#bc of the way the languages function

[pariaritzia]

-Gumnaam andhero ke saaye

Aawaaz ke raaz chupaaye

Ude abhra se jaa takraye

Tukde tukde dohraye

Mere tikde dil di rubaaiyaan.

-The shadow of obscure darkness

Hides the secret of a voice

Go collide with a high-flung cloud

So brokenly repeats

The poem of my cracked heart.

QALA (2022)

#bollywood #qala #I have translated for gifsets before but this was the hardest one #I am Not good at translation I feel like this is so awkward #and urdu and hindi poetry and lyrics are even more open to interpretation #bc of the way the languages function #all the music is really good but rubaaiyaan is my favourite #lot of good music this year but rubaaiyaan is the best song of the whole year in my opinion #also I love the saraswati shot....the way she looks at the camera....hehe #adventures in gifmaking

[aeide-thea]

like i guess re pronouns i think also like. many of us (trans/gnc/~gender-diverse~ people) are going to feel differently from one another and that diversity of thought is both inevitable and important

but there is a way in which, as with the question of whether you can group nonbinary people into 'people functionally includable in lesbian attraction' and 'people functionally includable in gay male attraction,' there's this process where like. there's an attempt to expand beyond the traditional framing and create more space for people, and then when that attempt runs up against cissexism and gets gummed up in some of the ways that article describes, you get people going, 'you know what, actually the really queer thing is to stop trying to expand mainstream culture into something that can accommodate queerness and just exist in a totally unspoken way,' and like. it's not that i don't get where that reaction is coming from, or that i totally disagree with it—as my one transfem ex said, the best days are the ones where you don't have to actively make a case for, or even really think about, your own gender!—but like. funny how that approach in certain ways ends up looking (and more to the point feeling) pretty indistinguishable from just. subsiding right back into the underbelly of the cistem…

#like personally i would in fact feel disrespected if a woman who was attracted to me‚ and not‚ like‚ in passing but in a serious ongoing way #nonetheless continued to be really actively vocally adamant that she was totally uncomplicatedly a lesbian/wlw #like obviously it would depend a little bit on what she meant by 'lesbian' bc there's potentially a lot of stretchiness in that category #that includes a lot of gender variance #but like. yeah actually i DO need you to pick up what i'm trying to put down‚ and take it seriously‚ and work out what that means for #the range of your attraction and how you're going to describe it #and the pressure in certain circles (that don't‚ i think‚ include anyone reading this) for me to just‚ like‚ Be Chill about that #and accept being functionally gendered as Basically a Woman #doesn't in fact feel different to me from the way cis culture wants me to accept that! #anyway yes this DOES feel like discourse necromancy but in a lot of ways so did the article that sparked it so. shrug emoji #language #identity #theory

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ever sit like a corpse in your own body? #im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we #deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to #give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway. #who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in #the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when #projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing #dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will #ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do #something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r #stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even #then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a #broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what? #lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything #done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i #think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with #thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno #whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is #hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse #but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday #unrelated

[raskies456]

learning python rn and nothing boosts your confidence like finding the bug while the person teaching you is coding live

#also just. actually learning coding in general #bc like. for all of my comp sci osmosis I really never learned coding basics #took a matlab course once where I had to create functions with loops #and then never used matlab beyond translating pseudocode from textbook problems for numerical analysis hw #similar story for using R #my coding knowledge is passably being able to Google how to do basic things in various semi coding languages as needed #but bc it’s so spotty it’s like. evil rn #do I know about Turing machines and unsolvable halting problems????? yeah #do I cobble together the most atrocious and dangerous misuses of the one or two commands I know #to do a thing easily done by a basic function???? #also yes #I need to like. learn what the things do on a fundamental level so I am not misusing them in evil ways basically #456 words

[strixhaven]

“are you nd or nt” this is stupid as hell and i’m opting out of that framework entirely

#the way people conceptualize ‘neurotypicals’ not as actual people but as factory-made blank-slate hyper-capitalist wet dreams of what human #beings are ‘naturally’ and buy into the pathologization of actually natural human behavior and variance in how we function #and so heavily defer to the authority of psych institutions and rigidly defined ideas of normality and divergence #for the sake of having clearly defined labels for a bizarre us v them. dumb as hell #you can say whatever you want in response this seems to be at least a kind of helpful worldview for a lot of people #but nothing i’ve seen about the way these terms get used in practice has made me feel anything but negative towards this framework #everybody needs an other to differentiate themselves from bc yknow identities often form along the lines of out groups in the language of #opposition and the ways that ‘nd’ so often gets flattened to just mean ‘autism and adhd’ and the amount of slap fights i’ve seen about who #gets to be included in the nd out group. to say nothing of these mythical ‘neurotypicals’ you’re supposedly talking about #because point at any person and i guarantee you they don’t match up to the capitalist construction of neurotypicality you have in your head #and then discussions of physical disability’s intersections n all. real fucking mess man #again if it helps you. w/e. i just cannot ever conceive of this being a particularly helpful way for me to view my brain and how i function

[khlur]

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#i have ZERO qualms talking abt my own mental health esp among people i meet regularly #i don't even see it as vulnerability or bravery ?? like it just is a construct in life #and if i'm around you and have to work w u i see it as setting realistic expectations #i'll even lay out how u can be there for me if we're close #yet in a course full of students studying mental health ?? these mfs are still out here talking in hushed voices and being patronizing #like obviously i'm not going to dump all my trauma but i talk abt dysfunction and breakdowns like they're normal #bcs they ARE normal and routine for me and i will never be as functional as is expected of me #and the best part is i KNOW most people in that room are the same??? some have been thru the 7 cycles of NHS hell and back too #but it amazes me how i cannot think of a single person who has been subtly compassionate even when i lay out specifics #in the most descriptive language #all it gets me is more condescension and people babying me in a way that's so disempowering

[rogersstevie]

hey ted lasso fandom......a luke danes/roy kent (bonus lorelailuke/roykeeley) parallel gifset would be so good

#when trent just said 'shouting is roy's love language' it clicked in my brain #and the way roy has been doing press bc keeley asks/the way luke goes to town functions and whatnot bc of lorelai......i need it #ted lasso #gilmore girls

[k1ngdingus]

read a fic that said when robin left for college steve was lost to an “impenetrable funk” & i want everyone to know that’s exactly canon here. 

#* ━━━ ˹ a single mom who works two jobs. ˼ » 𝐨𝐨𝐜. * ˹ shitposting. ˼ #losing nancy to distance is really hard on him #his love languages are based on quality time & physical touch #& he's very . . . involved when he's in a relationship #so it's hard to be separated from that & it rlly fucks with his brain bc he already worries he's not enough / doesnt know how to help #but being away from robin ?? #it really just wrecks him #what happened in that bunker bonded them in a way that really sticks with him #then the upside down happened #and he just . . . he is very reliant on robin for basic needs #but he just . . . i say this alot but he doesn't function normally if robin isn't there #they are his compass #they are the place where he feels himself #where he feels like he can breathe & that he can be steve & whoever that is . . . is just okay & enough & accepted #he misses robin more than he'll ever talk about & he's just . . . not really steve without her so yeah #it's a lot for him to process & deal with & it's like when you're missing a half of yourself & you never really feel right #he's constantly off balance #& things don't really make sense in a way he doesn't know how to explain or think anyone would get but robin #but he's not selfish enough to go & leave just because it's what would make him feel better #he's the constant thats around for the kids & he can't just leave them but #yeah #he's a lot more locked into himself without robin around #he's there & he's present for the kids but #there's a part of him that's where robin is & he doesnt get that back

[unloneliest]

on the off chance that someone here would be able to answer this question: i'm at a point with worldbuilding my original story where i need to create governments/social groups, and it's something i want to be intentional about—this isn't a story where the evil momarch is defeated and replaced by a good monarch, but one where the existance of a monarch is the problem the protagonists are working against. does anyone have reccomendations of either books/syllabi or where to find books/syllabi about history or politics that fall into the genre of what i'm asking about?

#jam posts #i don't know that i'm describing this as clearly as it possibly could be described in academic language but like #i want to study the history of our world & a huge variety of societies & how they functioned bc i want to write a world where there's not #only one way of having a society #i hope this makes sense fdjsklfdsjk if anyone has recs i would love them #i'm comfortable inventing like . religions for the world i'm writing bc i understand more of the big picture on that but i don't yet have #a comfort level w/ governments or how societies function #yk?

[foxcassius]

i feel like people throw korean being an isolate language in my face but they dont know what it means. i've spent hours over the past two weeks perusing east asian language wikipedia pages and studies and diving into linguistic terms that are probably baby stuff for people with linguistics degrees but new for me to fully understand in that context.

and like when i say japanese and korean are similar people will sometimes say "oh no, they're not related, korean is an isolate language" but like. that doesnt mean korean and japanese arent similar. or korean and chinese or korean and thai. korean being an isolate language ONLY means that it is not a mother, daughter, or sister language to any other known language. but every page and study about korean linguistics acknowledges that japanese, chinese, etc have had intercultural connection with korean and that the languages have all influenced each other due to proximity. they dont just mention it, they HIGHLIGHT it to disprove claims that korean is a relative to these languages. the languages are VERY similar, but the similarities came later. they are not genetically-related languages, but they are close friends.

and so i feel like a lot of people know this Fact, that korean is an isolate language, and when i mention korean being easy for me bc its so similar to japanese they are quick to say thats not probable or possible bc theyre not related, but. them being related has nothing to do with whether or not they are similar.

#i mean i also did not know this until recently but it also just always rubbed me the wrong way bc like #i do actually know japanese. i was actually living in korea and interacting with and learning the language daily. #i think i would know if i was picking up on a pattern thats similar between the two. and with some people - not all for sure but some - #it really just felt like they were like nope theres no way you noticed that bc its not there bc theyre not related and it was like #I KNOW WHAT I KNOW!!!!! eun/neun functions the same as wa and thats just a fact!!!@ #anyway also the korean teacher i had in busan spoke japanese and she was always drawing parallels between them to teach me when i asked #her questions 1 on 1 it was very helpful i miss her i wish i could have afforded 1 on 1 topik prep classes w her #t

[pepprs]

february was genuinely the most insane month. like this month has been nightmarish and so was like september and december. but i hope to god nothing like february ever happens again

#i literally texted the cr*sis h*tline like 6 times in the span of 3 weeks 😭 girl help #purrs #moving back to campus -> going batshit insane over covid restricting my access to my love language of physical touch (CRINGE!) -> finding o #out abt The Job not being the way i thought it would and the parameters being different -> last session w my counselor litwraly less than an #hour after that -> less than 24 hrs after THAT work drama springing up that ended up ruining the entire semester -> depressive spiral that #had me on the verge of quitting my entire career and exploding -> barely recovering from that only for ***** to get severely ill -> going #insane over * not being able to * * -> telling * that * * * * * ?!?!??!!!?! GODDDD CRINGE CRINGE CRINGE -> panic over n*clear w*r. like it I #is a fucking miracle i am still standing aftsr all of that bc it was sooooo so so so bad. lol #it’s even painful to journal abt it which has me wondering if i should even bother journaling abt the most supremely horrible times of my #life anymore bc they are so painful to relive lol. but like god. i am in a lot of pain rn but im so glad it’s not like that. that was bad #oh also that day when i spent the entire day paranoid bc i thought i was being stalked bc my phone kept alerting me that there were AirPods #near me and then less than 24 hrs later i started panicking so bad abt n*clead w*r that i couldn’t function. awesome. i am normal

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

oh fuck this fic might actually be the perfect chance to put my words where my mouth is and give them pulmonary tubes for real

#gonna have to look up every time i said anything about breathing and rethink how to describe that #the thing with pulmonary tubes is that it's not body language? #like you can describe breathing to indicate an emotional state #and to break up dialogue #cant fucking do that with the TUBES #so thats #a little obstacle #cus i kinda need the body language breathing #maybe i just shape the breathing so that it could be tubes #like #that it serves the same function for me the writer but i describe it a little differently #but how #gonna have to think about that #bc it would be nice to give them the tubes for real this time #ive always gone the easy way and stuck with lungs bc #well bc of this reason #but i want to give them tubes #maybe i can make the tubes also make sounds but like slightly different #like i once wrote a story with a robot where the different fan noises could translate to different breathing noises so you as reader still #got the emotional meaning but the noises and when they happened where slightly different #would be cool if i could make the tubes sound gross maybe #grosser is always better #wetter also

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hmm its been an interesting week i suppose #very busy in a good way. but that is always how it starts. i make myself so busy and it feels good and then i wobble and fall out of my body #so im feeling wary. also bc ive been under sleeping more than ususal but im not really tired but im also not boiling out of my skin with #energy. i just feel ok. so thats good. but also a demon in the back of my head is always like: then stay up all night. lets see how far we #can push this. which is not good. and in fact ive been proscribed like basically emergency mood stablizers to knock me out if i start like #losing my mind and not sleeping lol. bc i dont wanna b getting ready for something big and like completely unavailable to control my #ability to think. and ive also been proscribed birth control to get a handke on my fucked up hormones. so we'll see if that makes things #less all over the place. hopefully it works bc im so busy i kinda dont have time to like freak thr fuck out #but i am a lil apprehensive bc like i can count on my hormones to make me feel things when a lot of the time i dont have much emotional #range. so its like fuck finally i can cry abt this. or like fuck this is so beautiful. but then i also cant function sometimes #so i guess i just gotta see what happens. sigh. also the typical frustrating in having to read so much. like ppl hear im dyslexic and r like #oh do u want accommodation? like literally wtf r u gonna do to help me as a grad student? it just takes an agonizing amount of time to #understand thing. i have my computer read to me and i suffer. theres literally nothing else to b done abt it. and fucking next week i have #to teach a fucking lab abt reading scientific papers. they have to read a paper in class. fuck off. those r the types of exercises that make #me feel so fucking stupid. like do this thing right now. read it right here and answer questions abt it. and i fucking read it and retain #fucking nothing. im fucking 26 and literally in my grant writing class i have to apologize to every person before i give them feedback like #lol sorry i can barely fucking read. i fucking cant understand language. its fine but it sucks. theres nothing to do abt it. it just makes #me mad i have to teach a class that would have made me cry as an undergrad. so ill prob hold their hands thru it more than the other TAs #will. bc fuck u im not making them read a whole fucking paper in class. fuck u #plus the frustration of not being able to express myself well in thr moments. like theres a delay in my brain so i feel so dumb when im #trying to convey myself off the top of my head. like give me time and ill write it all out for u i just cant actually process wtf ur saying #to me. also i probably spaced out for a sec so i missed part of the convo lol. frustrating but at this point its just how it is. it makes me #more empathetic when i have to teach i guess. like listen ive got all kinds of fucking learning probs i just wanna help u learn something #how can i help? fucking dyslexia. god. i dont wanna prep for class this weekend. ive gotta show up like yea i kno reading papers is hard at #first but it gets easier! fuck u. its worth the suffering if i enjoy to topic but its always suffering. but thats what i get for going into #academia. thr dr who proscribed me stuff was like well sounds like u have a stress trigger and ur a phd student where life is stress... u #gotta figure out whats gonna work for u. sometimes thats a career change. not in like a pushy way just like: if what u do makes u suffer #then wtf r u doing? and hes got a point. but in contrast to what i was doing this is a massive improvement #well see if its manageable. ugh. i just wanna draw #unrelated

[aeide-thea]

back on my hobbyhorse ik but

i kind of feel like at some level the phrase ‘a woman’s right to choose’ is actually rhetorically cordoning off this particular aspect of bodily autonomy from the overarching, universal human right to bodily autonomy, not to mention turning ‘woman’ into a euphemism for ‘pregnant person,’ which… i thought was pretty precisely what we were trying to resist?

#anyway like. i know i'm fussy abt this but just like. this language IS in fact doing things! it functions in particular ways! #abortion #language #reminds me a little of the way 'ladies' room' actually makes no sense if you think about it #like. room for what? it's a signpost that doesn't actually point anywhere unless you supply the meaning yr socialization tells you it has #it's just this weird euphemism that's serving to reinforce the idea of bathrooms and what one does there as being fundamentally about gender #anyway. just thinkin. #like it's not necessarily the case that framing a thing in terms of its benefit for a particular special interest group is always bad #but. see also all previous arguments abt how cissexism in this case is not just an issue in itself but an issue of a fundamental misframing #if you're doubling down on pregnancy = women you're also i think pretty unavoidably doubling down on women = pregnancy to some extent #just in the sense that like. insisting on the association is in fact insisting on the association #anyway. i am actually trying not to rehash precisely the same ground over and over‚ not that you'd know it #but i just think like. cissexism is not only bad for trans people‚ it's also actually bad for cis women #bc it reduces them to a stereotypical idea about their biology #which has been said many times before but. just thinking abt little micro ways that manifests itself on a language level. #ok that really is it. for now anyway.

[confused-and-dickless]

I am spinning my homemade blorbos in my head rn but I can't draw good and I don't even have a solid idea of what they look like. They don't even have names. But I know them like my own soul. And they're in love. And they're me. And they're everything. And they love each other. One of them loves soup. Tumblr I'm telling you you'd love these fuckers if only I know how to express anything about them. Maybe I'll write out their backstory and a few of their adventures.

#husband and wife in a fantasy setting. hes huge. shes sleepy. and also some kind of eldritch horror. #they're a power couple you see #my ocs #i should at least make a tag for them even if i dont know their names yet bc i want to post about them to motivate myself to develop them #the horror and her bounty hunter #that works #basically she's cursed with Horrorific Powers that are slowly killing her. she spends most of her time sleeping #when she wakes up its either to kill people to protect her husband or to make and eat soup using ingredients her husband collects #hes a bounty hunter who is always searching for a way to cure her and also find her little treats and special ingredients for her soups #oh yeah and they're nomadic bc of the whole bounty hunter thing. that might seem difficult due to her constant eepiness #do they have a pet donkey? a little wagon? even better. he carries her around in a sling #he is both huge and strong but it also helps that she is very wee #also both of them speak very little #he's just the strong silent type who doesn't have much to say to most people (but he does sing to her and tell her stories) #and she is almost fully nonverbal and makes a lot of chittery and gutteral noises that are off putting to most people #but he understands her (not in a weird magic language way just in a he knows her so well way) #also she's incredibly intelligent! just very foggy most if the time because of her curse/illness #she knows how to write and before the curse starts affecting her acute motor function she actually was a great writer #anyway. i am eepy. #also i think its very obvious that i have a habit of making characters that reflect my disabilities. this is probably the most blatant one #but you see i love myself very much and if you create something from love then what do you have to lose

[lactoseintolerentswag]

Rise Characterizations

Last month I did an in-depth re-watch of rottmnt s1 to take some notes on writing the characters of rise from their perspective and such. Figured I'd share what I found, but I'm also posting this bc my docs have a nasty habit of blipping out of existence.

We'll start with Raph bc he's the oldest of course, but I'll post the others sep. bc this is gonna get long!!

Raph Character Notes

Language Habits:

Catchphrases: "like a boss", "smash"

Verbalizes his attacks such as "smash", "knuckle sandwich", "power smash jitsu", "tonfa power jitsu", "mystic punch jitsu"

Uses older song titles for surprised exclamations or in place of cursing, most notably "jumping jack flash!"

Uses aave/bae, For example: 'em instead of them, 'ey instead of they, 'cause instead of because, forgoes the g in ing words (going becomes goin')

Uses less and less grammar the more he's stressed, and his voice will come to a higher pitch

Will speak in a softer tone to his little brothers if he's concerned about hurting their feelings. Aka babying them

Mixes up both metaphors and idioms. Would be one to say how the turn tables unironically

Does say "hero" a lot, lost count, especially in phrases like "hero town"

Refers to his brothers as "boys" or "fellas"

Refers to Splinter as "pop(s)" most often

Refers to strangers he's directly talking to as "bubs" or "hoss"

Personality:

Protective of his family

Plays up the hero act/has a strong sense of duty and justice

Impatient, rushes in without a plan (pre-movie), doesn't finish books until the end, falls asleep during "boring movies"

Oblivious, doesn't read into things beyond surface level. Struggles with empathy when something is beyond his understanding, but is still very emotional

Center of responsibility for his brothers, but also has a reckless sense of fun. As long as it's him doing the stupid unsafe thing it's fine

Carries the weight, in a literal sense he piggy backs his brothers, but will also use his body as a shield from danger. Unfortunately this also means he takes his brothers a little less seriously (Mikey the most common victim), and will try and either protect them from everything or as an oldest sibling everything has go "his way"

Doesn't do well in solitude. Needs to be looking after people to feel functional, and needs to be around people to feel safe

Clumsy, "takes horrible pictures", isn't very good at hiding, he's a big guy so it probably took a lot of time to find balance

A sweet guy who still won't shy from making fun of his family. Leo tends to be the brunt of his teasing since he is the most annoying, but he will also poke Donnie on his dramatics

Likes cute things!!! Has a teddy bear collection and loves animals. It's so cool how this isn't played off as a joke and he's still just as masculine for liking pink and cutesy stuff

Likes fighting!!! Gets a lot of energy out defeating bad guys (where he directs his anger towards), the one who is shown to train the most, and also weight lifts in his spare time

Doesn't do well under pressure, here the anger comes out the most. He gets stressed when it's all on him, especially since he tends to mess up the most in these moments

Miscellaneous:

Second to unlock mystic powers

Nicknames/codenames: "raph-a-doodle" by leo, "red rover" by april, "red king" by donnie

Teddy bear names: Doctor Huggenstein, Captain Snuggles, Cheech

Stinks: fear stink, amazement stink, sneaking up on people stink, victory stink

Seems to be less afraid of rabbits and more afraid of puppets

Went on his first solo mission at 13

Cannot lift a bus, at age 15

Thought about discussing fighting style, but I'm not as familiar with that concept and I've seen a couple posts dissecting such topic. So we'll end here for now. Hope this was helpful!!! I'll post the rest of the boys later and link here

Leo is up!!

Donnie is up!!

Mikey is up!!

Splinter is up!!

April is up!!

Cassandra is up!!

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