to enjoy drawing and bestowing grievous amounts of trauma upon them.

Listed in order we have cringefail mentally ill eldest daughter, autism car guy, anger issues problem child and little shit prodigy.

#man I wish I was better at articulating this #like I have concepts in my head but holy fuck is it hard to elaborate #tmnt #tmnt au #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt art #tmnt fanart #transfem leo #tmnt Leo #tmnt donnie #tmnt raph #tmnt mikey #tmnt: honor bound #terrapin art

[copepods]

i alwys get annoyed when i see fanon depictions of artificer being affectionate with five pebbles because in my mind artificer has complicated feelings towards him that lean towards dislike and they see him more as a weird alien creature-machine who carries a great deal of knowledge and talks to arti for lack of anything better to do, and artificer brings him pearls to stave off crushing hopelessness and loneliness but like i dont think artificer actually likes him. i think theyd find him off-putting and unpleasant. of course that's just headcanon in my mind though which is why its a little funny that alternate depictions annoy me so much. we are all making this shit up

#they have a very specific relationship in my mind that ive never really been able to articulate #writing is just hard haha #idk its just. for me i really love their relationship because of the tragedy of it and how theyre both spiralling into paths of despair #and they cant help each other yknow. theyre company for a brief pocket of time #and maybe they recognize themselves in the other and it makes them both really uncomfortable to consider that this other being is like them #so they both go their own way in the end and destroy themselves lol #i just am very attached to that idea and i dont like when people deviate from it for the sake of fluff lmao #text