#and i totally didn't even let myself feel attracted to men

[churipu]

CUTIE ! — JJK MEN & THEIR PARTNER WHO WEARS CUTE SOCKS

featuring. itadori yuuji, gojo satoru, todo aoi x reader

warnings. none :)

note. i was wearing this really cute pair of socks with very cute frog motives and just got this idea out of nowhere, i kept asking myself how jjk men would react with having a partner who likes to wear cute socks. also for requests, i'm working on them! so they will be coming out one by one anytime soon <33 (and i've been having a todo brainrot lately, we need more fics of him :(( )

ITADORI YUUJI. i feel like yuuji fanboys when he sees you in your cute socks, he clutches onto his chest and just thinks about how he got such a cute partner. and i feel like yuuji will buy you socks when he's out, for a mission, for a hangout, on a date with you. there will at least be one pair of socks that he takes home with him.

yuuji thinks about you so much sometimes he remembers what socks you have and don't have — and every time he sees one that you don't have for sale, he wastes no time in buying them for you.

"baby, look!"

you look at him dangling two matching pom pom purin socks, "you got that for me? oh my gosh, i've been wanting to buy them for some time now! how did you get them?"

"i saw these while i was walking back and immediately thought of you, so i bought it for you!"

yuuji just loves watching you wear cute socks, especially the one he buys for you. he won't stop in buying them for you in the future.

fun fact: he got you a box of sanrio matching socks so the two of you could match.

GOJO SATORU. absolutely. loves. your. collection. he treats them like his own, would gush over how cute they are on you and would try to look for more. gojo is totally that person who sees you wearing them and immediately tries to find the same motive with his size so he could match you.

he wants to match with his partner.

he is so that "matching outfits" type of boyfriend, loves it when you ask him to accompany you to buy more socks. i feel like he would literally drop whatever he's doing even if it's important (unless it's a mission) and just teleports over to you.

"okay, let's go shopping."

"aren't you in a meeting?"

"no, they cancelled." obvious lie, he just didn't want to be left out — he has to be in on it when you get your socks. and if you come home from somewhere with a pair, he'd literally break down.

"you.. how could you do this to me y/n? i trusted you!"

"satoru, i just bought socks! what do you mean?"

"exactly. fake people everywhere i go." big baby. gojo just wants to be there when you buy your socks. period. no more debates.

TODO AOI. have you seen his necklace? it's a picture of his idol and yuuji. but ever since he settled down for you — he changed his idol's picture to a picture of you smiling brightly. he's so in love with you it's cute.

and todo, the first time he finds out you have a cute socks collection was when you invited him over for the very first time into your apartment. and you were wearing these really cute dinosaur printed ones that managed to attract his attention.

and when he asks you about it, you told him you had more.

so now socks are just a daily gift for you, todo would go on missions and come back with at least two pairs. he's out there obliterating curses and comes back with the cutest gift for you (apparently according to his friends, he strolls around after the mission trying to find a shop or two and if he doesn't find it, he buys you something else). what a cutie.

"look, i saw these when i was fighting a curse. so i came back to the shop when my mission was done."

"...you scare me sometimes," you tell him with a nervous smile as he looks at you, arching a brow in confusion, "you're hurt and you still managed to look at cute socks in a fight?"

"anything for you, darling!"

© CHURIPU 2023 , DO NOT COPY OR REPOST ANYWHERE !

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[queermania]

Ok so I have a real question not trying to start discourse or any thing. If Dean knew how he felt about Cas slash knew he liked men why was he always so weird about gay people. I can see a reading where Dean knew how he felt about Cas but not one where he knew he was bi

this is totally a fair question and i don't think there's any one True reading or interpretation of the show/characters so it really just depends on what version of events resonates the most with you. the way the picture makes the most sense to me is that dean is a guy who was raised in the 80s-90s in a hyper-masculine environment with zero stability. i think all of those puzzle pieces slotted into place in his brain in a way that said "sex with men is okay, feelings are not." a furtive hookup with a dude in a seedy bar bathroom is fine. going on a date with a guy is prohibited.

and the thing is that this is kind of true for dean when it comes to women as well. a one night stand is a-okay. falling in love and settling down is not. so, you take that sort of mentality and then apply all the homophobia of growing up in the eighties and the nineties and a life lived out of a car bouncing between truck stops and, well, you get a dean who is absolutely flabbergasted when confronted with the fact that not only are you allowed to want something romantic with a man, you're allowed to say it out loud to other people. you're allowed to have it.

dean wasn't weird about gay people, necessarily. he was weird about people who were able to just be themselves. he didn't know that was an option. also, i don't know about y'all but as a queer person who doesn't necessarily read as queer at a glance, i too get Very Awkward when confronted with another queer person in the wild and it's not because i'm homophobic. it's because oh! new friend! must send telepathic signals that me queer too! my behavior around other queer people in queer spaces does not match my behavior around other queer people in random public spaces. i'm embarrassing and i see that part of myself in dean lol.

and dean being weird about other people making comments about his perceived queerness, to me, is a very normal reaction for a closeted person (or even someone who is selectively and/or quietly out). you can be perfectly at peace with who you are and still not want to be clocked. like???? homophobia is not a thing of the past. dean grew up during the AIDS crisis. he was, what? nineteen years old when matthew sheppard was killed? his reactions to people insinuating he might be anything even close to queer make perfect sense for someone his age, living the life that he did.

also, like, here's the thing: i realized i was queer when i was about eleven and i freaked out about it for about a day and then promptly suppressed the whole thing because of a deeply traumatizing childhood. being queer was the least of my worries and there was never any time to unpack it and deal with it so i just didn't. and then when i was about nineteen i started to have queer sexual/romantic relationships but continued to suppress the fact that EYE was in fact queer because, again, i didn't really have the space to unpack it. it wasn't until i was about twenty-three and surrounded by other queer people (in a platonic way) that i finally felt safe to fully admit to myself and to other people that i was in fact queer. and then i never really did a whole coming out thing. i just... lived my life openly as a queer person and let other people figure it out.

my point in all this is that i feel like my general experience/trajectory lines up really well with how i view dean's. he had a very traumatic upbringing so while he knew he was attracted to men, he had no time or space to deal with it. that didn't stop him from having sex with men, but he never really unpacked what it actually meant. it wasn't until he was older and had openly queer friends that he felt safe enough to fully acknowledge that part of himself. and then.. that was it. he just lived his life as a queer man. like, i feel like we actually watched that happen over the course of the show???

most importantly, i cannot handle any reading where everyone else knows dean is queer but dean does not know himself. i especially loathe the idea that sam Knows and has to explain dean's own sexuality to himself. that is so ugly. dean is a very self-aware person. you could even argue he is perhaps too self-aware at times.

anyway, this is all obviously just a watsonian explanation of dean's relationship to his queerness. it doesn't even touch on the doylist stuff but that's a whole can of worms i'm not really interested in opening on tumblr dot edu right now.

so, yeah. that's my personal reading.

#replies #anonymous #dw #queer!dean #mp

[pan-but-meh-pt2]

Hello~! I am taking the post I had from my old account and putting them here now! And what do ya know! It's spicy time! I will be starting off with dick head cannons... No one judge me lol. These will include the length, width, hair, just a general description (and maybe how good they can use it will be done later lol) NOW LET'S GET STARTED!

Warnings: Dick talk. Slightly accurate animal proportions for the beast men. Just SPICE!!!

Credits for art pieces below to rightful creator

Heartslabyul

Riddle

To start off ain't no way this boy has a big dick with all the love to him

I will say he has an average sized one, about 4 inches, 5 when hard

And it's also not that wide, but like not completely skinny either

In fact it's actually a bit thicker towards the base

I see people say this and I agree that his tip is a pretty shade of red, a little bigger than the cock but not as large as the base

Now as for hair, he is definitely well trimmed, there's just a tiny patch there that's the same red as his hair of course

Overall it's a pretty cute cock

Trey

Say it with me now. LONG AND THICK!!!

Well, ok, let's be honest, it's probably not that thick, but it's thicker than normal and you could feel it

This boy is def about e 7.5 or 8.5, no question, won't take complaints

His tip is a little bigger, but not much, and more pink then red, though it does go bright red when hard

Now the hair is well trimmed but still pretty there

Def pressing into your nose while you go down on him with your mouth

And he'd like it too lol

11/10 would look at again

Cater

Excuse me while I just slides over a card that says it's pierced

hm? I didn't say anything

But for real, I bet that boy has at least got a Prince Albert piercing right there, hitting that spot

A good 7 inches long

The width is actually pretty skinny, but that ain't a bad thing lol

Cause know what?

His tip makes up for it

Not even including the Prince Albert, his tip is pretty large, but not so large it's out at proportion

And his whole dick fades into a nice blushy pink, with the tip slightly darker cause why not!

And it is def curved up a bit so it REALLY hits

This boy has a TRAIL!!!!!!

He decorates it all nice and pretty, leaving that bit to tease his simps with (me, I am simps)

He doesn't even let it get out of control

Hot as hell and he knows it

Ace

I wanna be mean to him and day "itty bitty dick committee" but... He's slightly above average, let's admit it oops, still mean 😅

I'll be nice to him and says he's about and 5.5 in height and length smacked ALRIGHT I'LL STOP!

But yeah, like I said, slightly abovebaverage

The width is actually the thickest of the Heartslabyul boys, can stretch you pretty damn good

The tip is the same width, and a more blushy red then Riddle, but not as light as Cater's

Now his hair, uh....

It's a bit of a bush

NOT EVEN THE ATTRACTIVE WAY, LIKE A MESSY WAY

He remembers every about 2 or 3 monthsbto shave it down, and he doesn't even dobit that much

So, dick is pretty, shave down the bush and I would say a 10 outta 10

Deuce

Oh, this poor virgin boy Imao

HIS DICK IS SO PRETTY BUT SO UNUSED!!!!

Like you're saying a good 6 inches, slightly thick where it counts, and pretty beyond belief

His tip is another one that is slightly bigger than the rest, in the cutest shade of pink

His hair is also almost a clean shave, like a little trail

In total it is so FUCKING PRETTY AND I WANNA-bleeps

Ah thank you, 15/10 would recommend

Savanaclaw

Leona (animal leaning)

NOW PEOPLE KEEP SAYING HUGE DICK, AND I WANNA BELIEVE IT, BUT!!!!! BUT BUT BUT!!!!

Lion's dicks are tiny as all hell

(Don't ask why, just know I put myself through torture for entertainment)

So let's say for animal leaning he'd 3.5

HE'S HELLA THICK THO, SO HE'S GOT THAT FOR HIM!

Probably in the top 5 of thickest cocks

Gets thinner more towards the tip, but still thick

Tip is a nice pink shade, and it's only on the tip, everywhere else is the same color as his skin

Also, bumpy as hell, my lord

As little as there is it is covered in bumps and thick veins

BUSHIEST MOFO IN THE DAMN SCHOOL!!!

Like damn, take a razor to that shit, or at least trim it!!!!!

Literally Ruggie had to threaten to drag him to the bathroom and do it himself to get him to do it

(Still took to much effort to get him to do it though, my lord)

Overall, not bad, needs better maintenance though 😒

Leona (human leaning)

Just so y'all know, in future fics you will never know which type I am using, could be the more animal like or more human like lol, so good luck all you Leona simps on my page

Now, lemme just clears throat

LONG AND THICK!!!!

No matter which way, it is thick, but more human like is thick throughout, not skinner towards the tip

This man is like 8.5 inches, maybe 9, but for your sake, well say 8.5

As for the bumps they're not as bad and are now just veiny as hell

The tip is the same, along with the bush 😒

Again, big as hell, not bad to look at, LEARN TO USE A DAMN RAZOR!!!!

Ruggie

NOW THIS ONE IS THE SAME EITHER WAY!!!

Long. As. HELL!!!

Solid 7.5 hard inches on this man, no cap

SKINNY-!! Skinny, skinny, skinny! Still feels good, but don't hope for a stretch with him

In fact it could probably slide in easily!

That is.... If you can get past the tip 😈

Cause his tip is a good bit bigger than his dick!

And it has a fade to pink at the tip

Don't even get me started on the curve OOF!

I had a nice upwards curve so it really hits all the spots you want

Now for the hair...I'll admit, it's kinda bushy

NOT AS BAD AS LEONA, but probably a more tamed version of that

Also part of the trail gang (those are hella hot, convince me otherwise!)

Overall, very nice, and not bad to look at

Jack

Ok y'all, this one is hard to do animal accurate, because people are freaks and like animal dildos, but I'll try

OK, FIRST OFF, LENGTH! I'd give a solid 8 or 9!

It's actually paler then the rest of his body, with some parts a pink shade, his tip as well

Speaking of the tip, it's actually a bit smaller then the rest

Now for the width... Let's say when he's not hard it's slightly average in width, and when hard above average is the best way to describe it

It'll still feel good! So don't worry!

Now for hair I feel like he's between having almost as much as Leona or being like Ruggie and knowing how to trim it

Def more towards Ruggie, and def does it more often then those two!

But he just grows hair fast, he can't help it

A pretty good dick overall

Octavinelle

Azul

Another virgin bay with a hella cute dick!!

Now this one is more on the average side of length, slightly above, standing at 6 inches

It's actually pretty chubby/thick, specially at the center and base

A nice blushy pink throughout it Seriously, it's so pretty and cute, wtf, gimme a chance with it-COUGH COUGH, ANYWAY!

The tip is slightly darker than the rest but not by much, and is also the same size as the rest

Now for his hair-wait, I mean, what hair?

Yep, he's hairless down there! He shaves it down to the skin once it starts getting outta control ACE, LEONA, TAKE SOME DAMN NOTES!!!

He has a slight curve right and downwards, and it feels pretty good! (Specially doggy style AHEM AHEM)

Overall, 10/10, would recommend

Jade

AHEHEHEHEHE, OH BOY, THIS MAN!!!

Long, 9 inches, VEINY VEINY VEINY!!!!

Gets thicker towards the base, but still pretty damn skinny!

I don't think I said veiny, did I? Oh well, I'll do it again VEINY!!!!

He has a slight curve to the left cause reasons 😃

Now, let's talk hair

Not bad down there, like there's some, but it's not a bush

And I'mma say it hey, no, stop. I'mma say it-HE HAS A TRAIL!-knocked out

Ugh, what? Oh

So yeah, pretty damn good dick

Floyd

Well...they are twins...in every sense 😅😅😅

The hair is also worst down there

DICKS ARE NEAR IDENTICAL!!!

SAME LENGTH, SAME WIDTH, SAME TYPE OF TIP, IDENTICAL!!

Now here are the differences

Instead of the left Floyd's curves to the right (you'll have to guess why~)

For Floyd I would say he is the less clean down there version of Jade, he is way more scruffy and jacked up down there

So I'll say, if he cleans it up a bit, he's golden

Scarabia

Kalim

OH BOY, YALL BETTER BE READ FOR THE LEVEL OF SIMPING THESE TWO BRING OUT OF ME, LIKE DAMN!!!!! WHY THE WHOLE DORM GOTTA BE ATTRACTIVE!?!?!?!

Ahem, ahem anyway, onto the dicks!!!

.... Pierced, AHEM I MEAN WHAT?!?! But fr, he had a Jacobs ladder and a reverse prince albert, cause why the hell not 😅

Now, the length is more on the average side, standing at 5 inches

The width is pretty good!

Slightly above average but thicker towards the base

The tip is a vibrant red against his skin, as thick as the base, and just UGH, HE'S SO ATTRACTIVE!!!

Now the hair....meh, it's a bit of a bush, but more of a controlled bush

Overall, 10/10

Jamil

.... I am such a simp for these two 😂😂😂

ANYWAY, LET'S START OFF, HE'S 7 INCHES!!!

I feel like he'd be pretty damn veiny, with a very prominent one on the top of his dick

The width, more on the skinny side, but will still have a slight stretch for him

The tip!! His tip is more of a dark red, blending into his skin and fading halfway down

It's also the same width of the dick too

Now the hair is fairly tame down there!

...but he does have a trail and it's hot as HELL!!!!!!!

Ahem! Hey, don't hit me, I stopped-! knocked out again

Ugh, anyway, hella hot, 15/10, would recommend

Pomefiore

Vil

OK, LET'S START OFF WITH HE'S PART OF THE LONG GROUP, GODDAMN!!!

A good 8 inches, with subtle veins

His width is on the skinnier side like Jamil, but also like Jamil, will give you astretch!

Like himself, his dick is just so pretty!

Ugh, I hate this pretty boy

/jk I actually don't mind him

Ok, back on track with the tip

His tip is slightly bigger then the width, and a nice pink shade

Now for the hair, if you think he doesn't take care of his hair down there either, you'd be wrong!

Like Cater, he knows how to decorate it to be pretty for his simps, so there is a barely there trail for that reason

The area they can't see is more compact and well shaved

So, 20/10, pretty nice dick

Rook

This mofo-

Ahem I mean, onto Rook!

I'll give him the benefit of the doubt and say that he's a 6.6, just above average

His width is the same, above average

He will be a stretch tho, but in a good way

He barely uses his dick tho, he mostly prefers using his fingers and tongue-

OFF TOPIC, THAT'S FOR ANOTHER DAY, BACK ON TRACK

The tip, is muah! bigger than the width and it just feels so good!

Now the hair It's almost like Vil's, because he is such a big fan

So, he has a slight trail, but it is more prominent than Vil's

But it's also a bit of a bush

Like a clean one, ya know?

So pretty nice to look at at least!

Epel

SWEET VIRGIN BOY WITH A CUTE DICK SQUAD!!!!

Seriously, like it's a bit on the small side, like about 4-5 inches, but still nice!

A bit chubby towards the base tho, but again! Still nice!

His whole dick is a nice pink throughout, and a darker pink on the tip

And speaking of the tip, it's about as thick as the base is

Now for the hair... Oh boy

Vil would have a heart attack if he knew about it (thankfully he has enough decency to not go that far)

It's a bush, and not in a good way

Like yeah, he trims it every once in a while, but his hair grows fast!

But overall, and hella nice dick!

Ignihyde

Idia

OH BOY THIS ONE!!!

One word: messy

HE'S HELLA LONG, ABOUT 8-9 INCHES!

PRETTY THICK, LIKE ABOVE AVERAGE!

THE TIP IS GOOD TOO, A PINK FADE TO IT

BUT THE HAIR!!!

This boy is worse then Leona

Even the lion dorm leader would cringe

I'm not even sure if he could chop it off cause the hair down there is also fire! Like can he cut his hair?! How would it work?!!

But anyway, yeah 😅😅😅

So it's ok, but damn!

Ortho

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Malleus

Sebek, down boy, NO SEBEK DOWN!

...Anyway, ahem, Malleus-San

LONGEST BOY HERE, MY LORD!!!

10-11 inches, no cap

The thickness of it, not so much

I will say he is above average-SEBEK, WHAT DID I SAY, DOWN BOY!!

The tip is the same width and same skin color, no pink or red to it

Hair is the next one, and DAMN

He has a bit of a bush, but like it's not out of hands

So overall...Pray for yourself 😬

Lilia

Aha, ahahaha, aha, THIS MAN!!!

He ain't small!!!! I know I made the other shorties have dicks on the smaller side, but not him!!!!

He is a solid 8-9 inches!!!!!

Why, cause I said so, that's why

He's able to change the way it looks and he uses it

Relatively thick, but in an above average way

The tip is thicker then the base and also a dark red shade

The hair is surprisingly tame down there, I will say

So overall, pretty good!

Silver

IF Y'ALL THOUGHT I WAS DOWN BAD FOR SCARABIA, Y'ALL AIN'T SEEN NOTHING YET!!!

HE'S SO HANDSOME, AND FOR WHAT?

Ahem, anyway, onto the dick

A good 7 inches, slightly veiny too

(I'll just drop this rq-somnophillia)

HIS WIDTH IS ABOVE AVERAGE, BUT A NICE STRETCH

The tip is fading into a nice blushy pink shade halfway down

His hair is well trimmed...But this one is simply cause I'm a simp for him, he has a trail!

20/10

Sebek

...I like bullying him 😅😅😅

I'LL BE NICE TO HIM FOR THIS ONE THO

So, a solid 7-8 inches on this boy

Also part of the thick squad, kinda like an hourglass style?

Skinnier at the center and thicker everywhere else

The tip is slightly larger than the base and a violent shade of red only on the tip

He has a bit of a bush, and this one is just a fact, he also has a trail

So, enjoy

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I hope you enjoyed these head cannons! Inbox is open and you are free to ask or request any of the ones listed in my dash! Enjoy the moment! 🥰

#twisted wonderland smut #twst smut #dick headcannon #heartslabyul #savanaclaw #octavinelle #scarabia #pomefiore #ignihyde #diasomnia #twisted wonderland #-Nerd signing off

[accirax]

initial thoughts on DCAS episode 7

very notable that this was within the context of being about "love" specifically. (at least) one-sided trevek canon? (i'm not even a huge trevek shipper i just think this whole plotline is funny)

okay, so Yul's foot injury IS real. or at least, he's using it as an excuse to complain. still, the fact that it was brought up again an episode later makes me think that it's going to have SOME relevance to the plot.

any time that Yul has to parrot something in Emily's "you go girlfriend ;D" manner of speaking i cackle. he didn't choose the home decor saying any time is wine time lifestyle, the home decor saying any time is wine time lifestyle chose him.

Grett i am... genuinely confused. how can you possibly think that Yul is actually in love with you? did you really receive THAT little love in your home life? you have no ability to distinguish catty and fake praise for your accomplishments from real ones because your family gave you THAT little recognition? man. now i made myself sad :( ily Grett

okay, confirming that 1) it was Tom's trap, 2) they are willing to eat squirrels, 3) Tom is serving as the provider for the Cyan tribe. all things to take into account for any upcoming Cyan eliminations.

why

and how does said boyfriend feel about you kissing another man on television, Tom? this is a stupid lie.

again, why? it's probably already apparent from my earlier comments, but i changed my mind; i'm fully with Jake in this argument now. sure, Jake is really insecure and overly emotional, but what the HELL is Tom doing? making up a boyfriend is a really shitty thing to do, whether Tom had a legit reason for not calling Jake these past two years or if he didn't contact Jake due to his own mixed feelings/indifference. in either case, he should have told Jake the truth. at least when Jake was acting immature in S1, he was 24. Tom is a nearly 30 year old man. ACT LIKE IT.

Fiore slay

this is a really interesting response due to how vague it is, including in the vocal performance. was he taken off guard by his boss being nice to him? does he believe that she's telling the truth? does he feel bad for Trevor, or will he come to believe that he IS way better than Trevor? i'm glad that they're continuing on with the concept of the hosts having a plotline, because imo that was one of the highlights of S2, but they aren't doing it in a way that eats up as much of the screentime as it did in S2.

if Will was out of the picture i would be shipping these two so hard. who am I kidding, i kind of still am anyways.

Ally's other gf is here :,) glad that they got to reconnect (and neither of them were eliminated for it)

Fiore slay

the confirmation that Aiden thinks that the idea of him having any attraction to Tom is laughable and disgusting is HILARIOUS to me. bro really said, "why the hell would i be into YOU when i have JAMES lmao" straight to Tom's face. tbf, James and Tom are like... opposites in terms of personality and appearance (beyond being generally handsome and athletic young men).

"silly me, i keep forgetting that not everyone met their super cool and attractive boyfriend on reality TV. my bad!" (/pos)

(i tried to type "hubby" instead of boyfriend but i spared you all. it was too cringe even as the one subjecting others to the cringe.)

okay this was very fitting for her. iconic.

honestly, Alec and Riya's villainous alliance/friendship is really fun. leave it to Alec to always find himself in the least likely but most entertaining duos. Riya really benefits from being paired with a legitimate strategist, and someone who won't just let her totally get away with stuff.

we had to get in one last Fiore taking unnecessary damage for the road :,(

feeling like Jaiden is going to be winning the starting couples' survival roulette. and Wishley, to the extent they count.

now i'm no physicist, but how did this work? shouldn't the ball be a fast and heavy enough object at this point that it would jump over the log, not ricochet off of it? i suppose if the ball is made of something more like wicker than yarn, it could be a bit more likely to do that. but then why is it going to the side? it hit the log straight on!

... are you not allowed to help him anymore? what?

ellie is going full villain mode fr. if her and gabby's relationship gets messed up, that would definitely be karma. but, i suppose she survives this episode...

this is funny because nobody strikes me as the pizza and soda loving type. Alec, Grett, Yul, and Riya all seem like people who would want to eat something that's both fancier and healthier.

communication W (for both of them)

Fiore is such a best girl that she's not even a salty juror. she's not mad at them for so long that she can't use her final moments to throw a wrench in the works for everyone else. the grind never sleeps, clowns <3

and she even conquered her greatest nemesis, the bus, this time. fly high, queen. i'll miss you.

well, as a Fiore stan, this episode was a bit sad for me. but, i do totally understand why Magenta would both vote for Fiore and lose the challenge. (damn you, Ellie...) Fiore already did super well in both S1 and the original Adventure Camp, so i understand why they wouldn't have her go super far again in this season, especially when everyone knows she's such a threat.

i just hope that we can still get a little more closure for her and Alec than we got already in this season. all it has to be is, like, him being sad at her elimination for reasons other than pure strategy and maybe a nice conversation at the finale. it doesn't have to be Alec finally adopting her... even if i did want that to happen... i'd just prefer to know that they leave things on good terms.

anyways, another really solid episode! i look forward to the next one. thanks for reading!

#disventure camp #dcas #disventure camp spoilers #dcas initial thoughts

[viviennelamb]

Hi Vivienne, I hope you're doing well. I am so thankful that I came across this blog and The Human Renaissance, I look forward to reading every new article you put out.

This isn't really a question, just a topic I've been thinking about and I was wondering if you had any thoughts on it. Maybe it's just because I'm not particularly fond of forgiveness myself, or of the rationalizations people have for child abuse. But one of the things that frustrated me endlessly in radblr spaces was the excuses made up for nasty and abusive mothers. I've seen blog after blog of women with mommy issues who completely remove their abusers responsibility. It seems like they feel serious guilt for their existence supposedly ruining some kind of potential their mothers had before they were born.

Because she was socialized into wanting to be a mother, into PIV sex, into not getting an abortion, into being a housewife, into taking all of her problems out on her children, into grooming them to do the same, and none of this was within her control, or for her own benefit or privilege. All her life, just an unconscious, unaware NPC who isn't responsible for anyone she hurts or how her children grow up feeling about themselves.

I just don't buy it, or like the way they talk about female child abusers. I think the reason they do it is because it's hard to accept that their mothers could have treated them better if they cared to, and they just didn't. Men abuse women because they know they'll get away with it, they're aware of this. They talk about how abusers don't "lose control", they wait to unleash their temper on the right person, at the right time, they know who they can be toxic with and to what extent. Unless you're a woman, of course. Long-suffering mommies blinded by internalized misogyny just can't stop themselves from taking all of their bad choices and "patriarchal stressors" out on children, who they know have no choice but to endure whatever treatment they're given. The soap opera of it all is so exhausting.

Hello blueflower,

Child abuse is due to the seven deadly sins, all of which stems from sex-consciousness.

Everybody has a soul, but they definitely act soulless. We are just coming out of the Dark Ages and moving upward toward the Golden Age, so 99.9% of people are totally ignorant to the fact that they even have a soul, let alone the Divine Reality. They are so incredibly ignorant it's genuinely not worth paying attention to if you want to attain happiness. Attempting to explain the soul or prana in general is like trying to explain why grass exists to a cow who needs grass to sustain itself.

⚬ Archons in the Flesh

99.9% of individual souls are encased with the deluded Ego. The leader of these Egos are commonly referred to as "Archons" which are essentially spiritual parasites that feed on negative emotions which the obligate pleasure-seeker is bound to experience and the Archons of hell rake in the negative energy after mass disillusionment such as economy collapses, sex orgies, school shootings because this place is hell, after all.

To be clear, Archons don't cause any of these events, so they have no power. However, the Archon-Ego incites individuals to act against Karmic Law and Karmic Law sanitizes the filth. Ultimately, it is the individual who chooses their destiny.

But this negative energy harvest isn't limited to unseen entities as the spiritual is always made manifest in some manner. Since the average person has a parasitic ego, the traits of the archon can be applied to them, the main difference is the ordinary person can be satiated with a a few streams of negativity instead of mass calamities. Parents typically their children and animals for their abuse because of their bloodlust for innocence.

A lot of them also openly call themselves psychopaths which is code for "pure ego." They find this trait attractive in each other as the "kill all males" types, but they are also interested in killing, raping and abusing women, children and animals. It's only the natural progression. It's not possible for an individual with these fantasies to separate individuals based on having the right genitals. Everything a person thinks about is eventually made manifest. Also, what people actively defend, in this case abuse, is also what they engage in.

A few days ago, I heard a mother screaming at her son outside of a grocery store. She was screaming it at the top of her lungs at least 30 times saying "sit down," but the child was already sitting because he was strapped into his seat and couldn't move. It seemed like she didn't want him to move at all, as if she wanted him to be a doll. She fed on his distress, it wasn't about obedience.

⚬ What a Feminist Wants

Radical feminists express anger towards the world due to their inability to find satisfying sexual experiences with suitable partners, which is why they hate God. Their primary focus is on pursuing pleasure like most people. They do not seek "liberation;" if they did, they would already have it... they don't realize that it is their pleasure seeking that keeps them enslaved to men.

Activist movements centered around interpersonal relationships often stem from individuals' frustrations with their inability to find desired partners or from their experiences as spurned exes. They also exhibit narcissistic tendencies by demanding others cater to their contraceptive needs or agree with their lust-opinions. I have yet to encounter a feminist who genuinely believes in what they espouse. In general, activism serves as a dating pool or time-killer, with individuals looking for a partner to ultimately leave the movement. Beyond the mistreatment of children (which they ignore because they're evil), there is virtually no oppression left as everybody is too busy oppressing themselves. The most marginalized individuals are those who are pure-hearted and love God. Considering even Jesus Christ, the kindest person in history, was crucified for being a beacon of goodness, it would be foolish to believe that those who are completely dark are mistreated by their comrades in degeneracy.

Everybody who doesn't at least know Karmic Law are unaware NPCs which is why it's no use to be concerned with their troubles. All activists are background characters in this Drama because they don't even know that they are protesting against their own actions. Really listen to what they're concerned about: instead of opting out of what they claim harms them, they want the government to make amendments to what they do in the bedroom. Most people like to join groups because the more people in a group, the less responsibility the individual has which ironically leads to groups not getting anything done as opposed to the singular person getting everything done. Feminists and the like are not supposed to be active participants in the world during this lifetime, they're only here to act as filler people who cause distractions to those who have the potential to realize God.

⚬ On Forgiveness

Forgiveness is to free yourself from being bound to evil, not excuse it allowing evil to roam free. Do all that you can to subdue evil and that is to control the mind and body from which evil emanates, starting with your own. I was also thinking that most people had mommy issues which is why they believe that their sexual depravities were okay, but it wasn't okay for males. Most people think women are inherently pure which is not the case, but they have to increase their knowledge to see that women are equally depraved as males, but play the submissive role in their heterosexual dynamic.

Lust manifests in females through eroticism and romance and isn't as obvious. The depravity women engage in typically occurs in their mind since women are more mental and their emotions can gratify them for longer stretches of time as opposed to males who wish to experience physical gratification as soon as possible. The most common escalation I have seen are women delving into cartoons about teenage boys. I've found that males and female are equally pedophilic either because that is how the lust mind works. They don't lose control, they just operate through the Ego to put on a fake front of virtue.

I knew a heterosexual 24 year old who told me how sexy she found a 5 year old boy and briefly mentioned a sexual act she would do to him. The boy was sitting on a nearby bench while we were skating getting his skates tied by his dad. I asked her if I heard her right and she repeated that she was talking about the child with a smirk on her ugly face. The death and malevolence in her eyes at that moment made me hate her instantly and she was dead to me. I later officially ended our friendship by benevolently abandoning her on a roadside two towns over with several heavy shopping bags. As I drove off she told me she hoped God took everything away from me which didn't age well.

Every single person who allows lust into their mind (which always results in sexual activity) are demons. The lustful mind always escalates and because it will justify its increased desire for pleasure and most people welcome intrusive thoughts because lust causes insanity. Most people are scared to lose their Ego because they're scared to lose the "creativity" a decaying mind gives them but somehow never gets anything done with this illusive "creativity."

Words cannot adequately express the power of Karmic Law. I used to be skeptical of its effectiveness, but once I stopped looking at Law through a materialistic lens and listened to people speak and what actions they engaged in, I witnessed their enslavement in real time. Karmic Law's quadratic precision is undeniable, it's immediate and I'm a vessel for it. I came here to work.

Now, I know with absolute clarity that those with the lust-mind will never experience love or happiness because they lack love for God. I don't believe that non-forgiveness brings bad karma. In fact, it has guided me swiftly towards God. I have zero tolerance for lust because I see the bigger picture. I absolutely detest anyone who thinks it's amusing or edgy to be a degenerate and I will never forgive them. Those individuals despise innocence, purity and children which means they have hated me before I could ever hate them. I forgive for the sake of my heart not anybody else, and I forget to remain present with God, not to give somebody more chances. I do not have a modicum of pity for those hate God.

Forgiveness is often advocated by lukewarm believers of the Abrahamic faiths who secretly despise God. Ignore their advice and search within yourself for answers. They seek forgiveness because they are degenerate. Personally, I have never had to ask for forgiveness from someone else so, what have they done to find themselves in a position where they need to seek forgiveness from an Ego?

⚬ Degenerate Mothers

Most mothers are degenerate because most women are degenerate. Motherhood doesn't make a woman pure, it's the removal of lust from her consciousness and loving God which makes her pure.

A mother's purpose is to shower her newborn with love and devotion. Some become upset that mothers only talk about their children, but I think it's a good thing when a mother is consumed with love for her children. Parents must fulfill their duties to their offspring because they have chosen to not dedicate their lives to God, but the material world.

Nobody is socialized into being a mother, parenthood occurs when a male and female has sex. It's inevitable. When a male and female with lust-consciousness get together, what else is there to do other than penis-in-vagina sex? Sure there's blowjobs and anal, but there will be times where vaginal sex will happen and then a child arrives. Even if they are using condoms, there will be a day when they get tired of condoms or it breaks. There will be a day when birth control doesn't work too. If it is ordained for a child to enter the world, it will happen... even if every single person on the planet stops having sex.

Parents actively despise children because children get in the way of their precious sex. One of the most common quotes I've heard from heterosexuals is, "If you want to ruin your marriage and sex life, have kids." or the "if you want to keep your marriage alive, don't have kids." Many believe that it is childfree that hates children, but it's difficult to feel that strongly about children when you don't have to look after them every minute of every day. Parents as a whole, hate their offspring, but there are a few genuinely good and pure parents who understand their purpose.

#ask #ego #truth

[frecklystars]

I never really thought about sexuality much even when the people around me started showing interest in relationships. So at first I thought I was bisexual, because I had the same amount of interest in men/women. Then I realized that gender wasn't really an important factor to me in attraction, so I called myself pansexual. Then I realized most of the people I'd ever felt attraction towards were fictional, so these days I mostly just use aspec/queer to identify myself.

All of these labels (to me) are just a tool for helping you understand yourself a little better, and you don't need to force yourself to use one you don't feel fits anymore.

I remember seeing a post on tumblr ages ago talking about identity that was like 'show me a permanent state of self' because you're constantly changing as a person as you learn.

Anyways, sorry for the rambling, just wanted to let you know you're not alone, sorry about the sexuality crisis, hope your day gets better

AWW thank you for taking the time to send this to me sweetheart. "sorry about the sexuality crisis" made me burst out laughing; I know you didn't mean it to be funny, you are being kind, but that's just funny to me that multiple people have sent me messages in my inbox/dms saying "so sorry you think you're a lesbian and it's making you spiral and cry in the middle of the night" like I just never expected people to send me a message like that haha. thank you, genuinely thank you for saying that though, because HOO i am STRUGGLING here bro... but it's ok i'll figure it out eventually <3

I have heard that's very much an aro/aspec feeling, to say "well I don't feel much preference for any gender, so maybe I'm bi/pan". I watched a video on being aro/ace and I related to some of it but not all of it entirely, so I know I'm... I'm ace, for sure. and I think I'm aro somewhat? Women™ are a big big big piece of the puzzle and the only reason why I don't feel fully aro is bc my attraction for them is There but at the same time I don't know if I feel it... as... much(?) as I am "supposed" to. or maybe my lack of physical affection/lack of feeling totally safe in a relationship is just bc of actual life experience and not like, who I am as a person? question mark???

I also think the realization that maybe I am not changing from bi into possibly lesbian, but I might not have been bi this entire time has hit me like a ton of bricks and is what's hurting me so bad. I was so confident I was bi for yeeeears, because I assumed I'd felt attraction to men, even if it was short and fleeting and practically nonexistent, but all this time I don't think I have felt attraction to men, not truly. but again -- does bisexuality have to include men? if I'm a cis woman I mean, would my bisexuality HAVE to include men or can it just be "I am attracted to literally anybody Except Men." and like, hey, maybe I haven't met enough men?? most of my experiences with men have been kind of um. uncomfortable and creepy. maybe I would feel attracted to a man in the future?? I used to joke with my other bi friends "oh my standards for men are SO HIGH, they have to meet a whole checklist of requirements for me to feel attraction to them, but for a woman all she has to do is exist and I'm in LOVE with her" and like... that could be.. a lesbian feeling sdfhldhfskldf or I'm just bi with 99.9999% attraction to women and 00.0001% attraction to other people, which might include men but like, only two unobtainable men who are celebrities (Ryan Gosling and Nick Blaemire) which don't count because they are... unobtainable celebrities. MAN WHO KNOWS!!!!! I DON'T KNOWS. is it still valid attraction to men if it's an unobtainable celebrity? It's still a real life man, right? Even if you know nothing would ever come of it? Me feeling romantically attracted (or I guess crushing lol) on a male celebrity feels just as real and big and pure and whole as me feeling romantically attracted to an obtainable non-celebrity woman standing in front of me. AGAIN, WHO KNOWSSSSS

I like how you said labels are a tool and I don't need to force myself to have one that doesn't fit anymore. I just feel really like, panicked if I don't have a label, for some reason. Maybe "WLW" or "Sapphic" can be my placeholder. I like being bi but man I don't know if I was ever bi at all if I don't feel attracted to men unless if they're celebs/fictional?? It doesn't feel like I've gradually changed into something else, it feels like I've woken up from a dream-like state where I thought I was bi but it turns out I'm actually Not. unless if, like I said, I could be bi with just, the strongest attraction to women possible LMAO. it doesn't help that I'm ace because it makes it a little more confusing to figure out. soooo many people have told me "oh it depends on who you'd sleep with" but I don't want to sleep with anyone. y'know. never ever had that urge, no matter the gender. WHY IS IT SO CONFUSINGGGG BRO

anyway thank you for sending me a message and helping me feel heard/listened to. giving you hugs and flowers 💖💐🌼🌸🌻🌷✨🌹🌺🌈✨💖💝💟🌸💘✨

#anonymous #asks

[adviceformefromme]

Hi! Really enjoy your blog, sometimes your motivational posts is the first thing I see on my dash in the morning when I do a quick scroll. Helps me start the day with the right mindset :)

Now I want to ask for a piece of your advice. On multiple occasions in my life I had men I was with tell me things like: I have such good time with you, let me know if I can do something for you, what do you want, how can I help you etc. In those situations I knew that those were not the kind of men I could ask to pay my rent or take me to Paris, you know? I knew they didn't have the resources. So I would always be very grateful and try to think of something nice I could ask for, in moderation. But I realize that I always had that panicy period of "what do I even ask for? how do I answer these questions in a way that's classy but also take what they want to give me?"

So my question is, what would you do/say? How do I prepare myself for this kind of situations?

Thank you :)

Hey sweetie, thank you for the kind comments!

Regarding the provider men, I would say you can always test his generosity with asking for something small at first then building up. Casually dropping in things you love, asking his opinion on a new pair of shoes, handbag, spa days etc.

Personally, I have totally moved away from this as I am currently on a dating break. I also found that seeking men to spoil me actually attracted the worst of the worst. Maybe one day i will share my Dubai experience. BUT what i will say, is before i knew of hypergamy and following SheraSeven I naturally attracted providers. My energy spoke before I did. I didn't need to tell a man to take me to the spa, because he already booked it for us for the day, I didn't need to tell him I loved shopping because he knew this about me and took me shopping. My intentions were pure. I always knew I loved to be spoiled but I never went out seeking. Some women are more tactical, and some women naturally embody being spoiled energy. So my advice is let your energy speak, be natural, ask for what you feel confident and learn to trust yourself and what you are worthy of receiving. There is no shame in wanting to be spoilt by a man, i remember telling my first boyfriend at uni how badly i wanted a Gucci handbag for my birthday, it was literally all i wanted and he took out a credit card to buy it for me. I didn't beg him ,but he wanted to make me happy. So, with that my final point being, if a man wants to spoil you there is no stopping him. If he's broke, he'll take out credit. If he's rich, £800 Jimmy Choo's will be pocket change to him. A man who wants to provide is that way inclined regardless of how much money he has, so always good to observe his generosity in the early stages. I hope this helps xoxx

#hypergamy #datingadivce #manifestyourreality #levelupjourney #levelup #lawofattraction #manifesting #growthmindset #levelup confidence lawofattraction powerofthemind #manifest #manifestingmindset #healing

[see-fee]

Ben Chaplin is my Elijah Baley.

The unassuming British actor with smouldering, darkly handsome looks may not be the thinking woman's crumpet, but has the right touch (heh) of reserved, intense, brooding sensitivity. And he's played several gay men.

I started thinking about actors when I cast Matt Bomer as Daneel and entertained the idea of Pedro Pascal for Elijah, but Pascal just didn't feel right to me. Too sensing, too much of an extroverted chad. So I Googled around for anyone who might fit the bill, and found this most suitable fellow. His screen career is somewhat middling and mostly supporting roles, but he's been in critically acclaimed theatre.

I happily cast him and made (+AI) a ton of (yet-to-be-posted) images of him as Elijah before I ever even saw a single performance of his. Then I watched The Nevers. And it confirmed that I was right. My husband agrees!

I also wanted to keep him all to myself, but I decided to share my secret since my book covers modeled on his likeness were appreciated.

Tags that I totally agree with. Like, I love Daneel, but Elijah is where it's at 🔥

Behold, his gay roles...

1. As Basil getting intimate with Dorian in Dorian Gray (2009):

Imagine this as Elijah making/receiving his offer to Daneel at the beginning of No Unnecessary Distinctions - Chapter 1

2. As Sir Thomas living in secret as a monk, growing close to Brother Matthias, in World Without End (2012):

Imagine this as Elijah weeping over Daneel in Positronic Resistance

3. As gruff conflicted closeted detective Frank Mundi, who's having an uncomfortable secret dalliance with posh libertine Hugo Swann, in The Nevers (2021):

The alcoholism and physical aggression isn't very Elijah, but he’s very repressed and growls about “justice” a lot and gets booted off the case, as per required by Detective Tropes. In a tense yet tender standoff with a tormented/abused mental patient turned serial murderess, she tells him:

“You'd be a good father. Can see that. Sad eyes. Kind, soft bit in the corner.”

That's literally Elijah.

The one time Hugo made Frank smile, and he tried very hard not to, because he is a Gruff Tsundere Detective™️:

Ben Chaplin quote on Frank Mundi (from above interview):

“…he carries his own secrets and battles his own demons. It’s to do with Frank’s Elijah’s sexuality. There has been dalliances between Hugo and Frank Daneel and Elijah. There’s an attraction that he finds upsetting, and worrying, and confusing. He’s absolutely torn and a complete mess about it. There’s this ‘push me, pull me’ agony going on. And shame, great shame about it.”

Need I say more?

if Elijah wore glasses...

Let it be known that @see-fee could give Nina Gold a run for her money :P

#elijah baley #asimov #fancast #ben chaplin #the nevers is a mess though

[zu-is-here]

Zu, how do you know who you love, or what you love romantically?

I always thought that I would love a man and that it would be true love, all that. I've always been a girl who likes Disney with Prince Charming and true love with fairy tales. Maybe that's also why I love Cream and Dark Cream, after all despite all the difficulties they went through, they always stayed together and love each other. But how do you know what you love ?

In the books, love is the butterflies in the stomach, it's wanting to see the person again even if it's only been 5 minutes since they left each other, it's having the impression that nothing else matters when that person is there.

But these feelings I never felt them. I mean, I've been in a "relationship" (if you can call it that, when you're a kid), but I didn't feel anything, I just did what adults do, I saw how happy they looked.

I thought that the fact that others when I was older were dating but not me was just normal, I'm not a person who talks easily to others, even less when it's people my age, so it's normal that people are not attracted to me. And then, I have already found beautiful boys but not to the point of imagining myself in a couple with them.

I told myself a while ago that I shouldn't really be attracted to men, but I'm not attracted to women either.

When people said they loved me or that someone they knew had feelings for me, I felt weirdly embarrassed, after all I didn't feel anything for them so how was I supposed to act so I didn't hurt them without playing with their feelings.

At the same time, I already knew people who wanted to put me in couple with someone, for them I have to take time, the love arrives slowly. And I know it's true, for some people it wasn't love at first sight, but they love each other anyway. But I can't really imagine myself with someone, I don't know why.

I know there is something called aromanticism, but I don't want to be that, or rather I am afraid to be that. If I'm aromantic, I could never be in love, I could never know what it's like to be in a relationship with someone you love. I know what I'm about to say is a bit shocking, but I'll just feel even more like a broken object.

First of all, you're not broken╰(*´︶`*)╯And not "a lonely half without the soulmate" either, let's leave it to fiction x) You're a holistic person with your own principles, interests, feelings and a right to choose.

Just because you're not in a relationship now, or can't imagine it yet, or not sociable "enough" to get one doesn't mean you can't love and be loved.

I believe it doesn't even matter if your partner will be a man or a woman, love is blind. Falling in love with beautiful boys is not the only right way either, cause the person you love is handsome to you anyway.

And to be aromantic, in my opinion, is about feeling fully comfortable without romantic love, yet you keep looking for it, even though it's not about your future relationship at all:

Everything starts with self-love.

Not with selfishness and total egoism (≧∀≦) But with accepting yourself without trying to be someone or with someone. Looking for love as salvation is also just a path to an unhealthy relationship.

Before giving love to someone, you should give this love to yourself. It'll take time to work on yourself, on your fears and resentments, especially on your relationship with your parents, but it'll help you a lot.

~Love at first sight~, like in fairy tales, sounds beautiful but is really dangerous.

You never know who a person in front of you might actually be, and putting all the responsibility for your happiness on someone you barely know by getting attached to them is, to put it mildly, weird.

That's why it's important to stay cool (and you're doing the right thing by remaining beyond feelings so you can soberly assess the situation úwù).

"Spark, storm, madness" usually end in failure, while true love does come quietly and slowly. To be honest, the best relationships often begin with "God, anyone but him" XD

And in this regard, Cream is a good example! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)˚✧₊⁎ They don't fall in love at first sight, but Dream gives Cross a chance, hope for a prosperous future, and the opportunity to be accepted.

Circumstances bring them together, though they keep a distance between each other, but then they begin to spend more and more time together, and oops! Cross realizes that he's in love and that he wants to become a better person for Dream, while Dream doesn't reciprocate to the last.

Dark Cream is the next step and more about saving what you've achieved together so don't even try to save an abuser you barely know! :'D

So don't be afraid to give people a chance! (ówò)☆

You're not obligated to feel sympathy from the very first meet after all, and you can always stay honest with a person by saying "I need more time to get to know you better". Just take your time to look at the person, his attitude towards you, his actions for you.

And then, one day, you'll maybe catch yourself thinking that you don't really mind being with him. And it's not love yet! :D Just a next step with him proposing you to date. That's, though, the right place for butterflies, goosebumps and other little delights <3

Of course, you don't have to force yourself to be with a person if he's completely unsympathetic to you, even after so much time, as well as to start a relationship with him while you can't reciprocate. Your heart and your body know better, they won't lie to you ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

Even while dating, it still doesn't mean your final decision: you just keep getting to know each other while being closer than before, and it may take longer before both of you are sure that you want to spend your whole life together.

Love yourself, listen to yourself and never betray yourself ★ You are loved already, for the good things are prepared for you ahead ♡ Best of luck!╰(*´︶`*)╯

#ask #tip

[tamashiiraiden]

FACELESS LEADER

ARATAKI ITTO X RAIDEN! READER

In which the puppet of Raiden Ei receives a secret admirer all around Inazuma. But, this admirer seems to be scared to show himself. What happens if they cross paths? The faceless puppet y/n is, decides to look for him without Hiding her face

DEFINITIONS BEFORE YOU READ

(ARCHON NAMES)

archon name examples; (Morax, Barbatos, Beelzebub, Baal, Buer)

"Lady Y/n it seems that you get many gifts in Valentines day more than in your own Birthday? how ironic." Yae miko, the spoiled yokai she is compliments

"At least I actually get something."

"oh, giving me the cold shoulders I see?" she smirks as she drinks her macha tea specially made for her.

'in total of all these its 126 gifts.' I think to myself but finally I came down to see a Letter with a beetle sticker on it.

FOR MY BELOVED FUTURE ARCHON WIFE

I'm so sorry for the scribbles! don't mind them, but ..I just want to say to you Y/n Raiden, that you are so amazing let alone a puppet. You have survived countless wars during Inazuma's hardest times. Especially for the Oni's ! Though I did not give this to you with pride I'm glad you are able to read this and rather than ripping it into shreads.

I..I Love you Lady Y/n, In the shadows. I have always admired you but. I'm no Shrek and your no Princess Fiona, Who would look at me and consider me as a human? I'm just an Oni living in a Demigod's shadow knowing that your feelings would never return, all I can ever do is Give up.

But I'll say this one more time.

I LOVE YOU

-Love the one and Oni.

I was suprised, No man has ever dedicated their lives for me and.. he is an oni?

" " "

Lately, Sara has been dealing with some oni business so I quickly went to the training grounds where she always trains.

"pardon me Sara,'' I come up to her as she stopped to look at me and bowed in respect ''Lady Y/n! I am glad to see you in good condition, what is the issue?'' she asks and I sigh and responded

''do you know anyone who claims to go by 'the one and oni?" she quickly reacted and her face looked upset

"did he do anything bad to you?!" she yelled a bit but I shook my head signing a 'no' and It made her calm down a bit

"that guy is a jerk of a delinquent. He doesn't like defeat,a total idiot and a fucking oni!'' she yelled she seemed annoyed

''whatever you want to ask me, his name is Arataki Itto, a crimson oni, a gang leader, has a geo vision. one thing you have to know is that I'm on bad terms with him and I can't wait to arrest him again."

I was more shocked, I didn't expect a Delinquent to be attracted by me and did she say Itto ..? If I could remember it, He was the boy I always played with as a kid alongside some children. Nobody even knew I was the Puppet of Beelzebub.

" " "

I was currently walking around all alone, I sneaked out of the Shogunate Palace to find this Itto guy I know I should've at least informed someone,

but guards would be by my side by now. It's funny how I'm literally stronger than Sara, and I'm still being pampered like a fragile puppet. Well I was but that was when I still had ball joints, and to my luck. It disappeared on its own.

It was a cold night and no human in Inazuma has ever seen my face before, take Morax as an example (before he became Zhongli) no one had ever seen his face as the Geo Archon, nor' he'd ever did.

people has seen me but not without the cloth I was wearing I think only Ayato and mom have been the only people who saw me without it.

'cold .. its cold..'

" " "

'ahh shit .. it's too cold..' I thought to myself but then I spotted men coming in my way so I quickly prepared for battle.

"who's there?"

I had no cloth in me to Identify as Y/n the next Electro Archon.

"don't worry ma'am I won't harm you a green haired youth showed herself in the shadows "who are you?" I asked suspicous about her I mean her face is literally covered.

"I am Kuki Shinobu, May I help you? you seem lost. Do you seek shelter? I know a place'' She responded

I NEEDED TO LIE.

"Yes I need shelter real fast but.. do you happen to recognize a guy named, Arataki Itto..? m-my lady Y/n sent me off to find them, all she said was that she received a letter to him and told me to look for him.." the girl who is identified as Shinobu looked surprised and suddenly

"WHAT? THE GREAT LADY Y/N RESPONDED TO BOSS' LOVE CONFESSION?" Some random dude came out and yelled behind the bushes where Shinobu came out.

"y-yes..'' I faked stuttered

"let us take you to him then.'' Shinobu said as we left off to go to their meeting area

" " "

I was currently talking to one of the members of Itto's gang, it seems that he was on a meeting and we were planning to surprise him. I didn't care about it I'm already 500 years old, we were planning to tell it to him when he's finally annoyed.

he was reportedly the one who annoys everyone and everywhere, he was always around their necks. "I want him to taste his own medicine." Shinobu looked awfully annoyed by him

"we finally arrived"

I was getting stares by the delinquents, trying to terrify me? funny. "where's boss?'' Shinobu asked one of them "in a meeting with the entire Oni Gangs, he's fucking busy."

I could feel this scent everywhere I decided to follow it, it led me to a room and a bunch of men arguing

"WE GOTTA ATTACK THE TENRYOU COMISSION!" One yelled

"YOU TRYNA DIE BITCH? GO TO HELL YOU STUPID ONI"

I decided to knock the door but this time I quickly put on a cloth I saw near me

a gentleman/butler answered "hello?- LADY Y/N?"

"Hello."

ARATAKI ITTO'S POINT OF VIEW

All of us Oni leaders were arguing about attacking the Tenryou Comission because of the vision hunt decree, of course I was against the decree but attacking them is just too much for me and the gang.

''WE GOTTA ATTACK THE TENRYOU COMISSION!" The lavender Oni yelled

I respond "YOU TRYNA DIE BITCH? GO TO HELL YOU STUPID ONI" But then someone knocked the door and the butler of the blue Oni opened it and he suddenly yelled

"hello?- LADY Y/N?" he yelled and made us look at him in shock as he back away.

"Hello."

I looked at her in shock and so was the other Oni's

'' good evening to you too all Oni's but I'm afraid you're not nice to my friends? do I serve my stand?"

everyone was silent Until the Lavender Oni responded an anxious response "I- Uh .. Lady Y/n.. we can explain.."

'' and I thought our clans were friends lavender Oni you have failed me and the entire government attorneys.''

''But I'm not looking forward to fight Oni's today I just want to take you're little Crimson Oni" she said as everyone looked at me dead serious like

'you better fucking go you stupid idiot.'

"y-yea sure.. my lady ..'' I stood up from my desk and walked up to her I was indeed turning as red as my old skin.

"l-look, if it's about the letter thing I gave you yesterday- please just tell it to me straight in my face..''

at a sudden, she started taking off her cloth

"do you not recognize me, Itto ..?'' she looks up at me as I admired her beauty, she was so beautiful. I don't think any man wouldn't admit it,

"n-no.. who are you- well.. who were you?.." I asked as I peck her chin

"don't you remember?"

FLASHBACK

NO ONE'S POV

a young crimson Oni was running around to get the Onikabuto but he suddenly tripped and bleed severely. It seems like the boy had tripped in an Oni trap filled with different types of beans, he was screaming in utter pain and kept crying as hives started to show in his beautiful red skin

"HAHAHAHHA what a loser!" a human boy came out ''fortune in Oni out! fortune in Oni out!"

"FORTUNE IN ONI OUT!"

they kept repeating that stupid chant.. until..

-

-

-

"oi! leave him alone!"

-

the boy couldn't take the pain any longer. And he passed out in severe pain.

-

-

-

-

The boy suddenly felt warm liquid being pressed into his bruise he finally squinted his eyes and saw the same exact girl that defended him, he reacted and backed away, not until a tree hit his weak back as he groaned in pain and possibly had cried a bit

"don't come near me!" he covered himself as he tears up and sobs unbelievable ugly cries

''AW come on! I defended you with my kind and this is what you react to me? that's frustrating!" he finally looked at her and saw her beautiful lilac orbs and dark purple hair those looks gave him a feeling..

"eh.. uhm.. why do you look like the Shogunate?"

the girl flinched at his words "eh.. uh..''

'' I suppose, People can get lucky..?" '' not when they are from Inazuma.."

"but here, let me help you..'' she soon became emotionless and treated my wounds

"t-thank you.. uh.."

'' call me (archon name)"

"Wow your parents really picked that out for you huh"

"you?"

"Oh! It's Arataki Itto!"

END OF FLASHBACK

''W-Wait.. that was you..?'' Itto blushed as you nodded

"what made you come up with (Archon name)? pretty weird yk.." ''uhm.. that's my name as an Archon you know.. something like Morax or Barbatos?"

"o-oh! I'm sorry hahaha I'm not used to calling people by their god names." he lightly chuckled

"but lets get to the point.." she responded as his face become serious

"Itto, do you still love me?" she looks at him straight in his face he swore his horns were melting

"n.."

-

It was a quiet silence for the two

-

'' yes.. yes my lady.. even after all those things I had gone through, My eyes were onto you the whole entire time.." he held her hand tightly

"all I want to know.. is that do you love me back?"

,,,

''..Yes, I love you back. Ever since we were still young"

,,,

A bird started to fly away from It's tree

as the bird flew it landed to it's owners hand

"oh? I see she is safe," the woman talked

"huh? with the Arataki gang leader? loving eachother? saving him from an Oni trap at a young age?"

"I see,"

"She'll be talking to me when she gets back."

Raiden Ei looks at the sky as she is ready to talk with her last puppet.

TO BE CONTINUED

#arataki itto #genshin fanfic #genshin impact #arataki gang #arataki x you #itto x reader #itto x y/n #arataki itto x reader #genshin impact raiden #tamashiiraiden

[josies-not-suicidal-now]

I'm sick and tired of keeping this thought to myself because it's just so obvious to me but I see where the confusion is coming from

I'm seeing people complaining about lesbians who claim to be attracted to trans men, and like I understand that if you live in the world where lesbian is a sexuality that means "woman loving woman" then of course someone calling themselves a lesbian and hitting on trans guys is jerk behavior, totally

but I live in the world where lesbian is a word that people have used in the past to mean loads of things, and people use in the present to mean loads of things, and in the future lesbian will mean loads of things

there were entire communities of straight women who called themselves lesbians, because for them being a lesbian didn't mean loving women it meant never dating men

so clearly the idea that "lesbian" means anything is just bunk, nobody knows what it means, anyone who claims to know what it means is fooling themselves

what exists, in the real world, what you can touch and kiss and feel and smell, that's real life lesbians, and real life lesbian communities, and those communities are gonna contain trans men, even some trans men who aren't lesbians, and to be entirely honest those communities aren't guaranteed to include me, because they can be really transmisogynistic like let's just be real about that, but the point is, sometimes when people call themselves a lesbian, they're just saying they like those communities, or are attracted to the kinds of people who are in those communities

you'll find life is a lot more fun when you start saying lesbian in the same way you say goth, emo, or punk, I think saying lesbian the same way you say homosexual is really boring actually

#discourse

[maguro13-2]

Tohru and Her not-so Lesbian friends

Tohru : Hey, guys. You think that we've known each other since the 2000s and I feel like that you two are Lesbians. What's so weird about that?

Arisa : Well, we just had to make a profitable change on our advisory because were running down on the Beverley Hills Cup.

Saki : It's our agent from Tokyo, we had some no go on the Lesbian schedule in the county of PBC, Florida. Everyone believes that were lesbians to you, just except that I was falling in love with a dumbass. But I have no idea whatever that's gonna costs us for the absolute reason for the show.

Tohru : Umm, nothing bit too much about it. You sure you have a better solution then your lesbian problems? I know any place for Lesbians to hang out. You could eventually go to Fort Lauderdale, Atlanta, Boston, or even Vermont, that place is Lesbian Friendly. Do you know something about why the writers are making you a Heteorsexual, it's like, it's vanilla over and over again, why they make you a heterosexual to a man that doesn't even know about you being a lesbian? Do I make myself clear of that? If fans are worried about you being lesbian to Arisa, then I'm gonna come over and say that to my face!

Arisa : Gee, I don't know, Tohru, That's a real reason why fans were hungry for yuri and lesbianism, they just wanted to get some attraction to every girl that is gayer on the planet, it's not like it's the end of the world thing. Just to remind you that being a lesbian is our number one superiority. And besides, we give you this necklace from our second honeymoon.

Saki : It's a gift from us.

Tohru : Thanks guys. I wouldn't appreciate this much to you as it appreciate this to us, I would never let my pals turn down and make it an official statement to sobriety! So lay it on me, Amigos. I have no comment to see your precious gift from your second honeymoon.

Saki : Alright here. (Gives Tohru a bloody knife)

Tohru : What? What is this in my hand that you're giving it to me?

Saki : It's a knife that Arisa borrowed me from our second honeymoon.

Tohru : Like did you really killed someone for the writers making you heterosexual?

Saki : Sure did. I just killed the man that I married to. To make sure to tell the writers what pieces of sh** made fans angry that I was married to a guy that I did not even met!

Tohru : I think that's a second-degree man slaughter.

Arisa : Not it wasn't. We just had to clear the evidence and made it safer in order to make us your parents! Who's the idiot laughing now? I got the writers what they deserve to make me a freaking heterosexual!

Tohru : And why is that?

Saki : Because I just hate men. That's what I do. I'm still going with the lesbian thing anyway and it's really kicking it up a notch. Besides, what's the worst thing that could happen? (hears police sirens wailing)

Police Officer : (on megaphone) The Three of you freeze! Put your hands up in the air where we can seem them!

Tohru : Officers, wait! We can explain! I'm innocent! Not me! We would never do such a thing and...(Realizing) Wait, did somebody called the cops on us?

Saki : Probably my husband that he called the police after he realizes that I'm still a lesbian.

Arisa : It was totally worth it.

Tohru : (scoffs) You guys are such major assholes to me. Can't believe that the fans were so angry because the writers had to make you a heterosexual to a married man which you slaughtered and that's the real reason the people of Japan are arrogant and we feel like that were just a bunch of idiots that got us into this mess that we made! So now that your husband has called the fuzz after you and Arisa attacked him, what does Johnny Law gonna do to us now, put us behind bars?

(cuts to the three at prison and are wearing orange uniforms)

Tohru : Oh, way to go, Mrs. Lesbian! They just had to do that for no reason, I get worked up on something real good after you just killed someone for being a heterosexual.

Saki : Well I'm sorry that the writers didn't listen anyway, so I was furious and to put the blame on our author, that is literally stupid for them after we found out that no one makes shows like us in the 2000s anymore. Got any ideas?

Arisa : I thought that you would never stand a chance. Just to make it so obvious we could get a major let down. So, what are we gonna do now after we committed a second-degree manslaughter?

Saki : Bro, what are we in here for anyway? We have ran out of ideas and we got nothing to worry about, it's a thing in the past, don't get that idea of yours in your head. Just think outside the box and fresh it out, why don't ya?

Arisa : As long as we have each other, we could work things out. Totally getting my grip on after they're serving us with all that prison food wasn't just my habit of goodwill. That is literally me for taking any showers at prison like this.

Tohru : Then don't drop the soap, cause I don't really care anymore.

Saki : Drop the soap is a game in prison, that's how stuff works when you are in the showers, don't drop the soap.

Arisa : Man, it's tough for us to be in a situation like this. I don't know how that's ever gonna happen to us.

Saki : So does this mean we get to be together forever?

Arisa : Of course, until we go to hell for this.

Tohru : Why did i even bother listenting to you guys? I hope I could really last this after my boyfriend broke up with me. I knew I should've been a Picnic Basket girl.

[Game Over (NSMB WII ver.) - Koji Kondo]

[Iris out]

~ THANKS A LOT, SAKI AND ARISA! ~

#fruits basket #tohru honda #saki hanajima #arisa uotani #tms entertainment #comedy #dark comedy #funny #humor #dark humor #romance comedy #shoujo

[demonic-play]

It was just another Sunday, but this time I wasn't sitting at home. I decided I would take a walk in town for a while, hoping I could find myself a little action! The streets were pretty dead and so I walked on over to Wally World to grab a snack. While I was looking around, an employee came up to me and asked if I needed any help. I turned to look at him and my jaw hit the floor! This guy was Hispanic, about 6'6, and maybe 22. He had tattoos up and down his arms, a lip ring and I could tell he was really packing, if ya know what I mean. His ears were pierced and he wore a golden cross around his neck. His eyes were green, his jet black hair was messed up and kinda slicked back, and he was wearing shorts and black Converse. He had a heavy dusting of hair on his legs and arms and he wasn't wearing any socks. I couldn't help but stare at his package, not hiding my attraction. I told him I might need some help later if the offer was open once he got off. He quickly told me he was busy when he got off, and looked at me like I was awfully bold to inquire about his off duty intentions. He quickly walked away, and I could smell the armpit sweat from his work all day, which instantly got my dick coming to attention.

I wasn't going to let this moment go by without something to remind me off his smell and stepped into the men's room to rub one out.

I was about 5 minutes into groping my crotch when I heard someone else enter the bathroom. I didn't stop what I was doing, in fact I started pumping harder. To my surprise, my stall door opened and in came Ricardo, the employee I was just talking to. He closed and lifted up the door to lock it, which I obviously had not, and fumbled to get his hard cock free from his shorts. "You like this faggot?" He snapped, shoving his 9 inch meat in my face.

I couldn't even answer I was so nervous and opened my mouth to take his beef.

He didn't waste no time shoving his cock down my throat, making me gag on the last 4 inches. He smelled musty and ripe, and kept shoving it down my throat.

This was such a total turn on for me, but I wanted to see those size 15s and feel them om my face. I took his dick out of my mouth and got down on the floor and started untying his laces. Wow, these Chuck's smelled like they had been worn for days with no socks. I pulled the first one off and held it up to breathe in his essence. Wow, I would have loved to take those shoes home. He stopped me wanting to know what the fuck I was doing and I slipped his big toe into my mouth. I could see the kid was enjoying this, as was I. My dick was so hard I could have broke glass. I ran my tongue in and around his toes making him moan in ecstasy.

"Fuck!" He moaned, "fuck homie, keep that shit up!" He kicked off his other shoe and replaced his wet foot with the dry one. This foot was much more odorous than the other one, and I couldn't get enough of his stench. He sat down on the toilet and pushed his foot further into my mouth, while rubbing my throbbing cock with the other one. He started playing with my ass with his big toe, while pulling his other foot out of my hungry mouth and pushing it back in. He managed to shove his toe up into my ass as far as he could get it and I kept pushing myself further on it. I had never had a foot up my ass but I was willing to take his. I bucked and rode the top half of his foot after managing to get half of it inside me. The swirling of my tongue on his toes was driving him crazy. He thrust his foot into me a couple more time and ribbons of hot sticky cum came shooting out of my cock, landing on his chest. It must have pushed him over the edge, because he shoved as much of his foot as he could in my wanting hole and forced his dick into my mouth, fitting it all snugly in my throat as he started to shoot his warm load down my throat. Gagging, I managed to swallow every drop of his Latin leche before needing to cum up for air. He looked at me, pulled up his shorts, put back on his shoes, and spoke,

"Be here tomorrow at 9pm. I got something I want to try on you, and don't be late, my break is only 30 minutes." I assured him I would be there, and th÷n he bent over as if he was going to kiss me, instead however he just spit in my mouth and grabbed me by the back of my head.

"YOU ARE MY BITCH NOW FAGGOT, DONT FORGET IT. YOU WILL CALL ME MASTER JACOB.!" and he walked out of the bathroom, taking my dignity with him.

[hrhmiat]

An excerpt from The Princess Diaries: KEEP OUT! Chapter 5 (PROM NIGHT!)

(Warning this chapter is explicit) Wow, I was such a spaz in my last journal entry. Thank GOD Michael is the best boyfriend I could ever ask for! Yesterday was such an incredible day, even though it started with my anxiety through the roof! I swear, I don't know why I get so worked up over things! I should've known it would all work itself out. Everything turned out fine. Well, more than fine, actually, but I'm getting ahead of myself, aren't I? I'm not here to elaborate on the whole blowjob blowout incident; instead, I'm here to continue documenting prom night, one of the best nights ever!

So, where was I?

Oh, right. 

I told Michael how much I loved him when he mouthed, "I know," mimicking Han Solo's reply to Princess Leia when she confessed her love for him in Star Wars: Episode V- The Empire Strikes Back. That's when I practically threw myself on top of him, kissing him in a hunger I've never experienced before. I’m now wondering if this is how Tina felt when she confessed to me at the Icepack Penguin exhibit the first time she and Boris had sex, that it was “ just too much to resist .” It must have been because, I swear, I honestly don’t know what came over me jumping on Michael like that! Well, I mean, I DO! I was ready to have sex, but I had no idea it would happen like flicking on a light switch! 

I was getting very comfortable on top of Michael, and he was too, crushing me closer with his arms wrapped around my waist, making our bodies form as one on his big oversized couch. We were like this for a long time. I mean, a really long time as our tongues entwined in their intimate dance of need and hunger. The memories from our previous makeout sessions came rushing back like a tidal wave. It felt like old times, like we were back in Michael's College dorm room when he attended Columbia University, where I had let Michael's hands venture the farthest. 

At first, when Michael started to roam, I hovered my hand over his, moving in all the sensational directions over my body, in preparation to smack away before the inevitable of getting caught. It was not until Michael reminded me, in a low husky whisper, that we were alone, and I was all his for the night. I relaxed immediately, running my hand slowly up his muscular arm, outlining the shape of his biceps before tangling my fingers into his hair. 

This, by the way, reminded me that not only had Michael gotten even hotter in Japan, but also had indeed confirmed our suspicions. He had undoubtedly bulked up! I remember thinking then, hoping he didn't go too Wolverine on me. Not that I would mind because it's Michael, but I had never considered myself attracted to that muscular body type. Spoiler alert: It totally turns me on! I just watched X-Men 3: The Last Stand, and I can confirm Micahel has gone full Wolverine! 

Anyway, I'm getting ahead of myself. It was silly, thinking we'd get caught, but I guess all these years, being hyper-aware of the lack of juvenile privacy made me paranoid, except now I was eighteen, and no one was around to interrupt us. Not Lars, not Michael's former roommate, Doo Pak, his parents, or mine, and not even his sister, Lily, could break our lip lock. I melted into his touch, truly enjoying where Michael's hands roamed freely without worry. 

As his hands wandered, I felt safe and secure. And since I'm admitting my deepest secrets in this journal, I was very, very turned on, unlike when I was trying to feel something, ANYTHING with J.P. 

#mia thermopolis #the princess diaries #princess diaries #michael moscovitz #books #lily moscovitz #thesnowflakenecklace #ao3 fanfic #ao3 writer #my otp #i'll wait

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Hi, you can call me Pronoun Anon. I briefly mention sexual trauma and stalking. I'm not sure if this is the right blog to ask but you always answer people in such a nice and nonjudgmental way, I wanted to come here for some advice and opinions.

I have never questioned being anything other than a cis female and go by she/her pronouns. A few years ago I was targeted by an abusive stalker ex and had some other traumatic incidents where guys disrespected my boundaries and made me feel uncomfortable. I also faced a lot of misogynistic comments (guys telling me they could do whatever they wanted to me and that my thoughts didn't matter since I'm just a girl and can't have my own thoughts anyway).

Basically because I'm a girl and they wanted me and I didn't feel the same way, men made my life a living hell and I went through some of the worst mental health periods of my life, including having to go to the hospital. These were guys I met at public events, saw me, felt attracted to me, and wanted to pursue something more than just friendship, and wouldn't listen to me when I said no. Not even in a rude way or anything but just me letting them know I wanted us to stay friends, and them arguing with me that "guys and girls can't be just friends" and continuously trying to pressure me into romance and sex with them while ignoring my discomfort.

I stayed out of public events for a while, but now one is coming up that my friend invited me to (it would be my first one in four years). And… I kind of feel inclined to have people call me by they/them or it/its in public? I haven't had anyone try it out on me but I feel like it might be more comfortable. (I'm also interested in some neopronouns I feel connected to, but feel like even they/them and it/its may be hard for people to get used to, or seem "snowflake-y" to people who already know me as a cis girl who wants to change pronouns now)

I don't get bothered by she/her because it's what I've gone by my whole life both offline and online, and have always thought of myself cis, but when I'm in places where there are men around me looking at me in a prefatory way, I want to "detach" myself from that, and not be "seen as a girl" (I also don't wear feminine clothes anymore, and stick to more androgynous fashion styles).

I also feel like it's a matter of kind of wanting a "fresh start" from my old self. Like people remember me as she/her so this kind of gives me a chance at a new identity (I also plan on going by a different nickname in public, since my old nickname was very unique and recognizable).

Just wanted some thoughts on this because it might be impacting my near future and I'm not sure what exactly to think of it. Like Idk if it's even "reasonable" to begin with and I don't want to start telling my friends to call me by different pronouns in public if it's going to seem weird or fake. Does where I'm coming from make sense?

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry about what you've been going through. That sounds really distressing to experience, and I hope you've found some healing.

If using other pronouns in certain settings is what would make you feel more comfortable, then that's a perfectly valid reason to use them. It's also okay to use more than one set of pronouns - you can use they/them, it/its, or whatever other pronouns you had in mind along with she/her pronouns.

I think it's absolutely understandable to want to detach from feeling preyed upon, especially in public settings, and I totally get how femininity can be tightly interwoven with that feeling. I also used to be a cis girl but after some sexual trauma by a boy I started exploring my gender expression and I found that "dressing masculine" actually made me feel safer because I didn't feel targeted. I write about this more in detail in my expose, so if you're interested to hear what I wrote, feel free to ask.

I also just want to say that I really resonate with the idea of a fresh start and a new identity. I changed my name to something more masculine (although I tend not to tell the internet what it is) and in my experience I do feel that it has served that purpose for me, so maybe that will come to fruition for you as well.

There's a common misconception that pronouns indicate gender identity, which isn't necessarily true. Like you can identify as a cis girl and use they/them pronouns, you can identify as a trans man and use she/her pronouns, whatever makes sense to you. So while it's perfectly okay to explore your gender identity, you can use whatever pronouns you feel comfortable using, even if you continue to identify as cis. If people find it weird or fake, then maybe those people don't deserve you.

Ultimately, don't let other people's treatment of you stop you from going out and enjoying yourself.

I hope I could help, please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw sa #tw abuse #pronoun anon

[asexual-means-no-attraction]

Buddy help a dude out: what exactly counts as sexual attraction? Because I assumed that EVERYONE was repulsed by genitals or felt like... absolutely neutral towards them, and that people talking about being attracted to them was like...a metaphor? But I've been informed that apparently people actually literally genuinely LIKE genitals??? I don't, never have. The thought of penetrative sex repulses me, oral sex too but less. On a good day I feel totally neutral about genitals and I think that if push came to shove I could be convinced to top someone as long as I didn't have to really look at what was going on, and I could probably give a blowjob / eat out as well. Like it wouldn't do anything for me but as long as it made my lover happy I'd tolerate it. But anyone being anywhere near MY genitals is a HARD NO for me.

But despite these feelings towards genitals and what is traditionally considered sex, I have fetishes? Like I won't go into details because this is already TMI but there ARE definitely things I would like to do and that turn me on, it's just that none of them include genitals in any way. That's still attraction tho, right? Like, I like people of both sexes, I just don't want to have traditional sex with them, but I want to make out and I want to eat get tied up, etc etc, so I'm still bi, right? Cuz a few people have told me that it makes me ace and that I should look into asexuality but??? I'm pretty sure I'm bisexual??

Not sure how long this is gonna be but I'm going to break it up into bullet points cuz I think it's easiest.

-you're attraction to men and women. You're bisexual. Doesn't matter if you have sex or not. All that matters is you're attracted to all genders.

-fetishes are sexual. But not all sexual things involve genitals. There are plenty of sexual activities, undertones, fetishes that don't involve genitals at all. Like sure genitals play a big part most of the time, but it doesn't mean they're the only part.

-I mean??? I've met people who are both enjoy and are repulsed by the exact same genital. You literally pee outta there. It's gross. But just cuz something's gross doesn't mean you can't like it.

-you don't need traditional sex. Full stop. That's not necessary and no one will ever know whether you have it or not. Nor do most people even care.

-not gonna lie. I used to have a shit done of repulsion. Couldn't even look at myself down there. Hard enough to use the bathroom. But my repulsion came from gender dysphoria. So as I've medically transitioned I have found that the repulsion has gone down too. It might be useful to figure out where yours stems from. Not so you can "fix it" but rather it's just nice to know what causes it.

-same topic. It doesn't need fixed. Some people just don't like those areas on bodies. While there are lots of people that LOVE that area, I find a lotta people agree that it's kinda gross down there.

-on a similar note. I don't know what experiences you've had. But I also found I was significantly more repulsed when I didn't have any experience. Not telling you to go out there and do shit. Don't do anything unless you actually feel ready. But exposure I think can help if it's something you want to be more comfortable with. That said, wait till you're actually with someone you feel comfortable with. Don't push yourself. Seriously. If it happens it happens. Don't let it get to you.

-I lump sexual and romantic attraction into each other because the two can't really be separated in a meaningful way. But everything you described sounds like attraction. Attraction can vary from crush to crush and even from day to day. Hence you going from repulsed to neutral is also pretty common. Someday you're into shit others days you're not. Some days you're meh about things and other days super for or against. That's just life.

As a wrap up.

Don't worry. Yes that's all attraction. You don't need to be comfortable with traditional sex to be attracted to people or even have fetishes. It's all pretty normal. Liking shit is normal. Not liking shit is normal. Just do what you're comfortable with and enjoy yourself.

#answered #ask