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leoascendente · 2 months

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PAC/ Your destined person 💘

Hi loves and welcome to this new PAC! I'll be taking a time from this blog to focus on another projects, it doesn't mean that this blog will be unactive, it is just that I won't post that much pacs or astrology, I'll be more focused in my Spanish blog for a while. Anyway, private readings will still be open and from time to time I'll post something over here because Tumblr is and always will be my safe place.

Take a deep breath before choosig your pile and pick the picture you feel called the most, because this is a general reading it doesn't have to fully resonate, keep what does and leave what doesn't for somebody else, you can always choose another pile :)

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Decks: Romantic tarot, dark wood tarot, tea leafs oracle, romance angels oracle, love oracle cards

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Pile 1/ Pile 2

Pile 3/ Pile 4

Pile 1:

Who is your destined person?:

(Cards: 6 of swords, 3 of pentacles, 6 of pentacles, moon, hermit, queen of wands, king of swords/ hermit rev, death, wheel of fortune, 5 of pentacles, sun)

This person probably comes from a very different backgroud than you, it will seem like you don't have much in common at first, they have probably moved from the place they were born and are getting used to the new place. They are a hard worker, right now they are putting a lot of effort in this area of their life, probably to help financially their beloved ones, I'm hearing to help their parents, they are so focused in making money that they are not nurturing other aspects of their life like socializing, the good thing is that they don't seem to care about it. They got the hermit with two different decks, once upright and another time on reversed, it gives me the feeling that they feel very comfortable in their solitude but at the same time they are craving significative connections and a reason to get out of their isolation, for some reason they feel very exhausted but they can't sleep at night, they are like an owl, by night they seem to be more active even though they should be super tired because their work is exhausting (I'm writting this at 13:31 on my clock, maybe it's a relevant number for you or this connection). This person has some emotional issues that keeps them up at night, it's like they need these few extra hours of the day that they are taking from their resting time to relax when the rest of the world is quiet, maybe it's because they are far from home or because they miss their family, because this is related to their emotional world but for what I see here they are thinking too much about others and not about themselves and their mental peace. Anyway, this person is really attractive, for what I see in the cards, they have some not-so-secret admirers that are chasing them or looking desperately for their attention, whatever they are trying is not working with your person, your person seems to be an introvert or at least, they need to feel emotionally connected to something or someone to invest their energy fully on it, I could even say that they are a little shy when it comes to interact with other people. this person has an strong masculine energy, also I keep hearing the word resilient so this may be the most noticable trait about them, the thing here with the admirers is that they are chasing your person, like taking the masculine role but only for their outside appearance, your person seems to need something more to connect with someone and they prefer to court that to be courted. Right now they are closing chapters, there's a massive divine intervention in their life even if they are not aware of this, this is happening for their highest good because they need to get out of this hermit mode and start experiencing good things. They seem to be a little apathic and their lack of rest could be affecting their health too, even if they want it or not, a change is coming to align them, there will be a shift in their luck very soon, especially to help them financially because they seem to be struggling in this aspect. your person is really calmed and peaceful, very goal oriented and commited to what's important to them, you'll love the kind of person they are and the peace they'll bring to your life.

Your connection:

(Cards: deception, new love, this could be the one, playfulness/ girl with a snake, heartbroken, the phoenix, heart with a key, wedding rings)

Okay, your person had a very tough relationship with a toxic person that played with their heart and left them in the dust, this might be one of the reasons why they are avoiding so much human contact, especially with romantic interests, their heart is still recovering from this heartbreak. When you appear in their life, everything will trasform, it will be so magical and unexpected that they won't know what to do, you'll catch them off guard, everything will feel different with you, it's like they've been in a grey and clouded place and you appear to make the sun shine again in their life. This past relationship marked them but knowing you will make them realize that not everyone is the same, you will make them gain hope in love again, it will happen naturally and your relationship will be blossoming peacefully but with certainty, from the first moments they'll know that you are meant for them and will work to make you know it. This is a soulmate connection so you'll feel very comfortable with eachother like you know the other from a very long time, I see a lot of funny dates together, like an exhibition of some kind (I'm translating directly from google but I mean those places wih a ferris wheel, bumper cars, cotton candy and those places where you get a teddy bear if you drop all the bottle from the shelf, something that sort, please comment me the correct name of this lol). An important thing I see here is that your person might be shy at first and will try to make things the right way, not forcing anything, but what I like the most is that even though they have their heart wounded, they won't pay this pain with you, in fact, you'll be a reason to stop thinking about the past pain and focusing on the precious future you could share together, you'll ignite them faith in life, they'll find motivation again, they might even realize that they weren't as comfortable in their solitude as they wanted to project. I see a fast commitment, I also see that they will leave you the key of their home so you can stay there even when they are working, they'll try to make you part of their day to day life and will be very honest with your from the start, you can ask them anything and they will respond with all the truth, even if the truth doesn't leave them in good place, they want you to know every detail about them, you can also trust in them to share whatever you want, they will be super understanding and compassionate.

Signals:

(Tea leafs: sunrise, woman, feather, bull, desk, scissors, caterpillar)

By the moment you are about to meet your person, you'll be finding out the true intentions of a woman in your life, I don't know why but the energy of this woman gives me really bad vibe, like a two faced person, is someone that you should put distance with in order to protect your energy because in terms of love she could often have bad experiences and she will not be happy for you when you find your soulmate. There also this message of not sharing your ideas about the future, not just in love but about your goals or plans in work too, if you are thinking about initiate something by your own just keep it private for a while, or at least just share it with your closest ones because this woman or femenine energy around you don't what you to thrive. The good thing is that you got the card of the sunrise, so you'll be having a lot of new ideas that will lead you to find success, I'd suggest you to write down those ideas,take time to organize them and start implementing them in aries season, at the beggining of the spring, energies will be at your favor. For your person they'll be working really hard, there might be a chance for a rise or getting a higher position in their work field and they'll be focused into that, for others of you there might also be the chance that your person will be getting another job with a better salary, I'm getting especially this second option because your person seems to be very unhappy in their current job and they need better conditions, it also seems like there is some opposition from someone in their work and your person has to keep themselves in a defensive position to deal with it and they don't want this no more, they know they deserve a healthier work enviroment, maybe there's an abusive boss here. There's the possibility that you are really close to meet eachother because of the cards on tarot and this message so be aware of your surroundings because your person is closer than you imagine :)

Channeled messages: a puppy, sexy but don't know it, romantic dates, strong arms, meet them in a public place like a park, a market or a place with art or literature involved like museums or book stores, gift giving, a soft pink or white dress, night dates, overthinking, financial struggle, 999, 1333, virgo, scorpio, cancer and leo, might be seasons for you two meet or your person's sign.

Pile 2:

Who is your destined person?

(Cards: 9 of wands, 4 of swords, 7 of pentacles, 10 of pentacles, justice, death, world/ devil, justice, queen of pentacles, judgement, king of wands)

Okay, lets start saying that you know this person but never had anything romantic with them besides a crush for some of you, they are someone that is familiar to you, maybe you have talked at some point or is simplier than that and you follow them on social media or something that sort, you know eachother but there's almost any interaction between you two. I usually say on private readings when I see that the consultant know their person that Universe has a wicked sense of humor and sometimes, this person can be so random as your crush on primary school, someone you talked once in a party, a friend of a friend and those kind of things, so don't be dissapointed when you see that you know your person because many times, even though you know them, they can be the most random person you could ever imagine. Right now your person is going through some legal issues, it can be a divorce for some of you but for others it might be more related to an spiritual awakening where they are taking resposibility over things they have done in the past, like paying some karma and realizing why they are paying it. The good thing is that your person is closing a chapter, this awakening can be hard, because of the devil card, but it also will bring them a big relief and a change in their reality for the best, there's also a change in their way to face life. For what I see in the cards, your person is wealthy or well positioned in life, probably has a high position in their work field, for some they can work in something related to laws but is an enviroment with a lot of competition and stabs in the back, you have to be a little ruthless to thrive in that area, there's also a chance that they already have a child or kids near them, if you have children, your person will get along very well with your kid too. Your person has an strong temper, the good part of it is that they are very protective of what they love and don't mind getting into trouble if that means keeping their beloved ones safe. The not so good part is that they can be too impulsive and irrational when angry, their passionate spirit can take the best from them sometimes, they will be your total opposite so if you have a natural calmed and peaceful temper this pile is for you. Your person is someone brave, a natural extrovert with a lot of charisma, they can draw all the attention of a room to them just with an smile, they are also very sexy, physically they are extremely attractive, they could also be a Libra or Sagittarius sun sign. Your person hasn't been an angel in their past, even though they are a nice person with a good heart, it seems like they did ot take the best decitions in their past and now they are regreting some mistakes. They are really handsome and charming, I see they haven't faced rejection in their past and that has led them to be too confident, they are the kind of person who always gets what they want, do you know Dexter from the show One Day? your person reminds me of him in the good and the bad traits. Anyway, they recently had an experience that made them realize the path they were taking and they want a diferent direction, they don't feel fulfilled and knows that can get something better for themselves, they are also facing the consequences of their actions si they might need some extra time to get into your life.

Your connection:

(Cards: this could be the one, trust, children, worth waiting for/ talking, golden mirror, sword and rose, self indulgence, love call)

You'll share a very special bond, I see trust issues from both of you but at the moment you start something together those issues will fade, it's like your souls will recognize that you both are meant for eachother, feelings will bloom naturally. I see different scenarios for your pile so take what resonates with you, for the people who already know who this person is, the cards invite you to keep hopeful but patient, just trust the Universe and focus on your bussiness meanwhile your person puts their life in order and solve the issues they are currently dealing with, you deserve to enjoy their best version. For others of you who can't figure out yet who your person is, the cards have a similar meaning, to stay optimistic visualizing your ideal relationship, you'll have to wait a little more than the other piles because your person is dealing with issues they need to resolve before meeting you, again, you deserve to enjoy their best version, your vibration is very high so having your person right now in your life with their current circumstances could affect negatively your energy, so this wait is a divine protection for you. Things will start by flirting between both of you, maybe some casual dates at first but for what see in the cards, there's a lot of communication here and it makes sense because through communication trust gets reinforced and that's what you both need. You both will be very different but will have so much in common, your experiences in life or even your tastes or hobbies, your favorite artist or the kind of music you like, it will start by something simple but then you'll realize how similar you truly are, you will mirror eachother in every aspect, for some with an spiritual development I see this person is your twin flame. A nice thing a like about your person is that they will allow you to stay in your femenine energy, the card of self indulgence gives me the feeling that they'll provide for the things you like, just as an example, if you are into a saga of books but you don't have enough money to afford everyone of them so you go buy it one by one, your person will buy you all the saga so you can enjoy your hobbies. For some of you I even see that your person pays for your beauty treatments like getting your lashes or nails done. I see that they'll like to take a protective role with you, if you are easilly stressed, especially in regards of legal matters or burocracy, your person will take care of it so you don't have to worry, if you have any dream or goal you want to achieve your person will also provide you a safe space so you can develop it, especially for those of you who are into arts or something that involves creativity

Signals:

(Tea leafs: teapot, mule, wreath, shield, stork, wedge, heart)

Your signs to know when your person is about to enter your life will be a dissapointment with a friendship of your same sex, you might have an idea of who this person is because you have been seeing red flags from them in the past but you have turned a blind eye with them, especially in terms of stubborness and not wanting to change their habits. I'm getting that they are the kind to mourn and complain over things that they could easilly change, even you could have given them advices in the past but this person is unwilling to change for the better so you'll have to take them out of your life before your person comes. The tea leafs say that this won't be easy for you because you love and appreciate this person but by having them in your life you have to stay in a protective state, the shield warns you that you need to protect yourself from this person because they are consuming your energies. For your person, they'll be in a process of creating something new, I'm getting that it will be related to work, they'll be moving in silence because there's someone near them that don't want your person to be successful in this new project, anyway the project will thrive regardless of what other people try to mess with it. Your person will be just about to get their victory when they get in a deeper contact with you, they'll feel like things are getting better for them after everything they had to go through, you'll be like their ultimate victory. They'll know it's you because they'll feel safe by your side, having in mind that they are surrounded by snakes, getting in contact with you will feel for them like being in precence of angels.

Channeled messages: protect yourself from evil eye, black turmaline, long term relationship, karmic debts, late night conversations, a lot of sexual energy, love letters, release the old so the new can enter, the goddess Kali, law of attraction, subliminal audios, stay in your femenine energy, the bee and the flower, trust the process, 1111, 222, sagittarius, libra, scorpio

Pile 3:

Who is your destined person?

(Cards: queen of cups, king of pentacles, queen of pentacles, 3 of wands, fool, king of cups, 10 of pentacles/ ace of wands, 8 of pentacles rev, 5 of swords rev, judgement, emperor)

This person is your soulmate/twin flame, they are your divine counterpart so you will notice it from the very first moment you meet them. Getting into who your person is, they come from a wealthy background, their family seem to be very rich to say the least, they have been a pampered child all their life, in fact, if they work is because they want to not because they need to. Your person has been raised by parents that are soulmates so they know what true love is and knows that they want that type of connection for them too, they are a romantic and are not afraid to express it, they are also very well mannered so expect them to be chilvalrous with you, they are a true gentleman. They are so open to love that is overwhelming, they fantazise an daydream a lot about you, how you look, your way to walk and your smell, they have you so much in their head but they feel frustration not knowing who you are and when you will appear, they look for you everywhere they go and in every person they meet, yu cold even feel their energy calling you, if you have romantic dreams with someone but you can see their face clearly it is your person calling you in, you can intuitively feel them, I'm also getting that if you are able to see the face of someone familiar to you in dreams like a famous person just check that person you dream about because they might reselble the characteristics of your person. They have a melancholic soul, like a poet from another century, they are very deep and emotional, they have so much love inside they want to offer but they feel frustrated because they don't find the right person to share it with, they don't want only to share love they want someone to share all their life with, they feel like they already have it all to live a happy life but there's this missing peace of wanting to share all their abundance with someone else. There's this phrase of the movie 'into the wild' (my favourite movie ever <3) that says 'happiness is only real when it's shared', I feel that your person resonates a lot with this phrase, they have people they love around but they crave a romantic connection to create a family with, btw, they are really into marriage and family, they also like children and animals and they love your person too. Your person has a sensitive heart and the pain of their solitude has led them to get involved with people with superficial intentions or toxic behaviors, mostly because of your person's money, they had a relationship in the past that left them feeling empty and that's why now they are giving themselves time to be alone and with their family, I see they have siblings that are playing a major role into your person's emotional healing. Idk if you'll know about this book, it's called fallen hearts by V.C Andrews, it is part of the Casteel saga but the character that reminds me of your person appears on the second book, his name is Troy Tatterton, I suggest you to read it or let me know if you already know them :). I also see that your person has traveled a lot, for some of you, you could even live at distanced places where you'd had to travel to see eachother, it may be in one of your person's journeys where they finally meet you.

The connection:

(Cards: true love, getting to know eachother, playfulness, wedding/ casette, hammer, camera, separation, twin flames)

Oh goddess, this is so beautiful it makes me want to cry! If it was up to your person they would marry you as soon as they meet you, after all their painful journey, when you appear in their life they'll feel like the skies will open up only for them, they'll know it's you and will court you from the very first moment, they will be flirty but charming at the same time, I see you'll feel the same too. Even though that feelings will be intense at first, you both will make the effort to get to know eachother on deeper levels to check your chemistry and compatibility, everything will feel light and easy, you'll get along super well, they'll make you feel like you are in a safe place, if you are naturally introverted they'll make you feel protected and, in case you are an hyper independent person, you'll feel like you can finally relax and release some of the weight over your shoulders. At some point you'll have distance between you two but it won't separate you, I see you will make the best of every moment you spend together and, after a little time your person will offer you a seious commitment so you can start your life together as a couple, it might also be a soon engagement. I see that you'll be watching the pictures and videos you make together, especially if decide to travel, I see a fancy cabin near a forest where you are staying together to spend some alone time with nobody else there to bother you. The time you spend separated will play a major role for you two to decide that you want to be together forever, I see that your person will have a harder time being away from you, that's why they won't hesitate at the moment of offering you commitment, probably they give you a promise ring or tell you to get married, it will happen sooner than usual but both of you will feel certain about this relationship and what you want from it, you'll fit like puzle pieces and you'll both will understand why things didn't work with anybody else in the past.

Signals:

(Tea leafs: gong, key, shark, caterpillar, dagger, camel, unicorn, carriage)

For you, you'll be receiving good news about something you have done, it will be something exciting for you, a successful outcome for something you put a lot of effort in, you could even celebrate it with your close ones because this will make you very happy. There's a little warning for you about being responsible with your money but also I see you could loose something important like a jewel or something with big material value like a phone or something that sort, so if you suddently loose soemthing important take it as a sign that your person is about to enter your life. For your person I'd confirm what I said before about the trip, the carriage means a journey either be a mental or physical but I feel that it's a trip for vacation. This journey is because they have been through a period of worries and stress, they just have solved a problem before making this trip, this solution will involve some changes in their life that will align them with their highest good so, overcoming this obstacle will finally lead them to you, their most desired wish. They'll be taking a time to release all the tension they've been holding, it is surely oon holidays so check the calendar just in case, they'll be with more people in this journey, probably their siblings, your meeting will be something spontaneous, neither of you will be expetiing it

Channeled messages: Water sign, earth moon sign, family money, colors red and green, divine counterparts, white doves and sunflowers, many options in love, send you romantic phrases or pictures that reminds them of you, settle down, a midset change, aries season, 777, 1818

Pile 4:

Who is your destined person?:

(Cards: knight of wands, 10 of cups, moon, queen of pentacles, 8 of pentacles, knight of swords/ 7 of cups rev, 9 of swords, queen of pentacles, fool, empress)

Your person got the queen of pentacles repeated with two different tarot decks, this gives me the feeling that they feel plenty with the current direction of their life, with the 10 of cups I'd confirm that they feel happy and fulfilled and everything is working out for your person. Besides that luck is on their side naturally, your person has fought to be in the place they are right now, they are following their passion and vocation and being loyal to their heart has lead them to success and recognition, they are also very optimistic and knows how to see the good side of things at every situation. Your person reminds me of Eli from Boy swallows universe (please watch the show, it's awesome and you'll love Eli), your person is brave, independent and resourceful, even daring sometimes, they are loyal to their truth and their heart, in fact I see they can be a little obsessed with finding out the truth of things so they could even be into conspiracy theories or things that sort. Your person is a wanderer, a curious soul but with a grounded spirit, they can be wild sometimes but they know their own limits and knows when to stop, they are really down to earth and mature on the important matters but very lighthearted and spontaneus when the ocassion requires it. They have been through seriouus things in the past, they may have some unresolved heavy trauma they didn't gave themselves the chance to solve it so they might act reckless sometimes, but the good thing is that they have an strong moral compass and value system they keep loyal at every moment, betray their values would feel like betraying themselves and that's something they don't want to go through. Your person can be an unintentional heartbreaker, they don't want to hurt anybody's feelings but it's easy for people to catch feelings for your person, is something about their aura or their energy, they are so warm and gentle that everybody feels drawn to them and can't help but develop feelings for them, they are easy to be loved. Your person is really smart, they could be air dominant in their chart because they also seem like having a talent with words or being a great communicator, they are also very funny so expect to laugh a lot with them, they might be younger than you or it's simply that they have a youthful energy, whatever it is they have this childlike energy that makes them lovely. Your person has this golden retirever energy that everyone likes, they are also very friendly and seems to have it easy to create friendships with other people, their sense of humor is a plus on this aspect too, they are a sweetheart with a loving heart but they are also very hard working and commited to what they think is right, you'll feel super comfortable by their side, even though they could be younger they will give off very mature and reliable energy.

The connection:

(Cards: Keep an open mind, retreat, flirt, love yourself first, chemistry/ the sword and rose, girl talk, cupid's arrow, sunglasses, engagement ring)

Okay, at first they might not be your usual type or the kind of person you would be interested in, for some, your person could be younger than you and that could be a turn off for you. Your connection will bloom progressively by creating a friendship first, besides the fact that your person will be very into you from the very first moment, they'll prefer to respect your times and show you they are worthy of your love, they will feel like they are out of your league for some reason. You might run from them at a certain moment because you get confused with your emotions, especially for those of you reading this that are a water moon, you'll need some time to reflect on your emotions and realize that there's an inmense chemistry between you two, maybe this distance you take serves you as a reassurance of how drawn you feel to this person, they'll have a bad time with this retreat but for you will be very healing and enlightning. I see that there's a female or dominant femenine energy in your life you trust so much, that person is very reliable and wise, don't doubt to ask them for advice because she will bring you clarity about the situation, I'm glad to say that you have an amazing support system, count on that female friend when you need mental clarity because she will be very honest, for some of you this person could be a sister. During this separation you might think that your person is focused into their bussiness but they'll be into stalker mode (positively, of course), checking up on you, they might even ask someone close to you how you are doing just to know about you, they'll also be checking your social media to know about you, they won't do it in a creepy way, they'll feel the same pull to you but they have a harder time trying to contain their emotions, the good thing is that you seem to be very intuitive so you'll know when their energy is trying to approach you. They'll be so in love with you, it feels like they fell first but you'll fall harder after a while, you both are soulmates so, even though you'll try to fight your feelings, you can't help but fall for this person, and after you see how much they are willing to offer and their true esence you'll fall for them (I'm writting this at 15:15 on my clock in case it's a relevant number for you). They'll wear their heart on their sleeve, they'll be very protective of you and won't allow any disrispect to you, they can be cutthroating if anybody tries to mess with you, tey'll feel so honnoured by you focusing on them that they will try to make you the happiest person ever everyday of your life, they can't believe their luck by finding a person like you and receiving love from you, this connection will be an equal give and take, you both will do everything for the other to make them happy.

Signals:

(Tea leafs: dolphin, windchimes, fox, broken ring, bull, needle and thread, ant, table)

For you, you'll be in a very nice moment of your life when you are about to meet your person, you'll be receiving a big amount of money because of something you did in the past, like a material reward. This material abundance will give you a feeling of peace and relief, you have the chance to have some vacations or free time by yourself, I see you a little secretive about this, like you don't want anybody to ruin this good time, you may also be silent about the amount of money you receive. For your person, they'll be dettaching from someone or something, the broken ring is usually associated with romance but I feel it more related to bussiness so they might be changing their job for a healthiest enviroment (if you felt called to pile 1 I suggest you to check it), it seems like their current work field is forcing your person to sacrifice themselves and keeps them in a defensive position. They'll have to work hard but it will bring them stability and security.

Channeled messages: Acts of service, getting a pet together, a cat person, sleep problems, full moons affect their mood, white horses and moths, vivid dreams, sitcoms, a lot of laugh, mental fog, meditation, 1212, 444, taurus, gemini, aquarius

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a-998h · 2 months

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Hi, can I drop a request?

Can you do Reader with personality disorder due to past trauma? They are usually Sun, a cheerful, bright person with a caring and empathic nature. But under extreme stress, anger or sadness, Moon will take over with their cunning, cold and apathic personality. They value no connection except a fierce loyalty and protectiveness to Sun. Moon can be kind and gentle for whom Sun loves, though. Sun and Moon communicates by secret messages hidden in songs and tunes they made.

Hope this is not too much. I really enjoy your works!

🌙 anon if not taken. Or I can be ❄️ anon instead. If both are taken, it's ok.

Of course you can be 🌙 anon, now you can be my second anon.

(This contains mention of trauma and multiple personality disorder as a trauma response, read at your own risk)

They only knew Moon. They were worried about you when you arrived in Teyvat, your silent, apathetic, and cold to them all.

Some characters like Diluc, Alhaitham, Albedo, and those who are also a bit cold themselves don't look into it... at first.

The notice something is off when you're with Itto. You didn't really respond to his energy most of the time. One day while you and the gang are in the streets of Inazuma, and a small fight breaks out. Shinobu notices how you tense up, you look like you're about to run or punch someone. When one of the fighting guys gets a little to close to you... Shinobu noticed how you humming something.

The second sigh to notice was when you were with Kaeya, he had placed a hand on your shoulder and you froze. Not in the "I'm paying attention" way but in the "if I don't move then no one can see me" way. It makes him worried. When he removes his hand from your shoulder and goes to ask you, you're gone.

Everyone starts getting more worried about you. They want to help you. They only learn what's going on, after Sun shows up.

Sun is a strange presence to them. They've only seen Moon and never Sun. But they love Sun, and Sun loves them back. When you were in the library with Lisa, alone, she heard humming coming from you. She thought Sun was humming while reading and didn't think too hard about it...

No one knew why you switched between Sun and Moon or why they seemed to humming random things but it didn't bother them.

They learn what happened to you from Sun. Sun was talking with Eula and said, "you're nicer then her." This causes Eula to freeze. She keeps asking questions and Sun gives vague answers. But Eula and other put together what they know, and Kaeya and Shinobu bring up what they saw with Moon.

The pieces come together, and give them a horrific picture. Trauma, something so bad happened to you that you had to create the personality of Moon to protect your Sun. They're all horrified and made it the personal mission to make you feel better.

As they make you more comfortable, they realize the Moon is warmer than they originally thought.

Now, Sun and Moon, who hurt you? Don't worry, they aren't gonna hurt you. Let them know who hurt you so they can make your life easier from now on.

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valen-nidk · 1 month

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Highkey need a angst no comfort fanfic of Lucifer x Male!Reader, in which Lucifer is telling Charlie about "how humans were given freewill and look at what they do" but one of the residents is M.Reader who is flabbergasted at how apathic Lucifer is, gets on his face and shouts, yells at him.

▪︎ About how Lucifer himself should know better than anyone how twisted Heaven itself is and how God deemed His most beautiful and loyal soldier worthless, casting him aside — how humans are more complex with all the shades of grey that morality actually entitle.

▪︎ M.Reader voice cracking, not out of fear since Lucifer is looking absolutely fucking pissed and Charlie is holding him back, but because he is crying as he yells that he didn't deserve to be here and if anyone had failed him, it had been God (M.Reader having to kill his abuser because authorities and his close circle had failed him? Perhaps, died mid-abuse and the reason he was thrown into Hell was something as stupid as premarital marriage when it wasn't even consensual).

▪︎ Realization dawning on Lucifer, he stutters but M.Reader is angry-crying, pointing at himself at how Hell is also fucked up because "I died and my body has spots/heart shapes as a pattern across my body on the places I was hurt?!" M.Reader maybe even looking manic, absolutely gone as he breaks down before he storms off.

▪︎ Everyone standing awkwardly.

[ BONUS POINTS. ] Imagine M.Reader singing something akin to Congratulations from the Hamilton Musical as he breaks down on how Heaven had failed him, how praying to God didn't do a single thing, how it felt unreal when he landed in Hell when his only sin was being brought onto the world with no one to care about him and oh, did he fight? He fought tooth and nail but even the person with the strongest will to live, to barely survive will crumble down.

#Hazbin Hotel #Hazbin Hotel Idea #Hazbin Hotel x Male Reader #Lucifer x Male Reader #Hazbin Hotel Imagines #🧍 he speaks

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nahokura · 6 months

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Angst drabble

You dying in front of them

Characters: Akutagawa Ryuunosuke, Dazai Osamu, Chuuya Nakahara

Tw: You die; blood; suicidal thoughts; I think that's all tell me if there's something else

A/N: it's obviously headcanons and drabbles, and I'm french and a beginner so might be bad writted

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke

His one and only fear was to lose the one he loved, you.

So when you two were walking on a late night date and that a man appeared behind you, he immediately tried to kill him with Rashomon.

Unfortunately this man had a shield ability and nothing could touch him.

So the man grabbed you by the back of your shirt and pointed a gun at your head.

Akutagawa didn't have the time to react.

The man shot you in the head, in front of your lover.

«What...? This can't be happening...YOU!!! WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO?!»

This time, it was the man who couldn't react.

Big tears were running down Aku's cheeks against his own will.

He didn't take time to kill the man, not bothering if he screamed or not.

He was absolutely devastated and stayed next to your body for a while, holding your cold hand.

He wanted you to be burried in a place where he could be burried beside you.

After that, he was even more apathic than before.

Mori kept asking him if he was ok.

Of course he was not ok, but he kept saying that he didn't care.

Unfortunately, everyone could see his sadness, even if he didn't want them to see.

Dazai Osamu

Give this man a break.

When he saw your body colapse, his whole world collapsed, again.

You got poisoned in the bar you both went to.

He eventually laughs through it.

He can't even cry anymore.

He eventually broke down in front of Kunikida.

«Why?! Why them?! Why couldn't they fucking take me! I can't do this anymore, please, please kill me, please help me!»

Kunikida stopped screaming at him after your death.

They became closer than before tbh.

Dazai keeps a photo of you everywhere he goes.

Keeps laughing through it with suicidal jokes.

«It's completely okay since I will join them soon!»

Chuuya Nakahara

You both were in a mission when suddenly, a girl appeared in front of you both.

Chuuya heard a loud splash and turned his head to you, eyes wide opened.

Something had pierces through your heart.

It was the girl's ability.

Chuuya couldn't help but attack the woman with all his strength.

He couldn't use corruption, it would be too dangerous and Dazai was nowhere to be seemed.

But it's okay, he still managed to hurt the woman without his corrupted form.

He got so angry when he saw her running away but he had to take care of you.

He tried to stop the hemorrhage with his hand and some bandages he bought.

It was useless, since it was directly pierced into your heart.

He held your hand, a little bit too hard.

He wanted to at least kiss you one last time.

So he did, tears running down his cheeks.

He had a little smile while your eyes were closing for the last time.

«At least, you are gone with the sight of me smiling, dearest.»

#bsd #bungo stray dogs #angst #bad ending #blood #akutagawa ryuunosuke #dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd akutagawa #bsd x reader #bungo stray dogs x reader #dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #akutagawa x reader

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When lvan removes the collar from Till,in that room where he was left alone (that to me looks like a *cough cough* shady club in a red light district. Poor Till) it reminded me of little lvan rebelling for the first time,entering in Till's cell (in Black Sorrow's flashbacks) and freeing him to escape with him. The parallelism is insane...they couldn't escape anymore,forever trapped until the round's outcome. Instead of a meteor shower,we were showered with rain. Good choice,vivinos. I really liked the grey sky.

One more thing,l think lvan was pretending to choke Till.At the end he doesn't gasp for air and doesn't have red marks. It's completely different from Mizi and Luka. Luka eyes were about to pop out. Till abandons himself and gladly accept what Ivan is doing because he was already dead.He is shocked when he feels that lvan has loosened the grip. He opens the eyes just to see him fall and smile. I also think that Ivan's intention was not to be remembered by Till with that kiss. It's obvious he'll remember everything about the round anyway,like his traumatic past. Present. The aliens were so disgusted by the kiss that,from being on the same level,Till surpassed the score. The love and hype for Ivan became anger: he interrupted their show,he acted in an improper way.

The last peck he gives him,the one showed in full frame,is the real deal. It was a ''goodbye'' and not a tactic to make the aliens frown and displeased anymore. He got to kiss him,something he always wanted to do,so it's not really a tactic.

''It was a good way to die.'' (cit probably Ivan)

''HELLO THE ALIENS ARE HOMOPHOBIC THEY DON'T WANT TO SEE A GAY ASS KISS ANOTHER MAN.THEY WANT TO BE ENTERTAINED? I WILL DO IT MY WAY. WITH PLEASURE.'' (cit. Ivan again)

Ivan waited for a reaction from Till,before and while chocking him. At some point his gaze trembles,he can't stand to see him drained from all his determination.He feels lost,but not because he wanted to see the old Till,who acted like his pillar.Not to feel contented,but because he thought that Till really LOST himself.He ponders about what to do next. ''This kiss will not make him misunderstand''. ''What to do next now that I'm choking him.Are we both doomed''. It is true that Ivan is obsessed with Till beyond the concept of devotion,at the point to make his life revolve around him. Till was what made him dream. He wasn't just something that awakened his vitality (and something else) in the emptiness. Ivan was like a puppet you move with strings,apathic,waiting to die. He didn't realize he could react and reapproach to his identity. Still,I don't think he wanted Till to die with him.

In this round,the one who always fight give up .The one who was inspired and obedient, rebels once again because of the glim of that ''star''. His black sorrow.

Rather than "I love you" it was like he was screaming "You have to live. Live on". He never had his love. For the trauma thing he discussed with Sua..well maybe he thought he didn't meant that much for Till,he was describing what Sua had the chance to get and,in his perspective,would have not cherished with her sacrifice.I don't think he was jealous of her. He says ''I feel relieved. The fact I'm not the only one who's messed up in the head'' . He didn't seem to hate Mizi too.

And the lyrics "Even if your cold words carve scars beneath my eyes , may they linger on your tongue. You can break me apart". This says a lot about lvan self-destructive nature. It doesn't surprise me he was ready to risk it all. He let the pain engulf him,going in the monster's mouth. He worshipped everything about Till. He touched Till's scar and then put the fingers on his lips.He wanted to feel his blood. Like if he could get closer to Till in this gesture,to compensate for the emptiness of the love he would have liked to receive from him.

If I were to say something to lvan: my buddy,your dedication truly amazed me. You were shoot three times and didn't even flinch. I'll call you IVANilla. Cause I like vanilla. I'm sorry,you're not only dead but now you have this name.

Till VS Luka.

Hyuna bleeding. If they ever get captured,they'll be killed or be imprisoned? Till will get up alone or with the certainty of Mizi's life? For Ivan's sacrifice?

Luka,that guy,I know he laughed after watching round 6.

Like someone else said,WE HAVE TO BEAT HELLERS YOU ALL. YOU ALL!!!!!

AND DON'T FORGET: CHEER UP! :)

First of all, I am so sorry it took me so long to get to this ask (and a bunch of other asks as well). There's just been a lot to think about lately which makes things a little overwhelming. This is a pretty long mesage, so I wanted to find time to answer it as best as I can. Thank you for sending such a long ask, I appreciate that you take time out of your day to share all these thoughts with me :)

The constant theme of Ivan saving Till is so tragic, but also it's really interesting how Ivan is able to deactivate collars and restraints so easily? He's incredibly observant, intelligent, and a trusted pet, so he could've picked up the technique from watching the aliens. It's honestly crazy how much power Ivan has? I mean, he's not on par with aliens by any means, but he could've been such an asset in the rebellion. There seems to be a lot that Ivan knew about, a lot of places he could access that other humans couldn't. Anyways, the parallel... Ivan freeing Till as a child and running away with him, contrasting with Ivan as an adult freeing Till yet remaining stationary. As children they had hope, as adults they know they're chained to their circumstances. All Ivan does this time is press his face to Till's, a small, soft comfort before their inevitable doom.

This is a thought I've always had about Ivan even before ROUND 6, but he always seemed like Till's protector in a way. Some call him a "guardian angel" of sorts (it's quite literal now. unfortunately). Despite Ivan's strange and offputting behavior, he always came back to help Till in one way or another. A lot of things that he did seemed to be an attempt to service Till in some way, even if they were done in roundabout manner. Even the childish act of stealing Till's things just to give them back to him is a (albeit fabricated) situation wherein Till needs something and only Ivan has what it takes to provide it to him. Ivan knows how to unlock the collars. Ivan knows where the restricted area is. Ivan knows where Till's things are. Ivan knows where Till is taken when he is hurt. Ivan knows how to escape. Every ounce of knowledge Ivan has is used for Till's sake. This is an insane amount devotion. Protecting and aiding Till by any means possible.

The meteor shower turning out to be rain messed me up actually. There was so much hope for the meteors to make a reappearance, especially since they became Ivan's signature and are associated with the infamous Meteor Scene. It's fitting, though, for us to expect blazing stars and instead be met with rainfall. There is no fiery passion, no bombastic jailbreak, no escape for the both of them. Cure is honestly so tragic because everything that we'd hoped for just... didn't happen (unless you prayed that Ivan would die! congratulations if you did). All we get is the depressing downfall of water. Extinguished flames, their cold and heavy circumstances drowning out hope and passion, emotions that so closely tied themselves to their beloved meteors now dissipating like smoke. Most of all, Till's lyric "Until these falling stars are buried in the blur of time".

After some deliberation, yeah, I agree that Ivan didn't perform the act to necessarily be "remembered". It wasn't his main motivation, at least. Many of my perspectives on certain aspects of ROUND 6 have changed since I first saw it through tear-blurred eyes (still in absolute shock to this day). The Confession comic further hammered down on this fact, as Ivan's states that his act of sacrifice wasn't as cruel as Sua's because he believed that Till didn't care about him enough to crumble for him like Mizi did for Sua. However, I don't think the aliens were disgusted by the kiss. We only see the scores changing once Ivan wraps his hands around Till's neck. They were definitely shocked by it, yeah, some maybe even against it, but I don't think it contributed to his score lowering as much as the "attempted murder" did. Luka tossed Mizi around and stepped into her space a lot (uncomfortably so) during ROUND 5, Till smashed open an alien on stage, so I don't think the aliens are unfamiliar with more... unique acts during performances. What they definitely won't let slide, however, is attacking the opponent. I do agree that the public's love for Ivan quickly soured into something else, at least for certain groups of aliens. His fanbase is now probably divided between the new haters and the diehard fans who are fighting for their lives.

THE ALIENS ARE HOMOPHOBIC 😭 HELP LMAO. I think they'd just be Tillphobic tbh

I also believe Ivan wasn't actually choking Till, he just needed it to look like he was. Till didn't show any signs of struggle except for that first instance of shock. My best friend pointed it out at first, too. She mentioned that Till's body didn't react to the "choking" in any way, in fact, his expression seemed almost peaceful. Till assumed that Ivan intended on choking him and gave up, even when he wasn't actually restricting his air yet. "Abandoning himself" is a pretty great way to word it. I think even Ivan was rattled at how lifeless Till was in that moment.

Ivan's face is contorted in this frame, and it could be because of the gunshots, yes (he's honestly holding it together very well for someone who got shot THRICE), but Ivan was shot as well before this frame and he still maintained a stoic expression. To me, Ivan's stress in this scene stems from the realization that Till is not fighting back. Even with the sound of gunshots piercing skin and the weight of hands around his neck, Till remains unresponsive. Of course it was obvious that Till was giving up right from the moment ROUND 6 started, but to see him so readily accept death no matter the method... his star has truly burned out. He was waiting for a reaction that would never come at this point. The paragraph you wrote about this is honestly beautiful.

Ivan and Till essentially "switching" for this round is one of the things that I hoped for ever since they announced production, so I'm really happy (and devastated) to see it come to life. Ivan taking the biggest and last risk of his life in order to save his star, who spurred on all these feelings in the first place. I agree that his act wasn't an "I love you", though. I was a bit wrong in one of my previous posts. I don't think he cared for his own feelings in that moment. He prioritized Till first and foremost, performing the final act with the belief that Till, even up to this point, didn't care about him.

I never thought Ivan genuinely hated Sua, but I do still think that he was envious of her. It's confirmed now in the Confession comic, too. Seeing how Mizi and Sua loved each other, it gave him an "indescribable" feeling, one that made his brows furrow, his face dropping into a complicated expression. I also think that he never hated Mizi, either. After all, why would he? Just because Till loves her? He knows all too well that people can't control who they love. It's no fault of hers.

Thank you so much for bringing up Ivan's tendency for self-destruction. Even in his own personal relationships he tends to sabotage himself. Much of Ivan's character is centered around a "lack" of some kind. Lack of emotion, lack of love, lack of anyone close to him that could understand him (It's kind of ironic to think about since out of the whole cast he's probably the most well-provided for aside from Luka). Due to this lack, he desperately attaches himself to any feeling that could make up for the emptiness. The Patreon posts state that Ivan is deeply fascinated by anyone who possesses qualities that he lacks, which is why he developed such strong and obssessive feelings for Till, who seemed to be his opposite.

Ivan tanking 3 shots with a straight face was so insane actually. His expression didn't even budge. Really hammers in how much "normal" emotional responses he lacked. He only ever focused on Till, his source of feeling. Also Ivanilla is so cute actually 😭 fits since he's fond of sweets.

If Hyuna and Mizi are found, I have a feeling they'd be killed on the spot. What they've done is basically unforgivable to the aliens, and Mizi was supposed to be shot dead at the end of ROUND 5 anyway. It's either immediate death or unimaginable torture. I'm not sure how soon Till will be able to "get up", but I feel like if he caught just a glimpse of Mizi he'd regain some of his strength back. He'd have to carry on for Ivan, too.

Luka is definitely going to have one hell of a time during ROUND 7.

CHEER UP! once again sorry it took me so long to get to this. My brain was really disorganized and trying to piece together my thoughts on this was a challenge that had to be put off for a while due to some life issues. Sorry if it's not entirely cohesive! Thank you so much for the ask :)

#long post #alnst #alien stage #alien stage round 6 #asks

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flatoutin-eaurouge · 2 months

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Kissing your tears away

Pairing: Mika Häkkinen x Michael Schumacher

This makkinen + first kiss prompt was brought to you by this very lovely anon 💕 Coincidentally the lovely @kimizilla also received an ask from the same anon for a makkinen + first kiss artwork! 😭🫶🫶 So we decided to do a co-project!!! 😍 matching fanfic and artwork is a dream come true! 😭😭

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Michael swallowed. There was something so adorable about a grown man lying in his bed in silken blue button-up pajamas, with his messy blonde hair and wet blue eyes staring up at the ceiling.

"Mika?" he asked carefully, afraid that the Finn didn't want to be seen or talked to. Afraid that he would be embarrassed by the way he was clutching his bedsheets in a white-knuckled grip.

Despite the fact that Michael was talking to him, Mika didn't avert his eyes from the pristinely white ceiling he was apathically staring at. "Are-are you going to leave me too?"

He sounded disappointed. Michael watched as tears crawled over the brim of the Finn's eyelids and tracked down his pale, porcelain skin.

He hopscotched the last few meters to Mika's bed and placed his scrutches against the nearest wall. He sat down and weaved his fingers through Mika's golden hair. Poor thing! He would love to keep him company until his last day in the hospital, but he couldn't.

"Not yet. Probably soon. Let's not think about that."

Mika's bottom lip started to tremble and the flow of tears cascading down his face increased. He twisted and turned in the bedsheets and curled against the German, pressing his tear-stained face in the soft material of Michael's hoodie.

Michael caressed his soft, blonde locks and threw him a rueful smile. "How is the pain this morning?"

"Un-fucking-bearable. Like always," the Finn mumbled in the thick textile of his hoodie.

"Mmm. Maybe we should go outside to distract you?"

"How? A crippling and a weakling? The blind leading the blind?"

"Well, maybe we can both use crutches for more balance."

Mika lifted his face from Michael's hoodie and scowled at him. "Brilliant idea. My arms are as weak as my legs so that must work out." He gave him a cynical thumbs up. "I feel like a rag doll."

Michael let his fingers adoringly trace his rival's cheekbones, wiping away his tears and chuckled. "You are a rag doll."

Mika had the guts to glare daggers at him through his tears. He grabbed Michael's wrist in a viselike hold. "Well, you are a nuisance!"

"You don't mean that."

"I do mean it if you call me a rag doll."

Michael stared at Mika. The man basically was a rag doll at this point. A gorgeous, handsome rag doll, but a rag doll none the less. His arms and legs had lost so much strength and his pajama seemed slightly over-sized due to the weightloss after weeks of hospitalization. They chose to make fun of it, throwing affectionate insults each other's way, but in fact there was nothing funny about it.

"Come on, Mika. Fetch a wheelchair. I can sit in it and you can lean on it, and then we take a very slow stroll towards the park."

Mika sighed. The pain in his head was torturing him, but he reckoned it was a good idea to distract himself from said pain. He pushed himself upright with a pained frown and reached for his pain killers. "Just give me a minute."

Michael watched as Mika took his pills. It was hard to process that after all these weeks after the crash, he was still dependent on them. Life was just so unfair.

"Alright, let's go." Mika got up to his feet and stumbled towards his own wheelchair. "Mine is closer by. I know they encourage you to use crutches, but we are not going to limp up and down the hallway to fetch one."

Michael watched amusedly as the pajama-clad, grumpy Finn put his slippers on and pushed the wheelchair into his direction.

"Don't you want to get changed first?"

"No, I don't care."

Michael shrugged as he sat down in the wheelchair. Typical Mika. "I think you're gonna have a problem with your nurse... but okay."

Mika released the brakes and started wheeling his co-patient onto the smooth waxed floor of the hospital hallway. His knees trembled and his arms shook, but he had decided for himself that this was going to be his first workout after the crash.

He stared at the mop of light brown curls in front of him and smiled fondly. "Are you comfy, Michael?"

"More than!" Michael turned around and was met with a warm, genuine smile that he hadn't seen in the days since he was administered to Mika's hospital room. It warmed not only his heart, but also his senses and the goosebumps on his skin.

Michael closed his eyes and reveled in that foreign, but very welcome, warmth. Until his ride came abruptly to a halt.

"What do you guys think you're doing?!"

A quite corpulent, stern nurse had put her foot in front of one of the wheels of the wheelchair. "Who told you it was a good idea to go outside on your own?"

"I did," Michael said resolutely. "Vitamins D for my pale Finnish roomie!"

Mika nodded in confirmation.

The nurse put her hands on her hips. "You..," she pointed at Michael, "...are not a medical specialist! Look at him!"

Michael turned around to look at the Mika, taking him in from head to toe. Very pretty! Was the only thing he thought.

"Yes like I said, he looks pale he needs his sunny vitamins!"

The nurse reached out to grab Mika's wrist and tried to wrestle his hand off of the wheelchair handle. "You need to rest! You're weak! It's too dangerous for you outside!"

Mika resisted when the corpulent nurse wrapped her arms around his slender waist and tried to drag him away from the wheelchair.

"No ma'am! I'm off the hook. Literally!" Mika reached for the wheelchair handles again, almost tripping over his unsteady legs. "I don't have to carry my IV-bag around anymore. I'm on pills now."

"Hey hey, don't wrestle with my patients!" A loud voice bellowed across the hallway.

An older man in a white lab coat with mischievous eyes and an amused grin on his face walked up to them and started to gently push the nurse away from the disgruntled Finn.

"I can imagine they go insane between these walls. Let's give them a little bit of freedom. If they feel too weak they will find out soon enough."

Michael nodded and pointed at Mika. "Don't worry. If you let us, I will not leave his side. I will protect him at all costs. Right, Mika?"

Mika rolled his eyes at his German co-patient.

"Alright, but no longer than an hour and a half!" the nurse barked at them.

Michael set a timer on his watch. "Promised."

"Do you think she means an hour and a half and then go back or does she mean be back in an hour and a half?" Mika mumbled as he rolled Michael over the pavement outside the hospital.

Michael chuckled. "In my honest opinion, I think you should not try her out! She seems very strict."

"She is! Even more so than Ron Dennis!"

Michael turned around to look at Mika and smirked. He could picture that nurse wrapping Mika in a straight jacket to keep him from wandering around in the hospital. "That's good. Someone stubborn like you needs a strict nurse!"

"Michael!" Mika shook the wheelchair making Michael giggle even more. "That nurse said going outside is dangerous for me! You told me to go outside. You are the bad influence!"

"I was only joking, Mika." Michael wanted nothing more than to get up from the wheelchair and walk next to Mika so he could see his sweet face turn into a disgruntled frown everytime Michael was riling him up.

Michael could read people very well. He would never make fun of Mika when he was in pain, but right now the pain killers were doing their job and Michael thought a bit of light, friendly banter would be a good change of topic for the Finn. Not the heavy tearjurker kind of stuff.

Mika grabbbed a strand of Michael's soft, curly hair and tugged. "Still a nuisance!"

"And you are still a rag doll."

As they entered the park, Michael could feel Mika was tired. The speed and smoothness of his wheelchair steering had diminished the closer they had gotten to the green lawn.

"Why don't you say anything?"

"Hmm? What do you mean?" Mika leaned forward to look over Michael's shoulder.

"About you getting tired? It's important to let me know! I can feel it in your handling of the wheelchair."

Mika sighed. "I am shaking all over to be completely honest with you. But it's no point to whine about that. I need to improve my stamina and strength."

Michael reached out to grab Mika's shoulder. "Come here. Let me look at you."

Mika stopped the wheelchair next to a big tree that shielded them against the blazing Australian sun and put in on the brakes.

He collapsed to his knees with an exhausted sigh and wrapped his arms around his shaking body. His face looked pale and was covered with a fine sheen of cold sweat. "Perkele, I hate this!"

"Oh Mika, you look like death warmed over! Again, why didn't you say anything?!"

Michael carefully slid out of the wheelchair and sat down next to the Finn with his casted leg stretched out in front of him.

"I didn't want to come across as a wuzz!" he replied as big tears started to roll down his cheeks. "Great! And now I am crying too!"

He covered his face with his hands and started sobbing quietly. "First, my mom leaves me and in a few days you will leave me too, and I am still a fucking wreck!" His shoulders shook violently. "This is the first time I get to be outside and now I am tired and in pain!"

Michael scooted closer to the desperate Finn and enveloped him in his arms. "Oh poor Mika! Mein Hübscher!"

He caressed Mika's shuddering spine and startled when he found out he could count all his ribs one by one. "Verdammt, you are skin and bones! I will make sure the hospital staff will give you some proper nutricious food!"

Mika pressed his face in the crook of Michael's neck and sobbed. "I need my pills. My head hurts so much!"

Like yesterday, Michael's hand raked through Mika's hair, stroking the soft, golden locks, and letting them flow through his fingers. He was pleasantly surprised by how long the Finn's hair had gotten, and he was suprised by how much he adored it on him.

"You think I'm malnourished. Now I know why you call me a rag doll!"

"Sssshhh, Mika. Take deep breaths. You don't look like a rag doll."

Mika lifted his face from Michael's shoulder and pouted at him. He was in shambles. His cheeks and the tip of his nose were red and burning. A gleam of a crying-blush that contrasted enormously with his pale countenance.

Michael's heart banged against his sternum. He took a deep breath himself. Goosebumps formed on his skin. He wanted to protect this beautiful human being at all costs.

His fingers felt for scars hidden underneath Mika's thick mop of hair. He thought of the appendicits-scar underneath Mika's pajama shirt - still fresh after a few weeks, and could see the little dimple in Mika's throat, giving away where the medics had cut his throat to help him breath on that awful day in November.

He reached out to touch that small, teeny-tiny imperfection on Mika's otherwise smooth and even skin.

Mika recoiled and grabbed Michael's wrist in an instant. "Don't touch it," he said with an unsteady voice.

Michael startled heavily and quickly retrieved his hand. "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! Does it still hurt?"

Mika shook his head. "No, but touching it brings back memories I would like to forget."

Michael placed his arm back around Mika and pulled him closer. He caressed his cheek with the back of his hand.

"I hate it so much!"

"Sssshh, don't hate it! Why don't you see it as something positive?" Michael reached out again - seeking for permission and receiving it hesistantly - and touched the scar again. This time more carefully.

"This tiny flaw in your skin has saved your life!"

"Don't you think it's ugly?"

"Ugly?! Do I need to wash you mouth with soap?" Michael replied sternly.

Mika blinked at him in confusion.

"Nothing about you is ugly! Don't even dare say that again!" Michael's hand shot down to caress Mika's appendicits-scar over the fabric of his pajama shirt. "This one saved your life too."

Mika stilled in appreciation and stared at Michael through his tears. "Why are you being so kind to me?"

Michael swallowed. He stared into Mika's beautiful blue eyes, then at his adorable pink lips. He caressed a strand of blonde hair from his face. "Maybe I am kind to you because you've always been kind to me." His fingers stroked the line of Mika's jaw tenderly. "Maybe I am kind to you because you look so much like an angel I need to please."

He sighed in adoration when he saw a deep red blush adorning Mika's once so pale cheeks.

"Maybe I am kind to you because that little dimple in your throat and your crooked smile are so beautiful to me."

Mika smiled at him through his tears.

It was truly a captivating sight. His rueful smile looked like a sunrise after days of rain. It looked like a spring day after a months-long winter.

Michael's hand tightened gently around Mika's jaw as he angled the Finn's face a little upward. His other hand buried itself in Mika's soft, wavy hair. He stared at those pretty lips again, as his heart skipped a beat.

Then he kissed him... he kissed him as gently as if he were made of porcelain. His soft lips left nothing to the imagination as to how delicate he was. It was seriously like he was kissing an angel. No matter how gentle the kiss was, it set the goosebumps on his skin on fire. His cheeks burned with desire for his secret love. Mika Pauli Häkkinen, ich liebe dich!

Mika's eyes grew wide when he felt Michael's lips on his own. The kiss came as a complete surprise to him, but not a hair on his head thought about recoiling or resisting. Quite the opposite actually... Mika melted against Michael's frame as the German deepened the kiss and stroked his skillfull fingers through his luscious, golden hair.

It was unlike any of the kisses he had ever shared with a girl. Michael's lips were stronger and more demanding. The sensation send a wave of heat through his nerves and filled his fatigued body with a new kind of energy.

Michael's arms wrapped more tightly around his angel. He didn't want to let go. Here, underneath the canopy of the giant tree, without the press lurking around, he could pour all his love into this single kiss.

When they parted, Mika stared at Michael with a glazed look. His cheeks a brilliant shade of red. "Michael..." He swallowed audibly.

"That was... that was..."

A pause.

He wiped his tears away. "So how do we get back to the hospital in time now?"

Michael stared at the Finn fondly and caressed one of his rosy cheeks with his thumb. "What do you mean, mein Hübscher?"

"Well, I was shaking all over from exhaustion when we arrived. Now I am shaking all over for different reasons."

#makkinen #mika häkkinen #michael schumacher #mika hakkinen #f1 fanfic #f1 fic #f1fanfic

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mehilaiselokuva · 10 months

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My favorite words in Finnish

Someone made this with their own list (and i lost it, sorry!) but all credit to them! I wanted to show my own list. You can probably see how much I love vowels... :D

Aa’atutu - crib (dialectal) Aalloke - wavelet Aamunkoi - dawn Aamusumu - morning fog Ahava - Dry and cold wind Ahjo - furnace Aie - intent Aihe - topic Aihio - unfinished work Aika - time Ani - very (archaic) Apea - melancholic Avara - spacious Ehiö - postal stationery Elosalama - heat lightning Emi - pistil Emo - mother (animal) Eno - maternal uncle Etuhele - grace note Haarukka - fork Haiku - whiff of smoke Haisu - stink (rare) Haju - scent Hajota - to dissolve Hakata - to hit something repeatedly Haku - search Hame - skirt Hana - faucet Hanki - blanket of snow Hapankala - fermented fish Hekko - fruit bat Hellemekko - sundress Hento - fragile Hikari - nerd Hiki - sweat Homoikoni - gay icon Horina - prattle Huhu - rumor Hui hai - *apathical expression* Iho - skin Ilo - happiness Imu - suction Jurumi - giant anteater Kahina - rustling Kala - fish Kana - chicken Kanava - channel Kettu - fox Kihomato - pinworm Kinuta - to beg Kokopuku - full-body suit Kota - (a type of shelter) Kotelo - enclosure Lohi - salmon Maito - milk Mana - death Mato - worm Mehu - juice Mesi - nectar Muna - egg Muro - cereal Nakupelle - naked person (humorous) Paakkuunnuttaa - To cake (to form a cake) Sakata - to stall Salakivi - a hidden underwater rock Vaa’ata - to weigh with a scale (rare) Äkätä - to realize

#finnish #langblr #langblog #language #suomi #suomen kieli #word list #words #love words

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emeyuko · 1 year

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Each day i am more fucking sure that at first, they were going to push Yosuke as the romance option like in p3 is Aigis and p5r is Sumire, not only for the obvious stuff (constant flirting from Yu's part, Teddie believing this two were a thing at the beggining of the game, they being close friends no matter what the player does, when Yosuke asks you about what's your type and you choose neither, the game will mention how you told your true feelings, etc...) But also something that i noticed about the other ships that they push you to get, the biggest example is Aigis, who showed to be a robot with lack of human emotions that came to understand what it means to be alive, from an apathic robot, to someone with a big heart that can call herself human, even if she's not physically one

The thing is that she shares a thing in common with Makoto, Makoto started as an apathic man, that didn't wanted to die, but didn't had strong feelings to "live" neither, they both found what was precious in life, but still accepting the final day of life, death.

They parallel each other in a way and somehow, they helped each other to grow, even if it isn't noticed as much in the game, it's noticeable in the anime specially, Makoto is the reason Aigis is "alive" while Aigis is what Makoto needed

But how it's related? Easy, how they handle the "love interest", someone that parallels the mc, a relathionship that fits the message of the game, a relathionship where both parties help the other to grow, who have this 3 in common the most? 𝙔𝙤𝙨𝙪𝙠𝙚

Yosuke's social link is about him finally finding somewhere he truly belongs where he doesn't feel alone, bc his shadow himself mentioned "you act happy and carefree to hide the fact that you are scared of being alone" but after Yu came in, he finally found himself comfortable, Yu is the reason he find himself in terms with inaba, why he found a place he could truly belong, like if the city didn't meant to him as much as Inaba now

What about Yu? Yu has a very similar parallel to Yosuke, someone who the city didn't exactly meant something to him, who was alone and was afraid of his own insolation, that's why, he truly thought he was empty, he's afraid of losing those that matters to him, like Yosuke said at the end of his social link, the power to protect those who matter, "friends, family...and you".

And no, this is not one-sided, Yu is constanly thanking Yosuke for being there in anime adaptations and the game itself, Yosuke is also the only one who knows him enough to wait for him after going after Adachi alone, he was hurt, he was maybe angry, but he wanted to let him know, that he can trust him.

And let's not talk about this, who was the one who was always saving Yu from darkness in the anime? Who they would 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩 to be the one who saves him in his shittiest moments like Aigis did to Makoto?

That's right

As for something that fits perfectly with the message of the game, this game talks about self-discovery, about self-acceptance, about maturity, about the "truth", and in this case, we are talking about two teenagers, one very agressive towards one of his friends for the possibility of him being gay, but as the game pass, even if he's still kind of an ass to him, he's chiller about it, two teenagers who started the first social link in the game talking how they will work together to find the truth and of course, how one of them discovers how he really feels, something warm, something he didn't wanted to accept, but for his own maturity ("i have been putting all my attention for the murders, to avoid having to confront myself"), he has to accept that:

TL;DR: Yu and Yosuke's relathionship feels more natural than the girls bc they actual put some effort into it like with aikoto, they parallel each other, they help each other, and they represent the themens of the game perfectly

TL;DR2: Removing the romance route was a mistake

#Souyo #otp: my heat inside #i really wanted to give my thoughts so badly #bc i feel like no one did yet #and i guess this could be a #meta

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cyn-if · 11 days

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Hey, I loved your WIP! It's been a while that I haven't so exited for one so I'll watch your progress with great interest :)!

Anyway, I've got a question. How powerful is the MC after all? And if you could explain to us some of his abilities, if you don't mind.

Glad you're excited!

Regarding the MC's "power-level":

The MC as of the last point in the story, is fairly strong. Probably the strongest in the group. Sam comes close, mainly due to their skill, but the MC has a lot of raw strength, that most straight up fights would go in their favour. But outside of the group, there are still plenty of powerful entities, monsters, beasts and even other mortals, that the MC would need to be careful around. They are far from being an unstoppable force.

Ability-wise?

As seen in the book so far, enhanced senses are provided from being corrupted, being able to discern things from far away and with precision. This sped up processing of information extends to the mind, allowing them to be far more efficient when fighting. As the Mc learns/relearns how to exactly fight, this ability will make them a formidable foe.

The healing factor they possess is another boon from being corrupted. Allowing them to heal from almost any wound they take relatively quickly. This regeneration also makes it so that they don't require food, water or sleep either.

Corruptants exude a aura that makes them attractive to mortals. Not even mainly in any intimate way, but more so on a fundamental level. Suggestions and orders are more easily followed, questions and secrets discovered. As well as most mortals not being able but to notice the attractiveness they possess.

Something that exists as a result of the MC's torture is their tolerance to pain. Being able to shrug off/ignore most pain allows them to bypass a lot of fear that would come with fighting or getting hurt.

More in the middle for our MC, is the existence of It being in their head. It can be a boon and a downside. It can share memories with the MC, and thus share experience. This could be a way for the MC to learn "how to fight" quicker. The knowledge It has also can be useful. However just how much can the MC trust it? That is the downside.

Something that corruptants do have to deal with is their volatile and hard to predict emotions. Even in the case of more apathic MC's, the nature of being a corruptant means that your emotions tend to get the better of you often. We haven't seen much of that yet, but it is something to watch out for.

There are other aspects of being a corruptant, but those will be revealed later in the story, and are a little spoilery. So stay tuned!

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astroyongie · 8 months

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Gidle September Reading 2023

Note: please take it lightly

Miyeon

Love: She is feeling very apathic. Miyeon is single and not seeing anyone at the moment, her heart is heaving and full of self doubt and she also has no motivation to go and fight for a lot relationship. I do see that she receives a lot of proposals and confessions but she is just not interested?

Career: She is suffering a lot from impostor syndrome and she doesn’t believe that what she does or what she does to the fans is worthy or is through her work. Miyeon has been self conscious of herself and it also feels like she hasn’t been particularly honest with her members regarding a few issues the group has been experiencing.

Self: She has been very perfectionist with herself, which mainly focus on her appearance and how she perceive herself, so all that energy is being misdirected. I believe that Miyeon is trying very hard to follow the Korean standards which you all know aren’t exactly healthy.

Minnie

Love: She is single and not looking for love. Minnie is very harsh with herself, she auto critic herself a lot and her self doubt is no kidding. It's her lack of self esteem that stops her to be happy in a romantic relationship

Career: She regrets so many things when it comes to the group and her career. I believe that Minnie was the member that suffered the most inside Gidle, she was the one who had to go through awful things ever before debut and she knows that everything she had to live, was not worth her current situation. She is just disappointed. I also don’t think that being an idol is something she enjoys anymore.

Self: She has been thinking a lot about taking some cases to court, about making justice about the things that have happened to her but she haven’t taken action because she needs to do all of it on the shadow which is almost impossible due to her situation.

Soyeon

Love: She is on a kind of on and off relationship where she truly believes that the person loves her and wants to be with her when in reality she has been fed on illusions and lies. It’s partially the reason why the person will never be official with her.

Career: There was probably an argument with her company because Soyeon had an not-realist point of view about Gidle’s future. I also feel like she gets easily moody when the company denies a request of her. Also another little tea I was able to catch on is the jealousy she has over one member of the group.

Self: She has been a little bit disconnected lately mostly because she has been doing things that aren’t aligned with her values and she wonders if she is still a good person. I also see that she has been struggling with a few of her personal relationships.

Yuqi

Love: She is single and independent and not looking for a relationship at the moment. Yuqi sees love as something that doesn’t serve her right at the moment so she isn’t particularly attracted to anyone or seeking any type of romantic feelings or even physical contact?

Career: Everything is going well for her, she has her Chinese sponsorship that works very well and she follows all the advices and the orders given by the company which is making her able to have a stable financial background and life.

Self: Her energy is a little bit off, it seems like she has been working on automatic pilot lately which isn’t giving much information about her self situation.

Shuhua

Love: She is in a relationship with someone and she is very happy with it since the person is treating her like a queen which is basically what she was expecting from the person. So yes, she is emotionally content at the moment.

Career: I believe that Shuhua isn’t being very objective about her career and that if she isn’t careful she will burn herself with things that she thinks are already hers. She lacks a lot of good judgment and I am scared for her that she ends up pissing off the wrong people.

Self: Without surprise, Shuhua lacks of discipline and direction. She has the mentality that things are given to her effortlessly and that make her having lack of direction. Again, I am just scared she pisses of the wrong people that could ruin her career in a snap of their fingers.

#Gidle #Gidle astrology #Gidle tarot #Gidle reading #Gidle headcanons #Gidle imagines #Gidle reactions #Gidle scenarios

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milk-tea-and-memories · 2 years

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pairing: best friend!megumi x gn!reader

warnings: mentions of alcohol, nothing else i think but please lmk if you find something

megumi doesn’t drink, of course, he’s too smart for that. because when megumi drinks, images of you that usually he keeps at bay flood his mind. you, skipping down the little dirt road in the park, occasionally bending down to pick the tiny strawberries that line the overgrown path. it’s you that megumi sees, bravely making conversation with complete strangers and petting their dogs and shaking their hands and megumi just doesn’t know how you do it. megumi enjoys his apathic reputation, he doesn’t care, why should he? but lately you’ve been making him overthink. when you ruffle his hair his usual scowl is usually accompanied by a blush that megumi quickly hides by turning away and pretending to fix up his hair. this mornings worries consist of how to ask you to go to that new restaurant that just opened up in town, without it sounding too much like a date. when he finally pressed send, he cringes at how long it took him to write such a simple message. your reply comes quickly, made known by a soft ping that megumi knows means it’s you because everyone else is set on vibrate only.

sorry gums not tonight, i’ve got plans :p, let’s plan for tomorrow

megumi tries to seem unaffected, though truthfully he hasn’t seen you for a week now since you’ve been studying for your med exam, and he misses you

k. he sends, then winces at how low that sounds, he knows gojo wouldn’t approve. deciding to go on a walk, megumi puts on his jacket and wraps a scarf that you’d bought him at one of the little boutiques in town around his neck. walking around the park that he usually accompanies you to, megumis heart drops into his stomach as his brain processes the scene before his eyes.

two figures are walking in the park, the setting sun casting warm light against their red cheeks. one of the two, tall, taller than he is megumi notes, with dark hair that seems to style itself effortlessly, is saying something animatedly to the other, who slaps him on the head. he immediately recognizes the latter, because it’s you. so these are what your plans were, or more specifically, these are who your plans were. megumis brain immediately begins to compare himself with your new companion, the way his cheekbones sit on his angular face, the way his hands gesture, and most sickeningly, the way he makes you laugh. has he ever made you laugh like that? has he ever laughed like that himself? megumi looks away and heads home, his hands shoved so deep in his pockets he hopes he isn’t pulling his pants down, turning from the scene that he’s sure will be running through his head for the rest of the night. he brushes away an invitation from yuuji for a pizza night, opting to sit in his dark room, periodically glancing at his phone and trying to force the images of you and someone else out of his mind. megumis phone dings again softly, and he is greeted with a picture of you and your companion at a restaurant, squinting at the banner behind you megumi realizes with a sigh that you’ve brought your date, me go mi supposes, to the new restaurant, the one that he asked you to. which brings him to now, sitting in front of the bar, drinking something that the bartender promised was strong. and it is, megumi doesn’t know how long he’s been there, minutes? hours? all he knows is he wants to see you, so his fingers sloppily swipe through his phone until he reaches your contact, pressing it with no second thoughts.

“gumi?” your voice spills out of the speaker and megumi smiles, letting out a little giggle, “gumi are you drunk?”

“nOoOOoO…” megumi stubbornly says, before whispering, “yes, but don’t tell y/n”

“gumi i am y/n” you say exasperatedly, “i’m coming to get you, don’t move.”

megumi stays as still as possible, keeping his eyes open until he inevitably blinks. when your car pulls up, megumi sees you walk quickly up to the door, brushing away a middle aged man that comes up to you doing his best smolder, scanning the room until you see megumi sitting there. megumi wonders how you can be so beautiful and how your eyes are so pretty and how your hair sits perfectly on your head and how nice you look.

“megumi stand up let’s go,” you drag him up from the stool, “a picture will last longer” you add with a wink.

“but you told me not to move?” megumi giggles again, but he’s dragged out of the bar regardless and stuffed into your car.

the ride is silent sans the wind blowing through your open windows and the occasional hiccup from a snoring megumi. the silence is broken however, when you hear the sound of the mirror on the sun shield in your car being opened.

“megumi?” you ask, wondering what in the world could be prompting him to check himself out at this moment. “whatcha doin?”

“figurin’ somethin’ *hic* out” megumi mumbles in reply.

“what?”

“why ‘m not good enough for ya.” megumis voice takes on a pouty tone.

“what? megumi what do you mean?” you wonder because though you know about megumis insecurities he’s always known he’s been enough for you.

“why’d you hafta find that *hic* guy,” megumi continues, “the one you were at the park with *hic* and at the restaurant that i asked you to” this last part is spoken accusingly.

“gums im sorry but we were hungry and it was the closest restaurant, it was really good, we should go sometime too, but you can’t be upset over that?”

“of course i am,” megumi sounds exasperated, “i don’t want some random guy with you all the time, makin’ you laugh and stuff,” he grumbles.

you fight to hide the smirk covering your face, “oh yeah? and why’s that gums?”

“because i love you?!” megumi shoots, and then immediately slaps his hand over his mouth, the alcohol in his system making his eyes open wide like in the comics.

”what did you say?” you ask quietly

and megumis heart speeds up and he’s sure it’s broken the sound barrier

what did he just say

he just told you he loved you

he sits, deathly still, as your car continues down the road

what did he just do

”megumi” your voice cuts through the silence like a knife through the silky tofu you two prepare together for your lazy sunday morning miso soup

”i just didn’t want you to regret…anything” you continue, your voice softer, “i don’t want you to make a mistake.”

megumi thinks this over in his head

does that mean you like him back

what about the guy

what were you doing with him

”we can talk about this more when you’re sober gums” you sigh

megumi looks up to see that you’ve arrived at his house

you open the door with a spare key that megumi had given you and with that the rest of the night goes by in a blur

he briefly remembers you urging him to brush his teeth and you kissing his forehead goodnight

which brings megumi to now, with the morning sun fighting to push through his tightly closed blinds and his head filling with memories of last night

he bangs out of bed, he can’t lose you, he knows he will after what he pulled last night, but he can’t he can’t lose you

changing into his black pants and foregoing a top he starts for the doorknob but it twists open before he can reach it

your smiling but worried face stares back at him

“good morning gumi, i hope you don’t mind i slept here last-oof” you begin but megumis wrapped his arms around you

just as quickly he recoils

“i’m sorry about last night” he says monotonously, his eyes looking anywhere but you, settling on the carpeted floor

you sigh, unwilling to tackle such a heavy subject so early in the morning, but doing so anyways.

“did you mean it?”

megumi feels his chin being lifted by your hands, forcing him to look you in the eye

he stutters, rubbing his hands together nervously

”yes-i mean n-no well yes of course but i’m sure you don’t-i mean” he pushes your hand away and looks back down at the floor “forget it. i want you to be happy, i’m sorry i told you, i’m glad you found someone.”

he notices how you look away and with that he awaits your inevitable rejection, for you to agree with him that while he’s great he’s just not it, just not who you’re looking for, that being megumi is just not enough.

instead, he’s greeted with the feel of your incredibly soft lips, how are they so soft megumi wonders but he’s not surprised, it’s exactly how he imagined them. your hands go up to his hair and all his dreams are suddenly coming true

you pull back smiling and flick his forehead “i am happy gumi, here, with you.”

megumis heart rate slows and speeds up simultaneously

you like him back.

you’re not leaving.

you like him back

“oh and gumi? that guy you saw me with is my cousin makino.”

you smile at his blush and the smile that he can’t keep off his face

he glares at you, “coulda told me sooner,” he grumbles, “would have saved me from this hangover.”

you laugh and drag him back to the bed, snuggling into the blankets and megumi cautiously wraps his arms around your middle, searching your face for approval but your eyes are already closed, your nose nuzzling at his bare chest and your leg wrapped around his.

“don’t worry, i love you too, dummy”

#megumi hcs #fushiguro megumi #jjk headcanons #megumi fluff #megumi x reader #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jjk fanfic #megumi x gender neutral reader #megumi angst #megumi drabble #megumi imagine #megumi x you #suddenly was inspired to write #because someone liked my post #i’m so controlled by this shit #but enjoy

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