#and a million more fics i wanted to write

[crossbackpoke-check]

it’s all the rest of what i want with you

connor dewar/brandon duhaime :: 8k

Summary:

“Brandon,” Connor says with a sigh. “There’s no baby in there.”

“Not yet,” Brandon says. Connor feels his stomach twist, almost like what he would imagine a baby kicking to feel like.

in these trying times of dewvorce, may i offer you 8k of pwp inspired by @stillfertile’s wonderful art which i had. several breakdowns about 🫶 anyway please enjoy!!!

#OFFICIAL FIC ANNOUNCEMENT 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️ i wish i had pretty fic graphics but alas i have No Skill and also. so much work i should be doing bu #HI SHE’S HERE i would love to say this is a complete surprise drop except i have Anxiety & i needed to ask you guys about it beforehand #in my defense i started writing this in like. january far before any tragedy occurred #because square asked about my tags on their dewey2 art and she spawned like. a million more thoughts about it #including the part where i got absolutely kicked in the face with the lightning vision of those two lines. #like those two lines are the first actual lines of the fic i wrote ajdhkwdiowdjiw ANYWAY please be nice to me i know i am always like #‘this is not the first real fic i ever thought i’d post’ and if i had a nickel i’d have three but this is the first pwp i’ve ever posted #and it’s 8k and it’s not a fic for an exchange (although technically i did very much write this for the dewey^2 hivemind so.) #i have SO many things to say i have so many comments on this doc also i couldn’t pick a title for the LONGEST time and i finally decided on #this one but the full quote was too long: #all the rest of what i want with you that scares me shitless #so. i was angling SO hard to make a yung gravy lyric as a title bc i saw the video of him at a wild game but i couldn’t find a good one #and instead y’all got a very sentimental title l m a o. #liv in the replies #shout out to the extended universe this lives in and also my unhinged comments in the docs. #if you liked fun fuck a baby in him friday i’ll be here all week i promise i am the exact same in the comments as i am in the tags 🫡 #the NUMBER of times i wrote something in this by pulling it out of my ass and then actually went back and did the research & was RIGHT is. #far too high. also the amount of coincidental things that dropped while i was writing this (yung gravy song about pregnancy AFTER i wheeze #laughed myself into a yung gravy title the athletic player poll confirming my restaurant & bar choices from googling ‘st. paul good bars’…) #also if anybody got advice on formatting for these little announcements. help. this is different from my miro/luka one &i’m still not happy

[bumblingbabooshka]

TOS T'Pring should be able to live her 'I think I like this little life' dreams!!

#fandom hated female character seek refuge in my arms #fandom girlbossed female character rest your weary head #Not wanting to marry Spock is the crime of the century??? She literally had no CHOICE!!! #-punches the wall- The law is to blame!!!! Not her!!!! #T'Pring deserves a hundred years of mundane joy with Stonn...they deserve to go grocery shopping together #-rolls around kicking and screaming- #I need to write another T'Pring focused fic and then I need to write one MILLION more #one for every fic and PUBLISHED NOVEL??? where she's punished and turned into a hateful bitch for not wanting to fuck Spock #I'm gonna start coming through walls kool aid man style

[incorrecttowerofgodquotes]

i want die

#but we didn’t see her body so maybe… #coping and seething right now #time to write even more 5nore fics and ignore canon #I support el5n in whatever he does from this point forward #if he wants to murder millions and smash puppies in with him #fuck the world for torturing him like that #gundam #g witch #gundam witch from mercury #elan 5 #elan ceres #norea du noc #5nore

[noecoded]

If you could have any Asmo/reader fic what would be the things you would want from it? like an ideal fic would contain what tropes or AUS or situations or whatever

uhmm anything wellwritten that characterizes asmo similar to the way i do ! i rlly like character exploration , both more serious stuff & just sillycute...anything where asmo is a little cunning and toxic and also gets railed into oblivion.anything where hes a vampire. ill write a tag essay about the specifics

#xreaders are too unrelatable for me usually .. im aroace and the only relationship dynamics that r rlly interesting to me r likee #toxic or tumultuous...i think in many asmo fics hes just very one note or like not a complex love interest .which is fine because hes like #that in the game but i am especially drawn to fics where the author has their own kind of unique take on it. nuance. etc #it's really interesting to see situations in which asmo kind of reaps the consequences of shitty behavior or struggles with parts of himsel #f he doesnt like. not just in like ohhh im insecure sobsob but like deeprooted issues & patterns thought processes that come with being a d #demon that maybe clash with human morality or ideals...like what if he sees human lives as generally more disposable because hes lived for #so long?? what would a fic be like about him wanting a fling with a human that ends up taking apart their life but to him its just a fun #little romance without any real consequences or commitment?? even if he was obsessed w them professing his undying love etc etc he could ge #t bored and drop it anytime and outlive them by millions of years and forget...& how does a human love an entity like that? how could the r #relationship look anything close to normal ever...anyway i like fics that touch on questions like this theyre kind of rare though #this all being said i def dont think asmo is completely evil💭 nuance #at work so im literally just wasting time by thinking about this rn but this was like the asmotoni dynamic its too interesting to me #asmotoni is like this in my head but on papwr i just draw them fucking witj bunny ears sorry #this doesnt even answer ur question really. if i could write a fic rn it would be like 200k word emo band au that isnt xreader or a romance #fic it would just be asmo beel belphie as humans starting a band and their rise and fall etc ive been thinking abt that plot nonstop

[wttcsms]

i love enemies to lovers but we’re unlocking a new dynamic that is enemies AND lovers

#the ghost fic i mentioned earlier is kind of a prequel fic to one of the wips i had #the ‘i know there’s a blade where your heart is’ fic #this draft is even more fun for me to explore just bc i was watching a silly show w my younger brother #we’re binging the entirety of total drama #and i luv my mean girl heather #and even though she really has feelings for this one character #and he returns those feelings!!! #and even tho he throws away a million dollars for her #she just continuously stabs him in the back in pursuit of her own goals #and so i really wanted to write that dynamic #and obvi reader will be somewhat softer n kinder in the pt 2 #i think this original fic is so so fun bc i get to write from a perspective of someone who NEEDS to survive #who has to actively always choose their own survival over relying on someone else #and it’s not necessarily a good thing but i get to write why u think that’s the ONLY option for you #and exploring ghost’s reaction to ur constant betrayals is fun as well #just mixing things up a little bit hehe

[whatevertheweather]

Thank you so to everyone who’s kept tagging me on WIP days!

It’s sure been a minute. Like a 4 million seconds-long minute. I’ve spent roughly half of those seconds being like “I’m gonna post on Wednesday. K well I’m definitely gonna post something Sunday. K I’m for sure gonna do the next one tho.” and today I’m finally doing it, even though I mostly still feel like rolling my eyes every time I try to write something.

I’ve been working a little on the Brazen sequel today, and I couldn’t find one really satisfying but non-spoilery snippet, so here are two less satisfying snippets:

“I don’t need your reassurance,” he says flatly.

Simon leans forward and dips his head, a quick scrunch of his nose as he says, “‘Course not,” in a hush, like they’re sharing a secret. Baz looks like he’s about to pull a knife on him. “I’m just saying,” Simon shrugs. “I would kill for you.”

Baz scoffs. “That’s not saying much.”

And:

Trying to dig his heels in. Get back at Baz for yesterday.

He doesn’t have a prayer. There’s not a lick of impulse control in that man’s body. He licks on impulse. Stopped them in the middle of a crowded footway once just to stand on his toes and lick a stripe from the corner of Baz’s mouth up to his temple. Caused a pedestrian traffic jam and then walked away from it without a word.

Now I must be off again cause I actually sorta want to keep writing (how bizarre!), so tags: @fatalfangirl @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @moodandmist @cutestkilla @artsyunderstudy trying to think who else liked Brazen um @sillyunicorn maybe @fight-surrender @bookish-bogwitch k just gonna tag everyone @whogaveyoupermission @martsonmars @facewithoutheart @ivelovedhimthroughworse @basiltonbutliketheherb @confused-bi-queer @captain-aralias et al.

#want y'all to know I'm not being hyperbolic with that 4 million seconds estimate #that's about a month and a half #anyhow I had snippets from other stuff that's probs more interesting but #had to go with a fic near enough to done that some cheerleading might actually help me finish it #I want to finish something 😠 #my writing #six sentence sunday #brazen

[honey-olive]

#sleeping is overrated #I want to put the most bizarre stupid stories and hide them in a million more untitled documents #fan fic #writers #ao3 #wattpad #fanfic writing #creative process #original work #writer memes #writers and readers

[misc-catgirl-anatomy]

ao3's tagging system has me so spoiled bc i go basically anywhere else (like tunglr) and it's like you can execute a burnt-dogshit-quality search along a single term

so i'm sitting over here dying from lack of good f/f omegaverse stuff because nobody tags shit consistently and i can only search via tag and the ''omegaverse'' tag is mostly m/m by volume which is fine there's a market for that but it's not what i wanna read

i'd be interested to read more original (ie non-fanfic) f/f AOB but it's hard to find so.... i don't.

#omegaverse #f/f omegaverse #yuri omegaverse #AOB #(as in ''alpha/omega/beta''; not a typo) #non-horny #tag novel? fuck it i'm tagging it #tag novel #i'd prolly get a wider reach by using the typical order for the abbreviation but i don't like using it since it was pointed out to me that #the more typical order for the 'aob' abbreviation is the same spelling as a racial slur #and i just don't happen to think that putting 's/l/a/s/h/e/s' between the letters makes it not a racial slur anymore #it just looks like trying to say a racial slur while avoiding a computerized profanity filter #i know ao3 has an 'original work' fandom category you can search by but idk #it seems hard to find works that i like there #it doesn't help that people put RPF in that tag All The Time #and while everyone's cool to write whatever they like RPF gives me ick and i don't get anything out of reading it #and i don't want to wade through a million RPF fics to find decent AOB stuff #i'm picky about my aob leave me alone

[ereborne]

✨⚡️ Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday ⚡️✨

Tagged by @acountrygirlsfun (I think actually multiple times, whoops) Thank you, Caitlin ❤️

"There is no such thing as dar'ad. A parent cannot disown their child." Obi-Wan knew, even without the Force to tell him, what reaction was sweeping through every clone massed around them. He didn't wriggle around to see, but he also didn't allow himself to close his ears against what would come. "Well we know that's banthashit." He'd expected Fox, or Wolffe, or maybe Rex. Hearing it in Boba's childish tenor instead was far worse.

A minor miracle in that this is actually Sunday and the last seven lines I wrote actually work well as a lil snippet. I didn't do either of things on purpose but I'm so very pleased to have done them properly at last.

Edit! No lie babes, for a minute there I straight forgot tagging should happen. I was so caught up in the euphoria, etc etc. In any case, I'm tagging you, yes you, dear viewer! Anybody who wants to. I love you all

#tagged by #acountrygirlsfun #this is from a fic I am not am not am /not/ writing (I will continue to tell myself this until it sinks in through my big dumb skull) #I have enough fics already going where I massively restructure canon and I am /not/ doing another one #even though I'm not writing this fic though I feel like I should polish this scene up. I feel like it isn't sharp enough #I want to do a million more things with how Boba feels about his place in life vs being a clone vs being a true mando vs being Jango's son #and because Boba is feral his entire life (he mellows outwardly after the sarlacc but it's still there. it's still there.) #it works for me better to examine his character through him scoffing at adults who don't get it #('it' being his incredibly convoluted precarious and context-dependent sense of self) #rather than trying to force him to actually perform introspection on the page #anyway I'm not writing this!!! (I say as I make Daniel Craig Knives Out cigar-in-hand compels-me-though gestures) I'm not writing it #thank you for tagging me Caitlin <3

[finnpeach]

Home - Vash

hm are any of us surprised i churned this out at 1 am because i binged this show and couldn’t sleep? no? me neither

Anyway, *SPOILERS* ahead for Trigun Stampede (I’d say if you’ve seen episode 8 you’re safe), but nothing too crazy. This takes place in one of the random 150 years of Vash’s adventures. Enjoy Vash finding out he’s allergic to lavender and being the best boy ☺️

Also, sorry if some of these characters don’t act very canon. I’ve only seen Trigun Stampede and not the original or the manga and thus am kinda guesstimating how these characters would act in this scenario

Vash hasn’t visited Home in nearly twenty years. Even though time doesn't really have any meaning to him, it does to the people he cares about, so he can’t help but feel a little guilty as he approaches the ship. He knows he should come by more often to visit, and that Brad and Luida and the rest of the Home team would love to see him, but he can’t help but feel like a burden every time he does.

His cybernetic arm is hanging by little more than a thread, torn apart in a recent brawl over yet another plant that he’d only narrowly managed save. He’s exhausted. His arm hangs uselessly at his side, only jolting with the occasional shocking twitch.

To his luck, Brad and Luida are out of cryosleep and both wrap him up in a warm embrace as he walks through the ship’s doors, nearly sweeping him off his feet.

“Vash!” They both cry. Warmth spreads through Vash’s chest as Brad ruffles his hair and Luida buries her face in his shoulder. He remembers the days when he used to look up at them as a child, but now he towers over them.

“How have you been? Are you all right? We were hoping to see you this time when we woke up,” Luida says. She looks older, maybe in her late 40s now, and Brad looks about the same. Their hair is beginning to become streaked with white, and deep wrinkles have already set across their faces. It’s part of the reason he hates coming back here, to see them getting older while he stays eternally young.

“I’m okay, I missed you both. Have you been well?” Even though his arm is killing him, he doesn’t want to bring it up yet. He’s too wrapped up in the feeling of being welcomed home and seeing friendly faces, seeing the pride and affection and love in their eyes. If only he could bottle up this feeling and take it with him.

“Yes, we’ve been— Christ, Vash, what’ve you done to your arm this time?” Brad finally takes notice when a spark of electricity spikes off his arm. He gently picks up the appendage, turning it over in his hands with a practised grace.

“Ah-ha, well, about that…” He grins sheepishly, cheeks burning red as he scratches the back of his head. “I saved the hand this time, though!”

Brad rolls his eyes and starts walking towards his room, waving him along. “C’mon, I’ve got my tools in your room, as usual. Luida, we’ll be done in time for dinner.”

“Don’t take too long! I want to catch up with Vash too!” Luida calls after them. Vash turns to give her a beaming smile and a wave goodbye before following Brad down the hall.

It feels so good to be Home.

A couple of hours later and lots of admonishing from Brad, Vash’s arm is beginning to regain feeling again.

“You should go out into the garden and see the new flora that Luida has been working on,” Brad tells him as he’s bent over his forearm. He’s just putting on the last of the stabilising touches to make it “Vash-proof”, as he calls it.

“There’s this new one called lavender. It’s got a long, thin stem and purple bunches of petals at the top. The humans on Earth used to use it for its calming effects. Smells great too. Go check it out, but make sure you’re back in time for dinner.”

One more flourish with welding tool, and he’s done. Brad pushes himself out of the chair, swiping his palms together. “And take better care of that arm!”

Vash chuckles, flexing his left hand. The joints feel better already. “Thank you, Brad. I’ll go take a look.”

He slides into his coat and follows Brad out of the room before making his own way down to the garden. The path is so familiar to him, he could do it with his eyes closed.

The garden looks gorgeous as it always has. It’s sunset now, creating a golden, rose-tinted shadow across the flora. He walks down the stone path, taking note of the new blue flora popping up, a new tree that's grown, before he finds the lavender that Brad had been speaking about.

Huh, Vash hadn’t expected it to look like that. It looks more like a bush or a tumbleweed than an actual flower. He bends down to get a closer look.

The purple petals are so stunning that he almost doesn’t notice the itch blossoming in his nose. He reaches his hand out to touch the stem, then feels the soft petals with the pad of his finger. Ah, that’s the scent that Brad mentioned. He loves it. It smells light and clean.

He rubs at his nose as he bends closer to the plant. He doesn’t dare break off a stem to get it closer to his face, so instead he crouches into a squat to lean forward and smell it.

It does feel calming. Vash can see why the humans on Earth liked it so much. Craving more, he inhales deeply through his nose just as the itch becomes too much to bear—

“Hih’iTSHhh! Hh.. H’TSCHhh!” The two sneezes catch him by surprise. He has to catch himself on the ground to avoid losing his balance.

Shaking his head, he sniffles and paws at his nose, which is beginning to take on a pink flush. How strange, he thinks. Must be something in the air. Usually only dust and the desert sand makes him sneeze, but there’s none of that in here.

He wants to sniff the lavender again and reaches out to feel the petals, but the itch has buried itself deeper in his nose. His breath catches in his chest, his aquamarine eyes slipping shut as his lips draw back over his teeth—

“H’TSH’itsch! Hh.. hihh— h’ITSCHhh’ue! Hh’eHTSSHhh’iu!” The last sneeze is so forceful that it makes him lose his balance. He falls back on his ass and tumbles flat on his back. His glasses are askew on his pink, irritated nose. Allergic tears fill his eyes as he stares up at the rose sunset sky.

Can he be allergic to flora? Or perhaps it’s this one in particular? He’s never had such a reaction to flora before, even in Rem’s garden.

Vash sniffles and rubs at his nose, which has now started to run. Instead of abating the itch, it only serves to set him off again— “H’ITSHhhiew! Haah.. heh-hh! H’ihdTSShh!”

It must be the lavender that's causing this. He can’t help but feel a bit sad, because he had really liked the scent of the lavender. Maybe Luida will have some medicine to offset the symptoms.

He lays there on the ground for a while, staring up at the sky, feeling a swirl of melancholy and happiness in his chest. Those two emotions seem to be the familiar, funny feeling that he always carries with him, even when he's back on the ship.

He stays there, sneezing occasionally and sniffling, until Luida calls for him for dinner. She chides at him for laying on the ground and says he’ll catch a cold like that, which makes him grin. He lets her shoo him inside and down the corridor towards the dining hall. Vash can’t help but revel in the tenderness he feels at her gentle reprimands, the way she fixes his hair or dusts off his coat or gives him one last hug before they enter the dining hall, because it all feels like Home.

#how many times did you watch the clips of vash sneezing to get inspiration Finn? yes #I hope this is good but if it isn't well. this is all I got #im so tired lmfao but I wanted to do this bc if I do a fic like this when i' #when I'm fresh and not tired then it'll be too Long and we all know how I like to ramble in fics. this is the shortest fic I've ever #written and it feels wrong #anyway #my writing #snzfic #I hope I captured vash's sweetness but also his undeniable sadness bc that's what I fucking feel after finishing the show #can a plant be allergic to a plant? Idk! but he is! #I mean like lavender barely counts and anyway its so specific and fragrant that I figured why not right #I kinda feel like vash would like being allergic tho bc it means like.... idk I have this theory that he wants to be human in some way #or like wants to be more connected to humans #so being allergic to flowers would make him happy bc it means he'd be more alike humans if that makes sense? but idk I don't want to push #a million theories into a snzfic im just here for a good time #if I open this tomorrow morning and reread it and think it sucks im going to die #enjoy the one allergy fic I post a decade guys

[valfeathers]

my wammys house hyperfixation goes SO strong that anytime i hear abt another wammy kid from any dn spinoff, no matter how obscure,, i immediately have to look their ass up and work them into the 'house ensemble cast' in my head

#this is how i find myself looking up dn videogames that weren't even released outside japan #or a character that appeared in a side live action movie #i so badly want to draw every single one of em whenever i hear of them #and write a million fics #bcs i love padding out worlds like that idk i like thinking abt this stuff !! #v wammyposting #more like wammyrambling

[acaciapines]

every so often i get a horrible little thought in my head that says but what if you DID adapt all of toh season one into your daemon au.

and every time i beat that god damned thought back with a stick. but do know there IS a section in my notes document that is me REALLY wanting to adapt a few s1 episodes dkjgdfg.

bc like. i made the right choice. the stuff i was/am still most excited to write is all s2 + s3 stuff--but like. agony of a witch? young blood old souls? the intruder?!

it would be me writing like 250k more words of entirely setup but that doesnt mean i dont think about it!

#chatter #theres actually a nonzero chance i write the intruder lol i think i wanted it to be a side story at one point #but as of now it obvi wouldnt fit anywhere into the plot. it might end up more as a flashback? #i just think of ALL the s1 episodes that one would change the most #since the route i took with the owl beast is uh. way different lol. for one shes seen king as her kid since the start <3 #she and eda were just. very reluctant coparents at the start lol #actually back when this was just an idea and i hadnt started writing yet #i DID almost start off at agony of a witch instead of s2e1 #again i think i made the right choice (showed the Big Important Moment from the s1 final episodes in my s2p1) #but STILL. i THINK ABOUT IT #woes of writing a fic series that will likely end at over 1 million words </3 why am i like this #also i guess technically i wrote a daemon au version of the library episode #but that was uhhh forever ago and before s2 came out (or at least before i watched it? idk when i wrote that one actually lol) #and ive made some MAJOR changes since then lol. #i guess technically my massive au is a reboot of that. but. different. #tho of course mari and alma return <3 its actually really funny theyre the only kids w unique daemons/palismen #since like flapjack clover ghost etc didnt exist yet but by the time i started writing Big Boy Au #they did! and i just poached them! #still think i got the vibes pretty close tho. especially stringbean i freaking NAILED luz's arc i absolutely called it <3

[celebrimborium]

So, I haven't posted gifs in a while (more to come soon) but I may or may not have written a 17k gen fic about Elrond and the people and events in his life and it's basically just this fragmentary mediation on (im)mortality and I wonder if I should post it to this blog? Like are there any takers for this kind of content at all? Or am I just a weirdo? lol

UPDATE: Here you go.

#rings of power #the rings of power #i might post it to ao3 anyway #if i can get over my anxiety about posting anything related to tolkien... i feel like i know my stuff but i'm not a scholar of it lmao #(plus i really try to incorporate show canon - so far - with book canon and some of it requires some flexible thinking haha) #plus it's just really this unwieldy thing without a shippery core (though you could read into it in a million ways) #(i support all ships lol) #idk posting fic is more personal than posting a gif set #so i'm feeling some type of way #otoh i don't often write something this long and finish it (all the ppl who can hammer out 400k in no time will laugh at me lol) #so part of me just wants to put it out into the universe? #idk idk #why am i even hand-wringing over this

[cookinguptales]

tbh I am so obsessed with the way that sometimes Guillermo has to take physical power away from Nandor just to show he can, but he always gives it right back??? because Nandor still has emotional power over Guillermo and that’s even stronger???

I can’t, I’m obsessed!!!

there’s something so intrinsically romantic about like

I have the power to destroy but never you and 

I have the power to kill you, but instead I’ll lay that power at your feet and

your happiness means more to me than winning this fight and 

I am in control but I will still give you what you want and

as long as you acknowledge what I am, I don’t care what anyone else thinks of me

and oh boyyyy I can hardly stand it! the way Guillermo needs Nandor to know what he’s capable of, but also that he’s still happy to lay himself in his hands! the way he craves his respect and acknowledgment but doesn’t need to destroy him to get it!

the way he forces Nandor to submit but also makes sure he realizes that he will always be safe in his care!!! because he’ll always let him up again!!!

and on the other side, god, we have Nandor! who’s had to be in control for almost eight hundred years! finally finding a person who he feels safe giving up that control to!!!!!

the power dynamics between these two are honestly delicious and I’m here for it.

#I could make this more coherent but no I do not choose to do so #I'm not usually one to play with submission in sex in fic but god do I want to write a million words #of Nandor learning that Guillermo is the one person that it's safe to submit to #because he only wants to care for him #and Nandor has tried to be in control for almost 800 years but he doesn't NEED to be with Guillermo #because Guillermo's control will always be a safe space for him #love that for these two!!! #wwdits #wwdits meta #sort of #nandermo #wwdits s4 spoilers

[thetwelfthcrow]

Hello zhalia 😊 i just wanted to ask when can we expect an update for racing heartbeats? I also want to congratulate you for such an amazing story it’s definitely one of my favourite fics 🫶🏻 and wanted to ask have you ever read a 4433 fanfic titled “the things we do for love” it’s also one of my favs I would definitely recommend it. Thanks and have a good night! ☺️

hello love!

you're lucky you sent such a sweet message, since i'm not too keen on responding to 'when update' questions these days. in short: you can never expect an update from me. it's not something i owe you! i'm writing whenever i want to on whichever project i want to and right now Racing Heartbeats is not my main priority. frankly, i haven't got the inspiration for it. i've opened it a few times the past month and i've come back empty-handed. so i'm not gonna force myself to write more for it now. my true motivation lies in keep me under the charm right now! but we'll see, maybe in a few days, weeks or months my inspiration strikes again and i'll finish a chapter and post it. for now though, not the case.

i do immensly appreciate your kind works! i never expected racing heartbeats to be so loved <3

i've looked around AO3 but i can't seem to find the fic you're referring to? could you send me a link? i'd love to read one of your favs <3

#Anonymous #i've a complicated relationship with racing heartbeats that switches between 'i love this so much i'm so proud of myself holy shit!' #and 'i absolutely hate this work i don't want to be associated with it whatsoever' #regardless of all that: i will finish her and post more regularly when i do #now is just not the time for it! and i'm prioritising me over literally everything else. and i am not feeling writing for RH right now #racing heartbeats #zhalia’s lil’ chit chat #oh also high chance i can't find fics bc i've users muted. i have 0 tolerance for people who make prompt collections One Work #with like a million chapters and a billion different ships. make a goddamn series

[27-royal-teas]

the dilemma of wanting positive reception and feedback on fics but not having the energy to write a new one. and also not having the energy to respond to comments when people do say nice things

#I have a bunch of 2 page drafts that aren’t going anywhere. the new semester just started #ive gotten in a car crash and nearly gotten in a second one. my teachers keep giving me homework i have five million performances #im sorry I haven’t listened to any of the music recs yet— I have a bunch sitting in my inbox I just haven’t gotten around to listening yet #I will eventually but every time I have time i dont have the energy to actively listen to and appreciate new music #rehearsals for the musical will be starting up and im swamped even without it. and my drama teacher was like ‘you’re gonna be the lead now! #which is great its just a lot of fucking work #anyway. im very busy and I’m sorry I haven’t put out anything new lately. i promise you i want nothing more than to write you hundreds of #fics im just constantly exhausted/busy #and lately whenever i have time i only have energy to scroll on tumblr