#and im very emotional abt it

[beebundt]

thinking a little too much abt durge/orin sibling relationship rn. 🩸ft. my durge (briar, they/them)

#not me referencing an arcane quote ‼️ #i love that line from arcane i think abt it all the time. couldn't help but draw some similarities to orin here. im unwell #I HAVEN'T DONE THE ORIN FIGHT YET !!!!!!!!!! but im being emotional abt it even though i HEARD it was lackluster #im rlly enjoying these mspaint doodles lately they're actually so so fun. very nice vacation from csp rn it's so therapeutic #my art #art #illustration #drawing #artists on tumblr #digital art #my ocs #oc #ocs #original character #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #blood cw #blood tw #orin #orin the red #durge #the dark urge #briar

[ink-the-artist]

In concept I like anthro planes bc I look at an airplane and think yeah that’s an animal. So it should be occasionally drawn as such. But in practice the art style and general look of anthro plane art does not appeal to me, and I’m not sure of other ways to depict airplanes as beasts other than anthro plane art, transformers, or those planes from Cars. Sometimes airplanes go past my house especially loudly (I assume they’re flying lower?) and the way it sounds from inside my house with everything vibrating slightly it’s like there’s a fucking beast monster outside. That’s absolutely an animal.

But mostly I just really like this guy

#I am not an airplane person if you start naming specific planes I will not understand you #i just appreciate very big things #I love blimps/airships for this especially #they are like whales in the sky dude #something abt things being so big especially if they are vaguely animal shaped #triggers a specific emotion in me #like im in the presence of something very unnatural to me #like a lesser version of what it feels like to look at a tornado #it’s just so BIG

[beescake]

yea i very much agree with ur take on sollux in his relation to older technology, u get it

please id love if youd share some more of ur analysis on his character (as well as ur art bc that shit is 👌👌👌)

either way, thanks for feeding my brain worms

im glad it resonated!! :') always happy to explore his character, he contains multitudes!!!

i think i may be out of sollux analysis for now, in the sense where i don't have anything new to add that hasn't already been covered in these posts? (please add if there's more...)

why i like sollux (lackadaisicallexicon, 2014)

comprehensive sollux status guide (syblatortue, 2016)

bioware machine (lime-bloods, 2016)

fridgestuck (LaureledEevees, 2017)

mary sue (3d-gla22e2, 2019)

favorite sollux trait (3d-gla22e2, 2020)

doom-bound static (gendertrickster, 2023)

however i will say there's another thing i really like abt him:

his Range!

he has a v flexible face.. even with his neutral expression, you cant help but read a tinge of melancholy/pensiveness to it.

he deters people from getting too comfortable with him by acting crude, but no matter how unapproachable he looks you can't help but wonder if he's ok. seems like he's never content with himself.

just like karkat, anger gives him purpose = something to care about & react to. without it he can appear aimless/uncertain.

it's especially interesting when you compare him to aradia, who despite having endured a lot of shit, ends up enjoying the freedom of expanding her worldview, riding the unpredictable tide of the narrative and observing the changes. sollux... doesn't.

he doesn't like watching major things progress in a way he can't predict. the lack of certainty actually overwhelms him.

and it's pretty clear why; imagine the only reassurance you get after unknowingly killing ur gf is that "it needed to happen". the only way to appease that sort of emotional turmoil is by intellectualizing those events as inevitable and out of your control.

(hs, A6I5)

when you’re just a tool for the author, trying to sit out is just feeble self-preservation until you’re needed again. if you’re not called on stage to help/assist in some way, it feels like your presence spells doom (either you or someone else will get hurt). so you avoid Events as best you can.

#ask #anon #homestuck #sollux captor #2023 #vioart #i love expressive characters eheh my fave emotions to draw are actually anger and incredulity. vry cathartic for me #im also super relieved the prev analysis was received well ngl it was like. splitting my chest open it was . very personal #largely bcs my appreciation of him is weirdly abstract? seems as if i had to come up w sm conceptual meaning just to say i like his vibe #but rlly i was just working backwards frm that conclusion like wow this character looks cool lemme think harder abt why i like it #i may have sounded a bit callous too.. but truly he is 1 of my top 3 faves alongside karkat & aradia. i brain them regularly in rotation

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[shibuiking]

#40k #orikan the diviner #trazyn the infinite #orizyn #adeptus mechanicus #my self insert magos id been wanting to do for a while ahah #so i can keep an eye on mu-15 in universe B) #also fun to translate my usual very fleshy undead sona to smth mechanical #orikan and trazyn r funny for sooooo many reasons but the one i can stop thinking abt is how it Feels like a usual tsundere thing bt #trazyn is both suave and The Rizzler or whatever whilst also being like 'damn who dropped a mountain on orikan' (he did) #damnnn who let that genestealer loose... #why are you both so fucking complicated #then again it might just be his amazing commitment to the bit #sry i keep posting a ton of tags w the 40k stuff i just have shit to say. im loving it so much #the idea of trazyn enjoying ribbing orikan soooo much that Yes hes a little in love but also doesnt want to change how they act @ each other #coz its so fun and stupid and hes actually having fun (an emotion thought totally lost) #holding my head in my hands

[honeyrins]

🎵 I’m searching for truth, for truth, for truth 真実を 🎵🔍

#ace attorney #miles edgeworth #franziska von karma #klavier gavin #simon blackquill #nahyuta sahdmadhi #phoenix wright #im really down bad for the aa prosecutors #noone is surprised #very emotional abt that miles lyric in opening 4 of the anime #phoenix lit his path back to what matters (the truth) and hes dragging all his employees with him or so help him god #drawing made while crying abt the new bts album

[qualityrain]

wow vol 3 cover art huh

#lol if anybody has any hny drawing reqs with significantly lower quality…….my ask box is open………………. #i might draw……or get back to it in two years idk #i spent so much time on the underpainting and for what. shaking tachibana what r the normal colours in vol 3 art w/o the pink and blue ligh #hi! very nornal abt vol 3 cover art! but u knew that already! #the moment theres a volume art where satoko has any positive emotion im gonna cry a river #sorry everytime i look at her in the cover art i have that nothing to smile abt in my life meme in my head #my friend told me to stop posting af 3am but lol. here we r. #firefly wedding #hotaru no yomeiri #my art #doodle #doodles

[automatonwithautonomy]

girl help i accidentally made myself emotional about the eighth house---

fuckkkkk. i mean.

imagine you are born and raised to die. prepared for slaughter in every way, designed to be used and used until there is nothing left. you are nothing but your sword and your honour and a battery. the only thing you have is your word and you cling to it will all the twisted want of someone raised to be no one.

and you meet your necromancer, and he's a scared little kid thats going to kill you. he will murder you, suck you dry and burn all the things that make you a person. the weight of a house rests on his shoulders and his life haunts yours.

he looks at you like your every word is gospel, the writ of the Emperor Himself, and it is the worst thing he could do. he loves you. he loves you in the way an uncle loves a nephew and the way a child-cult-leader loves a scion of his house and the way a necromancer loves a cavalier and he is going to eat you, lyctor or not.

but he gets older and wiser and he pulls the life out of you and he forgets when you seemed the cleverest person he knew. there is something worse. this is worse. you were born and raised to be a battery. but you are no longer a beloved one.

the

only

thing

you

have

left

is

honour.

#hmmmmmmm. hmmm. #colum the eighth filled with ghosts and not much else......... #HE DOES NOT PICK AND CHOOSE HIS DECENCIES. FUCK. #honestly i dont suuuuuper care about silas. be he is interesting #teehee dick joke. it's what tamsyn would want. #ermm anyway sorry for having emotions abt the 8th house on main #gah. #ok i think im better now #very zuko coded of you colum..... #silas octakiseron #colum the eighth #ough bitch doesnt even have a tag he deserves better #the locked tomb #tlt #gideon the ninth

[birdricks]

ok heres this. how i interpreted his fears at least

#rnm spoilers #most of them r said pretty plainly but whatever LOL i love lists #interesting how u can see mortys Main fear of relying on rick right from the start #not sure abt the ‘rick putting them in danger one’ #its in tbat little loop of Rick Fears #which im not quite sure what to make of. so thats the closest i can get #its definitely smth hes doen a lot. so theres that #SCARY IMPLICATIONS of morty having overcome his reliance on rick. or at least his fear of it #like in conquering the hole alone hes realised he doesnt really Need rick. #like maybe one day therell be a time he gets in trouble and rick Wont bail him out. or cant. but hes ok w that now? #hmmmm. intersting. very curious to see where that goes #themost painful one for me is being responsible for ricks sadness #liek thsts so fucking rough. #GETTING PERSONAL…. like i know how it feels to be a kid and feel responsible for the emotions of adults. it sucks balls #itd be interesting to see if All of these fesrs have been conquered or just the reliance one

[m0th--teeth]

actually I have beef with the concept of being mean to harmless people you find weird.

#i see it at work with some of the ladies who seem to struggle with emotional regulation and one who might be on the spectrum/ very bad adhd #i see it in friend groups when one person is singled out to be the Joke or talked shit abt #it's not cute it doesnt make you less weird. ur a fucking loser actually #and it reeks of ingrained abelism. #' he's kinda weird... socially ' oh you mean like a trauma victim or someone aspec? ok 🫠 #stupid rant #actually bpd #actually autistic #last tag bc thats what im on abt im not autistic (officially)

[tibli]

people really act like johndirk murdered their entire family or smth

#homestuck #john egbert #dirk strider #johndirk #dirkjohn #obvs its fine if you dont like it personally #but the amount of VITRIOL i've seen for a ship that is basically harmless is soooooo fucking funny #like oh you're mad? you're mad that the windy boy and the weeaboo boy are holding hands?? that they're kissing??? #that they're having the most homoerotically-charged prank wars known to man??? skill issue tbh #also meat!john needs to come back from the dead and make out sloppy style w ult!dirk. and then kick his ass for being a shithead #tbh tho i prefer like. mostly ignoring hs2 as a whole and choosing to think abt post canon just being like #everyone on earth c finally dealing with all their various emotional issues #and i think dirk and john could actually work rlly well together once their got past their own bullshit #john has a hard time like. understanding people's feelings on anything deeper than surface-level and tends to avoid uncomfortable situation #whereas dirk feels things so strongly and deeply but has problems expressing it in healthy/acceptable ways #john is 'free' to the point that he has unintentionally cut ties w his friends #while trying to deal with the trauma of losing his dad #whereas dirk is grounded but obsessed with keeping everything under control. because control makes things safe #and he had very little safety growing up under the condesce #ok im rambling on what was meant to be a funny post so i'll cut it off there

[mockingmolly]

Goddd and just the gentleness with which vex treats laudna. the immediacy in her desire to help them that all but betrays the sorrow and the guilt at this revelation. the offering up of gold and diamonds and weapons without hesitation to a cause she readily shares. a cause that will not be shaken even as an old haunt makes her presence known. the gentle taking of this ghost into her lap, tracing torn ears cuffed with gold like an attempt to piece back fragile china. a close-up look into lengths of abuse this girl was put through, and all to send a message she’d only ever see from afar. vile, pointless cruelty. 

but the love this world has for laudna is not held by the woman in her head, no matter what she whispers. it is in the blood and sweat and tears of those would stop at nothing to get her back, and the sorrow of helpless strangers who are not so helpless now. past the cruelty of existence there is kindness still, and it fights to win her back. 

#critical role #bells hells #c3e36 #cr liveblogging #cr meta #vox machina #vex'ahlia #cr laudna #sivsi speaks. #hello I am once again proving that I can only write abt laudna apparently #IM JUST VERY EMOTIONAL ALRIGHT #VEXS REACTION GOT TO ME #she cares she cares she cares #no gold no gems no weapons are worth more than the return of something that never should have been taken in the first place #and she will fight alongside the ppl who love her to try and make it right

[b4kuch1n]

tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out) #we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

[friedrocks]

me patiently awaiting the new batch of absolutely heart wrenching slimeriana fics after todays events

#qsmp #heehee hoohoo #yes i enjoy an emotional angsty journey but dont get me wrong #i cant read shit that doesn't end in fluff unless im in a very specific mental state. #anyways i love you all talented gorgeous writers haha <333 #im so unwell about the minecraft goopy guy and one punch man cosplayer #q!slimecicle #q!mariana #slimeriana #girl help im posting abt slimeriana again #fliporiana #qsmp shipping

[mblue-art]

boyf bestfr boy, friend,,

related to this post ig///

.

u dont have to look at this part !! lsdkglfd

it gets p indulgent n kinda,, personal?? iguess? not pushing anyone away if you still want to scroll thru here its mostly ramblethoughts of my simping journey or whatever the heck i turned this whole thing into

hhhhgh here's two doodles i made inbetween the two posts,, maaannnnn,,,

aaaa aa a aa

(iam just putting these here for when future!me looks back on all these posts and go "haha oh wow i used to,, i used to only,, platonically like him when i think about 'me' me interacting w him,, thats,, oh,, huh that was something")

[took me THREE (3) MONTHS (from when i made that doodle on the left)......... and some light nudging and nice & lovely hc/scenarios from friends... to finally wake up one day and realize "oh. oh holy shit? i. i dont feel weird abt this anymore? fr fr? wait shit i-" cue me sitting up in bed and staring at a wall for a long while as thoughts pour in]

(S. SO YEAH. lust sans. 💘💜💙)

(sona lore is theyre still besties but now theyre dating too woooo/////////)

(LN is still a thing- my skelesona (indigo) shipped with a lust (lavender)- theyre SO in love ur honor,, im just kinda flustered abt this new development lmaoaoaoaoaoao it shouldnt be that srs yk i just think its fun and interesting seeing how i feel abt certain characters and try to make something out of that stuff yk;;)

#oh theyre looking at a mirror btw but i didnt bother doing mirror stuff bc egh #(look even the dialogue isnt written ok- they R talking but i only know the Vibe and not their exact words jkgnfnf) #(leav me alon w my contextless stuff hjbfsdbhf) #😳 #um #so a-anyway hhaha/// :):) #underlust!sans #lust!sans #ul!sans #self insert #mblue art #LM #got to think abt stuff again yk- anyway i very much... love my comfort character... (;ú///ù) #also hmm. inconsistent art style lol o(-< #i feel like i expose so much of my emotions through my art/posts lol im beign very;; indulgent;; weghdsjzjsj #this is normal right? ppl do this? kdbcdjsk #jjjust look at him guys ok... gods if u knew how hard i simped when i was working on this... ......... lmao #apparently trying (TRYING!!) to make him look more like og sans undertale-shaped gave me a shot to the simping heart #hes so handsome and kissable im am going to cry and bang my fist on the table for the nth time #(and maybe smooch him LOTS he deserves that for being so nice and sweet and charming an- HSDGFJHDFUCK) #i now associate a song to this bc i looped it the whole time i was working on this #the song didnt have to be so catchy and a bop but it DID #to anyone who has been reading my tags hello hi thanks for reading this far; have yall looped songs for so long like i did

[reineyday]

finished watching netflix atla! i think the hate is unjustified lol like all that hate seems a little too intense for what i think the show missed. it didn't hit all the same notes as the original show, yeah, so i'm not sure it quite succeeds as an adaptation, but as a standalone show it's pretty good. and i might have some gripes with the characterization, but there was love in the casting and in the costumes and the world, and that goes a long way for me.

#even tho the costumes DID look reallt new lol #rei rambles #natla #as a show i'd give it like a 7.5 or 8 out of 10 #as an adaptation... 5? 6? #the pacing was kinda weird and katara could be meaner but she wasnt terrible #sokka having a confirmed Thing with suki undermines the way his *first* girlfriend became the moon but that's also whatever #i actually LOVED the way they gave more to iroh and zuko about lu ten #and i heard ppl were mad abt azula which is like... why? she barely appears???? #as for ozai being more emotional--i GET the gripe i do. really. i just. i am not immune to daniel dae kim okay. #been weak for him since i saw him in hawaii five-o and lost okay #first big asian man crush. only handsome asian man on north american tv for a very long time. #im okay with them humanizing ozai if it means more daniel dae kim ngl #narratively sure yeah it sjpports the zuko's and azula's characters better if he unequivocally sucks #but if they're gonna give him more acting meat i'm not gonna mind in the SLIGHTEST #but anyways yeah they v clearly spotlighted iroh & zuko over some team avatar stuff and i'd be more about it if it wasnt done well #but i actually liked it so i dont mind at all #zuko and iroh were super great