#and it was so painful honestly

[crystalisopod]

I'm so grateful that my autism has sort of mellowed out as I aged, and that I'm less sensitive sensory-wise. because it's just so... I don't know, embarrassing? to think back on every meltdown.

it's embarrassing because everything hurt so badly, but it's not something I could talk about because it was all just mountains out of molehills. it's like having a breakdown and screaming over a paper cut, it's hard to even talk about without it sounding incredibly silly or making myself sound oversensitive and pathetic.

#personal #actually autistic #one example I'm thinking of right now #is I recall one morning when we were getting ready for school #and my mom was doing hair spray for herself #and she asked if I wanted some #but I never even heard her and she thought she heard me say yes #and I'm normally fine with hairspray #but it was such an unexpected sensation #and it was so painful honestly #like not physically painful but just incredibly distressing #like in that moment nothing else mattered because this was my entire world and that world was pure panic #and I remember spending the next twenty minutes aggressively brushing out my hair #even when my scalp started to hurt I kept frantically trying to get it back to a Normal Texture #and it's such an embarrassing memory because it was literally just a tiny bit of hairspray #and I was CRYING and frantic about it #and my mom couldn't really understand why I was upset. she thought I wanted it anyways #and that's just one scenario of many like it #something tiny would always hurt me so bad. and obviously nobody understood because it was tiny and stupid #it's just my silly cringe childhood where I was a pathetic aggressive crybaby about nothing #and to me it was all incredibly painful and nobody truly understood

[lonesome-dreamsss]

his handprint may be burned into your skin but it's still the gentlest touch you've ever received.

#smth smth destiel #cas was always so gentle with dean #he knew of dean's pain and wanted to ease it!! #he wanted to be a good thing in dean's life!! #when he pulled him from hell it wasn't truly pulling #he cradled dean like he was the most precious thing in the world #and honestly he probably WAS the most precious thing in the world to cas #even as early as then #to quote 'when castiel first laid a hand on you in hell he was lost' #god they make me insane #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #supernatural #does this count as fanfic even if it's one sentence #a poem perhaps #idk it's something that i wrote so i'll take it

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[iooiu]

playing around with future donnie’s design and all i can say for sure is this:

1) lose an arm gain three

2) dies

#my bribe has been fulfilled good bye forever folks #ignore how i my lineart is nonexistence i dont actually know her #tried playing around with thin lines though and honestly its kinda fun #personally i prefer the thick ones but thats just me #anyway #future donnie at your first #his design was so fun but also a PAIN TO DRAW THOSE STUPID ROBOT ARMS #hashtag suffering #its ok he dies real soon so its fine <3 #ft some conceptualizing scenes from tltc #hopefully #rottmnt #tmnt #donatello #future donnie #future michelangelo #mikey #bad future timeline #i love her actually sm bad future my beloved #kk im done

[nohomie]

Character intro:

Sally

Here's what the text says if its unreadable:

"In no less than a day... as if scorched by the sun, the prospherous City of Ambrol was burnt til ashes became air."

Also lore dump below:

So Sally is like an alien in a literal sense, she is a star afterall so she is beyond the sky amd such. She landed on earth when she was young, like think very small and harmless, and was found by some people. Immediately gets taken into Ambrol city and revered as a god. As Sal grew older, her flames grew as well and at some point she could not control it so she accidentally burned her hometown down to the ground. Bummer.

#i changed her design the most honestly #wanted to make sure both her hands amd feet were covered #so like she dpesnt accidentally hurt people when she touches them cuz shes a being made of fire #painful fire #welcome home #welcome home au #welcome home hvh au #hunter vs hunted au #welcome home sally #sally starlight #digital art #my art #nomi arts #sorry this one I had to rush like the text for cuz there really isnt much know about what race she is

[eyeofthenewt1]

chronic pain

#ashton greymoore #critical role fanart #bells hells #gesture drawing #Ashton having real visible cracks coming from his head and chronic pain can actually be something so dear to me #-a person with chronic headaches and migraines who also feels like their skull is a brittle stone being picked at with hammer and chisel #Is Ash gonna become my my new projection blorbo like Caleb was a couple years back? Tune in next time to see.. #Would make sense honestly tho cause trauma was my biggest issue back then and chronic pain is now so.... #annathenewt art #my art #critrole

[theramblingvoid]

Low level/continuous pain tips for writing

Want to avoid the action movie effect and make your character's injuries have realistic lasting impacts? Have a sick character you're using as hurt/comfort fodder? Everyone has tips for how to write Dramatic Intense Agony, but the smaller human details of lasting or low-level discomfort are rarely written in. Here are a few pain mannerisms I like to use as reference:

General

Continuously gritted teeth (may cause headaches or additional jaw pain over time)

Irritability, increased sensitivity to lights, sounds, etc

Repetitive movements (fidgeting, unable to sit still, slight rocking or other habitual movement to self-soothe)

Soft groaning or whimpering, when pain increases or when others aren't around

Heavier breathing, panting, may be deeper or shallower than normal

Moving less quickly, resistant to unnecessary movement

Itching in the case of healing wounds

Subconsciously hunching around the pain (eg. slumped shoulders or bad posture for gut pain)

Using a hand to steady themself when walking past walls, counters, etc (also applies to illness)

Narration-wise: may not notice the pain was there until it's gone because they got so used to it, or may not realize how bad it was until it gets better

May stop mentioning it outright to other people unless they specifically ask or the pain increases

Limb pain

Subtly leaning on surfaces whenever possible to take weight off foot/leg pain

Rubbing sore spots while thinking or resting

Wincing and switching to using other limb frequently (new/forgettable pain) or developed habit of using non dominant limb for tasks (constant/long term pain)

Propping leg up when sitting to reduce inflammation

Holding arm closer to body/moving it less

Moving differently to avoid bending joints (eg. bending at the waist instead of the knees to pick something up)

Nausea/fever/non-pain discomfort

Many of the same things as above (groaning, leaning, differences in movement)

May avoid sudden movements or turning head for nausea

Urge to press up against cold surfaces for fever

Glazed eyes, fixed stare, may take longer to process words or get their attention

Shivering, shaking, loss of fine motor control

If you have any more details that you personally use to bring characters to life in these situations, I'd love to hear them! I'm always looking for ways to make my guys suffer more write people with more realism :)

#voidrambles #writing #whump #does this count as that? whatever those folks will probably enjoy it at any rate #this is honestly mostly for my own reference but i hope it can maybe help some other people too :) #I'm so pulled in by books that write pain in a human and detailed way and not just when it's dramatic or intense #would love to see more of that and incorporate it into my own writing #oh i should have added. distraction seeking to that list #like writing a really long post about. #...yes i may be chronically ill and having a flare today and yes i may be farming myself for writing tips for Future Me hdgfhfhsjs #but hey gotta do your research somewhere babeyyy it all goes in the creativity soup #tw injury #tw illness

[000yul]

you’ve never once done what i wanted you to

#orv spoilers #full book spoilers in these tags btw #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yoohankim #yoo joonghyuk #kim dokja #han sooyoung #im honestly. so obsessed with this trio's dynamic #ever think about how han sooyoung and yoo joonghyuk both express their love in an extremely vitriolic way #THE WAY THEY REFLECT EACH OTHER. SOME PROJECTING GOING ON PERHAPS? #and then theres kdj who cuts himself out of the picture at every opportunity emotionally. jfc #alt caption: damn one to save the other #but thats not quite complete is it #by the end of the book yjh is quite willing to be damned for kdj #and hsy doesn't know what to do with that!!!! #man. #my art #orv fanart #anyway if you got to the end of this i hope you enjoy yjh's snatched waist. a little treat sprinkled within the pain #unrelated complaint why do these three only wear like two colours between them. im TRYING to make a visually interesting picutre ok!!!

[theyaremycrocsyoudonut]

A CRIMINALLY underrated Gallavich scene is the one where Ian is admitted to the mental hospital. Holy fuck. I am not normal about it. Everything was executed to perfection. How Ian didn't sign the form until Mickey gave him a little head nod and Ian realized that this is what's best for him and everyone around him. How Ian said goodbye to everyone else, including Yevgeny, and left Mickey for last because he quite literally couldn't face him due to the guilt. How even then he couldn't get the words out without drowning a wave tears. How Mickey couldn't let him go without a hug, and not just any hug, THE hug, the mother of all hugs. And most importantly that question, THAT GODDAMNED QUESTION. "Can I go in with him?". Mickey didn't care about anything else. The world could be on fire and he wouldn't notice. It gives me chills.

#shameless #gallavich #mickey milkovich #ian gallagher #i honestly think that this scene is not talked about enough #probably because it's so painful to watch that we just don't like to remember it that much #but #literal tears streaming down my face

[bellzsad]

honestly in the movie it’s not the “please, tommy, please” that gets me, it’s the “it’s okay… it’s okay,” from thomas

#no cuz like it’s honestly so sad #the pain in his eyes 😭😭 #tmr #maze runner #the maze runner #newtmas #the death cure #death cure #tmr movie #tmr newt #tmr thomas #tmr tommy #please tommy please #dylmas #dylan obrien #dobrien #dob #thomas sangster #thomas brodie sangster #tbs

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Portrait pains

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#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Alt caption was 'Could the YLLZ Ball?" #Yes; that is a redraw of the 'could jesus ball' art #wwx reaction to the yllz 'charms' is so funny to me #Him going 'UM sorry??? He was a hot babe? What the hell is THIS????' Comes off like he's some fanboy #better yet lwj is *right beside him* #Lwj prob wouldn't have any yllz portraits - no matter how wonderfully painful that image would be #they just aren't accurate enough #Honestly the portraits are such a good diegetic storytelling tool to show us physically how *literally* twisted the image of wwx is #It doesn't hold up to the truth! Its just poorly drawn representations of a deeper and tragic narrative #......hey wait a minute

[socialbunny]

 Skip has always found a way to work through his problems and turn them around with relative ease, but the sudden death of his wife, Brandi, has brought his mostly carefreeness towards his children  to a stand-still. With two freshly traumatized children and a newborn under his belt, can Skip juggle turning his shitty ass life around for his family, or will he crumble under the weight of his past mistakes?

Darleen hasn’t been the same since her husband, Darren, died, though she’d be quick to argue with you if you said anything of the sort. She’s FINE! She misses her husband, undoubtedly, but she’s not going to let that very, very, very tiny thing wreck her whole life, and she’s not going to let people give her grief about ANYTHING. Sure, she got fired from her job a few months back and hasn’t made any strides to find a new one, and she’s losing touch with her son as she goes and squanders all her responsibilities by partying and drinking on par with younger years, aaaaaaaaaaaaand the almost obsessive idealistic crush she’s developed on her neighbor is clouding the second half of her judgment, but she’s bounced back from worse and knows everything’s going to come up Darleen :) …………. hopefully

#POSTING THIS BC IVE HAD IT DONE FOR 2 MONTHS KINDA? i kept feeling uninspired andiffy abt it tho so it just made me not want to finish it #posting this before i change my mind i hate darleens desc but its the only one im rockin with at the same time #ANYWAYS BASE D ON A SEMI AU IDEA IVE BEEN THINKING OF. WTV. DUSITN AN DIRK WOULD ACTUALLY HAVE TO BE YOUNGER FOR THIS AU TO MAKE SENSE. but #idc it just for funsies #common skip and darleen l's tbh #i support my alcoholic delusional wife in these dire times. #💙 #other names for these pics: #pls dont ask skip and darleen where their children r bc they dont kno #the painful ass crick darleens about tohave in her neck when she wakes up #skip doesnt know how to hold a baby apparently and its not bc there was something wrong with how i rigged him nooooooooo #gordon pls leave ppl alone and get a life #in my maxis dev 04 era the way these pics r so lazy #POTRAYING DARLEEN AS A GIRLFAILURE honestly. love fail darleen i need to do it more and show it more. #thats all if u read these tags i think ur in love with me and we should kiss

[skys-archive]

If Max isn't in a wheelchair or some form of mobility aid in st 5 I might commit a violent crime.

We need the representation. We need to see flashbacks of her struggling to learn how to move around again and we need the present of her continuing to struggle but knowing what she's doing now.

We need disabled Max Mayfield

#whatever they do with her she needs to be disabled #if shes paralyzed or cant use her legs or needs forearm crutches to go anywhere i dont care #we need disabled max #also if i remember correctly didnt her eyes like explode #so blind rep too #i might honestly jate the creatoris forever of we dont get disabled max #disability #physical disability #chronic pain #max mayfield #stranger things #chronic illness #paralysis #blind rep

[avidstarling]

Happy anniversary to the Redesign!! Seeing these two's glowup had been part of my falling back into the show! Thought itd be fun to do my spin on them.

#smg4 #smg3 #smg4 fanart #smg3 fanart #avidstarling #no its not smg3s eyes that got me shhhh #drawing them canonically was Painful dont let me do it again #am i gonna rememver to add certain features? prolly not #either way- i honestly like em now #its so fun #i thought of doin meggys and mayb boopkins but- idk #lemme know if yall want em?

[puppyeared]

is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings

#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz #im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the #narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again #if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures #of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV #i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!! #idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea #it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a #curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas #i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too #but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go #id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there #although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3 #..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)... #pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol #my art #myart #my oc #oc #sleight #laikas comet oc #fan character #fur #furry art

[boywifesammy]

i feel like the boys’ representation in “it’s a terrible life” is a really accurate and insightful look into how they work on an Instinctual level.

at first it seems like just a funny bit for dean to be the one dismissing the ghost thing, but dean wesson actually fits perfectly into dean’s personality. i mean, think about it. hunter dean is OBSESSED with the job. he lives breathes and sleeps hunting. he’s proud of who he is and what he does, and he enjoys being a part of something. this episode shows how that’s part of dean’s intrinsic personality. he needs order. structure. discipline.

sam is mischaracterized as ‘the emotional one’, but i think dean’s a lot more of a romantic than him. he likes the idea of a stable life, whether that’s hunting or a cushy corporate job. he wakes up at 6am everyday, has a distinct routine and a circle of friends. he does herbal detoxes and drinks frothy rice milk lattes.

life is a package for him. dean likes fitting in. he doesn’t like breaking status quo. he instinctively looks to blend in, whether that’s in a corporate environment or with his father and other hunters. dean likes the idea of family. connection. he needs people, people who are familiar and trustworthy. he’s very community/family oriented. he’s not a lone wolf.

but sam on the other hand, he’s intrinsically in tune with weird frequencies. he’s strange and he picks up strange things. he cares about people and appreciates connection but he values himself and his gut instinct more. he loves sticking his nose where it doesn’t belong. he doesn’t give a fuck about blending in. he didn’t as a hunter so he sure as hell doesn’t in a goddamn tech support cubicle.

sam straight up tells dean that everything about this feels wrong. and you can TELL that dean feels it as well. sam tells him that he thinks he should be doing more, it’s in his blood, he hates everything about this fake life. but dean deflects. no matter how uncomfortable he seems he pushes it down in favour of predictably and routine. even if deep down, he knows its wrong, it takes him a lot more time than sam to admit it.

this shows that sam is more than ‘hunting bad’ and dean is more than ‘hunting good’. it was never about hunting. sam refuses to turn a blind eye. he WANTS to rebel. it’s his nature. he instinctively looks for things that don’t line up and he calls that out. he doesn’t care about the backlash. dean needs stability. he needs people. he needs to feel like he’s a part of something. it’s why he brushes off that feeling of wrongness so quickly at the beginning of the episode, because he’s willing to overlook some of the bad for the benefits.

it’s just like how hunter dean is willing to defend john, defend the grisly violence of hunting, and convince himself into thinking this is his only choice. sam refuses to do that. he instead latches onto that feeling of otherness and rebels even though it costs him family and familiarity.

#oc #supernatural #spn #spn meta #sam winchester #dean winchester #4x17 it’s a terrible life #sam wesson #dean smith #ok u could argue that sam was getting those visions so he had more evidence of it #but honestly i’m not completely convinced dean wasn’t getting weird vibes too #like he must’ve felt this underlying sense of Wrong the entire time #but he seems so well adjusted and happy in the opening #just shows how good he is at pushing down his negative emotions #really makes u think… how much of his Zeal for hunting is actually excitement #and how much is forced out of necessity #and the most painful part is that i fully believe dean doesn’t even register that he’s doing this #he’s so used to manipulating himself that he doesn’t pick up on it anymore