#another fuckiing thiing

[tea-drops]

everythiing ii2 2hiit today by the fuckiing by. piip got decliined, hurt our2elve2 multiiple tiim2. got yelled at for wakiing up late. headache. biibet2 wa2 laggiing.

only GOOD thiing two happen wa2 our biinder came and iit2 flatteniing 2o much better than our old one2.

#-sol #gog #okay 2o #another fuckiing thiing #our 2iimplyplural iis not able two update #becau2e our phone ii2 dead. #whiich uh #ii dunno how uptwodate we keep iit recently #but #that miight be an i22ue

[strykingback]

Jaune Arc. The most HORRENDOUS example of a FUCKING KNIGHT.

Trigger warning for this being a drunk as hell post because I decided to drink after a long day of Valentines BS and wanting to make thi post to make one teensy weensy Jaune Stan mad.

Oh yes Rooster Teeth and CRWBY I'm gonna fuckin' shit all over your useless-ass knight character. Why? Because I fuckin' can. So eat a whole ass fucking dick.

So you know Jaune Arc from RWBY right? Literally the "knight character" of the series right. WELL FUCKIN' WRONG. Cause this knight is the example of "I Wanna Be the Main Character" syndrome and literally betrays everything that a knight is meant to do.

So as we know Jaune is meant to be a reference or referred by his naming convention to the actual JOAN OF ARC

Joan of Arc who is well known as history's most bravest female knight of all time. Who had managed to push back many British soldiers all while she received a vision from God in order to continue her rage against the British invaders during the Hundred Years War. Now if we're talking about the Arthurian Legend then this talk would be hella different.

Now starting things off. What pisses me off the most is why wasnt Jaune a fucking woman to kick things off. Like one of the most influential knights in human history being reduced to a secondary wannabe "I wanna be the MC" head-ass boy. Like not gonna lie it would have been much better if he was one cause it would have made a lot more sense if their semblance was seeing events before they happened which woulda made more sense and would have fit Jaune's historical illusion.

But naw. Make his semblance the generic. "I Need Healing" head-ass.

now this would mean that he would be following the Code of Chivalry which this useless-ass knight has failed in so many levels. Take note that there are two Code's of Chivalry one from the Song of Roland and one from the Arthurian Legend of King Arthur. and the following two state.

Song of Roland’s Code of Chivalry: 

Fear God and His Church Serve the liege lord in valor and faith Protect the weak and defenseless Live by honor and for glory Respect the honor of women

King Arthurs version of the Code of Chivalry: 

Honor Honesty Loyalty Valor

Immediately right off the bat we know for certain that Jaune does not respect the honor of women especially in Vol 9 where Ruby has a whole ass mental break down but Jaune says "Oooh I M THE MAIN CHARACTER! YOUR JUST A FUCKIN' BITCH AND YOU NEED TO LET ME HAVE THE SPOTLIGHT" like tell me that is immediately a massive fail especially when Jaune had respected Pyrrha so much so to the point where this man had multiple different arcs over the course of what. six fucking seasons and still has not gotten over her death. Now yes he did follow through with Penny's Idea.... which was a horrendous idea not gonna lie....

Dude shes fuckin' dead. MOVE ON WITH THE LESSONS SHE HAS TAUGHT YOU. YA FUCKIN' REDDIT MOD LOOKING HEAD-ASS!!!!

Next would have to be Honesty has he literally cheated to get in. Now I count this as a half fail. cause he did prove to have potential in the earlier seasons of RWBY but at the same time. He lied to get into Beacon Academy. which only made me think.... what did Monty cook up for him before Rooster Teeth and CRWBY fucked everything . Another would have to be Loyalty which is a hardcore fail. As he assisted RWBY (aka the four terrorists) into literally destroying an ENTIRE FUCKIING KINGDOM. Actually TWO if you're counting Mantle. Which is just fucking stupid cause this man would warn people and then suddenly everything has to focus around him like once again "Main Character Syndrome." instead of Ruby Rose who IS SUFFERING IN VOLUME NINE!!! Oh Oh Oh. but wait theres more.

but then when Ruby does the Unalive congo and everyone is shocked.. guess what everyone has to hug Jaune cause he is going through shit. When Ruby had it worse!!!

Aka The Four Dumb Fucks who wont realize their Leader just unalived themselves and they just hug the "Main Character Syndrome: Jaune who is going through it instead of mourning Ruby.

What is there in Honor for a man who barely can honor a friends death no less in the "possible afterlife"

Valor- Dude is the example of I'm a fuckin' coward and I need assistance in order to harm the big fuckin' bad.

Loyalty- Jaune " I followed my friends to destroy an entire Kingdom" Arc.

Everybody Jaune Arc. Is Full o' bullshit and he is the worst example of a fuckin' knight who should never get an arc again!

#tw: drunk posting #tw: drunk #RWDE #[To Be RWDE or Not to Be RWDE- RWDE Posting]

[twotiime2]

diifferent dream twoday.

2tarted out rememberiing the fiir2t dream kiind of, but y'know, dream2 fade pretty quiick even iin other dream2 2o.

woke up iin a padded cell iin a 2traiightjacket. 2at up. 2ome femiiniine voiice told me ii had two get out of there, 2o liike, damn, okay, ii gue22 all the 2hiit ii had been through before then were 2ome really profound delu2iion2 and ii'm actually fuckiing nut2, riight?

2o the voiice tell2 me two 'hack realiity' whiich. iin thii2 dream ii know for a fact that ii can't do that, 2o ii a2k iit how iit plan2 for me two do that. and iit a2k2 another, ma2culiine voiice two try HII2 way. and he 2ay2 the 2ame thiing but a22ure2 her iit'2 diifferent becau2e a guy ii2 2ayiing two do iit. way two be a 2exii2t dii2embodiied voiice.

at that poiint ii wa2 liike. guy2. realiity ii2n't liike a computer, and even iif iit wa2, ii can't hack realiity iif ii don't know the language iit'2 wriitten iin.

2o then the dream liike, liiterally 2hut off and ii woke up agaiin. 2ame 2iituatiion, no voiice2, but ii could remember the previiou2 dream 2o ii wa2 liike, well, fuck. 'hellooooo?' and eventually the door two the padded cell opened and thii2 doctor guy ii2 liike 'i see you're finally awake mister simon castor, and how are we today.'

2o ii an2wered wiith 2ome 2nark becau2e liike, iin a padded cell iin a 2traiightjacket iin an unfamiiliiar place, 2o, re2traiined and faiirly certaiin ii'm nut2, how are you. and he wa2 liike 'reset him'.

and ii woke up agaiin iin 2ome random fuckiing 2edan that wa2 kiinda my ae2thetiic but ii realiized ii had no actual iidea what ii wa2 doiing iin iit and had no memory of thii2 place. and ii ACTUALLY woke up.

fuckiing. what the hell.

#alt timeline dreams #ask to tag

[pankataratos-ficdump]

ARADIA: you know? actually what i think is that the more you try to convince yourself that you are a bad person

ARADIA: the more you will eventually become that person

She just looks at you, smiling in a way that you know is bullshit from its core. You stare back at her, and you wish that you felt something other than tired. A kernel of you that you do not deny but do try not to look at actually misses when she did not smile at all 

       —it sits deep inside your gut, where you have buried it so far down that you no longer know the name of the emotion, but you do know that you stored it right alongside everything else you used to think you had a right to feel—

because at least then she didn't try to make you feel better at her own expense.  

ARADIA: sollux

ARADIA: dont you ever get tired of blaming yourself for everything

ARADIA: except for the things you actually did?

---

Terezi knows that when you do not answer, it is because you are trying to think about the answer. Aradia knows this, too, but when you are quiet for too long she bumps her tiny elbow against yours anyway, closing the distance that you've put between you with an easy flutter of her wings. You drink straight from the neck, and she does not stop you, but she does frown.

ARADIA: i mean first of all i understand that you have your thing with being better than karkat at everything he tries for some weird reason but

ARADIA: i thought that blaming yourself for things you had no control over was kind of karkats only job! you should probably let him keep it

SOLLUX: eheheheh. ii mean yeah, fair poiint. hard pa22 on "kk haviing nothiing better two do than troll liiterally everyone about the 2ame three epii2ode2 of 2oap opera for another month."

ARADIA: that was pretty terrible yes

ARADIA: i would not like to do that again

SOLLUX: jegu2, who would.

SOLLUX: but al2o fuck you, ii quite liiterally only blame my2elf for the 2tuff that wa2 actually my fault. a2 iin, LIITERALLY, ii have no iidea what you're talkiing about but ii'd love iit iif you 2topped.

SOLLUX: fuck. now they've got me u2iing that fuckiing word. ii hate that fuckiing word.

ARADIA: lol! 0u0

ARADIA: ive LITERALLY already told you this but you really would be surprised how much of all this was preordained and

SOLLUX: aauuuugghghggh fuck you.

ARADIA: hehehe

ARADIA: but a lot of it really isnt your fault!

SOLLUX: look ii hear you. 'iit'2 not me iit'2 the doom thiing!'. ii know. ii get the 2chtiick aa ok, ii actually really don't have any problem beiing the fiir2t guy iin liine for the new launch of the next biig thiing ii fucked up. 2hiit ii 2howed up two periigee2 early and 2at out2iide the troll game2top two pick up the fiir2t copy ok, ii had two fii2tfiight a juggalo for the riight2 two be 2ure that ii got the mo2t liimiited ediitiion po22iible ver2iion of the 2hort end of the 2chtiick. lucky me. ii GET iit.

ARADIA: but you dont get it at all

ARADIA: thats the exact problem we keep talking around every time we do this

ARADIA: and what bothers me is that you know that, and you do get it, but you just dont want to admit it and i dont understand why

ARADIA: jegus you make me so mad when you talk like this

ARADIA: for such a smart guy sometimes youre the dumbest person i know! maybe…

ARADIA: about…

SOLLUX: don't 2ay "but only half the tiime."

ARADIA: :D

SOLLUX:

ARADIA: :D

SOLLUX: ...half the time.

ARADIA: :D!!! yay thank you

SOLLUX: no problem. yeah, though. ok. you're riight. ii agree iin an expliiciitly not self-deprecatiing way. now what.

ARADIA: well

SOLLUX: no waiit. 2orry. ju2t… hang on, for a minute, ok?

ARADIA: ok

ARADIA: we have plenty of time

SOLLUX: yeah. yeah we do.

SOLLUX: fuck god damn iit, ii mean, yeah eheheh. you're made of iit. 2orry, mii22ed that one.

ARADIA: 0u0

ARADIA: thats ok, youre thinking

SOLLUX: yeah.

SOLLUX: thanks.

[...]

SOLLUX: you… want a beer?

ARADIA: you know what? yes

ARADIA: fuck it 0u0

SOLLUX: that'2 the 2piiriit.

ARADIA: hehehehehe

ARADIA: that was a double pun too! very nice

SOLLUX: eheheh. thank2. 2o hey before we do thii2.

ARADIA: mhmm?

SOLLUX: what ii2 that thiing you're doiing wiith your hand2.

ARADIA: its called finger guns! i learned it from the humans, no idea what it means but you do it when somebody makes a pun

SOLLUX: oh.

ARADIA: want to try?

SOLLUX: iit'll look dumb on me. compared two you, on you iit'2 adorable but.

SOLLUX: yeah, 2ure, why not.

[...]

ARADIA: i think i finally understand what you meant that one time you were mean on purpose

SOLLUX: ii'm mean on purpo2e a lot aa. whiich tiime.

ARADIA: the one when you said sometimes you think you liked me better when i was dead

SOLLUX: huh? oh fuck ok. FUCK. aa you know ii diidn't—

ARADIA: no i mean it! i really do think i understand now in a way i didnt then and now im a lot less upset about it actually

ARADIA: i mean i believed you when you explained but now i actually understand! because

ARADIA: sometimes i think i like you better when youre drunk

SOLLUX: ...

ARADIA: you tell me jokes again

SOLLUX: oh.

SOLLUX: yeah. me two.

ARADIA: i know

ARADIA: thats why it makes me so sad

SOLLUX: ...aa. look.

ARADIA: i know! youre sorry. i wouldnt be sad if you werent

ARADIA: im sorry too

[...]

SOLLUX: waiit fuck ii ju2t notiiced thii2 2ound2 a lot liike a breakup talk. are we breakiing up?

ARADIA: sollux

ARADIA: i am in a pretty good position to tell you that we have been best friends for as long as we have existed in time together!

SOLLUX: oh. really?

ARADIA: yep!

SOLLUX: that'2 cool.

ARADIA: i know! but let me finish im almost done

SOLLUX: 2orry.

ARADIA: its ok but anyway, i dont think i want to find a point where that stops and i havent so far, so i dont think that i will now

ARADIA: but i also dont think that we have been "together" for a while now

SOLLUX: yeah. ok.

[...]

SOLLUX: ii gue22 iit wa2 obviiou2 two everybody but u2 huh.

ARADIA: yep! these things usually are im told

ARADIA: except for eridan i think he thinks were moirails or something

SOLLUX: lol, what??? that'2 hiilariiou2.

ARADIA: right!

SOLLUX: …2o.

ARADIA: :D

ARADIA: are you

ARADIA: are you going to say the line?

SOLLUX: yeah.

ARADIA: say it

SOLLUX: 2iigh. 2o. ju2t to be clear.

ARADIA: (enthusiastic silence)

SOLLUX: are we 2tiill friiend2?

ARADIA: youre right

ARADIA: that is

ARADIA: SO funny

ARADIA: yes we are

SOLLUX: cool.

ARADIA: can i have another beer?

SOLLUX: yeah. ii'm out here though we'll have two head hiive.

SOLLUX: hey.

ARADIA: mm?

SOLLUX: wanna get drunk and help me tra2h kk at mariio kart?

ARADIA: sure!

ARADIA: whats that?

SOLLUX: you'll be good at iit, don't worry.

[homestuck-headcanonymous]

2weetheart2

a/n: this is part of the tiktok au, so sollux is a famous twitch gamer and feferi is a tiktok star in a presumed “love triangle” with eridan ampora, a commentary youtuber and brother of cronus ampora the famed tiktok eboy, and sollux. this one takes place a little later in the timeline, so they’ve all graduated highschool

disclaimer: i’ve never seen a twitch stream, because my computer can’t handle it.

stream: “tiime to bully 2mall chiildren on fork kniife with the boy2″, August 14, 2020, by users twosquared, coolerthanu, toreadorneverland, and shoutykat. ran from 5:30 pm DST to 8:00 pm DST

streamtime transcript, from 7:30 pm DST to 8:00 pm DST

twosquared: hell yeah, ii ju2t kiilled BOTH tho2e famiily vlogger chiildren!! at ONCE!! 2uck on that, eiight-year-old2 who make more money than me!!

coolerthanu: nice, dude

toreadorneverland: wELL,, tHEY CAN’T REALLY,, hELP BEING EIGHT,, rIGHT? sTILL,, gOOD JOB,, i GUESS

coolerthanu: they can help it, just go up to a birthday cake and press age up. poof! cool teen!

shoutykat: ...DAVE, HOW LONG WERE YOU PLAYING THE SIMS *THIS* TIME? DO I HAVE TO GO OVER AND LURE YOU FROM YOUR WEIRD FUCKING GAMER DEN OR SOMETHING? DO I NEED TO CALL YOUR SISTER TO MAKE OMINOUS THREATS FROM A SHADOWY DOORWAY AT YOU AT 3AM?

toreadorneverland: wAIT,,, yOU WERE SERIOUS WHEN YOU SAID THAT? i THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE! dOES,, iT ACTUALLY WORK?

twosquared: fiir2t of all, what the FUCK are you guy2 talkiing about? 2econd of all, are we just goiing to glo22 over the fact that tav 2aiid “ii gue22″ to me getting a double kiill2hot?? a DOUBLE KIILL2HOT??

toreadorneverland: sORRY,, yOU KNOW I DIDN’T MEAN IT LIKE THAT,,, rIGHT?

coolerthanu: dw bro, he’s just being dramatic for the hell of it. he’s not actually mad.

shoutykat: ALSO, WHAT THE FUCK IS *UP* WITH YOU AND THE NUMBER TWO? YOU’RE ALWAYS DOING THOSE DUMB FUCKING DOUBLE KILLSHOTS.YOU’RE FUCKING OBSESSED WITH IT. I KNOW YOU’RE A GEMINI, BUT I DON’T GO AROUND CALLING MYSELF “CANCERDUDESIXTYNINE”, RIGHT?

twosquared: iit’s like de2tiined to be, kk. my eye2? two diifferent color2. my triick move? two kiill2hot2 at once.

coolerthanu: his dick? two of them. arms? two of them. 2 x 2 is four- his approximate mental age. also yes, sol, i stole that line from rose.

twosquared: ii’m bii2exual. ii have a boyfriiend AND a giirlfriiend. the only connectiion between you and cancer ii2 that that’2 what people call your content.

toreadorneverland: oH WOW DUDE!! uHH,,, i SUPPORT YOU!! 

twosquared: ah 2hiit. that 2liipped out.

coolerthanu: are you, like, serious dude?

twosquared: fuck.

shoutykat: SOLLUX, I REALLY HOPE THIS ISN’T ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR SHITTY JOKES.

twosquared: goddammiit.

coolerthanu: dude if you need us to end the stream we’ll do it, i know coming out is kinda risky sometimes-

twosquared: actually, y’know what? fuck iit. thanks for the offer dv, but i don’t need it. yeah, i’m really fuckiing bii. yeah, ii’m datiing a guy and a giirl, and y’know what? they’re both fuckiing amaziing, and iif anyone’2 gonna quit 2upportiing me becau2e of that, then ii don’t giive a 2hiit. ii love my giirlfriiend. 2he’2 2weeter than fuckiing 2ugar and ii’m pretty 2ure iit’s 2ciientifiically impo22iible to be 2ad iin the 2ame room a2 her, iit’2 liike 2he’s made of 2un2hiine, 2he’2 adorable. ii al2o love my boyfriiend ju2t a2 much. he’2 a huge goddamed romantiic, he briing2 me flower2 and he 2tay2 up late memoriiziing love poem2 so he can reciite them to me when ii can’t 2leep liike a fuckiing lullaby, he’2 kiind and gentle and wonderful. and they’re datiing each other too, and that’2 great, becau2e iit make2 them both really fuckiing happy.

twosquared: my giirlfriiend 2pend2 like 2 hour2 before each of theiir date2 fu22iing over her makeup and what to wear becau2e 2he want2 to look pretty for u2, even though my boyfriiend and ii both thiink 2he’2 beautiiful no matter what. my boyfriiend ii2 the only one of u2 that can actually fuckiing cook, 2o when we have date niight2 at home, he alway2 2pend2 hour2 makiing 2omethiing fanta2tiic for iit. my boyfriiend and my giirlfriiend are both early biird2 so they do thii2 thiing iin the morniing where they curl up next to each other on the couch and my boyfriend driink2 hii2 fancy tea and my giirlfriiend driink2 her riidiculou2ly 2weet coffee and they read together, and that’2 liike theiir thiing, and iit’2 the fuckiing cute2t.

twosquared: who know2? maybe 2omeday we’ll end up datiing 2omebody el2e too, and then ii’m gonna love that 2omebody, becau2e they’ll be theiir own per2on wiith a miiliion diiferent thiing2 to fall iin love wiith. ii’m happy wiith who ii am and who ii love and ii’m not giiviing 2omeone the chance to force me to hiide that. love i2n’t fuckiing fiiniite unle22 you make iit be. iif 2omeone can love one partner iinfiniitely, why can’t ii love both of miine the 2ame way? ii’m not goiing to claiim that every poly relatiion2hip is good, but iif there’2 no balance iin it, then that’2 not a problem wiith the relatiion2hiip, that’2 a problem wiith the people iin iit.

coolerthanu: ...damn, my guy. okay. cool. first of all- great speech. moving as hell. second of all- we have your back, especially if someone tries to shit on you about this. when i came out, you literally wingmanned me into a relationship with karkitty over there. third of all, this is the exact same way that roxy came out to me as nonbinary, why does this keep happening.

shoutykat: OF COURSE WE SUPPORT YOU, YOU NUMBSKULLED FUCKASS. WHY WOULD WE *NOT* SUPPORT YOU? WHO WAS THAT RANT EVEN FOR? THE TWITCH CHAT THAT’S BEEN GIVING YOU LIKE FIVE SUBS A MINUTE? THE ONE FULL OF RAINBOW POGGERS? *THEM*?

twosquared: ii mean ii wa2 kiinda braciing my2elf for a way wor2e reactiion, 2o thii2 ii2 a plea2ant 2urpriii2e. al2o, kk, “fucka22″? ii mean ii’m flattered that you thiink ii’d be a top, but frankly that’2 ju2t iincorrect.

toreadorneverland: wELL,,,yOU SEEM REALLY HAPPY,,i’M GLAD!! aS LONG AS YOU ALL LOVE EACHOTHER,,, tHAT’S ALL THAT YOU NEED!! oNE,, uHH,, qUICK QUESTION THOUGH,,, nOT TO BE RUDE,,, bUT ARE THESE PEOPLE,,, wHO WE THINK THEY ARE? uHH,,, iT’S JUST,, tHAT THERE’S TWO PEOPLE WHO,,, uHH, sEEM A LOT LIKE,,, tHEY COULD BE,,,yOUR BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND,,

twosquared: aw thank2 t! and yeah, unle22 you’re liike 2uper mii2guiided, iit’2 probably them.

coolerthanu: yeah, we know, you three are the least subtle people on the planet. do you guys want emotional repression lessons from dirk or some shit? you’re so obvious.

twosquared: agaiin dave, thank2 for the offer but that 2ound2 awful, and no. al2o, can we wrap thii2 up? ii’ve got an appoiintment wiith the large cuddle piile of blanket2 and my cool hot boyfriiend and giirlfriiend on my bed over there.

shoutykat: UGH, *FINE*. WE ALL ALSO DIED IN FORTNITE WHILE YOU WERE GIVING THAT SPEECH ABOUT THE INFINITY OF LOVE ANYWAYS, SO IT’S PROBABLY TIME. WE’VE ALL GOT STUFF TO GET TO ANYWAYS.

coolerthanu: aw karkitty, if you were so excited to meet up with me, why didn’t you just say so?

shoutykat: ...SHUT UP.

toreadorneverland: uHH,, sOLLUX, aRE YOU GOING TO,,uHH,,dO THE SIGNOFF? ,,,i MEAN I CAN DO IT,, iF IT’S AN ISSUE,,,

twosquared: nah dude, ii know how you hate doiing the 2ignoff2, ii can handle iit.

twosquared: 2o that’2 iit for today, everybody! pre22 2ub2criibe to 2upport the channel, and follow to get all 2tream notiifiicatiions. ii 2tream every 2iingle day from 5:30 tiil 8:00-10:00 LA tiime, 2houtykat 2treams monday to friday at around the 2ame tiime, coolerthanu 2tream2 whenever, but he’2 got a youtube channel, 2triiderbrozproductiion2, and toreadorneverland 2tream2 game2 on monday2, wedne2day2, and friiday2 from 5:00 pm tiil 8:00 pm, plus a 2torybook 2tream every thur2day from 7:00 tiil 8:00. youtube channel name2 are the 2ame a2 twiitch for me, tavro2 and karkat, and all other 2ociial mediia2 are on our profiile2. ii2 that everythiing?

coolerthanu: yeah dude, you got it. bye, everyone.

STREAM ENDED

Sollux breathes a sigh of relief as the lights and cameras and monitors, one by one, click off, leaving the room gently lit with the glow of Feferi’s fairy lights strung up around the room. From behind him, a pair of arms wrap around his shoulders, the pink glitter on the nails softly shimmering. He greets her with a kiss on the hand, and soon he’s curled up with his boyfriend and girlfriend in bed. These nights are more common now, all of them legal adults in one house under the artificial stars of the LA sky.

“Eridan? Can you do that thing you do?” Feferi whispers, careful if for no more reason than to not break the soft stillness of the darkening room.

“What do you mean, dear?”

“The way you recite poems. You know, when I can’t sleep.” Sollux murmurs, lisp just peeking through.

Sollux can feel Eridan start to blush, even in the warm darkness.

“I... didn’t know you both..remembered it that much. If you’d like though, I’ll try.”

Eridan’s voice settles like a melody in the room, gentle and lyrical around the delicate words.

“How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach, when feeling out of sight for the ends of being and ideal grace..”

Sollux realizes that his hand is interlaced with Eridan’s, Feferi’s draped overtop. He doesn’t remember doing it. It is second nature to him, the soft affection of being present. The lights glimmer down to nothing. A peacable, if early, night. There is a sense of contentment, of a longing fufilled- one that he hadn’t known he’d had.

“I love thee to the level of every day’s most quiet need, by sun and candle-light”

Eridan remembers, absentmindedly, while saying words that he knows by heart. He remembers the grating harshness of loneliess- of wanting, so badly, to be fixed by another that he could not fix himself. He remembers the fear of realizing the way he loved was different. He can still feel the weight of all he has left to say, the idea of coming out to an audience built on dregs of rejection and rejecting hangs like the sword of Damacles over his head, but it is easier here. The world seems softer, wrapped in the gentleness of favourite blankets and the light of a waning moon.

“I love thee freely, as men strive for right. I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.”

Feferi has always wanted to do what’s right. She knows that she can’t always know what’s best for everyone, but she still feels guilt at every percieved slight. She loves too deeply, too fiercely, Eridan used to tell her, with too solemn an expression for such a young face. She had a heart big enough for the entire world. She knows that she wants to come out on her own terms- a teen starlet who’s pan and polyamorous is hot news to pick up, after all. She’s scared to, of course- she knows that a part of her soul will still be the little girl she once was, starving for affection, but she’s growing. Learning. And in the arms of the two boys she loves, she feels as though, for a moment, the entire world is right.

“I love thee with the passion put to use in my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.”

Learning the boundaries of their relationship when it was new wasn’t quite easy. it wasn’t something any of them had ever done before. Feferi was the one to suggest it first- it would break her heart, after all, to break either of theirs. They hated each other at first- rivals over a girl, tale as old as time. Still, it slowly simmered and faded. Sollux saw the walls of protection fall when Eridan brought Feferi a dozen pink roses, eyes not competing, but earnest. Eridan saw the bravado collapse when Feferi fell from the branch of a tree while filming and Sollux rushed to her side, eyes wide, hoping she was alright, begging her to never do that again. An understanding turned to an alliance, and an alliance turned to love. It was December, and they were sitting together at Feferi’s insistence, hot cocoa and a book to while the night away. Eridan read in the same voice, and at the ending, he left a feather-light kiss brushed over Sollux’s lips- and Sollux pulled him back in.

“I love thee with a love I seemed to lose with my lost saints. I love thee with the breath, smiles, and tears of all my life; and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.”

It was a warm night, cozy and cooled by the breath of autumn in the air, and there they lay together, lulled to sleep by the melody of a love poem and the gentlie chimes of wind on glass, Sollux’s heart filled to bursting with love for his sweethearts. There was a gentle, whispered, goodnight.

a/n: the poem is how do i love thee, or sonnet 43, by elizabeth batter browning. it’s like 4am so i didn’t proofread and i’m also very sentimental.

#homestuck #homestuck feferi #feferi peixes #feferi #hs feferi #feferidan #fefsol #erisolfef #hs sollux #sollux captor #tavros nitram #erisol #hs tavros #karkat vantas #hs karkat #dave strider #hs dave #hs eridan #eridan ampora #tiktok au #homestuck fanfic #homestuck fanfiction #fanfic #fiction #creative writing #poetry

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what the fuck diid you ju2t fuckiing type about me, you liittle biitch? ii’ll have you know ii graduated top of my cla22 at miit, and ii’ve been iinvolved iin numerou2 2ecret raiid2 wiith anonymou2, and ii have over 300 confiirmed ddo2e2. ii am traiined iin onliine trolliing and ii’m the top hacker iin the entiire world. you are nothiing two me but ju2t another viiru2 ho2t. ii wiill wiipe you the fuck out wiith precii2iion the liike2 of whiich ha2 never been 2een before on the iinternet, mark my fuckiing word2. you thiink you can get away wiith typiing that 2hiit two me over the iinternet? thiink agaiin, fucker. a2 we chat over iirc ii am traciing your iip wiith my damn bare hand2 2o you better prepare for the 2torm, maggot. the 2torm that wiipe2 out the pathetiic liittle thiing you call your computer. you’re fuckiing dead, kiid. ii can be anywhere, anytiime, and ii can hack iinto your fiile2 iin over 2even hundred way2, and that’2 ju2t wiith my bare hand2. not only am ii exten2iively traiined iin hackiing, but ii have acce22 two the entiire ar2enal of every piiece of malware ever created and ii wiill u2e iit two iit2 full extent two wiipe your mii2erable a22 off the face of the world wiide web, you liittle 2hiit. iif only you could have known what unholy retriibutiion your liittle “clever” comment wa2 about two briing down upon you, maybe you would have held your fuckiing fiinger2. but you couldn’t, you diidn’t, and now you’re payiing the priice, you goddamn iidiiot. ii wiill 2hiit code all over you and you wiill drown iin iit. you’re fuckiing dead, kiiddo.

[iihaveablogiigue22]

2o ii ju2t recently got iinto roleplayiing iin a dii2cord 2erver ii've joiined and, holy 2hiit iit2 iinfuriiatiing

ii wa2 oriigiinally gonna joiin a2 wortox from dont 2tarve. ii fucked up the way he had entered the rp and yeeted hiim after a couple of day2.

then ii made another character. vri2ka. thii2 tiime, ii actually a2ked two do 2ome fiightiing. no, we diidnt get free wiill iin the battle. iit wa2 liiterally darke2t dungeon's battle 2y2tem. wa2nt fun AT ALL. liiterally we were waiitiing day2 for ONE FUCKIING GUY to re2pond. (theyre iinfamou2 for bull2hiitiing everythiing, pulliing forced plot out of theiir a22, and not explaiiniing jack 2hiit two the rp mod2.) then one day ii got 2iick of theiir 2hiit, 2o me and the other guy deciided to giive them repurcu22ion2 for theiir actiion2, by kiiliing off the character. a2 we were (ba2iically) torturiing the thiing iit TELEPORTED AWAY, de2piite beiing trapped in 2ome magiic bubble type thiing. yeah we were all pretty mad.

2o AFTER THAT. remember that thii2 guy pulled plot poiint2 out theiir a22? well, thii2 tiime they deciided two iintroduce the per2ona 2quad. Cy (remember hiim for later) had magiically teleported there and 2omehow cru2hed a biiga22 metal tiitan wiith hii2 miind? he al2o banii2he2 the creature we triied to kiill (iit teleported there???) to the voiid. 2omehow.

2o let2 talk about the "center of the uniiver2e" character2. cy, and maddiie (from cele2te, but more powerful). the2e two are a couple and. they run the rp. everythiing revolve2 around them. the plot, the moment2 where 2hiit doe2nt happen, all them. why do ii put up wiith iit? becau2e iit2 a mod and the 2erver owner playiing the2e character2. yup, that2 why. there2 one other character that2 2omewhat relevant? that2 baba, from baba ii2 you. ii cant have 2hiit, iin fact ii have 2o liittle 2hiit that iim probably ju2t goiing to have vrii2ka be an antagonii2t.

thii2 ii2 ea2iily the lea2t pog po2t iive made, and iim angry ii even had to make thii2 half-vent. ii am out, 2eeya

#sollux kin #roleplay #rp #vriska #vriska serket #vent #vent post #not shitpost #long post #long reads

[gho2ty]

2o the wor2t thiing ii2 when you driink water but 2ome goe2 down the wrong piipe but you 2tiill have more water iin your mouth and you cant very well let your2elf ju2t 2piit iit all over the place but tryiing two take another 2wallow AL2O fuckiing 2uck2 and for a good paniic attack of a moment you thiink youre about two diie and get the re2t down and then liike a waterboarded prii2oner you flop ontwo the ground heaviing and ga2piing a2 iif your liife wa2 truly about two end two a 2iip from a 2olo cup and iif that2 not poetiic ii dont know what ii2

[caepaecaesurae]

> Trickster Anon

caepaecaesurae Hey chief, howv are you! caepaecaesurae Say, I wvas wvondering about tricksters.   Do you think someone being a trickster makes them all that much more dangeorus than they wvere before? geminidoomed u2ually, for the 2ame rea2on people who are maniic are more dangerou2, iit2 nearly the 2ame thiing

caepaecaesurae But I mean, it's not that big a deal if the person is trustwvorthy to start wvith, right? Easy enough to compensate for. geminidoomed iit really ju2t depend2 on how they're handliing iit, liike, a lot of troll2 who go triick2ter get really viiolent, or at lea2t faiil two under2tand the con2equence2 of viiolence but liike, madhur and pzii are both great guy2 caepaecaesurae Eesh.. geminidoomed 2ome people are perfectly chiill though liike II know beiing a triick2ter doe2nt affect 2triider2 much caepaecaesurae WVell, alright I notice your examples are all Captors or human though. geminidoomed II havent 2een that many triick2ter2 hone2tly and one of the captor2 II 2o go triick2ter let another triick2ter eat hii2 eye2 2o liike that2 a thiing geminidoomed 2aw* caepaecaesurae Yikes? Yikes! That's not fine. Did he heal or wvas he just insane? geminidoomed he did not heal, he ended up bliind caepaecaesurae Oh good job him. > You know what you're NOT doing!!  And also you are coincidentally not taking off your bracers while this is happening. Yikes. Say, do you think Ringleader wvill havwe any problems wvith being just a little trickster?  He's a bit impulsivwe but I think that's ust him honestly. geminidoomed not really, he 2eem2 a liittle more iimpul2iive now, but not 2o much that iit would be con2iidered abnormal, and hii2 haiir ii2 fuckiing cool caepaecaesurae WVell ah Promise not to be mad, but see, there's an anon geminidoomed oh no caepaecaesurae It's not that bad!! geminidoomed are you okay? caepaecaesurae I'm fine!  I'm completely fine. And so is everyone else. And I decided to tell you first. And my bracers are back, and on. geminidoomed try not two liike, kii22 anyone okay?2ometiime2 that 2hiit ii2 communiicable through kii22e2 good about the bracer2 caepaecaesurae Oh gods damn it, but I like kisses. I am literally nevwer going to remember that. geminidoomed kii22e2 are one of the be2t thiing2 iin liife you 2eem pretty calm II wiill make you go 2tay wiith a friiend iif you turn half the planet iintwo triick2ter2 caepaecaesurae I'm fine~!  I'm just, you knowv, ovweranalyzing evwerything, forevwer, all the time, like I alwvays do geminidoomed yeah yeah caepaecaesurae Chief, I wvon't, if anyone turned it wvould be Kankri and I can't imagine him kissing someone wvithout wvarning. caepaecaesurae And also he'll probably be good about dodging and reminding me if I slip up. I should tell Kankri. I'm a little bit hiding in the bathroom, wvhich is fine, that's a thing I do geminidoomed good deal, yeah tell kankrii he can keep you out of trouble when II'm maniic II u2ually 2tay wiith one of my brother2 or twoblade caepaecaesurae So, I mean, there's no MAJOR problems, right?  Evwerything is fine, I can handle this? geminidoomed ye2 probably e2pecially iif you 2tay near kankrii caepaecaesurae WVithout kissing him. geminidoomed preferably caepaecaesurae It's the late single digits all ovwer again.. geminidoomed eheheh caepaecaesurae I'm.  Alright, evwerything is fine, no more panicking.  Thanks chief! It, oh.  It said a fewv days. geminidoomed that2 not two bad remember two 2tay away from 2alt caepaecaesurae Oh god damn it. I'm going to need to ask Tyfora so many things.. Do you remember if wvater is fine off the top of your head? ... Fucking gills, I might go crimson for the duration. geminidoomed tyfora ii2 a 2ea dweller caepaecaesurae I mean, don't fuck gills. geminidoomed al2o II know that pzii take2 2hower2 caepaecaesurae Thanks, you're a life savwer, BRB. geminidoomed okay caepaecaesurae Do you havwe any idea wvhere I might get a small hat around a handspan long that I might be able to use to covwer up the soul swveet geminidoomed carapaciian2 love hat2 II bet you can get one from one of theiir hat 2hop2 caepaecaesurae Perfect, I can covwer it wvith a scarf till then. Mostly This isn't wvorking as wvell as I'd hoped. geminidoomed tiie iit liike a bandana caepaecaesurae The smoke part keeps phasing through it. geminidoomed ..what ii2 your 2oul 2weet? caepaecaesurae I'm not entirely sure I wvant to specify, but I wvill if you promise not to tell anyone else. geminidoomed II promii2e geminidoomed oh my god caepaecaesurae That rez method has a fewv odd flawvs. May wvant to learn a different one. geminidoomed we *really* need two get you 2orted out by a heart player dude. iit wa2nt my method, everyone el2e ii2 fiine geminidoomed you know what you diid caepaecaesurae Look, wvhat else does one do wvith alcohol and cigarettes. And the smoke wvas vwery handy. And also maybe wve do, but howv many heart players are there on tumblr? I mean Meulin exists, but I don't knowv howv much magic she remembers... geminidoomed there2 a bunch of diirk2 and fiiliide of cour2e, who II know work2 wiill 2oul 2tuff except 2pelled riight II have a liittle heart magiic iin my 2oul liike liiterally II miight be able two fiigure 2omethiing out caepaecaesurae I might ask Felide wvhen she's less busy sometime...  Or you. Or, someone. caepaecaesurae I mean, it's fine, I'm just going to get a hat. geminidoomed riight but iit2 2ymptomatiic of 2tuff beiing wrong though caepaecaesurae I'm not evwen sure wvhat symptoms this wvould havwe entirely. Aside from apparently wvearing my heart on my sleevwe. Or codpiece on my damn head. geminidoomed II'm 2urprii2ed iit wa2nt ju2t a bottle caepaecaesurae WVell it's not normally in a bottle, it's in the codpiece. I think the bottle wvas transformed and is stuck. geminidoomed that2 hiilariiou2 caepaecaesurae Not incredibly! caepaecaesurae Although it's nevwerending, so at least that's nice. geminidoomed you probably 2houldnt driink that caepaecaesurae I try not to. Surely it's not more soul, though. Possibly. I mean. UGH, I hate this. I'll figure it out! geminidoomed iif nothiing el2e your concentratiion ii2 pretty good riight now II thiink iit2 all the practiice beiing drunk caepaecaesurae Concentration? Oh.  Attention span? geminidoomed ye2 caepaecaesurae I suppose I do havwe a far amount of practice being impaired.  Albeit nevwer like This. geminidoomed never diid upper2? caepaecaesurae Nevwer really felt the need.  I wvas alwvays high strung enough. All it evwer did wvas make me more impatient. geminidoomed upper2 are dangerou2 for me, that2 why II 2tiick two caffeiine when II'm down, II'm afraiid two go 2tronger caepaecaesurae Some can be fun, but I alwvays got a bit irritable. Cheers to those wvho can manage it, but it's certainly not me. geminidoomed how are thiing2 goiing wiith kankrii? caepaecaesurae He doesn't havwe experience wvith tricksters, but he does wvith the manic, so wve're optimistic.  I'm mentioning anything I knowv about tricksters as it occurs to me, but wve'll see howv it goes. geminidoomed good luck! caepaecaesurae Do you think anyone wvill be upset if I admit this is going on publicly? I probably ought to otherwvise I'll stick my leg up my jawv and they'll blame me geminidoomed probably not II don't thiink caepaecaesurae Are there any side effects or dowvnsides to licking a trickster Does that count as lip contact geminidoomed II have no iidea a2k the iinternet Active in the last hour

#ooc eyes only #geminidoomed #trickster anon #significant eye trauma mention

[daily--sollux]

what the fuck diid you ju2t fuckiing 2ay about me, you liittle nook2taiin? ii’ll have you know ii graduated top of my cla22 a2 a thre2hecutiioner, and ii’ve been iinvolved iin numerou2 2ecret raiid2 agaiin2t lowblood2 liike you, and ii have over 300 confiirmed culliing2. ii am traiined iin goriilla warfare and ii’m the top p2iioniic iin the entiire alterniia armed force2. you are nothiing two me but ju2t another target. ii wiill wiipe you the fuck out wiith precii2iion the liike2 of whiich ha2 never been 2een before on alterniia, mark my fuckiing word2. you thiink you can get away wiith 2ayiing that 2hiit two me over the iinternet? thiink agaiin, fucker. a2 we 2peak ii am contactiing my 2ecret network of 2piie2 acro22 the planet and your iip ii2 beiing traced riight now 2o you better prepare for the 2torm, 2hiit-maggot. the 2torm that wiipe2 out the pathetiic liittle thiing you call your exii2tence. you’re fuckiing dead, pupa. ii can be anywhere, anytiime, and ii can cull you iin over 2even hundred way2, and that’2 ju2t wiith my bare hand2. not only am ii exten2iively traiined iin unarmed combat, but ii have acce22 two the entiire ar2enal of the alterniian empiire and ii wiill u2e iit two iit2 full extent two wiipe your mii2erable a22 off the face of the planet, you liittle 2hiit. iif only you could have known what unholy retriibutiion your liittle “clever” comment wa2 about two briing down upon you, maybe you would have held your fuckiing tongue. but you couldn’t, you diidn’t, and now you’re payiing the priice, you goddamn iidiiot. ii wiill 2hiit fury all over you and you wiill drown iin iit. you’re fuckiing dead, wriiggler.

#submission #dirtysolluxconfessions #mod infinity #sollux captor

[apicultured-blog]

> Aradia + Sollux: Discuss Pressing Priorities

apicultured hey 1 have a press1ng quest10n why d1d y0u make an alter eg0 w1th a last name y0u cant/w0nt pr0n0unce just w0nder1ng, as 0ne d0es Last Thursday at 11:26 PM

biolacis ii've been thiinkiing about that a lot thii2 afternoon, and ii thiink ii've developed a hypothe2ii2. you 2ee, ii'm 2tupiid.

apicultured a1ght fa1r en0ugh

apicultured u 0k btw

biolacis hungover.

biolacis ii'm feeliing regret twoniight iin thii2 triilii'2.

apicultured blech! d1d y0u dr1nk c0ffee 0r eat s0meth1ng yet?

biolacis ii got liike, two gla22e2 of watered down 2cotch and almo2t blew iit. why diidn't anyone ever tell me ii turned iintwo a hoe when ii driink. ii'll get 2omethiing.

apicultured d1d y0u try t0 put the m0ves 0n karkat

biolacis no ii diid NOT. ii ju2t. yknow. got friiendly wiith everyone.

biolacis nothiing weiird about iit.

apicultured 0h s0 y0u put the m0ves 0n every0ne?

biolacis no AA ii diidn't put the move2 on everyone.

apicultured darn s0 y0u tr1ed t0 what, hug pe0ple? '1111 L00VE Y0U BRAHHHHHHH' pe0ple? because hahahaha 0h my g0d at least y0u d1dnt l0se y0ur glasses

biolacis that'2 what *you're* liike when you driink, fool.

apicultured hey hey,

apicultured theres n0 need f0r th1s, 1m like that /s0ber/

biolacis that'2 true. anyway2 yeah thank the god2 below ii 2tiill have my gla22e2.

apicultured y0u cant drag me 1f 1 can drag me better yeah

biolacis iif ii lo2t them ii'm pretty 2ure NP would've 2uperglued them two my face. god.

apicultured y eha

apicultured the l1sp came cl0se but ykn0w hell th1nk 0f s0meth1ng plaus1ble

biolacis ii don't thiink he 2u2pected anythiing. he 2eem2 two thiink ii wa2 ju2t embarra22ed about iit.

biolacis god how diid ii thiink ii wouldn't have two 2ay my full name at 2ome poiint.

apicultured d1d y0u p1ck 1t 0r d1d npe *nepeta als0 hey 1t happens t0 the best 0f us, and 1n th1s, 1t seems, we are n0t the best 0f us why b0ther h1d1ng the l1sp th0ugh? 1ts n0t l1ke y0ure the 0nly tr0ll w1th 1t

biolacis ii diid. ii fiigured 2iince ii'm named after 2tar2 iit would be ea2y two piick more 2tar2 for an oh that'2. that'2 a diirect correlatiion. AA.

biolacis ii'm goiing two diie a 2wiift and merciile22 death 2ome day 2oon and ii want you two wriite on my grave2tone "totally had iit comiing." anyway2 ii wa2 only tryiing two hiide iit from hiim.

biolacis ii diidn't want another rea2on for hiim two be 2u2piiciiou2.

apicultured that 1s actually a d1rect c0rrelat10n wh1ch 1s amaz1ng 0f c0urse 0ur sense 0f theatr1cs w0nt be 1mpeded by th1ngs like "c0mm0n sense" h0wever 1ts n0t l1ke "hey this weird tealblood IS SECRETLY THE HEIR BECAUSE THEY HAVE SIMILAR NAMES" 1s a th0ught th0ught by pe0ple 0f the sane persuas10n s0 1 th1nk 1t sh0uld be f1ne!

apicultured als0 karkat 1s waaaay t00 l0g1cal and clear m1nded t0 ever catch w1nd 0f the stup1d absurd bullsh1t we are d01ng, lets be real

apicultured l1ke, wh0 even d0es th1s

biolacis 2orry, ii wa2 out wiith NP for awhiile and when ii came back ii dove iintwo a call and ii can't ii heard hiim cryiing AA. ii don't know what happened but ii heard hiim cryiing, ii couldn't even a2k what wa2 wrong, ii.

biolacis do we have two even do thii2, why can't we ju2t tell hiim.

apicultured 1 d0nt kn0w - remember 1 sa1d the exact same th1ng? 1 th1nk 1ts y0ur secret t0 tell and 0n the pract1cal s1de h1s res0urces can 0nly help us help us d0....whatever the fuck were d01ng 1 guess d0 y0u kn0w why he was cry1ng? 0n0

biolacis my re2pon2e two all of the2e thiing2: ii don't know. ii acciidentally came iin on what ii thiink wa2 a priivate conver2atiion and he wa2 drunk and kept apologiiziing for not beiing compo2ed.

apicultured 0n0

biolacis the other per2on wa2 drunk two and wa2 about two tell me what happened after he went two bed but iit felt weiird and creepy two let them tell me wiithout hii2 knowledge.

apicultured thats true...wh0 were they?

biolacis iidk, 2omebody named liil.

biolacis iit wa2 weiird and ii feel liike a real creep about the whole thiing.

apicultured 1ts n0t l1ke y0u eavesdr0pped 0n purp0se 0r s0meth1ng

apicultured 1 als0 feel k1nda bad f0r keep1ng 1t a secret fr0m h1m... he t00k y0ur death really hard s0 d1d we all really, but espec1ally h1m

biolacis yeah. ii'm. 2tiill 2orry, AA.

apicultured 1t wasnt y0ur fault 1t happened, sh1td1ngus n0ne 0f 1t 1s.

biolacis part of iit wa2, cockwea2el. but ii'm 2orry for the griief iit cau2ed you. whether iit wa2 my fault or not, iit 2tiill hurt you and everyone el2e.

apicultured bppthtphpbpthpthph hey, d0nt w0rry ab0ut 1t

apicultured 1m just glad y0ure back and 1m n0t dead

biolacis me: (actiively worryiing about iit) cool ii won't worry about iit. ii'm glad we're both here two.

apicultured wh0 even k1dnapped y0u 1ll make the1r tech strangle them 0r s0meth1nf fuck yeah be1ng here 1 1nv1ted karkat f0r a m0v1e 0r game marath0n th0 he hasnt answered heads up s0 y0u kn0w 1f y0u can be there 0r n0t 1f he says yes

apicultured th0ugh 1 v0te f0r tell1ng h1m because 1 d0nt really kn0w what r1sk c0uld 1t be

biolacis 2ome douchebag named eriidan. he call2 hiim2elf "rope2" but iit'2 2o 2tupiid that he can't get anyone el2e two call hiim that.

biolacis al2o thank2 for the head2 up, ii'm. not really 2ure what ii'm goiing two do yet.

biolacis NP thiink2 he'2 a huge liiabiiliity becau2e of hii2 2hiit wiith the paparazzii, whiich ii can 2ee, but.

apicultured . . . . . .1 th1nk 1 kn0w h1m fr0m fvrrp. he kept h1tt1ng 0n me and 1 kept ru1n1ng h1s tech. well, hed rather d1e than betray y0ur secret, s0 all y0ud have t0 d0 1s n0t be 0verly cl1ngy 1n public 1 guess?

biolacis what the fuck. and ii thought he wa2 a creep two me lmao, of cour2e the guy hiit2 on dii2iintere2ted people onliine.

biolacis ii got two punch hiim iin the face when NP broke me out 2o that wa2 pretty 2weet. ii 2hould've hiit hiim extra hard iin your honor. and 🤷‍♀️. me not beiing overly-cliingy, ii have been told, ii2 iimpo22iible, but ii'll try talkiing two NP about iit agaiin. ii want u2 all two be able to hang out twogether. ii don't want thii2 two be a weiird thiing between all four of u2, no le22.

apicultured hahaha, d1d y0u kn0ck a t00th 0ut?

apicultured hahaha g0dd 1 kept awaken1ng h1s b10tech's wh1thered breed1ng subr0ut1nes s0 h1s c0mputer w0uld try t0 hump h1m 0r anyth1ng nearest and h0nestly 1m st1ll pr0ud 0f that well, 0nly 1n publ1c! wrap ar0und h1m 1n pr1vate as much as y0u want my guy, 1ts n0t l1ke 1 havent bas1cally d0ne that t0 every0ne s1nce my ressurect10n 1...1 want us all t0 hang 0ut and have fun t00.

biolacis ooooh my gooood.

biolacis that'2 fuckiing hiilariiou2. ii would have paiid my own weiight iimperiial2 two 2ee that 2lobberiing liittle ba2tard get t-bagged by hii2 own computer. iif ii ever 2ee hiim agaiin (let'2 hope not) ii'll ab2olutely 2nag a tooth for you.

biolacis 2iigh. ii. ju2t want u2 two be able two all catch up on the tiime we've mii22ed out on each other all the2e 2weep2. ii wii2h we diidn't have two do iit 2eparately. or 2neakiily. you and KK alway2 got two 2pend tiime twogether, and KK and ii diid two, but never the three of u2. ii alway2 really wanted that. hopefully. hopefully iit won't alway2 be liike thii2.

apicultured 1f he tr1es t0 get at y0u aga1n y0ull see a rerun 0f the 0le t-bag v1rus, but yeah lets av01d h1m 0n0 1t w1ll happen! y0u w0nt h1de away f0rever. cm0n lets ask nep

biolacis ehehe. ii'll have two a2k you for the 2criipt for that one. alriight.

biolacis rub2 face.

apicultured 1ll gladly share 0u0 we can talk t0 her t0gether 1f y0u l1ke als0 we can play v1de0games bef0re talk1ng t0 her 0r s0meth1ng, 1 dunn0 well get thr0ugh th1s, s0llux, we g0t th1s

biolacis iif we play viideo game2 then you have two promii2e not two kiick my a22 at lea2t one tiime. iit'2 alriight. ii can do iit, unle22 you wanna talk two her two.

apicultured hahahahah weeeaaak

biolacis we'll be okay.

apicultured but 0kay, scrubl0rd

apicultured and yeah sure mental backup and sh1t hell yeah we w1ll

biolacis ii *am* weak. ii weiigh 90 lb2 and ii liive on a nectar2uckler'2 diiet. ii'm talkiing whiite chocolate chiip2 and miike'2 hard lemonade. let me make a group chat.

apicultured please eat s0me hearty p1zza 1 beg 0f y0u n1ce

biolacis ii eat a 2liice of piizza. ii 2hriink by two iinche2.

apicultured 1ts g00d f0r y0u!

biolacis ii'm a healthy boy.

#OOC #biolacis #logs #very long log! #alcohol mentioned a few times

[telematicsabiotrophy]

m!a: your own block is now precisely the most uncomfortable temperature for you, personally, and cannot be manually changed. lasts until you let amici be warm

joke2 on you, ii’ve endured a lot wor2e than thii2 and diidnt have control of my enviironment for 2weep2, wiith a captaiin who actiively hated and abu2ed me.

iif you thiink your petty fuckiing magiic triick2 can force me two do anythiing ii dont want two you’ve got another thiing comiing

#Anonymous

[thebee2man]

D--> Cuck

what the fuck diid you ju2t fuckiing 2ay about me, you liittle nook2taiin? ii’ll have you know ii graduated top of my cla22 a2 a thre2hecutiioner, and ii’ve been iinvolved iin numerou2 2ecret raiid2 agaiin2t lowblood2 liike you, and ii have over 300 confiirmed culliing2. ii am traiined iin goriilla warfare and ii’m the top 2niiper iin the entiire alterniia armed force2. you are nothiing two me but ju2t another target. ii wiill wiipe you the fuck out wiith precii2iion the liike2 of whiich ha2 never been 2een before on alterniia, mark my fuckiing word2. you thiink you can get away wiith 2ayiing that 2hiit two me over the iinternet? thiink agaiin, fucker. a2 we 2peak ii am contactiing my 2ecret network of 2piie2 acro22 the planet and your iip ii2 beiing traced riight now 2o you better prepare for the 2torm, 2hiit-maggot. the 2torm that wiipe2 out the pathetiic liittle thiing you call your exii2tence. you’re fuckiing dead, pupa. ii can be anywhere, anytiime, and ii can cull you iin over 2even hundred way2, and that’2 ju2t wiith my bare hand2. not only am ii exten2iively traiined iin unarmed combat, but ii have acce22 two the entiire ar2enal of the alterniian empiire and ii wiill u2e iit two iit2 full extent two wiipe your mii2erable a22 off the face of the planet, you liittle 2hiit. iif only you could have known what unholy retriibutiion your liittle “clever” comment wa2 about two briing down upon you, maybe you would have held your fuckiing tongue. but you couldn’t, you diidn’t, and now you’re payiing the priice, you goddamn iidiiot. ii wiill 2hiit fury all over you and you wiill drown iin iit. you’re fuckiing dead, wriiggler.

#ic #sollux #anon #confession #equius #sollux captor #equius zahhak

[fieldnotesconfidential]

Buckle The Fuck Up It’s Psych Eval. Time

👽Agent.👽

Nibru have you ever had a psychological evaluation?

👽You don’t know the half of it.👽

I can imagine. Well, I have another one next week. I might as well just stick my thumb directly up into my own ass as far as I fucki...

*from the other room* AGENT! WE NEED TO MAKE SURE YOU AREN’T GOING TO CRACK AGAIN GODDAMMIT!

EVERYTIME! THAT WAS THE DRUGS YOU MOTHER FU...

*from the other room* Carry on.

👽They don’t stop with the your mom jokes around here, do they.👽

They are just trying to expand the genre. Look. If you ever have to participate in another psychological evaluation and you haven’t been poisoned or psychologically tortured beforehand in order to collect disability in a fraud situation because someone stupid hired a lawyer based on the lies of... just, nevermind. Be happy to never be in that situation as you will die. Anyway, here is a cheat sheet for your evaluation/“examination”. Number One. They will give you challenges that aren’t actually a challenge but depending on your age and experience you will think they are super challenges and encourage you in a way that...

👽Makes you think you are a genius when in reality you are reta...👽

Correct. It’s kind but damaging. Also not always. The challenges could be actual challenges but most likely they are to see just how devastatingly, well, nevermind. Anyway. Slow your roll and do not react to that B.S. they are blowing smoke up your ass. Next, there may be a series of insults.

👽How so?👽

Quite subtle.

👽Like what do you mean?👽

I should show off here and give one but I don’t want them to be clued in to that extent.

*from the other room* AGENT! STOP DOING THAT!

Yeah, yeah. Okay. Next they will test your common and obscure refrences.

👽Are you going to study just for the fuck of it or go in blind like everything else you do which has been the basis of your situation up to thi...

*from the other room* Nibru, please don’t confuse Agent. Also I’m perplexed why you went with ‘blind’ versus ‘raw do...’

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

👽Okay then. Well, Agent, any other tips?👽

I guess just have fun? See how useless you are because other people can’t mind their own goddamn business? It’s a pretty amazing thing.

👽Your job is to literally go in and fucking uproot horrible thi...👽

Yeah but that just happens I don’t kn...

*from the other room* Don’t get documented as too retarded, Agent! We will send you right to Area 51! The examiner will say to you that you are an alien life form and that is a front to have you sent to Area 51 with the other Agents who cannot fucking hac...

👽Jeez they are really, really brutal.👽

Honestly, you would not believe it. I have pulled a shenanigan or two in my da...

*from the other room* THE DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION IS STILL REELING FROM YOUR FUCK-UPS!

👽Have a good day, Agent.👽

Dueces.

[a-panda-reads-act-omega]

ACT OMEGA PART 7

THE 19/10/16 UPDATE

Alright hi people. Gotta fun story for you! I’m sick. So yeah, the end. I’m huddled up in my room, experiencing an uncomfortable amount of stomach pain, and I. thought “hey! why dont i just do a liveblog?” and now im here. prepare youreselves, we’ve got a whole 4 pages today! lets just get started.

Oh right, we left off with these fellas. Jasprose looks more than happy to bother this guy, and Erisol looks like he wants to jump off a cliff but cant because he floats.

ERISOLSPRITE: fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Jesus, not to good at socializing are we Erisol?

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Hey you! ERISOLSPRITE: nope nope nope nope nope.

Ok yep, he wants no part of this. I fuckin love Erisol. I mean. The fusion, not the ship. 

JASPROSESPRITE^2: HEY!! ERISOLSPRITE: leavve me alone JASPROSESPRITE^2: Stop that. ERISOLSPRITE: fuck thii2 fuck that fuck evverythiing. ERISOLSPRITE: and fuck you e2peciially.

Ok guys I’m relating to Erisol on an uncomfortable level. Also this conversation so far is golden. 10/10.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I said stop it! ERISOLSPRITE: iill do wwhatever the fuck ii wwant. ERISOLSPRITE: wwho the hell evven are you anywway? JASPROSESPRITE^2: That’s my line! JASPROSESPRITE^2: Do you have any idea how baffling it is to have some random drifter appear now of all times? You’re a complete stranger! 

Its just about as baffling as everything else that happens in this fucked up story. PLUS, Jasprose, you were going around looking for fun. dont you be sassy with the depressed asshole for it.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I mean, it's a welcome surprise and all, but I'm still perplexed!

Man I wish Jasprose did cat puns now.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Here I thought we were finally done with all the pointless bullshit. 

We’re never done Jasprose. It’ll always just keep coming. BUT I GOTTA DISAGREE WITH YOUR CLAIM THAT ERISOL IS POINTLESS BULLSHIT. ERISOL IS THE TRUE FUCCKIN HERO OF HOMESTUCK FOR BEING THE ONLY ONE TO POINT OUT HOW FUCKED UP IT ALL IS.

God I hate that I relate to Erisol.

ERISOLSPRITE: actually forget ii evven a2ked. ERISOLSPRITE: ii ju2t met you and ii already hate evverythiin about you.

Gasp! Could this be black love at first sight?

ERISOLSPRITE: and not the 2leazy kiind eiither. iim talkiing about the mo2t platoniic of loathiin my pump bi2cuit could po22iibly mu2ter.

Oh.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Well, if you aren’t going to tell me your name I’m just going to call you whatever I want. ERISOLSPRITE: or... ERISOLSPRITE: you could go awway. 

Oh my god I feel bad for him. He just wants to be alone to wallow in his own self-hatred/pity. Which is weird, because normally I would hate somebody who wallows in his own self-hatred/pity.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: So tell me about yourself, sad sack! JASPROSESPRITE^2: How’s sprite life been treating you? ERISOLSPRITE: ugh.

Ugh indeed. Does anybody enjoy being a sprite? I mean, its great to be alive again (unless youre erisol), but other than that you just become kinda irrelevant. Gotta be kinda jarring to see life go on without you.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I mean, two dull troll dopes in one? What a waste of a perfectly good kernel. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Where did yours even come from? There are precisely ZERO empty kernels remaining in this session. I would know! JASPROSESPRITE^2: The only logical conclusion to draw here is that timeline shenanigans are somehow involved.

Jasprose, thats the only logical conclusion anybody can ever draw. I’m guessing though, that Erisol was just on LOWAS during all that retcon bullshit? I think. None of this makes sense anyways though.

ERISOLSPRITE: wwho knoww2? maybe 2kaiia ju2t got bored. ERISOLSPRITE: but 2ure, wwhatevver. let2 go wwiith that. 2ound2 2en2iible enough. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I knew it! I love being right. ERISOLSPRITE: holy 2hiit, are you obnoxiiou2. 

I know, Jasprose is the best kinda obnoxious. It’s like this perfect blend between playful and snarky. 

ERISOLSPRITE: ii diidnt thiink iid evver fiind 2omeone ii hate more than my2elf but youvve done iit. ERISOLSPRITE: ... diid ii ju2t 2ay that out loud. de2perate much??

Of course you are, you’ve always been desperate. Also, auto correct is hating these quirks.

ERISOLSPRITE: the fact that ii evven entertaiined that thought and contiinue twwo talk twwo you iin2tead of nopiing the fuck out of here remiind2 me of ju2t howw depravved ii really am, and that the only thiing keepiin me from obliiteratiin my2elf ii2 howw much of a deranged kiick ii get out of my owwn 2ufferiing.

HNN youre so perfectly pathetic I love it.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Wow, are you a trainwreck or what?

No kidding Jasprose. Like, theres nothing this guy can do to ever be happy.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: You know, I think I might actually hang around a tad longer. I happen to find trainwrecks and other horrific disasters morbidly fascinating. ERISOLSPRITE: evvery moment ii spend wwiith you iis hell.

I can sum up this whole conversation so easily.

Jasprose: haha youre patheticness is fucking priceless Erisol: kill me

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Then why not leave? I’m hardly chaining you to the spot here, green cheeks. ERISOLSPRITE: ... ERISOLSPRITE: twwoo much effort. JASPROSESPRITE^2: See? Riveting.

He’s already explained this though! he literally just wants to see himself suffer.

Nice panel. thats all I have to say on the matter.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: So now that we’ve established you’ll keep up our conversation purely out of apathy and an acute, masochistic sense of self-loathing...

Yes, yes exactly.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: (Also apparently some form of conflicted caliginous attraction to me. Aint that a doozy?)

HIUDNSA <3 FUcking love you Jasprose.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: How did you end up here? WHY did you end up here? ERISOLSPRITE: ii a2k my2elf that evvery 2iingle day. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Yes, yes, you hate yourself. I get it. Can we please move on? I need details! ERISOLSPRITE: fiine wwhatevver.

Oh wow, is he chilling on the self-hatred thing? who would’ve thought.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii followwed an orange biird guy twwo thiis planet that came from fuckiing nowwhere. ERISOLSPRITE: but then he kept tryiing twwo mumble hii2 2tandup routiine2 at me 2o ii fucked off.

Yep, that sounds about right for Davesprite.

ERISOLSPRITE: ii wwandered around debatiin the pro2 and con2 of fiinally 2elf-de2tructiing untiil 2ome 2ort of wwiindy 2hiit 2tarted happeniing.

Oh cool, John’s big quest thingy. Also, that’s kinda morbid... Like, I get this is part of his self-hating schtick, but he was literally contemplating suicide.

damn.

ERISOLSPRITE: iit managed twwo dii2tract me from gnawwiing exii2tentiialiism for a miinute there untiil ii stopped giivviing a 2hit and movved on. ERISOLSPRITE: then an iindi2crimiinate periiod of tiime pa22ed and 2uddenly you 2howwed up. ERISOLSPRITE: 2tiill deliiberatiin on that explodiing thiing by the wway.

DONT you fucking dare blow up you green asshole.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Prrr prrr, I see! So both you and Davesprite came the same way I did. JASPROSESPRITE^2: How intriguing. JASPROSESPRITE^2: But enough about how; let's move on to why. JASPROSESPRITE^2: So, Señor Fishface, what are your plans? Any unfinished business you might want to attend to? In need of a GUIDE, purrhaps? ;3

Jasprose, I think the last thing he wants is for you to guide him.

ERISOLSPRITE: meh. ERISOLSPRITE: not really. JASPROSESPRITE^2: That’s hardly an answer! Aren’t you curious about the cosmic significance of your continued existence? ERISOLSPRITE: fuck no. ERISOLSPRITE: iin fact that ii2 pretty much the thiing ii am the lea2t iintere2ted iin. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Well that’s just boring. ERISOLSPRITE: doe2 that mean youll leavve? JASPROSESPRITE^2: Let me think about that... JASPROSESPRITE^2: Nope! 

This poor fucking guy, Like, he needs to ollie outie outta  here quick, because his submissive self-hatred is almost making me feel bad for enjoying this conversation.

ERISOLSPRITE: fiigure2. ERISOLSPRITE: wwhat2 evven the poiint? ERISOLSPRITE: lookiing at 2kaiia ii can 2ee another uniivver2e frog ha2 2howwn up and relea2ed iit2 vva2t croak thiing. ERISOLSPRITE: wwhich mean2 the game i2 ovver and the player2 are probably reciievviin the ultiimate rewward a2 wwe 2peak. ERISOLSPRITE: 2o there ii2 liiterally nothiing left twwo do be2iide2 wwaiit around for an opportuniity twwo croak a2 wwell. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Now hold on a second! JASPROSESPRITE^2: I’m not so sure about that, actually. ERISOLSPRITE: wwhat noww?

Hm.. Im not sure if enlightenment is the first thing or the last thing this guy needs. Honestly I think he just needs a break.

pffFHAHA, JASPROSE WITH THE SINGLE PAP AND STARE INTO HIS SOUL

And he just

wants to die.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Well, while I was ignoring your dismal yakking, I think I’ve figured it out!

Goddammit Jasprose.

ERISOLSPRITE: (wwhat are you doiing.) JASPROSESPRITE^2: I am almost certain now that you appearing wasn't pointless after all! ERISOLSPRITE: (...)

She’s gonna say something that’ll make him feel more shitty, isn’t she.

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Of course, I thought so at first. But then again, I bet Rose also thought that of me when I initially sprang into being only a few hours ago. And I turned out to be fairly important for the final climactic battle, didn’t I? ERISOLSPRITE: (*2iigh*) JASPROSESPRITE^2: I also thought Davepeta was fairly pointless but I agree with them now, that is definitely not the case. In fact their destiny has the potential to be quite grand!

Where are you going with all this? Come on Jasprose, don’t say something stupid to him. 

ERISOLSPRITE: are you goiing twwo get twwo the poiint anytiime 2oon. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Don’t interrupt!! ERISOLSPRITE: (wwhy me.)

I dont know man, they just dont see how great you are. 

JASPROSESPRITE^2: As I was saying. Let me dumb things down for you: Even though it may not be immediately evident how you’re meant to slot into place amongst the great puzzle of causality, that doesn’t mean a purpose isn’t waiting somewhere in the brush to pounce upon your puke green sprite tail! JASPROSESPRITE^2: And I definitely want to be here when that happens.

Is it just me, or is Jasprose giving off Vriska vibes? I’m not sure what she means by she wants to be there when it happens, but it’s feeling like she could start getting all controlling over his “destiny.”

OOH HI KIDS! I’m hoping we get to see some interaction soon. It looks like John’s hanging out at the door, so probably not from him. BUT these other pairs might be interesting to see.

Dirk/Jake: Yeah this one was pretty obvious, I’m not sure with all the. timeline shenanigans, but I’m guessing they’ll need to work out some relationship issues.

DAD/Calliope/Jane: Not much to say on this pairing, other than it might be interesting if we get to see DAD talk? He probably wont though, let’s be honest.

Dave/Karkat: Ohh yis, the gay ship that nobody can agree on. WELL I CAN AGREE WITH MYSELF, and what myself thinks is that they are fucking precious together.

Jade/RoSE OH FUCK: OK DONT MIND ME JUST SHIPPING. Ahem. So THIS is a pairing we haven’t seen a lot of, despite them both being from the same session. WHICH IS INTERESTING, because they have a really neat dynamic. AND ALSO I FUCKING SHIP THEM

Kanaya/Roxy: This should be interesting as well! Again, I’m trying to wrap my head around timeline shenanigans, so who knows how much Kanaya knows about Roxy. But Roxy did the matriorb thing! And I feel like Kanaya is seriously gonna admire Roxy, which is likely going to be adorable.

Terezi/Endless Void: Seems like they’re enjoying a nice staring contest. Even though she’s blind-

ALRIGHT THATS ENOUGH OF THAT! We got a dialoglog to open

JASPROSESPRITE^2: We’re simply going to have to wait and see. :3 ERISOLSPRITE: yeah 2ure wwhatevver.

Waiting and seeing. Oh, I guess that’s not as controlling then. Though it is kinda unlike Rose to stand by and let the game do it’s thing. . .

HMMMmm.. . .

alright that’s the end of thaat. For only 4 pages, I think I made that reasonably long. Anyways, I’m gonna end this now. BYE.

#homestuck #homestuck liveblog #act omega #act omega liveblog #hs act omega #hs act omega liveblog

[2cumlord]

> Sollux: Delete friends.

One thing that came as a surprise to you, during helmstraining, was the sheer amount of rumors that were traded between the other young psionics you had been crowded in with. Perhaps it shouldn’t have been surprising. Teens are teens, or whatever. Schoolfeeding never ends.

But it wasn’t just petty who-fucked-who, who-killed-who, who’s-getting-culled type talk. Even more common among the goldbloods were rumors about the job you were all destined for, if you were lucky. A life spent harvested for power.

None of you knew much about how helming worked, even as you were being trained for it. That sort of information was highly illegal, government-only stuff. You understood why. If people were given easy access to helmstech blueprints, they would surely use the knowledge to preemptively build something to avoid the helm. Or even build their own ship, and escape Alternia before conscription.

Either way. One rumor you heard about helming, over and over, is that it weakens your pan. The energy confluence of powering a ship is so strong, according to your more conspiratorial peers, that a helmstroll ends up with what boils down to retrograde amnesia by the time they’ve spent a sweep hooked into the column. That they forget their life before the helm.

It’s all bullshit, you’d said. Just a ghost story from another scared teen, no evidence to back it up. It was stupid. 

And yet. Somehow it stuck with you. 

The idea that you could forget everything, even the memories of the few friends who had made life bearable before conscription. You could claim it was a scare tactic rumor all you wanted, but you still couldn’t get it out of your head.

You ended up writing an memorandum to yourself about them, just in case. Were you calling yourself an idiot the entire time? Yes, but you also couldn’t help but think of a day it might prove necessary, having nothing but your own typed words to remember people you used to know like breathing.

That was over two sweeps ago. You aren’t sure what you’re doing now, bringing up the file on your internal viewscreen. But here you are anyway, reopening old wounds.

As you type in the command to open it up on the mainframe, you reflect that at least it wasn’t necessary. You remember these jackasses as well as ever. Maybe it would be better if you didn’t. You read:

two remember.

- KK. dumb a22hole couldnt learn two wriite workable ~ATH code iif hii2 liife depended on iit. neurotiic. unfortwonate horn2. called ME 2en2iitiive but went off at the liittle2t thiing. he defiiniitely had 2omethiing two hiide. not good for hii2 2urviival chance2. he wa2 a good friiend though 2o iill remember hiim for that.

- TZ. 2he2 2avvy. ii dont thiink there2 anyone el2e out there who2 THAT 2avvy whiile at the 2ame tiime haviing liike a moral con2ciience. iit2 why ii could tru2t her. even iif her batty game2 got annoyiing. 2he diid get bliinded but you know? iif anyone could make iit wiith a dii2abiiliity iit2 her. plu2 iit2 not liike 2he2 a lowblood or anythiing. iim not 2ure what ii 2hould remember TZ for 2peciifiically. cant iimagiine anyone ever forgettiing her becau2e 2he ii2 2o... her. lmao

- KN. talked two her a lot. 2he wa2 alway2 good two talk two becau2e 2he wouldnt get all viitriioliic or crazy on me liike everyone el2e. the liike ONE per2on wiith a pan on her 2houlder2. plu2 2he wa2 iintere2ted iin the future two, and all thii2 other 2pooky 2hiit. iill remember KN for beiing a real cla22 act.

- AA. aradiia diied. iit would probably be a lot EA2IIER two ju2t forget but would that be faiir two her? no. iit2 all my fault that 2he2 dead and iit2 2o BAD becau2e 2he wa2 great. iim haviing trouble wriitiing thii2. iit2 dumb. aradiia2 dead, remember her for beiing your clo2e2t friiend and fiir2t cru2h and all thii2 other dumb, dumb 2hiit that diidnt matter.

- tavro2 wa2 AA’2 FLARPiing partner. he wa2 alway2 2uch a wiimp. cant iimagiine hiim endiing up anywhere but the culliingblock floor 2iince he2 a criipple. maybe thii2 ii2 mean oh well. maybe ii 2hould have made more of an effort two be niice two the guy, AA thought he wa2 ok at lea2t.

- gamzee, KK’2 honkfriiend or whatever the fuck. con2tantly talkiing about miiracle2 and 2hiit iit wa2 alway2 2o annoyiing. miiracle2 are fake.

- eriidan... KK’2 go22iip friiend ii gue22? wow what ii2 iit wiith KK and feeljammiing iit up wiith hiighblood dude2. he had that whole thiing about kiilliing everyone two. god why wa2 everyone ii knew 2uch weiirdo2.

- nepeta wa2 thii2 cat giirl who liived iin a cave and now 2he ii2 probably iin 2pace doiing whatever or el2e dead. ii never really triied two talk two her diid ii. probably a good thiing for her anyway.

- equiiu2 ii2 a fuckiing weiirdo. ii never really talked two hiim out2iide of helpiing hiim wiith tech 2hiit a few tiime2 but he2 defiiniitely a freak. better at beiing a moiiraiil than ii ever wa2 though ii dont have room two talk.

- vrii2ka ii2 2avvy liike terezii but 2he diidnt have a2 many moral2 about iit. ii gue22 iif 2he can make iit work for her why not.

- feferii ii2 a tyriian whiich ii2 2ort of a biig deal. or 2hould ii 2ay wa2? ii cant iimagiine her beatiing the empre22. iit wa2 alway2 2o weiird the few tiime2 ii talked two her becau2e 2he wa2 2o friiendly and full of liife but all ii could thiink ii2 how 2he ii2 fated two be dead. 2he wa2 a lot niicer than mo2t troll2.

You didn’t need to read that. You didn’t need to read it at all. But you did, and now there’s some weird sort of tightness constricting in your chest.

You quash the feeling down. You don’t need to feel things over these people. Not the one you killed, not the ones you'd considered friends, not the ones you'd written off and ignored. It just brings up bad feelings for you. You don’t want to think about it.

You open up the options panel and enter a command. The prompt pops up: FILE DELETED. Goodbye.

Somehow, you expected more. You think of the end of Portal 2, the part where Glad0s deletes Caroline from her databanks. Could you just delete a part of yourself like that? You would, if you could.

File deleted. You don’t want to think about it any more.

#action post.