#and youre falling apart

[thatsbelievable]

#How to Enjoy Your Cup of Tea While the World Falls Apart Around You #tips #tricks #lifehacks #helpful hints #advice #tea #unreality

[natjennie]

something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.

#something about kristen's adhd making her fuck things up and being mad at herself and that manifesting #as her deity being overcome with rage #something about fear and anger and shame and the inability to do better even when you're trying so hard #and something about people loving you anyway #something about 'your anger isnt scary to me' #as someone who had undiagnosed pcos in early high school and got so fucking MAD #something about adhd and how you're always failing and you have no one to blame but yourself #and how heart breaking it is to watch your life fall apart around you KNOWING you could do something #but being unable to do it right. always forgetting always slipping up #and how mad that makes you. at yourself. #this fight is so much #fhjy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[taeiris]

mike has an important talk with nancy

ST5 HYPE IS BACK IN MY BRAIN FOLKS!!! this is based on a “leak” from way back in may btw iykyk

lineart

#mike restrains himself from thinking about his feelings and needs when his loved one’s are in danger #even if its making his relationships fall apart #WELL this was fun #i rlly enjoyed doing this in the same style i did #ari’s the shape of water byler au #i love heavy lighting!!! #when you enter a babygirlifying mike wheeler competition and your opponent is taeiris #stranger things #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #byler fanart #stranger things fanart #will byers fanart #fanart #mike wheeler fanart #stranger things 5 #nancy wheeler #nancy wheeler fanart #wheeler siblings #mike and nancy #irisart!!!

[fawnforevergone]

it is so over for me the day hozier makes an achilles reference. all his mixing of greek mythology with the idea that love is an act of violence/defiance against the world and we have yet to hear him make a metaphor out of how batshit achilles went in the iliad ...i think i would spontaneously combust actually.

#not to mention that achilles is also mentioned in dante's 'inferno' #in the circle of 'lust' may i add #like cmon mr “you're atlas in his sleeping” #mr “i will gladly be the icarus to your certainty” #pick up what i'm puttin down #i WILL fall apart if he ever does this btw #it'll be all i ever talk about #but we as a community need this #hozier #unreal unearth #hozier's inferno #wasteland baby

[flameswallower]

Sometimes one has a naive assumption that other disabled/neurodivergent/mad people are not going to judge you for the things you can't do, can't do well, can't do consistently, or can't stop doing even though they are very annoying, disruptive, upsetting, dangerous, etc. Sometimes one also has a naive assumption that because one has struggles along these lines, one will automatically be able to empathize well with others in a similar boat and not become upset or disappointed with them.

I am here to tell you these assumptions are baloney.

On one hand, it's true that kinds of empathy and solidarity can exist within these categories that it's hard to find outside of them. On the other hand, most of us also have less capacity, time, and energy to help others in our lives, especially if they have intense or extremely specific support needs, than non-disabled people. And many of us have more trouble than average with things like concealing and controlling anger/frustration, not becoming anxious when other people don't do things exactly the way we were hoping or expecting, understanding that other people have different perspectives than we do, and even just, like...perceiving reality and remembering things accurately.

Do your best, apologize to people when it's called for, and try to give others a lot of grace/benefit of the doubt. Also, remember that when you start having thoughts like "I bet that person's problems aren't really that bad, I bet they're just lazy. Why do they feel entitled to all this help when no one is helping me? I work a lot harder than they do, and I feel like shit all the fucking time," that's a sign that you're operating way past your limits and are on the edge of burnout, and the fact that no one IS helping you is an indictment of your environment's (lack of) social safety nets, not of your also-disabled friends' laziness, selfishness or lack of care.

#i have absolutely been on all sides of this #it sucks to feel like you're the only one who isn't 'allowed' to fall apart #and it sucks to be dragged by people who ostensibly like or love you when you are Trying Your Best #and or Literally In Hell

[roscoe-me-and-this-fuckin-kid]

the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it. the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it. the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it. the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it. the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it. the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it. the world tried to burn all the mercy out of me but you know i wouldnt let it.

#sunshine riptide #fall out boy #fob #i dont ever wanna talk that way again i dont wanna know people like that anymore as if there was an obligation as if i owed you something #all these grandstanding gaslights black eyes and fist fights i romanticize #i scraped my knees while i was praying and found a demon in my safest haven #and the worst part is before it gets any better were heading for a cliff in the free fall i will realise im better off when i hit the botto #i think ive been going through it and ive been putting your name to it stretched out over n over again til im creased and im bout to break #rip myself apart i'll be whatever you need me to be you need me to be cut myself down i cut myself down to whatever you need me to be

[introspectivememories]

#AUUUGH WAILING SCREAMING CRYING SLIDING DOWN THE WALL SOBBING #BROCEDES PLEASE WHY COULDN'T YOU TWO HAVE BEEN NON-FAMOUS #WHY DID YOU DRAG ALL OF US INTO YOUR SITUATIONSHIP #my mom is sick of me wailing about them. nearly collapsed at work when i remembered 'yes... and team-mate' #sliver springs is going platinum in my house rn #how can you be childhood friends and just fall apart like that? i think about falling out with tas like that and i go nearly catatonic #yeah you're a 7x wdc winner and you got the one wdc that you wanted but was it worth it? was this loss worth it? would you do it again? #going by the interviews they probably would and that's why they fell out in the first place. i literally cannot imagine caring about some #trophy over my childhood best friend but like i guess that's why they're pro level athletes and i'm in my room posting about them #anyway what the fuck was up during f1 photographers during their fallout? why is every photo of them cinematic? did you know we'd be using #them? did you know we'd go crazy? or were you also like 'oh this is cinema in the making. i gotta capture this.'? #anyway for all of that want to know where the quote is from‚ it's jacob black from twilight when bella is getting turned into a vamp #stephanie meyer had one (1) banger line and it was this #brocedes #brocedes edit #f1 edit #f1 web weaving #nico rosberg #lewis hamilton #nr6 #lh44 #formula 1 #web weaving #please ignore my absolutely atrocious photo editing skills. thank you imgflip!!

[chronicallyraininghere]

got the primal urge to draw darling catra even though the show ended eons ago

#spop #my art #art #digital art #catra #spop catra #she ra and the princesses of power #shes falling apart your honor

[larabar]

all silliness gone

#combining my aus to create a supernova of. dread #(also the whole 'sonic is the only one to remember 06' thing) #it comes back to him in bits and pieces #just messes with him a bit #MAN ive gotta practice comics. if i could just put this all together in a cohesive way #but enough of that. ghost!sonic is soo fun to color i have a new favorite way #its kinda hard for him to keep himself together in this form so there are bits around him #also because its my favorite thing he falls apart a lot more when he gets frustrated or angry #sth #doodles #actually dead au #memories of the wind au #saying woof is something i picked up from amphibia i think. i cant stop saying it its so fun. like youre tired. woof..... #back to silliness after this one. probably

[chekhovs-tantrum]

Everyone I've met in this fandom is a decent, kind, wonderful person and so I'm not sure how some of you finished a work about the horrors of consuming one's beloved and the destructiveness of capitalism — and then promptly went off to "jokingly" badger/threaten/nag your favorite author's boss because she isn't providing content fast enough for you?

I'm being overly snarky and I know that in a lot of cases this is just an expression of how excited people are: “Starving for Alecto news” translates to “I'm so excited for the next installment of this series!” But let's maybe work on phrasing? If your post sounds like your parent being passive-aggressive about why the dishes aren't done, maybe take a shot at some edits.

I am also beyond stoked for Alecto but I don't go to a restaurant and bitch at the waiters because the chefs are taking a little too long to get my dessert just right. Good art takes time. Grab a snack.

#reminder that Tamsyn has been as open as she wants to be about her physical and mental limitations #and no artist owes you an explanation of why they're not producing this very second #I would rather an author take care of themselves and push a deadline back than fall apart trying to put out a mediocre book on time #by all means do what you want but just know I am wincing if you center your own distress #tlt #tor #alectopause #Alecto the ninth #locked tomb #tlt meta #tazmuir

[genericpuff]

if you know you know

#seriously i think rachel is just going full on colleen ballinger at this point #a lolcow finally hitting her peak #get your laughs in now rachel but your comic is still falling apart at the seams #literally one of the top comments on the second most recent FP episode right now is a NEGATIVE ONE #LIKE EVEN PEOPLE IN THE WEBTOON COMMENT SECTION ARE CATCHING ON TO YOU RACHEL #YOU CAN LAUGH THE PAIN AWAY BUT NOT THE PROBLEM RACHEL #lore olympus critical #anti lore olympus #lo critical

[bandaidfingers]

In honor of Dracula Daily I’m going to be reposting Jonathan Harker’s Adventures in Castle Dracula, aka some little comics I made into a zine in 2017/18. Here’s the cover (og red and the pink version that ultimately looked better in print)

And of course, happy Lizard Fashion day

#dracula #dracula daily #though these arent like a good example of the way my art looked in 2017 cuz they were all rapid fire doodles. my art has improved a lot. #and it’s also interesting to see just the way going from mostly digital to mostly traditional changed my art. like the lack of lineweight #on these? crazy. I just dont really draw like that any more #anyway slim chance but if there’s anyone here on tumblr who actually bought a physical one of these zines from me when I sold them at #SCAD’s mini comics con: I love you. I hope the staples didnt fall apart on your copy lol god knows I stapled them like a maniac #jonathan harker’s adventures in castle dracula

[the-overanalyst]

new ship dynamic to obsess over: the beautiful x the damned

#person a is a shining star idolized by many but probably falling apart inside #person b is treated as a lost cause and isn't afraid to be openly messed up #i have one example in mind but i wanna see what y'all come up with #otp prompts #ship dynamics #ships #imagine your otp #writing prompt #writeblr #writers #reading #book tropes #bookworm #story ideas #story tropes #books & libraries #booklr #romance tropes #romance #angst prompt #angst #dark academia #classic literature

[gayrogues]

"what if herbert west and [insert other horror weirdguy] made out" interesting but consider the following: what if the bride from bride of re-animator and elizabeth from frankenhooker made out

#i spin the bride of frankenstein trope around in the washing machine of my brain and this is what falls out #something something the way they were both created to fulfill the desires of a man. being literally objectified (reduced to 'parts') #the horror of waking up with a body that isn't yours #and then the contrast between what they do with this #the bride tearing herself apart in despair because of the callousness of these men #they don't care about her now that she's a person rather than a project or something that dan could project his dead lovers onto #vs elizabeth going out and finding men who would objectify her and exploding them to death #and in the end turning the tables on jeffery - they're both frankenstein and they're both the bride #anyways it's been a While since i've watched bride of reanimator so apologies if any of this is off #reanimator #frankenhooker #ransom.txt

[bonefall]

no joke you turned star flower into one of my least favorite characters into one of my favorites. this is why i follow you and this is why its important to talk about this stuff. even when people are aware of these issues, it can be hard to see just how deep they run until somebody points it out

Star Flower deserves better, most of the cast of DOTC deserves better but Star Flower, Snake, and Bumble deserve the most better

She didn't DO anything man. She's not even that mean. It's super popular for people to just end up absolutely hating her because of Thunder being jealous and angry at her, but she didn't fuckin "betray" anyone, and everything Thunder is saying about her is SUPER messed up and should really have been examined!

Like... how do they unironically write Thunder looking at Star Flower, saying "YOU ONLY LIKE MY DAD BECAUSE HE REMINDS YOU OF YOUR FATHER" and just let that hang in the air?? And leave Clear Sky's internal monologue about how she's going to obey him, be more loyal to him than his "own kin" (Thunder) whomst he's actively abusing, and how he finally has someone who won't question him?

I need her to get therapy, man. I need her and Thunder to get therapy and Clear Sky to blow up.

#It's not ''betrayal'' to warn your father about an assassination attempt #the moor cats broke the terms of their deal first THEY were the ones playing dirty #But that doesn't matter because One Eye is a stinky rogue not WORTHY of a fair fight I fucking guess!! #For how much this series cries and whines about being Just As Bad or whatever the fuck #it sure does fall apart the minute that our antagonist isn't part of the in-group! #''THIS ISNT UR FIGHT :(((('' shut the fuck UP thunder it's not YOUR FIGHT either you're just assmad he came prepared!! #star flower #They don't even need to get better in therapy btw I'll be fine if they go to a class that comes up on the credit card charge as THERAPY #but they just go to pipe bomb building class or something #bone babble