#anyway I’m having a normal one

[starryoak]

*gripping table and staring into the mirror* 

I will not obsess about being blocked by someone I’ve never met before in my life. I will not obsess over being blocked by someone I’ve never met before in my life. 

It is a normal part of being online nowadays because everyone is forced to interact on the same five sites when before they’d be on their own private forums and it says nothing about me morally, even if some people think it does.

I regularly examine my own beliefs and interrogate them for flaws, obsessively focusing on doing that searching for some secret reasoning that will make this make sense doesn’t actually help anyone. Just because my OCD insists that anyone who hates me is right doesn’t Actually mean it’s true.  

The reason I know this is because my OCD makes regular leaps in logic that my normal internal thought processes don’t. Those thoughts are a little bitch and should not be listened to. *repeating this in the mirror* I will not obsessed over being blocked by someone I’ve never met before in my life…

#anyway I’m having a normal one #(: #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #pure ocd #pure o ocd #scrupulosity #moral scrupulosity #discourse #ish #not really #but it feels adjacent enough I’m tagging it #i need to stop looking at things when I know it’ll upset me #but on the upside I’m able to do this instead of going ‘y’know the ocd is right’ #’obviously I’m the terrible person’ lol #to be clear no one needs to feel bad about blocking me hahaha #this is just me being an insane person #with a roommate in my brain that has the worst 2014 tumblr discourse opinions at the ready to justify why I should actually hate myself #my posts

[mike-wachowski]

reblog and tag ur answer so I can see please :)

#hello first ever poll how did I do #I know this is kind of a wild spread I wanted to pick things that are maybe less accessible today/have more historic precedence I guess ?? #I also only picked foods I was already familiar with / was able to find firsthand historical accounts of #cause I didn’t want to fuck anything up lol #for the record I’m between Roman and tang dynasty #anyways #mike makes polls #mike speaks #I also wanted them to be like a normal/ popular meal that would be eaten by most folk regularly #other than the Abraham Lincoln one lmao

[loveinstreams]

ghost files is just so compelling because sure it’s about ghosts. sure it’s about trying to find proofs and evidence and explore what’s there. sure it’s about theories and banter. but in the midst of all this there’s another story about standing in the middle of a dark room paralyzed with fear until a friendly face cracks a joke for you. until someone says sure I’ll scream at dust and argue this is all bullshit while you find your courage. I’ll make a silly fool of myself, take goofy selfies of us in haunted mirrors and I’ll hold your hand for something I don’t even believe in. I’ll mock the wind and taunt demons so it’s less scary. I’ll sit there in the dark with you just to make you laugh.

#it’s like. ghosts or not im glad I’m living this with you #anyways having a normal one!!! #ghost files #watcher #shane and ryan #bfu #buzzfeed unsolved

[ato-dato]

I don’t think they’re ugly. But I think the number of times Jean has begged him to buy new clothes is astronomical.

#and this is his work appropriate stuff. think about the stuff that’s too disco to even consider wearing to work. imagine. #I just love the idea of Harry rediscovering his apartment and finding out that green/orange combo was the most normal it’s gonna get #anyway #I have a bunch of de comic ideas but I’m feeling a bit down in the dumps about my art lately #so it thought I should practice drawing him a bit more #disco elysium #disco elysium fanart #harry du bois #harrier du bois #hdb #jean vicquemare #jean viquemare #which one is it??? #kim kitsuragi #de fanart #kimharry #kinda #kim x harry #harry x kim #art #artwork #my art #fanart #digital art #drawing

[opikiquu]

#★ arin rambles #★ my art #art #honkai star rail #hsr aventurine #hsr #So basically me and my bestie have agreed that aven has a priv twt acc and its terrible #yheres only like 1 follower (and its topaz) shes sick of it cuz he posts at the dead of night and its such drastic changes #Like he’d post ‘Sometimes I think about how I’m older than my older sister now.’ #and hes So Sad #and then like 12 minutes later post something like ‘staring at ratio’s cleavage rn not listening to a word hes saying’ #Also ratio isnt allowed to know abt it cuz hes gushing about him constantly like a schoolgirl #anyway so this is Not That. this is the trash he posts though #ignore that one normal cat it was genuinely too cute i didnt wanan erase it .

[mumuqings]

tgcf book spoilers, but one mu qing and xie lian snippet that I think about a lot is this one, at the start of xie lian’s second banishment when he’s surprised to hear mu qing being described as generous and kind:

as opposed to this memory from before his first ascension when mu qing started giving out cherries to the kids in the city:

I think it just really goes to show 1) how deeply mq’s actions truly affected xl and what he thought of him, but also 2) just how different mq and xl are fundamentally in the way that they think and approach things.

I don’t have a lot of commentary on xl that hasn’t already been said, but bc we get the story from xl’s pov, we see a lot of mq’s actions being framed as selfish or suspicious (which is fair, bc again, we know how much his actions hurt xl), but we also see a lot of misconstrued kindness, like in book 8 where it’s revealed that he knocked out fx in order to save him. it’s also pretty obvious how much mq still cares abt xl, with how quickly he volunteers as fu yao and the lengths he goes to protect him when he deems hc a threat, so I also think it’s very likely that mq leaving the trio first was exactly what he said it was — that he thought becoming a junior official, ascending quickly, would be the best way to take care of not just his mother, but also xl, fx, the king and queen, and himself, and so in a way, him leaving was him acting on his kindness. but ofc it doesn’t work out, and he spends the next 800 years fighting w/ fx about it, defending himself, his decisions, and his kindness, and nitpicking the accuracies of his statues while he himself remains completely misunderstood by the two people he probably cares abt the most.

and idk, I guess I just think that’s probably a really lonely way to spend 800 years.

#idk where I was going w this actually #but misunderstood mq who cares so much abt how he’s perceived is smth that I think abt a lot #really resonates w my eldest daughter scapegoat of the family trauma tbh #also to be clear I don’t think xl was in the wrong for chasing him away either #I think they were both just twenty year olds doing their best in a situation that twenty year olds shouldn’t have to face #that said I do think it’s hilarious and incredible that fq spent 800 years beating each other up instead of having one (1) conversation #anyway! I love all three of them! I’m glad they get a happy post canon! #oh also I think mq deserved more than just a ‘just so u know dianxia never thought that poorly of u! just be normal!’ #i think he deserves an apology actually #tgcf #tgcf spoilers #mu qing #xie lian #feng xin #xianle trio #yams thoughts

[kyannnite]

rewatched phantom 25th anniversary concert a few too many times and this came out

redraw of the iconic post by @ rotsuko

#i do have actual phantom art but its a comic and i want to have more than one page… but who knows. i may just post it anyways #for shits and giggles #please talk to me about phantom of the opera. please please please please #i swear i’m normal about it #anyways. #phantom of the opera #poto #the phantom of the opera #my art tag

[puppyeared]

Once upon a time

#I want them to lose focus and have a consensual workplace relationship 🥺🥺 #ALSO WHAT?. SEASON 4 DROP OUT OF NOWHERE WHAT? AND WE GET SHADOWPEACH BACKSTORY CRUNBS??? #can’t get over macaque’s face in That photo. I know what you are #I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM THOUGH UGHHHGFDO #like I have the model sheet for macaque and it shows him with his six ears and it says only to draw the six ears if extreme closeup but i #can’t find a single screen cap in the show with his six ears #I’d like to think wukong would have been one of the first ppl he’d show them to if he always has his glamor on them. PLS IT WOULD BE SO CUTE #like the glamor comes off his scar and someone pointed out his tail switching between black and white and a theory he’s using glamor on his #fur too. but he never ever takes the glamor off his ears which I want to believe is more than just the crew not drawing ‘em #I’m gonna be honest I’m only gonna watch season 4 when dub comes out but. that’s not gonna stop me from peeping the tags since I don’t under #understand the subs anyway. #first shadowpeach art too let’s gooooo. im so normal about them (lying) #my art #myart #Lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #lmk sun wukong #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #sun wukong #shadowpeach #lmk fanart #lmk wukong #lmk monkey king #lmk six eared macaque #lmk season 4 spoilers #lmk season 4 #lmk spoilers

[wybienova]

um who’s this weirdo. get him out of here

#wybs art #umm what tags do i put . i’ve never drawn something for this before #spiderverse #atsv #across the spiderverse #spiderverse fanart #the spot #atsv spot #ok now for me talking #easily one of my favorites . he was very funny and also surprisingly scary . excellent character #love it when a normal guy gets fucked up #also can’t get over his stupid fucking disguise. who is he fooling. he’s not even wearing pants #i’ve been trying to channel my brainrot into drawing some of the guys but it’s surprisingly hard #these ones were ok tho :3 #also means i don’t have to draw a face 👍 win #anyways ummmm go watch atsv it’s really good. i’m gonna watch it again soon

[w1lmuttart]

(WIP)

Wind waker scenery that just hits different :’)

#if you’re wondering if my sudden post about the ww ost from yesterday made me draw this then uhh 🧍I can explain. 🏃 #I’m 50/50 on whether this is a wip or if I like the messiness of it #anyway the cave theme from ww goes hard I have listened to it for an hour now #it’s one theme that has all the somber and solitude feels hidden in it in the midst of all the energetic fiun ost #just like the darker aspects of ww is hidden in a generally fun artstyle and at #atmosphere* #alright I’m normal again I’m not gonna focus in on some random cave and it’s ost anymore lmaooo #this is what ww does to my brain #wind waker

[anna-scribbles]

h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work

unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion

#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad #because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid #i’m on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now i’ve eaten something and we’re so back #i also don’t really do caffeine. except sometimes i’ll go get one of those panera death lemonades #i might be able to snag a short nap before work #but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen #WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE #well. okay whatever i’m gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway #OKAY i’m back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure i’m not lying. because i’m normal. #anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how it’s super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently #emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it #and i’m thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and that’s how he got his start in the fashion industry #so now i’m like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever? #and that’s how audrey found him? have people already thought about this?? #also i just checked and it doesn’t say emilie’s last name in the credits and also it’s ‘graham films’ with the twin rings logo m #so i’m assuming she’s still emilie graham de vanily at that point #anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari #after escaping her british nobility life #and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course. #and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone she’s ever known #and he’s immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates. #and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time #also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w #but at least he’s still obsessed with her #this is what i was thinking about during class today. i don’t know how i get anything done either. #ml #anna rambles #asks

[purrfectlycontent]

loving the webtoon artist’s portrayal of this scene

#my ramblings #there’s two possibilities for this specific panel in my eyes #is it yjh? erasing himself from the future where the scenarios have ended? #or it is kdj? the man whose face no one can remember because they can’t truly see it? #the one who yjh believes will surely take everyone to the end of the scenarios? #anyways. the end of paradise is finally here. which means the 73rd demon king arc is coming #i’m so normal about this fact. so. normal. #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yoo joonghyuk

[the-one-with-spider-brainrot]

Cult of the lamb updated so yknow what that means? thats right more doodles of this fam and this fam alone yippee!!

I was not expecting the crown to jumpscare talk to me so now it gets a personality that’s fun

#cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb spoilers #cult of the lamb sins of the flesh #the ones art #narinder #thorjulbre #pupdessa #narithor #kallamar #leshy #the lamb #urho #pujulon #that’s what the little abomination baby is called it’s so fucking funny that’s the kid #i didn’t know what to expect from a cat and a spider but teeth man was not it but i’m so glad it is #narinder and his ever approaching ‘please just accept your family dad status like a normal person’ #anyway i’m gonna brainrot over them again and them alone rip to people who wanted the lamb in on the tent #i’m fucking thriving #i’ll be honest i wasn’t super thrilled for the update but it’s been fun. i can get sin by smacking bosses so i don’t have to bother with- #-the boring stuff i can go murder spree yippee!

[thou-babbling-brook]

Content Warning: Bloody imagery, implied gore (it’s just pomegranates), and symbolic cannibalism (bro is traumatized)

It’s literally just dramatic pomegranate poetry visualization, but look at your own risk 😎

“I had thought Adha would be the one to lead me to rest… Instead, I held her lifeless body in my arms — saw the terror in her fixed, unblinking eyes…”

*Foams at the mouth* Altaïr and pomegranate poetry and how everyone he loves in his life dies horrible deaths that he feels are all his fault and *shaking* being ready to leave everything behind for Adha only to seek the remnants of her love by destroying those that ruined her which only rids the world of the remnants of her left behind and all consuming love and *sobbing* I am totally normal about this (I am not)

Based heavily on this post

#assassin’s creed #altaïr ibn la’ahad #ac1 #adha #ac fanart #my art #cw: blood #cw: mild gore #cw: cannibalism #ask to tag #it’s truly not too bad it’s mostly just symbolic stuff #this might become a small series bc I’m thinking abt doing one for Maria and Malik too #Altaïr is so cannibalistic love coded and I’m upset #when Adha died Altaïr gave up on a normal life and that makes me upset #bc Adha at the time was the like one person that made Altaïr feel normal and not some weapon to be used and manipulated and misconstrued #bro thought he would never love again BRO THOUGHT HE WOULD NEVER LOVE AGAIN!!! #by killing all the Templars involved he killed her memory too as though consuming her love for himself and I’m I’ll #*ill I’m not redoing that tag LOL #there’s so much symbolism here y’all have fun w that #anyways sorry Altaïr love ya babes

[kinnbig]

kiss

#oooo i had so much fun with the colours in this one! #i don’t know what i’m doing but i’m having a good time!! #still yet to find the perfect lineart brush though #anyway i miss them so much and i will never be normal about them #learning to draw tag #my drawings #ramking #kingram #my engineer #ram my engineer #ram myen #king my engineer #king myen #perth nakhun #lay talay #fanart #ramking fanart #art #darcey.txt

[aurosoul]

being 30 so far is just like ‘you will go through the most cataclysmic mental anguish of your life but you actually heal from it this time. also you have hip dysplasia. go to the doctor more often.’

#incessant meowing #finding out that since cptsd disconnects u from your body u can have chronic pain and not realize it til you get better #has been one loop of many loops on the rollercoaster i am currently on #like retail jobs always made me wanna donate myself to charity from the pain of standing #and i just thought i was being weak lmaoooo #my coworkers would be like oh it’s normal to feel pain you just go numb after awhile #meanwhile my shift is spent almost in tears and then i’m sleeping 10+ hours to recover #anyways life is fucking wild. how has your week been