#at least not irl

[leieryx]

thought of me cosplaying with someone and Died

#downright perished #It’d be so fun #it’d need to be such a specific kinda person though and they’re not in me life rn #at least not irl

[justablah56]

they should invent a brain that doesn't hate you tbh

#just blahs #this is ok to rb btw #vent in the tags #this is what happens to a guy when its best friend has been sick all week #and it doesn't have any other friends who its comfortable actually unmasking around #at least not irl #but shes fucking gone #n the brain is being mean about me not having friends and not being likable to all the actual people in my life #then everythings even worse bcs it had literally nothing to do from 11 30 to 2 15 and usually it'd spend that time talking to said friend #so that's fun #idk im just not doing very good

[cadaverkeys]

You guys rlly don't realise how much knowledge is still not committed to the internet. I find books all the time with stuff that is impossible to find through a search engine- most people do not put their magnum opus research online for free and the more niche a skill is the less likely you are to have people who will leak those books online. (Nevermind all the books written prior to the internet that have knowledge that is not considered "relevant" enough to digitise).

Whenever people say that we r growing up with all the world's knowledge at our fingertips...it's not necessarily true. Is the amount of knowledge online potentially infinite? Yes. Is it all knowledge? No. You will be surprised at the niche things you can discover at a local archive or library.

#rambles #if you are a person who is into delicate skills #like lacemaking or printing or sewing #you will know fair well just how non expansive the knowledge online is in comparison to written guides from like the 50s #there was a time where at least one person in the household had to know a constructive skill #but in the modern day there is just less ans less demands for comprehensive guides #library propaganda #im stuck doing an essay rn but bc i have covid i cant go to the library and its totally fucked me #i want to source a lot of the stuff i read irl but i just cant go and get it and theres no online ver

[beif0ngs]

everyone on tumblr @Buggy the 🤡 right now 

#One Piece #opgraphics #One Piece Live Action #Roronoa Zoro #Buggy #Buggy the Clown #OPLA #oplaedit #One Piece Netflix #Mackenyu #Jeff Ward #*mine #just wanted to gif these scenes of Mackenyu as Zoro cussing out Buggy lmao #so yeah i watched the OPLA... #and i can now TRULY say that this isn't for me #honestly i had to fast forward/skip through a TON of scenes bc the level of secondhand embarrassment is real 😬😬 #never been a fan of anime live action adaptions and i stand by my prev thoughts of One Piece being adapted into a live action series #like i still found a lot of the acting and dialogue super cringey when being uttered by people irl #and i'm unable to get emotionally invested in these characters at all in the live action series #but hey at least it wasn't as terrible as i thought it would be

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[animationismycomfort]

I think what people don’t understand about me is that I hate humanity and I’ll never stop hating it because sweet god what are these disgusting creatures that plague this beautiful world

#humans are disgusting and I’ll die on this hill #this is why I want to be a creature #that and….other reasons #I hate people #and I hate humanity #cause they’ve never given me a reasons to like em #at least not irl #I don’t consider people online to be people #your more just unknown lil weirdos to me and not in a bad way but in a nice way #and for that your awesome #but even online I see horrible beasts who distroy the world with their horribly stupid words #and I can’t help but wish humanity dies #anyways #I don’t hate everyone but sometimes…..god. #my stuffy stuff #my problems #humanity hate #this is why I love cartoons and animated sh-t #cause they don’t do this #not if I don’t want them to

[candyje11yfish]

i agree with Merg. clover shouldve gotten a horse

#mari's art #undertale yellow #uty #starlo #starlo uty #clover uty #i cannot tell if this is hard to look at soz #also the poor rocking horses bridle is drawn horribly wrong #fun fact i do horse riding irl🤯 #starlo undertale yellow #undertale yellow starlo #undertale yellow fanart #uty fanart #uty north star #I CANT I HATE WRITING TAGS BYE #undertale #id in alt text #i am mergs no1 fan i have watched at least 1000 of his videos #also i am watching shayy's ai uty video and i am Crying its also 2:40 am #I am not going to sleep #i am going to finish this 5 hour video

[raycatzdraws]

LU WIND BUT HE'S A ITTY BITTY HUMMINGBIRD

Slingshot Proficiency!

+bonus doodle drafts

#requests #linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu wind #lu legend #lu sky #post post comments: #Wind agreed to do this but whether he caught the moon pearl or Legend caught him is up to you ajdsfsd #this is for shits and giggles and I know it's kinda ooc 'xD #also it's in reference to the d&d polymorph spell - the hummingbird likely has only one hit point so taking any damage would change him bac #PLEASE DON'T HIT BIRDS IRL #the slingshot being such an important item in Seasons is cool #if I had a nickel for every time I post LU fanart and there ends up being a new LU post that day too - I'd have at least three! #I was thinking that it being a friday near the end of the month that there'd be a chance and LO

[fudgecake-charlie]

"rebelle painter has an in depth brush engine to simulate traditional painting techniques" is all well and good until you only use your digital painting method. at least the impasto is really pretty

#hi IRL if you see this i PROMISE i am going to start the commission i am just so procrastinationpilled #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft s10 #at least it's trying to be?? i kinda saw the leather get-up again and gave him leather chaps as i blacked out (/d) #if the quality is weird in some places blame the fact that i'm new to rebelle and the fact that i shrank the canvas down a lot to stop lag #this program is slightly a nightmare but i will get used to it... i will brave it for such nice textures #art out the oven #[scheduled]

[just-aro]

*sigh*

I'm seeing variations of this meme around again, so to today's (un)lucky 10000:

the "inside you there are two wolves" meme is racist. full stop. it was invented by a Christian pastor in the late 70s and attributed to the Cherokee nation, despite being completely made up. every native american / indigenous page I've ever followed denounces it as made up and racist, using their imagery to sound mystical and wise while ignoring the people themselves.

please consider using another format. try to use your guilt productively: I'm not calling you out, this is aimed at educating. You can't erase not knowing in the past, but you can elect to 1) not reblog these in the future, 2) delete any that are easy to delete, 3) help to spread education by following native people's accounts and news so that you hear this from them, not me.

#there is some 'debate' about the origins on the internet but i'm gonna be real: #when i can't find even one person who claims to be native who says it isn't racist and made up... it's racist and made up #do your own research but just... try to listen to the least heard voices and not just those trying to boost them #i'd go find a post on it from a native account but i am currently researched out due to IRL stuff i don't plan to talk about

[relaxxattack]

teslas are literally the iphone of cars. fashion accessories. status symbol. not fully useful for their intended purpose. sickly animals. why did you breed them like that

#ive made this joke at least 3 times irl but just now realized i never posted it #but yeah teslas literally look like iphones on the inside i had to ride in one recently it was horrible and alien #LOL

[yardsards]

the owl house really said "familial love is stored in a gifted garment"

EDIT: forgot one! thanks @cat-eared-exam-taker

#eliot posts #toh #the owl house #i was on the fence abt including either of the examples w amity and the twins #(esp the concealment stones bc idk if they even count as garments) #but i figured in both cases helping her be gay and do crimes is very much a form of affection from them even if less soft than the others #eda clawthorne #luz noceda #emira blight #edric blight #amity blight #darius toh #hunter toh #king clawthorne #alador blight #i want dadrius to get hunter a new cloak SO BAD #ive mentioned it before but i always go wild when stuff like this happens in fiction #bc i've always loved lending my jackets/shawls/scarves/hats/gloves to my irl friends #makes me feel like im protecting them and keeping them safe #and i knit and sometimes sew so p much all of my irl friends have AT LEAST gotten a hat #but i made of of them a long forest green cloak which he loved #it always makes me feel SO WARM INSIDE when i see someone wearing something i made them #but even seeing them wear things like friendship bracelets kinda makes me feel that way #i like having kinda made my mark on them even when not keeping them warm/covering them #not in a possessive ''show everyone that you're mine!'' way. none of it visibly ties back to me #(except in hs when i'd lend them my letterman's jacket w my surname on it) #but i know it's from me and they know it's from me and they chose to put that onto themself #my love language is acts of service and that's what i'm doing when i make someth handmade or lend em someth practical #but they can recieve it as gift-giving or a stand-in for physical affection. which both VERY MUCH do not come naturally to me

[adustoflove]

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

#bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd splitting #lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too #haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days #irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really #I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection #like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person #then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually

[sapphirefox1995]

Sometimes I wished I had the confidence to just talk about things I'm interested in.

I talk way too much in real life (typing gives me so much anxiety for no reason) and like, I can literally talk about more details than needed about fnaf lore and yet I just.

Don't??

People like fnaf what am I worried about like???

#also its not just fnaf #i need an outlet to info dump #people arent interested in learning about every fucking lore detail about fnaf like #at least not irl #im just hyperfixating on fnaf #yet again #:( #just rambling might delete later

[jojo-schmo]

My job is burning around me and I’m only seen as an expendable cog in a giant corporate machine, but at least I have Helpy to lend a brightly colored hand!!! <3

#am I talking about fazbear entertainment or my irl job? nobody knows #what I do know is today I found out we’re getting a salary increase freeze for 6 months at least #which in corporate speak probably means a year or more #and restructuring of the company may happen after that #who needs a livable wage? not me obviously #anyway I just needed my small pink boy to cheer me up and it helped a lil #it was fun drawing his blush that way I may keep doing that. hehe #and he must have pretty pink eyeshadow #I’ll be all good in a few days just processing my life asmkcpjsdklc #my baby bear my little skrunkly guy….. #I need a plush of him to kiss on the forehead… #fnaf #fnaf help wanted #help wanted 2 #five nights at freddy's #helpy #fnaf helpy #art

[runawaymun]

I'm meant to be doing like a zillion other things but my nervous system finally decided to shut down over various holiday related stressors (as is tradition) so have some Elrond sketches (plus teeny Arwen) i did to help soothe myself lol

🎄 merry crisis or whatever 🎄

#when stressed draw elrond #he is my personal brand of serotonin #still probably going to be very awol/lurking/reblogging the next couple of days because a lot of things happened IRL and i'm unwell #but at least christmas is almost over #love you all btw mwah #my art #doodles #elrond