#and thatd just be cruel

[vagueiish]

paraphrasing like hell, but there's that post that's like 'writers/artists, you're doing great by virtue of creating something from nothing; your unrealistic standards for yourself don't dictate your worth, etc etc' i've seen a few times, and there are other posts with the same sentiment i've seen. and it's all very lovely and i hope other artists find them helpful and good

but like. boy, would those people change their fuckin tune if they were to see the crap i vomit out, lmao

#to be clear it's crap in quality and sheer inability to write #not in the way of 'if you saw the stories i wrote youd hurl' bc content or whatever lol #'please stop creating. leave the nothing the way it is thanks' they would say #thats why i dont anymore. doing the world a favor #and its not like the world needs me to create #youre all doing a good enough job. a better job than i ever could hope to #me continuing to participate in these creative endeavors and communities would be akin to #crapping on a platter to bring to a potluck #after promising something actually tasty #and thatd just be cruel #to the void with love

[spatiotemporal]

wehh.. dont feel like finishing this

#ensemble stars #shu itsuki #shumika #not tagging mika thatd be cruel he is just the budderfly.... #enstars #yatchuart

[heroes-fading]

just got an idea for an incredibly painful fic.

consider: joel and ellie just barely miss each other when ellie gets out of silver lake

ellie has to get through the absolute fucking worst time alone and they just keep barely missing each other on the way to salt lake because it's a big fucking continent out there and they're both trying to find each other and assuming the worse and maybe naively hoping for the best

#THATD BE VERY MEAN #fic talk #tv: the last of us #WHO WOULD WRITE THAT #CRUEL #and Ellie is just fucking going THROUGH IT #Has she not suffered ENOUGH

[timeisacephalopod]

The fact that cigarette companies exist is fucking dystopian and a sign of the failure of capitalism as an ideology- cigarettes are a product that undeniably caused a bunch of different cancers, we've all seen the tobacco death stats on the back of cig cartons smokers have, and yet. And yet, for some reason instead of saying "zero businesses should be selling cancer causing products to their customers, certainly not when those cancer causing products are so dangerous even the smoke of the product causes cancers in the people around smokers. Businesses have zero right to cause a massive health crisis in the population like this when their only function is to make money- you cannot give people cancer for profit."

Like you'd assume giving people cancer for money would be some kind of fucked dystopian novel that'd get ripped on for being way too over the top and unrealistic but no, we literally live in such a morally bankrupt capitalist brain rotted society that we think selling cancer is fine, we won't do anything about a set of companies that exist solely to get customers addicted to their highly dangerous product for profit. Instead we'll act like it's smokers who need to take responsibility for the industry that's exploiting them. Fucking disgusting if you ask me, that we're more okay with companies giving people cancer than we are with governments giving people welfare.

#winters ramblings #my parents have been smokers for as far back as i remember #id really like to livht some ceos on fire for putting all these people at risk OF CANCER and like 72 billion kinds #so they can make MONEY. what kind of morally vacuous black hole of a person thinks thats acceptable?? #and they LOBBIED to hide any effects of smoking second hand effects included. fucking HORRIFYING #the fact that businesses do this a LOT- like bp shell and exxon all covering up climate change to make more money?? #capitalism is a failure because people will kill each other or even THE ONLY VIABLE PLANET TO LIVE ON IN OUR SOLAR SYSTEM #just to make money. like you can tell me about how horrible other economic systems are all fucking day #and frankly id be inclined to ahree with you on plenty. but capitalism is not a viable choice either #when THIS is the result. selling health crises to the population and killing the planet. name me another economic system thats done THAT #ill fucking wait because capitalism is it. embarrassing that people will defend this system #even more embarrassing that we hand wring over fst people being an epidemic to the point of systemic oppression #because THEY need to take responsibility for the health crisis they allegedly cause despite reporting going to the drs FAR less #than thin people so idk how theyre astrain on health care especially in the us where people literally die before going to emerg but ok #THEY need to be responsible for THEIR health crisis despite losing weight long term being NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE #but tobacco companies can sell cancer to the point if being a WAY MORE SOLVABLE HEALTH CRISIS #but we cant do anything because being disgustingly cruel and punative to individuals is fine but oh dear LORD #how could we EVER treat businesses with more impunity than individuals because they cause INFINITY MORE DAMAGE?? #we couldn't POSSIBLY treat a structure of institutional power like it actually HAS power thatd break the illusion its all CONSUMERS faults

[29121996]

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#anyway. #i cba to . rehash everything rn so this is gonna b out of context (im almost breaching the nda) #i have to fucking zwrve him again i might just spit in his drink actually . #like . im half splitting bx im hurt .ike half of this is fuelled by an episode of some kind #++ likw i am absolutely reacting over Nothing rn . #but . ive had enough lmao im gonna have to talk to osme9ne #and ask abt working at the other place bc this is . imapcting ky ability to work. like 100% #like AHDJEBDIDHSIDJDSIJD. i had a fucking panic attack + got him kicked iut #bc i couldnt FOCUS . i was hyperventilating . #i cant do this anymore. all od this is awful . #im running out of options idk what to do anymore lolololololol #im not going uptosn this . week either . #im gonna use the $50 i was saving on . another lot of 🌿 instead . #i cant do this . i cant fucking be around him anymors. i cant exist in the same orbit as him . #this is fuckign bullshit its Killing Me. #so i rlly gotta fucking Retreat that feels.so Fucking Pathwtic #that . im in such an emotionally confused Nd heightened stats #that i cant even go n be around ppl i like ha ging oit w . bc theres such a high fucking chance hes gonna b there #like. i know what ur doing. ur not that cruel . not unless u had smrh to prove #or . was trying to get a reaxrion from me. congrats u achieved it. but its not the one u aanted ! #like i could b reading that wrobg. the alternative is . he rlly hates me that much he Wantes to hurt me #deliberatsly. #theres a differencs jn this but i dont wanna talk abt it. #anywat that is Not Coherent but i know what im referring to . #i wanna fucking Hate Him. like if i could just Hate Him. #thatd Be So Much Easier. but No. its not . #like i rlly had to tell my fucking manager #that my ex was here n i was fucking Panucking so much i needed him kicked iut. #i wasnt even Sure how to fucking . likw . saying it was abusive to her uust so i didnt have to L99k at him was so fucked up #its not . Entirely Wrong. vut . i hate referring to it as an abusice relationship bx it doesnt entirely make sense

[impishjesters]

hii can you please do jax x shapeshifter reader hcs/short story (your choice)... like they dont have a "normal" form nn can turn into anything they wanted to i think thatd be cool /nf

warning(s): Jax, mentioned using someone's fear as a prank note(s): I wasn't sure how to list the prank, it's probably considered particularly cruel given it's using Ragatha's fear of centipedes as entertainment A/N: I think having the ability to shape-shift and be friends with Jax is such a violently chaotic blend, and honestly I'm here for it. Gotta get your fun somehow.

To be honest, Jax questions whether you’re actually a human or not at first

It wouldn’t be the first time Caine decided to throw something new at them, though usually it’s a game or activity and not another…person?

Like obviously you don’t look like the wooden doll NPCs, but you can just uh, change what you wanna look like?

He’s entirely convinced you’re just some fancier NPC for a hot minute before you start to react in a very non-NPC way

Those wooden dolls don’t particularly do much, and they sure as hell can’t speak

The first thing Jax tries to do is rope you into his messing around with the others—just think of it, you can turn into whatever you want which means even more hilarious possibilities for pranking the others!

Now if you aren’t like Jax and deny helping him, he’ll still find ways to use your shape-shifting abilities to his enjoyment.

Even if it doesn’t result in a prank, it’d still be hilarious to see you shift into something that ends up scaring someone else or just overall causing chaos to whatever awful domino effect might happen (I mean look at the Kaufmo situation, shit went downhill real fast unintentionally)

He’s not going to be aggressive or forceful but he’ll still throw out that the two of you would make a great team in entertainment

And if you like causing hell then this baby is just like a kid on Christmas, as mentioned above he’ll use your ability to shape-shift into things that’ll entertain him—and well by proxy you

Like the time you guys fucked with Kinger

He had you shape-shift to look like himself and engage in a convo with Kinger, and when the convo ended he came over and started up a conversation, acting as if he hadn’t seen the old coot in a hot minute. Kinger was very very lost—Ragatha didn’t find it that funny

Nor did she find it funny the time you turned into a large centipede-like creature and scared the ever-loving shit out of her

Okay maybe you felt a tad bad, and sure it definitely had her loathing you for a bit—but she’s definitely grown more on guard with you around

Overall Jax finds it kind of interesting that unlike them, you are able to sort of pick and choose what you wanna look like. The two of you no doubt spent hours just watching you cycle through and test just what kind of stuff you could change into.

Caine still isn’t sure how that happened to be completely honest, you’re an enigma to him and he doesn’t like that

Jax won’t say it but he’s only a little weirded out when you’ve made yourself look like him, he knows what he looks like—there are reflective surfaces, but it’s just…weird

#jax #jax x reader #tadc #tadc jax #the amazing digital circus #the amazing digital circus x reader

[hellonerf]

au based on a dream i had thats basically reworking my old caname ghost au but with more dubious implications and less blatant insp from aono kun 🤤

the dream that spurred this on went like this

probably unrealistic but what are dreams right... a dramatized cruelty from others because its funny and also because i think it was influenced by those animations of goth(?) kids(usually a girl) summoning demons to get revenge on their classmates. this one is a little more specific in the reasoning... and cana took a year or so to turn his horrible grief into using the dark arts for revenge (15 years old) 🙏 in that time he was a rly sad lonely kid i'd imagine and suddenly hes in a comedic hijinksy routine with a demon he summoned and his big little brother trapped in his old rabbit plush. this is how he views it actually! when he goes to school he cant take rus and rus has nothing else to do so he stays in cana's room (at least in the human world he stays there) he puts ame in his bag and wipes off his mouth so he doesnt cause suspicion at school. he carries him around sometimes bcz everyone is cruel to him he'd at least have his dollbrother. ☺️❤️(That kid who you judged for carrying around a stuffed animal in highschool? that thing was his dead brother. You never know peoples #lifestory)

if ame wants to emote he has to tell cana to draw him eyebrows. if cana wants ame to shut up he just wipes off his mouth. ame has little control of his rabbit plush body too because its difficult to move around. he can whack cana a bit though...

basically the old ghost au i had is this now cz 🤤 the other one was probably just an aono kun au and thats less funny. and im not as skilled as that author with that tone and themes. i can however envision specific situations that cause ame to lose control to his body! i love to tie ame to cana like a balloon. this au has no ruscan anymore sorry i mean u can see it that way but i realized thatd be misleading to say bcz Its All Caname to me. 🙂 so this is it now

#hetalia #caname #hetalia au #aph canada #aph russia #aph america #hws canada #hws russia #hws america #amecan #myart #na ghost au

[calebwittebane]

also, finished my new vegas campaign. Leigh Has Achieved Her Mission or at least the closest approximation of it that the game let me achieve, which of course is the independent ending with a full securitron army and the support of the followers of the apocalypse. the only thing is i Fackin Forgor to deal with the fiends so they caused some problems but well the trouble they caused was to the ncr so i kinda dgaf. also i was surprised some khans showed up to help me at hoover dam! i actually felt kinda bad about it like no no... ive got this... you guys have been thru enough... you shouldnt have to protect the ncr from Anyone even the legion... please oomfies stay safe....

i think some of the remnants died??? idk only cannibal johnson was still with me at the legates camp. did they die?? im so sorry arcade i think theyve died. idk how. they were in power armor shooting gods lightning at enemies. whyd they die but boone didnt. boone was with me the whole time partially because earlier he was helping me with the kimball speech mission (which btw was the most awkward thing ever. love the uncoordinated animations and the crowd of 5 people. the speech that was impossible to understand like wtf is that guy saying. topped off with every npc involved getting locked in combat/fleeing at the end. love it) and i thought hed have fun with this too. well he did and he also had fun picking up rifles off of every legionnaire corpse. why does he do that. i check on him see his carrying capacity looks weird and there he is holding 8 rifles. boy drop it. drop it. now.

anyway. i kind of dont understand what happened with the brotherhood of steel, i think i had confused the game badly. i became besties with them rather early on, i even convinced mcnamara to let me join them (which like. youd think thatd have some curious implications but again, Unfinished Game) but i never talked them into making a truce with the ncr or anything. but for some reason i told mr house i did? like right before i decided i would Not be Trying The Mr House Route after all, a decision i made specifically over his insistence that i eliminate the brotherhood actually. and then yes man also acted like the bos were gonna help the ncr at hoover dam. and mcnamara kept saying he couldnt believe he would be helping the ncr even though again the subject had not once been breached. i was like ok. and then they did not in fact help the ncr. they didnt show up. wtf was that about. lies and treachery. after all i did for you. after i fixed your air conditioning. oh im sorry, was it the robots. did you not like the robots? scared of them?

and not only that, the boomers also didnt show up even though they were supposed to. motherfucker... what did i get you bastards that airplane for... you people were so annoying and unkind and i still helped you. because i thought i could count on you. for everything i did for you. loyal i hope your solar arrays break immediately. that guy who works with loyal idr your name i hope your gf breaks up with you and then you explode. i hope all of you explode. i shouldve known. i shouldve known better.

like thats so funny. of all the factions that i had recruited the ones that actually showed up to help were 1. The Elderly Ex-Soldiers Of The Horrid American Regime 2. the great khans, Unexpected And Unannounced. oh well. we still mowed through those bastards. thats right. thats right. all you centurions and other creeps, you stood no chonce. no chonce against this hungry hungry woman. she ate caesar, shes gonna eat all of you. thats how you deal with enemies and opponents and adversaries.

as for legate lanius i fully buy into the Legate Lanius Isnt Real theory. i mean yes ostensibly theres a guy, whose name Allegedly is lanius, and hes a legate. but hes just a propaganda figure. legate lanius The Cruel Merciless Force Of Destiny Itself, The Devil, Unpredictable, Cares For Naught But Victory, with all those crazy stories of how he became part of the legion. well thats not real. hes just a tall guy in a scary mask and he doesnt really wanna be here. like the fact that you can just talk him into retreating. like hey man this campaign has already cost you your leader and youre gonna keep having a bad time around these parts. take that taste the pain. and hes just like Yeah ok Theres wisdom in what you say Youre a worthy opponent indeed. Goo Bye Bye. and sprints away. ok. scariest guy east of the colorado river you guys. had to stay holed up in the little baby camp away from any fighting until the last big battle and even then he didnt leave the aforementioned little baby camp. he wasnt leading anything or anyone. he was in his tent scared and fingering himself. scram.

felt kinda bad throwing general oliver off the dam. it was an impulsive decision and i was like man i shouldnt have done that. i barely knew the guy. kind of a gruesome way to go. sure he pissed me off and was overall a bad person but i shouldnt be doing shit like that. doesnt inspire others' confidence in my Collected Trustworthy Nature. i think.

im really glad about the good endings i got for all my companions. they just all got really chill ending slides. theyre all just kinda hanging around the mojave helping people and being cool. arcade status: chillinnnng 👍 boone status: chillinnnng 👍 cass status: chillinnnng 👍 lily status: chillinnnng 👍 raul status: ghost cowboy. veronica status: chillinnnng 👍

anyway. i had fun. and so, this concludes the epic tale of Leigh The Hungry... Leigh The Water Drinker... Leigh The Devourer Of Armies.... Leigh The Hacker.... Leigh The Dubious... Leigh The Thief.... Leigh The Sleeper, The Taker Of Naps. and what a journey it was. in a perfect world women like her would not exist. but this is not a perfect world.

[noellashes]

hiiiiiiii! feel free to ignore this ask but what do you like about noelashe? :0 I really like them too but I don't exactly know why myself... the parallels perhaps? the care? the potential? either way, I'm asking you how you feel about them! And I hope you have a wonderful day! :)

so so sorry for the late response but

anon you don't understand how long ive been waiting for someone to ask me this exact question

this may be extremely long depending on how much i feel like talking about so i apologize

spoilers inbound after this point!!

there are many, many reasons ive fallen in love with them and their dynamic, but ill try to condense them into a more readable format

the sections will be as follows:

 their parallels and how they compliment each other

their kindness and affection towards each other

how they treat the other differently to the others in the mansion

more surface level dynamic things i like

the things that got me attached to them in the first place

parallels!

i feel like every noelashe fan understands their parallels somewhat but im insane so im gonna go in depth

they match and contrast each other in so so many different ways, down to even design (i actually made a post about that before it shouldnt be too hard to find)

their personalities are one thing, energetic and tired, extroverted and introverted, loud and shy, cruel and kind, fake and genuine, manipulative and naïve, i could go on but thatd be WAY too long so i'll just mention these

but thats just on the surface, they actually match each other a LOT more than you think

how ashe is more introverted than what meets the eye, not liking people out of distrust, and noel being tons more talkative and social, adoring people and barely being able to hate anyone

noel being smarter than he appears, willing to lie and manipulate for what he wants, and ashe being really easy to fool sometimes, immediately believing anything he thinks can bring back his family

and of course the obvious, their wishes

the same wish, the same pain, they go through such similar trauma with different ways of dealing with it

or so you think, their coping is very similar and this is acknowledged in sirius's conclusion, the only real difference being if theyre violent or not. noel, has sworn off harming people but he's still not above using backhanded methods for his goals. ashe, despite doing awful things for his wants, still has noble(ish) reasons for why he does these things

neither are entirely innocent, but neither are completely guilty

they both just want the people they care for to live peacefully, alive

but both do some pretty fucked up things for this wish, noel lies to sirius and uses dorothy as a ploy, ashe well- i think we all know. ashe commits multiple varied crimes that range from theft to murder and noel's own negligence can be considered a crime in some cases.

they have an understanding no one else does and it creates a lot of interest towards them and develops them as individuals too

kindness

they care so much for each other its insane

noel has trouble seeing ashe as anything but kind and ashe cant help but feel attached to noel even if he doesnt want to, which makes them get close each time and it makes them feel for each other a LOT more than they need to

the times where noel is sick and ashe takes care of him, ashe saying he lied so noel wont feel bad, noel letting ashe confide in him and ashe even trusting him enough to say his worries in the first place, the list goes on

they just have an instant bond bc they want someone to care and help them (even if both have trouble admitting it) and they want to help each other, which just makes them care more

it always ends in kindness between the two and it's one of the ways we get a happy ending

special treatment

i could put this in the kindness section but i think it deserves its own section bc its so damn cute

it does have a little less to go over tho as it doesn't happen much

im also gonna start adding screenshots and such

noel seems to really admire ashe and his abilities so much more than anyone else its adorable

hes so amazed by him literally just cooking and he doesnt comment on anything to do with precise stuff that isnt smth ashe does, i may be wrong but i dont think ive ever seen him comment on smth like sirius drawing talismans which is highly specific but will ALWAYS think about how impressed he is with ashe

he also just

treats ashe in a similar way to claire, like he just casually says ashe saved him which is such a strong word to him with no thought and he LITERALLY SAYS HE TRUSTS HIM UNCONSCIOUSLY BC HE REMINDS HIM OF CLAIRE if that doesnt say smth i dont know what does

and ashe always opens up to noel so much more than anyone else like noel has gotten ashe to talk about himself unlike anyone else, the only other character he talked to about things was claire (technically sirius too but he was drunk off his ass so im not counting it) and that was like once he doesnt even say anything that isnt surface level

ashe also just refuses to harm noel and i dont think anyone has noticed this before

it makes sense if his killings are during the day bc noel literally just isnt there but some other times he has no excuse

HE MOVES TO THE SIDE HERE EVEN IF WHERE HE WAS STANDING GAVE HIM A CLEARER SHOT TO CLAIRE YOU CANT TELL ME IT WASNT SO HE DELIBERATELY MISSES NOEL

ALSO HE COULDVE TRIED AGAIN OR GONE AFTER HIM BUT NO HE JUST GOES "missed one!" AND CALLS IT A DAY IF THATS NOT PROOF HE DOESNT WANNA HURT NOEL I DONT KNOW WHAT IS

surface level things

as much as i love the incredible lengths of their relationship, i also like more simple things that im just gonna put into a little list

theyre so sun and moon guys

BLACK CAT AND GOLDEN RETRIEVER BFS

their color palettes look nice together

babygirl and wet cat

loves to cook and fucking awful at cooking

smartass x dumbass

mutual healing

their symbols being hearts and stars those look so cute together

"i care about you!!" "why??", mutually

little bitch and sweetheart

both are affectionate but neither can handle it

emotionally repressed x the one who wants them to grow again

bfs who rant about their interests

same trauma

very strange guy x doesnt care

"im a disgusting monster" "HOW?"

the black and white good evil thing is very aesthetically pleasing for them

angel and devil (kinda)

why i fell in love with them

theres a lot of reasons why i love them but theres a few very specific things that got me attached

most obvious is that theyre both my favorites, im extremely attached to ashe and i loved him from the start, i didnt start liking noel until a tiny bit later but he very quickly gained my love

i also relate to them both heavily so seeing them care so much for each other gave me comfort

its a huge pattern that most of my ships are of the character i got immediately attached to and relate to and other character i relate to who cares about the first character

the fate line. its just so gay i was like "thats kinda gay" and while i didnt always think of it like it was super important it always stuck in my head like "yeah i could ship them"

but the real thing that started this all was the wine scene

its when i realized how much they cared for each other and then the floodgates opened, and here we are now!!

its still by far my favorite scene of the two it just makes me so happy its so adorable

conclusion

i have an extreme love for noelashe and just seeing them can make my entire mood better

i dont think many people have analyzed them as much as me so its sad to see how much stuff with them goes unnoticed

theyre genuinely so great for each other, platonic, romantic or anything in between, they deserve to be happy with each other

im so sorry for this being so long and maybe really hard to understand but i adore them so much

if you read this all thank you so much!! have a great day

#uso rambles #witchs heart #ashe bradley #noel levine #noelashe #im so insane for them #noelashe the world

[vagueiish]

genuine question: how do i know if my oc is actually good or not?

or, maybe, 'well-developed and well-designed' rather than 'good'?

esp without feedback from others, lol, because it's hard enough putting snippets out there for funsies, im hesitant to put more out there if i'm just gonna be bringing a shitty stick figure glued to a popsicle stick to show and tell while everyone else is bringing like....meticulously crafted ball-joint dolls and lovingly made amigurumi and so on (/end crappy metaphor)

#everyone's ocs and tavs and such are lovely. it's kinda fun watching yall play #i wanna play too :((( #but not if my guy sucks #but i dont know if he actually sucks or if there's something there and im right to love him the way i do #idk man #im the worst at self-evaluation with this stuff #the default is to assume im failing at what i set out to do #(well my default is to assume I Suck at Everything but that mindset isnt helpful right? #so what am i setting out to do with this? and am i hitting it? or am i getting there? or am i failing? is probably more useful. idk) #(tho maybe 'am i missing the mark and how can i get there' is even more useful than 'am i failing?' but this isnt the point) #people have told me in the past that no. he doesnt suck. they liked reading about him #but if that were actually true then more people would like him. obviously. #but its actually a general question because if i can ever get out of my head and into my creative endeavors.... #i'll need to create and design a lot of characters right? like.... i wanna do comics #i want to make my villain knitting circle dating sim #and if i cant even be sure the little guy i made for shits and giggles is any good #how can i expect to do something more in-depth??? #i know the general answer is practice. but then if it turns out i am bad at Characters.... #then i'll just practice the bad things #feedback is the answer but then that swings back around to i dont wanna just shove garbage in people's faces because thatd be cruel #so i dont know what to do. and all the while i'm just not doing anything and it's not productive and i'm aware #i know part of it is also 'feel the fear. show him off anyway' but i am!!!!!! #nobody is biting!!! and its because they hate hiiiiimmmmm/whiny baby mode #i mean. yall might see more of him bc i might actually write some things but god. nobody will probably bite with those either #ughh.... #to the void with love

[the1975attheirverybest]

🌸 anon here -

just got dumped tonight so the caring matty blurb was so nice ty honey :) still pretty upset, but if we could get like a blurb w/ matty comforting reader about what a shithead readers ex is thatd be great ty!

Oh, noooo!!! I’m so sorry babyyyy 🥺🥺🥺 sending you all the hugs and bestest wishes. HE CLEARLY DIDN’T FUCKIN DESERVE YOU!!! I know shit like “don’t be sad” and “there’ll be better people out there,” doesn’t really help and is definitely easier said than done, so I won’t say any of that. Just know that you’re going to be okay. Love you.

——

“Well, I guess, if you and the guys are hanging out on Friday, I’ll just see you next week?”

Matty Matty quirked his brows, looking a bit puzzled. “Huh?”

“What’s the matter?” She shook her head. “You look lost. You’re seeing the guys this Friday, no?”

“Yeah…”

“So, I’m saying we’ll just see each other next week, then!”

“…why’s that?”

“Because you just said, you’re seeing the guys- oh for fuck’s sakes, Matty! Are you listening to me?”

She sighed, exasperated, and took the produce items out of the bag to help Matty unload them into the fridge.

“I am listening! I’m just not understanding. Why can’t I hang out with you AND the guys? Why do the two have to be mutually exclusive!”

She took the bag of fruits he handed her and opened the crisper, adjusting the humidity levels to suit the items that he’d brought. With her back still towards him, she carried on with thr conversation. “Because- unless you can be in two places at once, it’s literally impossible!”

“Yeah, no shit!” He rolled his eyes. “Wasn’t saying I’d be in two places at once. I was kind of thinking you’d join us!”

She turned around instantly, a few apples falling from her hands. The look on her face was of astonishment. “You…you’d…want me there?”

“Yeah, I mean, unless you don’t wanna be there? Patricia might come, Jamie’s bringing is date probably…I’ve bought all this food…someone’s gotta eat it.”

She felt tongue-tied all she could do was look up at him and smile with gratitude.

Matty found the silence alarming, however. “Look, if you don’t wanna come, just say so! It’s not mandatory, or anything. I just- I’d like it if you did. Plus, you’d miss my face. Can’t keep you waiting until next week! That’s too cruel! But, if you have other plans— if you’re still pining over mister douchebag, and you’d rather spend the day crying about it-“

“No, no…I’d love to come. I just- I didn’t think you’d want me there.” She blushed, finally shutting the fridge door and busting herself with the now empty grocery bags.

“Why wouldn’t I?”

“Well, Mr. Douchebag -as you so affectionately called him, once to his face, too- didn’t like his friends and his partners mixing. In fact, he didn’t like men and women hanging out together at all….”

Matty made a fake gagging face immediately. “He sounds delightful. Maybe I should be calling him Mr. Delightful. Instead.”

“You don’t have to call him anything. He’s out of our lives. Forever.”

“Just as well! The guy was a wanker.” Matty rounded the kitchen island and went to hug her. “I mean, he clearly never appreciated what he had when he had you.”

“He was…I mean-“

“No! No excuses.” He interrupted her with his index finger on her lips to hush her. “I don’t wanna hear it. He never put you first. He treated you like a game that he would pick up when bored and put back down when something more important was going on. He- he made you doubt how beautiful, brilliant, and wonderful you are. So, the way I see it, he’s-“

“A wanker.” She smiled.

He kissed her. “Exactly; A wanker.”

[hostilemuppet]

It’s not like Penny was in a really bad home environment before being outright abandoned! Haha!…😔

yeah... not like penny was neglected and abused for the first... 5 months of their life, before being left to take care of themself for the next 2 months or anything! thatd just be so cruel 😔

#ask #tdaut #but its okay! as of the current chap theyve been livin with their parents for about a month and a half #their 1st birthdays coming up in a few months 😊 im sure theyll be very happy celebrating it with their mamas

[strawberrycircuits]

where even is termina??

so this is like. hotly debated. because what happens is oot link, like. Goes through ocarina of time. comes out traumatized as all fuck. fucks off with epona to go find navi. gets ambushed in the woods by skull kid. and then she wakes up in a strange forest as a deku kid and when she escapes shes in termina. and at the end of the game shes back in the forest at the beginning. and then its assumed she goes back to hyrule (or at least near hyrule?) since TP link lives in Ordon which is a village on the outskirts of Hyrule iirc and OOT link is TP's link great great grandwhatever.

some people are like "its a dream" or "its a pocket dimension" but personally i tackle it in the same way i do the fierce deity mask and majora; it doesnt matter where it came from bc thats not the point. Termina exists to teach Link a valuable lesson-- that, even in the face of a cruel and uncaring world that will take you and spit you out, being kind and having compassion is still important nonetheless. which, yk, is something she needs to learn after being ripped from her home, forced to grow up (literally and figuratively), forced to save a kingdom, used as a weapon by everyone around her, and told she cant go home no matter what. thatd make anyone disillusioned and bitter, so termina exists to remind the hero of time that, yeah, this world sucks, but you can always make it a little better just by being as kind as you always were-- even if that kindness led to you being burned before.

i think something that illustrates that point the most is the timeloop aspect of the game, bc like... its LINK that perpetuates it. she COULD just let the moon fall and let it all end, but... she doesnt. she doesnt want to give in to despair, she doesnt want to die-- and even if she did at some point, then that means she doesnt want the people of termina to die. Resetting the loop is an active act of compassion and hope for the future in a hopeless time in Link's life.

#theres like. wildfires north of me #and the smoke is hitting my area hard #and its fucking with my head bad. i have a big ol migrane rn #so this maybe wasnt explained v well. sorry lmao #anyways i like to think hylia created termina literally to teach Link a lesson. something something goddess of time #and its her way of setting things right in the weird nebulous way she tends to do things in this series. #which is why all the NPCs look like ones from OOT. its a reflection its a reminder of what link is and was fighting for all this time #i think u could go to termina if you really tried. but itd be hard to get in or out and there maybe wouldnt be people living there anymore #bc it served its purpose

[bear-momma]

TW ?

someone sent me a terrible video i cannot go into detail but i have terrible ocd n its gonna be stuck in my head for days

i feel so gross n terrible and ive been crying abt it all day im only a kid he was an adult and i was talking abt school nothing even close to that i blocked him immediately but i still feel bad

i went to a hotline n everything but it didnt rlly help i could throw up and i didnt even watch it so im not rlly sure what it exactly was like the details just saw the cover? yk

uhm if i could msg u abt it thatd be nice but if not it’s understandable i just need reassurance that it wasnt my fault cause it feels like it is and i feel so guilty idk what to do i dont wanna think like this forever idk why someone would do that and i need a distraction but i dont have anything that could distract me

That sounds just awful, I'm so sorry that happened to you. I know it's been a while since this ask was submitted, but you are always welcome to message me!

There are a lot of people who will use the anonymity of the internet to be cruel. Their day will come and they will answer for their behavior.

I'm so sorry again that you had to experience that

#bear answers

[gayspock]

ok im lbing this bc we're not gonna get more for a long time

ok initial thoughts: zombies by the cranberries sent me a little loopy. im sorry. its a heartbreaking song, its a heartbreaking scene. but playing those both together is the funniest fucking thing you could do ever. heavens

second thoughts: i know there was a lotof, like, backlash abt the last ep regarding the present day girlies "giving in to lottie so easily" so its funny to see them ppl owned so early. LOL. although this cant end well and i have already been spoiled and i will say i saw that coming sort of but thought "no they wouldnt do that... tht sucks" but anyways

THIRD thoughts and last time im gonna open a thought with that: literally i said all that, but i know last week ppl also complaine saying they didnt "explain the game well enough" which i thought was stupid bc if they sat there and did thatd be clunky and dumb and ruin the horror of it so now misty is just exposition dumping to lottie im like for gods sake. and in some ways i do kinda get what theyre trying to do with it (misty would be frank about it and clear and etc) but i still think its just a bit alrighhttt alrighttt to watch

this is making me feel sick...

SHAUNA BEING THE DESIGNATED BUTCHER TOO... heavens and a bit.

TH

NOT THE DESIGNATED T...

this is so fucking crazy

HER COVERING HER EYES. I AM SICK. YOU KNOW WHEN THE WET, BIG BROWN PUPPY DOG EYES ARE GONE THE WORLD IS DARK AND CRUEL

ok but seeing trav crying over havi like that . meanwhile shauna was fucking sobbing with jackies corpse holding it for months. everything in the world mental

UGHHH FUCKING WALTERRRRR

SORRY IVE MADE MY FEELINGS CLEAR. I DO NOT LIKE HIS FUNCTION AS A CHARACTER. I THINK MISTY'S ARC WOULD BE SO MUCH FUCKING STRONGER WITHOUT HIM. GET MORE CREATIVE. YOU DONT NEED HIM . and its like hes not bad hes fine but its so annoying that they give him more FUCKING ATTENTION THAN FUCKING NAT AT THIS POINT

plus her dynamic with nat is so much better

i love adult shauna scheming. always gets them into a bit of a pickle. classic!

COACH BEN COMING BACK TO STIUATIONS IS FUCKING UNFATHOMABLY F- NATALIE WHAT HAPPENED

I FIGURED OUT WHERE HAVI WAS HIDING

DOES ANYONE HEAR HIM

YOURE N

I FEEL SICK

his little gorgeous babygirl tear.

coach ben your gay ass needs to move fast before the second most homophobic fast food chain after chick fil a opens up in the canadian wilderness with a limited menu of #1 fucking d

FUCK OFF ELIJAH WOODFUCK OFF KEVYN THIS IS SICK. UGHHHH YOU GUYS ARE THE WORST.

UGH

THIS WHOLE CONVO IS SO BORING IM ASLEEP WORST GUYS IN THE WORLD FUCK OFF THERES NO WAY WE'RE WASTING TIME ON THESE GUYS WHEN THERE'S LITERAL GIRLS EATING GIRLS

"A COVEN OF THEM ALL UP TO NO GOOD" OK that kinda ruled

JEFF WIN JEFF WIN JEFF WIN HIS BIGGG JEFFING COCK FUCKING RULES . NO JEFFING ABOUT.

YOU KILLED HIM?

OKAY jeff is raising the bar here im happy with jeff and walter jeffing and waltering and jaltering and weffing

is weffing something sexual it sounds sexual i hope to god not

shauna is so mother making a meal for the family 😊

THE WOBBLY HEART . MY GOD. DONT- DONT GIVE IT TO TRAVIS. DONT FUCKING LOOK AT HIM WITH THE WOBBLY HEART. COME ON BRO.

hes

um

raw.....

this is a little um

god the crazy parallels of lottie in the past fucking ruined over the ritual and lottie of the present being the most caught up in it. hellaur

IF YOU MAKE CALLIE DEAL WITH THAT ROTTEN COP I'LL KILL US ALL

SHAUNA DRAWING THE CARD?

"IT WAS JUST US!" "is there a difference?" EXACTLY. SAY THAT AT THE FUCKING C- SORRY BUT THEIR SLOW ASS RUNNING MADE ME LOSE IT

TH

THE TRUNK OF THE FUCKING CAR HELP THATS SO FUNNYYYY KEVYNNNNNN

CALLIE WITH A GUN

HI... OK. BUT THE ... OK IS ANYONE GOING CRAZY RIGHT NOW

i mean other than the girlies in animal masks in th e woods

lottie: everybo-

SHUT UP ITS CRAZY EVERY TIME THEY CUT FROM A FUTURE SCENE TO A PAST SCENE I GO STUPID IN THE HEAD

lottie: can you fucking kill me

lottie: can you fucking kill me and can i also elect the next girl president

ANTLER QUEEN?

NATALIE?

YOU MAKE ME SICK

YOU MAKE ME SICK THERES NOWAYYYYYYY

NATALIE NO MY SEET SWEETBABYGIRL

HEY

HI

AND HELLO

LISA....

LISA. NO. SURELY NOT.

OH MY GOD

NATALIE YOU ARE SO....

the nattielot stocks are literall crazy the nattielot stocks are literally in turmoil its like a rollercoaster its literally a thrillride they blow your brain right out up and down and round and round til your FUCKING BRAIN COMES OUT YOUR NOSE AS DINNER SURPRISE

travis......................

my god natalie atalie no NA QUEEN CA RD QU

NM

M

M

M

M

M

HI AND HELLO AND HI

SORRY . THATS TISTE DTHIS IS TWISTED THIS IS THE WORST FUCKING THING EVER IM ABSOLUTELY FURIOUS EVERYBODY VETTER FUCKING KILL

STOP PLAYING RADIOHEAD AND SLOWMOING HER FUCKING DEATH IS THERE NO FUCKING DIGNIT

NO THIS IS

YOU ALL.... ARE THE WORST.....

I HATE MY STUPID FUCKING EXISTENCE

ITS NOT EVIL ITS JUST HU

THE NATLOTTIE STOCKS JUST BURST

I FEEL ILL I HATE MY ST- NOT THE DRUG OVERDOSE. COME ON . I JSUT WANT TO FUCKING CRY THIS ALL FUCKING SUCCKS.

walter: um...... >_<

you guys fucking suck sending her there i know i know theres so few options but fu- VAN. PUT THOSE BIG WET EYES AWAY. PUT THAT AWE-INDUCED WET SMILE AWAY. COME ON GIRL. PULL IT TOGETHER

hey shauna

most normal girl in the world

coach ben said FUCK women. WOW. ALRIGHT. i mean it was... RIGHT LIKE HE?

HE SERIOUSLY JUST DECIDED FUCK THESE GIRLS OH MY GOD YES TYHIS IS THE FUCKING ENDING I WANTED

van being the last out vantler queen when?

THIS IS FUCKING NUTS

altrnateively the wilderness being like :/ you didnt need to do that to havi guys....

ANYWAYS GOD WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT

#Egg.txt #YELLOWJACKETS LIVEBLOG

[yanderecrazysie]

U um this may be strange haha, but what do you think about yandere bully oikawa with a slight masochist reader? 🥺👉👈 i just think thatd be hot dynamic

This is such an interesting idea omg- I’ve never written a masochistic character and I am not one myself, so I may get things wrong! I apologize if I do!

I was trying to think of how it would go yandere but I thought like: What if Reader was bullied by other people and is totally into it too and Oikawa’s like “hold up- she’s mine”.

I’m pretty sure this turned out very badly- my writer’s block was hitting me hard and I messed around with this for a long time. I am not good at writing masochism or sadism I don’t think XD I just don’t like pain, so I guess it’s hard for me to put myself in that mindset when writing.

I’m so, so, so sorry for how late, short, and terrible this is. ;-;

Also don’t be embarrassed by your kinks everyone this is just a story adfsfdghfjhhg.

Title: Abashed

Pairings: Oikawa x Reader

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, heavy degradation (but reader is into it), masochist reader, jealousy, physical harm towards the reader, bullying, suggestive content, reader is a little embarrassed by their kink, Oikawa doesn’t take well to competition

Summary: A masochist and a bully- a stereotypical match made in heaven. Only, you’re not about to tell anyone you enjoy it and your bully is a little more possessive over you than he has any right to be.

abashed

/adjective/

embarrassed, disconcerted, or ashamed.

If there’s anyone you should’ve hated in life it was Oikawa Tooru. You should hate him, despise him. You should loathe his existence and avoid him like your life depended on it.

He seemed to be unable to resist the temptation to hurt you. Perhaps he was a sadist or maybe he just wanted someone to take some of his anger out on. His interactions with you ranged from you being referred to as “a slut” to limping away with new bruises stretching across your stomach. Whether he was dumping milk on your head, insulting you, or flat out beating you up, it was obvious that Oikawa should be your least favorite person on the planet.

You should hate him.

But you don’t.

“How does it feel being so utterly helpless and useless?” Oikawa’s voice assaulted your ears from somewhere above. You couldn’t see him with your face pressed so close to the gym floor, his sneaker placed on the back of your skull if only to force you closer to that dirty surface.

Anyone else in your position might be crying or struggling against his cruel torment. They might have fought back or told him off for his behavior. They might have even thrown a punch or two.

But you? It was all you could do to focus on keeping the blood from rushing to your face and the heat from pooling in your gut.

For some reason- a reason you hated with all your heart- you enjoyed being treated this way. Something about being at someone else’s mercy… something about being degraded like you were worth nothing more than a speck of dust…

Well, it turned you on like nothing else.

And while there were plenty of fangirls that wouldn’t mind taking your place and some who would kill to do so, it wasn’t the fact that your tormentor was Oikawa that you were always left a hot and bothered mess in his wake. Although you’d never breathe a word about how much you enjoyed that treatment to anyone.

It was embarrassing- to be treated so badly in front of everyone without fighting back- to be utterly humiliated in front of your classmates- and to enjoy it. To crave it. To almost look forward to seeing that brown-haired bully every goddamn day.

“What? No response? I thought you liked using that big mouth of yours.” Oikawa’s words still reached your ears, even in your hazy state. You wondered what you looked like from his perspective.

For Oikawa, that was an easy answer.

Beautiful.

Your little shocked expression whenever he manhandled you was just so cute to him. The way that you always gaped back at him with a glazed over stare had him shivering in ecstasy.

He wasn’t sure why you reacted the way you did, only that he adored your reactions. Always struck so dumb by just the smallest shove or insult.

Maybe he was a sadist- no, scratch that, he definitely was a sadist. He wanted to see tears pooling in your eyes and hear your pretty little voice begging him to stop.

A part of him knew he should probably be kinder to you. He should court you like a decent human being and treat you like a precious porcelain doll if he wants you to like him.

But he doesn’t want to, so he won’t. He’s never been the type to bow to others so, no matter how much he likes you, he’ll wait for you to give in to him. He’s a patient man and it’s clear to him that you’re breaking.

What else could your blank-eyed stare and little shivers mean?

And, in a way, maybe you were breaking. But it wasn’t that you were falling in love with Oikawa, or anything like that. No, you were giving in to your physical desires and bending to the pleasure that you received from mistreatment.

Oikawa was quick to notice that you didn’t go out of your way to avoid him anymore. His cruelty was paired with a dash of care- his degradation more like some sick sort of twisted praise.

But even with you giving in to his pressure, he wasn’t secure enough to demand or even threaten you to be his. He wanted you completely crushed under his thumb before he’d try to make you sit in the palms of his hands.

It’s everything he wanted in life. You were everything he wanted. Once he had finally broken you, he could have you all to himself to do whatever he’d like with. When he had finished breaking you down, he’d build you back up however he wanted to.

One of his calloused hands carded through your hair as you looked up at him pitifully. As his thumb swiped a droplet of blood from your cheek, inadvertently smearing it on your skin, he couldn’t help but consider himself the luckiest man alive just to be able to be this close to you.

You had always wondered if Oikawa thought he was special to you in some way. You wondered if he thought he was your only bully and that he was the only one that brought you the delicious mix of pain and pleasure every day.

If the expression on his face was anything to go by, you were probably right in guessing that he thought he was the only one to bother you. He seemed completely blown away by what he was seeing, the expression in his eyes broken and horrified.

The position you were in was similar to how he’d had you yesterday, except the main boy’s boot was placed on the small of your back and not your head. His two lackeys held each of your arms at an agonizing angle, one of them tugging occasionally until it felt like the tendons in your left arm would rip.

“What’s going on here?”

He had no right to sound as angry as he did, you thought hazily. He was just as bad, if not worse. The only reason everyone bullied you in the first place was because Oikawa made an example of you.

The pressure on your back lifted suddenly and a grunt of pain sounded from the bully above you. When you looked up, you saw a seething Oikawa landing a second blow to the boy’s jaw, causing him to stagger backwards and trip over the goon on your right arm.

It didn’t take long for the bully’s friends to realize the ever-popular Oikawa wasn’t as pleased by their behavior as they’d expected he’d be and they fled the scene, leaving their leader splayed out on the ground, still receiving harsh punches from the popular athlete above him.

You raise yourself from the ground, slowly and carefully, wincing from the new wounds scattered across your skin. A hand wraps around your bruised forearm and you’re dragged to your feet by force.

The warm hand leaves your arm and moves to slide against your cheek with uncharacteristic gentleness.

“Oikawa….” You aren’t sure what you were meaning to say and you’re in too much shock to figure out the words now.

“Don’t worry, princess,” his chocolate brown eyes were warm and fond for once, “I won’t hurt you. And I’ll make sure no one else does either. Just stay by my side and no one will ever hurt you again, okay?”

He didn’t wait for an answer, intertwining his fingers with yours and tugging you alongside him as he walks away from the scene. You couldn’t hope to slow him down, nearly tripping over your own feet as you hurried to keep pace with his longer legs.

You bit your lip, wondering if, perhaps, you should speak up and ask him to keep mistreating you like you secretly wanted. After all, if you had to be with him, you’d at least like him to give you something in return.

But no, you were too embarrassed to admit that you enjoyed everything he did to you. Maybe one day, if you couldn’t take having him by your side any longer, you’d tell him. Then he’d either give you what you wanted, or you’d make it so awkward that he’d leave you alone.

You probably wouldn’t have to worry about that though.

If that cruel glint in his eyes and sadistic edge to his possessive gaze was any indication, you’d be getting your secret desire without saying a word.

#yandere #yandere oikawa #oikawa tooru #yandere haikyuu #haikyuu!! #yandere one shot #one shot