#and not. like. they're a terrible person !

[bitegore]

Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.

Don't do their work for them.

#red rambles #viva palestina #antizionism #i haven't actually seen a lot of antisemitism personally. not recently anyway. but that's more a feature of me not following antisemites #i DO however see a lot of people talking about the people they're seeing throw their support behind antisemites using palestine #as an excuse to conflate all jews with israel #and i cannot stress enough that that is literally what israel and zionist forces abroad WANT. #i am jewish. my entire family is jewish. i want to see palestine free. and i have SEEN how the jewish community gets conflated with israel #both from the inside and out #and i am dead serious when i say that every time someone is antisemitic it strengthens the conviction from people abroad #that it's a terrible sad situation but there's 'no other choice' #if you're being antisemitic you are doing the enemy's work for them. Stop it. #like... look. i am putting this in the tags bc im talking in the tags but i mean this. I do not give a single flying fuck if you personally #are a giant raging antisemite at the moment. Your personal beliefs are your problem and not mine. I do not fucking care. But if you are #being openly and loudly antisemitic *in your support of palestine* you are absolutely not fucking helping. I am so dead serious right now #if you want to raise awareness and you're being antisemitic because of deep held beliefs or whatever i want you to look around and read the #fucking room. Do you understand how much of Israel's international support comes from the idea that they are the only country where jews ar #safe from antisemitism? do you see how every time palestine comes up people point at incidences of antisemitism in anti-genocide actions to #discredit the entire movement? do you not understand how your actions are cutting the movement down at the knees? #i'm jewish and proud of it. i don't like antisemitism. but there's a genocide on and i'd rather work against it than quibble over who i #work alongside. i dont fucking care. you can be as antisemitic as you like in private. stop fucking the movement up. #there are bigger things to worry about here. if i can put aside my own concerns as to who i'm talking to you can hold your tongue #and fight the good fight instead of handing weapons to the people who are trying to fucking flatten gaza.

[canisalbus]

Sorry but we were speaking about history in a part of one of my classes and when the Vatican came on. I had to draw the sad dog man.

Machete is now immortalized in my class notes. It’s in spanish by the way, which is kind of funnily appropriate considering latin is very close to spanish.

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#augh that's adorable! #“Vaticano” -> -> cue sad dog man #he doesn't seem very happy to be there #I've said this before and I don't really know why #but I keep finding the idea of people drawing little Machetes in post-it notes pieces of scrap paper and class notes #endlessly charming #it's so cute #it sparks joy #thank you! #Spanish and Italian are fairly closely related they're both descended from Latin and I think that's terribly nifty #I'd like to believe Machete speaks or understands Spanish at least passably #mostly due to continued exposure and for having a knack for languages #Spain was an influential superpower in the 16th century and also intensely Catholic so he ends up working with Spaniards on a regular basis #and he strikes me as a kind of person who would like to know what they're saying to each other even if he kept it to himself #not to mention that Spain has an extended history of ruling parts of Italy #the southern half of the country in particular #including the places where he grew up #gift art #nerium-aquifolium #own characters #Machete

[mispatchedgreens]

hello to the other five ppl in here, the premise is 'we got reincarnated and we're inexplicably drawn to each other and we hate each other and we're best friends and we're a weird-atmospheric-dreampop-electronic-house musical duo'

#she who became the sun #the radiant emperor #zhu chongba #general ouyang #i have let's put everyone in a band disease and it's terminal #i have an intense vision in my mind that they're laying down on the carpet parallel to each other feet to head after jamming #and zhu says sth like. do you think we were made to make music together? feels creepy sometimes #also haha esen can be a terrible himbo fuckboy gym bunny in this #apologies for the stupid song names i think im sooo funny #also also yoo every time zhu is described as ugly in the book i was like haha EXACTLY MY TYPE THEN HELLO HANDSOME LESBIAN PERSON #the fender amp almost reading gender is intentional bc no shot is too cheap #my art

[karineverse]

Damn, thinking about how things were last year when I just got here, at this hour of the day we would be talking and posting random doodles and now everyone is silent and I'm too scared to talk. And they probably don't know I noticed that and that I miss it and that I actually blame myself for this even if I did nothing at all.

#karine vents #eh tumblr has just. been less lately. #honestly I wish I could stop thinking about how other's feel and prioritize how I feel and say it out loud to be cared about #idk. and to think I did nothing for this to happen but still I have to pay the fucking price. #cuz I can't talk to you cuz they won't like it and I can't go with you cuz they feel terrible if I do #and I fucking get it and I don't blame you but holy shit why do you make it such a big deal and why don't you want to fucking talk at least #but I know we're all still young and we're all learning #I just wish YOU would know that instead of “they're a bad person I swear” #god fucking damnit #but ye that's all very hypocrite of me cuz I'm as stupid as you irl. just #why

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely- #-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't- #-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me. #my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're- #-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think-- #is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/ #but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/ #listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts) #but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance- #-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course! #but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people. #tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso. #ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

[black-and-yellow]

Stupid doodles I did because I couldn't get them out of my head

#this is what happens when I ask a discord server for drawing ideas an nobody replies #i am left alone with the horrors #mha #bnha #hizashi yamada #present mic #shouta aizawa #eraserhead #feeling a little silly. a little goofy if you will #my problem with aizawa in the latest chapters isnt as much the fact hes mean to mic #but the fact that it's never addressed as a bad thing? #like he's a pretty terrible friend but he's still lauded as this perfect teacher can do no wrong #he's framed as secretly soft and caring #and initially he was #but i feel like his character has been changed over the series and it's not charming anymore #especially in the kurogiri arc where the Only person Shirokumo will call out to is him #this has definitely been said before but #it's like they're not written as a gang anymore it's just Oboro and Shouta #everything that Midnight and Mic are written doing is always for Aizawa #show us why they love him?? dont just tell us he's great #show me he's worth it #mic is purposefully written as hurting over Kayama's death and Aizawa is purposefully written as brushing him off #but he's still framed as this great hero and teacher and guy in general #he feels like he got mary sue'd and i know thats an overused term but #idk i still love aizawa but i feel like the way he's written and framed has changed #but i am also petty when my favourite characters don't get the treatment they deserve #if youre going to flesh out Mic's backstory and give him history and character and emotion #at least let him be a character and not just 'the guy who supports aizawa' #this post was brought to you by Micnight gang #xx love yous

[variousqueerthings]

the nature of being a johnny lawrence fan, is that it is often indistinguishable from being a johnny lawrence hater, and I don't think I have that with any other character. usually I'm very protective of my faves (including in cobra kai, daniel, sam, kreese, and tsilver), but johnny, I very much enjoy reading all the reasons people dislike his character, nodding along like "yeah what an inconsistent mess, you're so right, carmen pls u deserve better narrative to work with, terry silver was telling the truth when he mocked his fatherhood abilities, but alas the writing will never support it"

#johnny lawrence fans 🤝 johnny lawrence haters -- wtf is going on with johnny lawrence's character in s5???????? #johnny lawrence #cobra kai #ck #i can write miles of text about the queercoding of johnny lawrence #and also about how terribly inconsistent the writing for him is due to a sexist notion that he must be a Badass #actually i think johnny lawrence is one of the most interesting case studies of this phenomenon #obvs most famously archetyped by dean winchester -- but i think jlaw is even More That #1. literal 80s character so all these people read him through a particular nostalgia lens #2. in a show that is possibly Thee most trope-filled nostalgia show i have ever seen be that way Accidentally #(riverdale was doing it on purpose -- stranger things... yeah maybe but i think cobra kai is even more on the nose actually) #3. played by quite a sensitive actor actually who deeply cares about the nuance of the character #which appears to be at constant war with the intentions of the narrative he has to appear in #4. and like. the writers Know about the queercoding because they've interacted with fans (nicely actually) #but they have literally no idea what to do with it but ALSO have lampshaded it occasionally #it's... it's fascinating.... #they want so badly for him to win but they're going about it the wrong way -- the narrative continues to be circular/an inward spiral #nothing has changed except for the reactions of other characters #jlaw must remain static because of our nostalgia but also be important to the story somehow #the Tension of it all is personally delicious to me but man is it frustrating as well

[faunandfloraas]

i do find the difference between jpop/kpop showcasing people who didn't necessarily have the most raw talent to begin with openly working hard to become better singers or dancers vs the western, and specifically US obsession with acting like the only real talents are the ones who were "born" with it from day dot interesting.

#this isnt a Ooh western music bad post either by the way #i do just find the way over time its gone from ever really showing any of the hard work a person put in to just pretending it was 100% #natural is very interesting #bc No... even the people with natural talent have to nurture it #whereas seeing someone who was kinda terrible to begin and actively showing them improve and being like This was bc they practiced is nice #although that def seems less of a thing as kpop gets bigger and bigger #ive seen some terrible vids of idols and its like no you put in the money to train them properly good lord #its the same way i always find the obsession with bands in the west forming “naturally” rather than being put together funny #like I get it bc some lil high school friends makin a group and becoming big is very fun and cool #but so often those groups implode and ended up hating each other #a group of musicians getting together bc they're musicians doesn't inherently make them less interesting as a group that formed on their ow

[fromtheseventhhell]

People trying to blame Joe for Sophie's lack of success will always be hilarious since she's been in several movies and series during their relationship, it's just that her stans(?) stopped tuning in after GOT ended. The whole divorce "discourse" was a great example of how Twitter likes don't translate into a career; Joe was playing sold-out stadiums while "team Sophie" genuinely knew nothing about her recent projects and convinced themselves she'd been forced to stop working because of her irrelevance. I would almost feel bad for her if she wasn't a racist zionist

#her plastic surgery curdling so quickly was karma for her being a terrible person #people are treating this new movie like her comeback when she never left sdkdskjsfkjsdfkjsdf #nobody was tuning in to her and it's unlikely that's going to change for some GOT nostalgia bait 😭 #unless people hate Joe so much that they're going to stan and support her out of spite which I doubt #it just blows my mind that her /own/ stans don't know about anything of her projects they really don't like her omg

[merakiui]

azul has that single dad on vacation vibe nailed to a T in that new card and i’m going insane. i will be his wifey so he never again has to be a single dad on vacation

He's literally this:

But it's okay because he makes it look so good. orz I will also be his wifey so that when he has his next vacation trip he won't be alone. <3 anything to make dilf Azul happy hehe!!! >:3c

#twisted chit chat #there's the most terrible itch to write summer smut fics for the cast of the event... #those summer outfits have me in a chokehold #i want to write a silly fic where ace and floyd have a competition to see who can rizz up the most people on their tropical vacation #but floyd takes it too far and it goes from a rizz competition to seeing how many people you can kiss/fuck in a day #and poor riddle doesn't want to lose because the loser has to drink whatever alcoholic beverage of the winner's choice #and everyone assumes riddle will lose so they're all planning to make him drink this huge margarita #that will definitely give him a horrible hangover so he tries to rizz you because you seem nice enough to reject him #but maybe you like his sincere awkwardness hehe #it's a very silly plotless idea but the cast swearing on 'whatever happens on this tropical vacation stays at the tropical vacation' #is a fun mindset that they all agree upon #maybe it's a fic where they celebrate after they've graduated so it's one final trip of silly antics before they all have to focus on life #omg maybe they're drinking and daring each other to do silly things and everyone (except for jack) is dogpiling on riddle with absurd dares #like 'i bet you can't get that person's number' or 'i bet you can't get them to fuck you' T_T leave riddle alone everyone!!!!! #i have too many ideas in my mind orz #i'll stop rambling before these tags become far too long ;;;;;

[canisalbus]

Vasco and Machete are absolutely adorable, your style is so lovely and you draw the softest beds I’ve ever seen in any art ever

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#thank you! #softest beds is a whole new compliment that's so sweet #let me go off on a weird and personal tangent for a minute #I've always found the concept of sleeping very touching somehow #it's this mandatory resting period literally everyone has to plan their life around no one has the power to avoid sleeping #if you neglect it your mind and body start to break down very quickly #sleep is such a neutral state of being no one is particularly sad or happy or evil or good while they're asleep they're just logged off #sleeping feels nice it's rejuvenating it's one of the few universal pleasures every single person has an access to #and I find it terribly cute how people have different little bedtime rituals #socks on socks off various pillow and blanket arrangements certain sounds that make them sleepy etc #and sleeping next to someone is such an act of trust #it's extremely intimate as is sex doesn't necessarily have to factor into it #getting comfortable and going unconscious with someone at the same place at the same time that just touches my heart #especially if you're invited into their bed which is a very private space a person's own little nest where the world can't reach them #even if you fall asleep in public transport there's this vulnerability to it and for the most part people respect the sanctity of sleep #and tend to leave sleeping people alone at least in my limited experience #I like drawing my characters sleeping because it feels like I'm doing them a favor granting them a little respite #anonymous #answered

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[kukurykunapatyku]

Am I my brother's keeper?

[I.D.: Picture of Vinsmoke siblings. In the centre sits Reiju, wearing black headband, pink shirt and black skirt. She keeps three hearts, red, blue and green, close to her chest in crossed arms. She looks down at them with a tired expression.

Behind her is Sanji drawn from waist down, turned away and leaving. He's wearing black pants and brown shoes, his hands tucked in pant's pockets. Near him there's cloud of ciggarette smoke.

In front of her there are Ichiji, Niji and Yonji drawn from chest up. Ichiji is wearing black shirt, Niji light blue shirt, Yonji light green shirt with short sleeves. Yonji and Niji are talking, with Yonji grinning and Niji frowning and gesturing at him with his hand. Ichiji is looking back at Reiju. /End I.D.]

#hey google what to do when you kind of love your brothers but they're terrible people but it's not fully their fault #but you also kind of hate them for doing awful things but that's alright cause you also hate yourself for being complicent in them #and you start to idolise the only brother who's not like this and you want him close cause he's an only good person you know #but the best thing to do is to let him leave #and really it would be better if the rest of you (including you) just died but he wants to save you so you can't do that now #one piece #vinsmoke siblings #vinsmoke family #germa 66 #sanji #reiju #ichiji #niji #yonji #vinsmoke reiju #vinsmoke ichiji #vinsmoke niji #black leg sanji #vinsmoke yonji #katsuart #my stufff #one piece fanart #art #fanart

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I DONT KNOW WHY BUT i was kinda imagining earlier barn having abandonment issues, and constantly feeling the need to ask howdy if hes gonna leave him, and when he gets upset infront of howdy he starts apologising and asking him not to leave ect ☹️‼️

anyway sillies 😋

im not sure what you mean by earlier barn!

#but either way hmmmmm that sorta angst/drama isnt for me i think! #and idk... if barn has issues he strikes me as the type to shove it all down plaster on a smile and act So So Fine And Normal #and also i simply cannot imagine him being in any way insecure when it comes to him and howdy being in a relationship! #its important to me that even if they have other issues #when it comes to each other theyre on the Same Page and like. unbearably healthy lmao #they can talk to each other about anything & they Know It! they're both terribly in love w/ each other and! They Know It! #utmost trust and confidence in each other! stability! understanding! #they look at each other and go 'ah yes. my forever person. but also if he wanted to leave id let him go' #'id be devastated beyond belief but i wouldnt fight him on this' #yk...? #if barnaby was ever fearful that howdy would leave #i think that a) howdy would pick tf up on it & ask whats wrong #b) barnaby would either bite his tongue OR try to (casually) ask howdy about it #rambles from the bog #ah sorry sorry i like misunderstandings but only In Particular Circumstances! and if it Makes Sense for the situation / characters!

[uncanny-tranny]

It's always weird when people are like, "Oh, you being [x minority] made me stop hating/reconsider my bigotry toward [minority]!"

Not only is it weird from the standpoint of "wow, you hated me?" but it's weird to know that you displayed some type of behaviour that proved your humanity to them, and that if you stop displaying that behaviour for any reason, it's possible they'll just slide back into their hatred because they haven't fundamentally challenged why they hated you and your people.

It's fine to grow out of your bigotry, yes, but I'm completely understanding of people being weary of those who are so brazen about how much they hated people like you.

#politics #ask to tag (genuine) #like i've expressed this before and it was like people were assuming i was ungrateful for their growth??? #but it's like... /have/ they outgrown their bigotry if they're almost jovial about just how hateful they were toward minority groups? #i feel like true growth from bigotry is understanding how harmful bigotry is and how you played into that... #...no that doesn't mean groveling about your past and performatively 'apologizing'... #...it means challenging the beliefs you held and learning how to spot them if they try festering back in your mind... #...because groveling isn't the same as growth and neither is pretending like past bigotry is amusing or funny or quirky... #...in my mind both those thought processes still center the 'reformed' bigot and not the people they hurt and held bigoted beliefs about... #...i think both those things are selfish and show (to me) that they may well do still hold those same bigotries but they're hiding them... #...and it will only be a matter of time before that bigotry festers and takes its mask off... #...like that is PRECISELY why bigotry against ~bad people~ is JUST AS BAD as bigotry toward ~good minorities~... #...like transphobia against a trans person who is a terrible excuse for a human is still transphobia. it doesn't matter how bad they are #(just as an example of what i mean)

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER