#and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[voidcoretxt]

holy fucking shit my mother is a fucking asshole

#ok so. everything hurts often but not all of the time yeah ? so i tell my mum abt it and she just. refuses !!! to take me to a doctor !!! #and rn she told me that its all in my head and young people dont actually have that happen to them :) #literally go fuck yourself #doesnt help that ive had to beg her to take me to a doctor multiple times and she just. refuses #and god i dont have a drivers license and i dont have the money so i cant just go by myself so shes my only way to get healthcare #i hate it in hereee i dont want to talk to my dad abt it bc hell just use it in court and ill have to live with him :( #edit: so she called me downstairs and made it all about herself. as fucking usual. #she still insists its all in my head but now at least shes calling a doctor #also oh my god will she ever learn that sometimes PEOPLE DONT WANT TO TALK THEY JUST WANT TO BE ALONE. FUCK OFF ASSHOLE. #voidcore.txt

[dandy-lad]

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#i need to be away from here #gott i just... #im autistic right just fyi #and my mum does not treat me as if i were #like she has neurotypical standards for me which i have to meet otherwise there will be Bad Consequences #and this is killing me bc im not neurotypical #the only way she'll treat me as autistic is if i get officially diagnosed #which i kinda want but also dont want #and its just. she's. gott my relationship with her is so complicated but shes caused me so much hurt and trauma and pain and #thats what im feeling right now. that. #i should get a diagnosis for me not for her #but i dont think i can survive in this environment for much longer #i told my dad i might try get diagnosed (havent talked to him about autism before) n he was like “okay” #pretty much verbatim #which is realistically the best response i couldve had #then he went on a rant about how autism “didnt exist” in the past and how its caused by vaccines #and this drug which apparently helps with autism and when i said No im not doing that i dont want to be “cured” this is a thing that #shouldnt be cured he was like ??? then whyd you want a diagnosis #hhhh but that i can deal with. after 4 years of being subjected to his and my mums conspiracy theory bullshit i can put up with it #at first it really stressed me out but i can cope with it now and come up with well thought out and factual grounded counter arguments #n i told my mum that dads fine with me getting a diagnosis n then i asked her if when i get one she'll treat me as if i were autistic #and she laughed and was like wait until you get one #like she doesn’t think i am which shows how Fucking Little she knows about me and how much i have to hide from her #because shes always shouted at me for Every Autistic Trait i display #im never fucking good enough for her #she treats me and percieves of me as if im neurotypical and Im Not #i remember once (after something happened) i heard her shout “WHY CANT I HAVE FUCKING NORMAL CHILDREN” or something like that #that sticks with you. #that shit hurts and sticks with you #who gave this woman two queer autistic mentally ill children to raise who's fucking plan was that

[hyfaesyren]

i need to get the fuck out of here

#personal #mum is literally starting shit from nothing again #hey mum we dont need to blame people for things we can just clean it up #no get fucked fuck u ur fucking insane shut up #*okay thats feels like a really directed violent reaction but i cant say you were the one who left the thing out #or liam starts talking about dad bday coming up #and she starts shit bc we didnt do stuff for her #she doesnt like anything she doesnt like food she doesnt want things weve tried my entire life #and this year was the only year one persons bday didnt end with her screaming someone into a corner #and it was her bday #also bc liam and i booked leave we had a 4 day weekend and she got us all to do housework #we also didnt do anything for liams bday #?????? #and now she is mindreading and being pissy and im fucking done #im the target as well bc i fought back against her blaming bullshit which causes issues in the household #bc its so fucking aggressive #and then i come out to help and the 1st thing she says is i look like shit #wow thanks im literally existing but cool

[half-truths-and-hyperbole-louk]

Louk's Bad Batch rewatch part 6 !!!

Y'all it's getting super close omg we're in feb now 🙃 lets goooo

Bad Batch 1x02

Tech piloting +10 points

I'll never get tired of Wrecker and Omega napping together 🥺

Echo and Hunter mom and dad 💕

our lil bby Omega stepping into the sun !!! soaking up the fresh air and playing in the dirt !!! I am going to sob 😭😭😭

"That would be dirt" ~ Tech 🤣

Tech: "we're all deserters now" Echo: 😮

Hunter stopping Omega from walking into the booby trap

vs Wrecker 2 seconds later...

SUU MY QUEEN 👑💕

Wrecker is eating a meiloorun 👀 watch out buddy Hera's coming for u

Hello yes who do I talk to about getting a Cut Suu & the batch history/flashback/how they met story time anything pretty please

Rex mention 👀

Tech 🤝 Omega casually dropping the biggest plot points like it's nbd

Omega meeting other kids that don't share her dna 🥲

"Uncle Wrecker!" I am totally normal about this

HER CHECKING BACK WITH HUNTER FOR PERMISSION 😭

ok but are we just gonna ignore the fact that Shaeeah looks completely different to tcw ??

Cut knows what's up with the Kaminoans 👀

Cut also knows what's up putting Hunter in his civvie clothes don't come @ me

Rampart 🤢

"Omega went out past the fence!" *bad batch enters dad batch mode* 🏃‍♂️💨

Cut is the daddest of the batch tho 🥺 he's parenting all of them

THEIR FACES WATCHING CUT WITH OMEGA I CANT 😭

For some reason Hunter is the same height as Wrecker in this scene ??? lmao

Omega taking her lil charm out of her hair 🥲

"Almost forgot how good of a shot you are" ~ Hunter @ Suu !! okay backstory PLEASE

Echo complaing about the imperial chaincode database vs Tech "it's ingenious" lmaooo

Hunter has the braincell rn

bro Hunter is literally growling at Tech for putting Omega in danger 👀 are we ready for his completely unhinged s3 arc??

Tech, Echo: 😳😬 Omega: 👋😁

Echo peeking from the roof !!

Tech's flip !!!

Tech catching Omega !!!!!!!

Echo mom put Omega in time out 😞

Echo's scomp skills have grown sm 🥲

the way he balances the chain codes on his scomp hand 🥺

Y'ALL I FORGOT! I'm also doing a 'Wrecker hits his head count' for the first part of s1 and a different count for s2 later 👀 but we'll get to that hehe I hate it! anyway!!

Wrecker hits his head count: 2

(he bonked it on a pole this ep go watch)

Cut and Hunter wearing the same clothes is giving when ur mum dresses you and your siblings in matching outfits

Tech: "we can't get caught with these chain codes" 🤔 Echo: "we can't get caught at all" 💀 being mom is hard

HUNTER GIVING ORDERS WITHOUT WORDS AGAIN bfkwbxhabckw my fav

Tech to the rescueeee

If I had a dollar for every time Omega was in danger bc of a random imperial droid but is saved at the last second by Wrecker smashing it, I'd have 2 dollars... which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice

Omega's hand is so tiny in Wrecker's 😭🤲

Cut and Wrecker are wearing matching hats 💕

"but I want to stay with you" thanks I didn't need my heart anyway 💔

Suu owns my heart fr

"It responded to that" ~ Wrecker 💀

OMEGA SWEETHEART 😭😭😭 someone needs to hug her so bad she's just a baby can ppl stop upsetting her!! This is ep 2 plssss

Where is the Lawquane family? Are they safe? Are they alright?

Thanks y'all for joining again <3 I'm gonna have to keep it up bc feb is already going so fast?

Anywayyy ilysm 💕

#louk’s bad batch rewatch #star wars #the bad batch #tech bad batch #hunter bad batch #bad batch tech #bad batch hunter #hunter the bad batch #the bad batch hunter #hunter tbb #tbb hunter #bad batch echo #echo bad batch #echo tbb #tech tbb #tech the bad batch #the bad batch tech #wrecker tbb #tbb wrecker #wrecker bad batch #omega tbb #omega bad batch #tbb omega #bad batch omega #cut lawquane #suu lawquane #shaeeah lawquane #jek lawquane #bad batch #star wars the bad batch

[etherealspacejelly]

my parents dont get my autism or my transness or my aroaceness

they dont get that im not trying to be rude or selfish or whatever but they think i am

they dont get dysphoria

they keep asking me if i have crushes or a boyfreind

they dont get that if the foods bad ill refuse to eat it

they dont get sensory issues or food issues

they dont get that the internet is a safer place to talk about my emotions than they ever will be

they dont get how much effort i put into trying to be normal for them

they dont get anthing

they keep trying to force me to spend time with them playing board/card games which i hate and they know i hate

they keep messing up my pronouns

one of my dads "insprational" speeches was your not flat, you'll never be flat so give up.

when i first came out my mum said "why cant you just be a lesbian instead of nonbinary or whatever?"

they say i cant call myself trans bc i don't want to be a boy

they dont get how much periods suck even tho they dont hurt

theres probably more but i cant remember it rn

any advice would be helpful

maybe ill run away and live somewhere better for me but i can think of a place

hey anon. unfortunately im not sure how to help you with the autism or aroace stuff myself, even though i am aroace and autistic my mum doesnt really understand either of those and i havent been able to reach that point yet. we have just taken to not talking about it, which is much easier now that i have moved out.

however! i do have something for you that might help! i made a powerpoint about transness for my mum that did help to convince her that being trans is a real and valid thing to be.

i cant link to it on here because it would reveal my full name publicly but you can just make your own! i included facts about the percentage of trans kids that experience anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts, and how gender affirming care significantly lowers those numbers. all of this was taken from the trevor project website!

i also included some stuff about transgender people across history and in different cultures.

i finished it off with a slide about the transgender genocide currently taking place in america and spreading to the UK.

you could make versions of these for autism and aspec people too!

im very sorry that you are experiencing so much invalidation and misunderstanding from your family, i understand how that feels. i hope this technique can help you to teach them a bit about your identities. most of the time when people say mean things about an identity, it is simply because they are misinformed. getting angry and upset is perfectly understandable, but it may make them feel even more antagonised and justified in their bigotry. explaining things to them calmly and simply, with graphs, diagrams, and real data can work wonders.

good luck!

#inbox #ask #inbox open #transgender #autism #aroace #advice

[pippafitzamobisleftblueconverse]

MY AGGGTM HCS (mostly pipravi)!

-Pips fav colour is dark red

-Ravis fav colour is navy blue

-Pip has always been burnout.

-Pip has the best comebacks possible

-Ravis parents ADORE pip

-I mean they legit have her phone number added, and always talk to her

-pip loves Ravi’s parents

-pip always exaggerates

-Connor would blast Ybwm when he had a crush on pip

-Cara would kiss pip on the cheek

-pips an omnivert

-Ravi also is

-Cara and Connor are extroverts

-Ravi has a really calming singing voice, so every time pip has a nightmare, Ravi would sing to her to help her fall asleep (this hc is inspired by @incorrect-pipravi ‘s hc!)

-the only way pip was able to fall asleep after what happened with Stanley was if Ravi was with her

-they get married when pip is 21 and ravi is 24

-they have their first child (a boy) 2 years later

-THEY NAME HIM SAL

-mini sal ends up inheriting his uncles dog allergy so they cant get a dog

-they have a daughter named aria 2.5 years later

-random af but i hc that aria was a premie baby

-sal is identical to his dad while aria is identical to her mom

-they are RICH RICH

-their older son Sal is born on November 6, and their younger daughter aria is born in June 28.

-aria is a mamas girl, like she’s attached to pip by the hip

-she Also loves her dad tho

-she’s a picky eater

-Ravi loves to be physically close to pip

-their first time was in a car (don’t ask)

-Ravi cried when he saw baby Sal for the first time bcs he reminded him so much of his older brother.

-they aren’t big fans of PDA but they would occasionally give each other a peck on the lips

-their first kiss was after Ravi spun her around after they confirmed sals innocence

-like I imagine him putting her down and kissing her at the same time, and just as he’s about to pull back from embarrassment she starts kissing him back

-when she overdosed, Ravi refused to leave her side

-Ravi wasnt there when pip woke up, but when he got the call from her mum, he balled his eyes out from relief

-when he saw her after she woke up, he hugged her so tightly, told her to never risk her life like that again, and then kissed her forehead, and then lips😜

-though Ravi is sweet, he LOVES teasing pip when their having yk (again, don’t.ask.)

-he often flirts with pip discretely when their around others to tease her

-they make out often (don’t.ask)

-Ravi has a lot of pics of pip sleeping and vice versa

-they have a shit ton of 0.5s of each other

-Ravi loves baking/cooking for pip

-Ravi hates it when pip has a panic attack, every time she does it feels like his heart is being stepped on because her panic attacks can be so severe.

-the first time she had a panic attack with him he did cry a bit bcs it sounded like she was in so much pain and he genuinely had no idea how to comfort her, or make it go away.

-after what happened with Stanley, pip had ideas of self deletion.

-she told Ravi this at one point and he held her while she cried for abt an hour

-pip has a shitty immune system so she’s always sick

-Ravi is the exact opposite, he never gets sick

-whenever pip is sick, Ravi would always take care of her (ie:spoon feeding her when she’s too weak to do so herself)

-once tho she had a fever so high ravi had to take her to hospital

-he obvs cried bcs of how worried he was

-ravi has a big daddy dick❤️😜 (joke obviously)

-pip has a key to Ravi’s house and vice versa

[soggypotatoes]

today was the worst day, and of my own choosing haha

I went to uni, it was nice but I felt a bit.. I'm too tired to talk about it but it was hard.. but I did a whole assignment after class which was good! and then I rewarded myself by walking round the library a bit and doing some light reading aka a book abt modern slavery and specifically reading a few chapters written by victims of sex trafficking about the brutality they experienced, and I was all 'oh this is interesting and I'm being education so I am fine to be reading this' only for me to get up and fucking..

it's like staring into a bright light for an hour and then walking around the city with the imprint on your vision that you cant quite see through, yknow? like fuck. slavery is worse than ever and I'm profiting from it. anyway. time to go to my parents place.

and they're living in a nightmare situation rn (their house usually is but it's worse than normal bc my mum's incapacitated by recent surgery but refuses to value herself so shes looking after her friends 3 dogs for a week - 3 young, energetic dogs that jump on her ((SHE HAD SURGERY SHES IN PAIN ALL THE TIME)) and poo in the house and she also already has 2 dogs to look after and my dad's a workaholic who's barely around so I'm going over to walk them bc guess what I also value others over myself anyway)

I'm exhausteddddd y'all.. but I forced myself to find peace with it. it's just, being at my parents is so hard. always takes me like a week to recover when I go there and now I have to go most days even tho my dad and brother are fully able to look after her. I'm the one with empathy so I gotta do it 🙃

ANNNNYWAYS. I feel so much better now bc housemate and I watched a media I hate together and I got to feel my anger and frustration validated. that's something I'm learning, that for me, watching happy nice things makes me feel sad and like something's wrong with me. I need to share my emotions with someone even if it's just hate watching something lmao

#ed mumbles

[possuminnit]

tell me about,, ur,,, OCS!!!!

SORRY I TOOK AGES GETTING TO THIS i wanted to answer it on my pc for typing reasons. umm i know i havent really talked about any of them but since i went on a dive into looking into my neph lore yesterday ill tell you about her!!! (link is art of her lolz)

so baseline info about the mc server i was going to do with irls because thats where she started; we were all making silly characters to play over i think it was summer break just because we could. basic thing is a lot of things would happen to our character, then something very major, then the next day they would wake up in the mc world. so everyone was from a different universe basically. i think each lineup was like... two were aliens/alien-esk but each from different little worlds <- not super sure, one was more from a modern world, one was from a pjo universe, then neph was from a old time-y royal thang. (100% chose that because i had techno;s crown on my skin and wanted an excuse to keep it also because i was very into royal aus when i made her)

OK so basically her story is like. any royal au you'd ever read inthe world. she grew up with her parents heavily disinterested in her, leaving her teachers to deal with her bc they were like who care we just need you to wear the crown one day and rule so we can chill forever. acted decently the same with her brother who is like 4 years younger than her or something. who cares this is not about him !!

her story is a lot of just being ignored and being both understanding and vaguely spiteful over it whatever, she deals, does her school yada yada. one day she ends up getting pissed off after her birthday is ignored once again so he goes to the royal guard and is like hiii! train me :3 and her being prince he was like. yeah ok ? sure. whatever. uerrmm she trains, shes like awesome really, she gets better than the guard over the time its cool its whatever shes just cool like that. Whhile she's training she meets one of the guards, also in training, her name was evelyn . You already know they fall in love 🔥 but its secret they cant really tell about it because of a lot of reasons ehhh whatever. years pass its pretty cool they also get caught a few times but dont Amen. changes on neph's 21st birthday though, her fuckass dad catches them kissing, drags both of them to the court in front of the queen and is like GUESSS WAHT.!

the king and queen order for evelyn to be beheaded. and she is, in that moment, and neph has to watch it. neph is ordered to be exiled but shes like you literally just killed the love of my life <- does some cool quick thang and yanks a sword from a guards hand and starts demolishing the court room. she doesnt get away unscathed obviously, shes a little fucked up and bloody but she does not care she keeps going 🔥anyways she kills her mum and dad, steals her dads crown, then dips. and then yay wow she wakes up in the mc world !!!!!

theres some other things in-between there, and even more about her after the whole dropping into the mc world but ehhh... u get her baseline lore thats ok. i willll say she does fall in love again and is so sick and twisted over it ❤️Sorry neph

#her brother can run the place. at least. if you like ignore his now given trauma #Sorry Ace... <- her brother #OH oh yeah neph is an opossum hybrid but like only a few people know bc she was meant to hide it always #evelyn knew tho she was like woooahg.... wow lets kiss possum girlie #oc: neph #asks! <3 #dumbartist101

[sunmoonjune]

AWWWW YEAHHHH feels good to make a return to my note dedicated to ltm commentary

OH MY GOD IT'S BUG'S MUM. OR I GUESS MUMS SINCE SHE HAS TWO. i never would've guESSed that she would have a biological and non-biological mum. but i think it's really clever on your part because it just adds that much more psychopathic depth to the father's character - he's willing to kill his first and second wife in order to protect his secret.

I CANT BELIEVE HE MADE BUG KILL DAIA ?? ?? ?A?A ????@?@ ??!?/ that is the worst way to take away a child's innocence how did you even come up with such a monstrosity. i guessed before that bug had something to do with her mum's death which her dad then pinned onto her wHICH I MEAN,,,, i'm half right 😬 i just never would've guessed that her father literally forced her to murder her mother. BUT i still stand by my theory that her father then turned around and spewed lies that bug is a cold-blooded murderer for slaughtering his wife and i'm going to guess that that's the incident that leads to her punishment

also the only two times the phrase 'my daughter' is ever used is at the very beginning, when father summons bug for her trial, and mother's last words before she dies. the CONTRAST THOUGH?? between the way the phrase is said and the contexts it's used in??? oh my god you're so clever

OKAY BUT NOW JUST WHAT KIND OF SECRET IS THE FATHER KEEPING. maybe i need to go watch some crime documentaries to gain theory inspiration. i reckon bug's father was definitely capable of killing someone even before he murdered his first wife, so mAYBEEEE it was someone of high importance that would jeopardise his position as head chief if the truth were ever to come out,,, so on that train of thought maybe he murdered the previous head chief. or maybe he was in line for the position and just, yknow, sped up the process a little by getting rid of whoever was in the way. MAYBE HIS OWN FATHER ???? HIS WHOLE FAMILY???

but enough of him, let's talk about bestbois mingi and jongho being steadfast protection for bug,, JONGHO PATTING THE SPACE BETWEEN HIS LEGS SO BUG CAN SIT THERE SO HE CAN GUIDE HER HAND TO LOOK AT THE STARS TOGETHER STOPPPPPPP. bug trusting him so easily and laying back into his cHEST anD THEN THE THREE WORDS 'jongho is strong' AHHHHHHHHH. that's it. someone call the ambulance im about to pass out. HAHAHAHA but also peep mingi being a lil pot-stirrer on the side

remember that thesis on ateez hugs we're planning on writing. i can see a jongho analysis has started WOOF WOOF THICK ARMS 💪 THICK THIGHS 🦵 MUSCULAR CHEST 👕 my mind is so foggy i can't think straight rn hnNGN 🥵🥵

yknow how some fans have the theory that it's seonghwa's first life on earth bc of his galaxy boba eyes that look at everything with wonder and amazement and curiosity. THATS BUG SHES SO STINKING CUTE. and the way all the ateez members look at her with endearing gazes HNNG

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN WE HAVE A SYMBOL FOR ATEEZ. I REPEAT. WE HAVE A SYMBOL FOR ATEEZ. if i thought that the symbol for hongjoong was the cutest then i was wROnG because ateez being home and true north for bug OH MY GOD SOMEONE HOLD ME

then we get mingi turning bug's scars - a physical reminder of her trauma, past and pain for so so long - into a beautiful constellation of stars 🥺🥺🥺 thank you moonie for including this. and im hoping that it brings comfort and healing to your readers who may have similar constellations on their bodies too <3 <3 <3 KISSES AND HUGS FOR EVERYONE

when bug is still in a sleepy haze and seeks warmth bc jongho left and then hwa takes his place and bug naturally turns into him ASIDGJSFH scuse me while i fly off to delululand and imagine my mornings with jongho and hwa tag-teaming cuddles

ahh yess the result of moonie and 🪷 anon combining braincells to bring us the beautiful symbols of hwa's bow. i forget that we were already given spoilers for this way back and it's actually bug's first time hearing about them. but i love that bug learns of them after jongho's story of the star lovers bc she understands the full extent of symbolism behind it, particularly with her being reunited with yunho and the rest of the boys as the magpie bridge to guide them back together

HWA YOU ARE ALREADY THE GALAXY OF STARS FOR US <3 <3 <3

SORRY?? NO ???? YOU CAN'T END THE CHAPTER LIKE THAT???? we literally had a whole chapter of the most endearing and tear-jerking moments, all for it to come crumbling down bc now the chief is out to kill all of the boys NO MOONIE NO DONT DO IT😡🙅‍♀️😫

😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 that's okay i still love you i guess 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 jks ofc i love you AS ALWAYS KISS KISS <3 <3 <3 LOTS OF LOVE <33333

LOREN MY LOVE <333 I've finally had a chance to answer your asks hehe (even though our messages probably answered most of these questions already xD)

bug's mum <333 daia loved bug SO much :') and yes! I'm glad no one disagrees that bug's dad is a total psycho,, he absolutely had no problem killing both his first and second wives to conceal that secret

:') our poor bug,,, her dad did indeed force her to kill daia D: I am just traumatizing my own mc, bug I am SO sorry omfg

the 'daughter' part is VERY important so I'm glad you noticed it,,,

the secret,,, I can't tell you much about it,, and our messages have given you some hints but I can't say what's right or wrong ;)

mingi and jongho <33 they were cuddle bugs fr in this chapter :"D just snuggling the whole time it was SO cute! and he hug analysis!! it's all coming together xD also bug was fr me,, panting over jongho's thighs was so real of her xD

I love the hwa's first life theory!! and it SO is bug that is so cute :")

the symbol for ateez is one of my favs so far <33 home and the guide to get there <33

I also hope that the part with mingi and the scars helps others too :} it was very important to me (and to bug) so I'm really happy it was comforting for you <3

I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO BE INVOLVED IN THE JONGHO HWA TAG-TEAMING CUDDLES :DD pls I'll give my life savings for just one forehead kiss from either of them xD

yes!! 🪷 anon and the symbols finally make their appearance! I definitely wanted to add the story of the magpies first so bug would understand what it meant to hwa and yunho <33 it was one of my favorite bits to write hehe

HWA <33 our galaxy and our magpie <33

hehehehe >:DD the ending,, I hope you're ready for some angst baby!!

I love you too!! <33 thank you again for such a sweet message hehe <33 kiss kiss I love you so much :}}

#moonie speaks #moonie's mutuals <3 #moonie's favs <3 #loren my love <3 #like the moon

[rinrinx2]

so there’s so much i want to say but i got 😵‍💫...too much thoughts too little brain

anyways first thing first FUCK KENTO NANAMI (full government names for trashy people) specially after finding out he’s a serial cheater like the fucking 😡🤬🤬

him not asking but demanding to wife yn not to work for gojo saying shit like he’s his #1 work rival when he doesn’t spend time with his family at all nor speak to his wife when he’s in aichi how could she have known

let’s not talk about how from the moment he saw wife reader in shibuya till the restaurant dinner, i bet he has not seen his family nor care to ask where they are staying, like dude your family has been in tokyo for more than 10 days - your wife accused you of cheating and wanted to visit your apartment but you refused bc your side bitch was there waiting for you - and you don’t give a damn about it. does he not realise his kids are old enough to understand things and most likely will wonder why they are staying somewhere else and not at his dad’s place? knowing a bit about the cheater’s personality through your asks he will not leave his wife (easily) for his mistress for the sole reason he value his public persona too much. Rin please make him suffer and make him miserable and pay for the consequences of his actions because it isn’t the first time he cheated and he will never change. the marriage is broken behind repair bc of him and his actions. he’s not feeling guilty and if he will it will only bc he’s been caught in the act.

really wondering how the mistress will feel if she ever found about the serial cheating 🤪 in some parts we see her feeling guilty for being the side piece but those are just temporary feelings bc nanami reassures her immediately. but what i would really like to know is does she really think she’ll have a future with nanami on the long run? does she really think one day she will be officially his? they have being together for a year(?) and i bet no one (or maybe only a few people) know about her relationship with a married man. let’s say they really get together what is she going to say when people ask about how they met etc. are they going to lie? also does she knows he has two teen sons? they will never accept her for the sole reason they know the true and they saw their mum suffering. even if the couple (nanami x mistress) manage to lie to the people in nanami’s circle it doesn’t mean the sons will not spill the beans at all 😌😉 imagine everyone’s reaction 🫢🫢. last but not least: let’s go mr. menace gojo 😍

i copy paste from my notes and the format is ugly 😵‍💫😵‍💫

cant wait for next chapter :)

Nanami has a lot of nerve and audacity. He thinks that his wife is his and no one else can have her but he can have whoever he wants while having he. He thinks he can have his cake and eat it too.

Your analysis is so spot on, I love it so much its amazing.

To answer the questions:

She knows deep down inside that they might not be together but she tells herself that its doubt and that some way they will end up together.

And if the possibility they do end up together she'd probably say he divorced his wife then met her.

This woman knows he has a wife and kids. When they first slept together his kids was his wallpaper. She knows.

Also them kids are deffs going to spill if they end up together, they'll strike at Nanami's office with boards.

Also thanks for the love and support and yes Gojo is coming for everyone

#TOW #the other woman #rin.answers

[stewpid-soup]

I JUST WENT TO A REGINA SPEKTOR CONCERT LIKE-

I’ve listened to her before, minimally, but i feel like i was always doing something else without paying full attention. I enjoyed the beat of her music because it made my brain feel good. The words are good, obviously, but I don’t think I really listened.

Seeing her live? Holy shit. I’ve never felt so entranced by something. Like normally when I enjoy something I’m stimming a lot and super excited. Sure, I’ve been exhausted recently and in a lot of pain bc of my fibromyalgia. BUT, normally things I enjoy tend to take my mind off of things to the point where it feels like I have adrenaline distracting me from my actual tiredness.

Today, however, speaking was hard because I wanted to catch every second of the song. I was excited for the show, but I was worried since I didn’t know a lot of her music. It didn’t even matter if I knew the song, I was swaying and tapping along to the piano. I brought sound proof headphones to help with the crowd and lower the volume with the actual music but damn- I still heard every beautiful line. Her laugh was gorgeous and goofy but it made me feel like she was talking to me. She was so sweet and just had such a comforting aura.

Fuck man, I could keep going about every detail sbout the concert. And I don’t mean any of this in a creepy stalker way, just she’s such an amazing human being. I may not know her for the person behind the curtains, but she just seems so sweet and kind. Ffs, she went on a ramble about how she didn’t wanna kill a bug that landed on the piano. She sang a song in dedication for Ukraine and all their hardships and the hope for a peaceful resolution. Part of the money that her merch makes is going to a good charity (as far as i know) that supports Ukrainians one on one. It’s called like Ukraine-something-Jane? I don’t remember, but fuck. I’ve never felt so seen and appreciated by a stranger before, especially a popular artist I enjoy.

All in all, 10/10 experience. Especially for a first concert!! Definitely gonna listen to like- all of her music a billion times over to relive this.

(A little bummed I didn’t get to hear Two Birds but u win some u lose some /lh)

Small rant timeee (disability access, assholes, just frustrations)

so me, my mum, and my dad weren’t told that seats with wheelchair accessibility meant only ONE other person could be with you. it was so frustrating, and i didnt think i was gonna wanna cry within the first few minutes of my first concert. my dad had to stand in the like sections between seating that would get cleared occasionally for like 20-30 minutes before a lady told him he could sit with us until intermission was over. so he did, but them the concert started and no one told him to leave nor did anyone else who was going to take up the TWO empty seats beside us come. The dude talking to us was like “im sorry i cant let anyone else, only one person” and my mum was literally telling him “we had no idea, no one told me when i called in to ask abt accessibility seating” and just GGSSKHCHMXGNSJFDUR

anyways eating dinner <3

#regina spektor #concert #first concert #soup rambles #soupy thoughts

[blacktinnedpeaches]

evenin

showed my sister my wedding dress, she loved it

she is going on a tinder date here tmr afternoon (she works fast) + potentially staying over his place depending on how drunk she gets, i mentioned this to my mum earlier bc i genuinely didnt think anything would come of it bc as much as i dont particularly think this is a great way to spend one of like 3 days up here she's also 23 + as long as she doesnt bring a strange man back to our house i mean like?? she's an adult who can do what she wants?? anyway as soon as i said this to my mum (while laughing btw, not in a mean way) my sister started frantically mouthing like NO NO NO lol :( and later i was like sorry i didnt think it would be an issue + my sister was like nah dw i should have said dont tell her lol. anyway she's meeting this dude @ like 3pm in a public place tmr + then... unclear when shes coming back... i told her she cant come back to our house if shes smashed bc i cant be dealing w/ it so she can either come back reasonably sober or just go to this lad's house for the night + she was like yeah aight totally :) so i hope she like. understands i was serious lol

i was talking to my mum bc granddad's will money is finally through + she said she'll wire over 6k tmr as a wedding gift :O gosh.. she said she had been expecting to be leaping around like "AH IM RICH IM RICH" but that she actually was kinda sad bc she was just thinking about her dad + how now it's really the end of him. which is a bit sad

i bought a cheap sub to midjourney to have a play around with AI art (dont boo me) and unfortunately it is the most fun ive ever had - here are some of the generations

northern lights wedding cake

cinematic radioactive cake

moss 5 tier cake with gold nuggets

chunky trainers made of lace and tulle

simone rocha moss heels

[mackjlee9]

All bc i had some trouble with our old car once, right when i had my license. 4 YEARS AGO

I just cant stand it sometimes i feel like he is nicer then my Mum and then he pulls something like that

I gave my plant a buzz cut (needed to cut her), and read some Manwha but i think thats it with learning today i just cant concentrate. Not talking about the damn heat just ugh. Aah im sorry this gonna be such a whiny week, if i get annyoing you better tell me

He seems like the old geezer that won't ever let anything go, he probably remembers a very specific thing that happened to him when he was in high school and is still bitter about it 😒

I think your mom is the dull end of the knife, she has to hit a few times to get through, but your dad is the sharp end up, only once slice to hurt you, and I hate how they treat you, pup

I mean, is an equal exchange, I get annoying when I talk about what I like, such as Leon or now with Will, and you still put up with me, puppy, but I don't find you annoying at all so don't worry about it~

#.dear moony💕 #my favorite puppy 🥺 #my love 🖤 #mein schatz 😌 #mi mundo entero 😍

[mydiaryx]

wed 16th nov

Not feeling good today, really not good. Anxiety is so high, like higher than its been in forever, is it just bc of my nose piercing? And the fact that im so behind with work, stressing me big time. If I just get over it tho it will be fine. Also I hate how im spending money, like ill literally have none soon. Scary, im not gonna get much from urban either. Need to charge up may Mac too. I don’t feel like going home. Kind of like oh are they gonna ask me about young lean too lol. Bet my dad will make fun. Ill just make up something like oh like George got guest list lol. Why do I even care. Im really letting it effect me.

So tempted to have that val. but feel like I should have it the morning of the presentational, lmao. Kill me, I should talk about my issues maybe ! Im in absolute just like want to shut down and die. I cant deal , deffo need a drink big time, I wanna talk to tara but its difficult over the thingy lol. Ill stay here for a bit and get to 100 then ill go down. And then ill actually start doing my work. I should definitely have a tutorial for sourcing, even if it is really scary. Also I do actually need to file my nails a bit im already finding it hard to type. Friction hell !! At least I can paint them properly now, feel like I should check critical path too. That’s so weird they just said critical path at the same time lol. Anyways, like if I sleep at home ill wake up early tmo, then ill feel much better, ill be able to stay in uni literally until I go to pole. I do feel afwul tho, like I can’t believe I didn’t send eden any of that shite !! I hope she don’t mind. I would really love to see her ! I just really need some more fucking valium man. Fucks sake I miss having no anxiety. Its just got so bad now. I feel like I just need to throw myself into the deep end or something, I get that feeling like when I was younger, I just used to jump into a pool and stay under the water for ages. Like that’s all I could do. Its weirdly comforting, like the silence of nothing. At least later ill have like loads of H3 podcasts to watch, need to work out how im gonna get there and back too !!!

Don’t wanna be spending p really. Fucking annoying how I can’t get arriva click anymore. Suppose it was just like too unused. Lets see if I get invited to press. I hope so !! Would be nice. Can’t believe that was fucking 2 weeks ago. Like if I think about it I’ve actually hardly done any work since then. Like fucks sake !! Like I have been doing things just not like really properly. Anyway I need to focus on something today, either sourcing or design cult, or tbh could do a bit of FMP. But for deffo im saving COLLAB for tomorrow. That’s why I need to look at critical path ! I just really did not realise like how much going away would throw me off. I can’t believe how much work I have to do ! Damn. Also i. Hope that me working inn the week like next week won’t fuck me too much, but tbh I think it will big time !! Bc ill be spending the weekend with George. Oh well, look I just have to do what I have to do. I thin k most of my anxiety today is jut stemming from my parents seeing my nose piercing. And it literally does not matter at all, its not like im saying im pregnant, or like I’ve got some massive tattoo, just a little one lol, that ill keep secret for a while, until I just tell my mum one day lol. I can imagine what Skye just said hahahaha. Also wtf I really want some fucking food now agh, need to resist the temptation, and the temptation for coffee, although that is more tempting, and sort of like more allowed because it helps me I suppose. You know, once I start doing my work it really wont be that bad, I just need to actually start doing it. Like ill just fully start on my sourcing, and then ill do that until like a certain time, then ill go sit with the other guys for a bit, like when im fully charged, bc we can talk about later! Its cute tho that im invited now to things like this lol. Im not even sure who’s coming and who’s not, think it will be interesting… still not sure what ill wear, not sure what vibe to go for tbh, like could do like cute or slutty, like will my docs be like annoying and not slay. Hmm decisions, one thing I do know is that ill be wearing black, as always. Anyway I should start on my sourcing now. And like actually do it. And you know what ill have a chewing gum too, so I don’t want food lol. Slay slay slay all day bestie

. Bye love ya xx

#diary #anon answered