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#and if somebody thinks one of the other boys im curious as to why as well.
mizzmellos · 10 months
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beanghostprincess · 4 months
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I have a rant regarding Usopp in the live action, one thing I noticed (and infuriated me) is the many many new fans that inmediatly "clocked" Usopp as the Straight Character™ and are therefore like "well I don't care about straight characters, so im going to ignore him, teehee" and AHHHH FIRST OF ALL IF YOU KNEW THE BISEXUAL VIBES THIS MAN EXUDES, and I don't even want to blame the Kaya kiss because it was cute and they're lovely together 😭 (tho I also see the pattern of which Character the Fandom decides are Straight™ and therefore ignored...)
But I also feel like maybe the Live Action didnt really give Usopp enough moments to shine, here's hoping for more (San)Usopp moments in the second season, they really underuse him in the first one
Okay, first of all, if you think Usopp is straight you're definitely reading his character wrong because look at him. Just look at him.
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Yeah, no. This guy doesn't care about gender in the slightest.
And people assuming a guy is straight because he,,, Has a girlfriend,,, Wow,,, A bisexual man who kisses a woman,,, Who would've thought that bisexual people could fall in love with anyone,,, As if that wasn't the literal fucking definition of bisexual. And you could also headcanon him as gay or any other sexuality! Why does he have to be the straight character for having a girlfriend in canon? You can do whatever the fuck you want with it. Fuck canon. People make my blood boil. Also, the whole "I don't care about straight characters" thing is something SO common and it makes me so angry because-- First of all, who said he's straight? He's a fictional character, do whatever the fuck you want with him. And second, it's alright to like specifically queer characters because they give you comfort and representation, but instantly ignoring a character just because they are not queer? Uh. Like, I understand, but it gives me the ick. It's just weird. Off-putting. Because there's a thin line between focusing on the characters you think are queer for comfort and reducing them only to their sexuality and ignoring everything that matters in the show. But you know? I don't think that's exactly the issue here and we both know what it is. Like. Between you and me, anon, we both know.
I am white by the way and I'm not used to analyzing black characters in terms of how the fandom views them and stuff, but isn't it quite curious how Usopp is always the ignored character from the East Blue Crew, and he's often used as a comedy relief in OPLA? "He has a girlfriend and he's straight so we don't care abou-" Sanji has flirted with Nami. Visibly. In front of your fucking screen. And you don't say that about him. Or any other character, really. That's just an excuse and we know and everyone knows and you don't have to analyze shit to know this because it's obvious. And if somebody comes at me saying "oh! But it's just because his personality is softer and he's a coward and most people hate that in shonens so he's a boring character" I am going to fucking combust because everyone knows that if Usopp were white EVERYBODY would be calling him a baby boy and a soft boy and a cutie pie and he'd be one of the favorites (cofcof Koby cofcof) (<- I love him too btw but you know what I mean).
That being said, OPLA doesn't even give Usopp enough screen time to be a character because his personality there is used to crack a few jokes and have THE romance in the show. That's it. He's the comedy relief character and the one who gets the girl because Netflix would cancel the show first before not doing any romance. God forbid people read between the lines, oh my God (<- I love Usokaya and everyone knows btw I am not complaining I cried when they kissed. I'm just saying that that's quite literally all he does. But Usokaya my beloved).
His OWN arc in OPLA is stolen by the screentime used for the Marines and Luffy is the one doing the work. They don't let Usopp follow through with what he actually does in the manga and it's very frustrating not being able to see him shine IN HIS OWN ARC. They barely give him any important scenes in comparison to the other characters. It's incredibly infuriating. See? I am now infuriated.
And now a lot of people watching OPLA have said they prefer OPLA Usopp rather than Manga!Anime!Usopp or that the live-action has made them like him better. I don't know what bothers me the most, really. People literally don't care about the characters, they just want them if they're hot. Which, by the way, it's insulting because if you don't find Manga!Anime!Usopp hot ?????? Please, go to the ophthalmologist because I think you need glasses.
I really hope we get more Usopp moments (hehe and Sanuso moments. My beloveds. They got their four cute short scenes in OPLA and I was the happiest person alive) next season because otherwise, I am going to fucking lose it.
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makur0 · 2 years
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I-i see you're making smut stuffs of enstar and I secretly read all of it like the thirsting hoe i am and I love it ur my fav smut writer istg HNGHHH😫
do you accept requests? If you do I'm begging and thirsting for a domNiki x fem!reader NSFW where reader teases him so much because they think that hes a soft guy and wont even try to dominate or go rough but oh how they're so wrong about it~ (he got godly stamina from all the food energy he secretly stored for this) and he filled reader to brim to teach them not judge a book by its cover hngghhh~~~ Im so thirsting for domNiki 🥵
ANYWHOO THANKYOUU IF YOU READ THIS AND CONSIDER TO MAKE IT IF ITS NOT TOO MUCH HAVE A NICE DAY❤
Teasing (Day 28)
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summary — niki hates when you make fun of him, questioning his dominance. when in reality he's a beast when he's on top... [niki shiina x fem! reader]
content warnings — nsfw, mdni. hard! dom! niki, switch! reader, teasing (obv), penetration, doggy style, creampie, breeding(mentioned), degradation, overstimulation, manhandling
author's note — when i first got this request it wasn't intended for kinktober, but it had a really good scenario that i did want to write about so i simply just added it to my kinktober list (@5ugarcan3)
word count — 1059
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YOU THOUGHT NIKI SHIINA WAS A SOFT GUY.
Well, to be completely honest, you thought he was either completely submissive or gay. Who wouldn't, between him and Rinne?
So to say the least you were surprised when you developed a crush on him, and shocked when he was the one to confess to you. Love is weird, ain't it?
At least you had more time to tease the ever-living shit out of him. Commenting on how well he'll be taking a dildo, or being a complete whore over your cunt, or possibly serving you like the good little boy he was. And whenever he would blush furiously and stutter at your bold comments, more and more were you convinced that he indeed was a bottom. Not that you minded, it was pretty cute...
On the other hand, Niki absolutely loathed it. Why on earth did you get the impression that he was nothing but a little toy for pleasure? Why couldn't he be the one to use toys like that? Not only that, but you were so goddamn cocky about it it just made his blood boil.
"Hey, baby," You jumped on the couch he was sitting on, sliding over to him. Niki froze, his hand tightening around his snack as if you were going to steal it.
"..."
"What, no hi for me?" You sighed, leaning against him and pressing a chaste kiss against his ear, smirking as he blushed a bit. "Alright..."
"No, no-" He swallowed, tucking his bar away from your curious eyes. "Hi uh- how was your day?"
"Absolutely terrible without you," you sighed dramatically, flopping over his lap. "I didn't have my little subby boyfriend attached to my hip, so I had to simply tease somebody else."
At that statement the male scowled, his ears still red. "Huh? What do you-?"
"Aw, is my little guy jealous?" You giggled, pawing at his chin. "Afraid that I'll leave you in the dirt?"
"No," He blurted, his blue eyes widening before slouching back at your laugh. "[name], just-"
"Fuck you dumb to make sure I'm yours?" you babbled, tapping his thigh carelessly. "Aw, Niki, you could've just said that earlier, I would have gladly folded you in half already."
That's not-!
"Oho, is this your snack? Don't mind if i do-o?!"
Last straw.
He snatched your hand from grabbing his snack and shoved it into the couch, pressing you into the cushions as he climbed over you with an annoyed gaze. "Niki?"
"For the last fucking time," He cursed, his low tone making your throat dry up. "I'm not a bottom."
"...Then what are you?" You stupidly said, your voice hoarse. "A service dom?"
He dipped his head down to you, your face so close with his that you were mixing breath.
"You're my little bottom."
You opened your mouth, expecting him to kiss you, but instead he snaked down further and pressed his lips against your neck, sucking on it harshly. A surprised groan left you, your hands flying up to his hair and slightly tugging at it.
As he was occupied with your neck his fingers slid into your mouth, you opening wide for him as he muffled your noises. You could feel your sex already heating up, now begging for some relief.
Fortunately god was on your side, because he pulled away from you and flipped you over on the couch, tearing off your pants and undergarments. You tried to look over your shoulder to see him but instead his hand forced your face into the pillow, blocking your sight.
You then felt his warm, leaking cock brush against your ass, and you couldn't help but jerk your hips up in a last, feeble attempt to claim dominance. The attempt that was cruelly laughed at and instead earned a harsh slap to your ass, causing you to shake and moan into the couch pillow.
He gave you little time to get set before he pushed right into you, his cock stretching your insides. After grinding into you, cursing under his breath, he leaned over to hook his hands over your shoulder and fucked into you erratically.
Your eyes blew open, your mouth almost biting the pillow now. You never expected him to be this rough to you, let alone top you. But here you were, moaning like a bitch in heat and Niki completely destroying your cunt.
He tugged at your hair, pulling you away from the pillow as he jaggedly hissed into your ear. "Am I still the fucking bottom now? Yeah? Then what does that make you- fuck- you little whore?"
You could only moan out loudly, your head falling back as he was able to fuck into you deeper, reaching places that you haven't even explored yet. Fuck, this just felt so good...
Spots filled your vision as you came suddenly, a shriek leaving your mouth as you were only forced to arch your back more as Niki quickened his pace on you. Jesus, where was all this stamina coming from? How on earth was Niki, the Niki Shiina that you thought was a simple subby male, making you come so easily?
"Stop moving," He grunted, keeping a bruising grip on your waist. "No- stop it. You're going to take it like the good little slut you are."
A strangled whine left you, but all you could do was, well, take it. Two more mind-numbing orgasms later he finally came into you, his hot load coating your insides. He finally let go of your hair, letting you fall down to the couch shakily, but when he started moving again you closed your thighs, mentally begging for it to stop.
He let you close your thighs but simply flipped you sideways, propping your legs up in order to drill back into you again in the new position with the same vigor he's kept up for roughly twenty minutes now.
"I'm going to make sure you know that you're my slut, not me being yours," He groaned out, carding his fingers through your hair. "God, isn't this funny?" Niki laughed out. "Comical, really... I'm gonna fill you up so well your cunt's gonna be leaking for days. That'll be a good reminder not to mess with me again."
...I can't promise that, love. You don't know how hot this is.
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bonetrousledbones · 10 months
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for the Undertale fandom opinions this might've been said before but I really hate all the sans aus tbh no offense to the people who made them or enjoyed them it's totally cool if you like those things but I really hated how everyone tore sans from undertale to put him on a pedestal to the point where characters that would fit better in the aus are replaced with Sans even though sans is ALREADY THERE??? (For example dream tale. Why are there two sans. Papyrus is RIGHT THERE.) They turned sans into more of an oc/ oc insert and it always upset me I think someone else made a post about it but I cannot find it they were specifically talking about dream tale but this happens in most aus
I FEEL YOU ON DRE/AMTALE SO HARD IT MAKES ME FEEL VIOLENT. actually thinking on it im so curious if that post you were talking about is somebody else i should probably follow or literally my own post lmao but!! GHAGH
im really glad that people could find enjoyment in those kinds of aus and i definitely relate with my 400 papyruses! hell making so many aus of the same damn character is definitely what helped me lean into my love for character design and the intricacies of it, BUT man sometimes the WORLDBUILDING is juist sooo.......sans does not have to be undertale's specialist boy all the time please have like one (1) other character im begging you
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theyluvlyss · 7 months
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just saw that u watched atsv, and I've been wanting to rant to somebody about it for so LONG. Im curious about your thoughts on it tho, mind sharing?
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𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐭𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧...
you've unlocked one of lyssa's mile long tangents. prepare to crumble under my wrath of fangirl-ism. to lie buried beneath the wreckage of my infinite declarations. and to suffocate amongst my many, many convictions /ᐠ○⩊○マ~ !
no, but fr, this may be a lot, so I apologize in advance for the length. however, I'll organize all of my thoughts into cute little sections for you and the others who may read this, if that helps any :).
oh, and short disclaimer, the following is my own opinion. I want to remind y'all not to take whatever I say so seriously/to heart. if you don't like what I have to say/think, then just scroll on and go about your day. no hate needed. and, if you'd like to discuss more in depth, dms are always open (I love to talk😻).
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𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞 :
I give the movie a solid 8.5/10. the only reason it's not a full 9-10/10 is because of two things;
a.) the pacing was crazy, like, it kind of overstimulated me? not in a bad way, exactly, but it definitely made it hard for me to focus while being slung through, like, ten different emotions every ten seconds. so much so, that when the movie ended, I felt nothing💀 (I was mad/hype/in my feels later, ofc) but like... after everythingggg, I felt very numb and needed a second longer than usual to recollect.
b.) everyone needed to take several high dose chill pills. like, am I the only one who feels as though certain character arcs/developments were erased? and that everyone needed to just sit tf down and t a l k fr? idkidk, don't press me✋🏽😃✋🏽.
other than that, solid movie and I'm so, so, excited for the next one, and I can't wait to start writing fanfic and make a spider-sona (or two...or three or four or five💀-).
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𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐬/𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 :
the soundtrack is so fire !! straight heat🔥, not one bad track, just banger after banger fr😻😆. when I give it my second watch (cuz no, I didn't watch it again yesterday like I said, I got busy, it's halloweekend, give me a break lol), I'll definitely list some of my faves from the track.
to be honest, though, I don't know what I expected. of course atsv had some heat. so did the first movie ! so I expect beyond the spider-verse to deliver again.
visuals... they ate down for the most part, I was totally expecting that. I only have one, eensy-weensy little pet peeve, and that's the way gwen's world/coloring is done. personally, it's just not my cup of tea, I didn't really vibe with it, which made it hard for me to enjoy a lot of her home world/dimension scenes. and ofc, it's just my opinion. if you liked it, awesome. I don't expect to start something or like... have the whole artstyle be changed, that's not what I'm saying.
I just wasn't messing with it, and that's totally okay :). everyone else was *💋* perfect, and my faves definitely had to be our miles' (y'know, 1610!miles) dimension, pavitr's, hobie's... okay, so, basically, everyone else's but gwen's (y'all are going to start to notice a theme here, btw🥴💀). but, if anyone has some niche facts or interpretations on why her world was colored as such, I'd love to hear them :).
now onto the good stuff >:3...
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𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 :
I- *crying about him every second of the day*...
poor boy needs a break, bro, like... (minus the spider-duties, ofc) I was deeply/heavily relating to his struggles. having all of these different things running through your mind at once, all things imperative for a good future/outcome. and then the constant stress of worrying about/for all of this different shit. especially the family bits, him just trying to do right by them but also needing s p a c e hit home mad hard😭.
and then, omg, all of these people telling him all of these different things... how he, A TEENAGE BOY, has to make all of these life altering (some life ending) choices for MULTIPLE realities, including his own ?? have the adults in the building (movie) lost they whole entire minds?! anyways, sorry, lemme chill out. this is supposed to be about miles💀.
as usual, I loved him and his personality like, truly resonated with this awkward swag vibe he has going on (and have since the first movie) and I just-...
he's pookie, fr, and I wish the world and the ppl who claim to love him in it so deeply would act like such😭💋. and he was so, so, so real for dissing peter (b. parker) every time he'd try to talk because bro, he was such a snitch, idcidc💀. and then real again for the whole, "everyone keeps tryna tell me how my story is supposed to go. Nah... i'ma do my own thing." line, like yesss king, go off✨️.
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𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐠𝐰𝐞𝐧 :
she-... ouuu...
y'all, I can't express how much this lil' girl got on my nerves. not to say that I don't understand, I do, trust. but it's not an excuse. and oh my days, did she make me cringe like... she gives me sheltered person vibes, which I was gonna say isn't her fault, but it kinda is when she shut herself out from the whole world willingly😭. again, I understand why, but she set herself up doing that. on top of being so stereotypically white?
no offense, but I audibly gasped when she called mr. and mrs. morales by their first names😃. like girl🥴- ! and then this whole, "I like you but actually lol no I don't because I'm lowkey with hobie, but no, I'm not." thing she's doing with miles? either miss girl is terrible at social cues, orrrr😗... she's an ass🤷🏽‍♀️. sorry but that wasn't cute, like if I were miles, I would just have to let gwen go, I mean, she even said it herself;
"in every universe, gwen stacy falls for spider-man... and in every other universe, it…doesn’t end well.”
like girl, if that's what you believe, then quit it with the, "you might have a chance with me but probably not, let's find out." vibes you're radiating, please😭🙏🏽. like, throwing the whole spider-verse off balance because, "i JuSt wAnTeD tO sEe hIm aGaIn x'0 !" when she literally knew and AGREED that she shouldn't have ever gone to see him again in the first place (because it's not like miles knew she had the ability to come see him whenever, so she should've just kept it that way) was such a foul move, bro...
anyway, I'm done dragging her, because on the flip side...
gwen deserved so much better from her father. sure, he came around towards the end, but where was the unconditional love and support that a parent is supposed to give, regardless of anything else? like, I was wholeheartedly shook to my core when gwen told him she was spider-girl, and his response was to arrest her.
sir...?! if it were me, I'd take all my shit from my room and never speak to that man again. like, oh 'ight, that's how you feel? I'm out here essentially doing your job after having to deal with the murder of my best friend (which you blamed me for, mind you !) and you want me in jail? still?? even after finding out I'm your lil' princess baby girl a.k.a. your daughter, bitch ???
sorry, but I'll say it again, my dad would never see me again 'cept when I'm busy being spider-girl on the tv😹. and just in general, poor gwen fr, like, I truly felt it when spider-woman swooped into the scene in the start of the movie, and gwen's immediate response was to go, "can you adopt me?" and like, sure, "sHe wAs jOkInG/bEiNg aWkwArD" but, coming from a girl who wished she'd had better parents...
that was not a joke, she fully meant that shit, you're not changing my mind😹🥴. anyways, all in all, I have very 60/40 feelings about gwen. sixty being my dislike, forty being my like (or, more accurately, understanding of her person regardless of my dislike).
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let's just acknowledge that she's voiced by the queen, ms. issa rae😻 !!! like she ate down, I don't care what anyone has to say. now, onto her actual character, she was so honorable for taking gwen in. like wow, I wish someone would swoop into my life, via sick motorcycle and sweet webs, and snatch me up into a better life🤩. and then further advocating for her (gwen) and her actions throughout the movie, even though it was risky?
she's so amazing (as all spider-people tend to be, harhar, puns). and yes, it was unfortunate when she couldn't do much for gwen upon miguel finding out what had been done and yada-yada, but she did all she could/agreed to/said she would do. She stood on her word, and that's all that matters🤷🏽‍♀️.
honestly, I don't have much on her except for the fact that I remember thinking she was pretty sick, so yeah :).
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um, I don't... dislike him, I guess? but I definitely don't like him, nor am I attracted to him. I kind of don't get/understand that, but to each their own.
b u t... I do wanna say one thing because I hope that once I do say it, I start seeing a bit of a change/more of it...
I've read some miguel fanfiction, both before and after watching the movie. not saying I scoured the depths of tumblr for it or anything, read every last piece of writing on him there is to exist. that's not the case. but, from what I have read, y'all didn't get his character right imo. some aspects, sure, but his whole persona has been completely misconstrued. misinterpreted.
he's not this extra stoic, leader, jason todd-type/esque dude. to me, that man gave awkward and anti-social. I'd even go as far as to say he might've been a little autistic coded, but again, as always, that's just me ✋🏽😗✋🏽. and sure, yes, there was stoic behavior, which comes along with being rather awkward and potentially on the spectrum. and I'm not at all denying that he's a badass, he totally is.
but outside of that, and outside of him being super aggro towards miles, any scene of him was either him keeping to his lonesome unless absolutely necessary. self-isolating (which can be moreso due to trauma/other mental troubles rather than autism), and wanting nothing to do with anything he wasn't comfortable with (and I definitely wanna say he didn't want to be leader of anything/in a position of power, that's just how shit lined up for him, and it's just like... what can you do🤷🏽‍♀️?).
he was consistent with his information, both giving it and explaining deeper. he didn't like to be interrupted while doing so. and there was that one moment where talking to lyla (lila? lyla?¿) where he said something like, "do the explaining thing that do you do."
"what thing?"
"wha-😃? what do you mean, 'what thing?' the information explain-y thingy😐🤨."
and it's not even the only time where him and lila have had this awkward (but cute, ngl) dynamic with each other. anyways, whatever, I could just be talking out of my ass and being contradictory (becauss he is stoic but he isnt but he is-?¿), but-
I need/wanna see more awkward and introverted miguel content, not so much no-nonsense and hella apathetic...
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𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐥𝐢𝐥𝐚 (𝐥𝐲𝐥𝐚?¿) :
someone tell me how to spell her name so I can do her proper justice lol🙏🏽.
but anyways, I like her a lot :D. I mean, I know we barely see her, but just from her fit, voice/lil valley girl accent, and vibes alone...
oh yeah, we'd be besties if we ever met, I just know it. lila is so cool and I hope she plays a bigger role in beyond the spider-verse😻.
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𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐛𝐢𝐞 :
he's so hot and cool and aesthetically pleasing to look at, I just wish I could understand what that nigga was saying🥴💀. no shade, I'm so deeply infatuated with him, I just... that accent is thick as hell, so that's my sign to be sure my next watch has captions on😭.
through context clues, though, I was happy when he sided with miles/supported his journey to do whatever he felt it was best to do. and how he quit being apart of... what was it called, the spider-society? I-... and then at the end when he shows up to help gwen and them help miles. also, hello, the friendship between him and pavitr is so cute, I live for that😭.
also, his suit kicks ass. I thought the spikes and the fact that he fights with a guitar was a very nice touch, and I really dig how when miles was like, "how are you even cooler under the mask?" he's like, "I was this cool the whole time😌.
like okay, periodt, love that for you, king✨️. like shiiii, I believe it🥴😻. also, is it canon that him and gwen were together? or is it a friends with benefits type of deal? who knows, who cares. I don't >:) (I will being writing fanfiction about him).
also, quick headcanon !! I don't know why, but he gives me vibes that he can't stay focused for the life of him. er, like... he can, but to do so, he has to be focused on something completely unrelated. also, hello, he's a spider-person... shooting off un-asked for quips and jokes is kind of part of the spider-package. like, there were so many times where a person (irl or in the movie, doesn't matter) could swear hobie wasn't paying a lick of attention because he's off doing something else, talking about something totally unrelated...
just a completely unserious ass dude, right? wrong. well, not fully. but no, he's paying attention by... not paying attention. does that make sense😃? anyways...
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𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐩𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐭𝐫 :
he's my silly little meow-meow babygirl and I want nothing but the very best for him😆🥺. no but for real, I was on edge watching him try to "do both." save his girlfriend or save her dad (which was apparently a canon event that miles disrupted but he just wanted to helppp😭).
I was so happy when everything went okay, even if it meant that a canon event was fucked with, but stillll...
also, I thought it was so funny how he's "perfect" lmao. he fr achieved that healthy, work-life-spider-man balance. truly peaked😌✨️. also his theme...!! the cultural tune implemented into it !!! what a bop, an absolute jam, a certified banger. I also really vibed with his spider-suit, like, the colors and incorporations clashed so well together, and just the design itself was so...💫sparkly💫, and the way he used his webs??
again, I adored it ! I have no clue what the arm cuffs (??) at the ends of them are called (plz let me know, because I know they're important/cultural, I believe🙏🏽), but once again, beautifully done and amazingly executed. I'm sure people (especially teens and younger) probably went nuts in the theater seeing that, like, y'all... representation matters, I will scream it until my own ears bleed.
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𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐩𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛. (𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐝𝐚𝐲) :
when I tell you miles and I went, "you/he had a baby😃?!" at the exact same time, you would've thought I was in the movie lmao💀.
I don't know, I just wasn't expecting it (even though I probably should have been), but she was the cutest darn thing😻🥺 !! her red hair like mary jane's, but having peter's spider powers was just adorable, and the fact that I saw everyone hold her at least once... my heart... it aches😫♡.
never thought a cartoon would give me baby fever, yet here I am. and it was so special to me how he admitted to miles (even though/while under shitty circumstances) that he was the reason he (peter) even wanted to have her in the first place and made him ready to commit. he wants her to be just like him (miles) and that made me-
😭😭😭♡ plus, him constantly having her with him in the little baby carrier thingy... adorable. like, yes, mj, he did take her on another mission, and she was clearly having the time of her life, lay off😆✨️.
now, on the flipside... peter,,, you're a terrible mentor💀. like, I get he was doing his best, but his best was trash, what can I say🤷🏽‍♀️. just doing miles dirty, snitching and switching sides left and right. I mean, the fact that he only showed up during the "intervention" (more like trap-) just so there was a higher chance at helping miguel to convince miles to let innocent people, plus his own father, d i e? shit move, some mentor/father-type figure you are😒.
also, this next bit should really be in the miguel section (oh well), but... how uncool of him was it to literally set miles up with all of his spider friends and then have them try to convince him, "oh yeah, it's a canon event to let people die, including one of the closest people you have in your life. sorry, that's just how it is, accept it lol." like actually, fuck uncool, shit was totally buckwild and uncouth. on top of the fact that none of them thought to visit him for who knows how long?
yeah... no, get fucked, I hope miles figures out a way to beat the system in the next movie, just out of pure spite🙏🏽.
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𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐞-𝟒𝟐 𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 :
I know he was only there for half a second, but listen... how scary was it, coming to that realization that 1610 miles was in the wrong universe. like dawg, I had chilllsss, I was so nervous for him, like genuinely, the stress sweat was insane😃✋🏽.
y'all said tmi? gotchu. anyways, so yeah, but then immediately when uncle aaron showed up, I just knew, I was like, "oh shit, wait, okay, if he's here, and jefferson is dead..." like I put the pieces together so fast, I figured out e-42 miles was the prowler way quicker than I think I should've🥲✋🏽.
but when that mask came back, my mind wiped, cuz um...
like... I'm not the only person that... reacted... to the accent right? like-
I was shook, but when I was... it was like, "😱...😧...😳...😻" yk? like what buisness did he have sounding like that😃💀. anyways, sorry, I'm done. except I'm not, because my mind now contains sooo many headcannons on just earth-42 in general and then e-42 miles, like ?! and that shouldn't really be a surprise to anyone because I'm a writer I do this, this is what I do, I do this, this is what I do🤷🏽‍♀️<3.
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𝐞𝐱𝐭𝐫𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 :
- loved it when they did the thing... yk...
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lolll that thing. I giggled very loud :).
- spot was nonchalantly terrifying and funny, and I really a d o r e villains like that. just unhinged and doing thier own thing while still proving themselves great threat and standing on buisness? yeah, he was awesome, I have zero nitpicks on him, he was done very well. althoughhhh.... I know I just said I have no nitpicks, but why is his backstory/origin so insignificant😭? like it's kind of lame, but at the same time, kind of... genius? like, I don't hate it, but I definitely wouldn't have come up with it so I guess that's a good thing. original/unique, in this specific case, I'd say🤷🏽‍♀️.
- I wish my mom was like rio. that's it, that's the post, #mommyissues🥲✨️.
- why did they wash out jefferson's character so badly? like, he still had his moments, but outside of that, he was basically just comic relief, which was... a little jarring given how he behaved in the first movie. I definitely feel like he could've been done a little better, but I supposed it wasn't a crazy bad change. like, there was the fact that miles (as spider-man, but still-) still had to tell him to get off of his ass, so it wasn't a complete 180° change or anything. just a noticeable one.
- ben riley had me giggling hard💀🥴✋🏽. emo ass, I loved him😭✨️.
- the live action editing/clips just- shdjfjekgoekkr !!! like how freaking cool, like I was deadass in my room screaming like a lunatic, like, I get it's the spider-verse so it's obvious those shots would be there but IDC LEMME FANGIRL IN MF PEACE !!!
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alright, that's all lol. if there's anything or anyone else I've forgotten to put in any of the different sections, I'll add them. but yeah, those are basically my surface level thoughts🥴. But of course, if anyone wants to go in depth with me, I'm totally open to that, and I hope to be posting headcanons and stuff about them soon (just gotta... set up the masterlist and stuff first😃).
ㅤㅤㅤㅤ...𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐨, 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡... 𝐛𝐲𝐞, 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐞𝐝 !
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twinksintrees · 2 years
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Please tell more about your playlists! I've been listening to some of them and I'm rll curious about why you put certain songs in playlists and ur anlysises on them!
thank you for the ask!! Bc this ended being way longer than I thought it would be, I’m only going to be focusing on one playlist here, but I will write up similar post for most of my other playlists as well. Today we will be focusing on my Glenn Close playlist.
Edit: a link to the playlist has been added below bc I forgot to put that in when I first posted lmao
Analysis under the cut
Carry on my wayward son: this might be one of the simplest to explain, and its because the cast themselves have joked and talked about how this song fits glenn, even going so far as to make the title to one of the most important glenn centric episodes. It has to be on there imo.
Highway to hell: this one is also simple to explain, glenn became a demon and went through his owm highway to hell, as it were. It also fits into his dad rock theme, as does carry on my wayward son.
I miss having sex but at least i dont want to die anymore: i dont have a real reason for this one honestly, i think i heard this song on a random playlist and it made me think of glenn? I think theres a version of glenn in my head that lives as a human and goes back to the human realm as normal with the other dads and this would be from his pov after he grows and gets older and does some healing i guess?? It doesn’t make a lot of sense ik.
Anna sun: this is one of the songs most closely (heh) associated with glenn in my head. This song makes me think of young glenn, fresh after morgan died, being left with a 7 y/o Nick and no idea how to cope with either of their grief. The chorus of “this house is falling apart” sung with more and more intensity makes me envision a scene where its young glenn, standing in a small, lonely apartment holding a tiny nick in his arms as he looks around, no idea what to do without his wife and best friend here to help him. The lyrics “we got no money, but we got heart” make me think of glenn, failing rockstar, determined to make a way for himself and for his son.
Sickly sweet holidays: i found this one on another glenn playlist, and the christmas theme was perfect, but also, the lyrics “im crying every day, i wish that you were here, when christmas comes this time each year” are so heartbreaking applied to him and morgan if its him singing that after shes gone.
Last christmas: it fit the christmas theme and i just liked the jimmy eat world version lmao.
Home: this song. just breaks me. The pain and the heartbreak and the tragedy of losing someone you care so deeply about just is glenn with morgan. The lyrics “and i got mad when they said that you weren't coming back to me, cause i hate hearing the truth” are crushing in this case especially because glenn does hate hearing the truth. He’s the type of person who avoids his problems until they slap him in the face. He does that with his grief, doesnt acknowledge his or his son’s pain, and it isnt good for him. For either of them.
Ghost of york: this song is on the playlist solely because it slaps and because of the lyrics “and from the corner of my eye/i saw you dressed all in white/i saw you pass right by/maybe i had too much wine/you never said goodbye” for me, this song speaks to a sad, depressed glenn mourning his wife and drowning his pain with drink, wishing he just had the chance to say goodbye one more time.
Afraid: “when i wake i'm afraid somebody else might take my place” i mean, this literally happened with him and jodie. The chorus is glenn talking shit about jodie. “It hurts but i wont fight you” is glenn accepting jodie as Nick’s new father.
Pope is a rockstar: i dont care i dont care if the lyrics are ‘pope is a rockstar’ Glenn sang ‘go little rockstar’ to nick when he was young and you can't change my mind.
Never love an anchor: oooohh boy. Oh boy. Pain. let's go. With the first lyrics alone “on some level i think i always understood/that these hands of mine were clumsy not clever/and i tried to do the best that i could/ but try as i might i could not bring myself to hold you” this is a very glenn song. Glenn Close was not meant to be a father, no matter how much he loved his son. In fact, with the next set of lyrics we’ll be looking at “a ship could never really love an anchor/so i did the only thing that i could/and severed the rope that set you sailing from my harbor” they can be tied directly to him making the choice to let nick go at the trial. “There are times when i still wonder about you/you are someone i have loved but never known” glenn still loves nick, but that's not the same nick he raised. He is someone glenn has loved, but never truly known after the swap with jodie. “You’ll never see the reasons i had/for keeping my claws away when they were close enough to hurt you” nick will never really know the choice, the sacrifice glenn made when he called for the switch. He will never know the pain glenn saved him from losing two parents. “I am selfish i am broken i am cruel” represents all of glenns self hatred and negativity. I think at certain points pf the podcast he genuinely believes all of those things about himself. “I am all the things they might have said to you” is glenn being terrified nick will end up exactly like him and so deeply hoping he doesn't.
The light behind your eyes: this song is from glenn’s pov in prison. “If i could be with you tonight/i would sing you to sleep/never let them take the light behind your eyes” the idea of him being able to get out and sing this for his friends around a campfire, or sing this softly to his son one last time keeps him going. “I failed and lost this fight/never fade in the dark/just remember you will always burn as bright” is glenn literally losing the court case and getting sentenced to the prison, he is the one fading in the dark, and the only thing keeping him going is the memory, the brightness, of his friends and of his son. I also think glenn sang this to nick as a lullaby when he was a little kid.
Death as a fetish: this song also represents glenns incredibly negative internal voice. The repetition of “i will never be good enough” is all of his internal thoughts that he will never open up about or share with anyone.
The soccer journals: read for a better explanation below
Hey there delilah: read the post linked below for an explanation. @that-one-queer-punk pointed this one out to me and actually wrote a fic based on it, and I’ve linked it below if you wanna check it out, it’s good shit.
Cold cold man: this for me is young glenn when he and morgan are just starting to get together. He’s very devoted to her and he truly believes “the only bed worth sleeping’s the one right next to you” he can appear to be smooth, suave guy who sleeps around, but he honestly enjoys a monogamous relationship and would never betray her that way.
Therapy: glenn needs therapy. Plain and simple.
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luffythinker · 9 months
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The fact you also dabble in Naruto is a explosion on my heart, I have so many headcanons i wanna tell you about. I always see a lot of Naruto having top scars but my headcanon is Shikamaru is the one with top scars (Cause im a huge ShikaNaru) I wanna incorporate it into my writing but i don't wanna offend anyone cause i don't have a wide knowledge of the subject. So forgive me if i'm being offensive to anyone. I cannot get the idea of in Shikamaru's Genin years he didn't really care about his chest because it wasn't prominent enough to cause him any problems, he could wear his mesh net with just a jacket, no problems. After he became a Chunin he started growing up, his chest started growing too so he used the vest to cover his chest along with a binder. His parents don't mind, his mom would appreciate a girl but if Shikamaru wants to be a boy she's happy no matter what her son is, his dad is down as well, he's proud to have a son. ANYWAY Naruto one day hanging out with him see's him sitting back without his vest watching clouds together or smg, he grows curious and ask him what that is? why's he got a short undershirt thing? Shikamaru just tells him like it is, cause he's got something he doesn't like about himself, Naruto doesn't prey too much on the issue. After the timeskip Shikamaru has gotten top surgery and he's taking hormone therapy, Naruto thought he was doing drugs the first time he saw him do it. Shikamaru laughed when he said this. Later on some more when they are actually in their realationship Naruto, a alley with 0 knowledge of anything involving gender or stuff like that touches Shikamaru's bare when he's allowed to see it ask what those scars are, he's concerned somebody tried to kill him, once again making Shikamaru laugh. Im sorry to ramble on but i love them and i wanna talk about them.
OMG OMG OMG I LITERALLY LOVE SHIKANARU
transmasc shika omg im gonna collapse, i love to think that he was able to transition so peacefully because he had a great support system, his family was good to him and let him decide how he wanted to dress, and after becoming a genin Asuma just accepted when he said he was a boy, no questions asked !!!
I fully believe he had a crush on naruto since they were kids, but yk there was 'the whole village needs to hate him' thing so he never really got to act on it or interact much. Naruto has his own things going on so he is off to save sasuke and training and really doesn't have it on his mind to think about crushes or romance.
Shika gets top surgery as soon as his chest starts to bother him, he starts taking T, he trains, he's living his life, his crush never quite goes away but it's just something that it's there.
When naruto comes back and they see each other again, he notices shika is different, but like u said, he doesn't think much of it, except he feels Things now. Naruto, to me, feels like a character that does something about things, so if he starts feeling different I can't see him pining silently for years, he's just gonna talk and do something about it, so he does.
I don't think he fully realizes what his feelings are until he talks to shikamaru, shika kisses him on the lips and that's when naruto gets what this all means and what he wants.
I also fully believe Naruto is pan, I don't think he would care about gender at all, he likes people and that's about it, but like u said!!!!!! he also doesn't know a thing about gender, hormones, etc so he is very confused when he sees shika using T for the first time. I think it's very lovely that he thinks someone tried to hurt him when he saw the top scars, I can see them sleeping together and naruto just softly tracing it with his hands and telling shikamaru how handsome he is
ok so i may have gotten a bit too excited here but I'm just very passionate about them okay!! please talk to me more, I'm also open to a lot of ships in naruto
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catasthropicblue · 2 years
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About spouse
Like i said, i never overthinked, really. Im not like any other people who said they overthink alot. Im not.
I never felt insecure about myself, except insecure about deen and to religious people. But if we talk about self worthy and else, i dont have any problem.
I could see clear how worthy myself is, without needing anybody to say it.
Maybe thats the reason i dont need a boyfriend, i once said like that to my sister.
But guys, if we talk about future spouse, my heart will questioning alot.
Future spouse, or husband, we named it.
Why didn’t Allah spill my qadr about that? So that I wouldn’t have to be curious and even insecure.
When i look at inspiring people on insta, mainly boys who is ikhwan-like and husband-able, my brain will questioning, “am i worth for somebody like him?”
Of course im not gonna lie, we, akhwat, is sure wanting a good ikhwan for our imaam, for becoming our spouse. And the problem is, THERE ARE NOT MANY OF THEM!!
See, the comparison between good ikhwan and akhwat is like 1:4. Allah is not wrong when He said guys can marry 4 women because.. they’re really not much existing today..
And i just feeling worried, will i have a good imam for me one day? When there are so many shalihah akhwat nowadays?
Im just a piece of dust in the universe compared with them.
When i think about myself, i often think, is there any guy who thinks about me now?
NOT JUST ANY GUY BUT THE SHOLEH ONE!!!
Not just any guy but the one that i admire one, wkwk
My friends said why did im so picky? Just accept his feelings and be free buttt, SORRY. I have high standard brooo
I dont want someone who is carelessly declare his feelings. I need a man who is shalih and pious, and ofcourse dignified with obeying Allah’s rule.
And for that i know, i have to be that one too. I try, try to learn and focus to myself with improving my knowledge. Right now im still trying.
But sometimes, the feeling of curiosity about future spouse is inevitable.
Its a lil bit ngenes but everytime people ask me, when will i get married, i just said pray for me. I hope next year.
Yes, next year.
BUT THE PROBLEM IS I REALLY DONT HAVE ANY CANDIDATES BROOOO PLS😭
Why so ngenesss asksksksksk
But in the end, i know i will never change my principles. I will still and stick to this principle, to never ever having relationship before akad.
Any kind, any kind of relationship even just without statuses. Sorry, im not the type of dumb akhwat who can fall easily of your traps, bro. Sorry.
And sorry, i really dont like a guy who is still trying to get my attention even tho i was clearly showed that i dont like the idea of he liking me. Sorry.
I know maybe i sound confusing but the summary is;
Sabar.. everything has their own time.. including the secret of our spouse :)
Keep calm.. if nobody showed up in your door until next year, how about we search for him ourself with taaruf? Sounds great, doesnt it, myself? :) yea, sounds great.
Keep calm.. you will meet him, he the one for you whom you forever dreamt of, he the one for you whom you forever hope of. The shalih and true one. Just believe on Allah’s qadr. Okay? :)
Ya Allah, i will never change my believe on You. This is just a dump curhat of a 21 old year girl turning 22 this year. I will never lost my faith on You. Thank you for build me up this strong, My Lord. I hope You keep me in hidayah forever🤍 thankyou.
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musicallisto · 2 years
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👒 + matthias helvar (of course 😭) i like playing video games (im playing that new game stray rn!), i get super loud/talkative around my best friends, i also get drained from said hyperactivity So quickly, my main hobby rn is staying up till 3 am for absolutely no reason whatsoever. my favorite color is pink and ive liked the smell of gasoline since i was a wee lad. um. cancer sun, intp (used to be an infp!!!!), i have gotten chaotic evil on the alignment test 4 times and have accepted thats what i am (i am a gremlin at heart 😽) anyways bye ily clara 🫶🏼
no way you're playing stray!! that game is so cute i want it so bad but it's expensive😭
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some headcanons about your dynamic with matthias:
okay but a tangent on modern!matthias for two seconds: VIDEO GAME NIGHTS!
he would not get the concept at first. like, at all. he's probably seen enough violence in his life to not want to take pleasure in a game where you have to kill people.
"but they're fake guards, helvar. it's all make believe." "and? what if they have families?" "they're lines of code-" "what if they have code families??"
so you decide to show him a harmless game like stray and he's not convinced either.
"why in the three hells would i want to play as a cat?" "uhm, you've never wanted to be a cat? do nothing all day and just be an inconvenience? i mean, yeah, thats kinda what you do already" and homeboy is OFFENDED--
but then you tell him, "think of it this way. are you not curious about what trassel does all day? how he sees the world? what it is to be him? that's the power of video games. it's the best way to put yourself into somebody else's shoes."
and even though he still grumbles that it's literally So Pointless, he gets it a bit better with the trassel example.
which by the way! Trassel loves you. So much. You spoil him rotten and give him treats and belly rubs and matthias at first tried to insist he's like, a combat isenulf!! and not some vulgar dog!! but you look him dead in the eye for like 3 seconds and he gives in. he literally spoils him rotten and gives him belly rubs on the daily what is he even ON about
evenings at the crow club!!! delirious. so much fun. drinking games GALORE. he's cocky enough after one pint to challenge you to a drinking game and boy, do you not like to back down from a challenge. you coerce jesper into playing too, but jesper is a lightweight compared to the two of you + you're so keen on outdrinking matthias that you'll stop at nothing, not even cheating, to always be the one giving out the shots.
so jesper has to back away, and he does in mild terror, like O.o houston we might have a problem on our hands
but it leads to careless nights, stumbling drunk to your temporary home in ketterdam, leaning on each other for support and talking one another's ear off (you both get So. Talkative. when night falls and you've had too much to drink, it IS literally funny).
perhaps that's how the first "i love you" is blurted out, in the dead of night, the words forgotten in the morning by both parties, but the feeling remaining just as strong...
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koneko-3 · 1 year
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Chapter 2 of "Light"
I stood frozen, looking at the room containing the unimaginable. Blood was spilled all across the floor with both of them left with no life in their eyes. The only thing I could do was run. Run as fast as I could because they could be looking to get me next. Who? I didn't know. All I knew right now was my life was on the line. I bumped into somebody. I looked at them and there I couldn't believe who it was. It was that boy from earlier. I forgot what his name was already. "Are you okay?" He asked while lending out a hand to help me up. "I'm not even too sure..." "Wait, your that girl that helped me this morning. Ryuka right?" "Yeah..." he was dressed differently than his school uniform. "Im looking for something if your wondering. I don't think you could help in anyway. But why were you running?" I didn't respond but started crying. I couldnt stop myself. I cried so much that I passed out.
I woke up in a place I wasnt familiar with. I was lying in a small bed right next to a nightstand. On top of the night stand was a lamp and a stack of clothing. I got up and tried to investigate the room I was in. I heard a knock on the door. There the boy from earlier came in. "So, I have some news..." I sat on the bed. "Where am i?" I asked. "This is my house. You're in my guest room at the moment. I brought you here since you passed out. You kinda scared me." I stayed quiet. I didn't want to say anything. "So I'm guessing you were running from a crime scene?" "Yeah..." "They were family, werent they?" I nodded. "I'm sorry. You can stay here for as long as you want. But you cant go home right now." He sounded pretty serious. He didn't seem like the same person I've met before. "Why do you want to help me?" "Because, I'm a detective." He said confidently. "I'll leave you be for now but if you need anything my father or me can assist you. Also I put a set of clothing you can use. It was my mother's old clothes." He said pointing at the stack of the clothes on the nightstand. After he left there was one thought in my head. He's actually kinda cute. I liked this side of him. Besides that, I pulled out my phone and called the person I trusted. Tsukuba. I rang but she never picked up. I wanted to cry but I couldn't. I did the only thing I could do. Sleep.
I went to school the next day. Everyone seemed so cheery, meanwhile there was me. I didn't speak in class and Setsuna tried to talk to me but I ignored her. I wanted nothing to do with anyone. Remember his name now. Ryu. I went back to his house and I just sat in the room I was in before. I stared at the wall. I only thought to myself, what would have happened if I stayed or even if I never went to school. I knew I couldn't cry anymore. But I was curious now. Who did this to me? Who hurt me this way and why?
Ryu opened the door. "Your here Harakawa-san, I didnt expect you to be here. But I need you to come with me. I need to ask you questions." He said sternly. Questions? What kind of questions?
At the police station, there where four men. One of them being Ryu. They asked me questions regarding my aunt and gram gram. I answered them to the best of my ability. I wanted to cry. I missed them so much. My only family left, taken away from me. I asked when I would be allowed to go back and the only response I got was, "Eventually." Ryu introduced me to his father that happened to be one of the three other guys. He seemed kind at least. I went back to my temporary home and slept.
I woke the next morning with the text from Tsukuba saying "Hey r u ok?" I didn't respond. She started spam calling my phone but I ignored every single one of them. She sent another message saying "I thought we were gonna hang yesterday. But u never showed." I ignored it. I went to school again today. Setsuna finally got on my nerves as she was annoying me with tapping her nails on my desk. "What do you want?" I asked. "Since yesterday, you haven't seemed like how you were acting on the first day. I wanted to cheer you up!" She shouted. "What's the point... there's nothing you can do." "What's wrong?" Ryu was standing behind us. "I can tell you, just leave her be for now." He said. "Okay?" She said. He told her and she looked at me with shock. I think she understood now. Setsuna left me alone for the rest of the day. I was stopped by Ryu before I could go back to his house. "What do you want?" "I wanted to do something for you." Was he asking me to go on a date or something? That felt weird as he said it but I was curious. "What did you want to do?" I asked. "Follow me." I did as he said. He took me to this dinner. Inside there was two familiar faces. Setsuna and her friend I think was Margie? I sat down at the booth next to Setsuna. All of them were giving me concerning faces like they were worried about me. "Ryuka, I want you to know the three of us are here for you, no matter what happens. We all know about what happened and well..." Setsuna said only to stop. "What she is trying to say is, we want you to be happy. We know right now is tough but if there's anything you want. We'll be here." Margie said with a slight smile on her face. "You know what I want? I want to find that fucker that killed my family!" I said filled with anger. Ryu looked at me. "You know, you can help me with this case." "Really? But i dont-" i was cut off by Ryu. "I know you have no experience with this, but I can teach you." He said full of confidence. Margie and Setsune chimed in, "we're gonna help too!" In that moment I felt really happy, knowing the fact people actually care about me and wanted to help.
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hueningshaped · 2 years
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#apple1stwin???😭😭 amor proving that she's the funniest and cutest person once again!! i am just sososo curious about what their hair will look like this comeback i need information immediately gonna have to apply for a position at hybe😐 for some reason i wouldn't mind hyuka not changing his hair even thoigh platinum blond was literally my favorite hair on him🤨 i can't explain it for some reason it doesn't feel that long ago since he dyed it (maybe i am starting to get attached to his black hair<3) but with taehyun and soobin..... light hair drought💔 i knew about tlc but i've never heard the word vernacular🧍🏻‍♀️so we both learnt something new today😎🫶🏻 now hold up . what do you mean somebody yelled at you😾 why would she yell at you that is so mean!!!!!!!!!! what kind of cruel person could manage to do that :( i am shocked.... flabbergasted........ disrespectfully, i hope she stubs her toe👺 anyways i hope you don't let that get to you!! i'm holding my fingers crossed that you'll get used to it soon and then you'll get your well-deserved employee of the century title😌 the way that all of your cats have the cutest names ever🙁☹️😿😭 i mean the world to you??? you ARE my world beffie😔❤️‍🔥💗 thank you for the rec😭😭 YES i did see forever 1!!!!!! i can't believe the kpop legends came back this promotion period has been so much fun i love them so much although it makes me sad to think about how it will probably take another few years until we see them again after it ends🥹</3 I'M the one who's thankful!!!! talking to you makes me so indescribably happy i'm so very glad you exist and that i got to find out about you☹️🫂💘🫶🏻💗 and since we're already on the topic of happiness: THOSE LINKS!!!! i love how tyun is always humoring gyu and joining him when he's in his energetic mood<3 plus that whole popping star performance is just so . i adore it so much they all seem so genuinely happy in it and i don't even wanna start on how adorable they all are😐 here is the first and the second video i found that had me in shambles because they're both just sooo cute :( also here is a song rec for you too!! i can't even tell you how much i hate recommending music because i overthink it too much but i really wanted to give you one back so i hope you'll like it if you don't know it already🫂🫂
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this is us hehe ♡(っ*’ᵕ’)’ᵕ’*c)♡ but pleaseee that’s all u !!! you’re the funniest and the sweetest 😖😣 that’s so funny bc the other day i was watching a talk x today and thought about how it must be nice working there even if ur just a janitor or u work in the cafeteria bc im sure the pay is good or at least it’s clean haha but anyway hehe i wonder if anyone of them will do something DRASTIC like randomly long hair or super short idk soobin’s hair has been pretty short these few cbs idk but ah we’ll see im excited but im also thinking ‘haha i can wait,,, if it means the boys get rest and stuff’ 😵‍💫 and ahh yeah she was very upset with me and becoming a bit hostile but it’s fine ~ every now and again we all come across someone a bit mean or rude 😋 apple my hero 😿💞 at least you’d stick up for me, talk about a real oneeeee ☝️☝️ omg not the employee of the century title 😭 that could never be meee haha i get so anxious bc im scared of making mistakes and being a burden and needing/asking for help ugh it’s just gonna take time for me to get used to it UGH 😔im talking soooooooo much about myself is there anything new with u ☹️☹️ please do tell 😿 or if u don’t want to that’s okay too hehe awww my cats say thank u 💞 waiitttjtjgj YOU are MY universe 🥺💓💓oh god yea these forever 1 promotions are going to be our scraps for the next few years but im still thankful they even dropped an album 🥺 i haven’t listened to all the songs yet im a fraud 💔 HEY BUT NEW TWICE CB!!!!! IM EXCITED!!!! are u ? 🙀 i’m so happy you are here and you exist and we talk and it has made my days all the better 🥹🫂💟❤️ you’re the best and don’t ever forget it!!!! i love how much energy beomgyu has like honestly if we could convert his energy and love to power or something it could power up a car or rocket and take us to the moon he’s so dear ❤️‍🔥 and txt so cute… especially in that vid but i feel biased since it’s my fav song hehe OMG YOUR LINKS !!!1!1!1!!:$/ oh my … god… that is so cute that is so them too 💔💔💔🫂 soobin so big hehe and yeonjun so cute and so… cute 😖 and AHHH THE PENGUIN’S MIMICKING is so cute it became tiny huening!!! 🥹 these videos made my day, my week, MY LIFE 🗣 and the song are u kidding me ?! i freaking love it!!!!! wake up babe new hyper fixation just dropped 🙀 im so thankful u gave me this rec 🥺 especially so since u recommended it ~ pls i love anything u give 💞 thank you always ☹️ ive been so busy with school and work ugh sorry im getting so bad again i just have this strange mentality where i have to do clear my schedule and things out of the way in order to respond to those i love it makes no sense and causes me issues 😣😿 but i digress….. hehe….. i hope you’re well and happy and safe and healthy always 🫶‼️ here’s a video i think you’ll enjoy hehe it’s so cute + this tiktok bc why not hehe anyway I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH !!! 💓 + ps thank u so muchjfjrjfjsj for the yeonjuniez ☹️
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fleogecorpse · 2 years
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hi?? can i have hc on toby and romantic hc on eyesless jack pls?
his is my first time writing a request so…. im sorry if i do it wrong ><
Platonic! Ticci Toby x Reader x Romantic! Eyeless Jack Headcanons
a/n: no, no! it's fine dear!! i was a bit confused on what you meant for toby so i just made it platonic~
Toby-
You and him were actually friends since middle school, with his dad being an arsehole and his mum being a bit neglectful he couldn't find anyone else to trust except his sister. Not to mention people bullying him for his tourettes.
But that was until he met you.. You didn't judge him for it, sure you asked a few questions but it was never in a bad way, you were genuinely curious.
The more you talked the more he was happy to say he had two siblings if somebody asked him.
Lyra was incredibly happy to know her younger twin had a friend, you were in a few of her classes so she was able to trust you with her brother.
You didn't actually become a slave to Slenderman no, no.
Our ticking boy actually convinced you to come with him and surprisingly, the tall white monster allowed you to be with him since he could easily kill both of you if you tried anything.
Now, he loves it when/if you massage his scalp, his hair is insanely fluffy and it feels so relaxing and comfy whenever you run your fingers through his brown curls.
He's able to trust you with anything, because he forgot about his family and his past (except for you) he believes you're the only one he was able to trust which is why he tells you everything and actually lets his guard down.
He loves you okay? You're like his sibling so he'd obviously be very protective since he lives in a woods with serial killers and monsters.
No matter what happens, you both will always be there for eachother <3
Eyeless Jack-
Now this, is where it gets a bit weird.
You actually met him in the woods through Seedeater, inside a large cave.
Toby allowed you to walk alone but gave you a switchblade, pistol, and a hammer to protect yourself with.
They were gonna go out to get some kidneys until they saw you. Of course, you didn't trust eachother one bit then you realised that he was actually one of the operator's slaves.
So you two usually see eachother after you convinced your bestfriend to allow you to go alone, Toby being reluctant about it but didn't want to isolate and break you.
The more you and the creature talked the closer and more trusting you both got.
Eventually you found out his name was Eyeless Jack, EJ for short. You knew about his cannibalism but didn't mind since you're 'brother' and his friends were murderers.
Though, a few more months past and he started feeling different about you.
He didn't really think of you as a friend, more of a close aquaintance.
Now it changed, he started thinking of you as a possible mate but was scared that you didn't feel the same and he and Seedeater would go crazy on you if you rejected.
But once you admitted you felt the same way he was over the moon!
Your 'brother' though...
He was furious but didn't dare show it since it was YOUR choice of who you liked or loved, not his.
That didn't stop him from having little to no trust on the demon but once he saw that he was more loving to you alone than when you were with even one person (after he stalked you both)
His mind changed ever so slightly.
He was still very protective but put a little bit more faith in Jack.
In the end, you have two good boys wrapped around your finger, three of you willing to die for the other.
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keisukeenthusiast · 3 years
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I LIKE YOU, BUT YOU LOVE HIM. Characters: baji keisuke, chifuyu matsuno, y/n (self insert) Mention: love triangle, character de@th, just bunch of dumb teenagers in love. Warning ⚠️: mention of character de@th
-------------------------------------------------- On morning monday, "good morning chifuyu!!" said you greeting him with a smile plastered on your face. "good morning y/n", just by seeing your smiling happy face can make his day two times better than it should be. Chifuyu matsuno, the boy who is so in love with you. "Bajiiiii good morningggg!! did you get a good sleep last night!?" your eyes full of light and loving gaze when you talk to baji and chifuyu noticed it. "well no shit, i was so happy that i can finally complete my math tasks. very proud of myself " baji replied with shit eating grin. Its been 2 years since you has a feeling towards baji. You and baji are childhood friends that mikey introduced the two of you to each other when in his granpa dojo classes. You can't help but fall for baji, he's not only loyal, but also his chaotic persona that makes him glowing and attractive to you. Can't ignored the fact chifuyu also admired and adored baji like baji are some kind of 'hero' to him. But the idea of you liking baji instead of him makes him feel sick and jealous, chifuyu understand why you fall for baji instead of falling for him but- "why baji-san??" *three years later* Chifuyu feelings for you still the same as ever, never changed. And yet here you are happily in relationship with baji. Chifuyu stares at your direction from afar admiring how cute your face was when you smiling like a little kid when baji crack telling some dumb jokes. He's wishing that instead of baji, he's the one who should make you smiling like that NOT baji. He wish that he is the one who should've stay by your side and calling you 'his'. You began to noticed chifuyu's gaze towards you. "Chifuyu!! come here! join us!!" you shouted, "No thank you y/n! , just enjoy your time with baji-san!!" he shouted back. "What's wrong with chifuyu today? why he suddenly doesn't wanna to joined us? its not like we're on a date or sum!?" baji murmurs enough for you to hear. Chifuyu put a fake smile on his face before his back facing the two of you and baji. (The day when "bloody Halloween" incident happen) *at your house* "Peyoung date tonight??" baji grinning on his face just to make sure that nothin seems off to you knowing bad things would happen to himself and alot of people involved with the gangs fight tonight. He knows bad things going to happen tonight so why would he still keeping it going?? maybe he's doing this for his bestfriends sake? but he promised not to leave you right?? ofc he's not going to leave you, baji always keep his words. "yeah sure! but promise me you going back early tonight okay!?" you pout. Baji smiles but this smile seems different from the other smiles he ever shows you. This smiles full of genuine, worried, regret. But his face still shining bright, the face you've always loved. so it should be okay right?? "Well i can't promise you that.. but listen y/n, whatever will happening tonight just remember that i've always loved you. So, if anything happens to me.. chifuyu will be there for yo-" you cut him off. "What are you talking about keisuke? what are you trying to say? huh??" You can't help but worried and curious of what he's trying to tell you. "Ohhhh look at that faceee!! you worried?? I was just joking dumbass! nothin will ever happen to me ya know!? Im keisuke baji after all !" baji IS trying to change the subject. "see ya later, i love you" Didn't know that was his last words talking to you, EVER. *six hours later* You heard a knock from your front door. Excitedly you opened the door thinking that was your boyfriend keisuke baji making his promises come true but- Chifuyu?? 'What is chifuyu doing here? Where's baji??' "what's up chifuyu? you bleeding pretty bad.. where is baji??" "where is baji??" "where is baji??" "where is baji??" Those three words keep replaying in his head. Chifuyu doesn't dare to look at you in the eyes. All this time his head only looking at the floor. "H-his last words was 'y/n' " chifuyu finally speak. However you still dead confused what
is he talking about so you invited him into your house. You know, you know something bad happened, but it doesn't involved baji right?? "Baji-san.. baji-san died in the middle of a fight.." 'Baji... died????' 'WHAT' You feel numb. you doesn't know how to react. All you can do is crying over the fact Baji is already dead. *2 weeks after baji's death* You sits infront of baji's grave, still can't accept the fact baji is really leaving you. And here you are, pathetically crying infront of his grave. "y/n look! look at that kitty~ so cute! How about we adopt him? he can be our child!" baji grin. Now its all just a memories that you will never forget and cherished about. You finally smiled, you smile because you know baji hates to see you cry and if he see you in this state right now he will mad at himself because he thought he is the reason why you cry. Baji has always been like that. That's why you love him the most. After you wipes all of your tears, you turns your head to see Chifuyu standing there already looking at you. "Y/n i need to talk to you, pls follow me" You followed him without thinking back. "Y/n, im sure baji-san wanted you to move on and live your life as before without him.. baji-san told me before that if something ever happened to him, im the one who should be taking care of you. Baji-san really loves you y/n.. so he wanted the best for you " Said chifuyu. "So, what do you meant by all of that?" You eager to know. "I like you y/n. i liked you from the first time I've met you. So i wanted to take care of you and make you happy.." the boy said again. "Really?? after only two weeks of baji's death?? Where's the respect? and if you think im going to say 'yes' then you're wrong.. i would never love somebody else other than baji himself. Did you know how much hurt my heart still?? what do you even know? have you ever lost your lover!?--" "I KNOW GODDAMMIT!!! I KNOW YOU STILL LOVES BAJI-SAN! I KNOW ALL OF THAT! BUT HOW ABOUT ME???... i respect and adored baji-san more than you think, but that doesn't matter right now.. i wanted to make you happy just like how baji san told me to, and i think this is the right time for me to finally confessed to you about my feelings toward you! pls be MINE". "right time??? are you fucking serious???! this is the right time!?!? don't make me laugh! why the fuck would you think this is the right time?? funny how you have betrayed your own bestfriend, Chifuyu. I'm so sorry but, never once in my life I've seen you as the person i will fell in love with.. i only see you as my friends! only friend Chifuyu!! I can't.. I'm sorry". Day started to raining as you leaving Chifuyu alone.. with his shattered heart. How could you did this to him?? But its for good right? better than if you're in relationship with him but your heart and your mind still has baji that's NOT fair.. Your figure became smaller and smaller while chifuyu staring at it with his teary eyes. And that is the day you,baji, and chifuyu never see each other again..
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mokutone · 3 years
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sorry if this is random but i was just curious about your thoughts on sai? i know you have a lot of thoughts on yamato fhdjdlfn and his and yamato’s relationship always seemed so interesting and really underdeveloped :[ theyre both really similar but yamato was able to get out of ROOT before sai was, and i was just wondering if you had any thoughts on that/him to share. sorry if this is weird or out of the blue djshfkfj love your art!!
that's not weird at all!!! actually the day u sent this question in i had finalized the thumbnails (and started on the pencils!) for a comic wherein Yamato comments on how Sai is handling his transition out of ROOT differently than Yamato himself did! I don't want to lay all my thoughts on that out here, because I think i'm much more clumsy with textposts than with comics, but I appreciate the question and I will share some thoughts!
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under a readmore tho bc. this got Long...comics force me to be concise but w/ a keyboard under my hands i just chatter
here's something I've been thinking abt! I think they had fundamentally different experiences in ROOT, and this is reflected in their attitudes towards Danzō, as well as the way they interact with the people outside of ROOT.
Sai seems to have no real loyalty to Danzō. He does what Danzō says because Danzō gives him his orders, when he practices his fake smile in front of Danzō, Danzō immediately tells him to cut that shit out. I don't think there's a lot of love lost there—when team Kakashi catches up to him in orochimaru's hideout, and they kind of confront him, and. also kind of. "give him the option" of abandoning his mission (and ROOT along with it) or. you know. facing shinobi consequences. he doesn't really seem to think much of it? honestly. i imagine he was probably a little more relieved than anything else. Add to that him remembering how he wanted to finish the drawing of his brother—
actually wait hang on thats another point I want to talk about. Sai was pitted against the person he was closest to in order to traumatize him into numbness! wack! I think that's kind of at the root (help.) of why I see him as a fundamentally angrier character than I see Yamato—and why I interpret some of his behavior not just as Not Knowing How People Work (although he does have trouble with this! it's a very different vibe. like. him trying to comfort Naruto and Naruto thinking Sai was coming onto him was an entirely different kind of situation) but as like. intentionally inflammatory sometimes...like. he's insulted the bodies of most of the people around him in one way or another, he knows it pisses them off, he does keep doing it. I think him Causing Problems On Purpose is sometimes just a way for him to try and experience catharsis for a fury he doesn't really know he's repressing. Like. idk. it's one thing to be forced to hurt yourself, that's deeply upsetting, disembodying, traumatizing, but it's another to be forced into a situation where you're to hurt somebody you love (regardless of the outcome) like. idk. its a kind of powerlessness that hits different at least ime, and frustration and resentment are extremely normal reactions to a situation like that. i think. a number of things could be appealing to him abt trying to get others to get angry at him—whether it's Him being the one to Cause another persons anger (which could confer a kind of. feeling of control) or him seeing himself reflected in their anger (like a "boy howdy i recognize this emotion. it's very clear. very understandable") or even seeing how they handle the anger. kishimoto definitely doesn't care nearly as much about Sai's anger. but i found the implication of it compelling as a kid, and I find it more compelling as an adult! anger can be an incredibly healing and protective force sometimes when dealing w/ trauma...and I wish kishimoto knew what he was writing about or that we got to see it explored more!!! ack!
yamato (as kinoe) had a wildly different experience when he was in ROOT.
we know he knew how to fight against sharingan, which. I think implies he was training in combat with Danzō, or that he worked closely with Danzō, or at the very least that Danzō used his sharingan on him. We also saw that (unlike Sai, who was rebuked for even fake-smiling) that Kinoe (at first) was not told to feel nothing, but instead instructed on how to feel by Danzō specifically. Like, mostly telling him to Feel Grateful etc, but I think him being told to experience specific feelings according to what Danzō thought was appropriate would lead to a different relationship with his emotions than Sai, who was told explicitly to repress them all at all times, and to not even attempt to preform them.
He also like. Thought. Highly. of Danzō, not just as a leader but as a person...it's kind of undeniable that Kinoe saw him as right, was willing to brand his own feelings and intuition wrong if it crossed Danzō's, openly sought Danzō's approval, when he fails his mission to secure Kakashi's eye, his reaction is. essentially immediately to return himself to Danzō to face whatever new dehumanization Danzō's got for him— even when Kakashi and Hiruzen drag him out of there he thanks Danzō for everything, and he seems genuine about it, despite. everything. He's more expressive than Sai for sure, He had like. a moment of anger, when he said that he wanted to be Tenzō, and Danzō denied him that basic self identification...but it's quickly squashed. Messy. Messy. I think. I think he has a little more trouble getting in touch w/ his anger than Sai bc of his emotional closeness to Danzō.
i think. because yamato knows that he was something more like Danzō's favorite, and that conveyed a vastly different experience than Sai's, he might feel a little complicated about being like "So...ROOT trauma, huh? Hell of a thing!" but. i also like to think that he's very quietly kind of trying to observe and support in a way which mostly allows Sai to figure himself out—I think when they are older they would probably talk about it more (also because then their tongue-seals will have finally disappeared. Thanks sasuke!), once Sai has close friends in the village and everything
Just a lot of like. "I have friendships down. I have teammates down, easily—but what am I to the old woman I buy my cabbages from. What degree of friendliness do I exhibit to her."
"I think...whatever you're comfortable with is fine. I know neither of us had particularly normal upbringings, but you don't have to execute every interaction perfectly for people to care about and respect you."
anyway god this is so long and soooo based in my own personal HCs. I hope there was something in here that was interesting to you!
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gabriellaleen · 2 years
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The goo jit zu's/wilder's siblings(Part 33)
Inaaya was peacefully in her room until she saw a gift next to her, she got up and saw a little paper on it and it was from Mia, "Mia give me a gift?" Inaaya thought, she started to opened it and inside was a flower crown that were daisy's, she tried it on, "It looks...nice." Inaaya said while looking at the mirror until Maddie just came, "You got one too?" Maddie said, "Yeah and you also got that from Mia?" Inaaya said, "Yeah." Maddie said, "She gave me a white rose crown." Maddie said, "Oh okay." Inaaya said, "I heard Mia and Grim was also giving some flower or rose crowns to the others." Maddie said, "And I also heard that Mia was saying something in her room." Maddie said, "What did she say?" Inaaya said, Maddie explained it(I literally forgot the sentence from Part 32 ;-;) "So someone is gonna take to her dream place some day." Inaaya said, "Yeah, also I saw her holding a note and she closed it and was holding it in her hands and I couldn't even grab it from her." Maddie said, "Why?" Inaaya said, "She nows someone can grab it from her and she will give them a death glare for not them to touch it." Maddie said, "And I was curious who that note is from somebody that always help her a lot." Maddie said, "Well, she always get help from Grim and her classmate." Maddie said, "I think it was from Grim because he's been acting on Mia." Inaaya said, "Im kinda sure also." Maddie said, "Btw I have to go." Maddie said, "Oh okay, well bye." Inaaya said, "Bye." Maddie said as she went through the wall. The next morning, Inaaya woke up and still had her daisy crown on her and got up from her bed and went to the living room, she saw some others were wearing a flower and rose crown on them, "Woah, some of them are wearing it." Inaaya said, "Morning Inaaya!" Rina said and went up to her, "Oh, you also got a daisy crown from Mia?" Rina said, "Yeah." Inaaya said, "Mia!" Inaaya said, no respond but Bri spoke, "Oh, she's with Marie at the Flower Garden." Bri said, "Oh okay." Inaaya said, she went to a room where she saw Grim and Tygon talking, Inaaya was gonna hear them talking, "So, you think she will say yes?" Grim said, "Dude, I'm sure she will that you'll take her to her dream place on valentines day." Tygon said, "But she keeps saying no when I made a choice for her." Grim said, "I know bud, but I know you can do it, she'll trust you." Tygon said, "And since when did you have been close to Mia?" Tygon said, "Like when we met each other and we talked, that's when I was close to her, man I wish she could say yes and I feel I want to pray for it🙏" Grim said, "Your already praying." Tygon said, "I know, I'm just curious if she's close to me also." Grim said, "But she kinda hates you that you keep annoying and acting obsessed-" Tygon got interrupted, "Boi shut up." Grim said, "Nah." Tygon, "I know she kinda hates me, but some day she'll be fine with me." Grim said, "I gotta go and have a nice dreaming about Mia." Tygon said as he walked away, "Shut up." Grim said, he blushed a little, "Geez your sometimes annoying also." Grim said, "And always acting-" Tygon was gonna finish his sentence but Grim got pissed off of him, "You little-" Grim was about to get pissed off but Inaaya just came, "Grim, calmed down, don't get pissed off from him." Inaaya said.
To be continue
(@inaaya , you can do part 34 if you want too and I know you will do it at weekends or sometimes on Monday or Tuesday or Wednesday or Thursday or Friday)
Grim praying:
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can we get any sort of hc for frankie & baby bat, i love the headcanons that you have for them🥵🥵🥵
YES YES YOU CAN MY LOVE
HEHEHEHE ive been thinking about babybat and frankie literally all day i was hoping somebody would say something and you HEARD ME I LOVE YOU
It’s 12:30 am so if these are messy and bad i apologize i just got way too excited akskks. 
Some tags: @captainsamwlsn @goldafterglow @thesadvampire @cinewhore @thirstworldproblemss @justanotherblonde23 @lilkermit14 @buckysalefty @qveenbvtch @clydesducktape @themarcusmoreno if i missed anybody else who wanted to be tagged in bb content please let me know! It’s late so my brain and working as hard as she should 
Content warning: foul language, talk of insomnia and PTSD, allusions to sex, camwork, light angst(?) 
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Frankie makes sure to give you honest good compliments. 
Of course he’s not gonna pretend he doesn't say the usual porn dude stuff of “I want to cum on your tits” but he’ll also make comments of how lovely your smile is and how pretty you look in the fluffy robe wrapped around your figure at the beginning of each show. 
Sometimes he’ll ask how your day was. 
These little comments feel insanely more intimate than the mountains of crude ones you get. 
The first time you do a private show for him??? Oh my god he’s so nervous
Why is he so nervous??? He shouldn't be so jittery
Little does he know you feel the same way
You haven’t been nervous for private shows since you've started doing cam work, but something about this guy made you feel giddy. It wasn't until his camera switched on that you froze in realization that oh no he’s cute. 
When it comes to actually talking? He needs to be coaxed out of his shell. Sure he can make comments in the chat of a stream saying he wants to see your perfect pussy but saying it out loud?? To your face?? Ohhh boy.  He’s a little awkward at first, as most customers are so it takes some gentle conversation before he’s able to ask you to take your shirt off. 
“Why don’t we start with names?” You untie the robe and slowly let it fall from your shoulders. “I have to call you something, sweetheart.”
In hindsight he could've given you a nickname, or a fake name. Giving a fake name definitely would've been smarter but he was just to busy staring at you and your waiting smile and he just blurted out “Francisco” without even thinking about it. 
“Francisco?” You hummed and let your eyes shut, as if imagining all the separate situations you could say his name. “I like that. Handsome name for a handsome man.”
He knows it’s a line. That you're most likely lying, just feeding him rehearsed words you give to every other man who pays for your shows. But he doesn't care.��
He wants to hear you say his name again and again and again. Moan it, scream it, say it while you give him praise and beg him to fuck you until your voice is gone. 
“Francisco?”
He’s shaken away from his mind when he looks at the camera, youre staring at him expectantly. Oh god he spaced out. How long was he like that? Did he say any of it out loud?
You seemed to notice his panic and laughed. “I know this can be a little awkward the first time. So we can take it slow.”
Your fingers curl over the hem of your shirt and slowly pull it up just enough to show him the bare skin of your chest peeking out underneath. 
“Tell me what you want Francisco.”
In your regular day to day, you work at a small bookstore. Your apartment is decked out in halloween/spooky decor year round and you have two hairless kitties, poptart and biscuit that will throw fits if you aren’t giving them attention. 
Frankie accidentally met the two rascals during a private show when you thought you had shut the door all the way. But turns out you didn't because poptart zooms across the floor and into your lap, yowling for love meanwhile biscuit goes straight for the camera, batting at it with a curious paw because?? Hello???who is this???strange man taking mother’s attention
You are mortified, topless, and holding two cats while apologizing to him because “oh my god im so so sorry they were in the other room and-” 
He laughs and shakes his head. “It’s okay, they're really cute actually.”
You smirk. “Was that directed towards my cats or my tits, Francisco?”
“Both actually, both are very very cute.”
You begin to share anecdotes and stories about your days over these shows and streams, until late one night you get a payment with a message from him. 
‘You don’t have to do anything, I just don’t want to be alone right now.’
Its 2 am, you don’t bother doing makeup or switching your pajamas for lingerie before turning on your camera and accepting the link, to be shown a black screen and his voice. 
“Hey, I hope i didn’t wake you. I’m sorry it’s just been a bad night and i cant sleep, i didn’t-fuck. This was a bad idea. I’m sorry-”
“It’s okay Francisco.” Your soft voice stops him as his finger hovers over the leave chat button. “I’m happy to be here with you. Is there anything I can do?”
“Talk.” He rasps, a switch is heard and light fills his camera to show you his exhausted form. He looks like he hasn’t slept in days, his hair is sticking up in separate directions and his eyes, looking anywhere but you, are red and puffy. 
“About?” You knew this was dangerous territory. You never messaged customers out of chats or private shows. This was not professional, this was personal, intimate. He could have reached out to anybody else, friends, family, but he chose you. Did he not have anybody else?
The notion shouldn't have made your heart swell as much as it did. Fuck this was bad.
“What do you want me to talk about?”
“Anything.”
So you did. You talked about books and movies and dumb stories from college, frankie learned you worked at a small bookstore and had your own personal reading nook in your house. 
You learned that frankie was a pilot who loves to cook and in his words, “makes a bitchin’ chicken alfredo.”
“Yeah well-” a yawn broke through your sentence and he smiled. Somewhere through the night you had wrapped yourself up in blankets as you spoke to him. “-you’ll have to make some for me sometime frankie.”
Frankie. A name he’s been called for years now but for some reason hearing it from you was like hearing it for the first time. 
He wanted to hear you say his name again. In bed, the morning after as he made our breakfast, the day after when he took you out to dinner and walked you home and-
Oh. 
Oh no. 
This is very bad. 
Unbeknownst to him, you're having the exact same revelation.
“Goodnight frankie.”
“Goodnight Baby.”
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