#and how that is still somehow terrifying

[theminecraftbee]

Tango makes a terrible, terrible face as he walks into Grian's new creation. Bit rude, he thinks that is, but whatever. Grian waves his arms out, getting ready to show Tango more than he'd shown him when the practice room was still in-progress, when Tango says:

"What did you do to it?"

"Huh?"

Tango shudders. He folds his arms over himself and looks at Jellie the ravager. "What did you do to it. To this place. Why is it... warm?"

"I mean, it's not really warm, see it's all white so it actually doesn't retain heat very well, even with the froglamps, so I had to do some work to make sure the temperature was appropriate for heavy physical activity while not risking frostbite the way the actual dungeon does, and..."

Grian trails off.

"The point is that it's mostly just, I don't know, mild temperature? Unnoticeable temperature? The fact you commented on it is weird."

There's a strangely echoing quality to Tango's voice as he steps back again, against the door to the practice room. "It's clean."

"Yeah. I mean, that's the aesthetic, isn't it? Wiped clean of everything but the ravager, the water, and the drowned. None of the distractions. Good for practicing, you know?" Grian squints. "You should like it. You said you'd like it. Wanted people to be able to practice so they'd do better at the dungeon."

Tango shudders again. "You've wiped clean the ravagers, too. I can't... touch her."

"What?" Grian says, baffled.

"What have you done to this place," Tango says.

"Listen, I won't have you insulting my clean room," Grian says. "I cleaned it of all the dungeon bits. It's nice and easy and white and understandable. I won't have you corrupting it."

Hm. Not sure where that one came from, he realizes. Probably a bad sign. He'd certainly guess as much from Tango, who is staring at him with something akin to horror.

In a voice that echoes like a card readout, Tango says: "You won't do this in the dungeon. You'll feed us what's left from this. Or I'll have to ask you to move it."

Grian rolls his eyes. "Geez, yeah, I won't touch the actual dungeon! I already broke the sound test room, I'm not breaking any really important redstone. Now, do you want to see the drowned dodging room or not?"

"I'm horrified to find out what happened to the drowned, if this is your ravager."

Grian looks between Jellie's blank stare and Tango and throws up his hands. "Nothing! I did nothing to her! I have no idea what you're on about!"

"It's like you bleached their insides," mutters Tango. "Bleached everything. It's not natural."

"Not natural? Like you're one to talk!"

"I need to know. Show me," Tango says.

"Right then. Take off your armor first, I don't want Jellie getting thorned or something, then let's practice some dodging and get in there. Then you'll see this is a perfectly normal set of eerie white rooms and leave me alone, right?"

Tango makes a face.

"I don't know why I bother. Honestly. You'd think I'd done something weird," Grian says, and then neither of them talk much, on account of the ravager trying to chew their faces.

#hermitcraft #decked out 2 #a bee fic #grian #tangotek #tango voice: what the fuck. how did you do this to the dungeon. what the FUCK #grian voice: what could i have possibly done. i just bleached the entire thing of everything that gave it life and made it hollow. #tango voice: WHAT THE FUCK #anyway i love how OPPOSITE the aesthetic of the practice room is to the actual dungeon #and how that is still somehow terrifying #also this one’s funnier if you read it as being in the universe where tango was COMPLETELY eaten because then it’s decked out itself #just going ‘what the fuck’ real quietly on repeat #but you can also read it as a universe where decked out and tango are more mutually the same thing or communicate or whatever you want

[puppsworld]

Woe, Aaron be Upon Ye

#minecraft diaries #mcd #roleswap minecraft diaries au #rmcd #mcd aaron #aphmau aaron #this is it. this is the design. #i made his hair a lot fluffer and made him. yknow. not NEON ORANGE. thats how he looked when i stared at him for so long. just neon orange #i also put him in a lot of purple because apparently im just swapping everyone's “color” #yknow. like how every character just has some color associated with them. like garroth and blue or laurance and green. #but yeah i adore mr aaron over here. he's got the animal eye shine and terrifying flexibility. #he also just????? does the craziest shit. all the time. He's bad at everything and yet somehow he's still not dead

[citree]

I saw the new fallout show!!!!!! Had a great time watching it. Burst out laughing way too many times. Everyone losing their minds over timeline consistency and swearing off the show are missing out. Twas a fun romp and a good time 👍 I actually ended up loving several brotherhood of steel characters which was a total surprise to me. Probably had something to do with how wet and pathetic they were

Also Maximus & Lucy are such dorks ❤️ I didn’t even know there was a whole third character besides the dog. why is the entire tag just her and Cooper

#🫤 well. actually I do know why #listen I like Cooper #hes cool! #smooth skin for a ghoul and an asshole which is fun #fallout tv show spoilers #spoilers #I like how he’s still an asshole at the end too like this guy is not better #but I also ADORE how Lucy still has her principals in the end despite all that’s happened #she’s still good!! the wasteland hasn’t broken her (yet) #love that for her. terrified what’s gunna happen in s2 #I also thought it was so funny how Maximus only fails up #like. every promotion he gets it’s because people just collapse around him #terminally the guy thats completely unqualified to do Anything yet somehow the last man standing #i love how he really just wanted to eat caviar and wear slippers too #absolutely so willing to say fuck the brotherhood the moment he was given any other option #the show does a good job at showing how few options anyone has for safety #I liked it a lot #txt

[hussyknee]

The OCD urge to convince everyone that you're not a good person really.

#it feels unreal to me that it's not obvious to people what a five alarm trashfire the inside of my head is #it's a fucking warzone in here. people are dying. blood everywhere. things on fire #this ends up presenting itself in seething passive aggression‚ virulent rants at the drop of a hat and randomly exploding at people #but most of it happens at home or with disparate people and places #so a casual observer who isn't targeted and doesn't disagree merely thinks Im being snippy #instead of acting like bear caught in a trap #people see your highlight reel not the behind the scenes footage #so when they still like you despite how toxic you know yourself to be #it feels like you're being disingenuous somehow #the baseline ocd existence is believing you're the reason for humanity's downfall and a plague on the earth #and desperately hoping that nobody finds out but also that people do find out so that you can stop being terrified of being discovered #actually ocd #ocd #scrupulosity #knee of huss #mental illness #mental health

[lonely--seeker]

Going on a fucking walk with my (not mine) dog that I hate (I don't) from now on because at this point I'm not entirely sure whose emotional, physical and mental health depends on it.

I need to take a picture of him because he's gotten so much bigger than last time I showed him

#this is going to be forging a symbiotic relationship between us #look the dog hasn't done anything bad but i don't like dogs #in a sense that i love animals but dogs are smelly and loud and i don't want them near me because if they lick me one more time i will- #so my dog (not mine!!!) is still a pup but a smart ass #only for violence!! this asshole will come at you and purposefully launh at you with his body weigh and kick you with his front paws #it's messing with my bodily stability how dare he #also he will walk behind you and somehow SOMEHOW jump at your feet and GRIP GRIP it tightly and put all his WEIGH on you #it's a small dog but he somehow KNOWS his game and WILL stop you #im terrified of his gripping technics #in other news I teached him to sit (sometimes) and give you his paw (violently) #now that I think of it he has Cat energy. doggy baps you with my paw baps you with my paw #Anyways. He also likes to jump and bite whatever you're holding in the air in range #i know he needs training but i do what i can it's my grandma's dog and for the most part i never see him i live on the second floor #i have never trained a dog in my life i don't know what dogs think that creature... smells #my cats smell like the sun and ocassional dirt but that's fine #this dog sort of smells like dog dirt and shampoo which is weird since i don't think he ever bathed in his life? #he is... 3 months old i suppose #ANYWAYS it's gotta be ME the one to take him on walks i guess because no one else does it

[here-there-were-dragons]

every time i think the "staff can do no wrong and any form of complaining or expressing literally anything other than "yaaay love it <3" with no further comments is bashing and literally evil we should never say anything that could even potentially be interpreted as mildly critical ever because ~some artist who worked hard on this is probably reading the forums and might feel bad if we ever express anything but praise~ also we must be constantly positive at all times unless we're passive-aggressively shaming someone for having an extremely polite and apologetically worded criticism and if you ask the staff for literally anything you had better be prepared to preface it with 3 paragraphs of apologizing for breathing air" attitude is bad on tumblr, i take one look at the forums, and holy fucking hell is it SO much worse on site

#i go for years at a time without ever bothering to look at fr forums #and then every time i do i remember why i stopped #it feels like a goddamned cult on there and every time i dip my toes i come out feeling slimy and sick #as if i just spent an hour being aggressively gaslit by my extremely manipulative grandmother #what the fuck is wrong with everyone #i'm glad i decided to keep this creepy fucking fandom at arm's length and mostly just lurk years ago #that place is not a healthy environment for anyone to be in #flight rising #legitimately the single worst fandom i've ever had the misfortune of being adjacent to #and in such a creepy and insidious way too #they'll call you an entitled whiny baby to your face and then convince you it's your fault and you're a horrible person for feeling offende #it feels like being neck deep in the absolute worst kind of preformative sj spaces #you know the ones where everyone interacts primarily via callout posts and there's discourse over if crossdressing is cultural appropriatio #that kind of toxic sj space type energy #but somehow combined with like this weird feeling of being in a mormon church in a deep south town #where all the “nice grandmas” will try to put poison in your food if they find out you're gay or voted blue even one time #and it's somehow gotten SO much worse since the last time i looked on there #they've got people literally apologizing for existing what the fuck how is this normal to any of you people #this is so far beyond toxic positivity it's like. crossbred with passive-aggression and shaming and metastatized into something new entirel #it's terrifying. i hope flight rising never shuts down just so that whatever the fuck this is can stay semi-contained. #pro tip: the more a fandom is universally convinced it's Wonderful and Welcoming the faster you should run the other way #actually good fandoms don't have to constantly reassure themselves and everyone that they're great and perfect and toxicity-free #nor do they react with immediate borderline violence to the slightest suggestion there might be anything wrong with the fandom culture #anything wrong other than “people like you who think there's something wrong with our perfect community” anyway #on that note also any fandom that insistently calls itself a “community” just. yeah. no. #get out while you still can. #fandoms work on corporate logic if they're trying to convince you they're your family or friend that's not just a red flag #that's a whole damn red fabric store

[mormorando]

does anybody know how to manage arachnophobia? i'm physically shaking, covered in snot and tears, tired, but unable to go to sleep because i don't know where the spider in my room went

#mine #i ran for the vacuum cleaner but the spider was gone when i came back #and oh my fucjing god i cannot possibly go to sleep #i fucking screamed then i WHIMPERED out of fear just trying to step into my fucking room #i thought since i have the vacuum here anyway now i could just vacuum all under and behind my bed even though it's 2am #but i'm terrified of moving my bed #i imagine some kind of a spider nest or eggs there i'm fucking SHAKING man i don't know how to function i literally need therapy i think #this is UNMANAGEABLE i hate being so terrified i'm still crying and there's NO ONE to help me #in fact i must somehow make it without screaming if i find it again #or it finds me #because my roommate will be angry with me #i just called my father shaking and barely able to speak begging him to come to my place tomorrow and buy me some anti spider spray #or else one of those electrical devices #they scare spiders away #but like i said #i??? really mean it when i say i cried and screamed #now i'm just standing here in the cold room dreading the idea of going to bed because I KNOW if they're coming from somewhere it's THERE #jfc #i have to have my father help me #ohhh my fucking god i think i'll puke. #i literally think i need some anti-phobia therapy honestly #i can't wake up my roommate again i can't #godgodgodgodgodgod #what fucking punishment is this i can't move i am frozen to this spot anyway i move it'll be there #i don't fucking know what terrifies me so fucking much They're just little insects but i'm still frozen in spot nauseous and crying

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Thinking again about the line "I am what you made me" and how it's an example of really thoughtful and quality writing despite what angry fanboys might say because it simultaneously means "You cut me down and watched me burn and left me to die. You did this to me. You made me," and "You and the Jedi Council restricted me and suspected me and failed me and called it teaching. I am who you trained me to become. You made me." It's an attack on Obi-Wan on every front, reinforcing every aspect of his guilt, and beyond that demonstrates to Obi-Wan and the audience that Vader takes absolutely no accountability for his own actions. It's an incredibly clear picture of the depth of the hatred Vader has for Obi-Wan, and all it took was six words. That is how you write.

#kenobi series spoilers #kenobi series #obi wan kenobi #meta #anakin skywalker #star wars #and then i could go into why it's so perfect that the only thing obi-wan could say is 'what have you become?' #he's never seen vader in this form before--this terrifying spectre of death who is so utterly evil even in appearance #this stiffer more brutal robotic being who kills without question and without any purpose beyond causing pain #who still somehow feels exactly as obi-wan remembers. who is still *anakin* but yet is so utterly not #and how obi-wan doesn't know what vader has done or even what he's capable of. he didn't know he was even alive #he's entirely in the dark and is terrified to learn what horrors vader has inflicted on the universe #horrors that are obi-wan's fault. vader is an instrument of terror that obi-wan created #so that lack of knowledge and absolute dread of what vader has done and what he will do make obi-wan ask 'what have you become?' #while simultaneously he also is asking 'how have you fallen so far? how could you who i once knew so well now be so unrecognizable?' #'what have you become' instead of 'what have you done.' not merely doing evil but becoming it #'what have you become' instead of 'who.' not only is he someone obi-wan doesn't know he has become something less than human #and obi-wan can't say anything else because beyond the fear and the exhaustion he is once again devastated by anakin's fall #it's the mourning for lost potential. for lost goodness. for lost intimacy and friendship and love twisted into vile and bitter hatred #a recognition and a reminder of everything that was as well as a despairing denouncement of everything that is #all of that in four words. and the equally devastating response takes only two more. these are men who know how to hurt each other #and that kind of knowledge can only come because they once knew how to love each other just as deeply as they now wound each other. #everything they do is so wrapped up in everything that came before and it is one massive and neverending explosion of agony #because most of all--vader hates every fiber of obi-wan's being. but he can tell in obi-wan's words that obi-wan still loves him #nothing is more painful than hatred met with love. #quality meta seal of approval #my meta posts #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags #the tragedy of darth vader

[one-half-guy]

Thinking here about the theory that Gold were originally from the future of Blaze's dimension...

That would be soooo sad and tragic: She didn't only spent over a decade out of her birth dimension, she spent ⅔ of her life out of her "home" dimension, she was raised in this other dimension so that's the place she can call home, no hope of ever return to her original world because in the last time she saw her original world, it was being frozen at time, being petrified in an expression of terror for eternity, entirely by a huge and powerful monster.

Onyx City is, with all its defects, the home she knows that is not destroyed and beyond salvation. The place where she built lasting and solid memories, the world she adapted to live in, the home that there's a hero to protect...

At this point, she has no reason to look for a way to fix her original world, and even if it was possible, she has no reason to go back...

Meanwhile someday the Genesis Portal take the Team Psych to Blaze's world... And so? That world is nothing like the few she remembers, she wouldn't recognize... She would never be able to learn that this beautiful world full of life she's standing in for this moment will be, in a couple of centuries foward, the stage of the apocalypse that she witnessed around 10 years ago... She will NEVER know...

"Wow Silver, this friend of yours lives in a pretty nice kingdom around here." THIS KINGDOM WILL BE EITHER FROZEN IN A EXPRESSION OF TERROR OR DEVOURED FROM THE TIMELINE IN ABOUT 2 CENTURIES!!! But you'll never know...

Unless some Blaze's descendant around in the future is able to harness the power of the Sol Emeralds, so is able to fight back the Second Devourer... What means that the time passed there as well and everyone she knew learned to live without her...

Anyway, in either scenarios an adaptation would be hard and could be seem as "pointless": In a hand, if they couldn't fight back at first and the world just could be restored now, the time has not passed to them, Gold changed a LOT and is basically a stranger to these people that she remembers near to nothing about; In other hand, in case they could fight back and defeat the beast, this whole world might have changed too much from the few she could recall, nobody and nothing is the same as she can remind even if it's vaguely...

In both hands, she has already adapted to call Onyx City "home", the people she knows and learned to trust live in there...

#idk what's my point at first i though 'wow this would be simultaneously as tragic as funny' and as wrote down I realized it's only tragic... #all the funny part was supported only by the thought 'imagine if somehow they learn that would be quite awkward to tell Blaze haha'- #-WHAT WAS ME THINKING?!!? #that's only more angsty! imagine you learn that the world you protect with your life will inevitably destroyed soon... #nobody will be there to protect it... everyone will be terrified until the last second... #also considering Gold as Silver's equivalent as Blaze is Sonic's equivalent... so Gold wad supposed to be the time traveler of that dimensio #but then she was attacked before she could be properly ready and so this portal just sucked her out erasing the lil chances that world- #-still had... actually the whole time devourer thing condemned that world... that anomaly was the only thing the time traveler couldn't- #-survive to or fight against... at least not by the time... maybe a trained Gold could control the beast's mind and send it away... #okay now we finished #Gold the tenrec #blaze the cat #sol dimension #thank you for your time #and for read my rambling #only tragedy... geez... #now i'm imagining how Gold would deal with the things she would have to change in the past if she assumed the time traveler role... #for sure she would count more on get cooperation than try to tackle it recklessly like somebody #the cooperation would have to be from Blaze (I swear it's not my Goldaze side speaking) unless you're considering some Shadow counterpart- #-in the play... what would mean some dadow equivalent?!?! (dadow side speaking loud) it gives me sooo many ideas 🤣🤣 #soo sad I'll never elaborate none #sorry for these monstrosities called tags

[solume]

I need evil Hashimada so bad you don't understand

they broke centuries of hatred and war between their clans for each other. there's no precedent, no clear traced path for them to walk on anymore. they create the village, but if the village doesn't work ? if peace is not reachable this way and politics corrupt the place and their dreams ? well... They already destroyed what everybody thought was a fixed thing once, and Konoha has only been around for mere years...

nobody could stop them. individually they're already monsters, insanely powerful people. when they fight they level mountains and burn the earth. but when they work together ?

oh, they'd be the most terrifying thing ever.

#basically just let me see evil Hashirama #seeing how Madara remains somehow kind even at the height of his vilain arc #if we consider his end goal and motivations #i don't think evil Hashimada would like end the world or start another war though they certainly could #they would fundamentally still fight for a more peaceful world where children don't have to fight and die in nonsensical wars #but in a more violent way #definetely some murder here and there #every government is terrified of them but nobody can take them down #soon even the threat of their names somehow becomes enough for kages and rulers to reconsider wars #they would otherwise have been happy to wage #sigh #i just want to see feral Hashirama #and his supportive and equally insane husband #i mean how am i supposed to see Hashirama i-would-kill-everybody-i-love-for-the-sake-of-Konoha Senju and not think of him as a vilain ?? #how am i supposed to not think of what could happen if Madara was his dream personnified #of what he would do for him and for their shared dream of peace #Madara ! is ! not ! the ! most ! insane ! of ! the ! two ! #naruto #hashimada #madahashi #hashirama x madara #hashirama senju #madara uchiha

[ladyhavilliard]

Am I upset how much they changed Wesper in s&b? Yes. Is it bringing my Wesper obsession back anyway? Of fucking course.

#i can't read the handwriting #i'm doing something now and can't look at it #how do you pronounce this word #so far i love kanej!!! #i was upset with only 1 helnik scene last season and the rest was awesome #not much helnik this season so far. for obv reason #but with wesper... i don't necessarily like what they did and it upsets me how different it is. AND YET #THEY ARE MY TREASURES #AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING IN MY POWERS TO MAKE WYLAN HAPPY #i still love them very much <3 #there's only one thing i am genuinely disappointed in and that's wylan telling jes about him not being able to read #IDC THAT IT SHOWED HE TRUSTED HIM ENOUGH TO SHARE #it is still so out of character for him #and it also made the issue look as if it's just about him being embarrassed about it #like i know they still had that tension and it was obviously not just fine and chill #but wylan is traumatized and terrified of anything surrounding this #he lives not only in great shame because of it (which they addressed by words but it still.. idk felt somehow way lighter in the show) #but he also lives in fear because of it #goddamn it his own father tried to murder him for it #no matter how much he trusts jesper #this is not something he would do #IF he wanted to tell jesper he would at first maybe hint of it. try saying without making it obvious #you know #he trusts jes enough to ask him for help #like bla bla #but here is the thing #this is his deepest secret and the one thing he is absolutely terrified of is ppl knowing it #he would never just... say it #at least not now- before any of the growth he has to go through or before really getting to know jes

[myfirstandlast]

going through answered asks from when i was 18 wanting to hold myself so tightly

#i’ve never cared for the whole i wish i could see my younger self thing #because from where i was standing it was always still bad so thought why would i want to see them now #things are going to become very hard again very soon but last year was the best year of my entire life #i did something terrifying and then i claimed my life as my own #and a year later i have a car! and im driving! you can’t understand how impossible of a thought this was to me before #i live on my own and i’ve decorated my body and my bedroom and i can buy things i never thought id be able to own #i miss connecting with others my dash is a total wasteland now but i just #seriously cannot believe where i am right now. even though some things are still so screwed up and more screwed things are on the way #and i’m terrified of course. january is the perfect month to feel like ending it all. too much unknown #but still 2023 felt like magic i didn’t deserve and yet i basked in it #i’m not incredibly successful i’m not very interesting but im still so proud of myself somehow. even though i hate myself #it’s not as much as i used to. i appreciate myself more now and i can see how i needed me to get here. and im grateful for me #and for everything i have. i’m just speechless i can’t believe the life i currently have #i’m waiting to enter the era of travelling and intimate get together those areas are still slow coming #but if i could do this i can only hope and hope and squeeze my eyes tight to make them appear someday #i miss so many things but i don’t miss the old me. she sucked but she also cared and she’s still here in fragments #it’s strange to write this way i’ve never felt this sort of compassion before i was so so deeply depressed #it was inescapable and for good reason i don’t know how i made it through anything i’ve endured #i have to thank myself for always being too scared to die

[incorrectinfinity]

I am so scared of the future right now

#🎀.txt #how things are going in America is so fucking scary #i feel like I want to scream #a states I have lived in are trying to kill us off #I have so many friends in these states who I haven't talked to in years that could be afraid right now #afraid to be themselves lest they're arrested or forcefully detransitioned or worse #i am just watching it happen and hoping that somehow somewhere they're going to be ok #I have lived in the south for most of my life and still do #seeing states around me churn out more and more of these laws is fucking TERRIFYING #my state hasn't done anything catastrophic yet but seeing the surrounding states turn more and more dangerous is just so #ugh #I feel trapped and I cannot stand being caged #it sure as hell doesn't help that my dad is STILL transphobic and arophic and acephobic despite lying to me about it #I'm glad he isn't living with us right now it'd be fucking torture #I'm trying to keep my fears hidden but dammit it's so hard it's so FUCKING hard #I just want myself and my friends to be ok #I just want people to learn to accept that the only thing we've ever done as a community is fight for our right to exist #I am so tired I am so so so tired

[fairiencarnate]

Thinking about how I couldn't attend preschool as a child since my social anxiety began in infancy, and how my first real no-parents preschool day will be as a teacher.

#and how bloody terrified i am still #but i can do this #i can make myself do this #i need babies in my life somehow if i cant have them myself #personal

[effervescent-fool]

this week alone I've found out so many horrible things about my family this Sucks

#some of its kind of funny. but still #its not like i had faith in them in the first place but its somehow still off putting #the bar was so low it was practically a tripping hazard in hell yet here you are limbo dancing with the devil etc etc #also finding out just how many of the women in my family have been sexually assaulted. genuinely fucking terrifying #not just women actually. #but nonethess its been a very stressful week #vent

[queer-chnospinci]

Im so far past my expiration date its not even funny anymore

#just got hit in the face with the fact that i genuinely never expected to be around this long #dont know why because its not like i ever set a date or made plans or anything #but i still expected to just.. stop somehow? #and now im here and have to deal with that fact #and that i am terrified of the future and of the past #theres nothing like realising how miserable you were as a teenager and how unfair it was #and how much you shouldn't have had to get yourself through that alone #yes im being dramatic #i will be fine tomorrow #or on tuesday or whenever