#but actual shit that happened? nope

[exysexualmoron]

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#i think the thing about my brain is that like #i forget things #sure #i remember every detail and line from every harry potter movie #but actual shit that happened? nope #and that makes it really hard to feel connected to people at all #or like #even like them? #and idk who gives a shit #i’ll just dissociate my life away and wait for everyone to eventually leave me #because they will #no matter what people say #everybody always leaves #personal #trigger warning #depression #trigger warning depression

[hyewka]

re..sis..ting the urge to write a brothers best friend beom hard thought..ha..

#i get the appeal of writing them #its like a dump of ideas #but #i will not let anything distract me from the main deal #nope not happening #brothers best friend gyu for another month #✶ ━━ rana talks #but..also what ABOUT brothers best friend gyu who crowds u in the kitchen 🤔 #huh?! what about beomgyu who leans down to whisper the most mundane things like if u could reach to get a cup for him #but its BEOMGYU!!!! #his low voice and his fingers ghosting over your waist ummmmmfmfjfjf #yup thats it i wont indulge further. i cant #or. hed have his hands on the counter #either side of you #basically entrapping you and hes behind you 😫!!! #‘u have a crush on me dont u?’ #el oh el #kitchen sex with beomgyu is actually crazy shit

[fastfists]

Just to put in my two cents; SEGA has a lot of control over the current IDW run and all that. From my understanding they are not allowed to introduce new characters without SEGA's approval first (Flynn has mentioned wanting to have cameos or intro new version of some of the old Archie characters but they haven't cause of SEGA), some character's ages are not allowed to be stated (ie; Flynn has an age for Starline, he just isn't allowed to state it or make it canon) and also characters arn't allowed to 'age', ships are also a thing they won't allow (Flynn has stated Whisper and Tangle are suppose to be a couple BUT because SEGA only likes to tease pairings, they can't officially says they're girlfriends. Same with other couples), Knuckles isn't allowed to participate LESS the events is dire enough for him to leave Angel Island OR it involves the Master Emerald, and just a bunch of other stuff too...like Sonic can't loose (struggle yes; loose? NO), no BIG emotions on anyone's face (especially crying), and such. Part of me gets why...but also just, SEGA please let the IDW crew do more, they've been proving they are able to write good stories and plots with these characters. Loosen the reigns plz and thank you. Also let my boi be more involved in plots for the love of Gaia!!

#I'm Just Warming Up {OOC} #Mun Menu {Post} #I just want to throw my thoughts into this...but yeah; mostly SEGA strangle hold on their series #I mean I can't blame them too much with what happened with Archie and Pender; but still... #I just wish they'd loosen some of the restrains so we get more fun and shit #It's a lot of weird rules the team has to go by and it suuuucks #It's also why it's so rare for us to get new characters too in these series #We can get background characters cause they don't effect the plot but actual names and important? Nope. #Whether or not this has changed? Well...just have to see...

[nerosdayinanime]

"Im worried what people would think of you then, that you're just a personal whore or something- i don't want to ruin your reputation.."

"Are you kidding? 'My dick was so good i got promoted-' Thats the biggest flex i can think of!"

"Well, you're certaintly enthusiastic about this."

#ive been thinking of the au from @planethoneybee's tags in that writing prompts post #on the topic of giyuu wanting sabito to have political power in case something happens or someone tries to pull shit- #him & shinobu debating the pros and cons of giving him title of concubine before giyuu brings up the social aspect #so shino calls sab in to get his thoughts on the matter directly and it made me laugh #another bit w sanemi- theyre at a meeting talking abt finances and theyre talking of cutting sanemi's beetle funding- #G: i can pay for it /Sane: what? /G: keep as much funding to the project as possible- i'll finance the rest of it out of my #own allowance. that works doesnt it? /Shino: i suppose. ..but you'd do that for beetles? /G: i see importance in it. /Shino: very well- #sanemi doesnt thank him or even mention it but he definitly looks at giyuu differently after that- he used his own shit to keep #the project going full blast? damn. he did that for sanemi's beetles. man. #somethn somethn giyuu bringing up the idea for shinobu to have a personal guard(/helper) as well #shinobu 'i know what you are' @ giyuu before he hurriedly explains he doesnt mean get a side hoe hes genuinely just #offering to find her a trusted guard/helper whos sole purpose is to do errands n shit specifically for her 'oh! that sounds nice actually' #'sab has someone in mind for you- says shes one of the best in the forces and a pleasant personality' 'ill see that for myself first' #'okay [thumbs up]' #im imaginging a mix between european kingdoms & east asian/chinese/japanese empires except i dont know shit about either #only thing i vaguely know is theres advisors & like sub-royalty & in traditional japanese more (/complex) layers of clothing = rich/royal #the 'sub royalty' has a name im p sure. i forgor. fuckiinnn. #nope its just not there. oh well. giyuu w the fingerless sleeve-gloves my FUCKING beloved #also vague thought of sabito & mitsuri wearing helmets that utilize their pink hair as fuckin. yk the european knights #w the stupid ponytail thing/romans w the gold helm/red mohawk thing. somethn like that #they wouldnt wear like full Heavy Armor like knights do their fighting styles & w the close-quarters they wouldnt need it #but like for Show at Fancy Pantsy Time theyd dress up similarly #loserboy giyuu posting #loverboy sabito posting #sabigiyuu #of all the shit i have for this au THATS the scene that gets front page. dick joke funniee #(in case its not clear text goes Giyuu-Sabito-Shinobu talking)

[mercyluvsyouuu]

I doubt she remembers this but one time my mom was grabbing something from the bathroom and my cat was sitting in the windowsill of said bathroom. I was in my bedroom which is close by to the bathroom and I heard her say "it's a big world out there, isn't it kitty?" And. I have no idea why but that stuck with me. I have so many moments like this

Another time my brother and I were sitting next to each other on a plane. I had gathered up the courage to show him my poetry and I was so worried about him disliking it I forgot about the message of what I even wrote. I anxiously asked him if he thought it was good and he only shrugged at me. "It's not a matter of whether or not I like it. It's yours, and you had enough pride in it to show me how you feel. If you were to tell someone how you were feeling, you wouldn't ask if they /liked/ how you felt, would you?" Or something along those lines. It stuck with me. He does stuff like that a lot without even realizing it

Another time I was sitting outside of the house I used to live in (Which was a trailer park), and one of my neighbors who I knew quite well came up to me and stood next to me for a second. He then looked down at me and said "you have the eyes of someone special. Please don't let anyone take that away from you. You are yours to keep" and even if he was high out of his mind when he said that (he was known to smoke pot which, I had no problem with) it still stays with me

In that same trailer park I had even more neighbors, a sweet old couple. I used to have a pet lizard and I helped the old lady get over her fear of them. That same lady taught me how fo crochet and let me show her gravity falls. The man would tell me stories about his youth and the band he was in. I always heard him playing drums since he lived right next to me and, he even tried to teach me how. I didn't get very far but it's not because he was a bad teacher. I will always always remember them

Everything I've ever written or done is all for them, really

#mercy talks #my writing #poetry #i guess #this is actually shit that has happened btw 😭 i feel weird clarifying but i just didnt want ppl to think this was something i wrote from #the perspective of a character or something #nope #this is my life #pls share any memories like these if you have any. theyre so small but they mean so much to me #oh oops heres me spilling my guts out again on tumblr dot com. to whoever reads this please carry this part of me with you forever #even if you dont know me or if you dont even care all that much. hold onto this and hold it gently

[lord-squiggletits]

Onyx Prime = Shockwave time travel plot is such shitty writing I could and WILL (eventually) write multiple essays about it it's so fucking bad.

#squiggposting #for a brief preview of what i would be writing #1. time travel was done better in the same continuity by JRO #2. the plot by barber completely contradicted and undid most of the themes he was trying to build up #3. the plot introduced a lot of shit out of nowhere with no foreshadowing and had to be done via excessive exposition #4. it's just a really fucking bad logic loop that relies on a character doing things 4 THE EVULZ and not because he's like a person #can't believe ppl are actually defending it because 'oh it's silly lol' #it's not just silly it's stupid and it destroys most of the agency and drama of the rest of the story #including parts of the story that the same people who like S = onyx also praise as good writing #have higher standards for writers ffs don't accept shitty writing just because he made some points you agree with #genuinely don't understand it at all lmao #like barber made a whole story about the legacy of colonialism and how history is propagandistic and corrupt or whatever #and then introduced the big plot twist that actually it was all machinated by just one guy #hmmmm and here i thought this story was about responsibility and the way bigotry seeps into society's instutitions or something #NOPE actually the reason society is racist and imperialistic is because one guy went back in time and decided to make all of it happen #and the reason that guy wants a cybertronian empire is because he was raised during the golden age... which was brought about by the primes #...who were created by that very same guy. so like it's just an infinitely repeating circular logic error #in which this guy's motivations exist bc of the times he lived in but he literally invented the times he lived in

[kaktus-jus]

so umm idk if yall heard the rumours yet but apparently sergio's going to sign for inter miami, i wonder what who was the reason for that

#idk how credible this info is tho #just saw it on twitter and kinda lost my shit #i dont wanna get my hopes up #but it would actually be insane if it happened #after years of being rivals sergio tasted one season of having leo as a teammate #and said nope #i never want to play without this man ever again #(im not counting the 21/22 one as he was injured most of that season) #man's WHIPPED AF #i love my enemies to (lovers) teammates a normal amount #sergio ramos #lionel messi #ramessi

[running-in-the-dark]

yes I've been lying in bed for three hours, listening to the same song on repeat, and yes I have written *checks* 14,000 words of the most stupid, embarrassing shit ever over the last two days, and yes I can actively feel my brain melting in my head, but I'm definitely totally fine.

#I need to keep pointing this out because it's absolutely fucking insane to me #the last time I wrote anything resembling a story of any kind was when I was like 11. before I got too self conscious and before people kept #doing shit like taking my diary and reading it. #but since then? nope. nothing. not a single word. #and now it's like. well I guess instead of sinking deeper and deeper into the same damn pattern of spending all day in bed imagining the #same scenario over and over again because I can't remember shit. I'm just. writing it down. #and it's. so fucking cathartic?? because things are actually happening?? #yes it's 100% just absolutely desperate yearning and I can't reread it without wanting to break my phone #but I'm fucking doing it and I don't care how embarrassing it is (I do care so much actually oh my god it's so bad. but I'm doing it anyway) #yes I'll just delete this file the next time I'm hit by that wave of self loathing and yes if anything this is even more of a waste of time #than just thinking about it #but fuck man it feels good. also bad but. good. some of the time. #(yep this is absolutely nothing it's irrelevant it's just me doing a normal thing that people do and feeling like I'm insane. that's what #I do. 🤦 don't know how to be normal. everything is something even if it's really nothing.) #personal

[absensia-archived]

I've spoken briefly about this before and, again, it's usually something I leave in the little details of Charlotte's portrayal, but it's really been on my mind lately so I wanted to write out some of the prominent traits that continue to establish that, despite having gradually accumulated more experience, capital, and property over the years, Charlotte remains coded as working-class. It is crucial to both the narrative itself and her actual existence as a vessel for the primordial void, also known as Khaos. This means that she still has no ( legal ) credit cards and continues to thrift almost all her belongings, including her clothes, books, and furniture ( with the exception of shoes and appliances.) If you are someone who regularly meets up with Charlotte, you might begin to notice ( if you are perceptive ) that while she may be variably early, right on time, or show up in some unexpected state, she is rarely ever late and certainly never without a legitimate reason as to why. It is also not uncommon for Charlotte to juggle multiple jobs at the same time, and the only time she'll agree to a single job, at the exclusion of all other work is if she knows that that one job will be worth it. Related to this is the fact that Charlotte has a very hard time saying no to job offers; it's a habit ( read: stress response ) she is trying to unlearn, but it continues to be a struggle. Lastly, despite having successfully taken on leadership roles in the past, Charlotte expresses a strong dislike for being consigned to a "boss" role as she still much prefers to be hands on, in the action, at risk rather than sitting back and letting others do the work. She becomes restless if she finds herself "at the top" or in the position of too much obvious power; recall the adage about how it is lonely at the top, and how isolation is not something that the void's vessel can allow. She needs to be among people; she needs to be present to catalyze chaos. That being said, this doesn't mean that Charlotte simply allows herself to be treated or thrown away as a mere lackey or just another body, but that is still part of the struggle, isn't it?

#you'll also notice that char is very smart about the way she stores and maintains what belongings she DOES have #ie. her money her safe“houses” her work equipment #within the bounds of her control - char doesn't go out of her way to destroy or wreck her own stuff #if chaos happens then there's nothing she can do; and other people's stuff is fair game #but her own shit? she takes care of that shit best she can #it ties into the fact that she doesn't have a set or consistent sleep schedule #but for her work she will be up at the crack of dawn if needed; she will be out all night; she will be up and working days on end if needed #she also enjoys working in teams and if you've ever had to have char as a co-worker u'll know she's actually nice to work with #still untrustworthy still chaotic still annoying as fuck - but also nice #she prefers to work with equals rather than take any kind of control over others. control being the other side of the coin to chaos :') #she's also worked such a HUGE myriad of what society considers labour / “entry-level” / “unskilled” jobs... #...in order to learn from an inconspicuous position. #i could go on and on but like i said - i'll leave in the writing #i'm so proud of my chaos goblin #thinking about how at one point in her timeline she worked and played her way all the way to accidentally taking out a crime boss... #....then IMMEDIATELY did a 180 going “nope not for me” and vanished #too lonely at the top and that's no fun for this one :( #( smth smth the fact that she's just a vessel is too ingrained in her sense of self for her to actually stand out and be leader ) #( smth smth even pawn-turned-queens revert back to pawns at the end of the game ) #and as always - if you actually read through all this IM SO THANKFUL FOR U MWAH <3

[givemeafish]

OkAY forget Claude's villain arc after seeing what they did to Edelgard in AG I'm about to enter my own

Warning: Massive spoilers for the end of this route in my rant towards the bottom of the tags, don't expand if you're at all opposed to seeing that

#edelgard von hresvelg #fe three hopes #azure gleam #fire emblem #three hopes spoilers #I mean there's no spoilers in the post but #I am abt to say it all here so I figured I may as well? #Edelgard #fire emblem edelgard #Honey what did they DO to you #Seriously I'm all for her being the antagonist or even for IS writing a nightmare scenarios for her but #This is another level #I'm not even sure whether to be more mad at the writing decisions here or just how awful this is to her character #Y'all really fucking had to lobotomize her? You couldn't think of Anything else to do with her?? #They really just had her abusers brainwash her and destroy her mental state and everything she's spent her life working for #And then as a character we don't get to see her do anything else? She doesn't even get to react or express her feelings abt what happened? #Actually we never even find out if she fully recovered #And also Dimitri just fucking leaves her there to go back to the rest of his friends after all of that? Cool #Dude knows what happened he just apparently doesn't give a shit #He couldn't even check if she was okay? Maybe help her up? Walk out together? Fuckin nope #Just walks off while she sits there on the floor confused and vulnerable #Yeah fuck this writing decision #I'm not even sure I'm gonna be able to stomach playing the full route bc this is some shit #I am going to be spam reblogging her all day to feel okay with this #In the meantime I guess everyone can look forward to the inevitable fix it fic I probably will write on the topic #Bc I like angst just fine I just hate THIS like if it was any less cruel I'd be intrigued but now it's just upsetting #Like the sheer disrespect I wouldn't inflict this on literally anyone #Let's all hope Scarlet Blaze is incredible if it's gonna make up for all this #Alright I'm going back to sleep now thanks for coming to my ted talk

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

Got so excited about what was in vault 47 I forgot I was listening to a radio play about fallout 4

#random thoughts #fallout #what could it be that gave nick such a disturbed reaction? pre-war nick valentine? commissioner turner? johnathan widmark? #one of the members of BADTFL? #nope it's just. the silver shroud? who was actually a real person? #which is hilarious and i DO think that's what they're going for but the fact the silver shroud bought and hid in his own private vault #is WEIRDLY SIMILAR to eddie winter and also is very much a dick move considering he was a bringer of justice #and like. his vault was literally made for only two people #'shielding the innocent' my ass #also if the crystal jewel whatever does end up being legit and they don't end up doing a weird reset and make everyone alive again #im gonna be SO PISSED #it would be so cool if the crystal like basically reset reality so that nothing happened #and the end of the show is the closing of an entirely seperate case and nick is so fucking confused #i would also like it if the crystal didn't work and everyone stayed dead but if it DOES work and they DONT USE IT imma be pissed #i like that the ss is close friends with nick hancock and danse the identity crisis trio #and that apparently ss and danse were an item? that's cool #also like that the ss is a lady that's a great choice #literally no one gives a shit about nate and it's hilarious #i am wondering which deaths were based on who was available and which deaths were written in from the beginning #loving the fake ad breaks the one about sugar bombs was REALLY well-voiced on the mom and kid's part #i DO wish it took on a more classical noir approach in terms of structure and plot #like it started off like that and then everyone started dying but it's just a personal preference so whatever #LOVE the sole's very clear personality and how she didn't make all the right choices in-game like with the cabot family ending

[prettyboysmlm]

god i love my mom fucking yelling at me after a stressful night it really is the cherry on top of a shitty week

#if i’m still alive by sunday it’ll be a fucking miracle #every fucking thing is telling me i don’t fucking belong here #i hate whoever fucking was talking about college at the concert i’m gonna fucking kill you for putting me thru this #i thought it was fine i thought it was okay and i wouldn’t be fucking crying by the end of the night #bc that’s what always fucking happens after my concerts she gets pissed that she had to actually be a parent and takes that shit out on me #but nope!!!! i was fucking wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!! #scratch what i said if i’m still alive by tomorrow it’ll be a miracle #k.txt #vent tw

[noisy-weasel]

I finally decided to try out obey me and I instantly got hooked and have been playing obsessively for like the past week but I've finally hit a hard wall at like chapter 10 and yeah nothing to possibly do about it except incredibly slowly level up my cards so that sucks I feel like it's gonna take a long while before I can play main story again

#obey me #i mean i was expectinf to hit a wall p soon bc f2p gachas always do that #let you play practically endlessly for a while to hard gate you suddenly so youll spend money #but did suck to actually happen #gacha games burn in hell btw ☺️ #the bigger problem imo is cards level so absurdly slowly #like 1 levelup from even as low as 20-21 takes a metric fuckton of spamming battles bc yoj literally only get 200-320 xp per battle #oh and the helpful quicj clear thing? nope doesnt lvl cards just your player lvl #was super loving pjsekai bc they didnt do that shit your cards level at such a perfect rate per song imo #yeah tho i literally refuse to gamble bc i know i always lose so it really does suck seeing all these good games be gachas #like id supremely prefer to spend 60$ on tbese gachas like obey me and pjsekai but fuck me i guess

[paskariu]

slept through the first hour of the lecture because i though it would start at 9 but it started at 8.

Luckily didn't miss anything because the people from the other course we're sharing a lecture with today were arguing with our professor because they found the exam too easy for that hour.

meanwhile everyone in my course is pissed because we were expecting an easy one and the other course usually gets better treatment than us :)

#ah i get pissed again when thinking about all the shit we've had to endure because nope the other course gets all the resources and proper #professors and we get jack shit #you know shit's fucked when one prof flat out walks in and says 'i don't know anything about this subject but i'll teach it anyways' #and yes this actually happened #riu speaks

[a-dose-of-phitre]

my little meow meows that carried my wattpad nostalgia quest

#the books where they're the protagonists >>>>> #literally MASTERPIECES i am in shambles i am in awe #i just LOVE those two particular books oh my god #my wattpad era was cringey but THESE TWO???? NOPE. ACTUAL TEARS. #banging credit card on the table for them (real but no card my mom scolded me for it--) #sipphitre #also dont listen to tyler #both of them NEEDS therapy for all the shit that happened jfc #💀💀 #finally decided to tag it #withering hope

[pride-of-storm]

once again upset over that time i accidentally broke bowl and cut myself on it they are such perfect snack bowls and now we're down to two D:

#also there's like a tiny divot next to the scar that kinda drives me crazy #if it were somewhere i had to try to look at i wouldn't give a shit but nope it's my wrist! #scars from dumb little accidents are actually my favorite though #no long term mental trauma just short term physical trauma! #we have a few other little bowls of similar size but they are not as nicely shaped #well i know what i like for the next time i wind up looking at bowls for sale #storm's posts #personal #you can ignore this #there is maybe a bit of mental trauma i still don't understand what happened? #like i musta flinched and accidentally slammed bowl into table #but one moment i'm spitting out cherry seeds and the next moment i'm staring at a small but not insignificant cut #and i gotta go find first aid stuff without dripping blood anywhere