idk why people keep their distance with me, even people i consider as friends, do i come off as weird or arrogant or awkward or just plain boring and uninteresting? why am i so unlikeable? why can't i form meaningful bonds with others? i feel like i'm always nothing more than an afterthought, like everybody has someone else they consider more important than me :((
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i just wish i was important to somebody.
i miss having somebody to talk to about everything.
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regarding common tropes about ganon's writing in fics, I am kind of always taken aback a little anytime ganondorf uses degrading sexist terms in fics and such. Because to me, even his most evil interpretations would probably have no reason to have negative associations with women who have sex a lot, unless he picked it up from elsewhere (like there's some room for it to be interesting psychologically speaking if that's directly addressed, but it never is). I'm not sure why the gerudos would ever cultivate these kind of misogynistic ideas in their own culture, or why Ganondorf would spontaneously decide to form any essentialist ideas he may potentially develop on the basis of promiscuity, of all things. And, if he would pick that up from Hyrule... why would he, why this, and how does that map out with him remaining proudly gerudo in most iterations if he sees any non-married woman getting funky in a negative way?
it's kind of a very small thing, but it does kind of beckons a lot of questions regarding worldbuilding and psychology and it tends to take me out of fics a little, because it's always kind of assumed and never investigated
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hyde getting jealous that his best friend was spending more time with “Rich Kid Buddy” instead of him is so ☹️ his insecurities coming out and him thinking that eric’s going to leave him behind (like everybody else has) because he doesn’t have as much to offer as buddy (physically)
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I’ve been thinking about this for a little while and I’ve decided on a new example I’m going to give when, inevitably, I end up back in crisis care and the pattern repeats.
My whole life it’s felt like I’m carrying a water balloon. And I’m trying to do all the things others around me are doing, and I just have this balloon. And every four years or so it just pops, and I I have to wait until I’m dry again to start again. And every time it happens somebody says hey, I know you’re soaked and you feel bad but at least you don’t have to carry that anymore, right?
And then I get given another.
And the older I’ve got, the harder it’s been to keep up with people, and when I finally think I’ve got it the balloon bursts again, and everything that I thought I was trickles out and evaporates on the ground. So I have to start again. And hope it won’t happen again.
But it always, always happens. No matter what fancy holster I make, or precautions I take not to break it it, eventually something jostles it and it just breaks again.
Everybody’s building things over a lifetime and I’m… just here.
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One very specific thing I find funny is that prior Hermitcraft Season 10, I'd drafted some worldbuilding for a Life series fanfic where there's a mail system based on phantoms (who are fast, and as a nod to Impulse's phantom sanctuary from Season 8 because I thought it was cute).
But the mail system was regularly disrupted by Etho because he was on Red life. He'd just torture and kill phantoms for their membranes because it's useful material, but mostly because he hated people checking up on him after he cut them off. He HATED mail.
So it's funny to see him play postman in Hermitcraft... Redeemed.
Also, here are some images of Impulse's phantom sanctuary because it's a fun / inspiring build to me:
He worked hard to catch those guys, did the job while they screamed at him, and redesigned the roof three times so they could see outside without burning in the sun. Not only that, but it's a decent size enclosure for a mob display (compared to Grian's magical menagerie, which is a pet shop so it's a different vibe).
The sanctuary is one of my main inspirations when I think about worldbuilding for mobs in 'fic, just because I think it's cute to have a big, pretty building for something so violent. It makes me laugh that Impulse tried to give the tour while being "hugged" and screamed at by the phantoms.
Looking forward to Scar's zoo in Season 10. I'm sure he'll build many lovely enclosures! <- Me, who is also a Planet Zoo watcher and loves seeing animals thrive in an environment designed for them :)
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i am genuinely so fucking tired being expected to know when you want me to stop talking to you and just leave instead of you directly telling me. you never fucking tell me. im supposed to pick that up on my own and i cant until you start saying shit like "im tired" or sighing heavily when you think im done or you just sit there on your laptop or phone no longer acknowledging me, waiting for me to leave. you wont even look at me. always as soon as i leave i hear it - you immediately hitting unpause or putting in your headphones and sometimes even going into voice chats to talk to other people. i wonder if you've noticed that ive picked up on when you're evidently tired of me talking that i just cut myself off and walk out. or i wonder if you're grateful that i finally put that brake on myself and leave you alone. im tired of being ignored and just talking to a wall. im tired of half-hearted acknowledgment to what im saying when you aren't actually bothering to listen. im tired of having to just leave when i realize itd be convenient for you because you're bored with my company. and its not just you - everyone in this fucking house, this entire family, does it.
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