#and I just don’t need that in my life

[nicnacsnonsense]

What I really need is a way to mute the notifications on just one specific leg of reblog chains on my post. I don’t want to mute the whole post, I just would like to be excluded from that one conversation in particular.

#tumblr #life with tumblr #someone reblogged that post of mine about Mary and Stede’s relationship #you know the one I’ve been doing reblogs on replying to people all weekend #going into deep detail about the real historical laws about women and social standing etc. #using that to say that Stede is terrible in even more ways than is apparent and Mary did nothing wrong #which I mean is besides the point of discussing Stede & Mary’s direct interpersonal dynamics which is what I care about more #and also I don’t think it’s a good faith read of the show approaching it on its own merits given its relationship to historical accuracy #but I don’t think it’s worth my time or energy to respond because if that’s the level they want to engage on I can’t stop them #but then a particular person who has a good number of followers in the fandom (I assume) reblogged that post #which means other people are liable to also see it and reblog it and comment on it #and I just don’t need that in my life #like I think it’s a bad take it’s a terrible take but it’s not one that’s factually incorrect in any way #but it’s also a take that just makes Stede look like the absolute worst in a way that is more about societal dynamics than him personally #but is so bad that it pulls focus from anything that happened between the two of them personally #and specifically any of the ways Mary was shitty to and hurt Stede personally #and I just have projected way too much onto Stede at this point that I don’t need to see people shitting on him #especially when there’s nothing I can say in response that wouldn’t just be us talking past each other #but I don’t want to mute the post because other people have made good points that I would like to continue to hear #ugh #it’s a whole mess

[mumblesplash]

in honor of last season’s poem being called “”end poem”” (all quotes mandatory) this season i made one out of pieces of the actual end poem

#letting me just download the minecraft font? for free? a mistake #if you or a loved one have been suffering from RED TEXT you may be entitled to compensation #my art #god at this point i really do need a writing tag don’t i #<- will continue not addressing this #secret life #goodtimeswithscar #grian #secret life spoilers #sorry tumblr user livvi3love for not making one with all the deaths again #if you (or anyone) did want to illustrate this one as well you’re more than welcome to but i am not expecting anything #i can do an explainer thing again like i did last time but that is for tomorrow #right now i am just. very tired #but for now i will confirm yes the colors Matter #i literally made this on accident against my will #i was trying to DRAW

[age-of-moonknight]

“Systemic Approach (Part Two),” Avengers Unlimited (Vol. 1/2022), Infinity Comic, #64.

Writer: Mat Groom; Penciler and Inker: Caio Majado; Colorist: Pete Pantazis; Letterer: Joe Sabino

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Avengers Unlimited #Avengers Unlimited Infinity Comic #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Jake Lockley #Steven Grant #Captain America #Steve Rogers #hey Mr. Groom excuse me but how did you get access to inside my head because this is pretty much exactly what I could have wanted in life #because don’t get me wrong I love Mr. MacKay’s run but one thing I’ve been missing is just Steven - Jake - and Marc interacting #(and I was hoping that the name of this arc was in reference to the Moon Knight system but I hadn’t dared hope too much) #which means there’s so much I love here #love Jake’s jacket and the acknowledgement that the people he mingles with are in no way lesser than Steven’s socialite #or Marc’s superhero ilk but rather the people who often just need some help (whether that be through Steven’s funds/business acumen #Jake’s hands-on social support #or Marc’s /very/ hands-on support method of boxing villains over the head) but could be the least likely to get it #and !!!!! an acknowledgement that the system is a strength and an invaluable asset to Moon Knight work !!!! #and that it was Khonshu’s influence that was largely the problem as opposed to the system’s neurodivergence !!!! #and an acknowledgement from Cap of all people! I WEEP #it just means so much to me: Marc getting some support both from the system and from Cap #as well as how in character this is for Cap #as some of my favorite moments of his are where he reaches out to those deemed by others too ‘unstable’ or ‘unreliable’ to ever amount to #much in the grand scheme of things and he asks them to be Avengers #recognizing what invaluable talents they posses #could the cynical say this reads like a Saturday morning psa? sure but this is an infinity comic with Cap. Enjoy it for what it is akshsksj

[theminecraftbee]

Afterwards, they do a race. They don’t talk about it, but it’s there, between them still. Something settled between them. Cleo doesn’t know how to say it; they never know how to say things like this. Still, they need to, so they wait until Ren’s race is over and then hike through the jungle to go sit on top of Etho’s base and wait for him to show up as well.

He doesn’t. He’d gone to their base. Instead of just showing up for each other, they have to somewhat awkwardly coordinate over text which base to meet at. It forces everything to feel more real.

When they finally meet up, it’s in the shopping district, leaning against the button. A dangerous game in theory, but Cleo’s not fully convinced it can explode at this point, so.

Cleo breathes. They’re both quiet for a moment.

"Okay, so like, are we doing this?" Cleo says.

"I don’t really know, uh, what this is," Etho says, "but I… care about you. I think. So I think we’re doing that."

Cleo nods once. "You know I don’t fall in love, right? I’m not going to fall in love with you, I don’t do that. Might say something about loving you, but it’s not the same thing. Different sense of the word. It’s different, loving people and falling in love, got it? And I won’t do that second thing. I’m never going to do that second thing. I don’t--"

"Okay. I know," Etho says.

"Do you?" Cleo asks.

"I mean, not entirely, but I’m frankly surprised we’re having this conversation in the first place. I never expected you to be in love with me."

"But I’m not," Cleo says. "I’m attracted to you, and I love you as like, a companion and friend or whatever, but I’m not in love with you. I’m. Ugh. I wish I knew the right words. I just--I also don’t let go of things so if we’re doing this you’re going to have to get used to that real fast. Me not being in love with you but me not letting you go, both of those things."

"You're attracted to me? Aw, Cleo," Etho says.

"Don't be an ass," Cleo says.

"Sorry, sorry. It's just, geez, this is--a heavy conversation, huh?"

Cleo sighs. "We'll work on the deflection."

Etho rubs the back of his head and looks away. "Uh, in that case. If I'm maybe a little in love with you--"

"I can't--I can't reciprocate that, Etho," Cleo says, and their voice cracks as they do.

"I know," Etho says. "I just want to make sure it's okay, then."

"You can't help that, can you? Just like I can't help that I still sort of want to kill anyone who hurts you."

Etho seems to think about it for a while. Cleo resists the urge to fidget. She's a zombie. She shouldn't have the urge to fidget; she should be too dead for that. Besides, it's hardly like it's a secret she doesn't fall in love, exactly. It's just... it's only relevant sometimes. Feeling like, as she watches Etho and Bdubs dance around each other, she's on the outside looking in. She'd kill to hold their hands, to protect them, hell, even to kiss them--but that's different. She just can't summon the same emotion of... she doesn't know.

Martyn had almost gotten it, for all he didn't get anything else, in the end. Scott was never going to fall in love with her in the first place, for obvious reasons. Whatever attraction she and Pearl have going on, it's definitely not love.

But this...

"Okay," Etho says.

"That's it?" Cleo says.

"I mean, does it need to be anything else?" Etho says. "It's not like we can just... not do this. I think it's too late for that. Whatever 'this' is. I'm in love, and you aren't, but we'd both be pretty upset to lose this, right? So I'll... figure it out."

Cleo swallows. They feel small. "Will you? Do you understand?"

Etho shrugs. "I understand that it's you, and it's you that this happened with, not anyone else."

"Okay," Cleo says. "Okay."

"Is it okay if I kiss you? Just to try it, I mean. Not like, as a--this is a bad time, actually, I don't want to try to make any kissing we do romantic, I mean, you just told me this won't be romantic, I--"

"Yeah, sure, you can kiss me," Cleo says, and he leans in to kiss them. It's nice. A little soft for what they'd want, really, but nice. He leans back. He looks them in the eyes.

"I get it a little more now."

Cleo is baffled. "How? Kissing is just like, a thing we did? How does that have anything to do with any of the rest of this."

Etho laughs. "I definitely get it a little more now. What do you want to tell the others? I know they're definitely gossiping."

"Ugh. Can we just, like, not?" Cleo says. "I don't want to have to explain it."

"I'll just be confusing then, got it," Etho says, and Cleo can't help but laugh themselves.

"This is why you're my favorite," Cleo says, and they think maybe this will work out okay, after all.

#secret life smp #trafficshipping #hermitshipping #a bee fic #cletho #zombiecleo #ethoslab #yeah this one is ALSO pretty overtly shipping even though it’s also overtly aromantic #idk man. definitions are blurry. lines are blurry. I’d call this shipping even if it’s not about being in love. #anyway. bi aro cleo is a headcanon I’m increasingly attached to so I thought I’d write this for yall. #don’t know how to explain it more than. I think it suits them. #I know this is out of my wheelhouse but I felt like I wanted it out there yeah? #anyway I’LL GO BACK TO THE FANON SWAP PROMPTS SOON JUST NEEDED THIS WRITTEN FIRST

[yashley]

Say something true!

#critical role #ygifs #imogearne #imogen x fearne #when you’re taking a picture of the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen and the camera falls back and fucking decks you in the face #fearne going it’s ok you don’t need to confess I know~~ while imogen interrupts to say ‘’you’re a loser’’ they drive me NUTSkljsgdlkjs #also my brain is a little beehive cos these two Started with Fearne being the enabler to darker things while imogen was cautious #to fearne Seeing imogen about to be lost to ruidus and hardveering into panic that the power would never be worth losing her #to imogen hearing fearne hesitate and deny the shard and then telling fearne she should do it anyway #the way these two handle the other's Sways in darkness in such a Knowing way - ‘’Are you sure it wasn’t intentional?’’ #there’s like this ping and before it was encouraging and now fearne is scared and imogen is enabling the risk #and it’s like either imogen is silently ensuring laudna’s safety by fearne taking the shard despite any risk #or imogen honestly believes that fearne is stronger even than the power she would embrace. There is no risk. Fearne will conquer this. #so it’s like is it ulterior motives or is it faith or is it hypocrisy or is it all three at once it's so good #imogen spending her entire life running from her power so isn’t it so much easier to tell fearne she can just do it while imogen couldn’t #or is it just her genuinely encouraging fearne from Knowing the aftermath of pursuing the power #but it's like imogen ...... why would fearne choose you over the possibility for power when she's never done that before #and is this insistence/encouragement going to actually reassure fearne or is it going to be another crack #and when they do the ritual fearne asks imogen to be the one to take her out and imogen tries to comfort her by agreeing #and fearne looks on sadly and nods #remembering when she was asked to be the one to take imogen out and all fearne knew was that she couldn’t #anyway imogen's face when fearne said you're in love with me imogen said NOT NOWDSHKJF

[only-lonely-www]

So basically ATLA brain rot has hit me like a truck

#atla #avatar the last airbender #zuko #toph beifong #what happened was I was forced to watch the live action #which is actually pretty good if you get past the first few episodes #and if you don’t have someone in your ear telling you it’s awful the whole time #first episode is definitely the weakest and that’s 50% gran gran’s fault #aang and katara are also pretty flat but whatever #sokka’s good and zuko’s fantastic actually #they did goof on a few things but overall I think it’s a fun time #just don’t expect it to be as good as the cartoon and you’ll be okay #ANYWAY it got me missing toph #so i rewatched the blind bandit episode #and then wound up watching the entirety of books 2 & 3 in a few days #and now I’m brain rotted #which is especially weird considering when I first watched it I was like #yeah that was good! and then never thought about it again #i dunno what changed but i need help it’s taking over my life #wanted to draw Sokka too but he looks hard to draw #and i had enough trouble with these two #maybe someday #sorry for rambling in the tags goodbye

[sadquickchristmassnowman]

community 1x17 physical education synopsis

#I don’t have anything else to say for once #but I need to keep my trademark of making the tags way longer than the original post #so uh. how are you guys doing I just moved out of the town I’ve lived in my entire life #ok that’s enough #community #nbc community #community nbc #jeff winger

[seagull-scribbles]

Taxidermy fingerprints, taxonomies our differences

[Part 2 here]

#TMNT #tmnt 2012 #casey jones 2012 #raphael hamato #raph 2012 #this is all platonic but #rasey #because I do ship them and I want the shippers to precieve me #played around with pens and colours and brushes and stuff #I have a lot going on in my head and in life and I just needed to get something out #messy and quick but effective #and I need to learn to not be such a perfectionist on here #also hands are the only part of the turtles I feel I don’t struggle with an ungodly amount #I cba painting Casey’s nails apologies #or making Raphs kind of yellow but they’re my headcanons #oh also pride month is tomorrow so #again this is platonic #but idm ralh and Casey being on the top of my blog for the ocassion until I can fix it UwU #oh also I did start the Leo the other week I’ll do that one properly #AND HELLO IF YOUVE GKT TO HERE AND YOU LIKE RASEY I THINK YOU SHOULD HMU #also of there is one of these you guys like and want me to use in a propper piece let me know cause i will

[whereismyhat5678]

HOLY. SHIT.

I don’t even wanna separate these?? TAKE THE WHOLE SHEET I’M SO PROUD OF IT WHAT????

I was playing around with expressions and OMG, I think I unlocked something???

It was mostly from yesterday’s post, I liked the way I drew Pizza Head so I decided to try drawing him again (since it’s been a while) AND GOD I LOVE THESE‼️‼️‼️ Seriously started out rough but then I just kind rolled with it! I like it! I like it a lot‼️ 😆😆

Also since I drew Brick yesterday as well, I decided to change the way I draw him, just a bit 🤏

Today was so fun AAAHHH!!!! 💞💞💞💞💞💞

#Pizza Tower #Looking at these so proud 😌😌 #I was on the coach for what- 3 hours? It was worth it- 💀 #I think the way I’ll draw Brick for now on is what he looks like in game but the legs look just a TINY bit like baggy pants #Like have you ever seen animated animals have those legs that look baggy and the feet underneath #I’ve seen it somewhere I know I have but I don’t have a good example…Still I tried to make it look sorta like that- #And I like it! I think he’s looks adorable!! 😄😄💕💕 #For Pizza Head I wanted to give more life in his expressions and poses #I think I did it well enough before hand but I want to express MORE of it #Like the better parts of it- Him looking smug him looking angry him looking annoyed etc #I like the one I colored and the one where he’s singing to himself- THAT one I had fun with he looks great 😂 #I also like the one where he’s doing a raspberry #I did that one without a sketch!! #I’m basically trying to focus more on the expressions I think. I had the most fun with them and that’s the thing that made me realize I #need to put more life into him. He needs to be flexible #Sorry if I rambled to much- 😅 Just spilling my ideas. Hope you don’t mind 😂 #Doodles #Pizza Head #Brick #Gustavo #Gustavo and Brick

[stuckinapril]

reminding myself on this busy morning that i also have dreams of taking piano lessons & singing lessons & also honing my writing skills & absorbing as many books as i used to when i was a kid & at the very least taking up cute tennis dates & dabbling into art & just becoming an artistic generalist. also reminding myself that there are pre-meds out there who managed to pursue something they’re passionate in (some are even professional athletes) & still excelled in medicine & if they can do it so can I

#Delusional? Maybe a little bit but this is what i wanna do w my life and I don’t wanna choose one or the other #If I drop science/medicine I feel empty #If I don’t have my creative outlets I feel empty #My existence is a symbiotic meeting of these two facets #It’s possible bc other ppl have done it but I just need to achieve godly levels of time budgeting and drive basically #I was raised on the belief that if you want something badly enough you’ll make it happen!! So that is what I’m going 2 do #I mean when I make it to residency the 80 hr work weeks probably won’t allow for much lol BUT #I don’t like the popular opinion that med school doesn’t allow time for anything else. #So many med students have said that u have plenty of time & that it will be a period of self discovery exploration etc #Idk we’ll see. But!! I intend on making this work. #p

[lexalovesbooks]

I love chosen one characters and I love characters that are overpowered as all shit. I love characters with one-of-a-kind powers and I love characters who seem like they’re Just Some Guy until they do something that should be impossible and you’re struck with the realization that. oh. I don’t think this character is human. I love characters so strong they’re basically untouchable and I love characters who are slowly crumpling under the weight of being the only person who can keep the world safe but can never show it and I love characters who spend years hiding who they truly are until circumstances force them to reveal themselves and now they can never go back to who they were before. I love characters who don’t even know exactly how much they’re capable of and aren’t sure they want to find out. How powerful can you become before you stop being a person?

#character tropes #huehjuehshsd i can’t stop thinking about these types of tropes lately i just loved overpowered characters. so much!!! #people complain about the chosen one trope but that’s my SHIT!!!!! #people who don’t like that trope need to consider the inherent tragedy of being a normal person living your life when suddenly. it’s #revealed you were never normal you never had any choice This is what you have to do and you can never go back like HELLO?? #the scholomance #cuz i’m thinkni about el #chosen ones

[mumblesplash]

there’s always time for branding™️

#shhh he’s girlbossing #my art #smajor1995 #martyn/inthelittlewood #limited life #limited life spoilers #isn’t martyn a Listener or smth i really don’t know watcher lore yet #but i’m just saying i think it would be funny if he can hear whenever scott does this #i’m going to be thinking about the Scott Hunt for the foreseeable future i think #also yes martyn wears crocs in-universe this season #i have a whole thing about the mean gills both being mer hybrids but martyn is more human and scott is more fish #so martyn needs slightly more gear to navigate underwater (respirator webbed gloves etc) #and scott is much more in danger of dehydration/injury from being out of the water too long #but both of them can see and hear just as well in and out of water and have claws and Teeth

[kitsune-kaos]

#wish I had more pics of sweet moments like this #Ngl my job is depressing as fuck. but moments like this help ease the heartaches #i just wish I had more time to have moments like this with my babies who don’t make it out to adoption #shelter life #gay person of youth #me #personal #I need to get a therapist

[kinokoshoujoart]

oops all rock (springtime edition)

i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…

could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)

#my art #sos awl #debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff #or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs #i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know #and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love #rock tumbling (sos) #story of seasons a wonderful life #bokumono #story of seasons #harvest moon #hm awl #harvest moon a wonderful life #bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too #there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them #but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK…… #idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!! #fanart #awl rock #bokujou monogatari #hm anwl #unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry…….. #also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool… #ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted #mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters #OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING #i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version #and also fun secret things related to DS #this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu…. #i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)

[lilybug-02]

CT Comic Speedpaint - Page ??? (Part 25) I’m not keeping track 😔

#I don’t know I really like showing my progress and this comic. It’s kind of consumed my entire life. #so why not #I need to make a Patreon so badly. But I’m so busy with college I could not keep up with it right now. #If you stay till the very last moments you can tell that I actually wanted Chara to stop Kris from running away #But since I knew Susie was going to be showing up anyways I figured I would just cut the scene #I felt it would lengthen too much of the script and provide unnecessary tension to an already extremely tense scene #anyways hope y’all enjoy :) #deltarune chara timeline #my art #speedpaint

[sashimiyas]

osamu has a soft spot for single mothers because they remind him of his own

#reinas.inretrograde #he’ll never say anything but when you go through your wallet and only order what your child requested and not your meal #he just hands you enough for the whole week. tells you to come back soon but never admits to the kindness #he incorporates children eat free days #there’s this whole romantic scene in my head where you say ‘i don’t need you’ #and he goes ‘i know.’ and it’s not placating at all. he knows you don’t need him. #knows and understands that you’ve done more in your life than he’ll ever achieve #then he says ‘but i want you. i want to need you. and if you say the word and let me. i’ll do it. i’ll need to wake up to you in the morning #need you to tell me to have a good day and whoop my ass into shape. and i know you won’t need me. but you can want me to.’