#and desk is worse than all of it :((

[saracastically]

finishing touches 🧶

#took a break from all this crochet to draw some crochet. loosey goosey style #animating in procreate is annoying as hell but dreams is worse :( #and desk is worse than all of it :(( #fun to be a lil sloppy and silly tho #art #animation #animated gif #crochet

[bunnihearted]

🌧️🐇

#feeling sad today bc it's my mom's birthday #and i couldnt afford getting her anything :< i've made a card but tbh i feel so dumb even giving her that like wow.. useless #my sisters are spending the day with her so i cant even be with her at all. and she likes spending time w my sisters more than me anyway so #im just keeping away. it makes me sad tho that they can all hang out but .. #like im actually such a shitty person and unwanted and just an awful person because not even my family wants to be with me #i feel lonely bc i dont get to partake in my mom's birthday celebration and that my family doesnt even want me to #and my mom doesnt think it's valuable to spend time with me today. she doesnt even want to... im just a burden and a bother #i feel so unlovable and unwanted .... and it makes me sad and i just wanna die lol #bc i truly truly am annoying and not important in their lives #why do i even exist? why do i even do anything? why do i even talk to anyone when all i am is a burden #i make everyone's lives worse and more difficult. im only a pain to deal with. i cant ever do anything right either #idk... i just hope my mom had nice moments w my sisters today #maybe i'll try to hide the card on her desk so she can find it so i dont have to give it to her skskks

[snzyspencer]

I love my job—I really do— but the last thing on my mind this morning is spending the rest of the day interacting with the public. My morning has already consisted of a coughing fit and adding more tissues to my growing pile. We’re too short staffed for me to call out though so wish me luck.

#it also sucks because there’s no where my manager can put me that won’t be awkward #oh you want me at the front desk? #I’m sure the guests will love being greeted by someone very obviously sick #want me in the gift shop? #you’re stuck hearing me blow my nose constantly while guests try to shop #you want me doing a presentation? #worst spot of all #I have to get close to people multiple times throughout a presentation while also trying to keep my nose from dripping #and I feel even worse than I did yesterday when I went in #here’s to hoping by some miracle she’ll send me home early #snz kink #snzblr #snz blog #snz fet #snz fucker #snz #snzfucker #sneeze kink #sick #sick kink #illness #cw illness #contagion #cw contagion #cw contamination #snz experience

[br1ghtestlight]

ive had migraines for my whole life so im extremely used to them but sometimes it does still feel like im dying.... Like i feel like i should be in a hospital hooked up to an IV not sitting on the floor in my bedroom closet. this has gotta be killing me

#and even more impressive that i was like eight years old in severe pain throwing up all over my desk in class no meds or anything #and that was just normal. Like i didnt even do anything i was just like ahh yes the unimagineable pain and suffering. as expected #anyway its not any worse than usual but im nauseous and its kinda killing the vibe? #txt

[miahasahardname]

i found a photo of me in the hospital after my first seizure and i am wearing the most HORRENDOUS combination of clothing imaginable 😭😭

thinking of redrawing it with mikey because epileptic 2012 mikey is real

#either that or i'll just redraw it as myself #i'm not gonna share the photo rn but like. god girl what were you thinking #a blue shirt with pink and yellow cats that's obviously too small for me #light grey pajama bottoms with pink cuffs(?) #ugly ass red socks with a white pattern or smth that look a bit like the psych ward socks #the nerdiest pair of glasses i've ever owned #and leapard print trainers 😭😭 (velcro because i didn’t know how to tie my shoes) #please get a better taste in fashion omg #my first seizure story is pretty funny to me tbh #i was at my desk at like 10pm colouring a pair of sunglasses red in honour of red nose day #(it was supposed to be part of my outfit for the next day because red nose day and pudsey day tended to be non uniform days) #and all of a sudden i wake up on the floor with a mild stomach ache #now i had had a lot of those and my parents began to not trust me when i said i felt sick #but this one was a bit worse than usual #so i started making whimpering sounds to make it beleivable #and my parents (who were in a bit of a panic) misinterpreted this and thought i was in too much pain to talk 😭😭 #and i was so confused because i was just. lying on my bedroom floor as my parents ran about stressed saying shit ljke #“should we call them” which confused me further because #why are you already calling the school to tell them i'm gonna be absent?????? #and then someone FINALLY explains to me i had a seizure and i'm like. oh. #i have a few other odd seizure stories #like when i had a seizure while playing othello #or while playing crazy 8s on gamepigeon with my friends #or when i had sent a status “coming back from the hospital” which scared my grandma but we assured her i was fine and healthy #and that it was just a checkup and everything was good and i hadn’t had a seizure in ages #and then i proceeded to have a seizure that night. #the irony is amazing #epilepsy: making my life interesting since 2018(?) #tw seizure mention #mia has a stupid thought

[kingdom-dance]

Things I’m currently insane about thanks @honeypeabrain :

Id and MC, both robbed of nearness to others in different ways (physical and mental isolation) and haven’t fucking touched anyone or BEEN touched in so long

Id secretly regretting never shooting their shot with MC, even though they were with Leith, because they KNEW tomorrow was never promised to them!!! And THEN OH fuck respecting their relationship!!because Leith is gone, MC is alone and Id can’t fucking touch them or be with them and it’s infuriating that they’ve been in love infatuated with MC for so long and didn’t keep MC from going out to find their team and Leith like they SHOULD HAVE and agreed to go with…. Like… fuck, man 😭😭😭

MC feeling something for Id that’s been bubbling and simmering for an incredibly long time,,,,, the guilt of those feelings having been there since before Leith was gone and then the guilt of what happened to Id???? Maybe MC KNEw because of Id’s feelings for them that they wouldn’t say no to looking for the team???and now Id is resentful becAUSE they think MC manipulated them to do it even though they wOULD HAVE ANYWAY because they love have some kind of feelings for MC and seeing them like that was too much and THEIR GUILT of wishing Leith was out of the picture??? And then it building over the years and MC’s guilt and Id’s resentment and both of them thinking the other can’t stand to be around them but that could not be farther from the truth it’s just a fucking MESS

Id thinking MC still holds a torch for Leith. Them holding a torch for MC. MC thinking things with Id are broken beyond repair after what happened to them.

#trystenne is doing worse than we thought folks she really is having a time of it. she takes one peek at the desk she got railed on #and full on spiraled #ohhhhh I want to write fic!!!! about the PINING #about the NEEED TO BE TOUCHED AND TO TOUCH AND HOW IT EFFECTS IDREN AND TRYSTENNE #there is. also. so much pent up UST it could kill a man #I’m just like so sad for all of them #ouroboros-if

[fleshdyke]

ahsgsjaugejwjg

#sh/sui warning for tags #been having a shit day and just not feeling great overall and usually drinking water and eating helps but it hasnt today :/ #which means its an Actual Problem this time. like i knew it was an actual problem when i fucking cut AGAIN but idk #idk man. im just so so so scared of my friends hating me #and i know i have to see my partner again bc she is the one and only person that never ever makes me feel safe and unjudged and everything #but idk. as of right now im just not havin a great time. #like its actually so stupid the things i get upset about. there was some motivational speaker at my school today and when we got called down #to go watch the presentation i had to take like five seconds to grab my bag and phone from my desk #and my two friends got up and left together without waiting for me #and i know it wasn’t their intention and they weren’t trying to be mean or anything but man. doesnt make it hurt less yk. #and i saw some post from a guy in my school of him and his friends in the cafeteria and idk why but it made me so sad. it made me think abt #one time my friends said they wanted to walk around at lunch so i was like ok i’ll eat alone that’s fine bc i’m too disabled to walk around #the school. and then someone sent me a pic of them all eating together in the cafeteria. and i know they probably just stopped there for a #second and weren’t purposely ignoring me or anything but man that did not help yk #i want to leave them alone bc they never seem to want to talk to me but im trying to tell myself its just my mind but its so hard to #and i do love my friends and im making them seem a lot worse here than they are but its just. god im so scared. #idk. i dont actually want to die but i wish i could kms like. temporarily. #i know this is bad and manipulative but i just cant shake the want to know what would happen if i did yk. and this is a terrible train of #thought but like i want my friends to realize how scared this makes me and if i have to kms to do that. idk. #ive brought it up to them before and they pretty much told me to eat with someone else and i said i didnt have any other friends and they #kind of just said not my problem. so i dont want to bring it up again bc im mature enough to deal with my own issues and shit #it’s just hard man. i dont know how im supposed to communicate w them bc everything feels like im traumadumping on them and i dont want to #bother them. im trying to convince myself its not an issue and it doesnt actually bother me but i know it does bc i just fucking relapsed #and i had a city council thing in class today and i was the only person that was denied any funding at all and i was trying not to take it #personally and i was doing pretty good but i told my mom about it and she started defending the ppl that refused me anything and then it was #suddenly personal to me for some reason. its stupid and i know that but god that doesnt make it any better #rambles #vent

[pepprs]

i do not want to get out of bed omfg. this week has been so fucking insane im exhausted but we have aprogram tonight until 7 and i have to facilitate and there are a million things to do today

#but i got my p*riod and cotaught on tuesday and broke up w my counselor on monday and a few days before that redacted redacted so im ph #physically and emotionally exhausted but we have this program tonight until 7 and then 2 trainings tomorrow andi have like 2 meetings inbetw #between those. and i just want to sleep and/or lie down w a heating pad bc my cramps have been brutal this time around. literally could #barely get work done on tuesday bc i was in AGONY and forgot my heating pad and no one could bring it to me from home but it s like i have n #nowhere on campus to lie down or get checked out or anything bc im not a student anymore so i need to just writhe at my desk (<- i have one #of those now finally btw 🥹💗) and jusf hope i don’t pass out. and i didn’t but it was so bad and im not recovered from it yet. idk. #everything is so much. there are some intense and in some cases horrible things happening. iwwish we had time to pause and process them and #that we weren’t so tired and stretched all the time. i wish we didn’t have all these pressures to worry about. i wish we could just have #time to love each other and check in truly and to support each other bc we are friends before we are colleagues methinks and i jsut want us #to be ok and happy and rested and healthy. idk. augh #delete later #purrs #also i think i am not normal when it comes to cramps btw. i think maybe it might not be normal to be in this much pain. or maybe im just #weak or have a low pain tolerance but i feel like it’s a lot worse than it used to be + i get cramps at Other times too and it’s ummmm bad. #ask to tag #like how absolutely insane that this is a huge part of my life and i feel like i can’t even talk abt it and it’s so embarrassing but it #literaly is like.. every other week im scared that im gonna be unable to function bc of pain but i literally say nothing at all and just smi #smile and pretend im fine and barely talk abt it. i don’t think that’s good or normal. and i think ppl should talk abt p*ripds more so it’s #not as weird or bad or gross or cringe whatever to talk abt being in pain and to accommodate urself or whatever despite other ppl knowing #abt it. cringeeeee augh i don’t want to be one of Those people but like. it’s bad and i fucking hate it

[fabulouslygaybean]

i hate the come-down period after doing literally anything fun at all at any point in time. i went to a movie theater on friday and then to a convention on the following weekend, which was incredibly fun! i loved it! but there's always a come-down period, where everything feels awful because i know im going to be stuck in my house again, rotting away like always, unable to do anything outside of these walls for who knows how long. its hard to keep doing things i enjoy if i know that im just going to feel awful afterwards.

#i wanna be able to do things #but my sister is too picky and my mom is too tired and my friend needs to be involved in everything we do so we just. never do anything. #i do so much stuff alone because nobody wants to go or i dont trust anyone to actually follow through #my bike is out of order though and my mom seems to hate the idea of me using the bus system that i literally get to use for free #now. why can't i just do things inside my own home? it doesn't fuckin work out #the only place im really welcome in my own home is my bedroom. the bottom floor is for my friend and the rest of the family. #i dont have space to do much art up here and there isn't enough space for my other hobbies and i can't make too much noise because it'll - #- bother everyone and i cant call friends because everyone will listen in on my conversations and i don't have enough space to bring my - #- laptop and all its additions up to my desk #i have friends but i feel so isolated from them all. i feel like im going to completely fuck things up by trying to talk to any of them. #i always feel better when i can get out and do stuff but im rarely able to get out and do stuff and even then i feel bad once the stuff ends #so im trapped i guess. its a cycle that will never end. ill do something i love to cheer myself up only to feel even worse afterwards than - #- i did before.

[good-night-space-kid]

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#kind of a personal rant here I guess #but since starting college I haven’t really made any deep friendships #and as of late most of the people I see daily and interact with are not queer which is sad I miss my queer friends #but this semester has been admittedly kind of rough on a personal level #like. I feel like I’ve killed my past self only to find that the new me is the same #just more obviously autistic and more socially awkward and worse at school #truly I do like the person I’m becoming overall but I feel like I can’t bridge the gap between people I’m friends with and like #actual friends outside of the situations in which were forced to be together you know #I’ve been engaging more with many of my interests but I’ve been so stressed all semester and it’s catching up to me #idk. I wish I had friends I could talk to about this #but I’ve been so bad at maintaining relationships this semester because I’ve been so busy #and I’m not shy per se I just don’t do things and don’t have a natural way to make people into anything other than circumstantial friends #like I have one chair and a desk chair in my dorm #so I can’t really invite people over #and people have been driving me insane all semester even though they’re people I’m friends with #idk I just feel like there’s something wrong with me and I kind of want to try for an autism diagnosis

[milo-is-rambling]

Why do I feel guilty for being happy? Like I am happiest sitting in the trunk of the car at the lake alone reading and listening to music and watching movies and just being alone in the van and then I have to like force myself to get back in the drivers seat and go home to be alone at home like even if I did the same stuff in my bedroom it wouldn't make me happy the same way. I feel so bad for this change I feel like I'm avoiding my mom when I'm not it's just like memories of dad and friends I don't talk to anymore and like yeah it's just a lot easier to sit in the car and be happy so why do I feel so bad when I'm happy driving around

#i love my mom I love my bedroom I love my dog I love my house I love my yard and my neighbors but why did he have to die down the street #like dude #it's literally the closer I get to my house the worse this fucking black cloud is over my head #i just want to get away from it and the twenty minutes to drive to the lake seems to be just enough for me to get away from it all and just #live in the moment #and it's perfect. it's fucking perfect. but then I have to get up and go home cause I can't sit in the car forever #and I used to sit in the driveway at the old house parked for an hour after I got home #but now we've got real neighbors and no trees surrounding the yard we're so painfully visable to everyone I just want to sit outside but #also hide from the world at the same time and that's why I miss New England and trees surrounding my bedroom and climbing out my window to #smoke on a little wooden stool I made in eighth grade and I miss that old house so much and I can never go back and they cut all the trees #down anyways #the trees that watched me cry when I walked home from school and jump rope and laugh and smoke cigs with my best friend at the time and now #the trees are gone #it feels like a piece of me is still with that house in New Hampshire even though new people live there and maybe there's a part of my dad #there too that I'm not getting back #i can see him so clearly in my brain sitting at his desk in that house #i can see it clearer than I can see him anywhere in the new house he isn't with us he is in New Hampshire he isn't here it's so painfully #obvious that he isn't here anymore and it just hurts I don't wanna think about the house I just want to sit at the lake and cry in the trunk #like I'm doing rn cause fuck I made the tears happen thinking about New Hampshire and growing up and changing and death and my dad #it's just really hard to deal with sometimes and I had a great day today but I'm still ending it by crying

[byrdblood]

listen sometimes adulthood is cutting potatoes for soup in your bed at 4:49 am because your tiny apartment doesnt have a kitchen, the desk you usually cut soup ingredience at is dirty, and you're too tired and depressed to clean, but you still need to eat

#keegan talks #i mean im cutting them on a plate not my lap obv but like #man. i do be feelin like a gremblin #side note; small vent: #i hate it when i watch jacksepticeye play any sort of home renovating game #and he looks at an apartment thats huge and very nice #just like maybe with some third world typical paint chipping or shoddy plaster work #and he gets SO judgemental bout it #and im like #haha yeh #*looks at my apartment which is for all intents and purposes worse* #*feels judged* #like leave me alone bro i dont got the moneys #this lil conc creat box may not be much but it's mine :( #and its better than my last place #my last place i didnt even have a bed or an air mattress #here i got a bed and a desk and fan and a good bathroom and a lil portable stove for cookin on #im doin pretty good!! #get out of here with ur shallow first world ass #at least i dont have fuckin termites and i dont have to worry about my cheap ass wall insulation catching fire and burning everything i own #just conc creat babey!!

[firstdegreefangirl]

Tech support, at 1 am on day four of our internet outage: Are you ready to get reconnected?

Me: I sure am!

Tech support: Great. So take the new switch out of the box and …

Me: Hold up. Like ME, I’m the one who’s going to do it?

#dude really said ‘unplug the hotel and plug it back in’ #‘you can handle it’ #fortunately I know my way around tools and whatnot #all of which I have needed to get this thing mounted and plugged in #it’s still not working but he’s gonna call back #and I haven’t made anything worse than it was before #which is a good sign #I think #katie’s hotel adventures #overnight at the desk #katie speaks

[toastsnaffler]

yet another evening of cooking showering then sitting at my desk and sniffling miserably for 2 hours bc I can't work up the motivation to click open any of the hundreds of videogames or movies or drawing wips or literally any kind of enjoyable activity on my laptop and then going to bed at 9:30 before i throw myself off the roof

#well at least i didnt do anything worse than just cry at my desk today. #cant wait to be up at 6:30 go to work and then repeat this again. every day until the weekend where ill have a full blown breakdown #rinse and repeat ad infinitum #at least i dropped this mental argument thats been eating away at me for days. its just not worth it i dont want to ruin anyone elses day #im just going to keep making myself smaller and smaller and take up less and less space and eventually i wont exist anymore #sad! well its for the best #ugh. i dont really mean all of this itll pass im just feeling fucking shite and bitter abt reverting to bad coping mechanisms again #and nobody caaaares or even believes me. woe is me etc etc etc #oh well. ive ordered a physical copy of the dbt book i used this time last year so maybe thatll help me drag myself out of this again #not that i even dragged myself out of it last year. but i survived at least so thats smth. #okay im gonna go brush my teeth and then sit in bed a bit. sighs. goodnight #.vent

[burntoutdaydreamer]

Things That May Be Causing Your Writer's Block- and How to Beat Them

I don't like the term 'Writer's Block' - not because it isn't real, but because the term is so vague that it's useless. Hundreds of issues all get lumped together under this one umbrella, making writer's block seem like this all-powerful boogeyman that's impossible to beat. Worse yet, it leaves people giving and receiving advice that is completely ineffective because people often don't realize they're talking about entirely different issues.

In my experience, the key to beating writer's block is figuring out what the block even is, so I put together a list of Actual Reasons why you may be struggling to write:

(note that any case of writer's block is usually a mix of two or more)

Perfectionism (most common)

What it looks like:

You write one sentence and spend the next hour googling "synonyms for ___"

Write. Erase. Write. Rewrite. Erase.

Should I even start writing this scene when I haven't figured out this one specific detail yet?

I hate everything I write

Cringing while writing

My first draft must be perfect, or else I'm a terrible writer

Things that can help:

Give yourself permission to suck

Keep in mind that nothing you write is going to be perfect, especially your first draft

Think of writing your first/early drafts not as writing, but sketching out a loose foundation to build upon later

People write multiple drafts for a reason: write now, edit later

Stop googling synonyms and save that for editing

Write with a pen to reduce temptation to erase

Embrace leaving blank spaces in your writing when you can't think of the right word, name, or detail

It's okay if your writing sucks. We all suck at some point. Embrace the growth mindset, and focus on getting words on a page

Lack of inspiration (easiest to fix)

What it looks like:

Head empty, no ideas

What do I even write about???

I don't have a plot, I just have an image

Want to write but no story to write

Things that can help:

Google writing prompts

If writing prompts aren't your thing, instead try thinking about what kind of tropes/genres/story elements you would like to try out

Instead of thinking about the story you would like to write, think about the story you would like to read, and write that

It's okay if you don't have a fully fleshed out story idea. Even if it's just an image or a line of dialogue, it's okay to write that. A story may or may not come out of it, but at least you got the creative juices flowing

Stop writing. Step away from your desk and let yourself naturally get inspired. Go for a walk, read a book, travel, play video games, research history, etc. Don't force ideas, but do open up your mind to them

If you're like me, world-building may come more naturally than plotting. Design the world first and let the story come later

Boredom/Understimulation (lost the flow)

What it looks like:

I know I should be writing but uugggghhhh I just can'tttttt

Writing words feels like pulling teeth

I started writing, but then I got bored/distracted

I enjoy the idea of writing, but the actual process makes me want to throw my laptop out the window

Things that can help:

Introduce stimulation: snacks, beverages, gum, music such as lo-fi, blankets, decorate your writing space, get a clickity-clackity keyboard, etc.

Add variety: write in a new location, try a new idea/different story for a day or so, switch up how you write (pen and paper vs. computer) or try voice recording or speech-to-text

Gamify writing: create an arbitrary challenge, such as trying to see how many words you can write in a set time and try to beat your high score

Find a writing buddy or join a writer's group

Give yourself a reward for every writing milestone, even if it's just writing a paragraph

Ask yourself whether this project you're working on is something you really want to be doing, and be honest with your answer

Intimidation/Procrastination (often related to perfectionism, but not always)

What it looks like:

I was feeling really motivated to write, but then I opened my laptop

I don't even know where to start

I love writing, but I can never seem to get started

I'll write tomorrow. I mean next week. Next month? Next month, I swear (doesn't write next month)

Can't find the time or energy

Unreasonable expectations (I should be able to write 10,000 words a day, right????)

Feeling discouraged and wondering why I'm even trying

Things that can help:

Follow the 2 min rule (or the 1 paragraph rule, which works better for me): whenever you sit down to write, tell yourself that you are only going to write for 2 minutes. If you feel like continuing once the 2 mins are up, go for it! Otherwise, stop. Force yourself to start but DO NOT force yourself to continue unless you feel like it. The more often you do this, the easier it will be to get started

Make getting started as easy as possible (i.e. minimize barriers: if getting up to get a notebook is stopping you from getting started, then write in the notes app of your phone)

Commit to a routine that will work for you. Baby steps are important here. Go with something that feels reasonable: every day, every other day, once a week, twice a week, and use cues to help you remember to start. If you chose a set time to write, just make sure that it's a time that feels natural to you- i.e. don't force yourself to writing at 9am every morning if you're not a morning person

Find a friend or a writing buddy you can trust and talk it out or share a piece of work you're proud of. Sometimes we just get a bit bogged down by criticism- either internal or external- and need a few words of encouragement

The Problem's Not You, It's Your Story (or Outline (or Process))

What it looks like:

I have no problems writing other scenes, it's just this scene

I started writing, but now I have no idea where I'm going

I don't think I'm doing this right

What's an outline?

Drowning in documents

This. Doesn't. Make. Sense. How do I get from this plot point to this one?!?!?! (this ColeyDoesThings quote lives in my head rent free cause BOY have I been there)

Things That Can Help:

Go back to the drawing board. Really try to get at the root of why a scene or story isn't working

A part of growing as a writer is learning when to kill your darlings. Sometimes you're trying to force an idea or scene that just doesn't work and you need to let it go

If you don't have an outline, write one

If you have an outline and it isn't working, rewrite it, or look up different ways to structure it

You may be trying to write as a pantser when you're really a plotter or vice versa. Experiment with different writing processes and see what feels most natural

Study story structures, starting with the three act structure. Even if you don't use them, you should know them

Check out Ellen Brock on YouTube. She's a professional novel editor who has a lot of advice on writing strategies for different types of writers

Also check out Savage Books on YouTube (another professional story editor) for advice on story structure and dialogue. Seriously, I cannot recommend this guy enough

Executive Dysfunction, Usually From ADHD/Autism

What it looks like:

Everything in boredom/understimulation

Everything in intimidation/procrastination

You have been diagnosed with and/or have symptoms of ADHD/Autism

Things that can help:

If you haven't already, seek a diagnosis or professional treatment

Hire an ADHD coach or other specialist that can help you work with your brain (I use Shimmer; feel free to DM me for a referral)

Seek out neurodiverse communities for advice and support

Try body doubling! There's lot's of free online body doubling websites out there for you to try. If social anxiety is a barrier, start out with writing streams such as katecavanaughwrites on Twitch

Be aware of any sensory barriers that may be getting in the way of you writing (such as an uncomfortable desk chair, harsh lighting, bad sounds)

And Lastly, Burnout, Depression, or Other Mental Illness

What it looks like:

You have symptoms of burnout or depression

Struggling with all things, not just writing

It's more than a lack of inspiration- the spark is just dead

Things that can help:

Forget writing for now. Focus on healing first.

Seek professional help

If you feel like it, use writing as a way to explore your feelings. It can take the form of journaling, poetry, an abstract reflection of your thoughts, narrative essays, or exploring what you're feeling through your fictional characters. The last two helped me rediscover my love of writing after I thought years of depression had killed it for good. Just don't force yourself to do so, and stop if it takes you to a darker place instead of feeling cathartic

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[this-doesnt-endd]

im also currently trying to gaslight myself into thinking im fine and that my tailbone doesn't hurt and like its kinda working until i have to get up from sitting or bend way down then its awful and we have truck day tomorrow either way im not doing shit tomorrow

#the boys are there tomorrow they wanna proclaim the title of stocking god guess what yall got it #im gonna stand in the corner by the cash register or in my spot by the desk and play on my phone all day #and like its better like its a little worse than yesterday cause the day after it hurts more but like not enough to like #stop me from sitting in my wooden chair at my desk #im just incredibly impatient