#am i overthinking this???? let me know

[fingertipsmp3]

Selling stuff on vinted makes me so anxious for no legitimate reason I swear

#i literally just listed two of my tarot decks and i’m already nervous #like what if my photos aren’t good? what if the price is too high? #i listed these two just to test it out honestly. i still have the original boxes and guidebooks for both of these so i figured it’d be fine #i did put the price for each one as £10 because i mean.. they have a really nice sturdy box and full-colour guidebook arriving with them #and are in perfect condition. they’re not indie decks but also probably not super well known i think #i’m willing to come down to probably like £5 on each one tbh. i just want to see realistically: do i get any interest #and what can these sell for. and are my photos okay #for each one i just took pictures of the box; guidebook; the back of the cards (with the cards all piled up as a full deck) #and then i picked about 5 random cards and just took a photo face up in an attempt to show the artwork and what a spread would look like #my background was just my duvet colour which is currently white #i think the photos are fairly clear. they’re not like horrendous #i’m not in any of them and neither is my laundry that was also on my bed at the time #i just hope this goes well. i would love to get some serious decluttering done #honestly i want to pare my deck collection right down to the point where the entirety of it can just fit on my nightstand #because realistically i only use like the wild unknown; the linestrider tarot and a couple others #i’m torn about keeping indie decks that i don’t really use like the prisma visions tarot and moonchild tarot… on the one hand they are so so #beautiful and i probably wouldn’t manage to sell them for anywhere near what i got them for #but i really just don’t use them #like i’d feel bad selling the silhouettes tarot considering i literally wanted it for years and it was a grail deck but i don’t USE IT #i read with it once and the reading was about as clear as mud #and THEN there’s all the decks i don’t have boxes for because they came in a crappy cardboard box that wouldn’t have lasted two seconds #i used to knit little pouches for all my decks. most of the decks that are like this are still in those pouches #i feel like i can’t send somebody a bunch of loose cards but i also don’t have a deck to put them in. but would people want my crappy #pouches?? one of my friends said she thought people would be willing to buy the pouches even without the deck #but i have doubts. it’s literally a piece of acrylic that’s been sat on somebody else’s shelf for five years #would you rather receive a deck of boxless cards held together by a bunch of elastic bands or would you rather receive them in a pouch #or is it fine to just leave them loose in the envelope and hope they don’t bend? should i bubble wrap them?? #am i overthinking this???? let me know #personal

[imminent-danger-came]

A "MK is Related to the Underworld Somehow. Probably." List With Commentary (And I Consider it Evidence for EAMK)

(1x08 Skeleton Key)

(LIKE CAN I PLEASE HAVE AN EXPLANATION FOR THIS SCENE. CAN I PLEASE HAVE AN EXPLANATION??? WHAT. WHY. WHY WOULD YOU EVEN GIVE HIM THE KEY IN THE FIRST PLACE.)

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(1x08 Skeleton Key)

(Idiot boy putting the skeleton key in his ear.)

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(2x03 Pig Pong Panic)

(MK + Bones. Never a good sign)

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(2x05 Minor Scale)

(Is this perhaps just LBD trying to take control of MK? Maybe. Is it also really weird how her powers interact with MK in general? For sure!)

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(2x06 Game on)

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(2x07 Shadow Play)

(Number one: The Lady Bone Demon wasn't here to provoke this, number two: MK using "blue vision" to see his friend's fate inside the lantern is equally strange!)

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(2x09 72 Transformations)

(Again, could very well be LBD trying to take control of MK here—however, it doesn't seem like she's trying to do much of anything to MK in this scene, as she's focused on spider queen. So it weirds me out and goes into this post!)

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(3x03 Smartie Kid)

(So, if the stuff in s2 was LBD affecting MK then I get it. BUT THEN WHY HAVE MORE BLUE EYES IN S3 AFTER LBD HAS ALREADY "TAKEN" MK'S POWERS AND THE STAFF. Genuinely want to know what this was meant to imply.)

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(3x12 The Corrupted King)

(LBD HAS ALREADY POSSESSED WUKONG HERE. Wukong and the Mech alone was spreading her too thin. She certainly wasn't attempting to posses MK here—so what was happening?)

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(4x01 Familiar Tales)

(The scroll ink touches MK not once, but twice this episode and it doesn't ensnare MK. The scroll touches Monkey King once and this is what happens to him: )

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(4x02 Familiar Tales)

(The scroll's ink emanates from MK, which I thought was crazy at first BUT IT THEN HAPPENS AGAIN IN 4x11)

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(4x03 The Great Tang Man)

(Soooo we see a vision of an all inked up MK, then we see the stone cracking, then we see a shot of the curse from 4x02, and THEN MK turns Tang Sanzang's golden power blue, a color associated with both LBD and the underworld in general. HM.)

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(4x06 Show Me the Monster)

(There's no hair flip so it's not MK, so it would make me think that this is an ink version of SWK next to the stone. It's weird so I'm including it!)

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(4x06 Show Me the Monster)

(So. Ink blotting out the sun, something MK/SWK are often associated with, and then pouring out of the cracked stone, which we just learned MK was born from. And then the curse takes MK's form. I'm tripping over my own conspiracy board here.)

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MK: "You're not my friend—you're NOT me!" Curse MK: "Sure I am! I'm your best friend, well, closest at least! I know more about you than you'll even admit—to yourself, or to others."

(4x07 Pitiful Creatures)

(The curse claiming it's a part of MK is weird! The curse looking like MK in it's most weakened state is also weird! It's all weird!)

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(4x08 The Brotherhood)

(Absolutely no reason for a weird teal smudge to be there, and yet)

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(4x11 A Lifetime of Mistakes)

(BOOM. SCROLL EMANATING FROM MK AGAIN.)

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(4x11 A Lifetime of Mistakes)

(The broken memories flickering in the scroll are very similar to the way MK flickers in and out of monkey form: )

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(4x13 Rip and Tear)

(Scroll ink touches MK again and he does not become imprisoned inside it again. The scroll at the very least has no affect on the boy)

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And I think for now that wraps up this post!

#sincerely think MK is related to the underworld/is some sort of fucked up memory based creature #''Now I will undo the memories of this world'' hmm. Will you LBD? AND IF MK WAS YOUR ORIGINAL POWER SOURCE—I'M JUST SAYING #getting this post out before the tdp s5 trailer which I know will ruin me #Look I know the red string is strong here. But that's okay. #Sometimes you just gotta throw shit at a wall and see what sticks. #Let's play the game of ''am I noticing purposeful details'' or ''am I just overthinking it'' #The game I play everyday #BUT. This would all play into eamk (eldritch abomination MK) let me tell you #And now he's like. A weird power soup with both SWK's powers and whatever other powers from the underworld/scroll #lmk #lmk MK #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk theory #eamk theory

[introspectivememories]

this is timbern immediately after first kiss:

and then this is them 3 hours later:

#bernard 'insecurity issues' dowd is definitely a 'LETS FUCKING GOOOO' guy for all of 3 hours #before the realization that he's dating tim drake Wayne (tm) sets in #and tim 'nothing good ever happens to me' drake is definitely i will overthink this for 3 hours straight #before the realization that he just kissed the hottest guy he knows sets in #i am so Normal about them #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #dc #this is all canon btw #ik bc i was the fly on the wall when they kissed for the first time

[linipik]

okay, but what do you consider just plain annoying from an artist on here?

not "what makes you outrage or unfollw them forever", just... annoying enough to stop interacting with their posts in the long run.

reblogs are appreciated since my own blog has a limited reach. Thanks!

#lets remember i have anxiety #so this is just me outsourcing responses instead of overthinking #artist on tumblr #hope this is not about spreading negativity im just curious and anxious #also not an attention grabbing scheme i just... #...i dont do thing bc i consider that others will consider them annoying and i dont want to annoy elanyone on their leisure time on tmblr #i know it is dumb and long live to anar chy ... but i am also highly anxious

[welcomehomeincorrectquotes]

Frank: Do you want to take this upstairs?

Eddie: Sure!

Frank: Do you have protection?

Eddie: *blinks twice* Why? What's up there?

#source: meme #Note: Don't usually go for this type of humour on this page but I thought it was funny #Please let me know if this should be labelled differently or am I overthinking it? #Frank Frankly #Eddie Dear #welcome home puppet show #incorrect quotes #suggestive

[docresa]

Today I had the best time volunteering for a teaching project (which is led by our chief vascular surgeon).

That is, apart from the fact that we ran into some of our abdominal surgery attendings, who gave me a massive (verbal) side-eye for technically hanging out with the vascular surgeons in my free time. (Some of them don’t really see eye to eye, both medically and personally).

And I’m soooo sick of it, can’t I just try to figure out what I eventually want to do with my career without having to navigate a social and political minefield?

#yes I am technically an abdominal surgery resident #but since we are a general surgery department we do both thoracics and vascular as well #and both have been pursuing me to switch to their respective subspecialties #it’s putting a lot of stress on me tbh #because there are a lot of expectations #and I’m a stupid little people pleaser and I don’t want to disappoint anyone #and also I get excited by so many things #I get excited by pancreatic surgery as much as aortic surgery #though I’m at a point in my training where I do neither #which is ok btw #but how am I going to figure this out? #especially if everything I dip a toe in one department the other two get offended #and also there are some co-residents who would be very happy to have less competition in their respective fields #so there‘ll always be comments there as well #if anyone has any advice #please let me know #this is stressing me out #(and yes I do realize that this a very first world problem) #it’s still stressing me out though #and there is sooo much to finding a good mentor #I probably overthink this wayyyy to much #but yeah #After two weeks of actual vacation #(like actually being on another continent doing something completely unrelated) #my brain took the first best thing to cling to #sigh #resa rambles #residency #medblr #surgery

[blooming-cecilia]

here's a thought: we all know by now that scene in furina's demo where she imitates other archons on the swing yeah?

i had the thought while watching it again,, what if she studied up on other nation's lores particularly how their archons (and other highly revered beings, ex, adepti) are like or how they are depicted in human literature and historical writings?

like... she had absolutely no idea how to be a god, and an actor does need to be acquainted with their role to ne able to portray and embody it... call it role study lol

#tulip brainrots #furina #furina de fontaine #not really a ground breaking thought #but. it just struck me #thats how shes able to imitate the other archons well in that pv and have the audience cheer for her #ofc w her skill she'd be able to improv something without but yk #she did her Homework #and on that note #since she was desperately trying to find solutions to the prophecy wherever she can #she definitely knows a lot of things... #furina might know a lot of teyvat lore even the forbidden ones #maybe. dont quote me on the forbidden ones but i know my girlie knows a lot more than she lets on #alternatively i am overthinking #in which case please leave me to my delusions

[thesis-rose]

Okay so this might be me overthinking about last night but why didn’t Adam suggest to Max about teaming up with The Aclaimed or The Kindgom. I mean i do kinda understand why Adam wouldn’t want Max to have to team up with them but what about The aclaimed people who do really want to help MJF (and who he ultimately teams up with for match)

Why did Adam only tell Max to go with Somoa Joe. Like MJF did raise a point with how Somoa Joe did injure his neck.

Idk if anyone wants to put there own theories to this question please do I would love to read and message me if you want to talk about any of this.

#this is just food for thought #like is he just hating on the aclaimed? #or am i an overthinker #probably the second #please tell me what y’all think #mjf #aew #adam cole #maxwell jacob friedman #adamjf #max caster #aew dynamite #all elite wrestling #better than you bay bay #max squared #the kingdom #the aclaimed #samoa joe #it could also be that Adam knows how MJF doesn’t like The aclaimed and he wants to just let MJF be without caster

[empressofthelibrary]

Well, today was absolutely rotten, but food does make me feel less like exploding from the stress and disappointment. I'm never gonna not be mad that self-maintenance actually, y'know, works.

But I can be mad and grateful at the same time. I'm complicated like that.

#my district manager is coming in tomorrow to help with an event and the store is being left to me -- #a baby manager with three weeks of experience -- and the dumbass who was hired before me and SHOULD be better at this than i am and YET... #he's been doing SLIGHTLY better this past week than he has been but. jesus wept. he's barely competent. #and if he doesn't shape up i'm gonna ship him out myself #in a box. fold him up with the transfers. he's someone else's problem now. #but I'M the opening manager tomorrow so I'M probably the one who's gonna be working with the DM the most #and i am. so nervous. and maybe even kinda scared? #like. i don't wanna screw this up and let people down. but i know if i put too much pressure on myself i'm gonna collapse. #so i'm kinda wallking a tightrope here and that is also kinda stressing me out #because am i worrying the right amount of worry #which is BLATANTLY overthinking things and I Should Stop That and Go To Bed

[ultimateaclrecovery]

Been trying to have more conversations with the boy but it’s hard. I’m bad at it and he’s even worse. It just feels like we aren’t always very good at talking to each other both about small things and big things and it’s like if we don’t have that what we do we have?

And like sometimes the conversation is easy, but then it’s almost always about frisbee. And it’s like I do not want to either be carrying the whole conversation or talking about frisbee for the rest of my life (and yes that’s a hyperbole and I’m being dramatic but like still)

And then when I finally talk to him about how it feels like he gives me all these one word answers it’s always that he’s just tired and if he doesn’t think the answer is important he’s not gonna put his energy into it. And like he’s being apologetic but it’s not like if talking to me isn’t worth your energy what is? And like we only see each twice a week and sometimes only once a week.

And partly it’s because with the holidays I’ve been gone for two weeks and then had a Covid exposure and now he’s gone so we’ve barely seen each other. And I’m an abysmal texted so it’s hard to maintain connection when we don’t see other (and yes I really am the problem here and yes I’m working on it (although he was always says it’s fine)

I just feel sometimes like I just don’t understand him very well especially considering we’ve been dating almost a year.

And when I brought up doing something for our year, that is when he mentioned that his grandmother had died earlier this week and so he’d be leaving for her funeral. And I had asked him about various aspects of week like seven times at this point and he had yet to mention it. And I have no idea how to be there for him or if he even needs or wants that because he just never shares.

And then because he never shares I feel like I’m being over emotional and needy whenever I share. And then we just talk about anything ever.

And his family’s going to Italy in may and when I saw his family over thanksgiving she invited me but he has never even hinted if he’d like me to go with them (I probably can’t regardless but like I would like to be asked)

And even when his family was here for thanksgiving he only invited me to see for actual thanksgiving even though they were here for like a week and he did lots of other stuff with them. And I had to be the one to ask if he even wanted me to meet them when they came and to let me know what he wanted me to join them for. And turns out the answer was very little.

And it just sucks that it feels so hard to build an emotional connection because he’s so great in other ways. Like he’s so sweet and kind and thoughtful. And he remembers all the things I like and is always seeking them out or trying to do things to make me happy. And whenever I do manage to try and talk to him about the things I feel he’s always really nice about it and never makes me feel like my feelings are stupid. (He sometimes get hung up the logistics (it almost always twice a week and only rarely once a week) )but also always ask what he could do make me feel better. But like how do you tell someone to just be a more emotional human?

And like I hate that it’s always me telling him things. Like I know I can be annoying and I’m far from perfect but like he just never has any complaints, often even when asked point blank. And even when I did ask him what he would change about the relationship he one made me answer first and two just said he’d like it if I texted him back a little quicker. Which while fair I had just told you five minutes ago how was feeling disconnected probably in part to me being a terrible texter so is that really what you want or just what you think I want? It’s also annoying because when we first started dating I told him I was bad at texting and he said he actually preferred to not text that much. And like it could be that it’s a spectrum and also things evolved but it makes me worried that he’ll just tell me what I want to hear and then just deal with it even if it’s not really what he wants. And then I worry that he’ll end up resenting me for that and then just break up with me out of no where.

And this fully me just being anxious but I can’t help but feeling sometimes likes he’s just waiting for a good time to end things because he’s too nice to do it at an inconvenient time.

And I guess a lot of it just circles back to the thought I’ve been having since this summer that while he’s a really good boyfriend, he’s just doing the things that a boyfriend should do because he likes having a girlfriend and not that he likes me in particular. It’s like I check all the boxes so he’s committed to make it work and emotions are irrelevant. I like I want to have that deep emotional connection and it feels like that’s not enough. But then I go to describe what is that doesn’t feel like “enough” and it feels like I am describing a really good relationship.

And I don’t know if I’m just getting caught up in the holiwood or social media fantasy of relationships where people jump into each other everyday and talk endlessly for hours and no every last detail of the other persons psyche, because that’s not what we have.

He’s pleasant to hang out with, even if sometimes I feel like I want to shake him until more words fall out. He’s like the least annoying person I’ve ever met, he’s super easy to travel with. He’s considerate of me and my feelings. He puts effort into the relationship. He can be silly and we can have goofy moments together. He checks all the lifestyle “boxes” and my ideal life and being with him work perfectly together. He’s never dismissive of me. He’ll do things just to make me happy even if they aren’t his favorite. He feels safe.

And I don’t know how to balance all the wonderful against the intangible lackluster emotional connection. Especially when I am the other half of the emotional connection.

Like is the reason I have more deep feeling conversations with my girls friends just because THEY are good at it? And does it feel hard with Anthony because I am actually bad at it or because he is? (I mean probably both). And at the end of the day does it matter? Even if I’m the problem if I can’t figure how to make it better, it’s still not really working. And we all know the answer to every relationship question is just to talk to the other person. I just wish that didn’t feel so hard

#word vomit #am overthinking? #yes absolutely #but I’m still sad #and still confused #and don’t really know how to feel better #I’ve been spending way to much time by myself on the couch lately which doesn’t help #what also doesn’t help is comparing what I would do if I wasn’t dating Anthony #and wondering if that would be better #sigh #and he’s at a conference all week and then going for his gm funeral #so I won’t see him for another week #and then it’ll be past our year anniversary #and that feels bad somehow #but also it’s his grandmas funeral so I don’t want to be really considerate of that #even if he’s not talking about it it’s hard #and he’ll want to be there for his dad #so want to let him be #and not be like whyyyy aren’t you paying more attention to me #so anyway #the giant tumblr over share diary continues

[strawglicks]

constant mood for the past month or so

#strawglicks art gallery #i am just overthinking it. i know i am. #i literally actively revisit the source material so i dont fall into the deep fanonization of characters #bc i wanna stay true to the canon bc i LOVE the canon #and yet theres a demon whispering in my ear “they would not fucking say that” YES THEY WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE #LET ME CREATE LET ME HAVE WHIMSY AND FUN #i think i have a past of like #falling into fanonization of characters rather than staying true to the canon #and now that im more aware of it i try TOO hard to stay true to canon and overthink it #when like it is not even. that serious. at all. like i got bills to pay instead of worry abt this shit #YET HERE I AM!!!!!!!!!1 #plus like. the fact i check the source material and overthink this #proves that i do care abt the canon. so i shouldnt have to feel like i have to prove it #clearly i care. and dont just wanna absorb fandom content #i dont think fandom is bad by any means IM IN LOTS OF FANDOMS THEYRE VERY FUN AND WHIMSICAL #and i dont wanna be a debby ryan downer #BUT theres a point for me personally #where fandom gets so extreme to the point it mischaracterizes and stuff . and im not personaly drawn to that #i wanna absorb fandom content that can still be drawn back to canon yk. #but at the same time WHO CARES MANNN. #DONT OVERTHINK IT JUST HAVE FUN #RAHHHHH HATE MY BRAIN

[running-in-the-dark]

I know I've thought about this plenty of times before, but it really sucks being someone who likes things very intensely and defines themselves by their interests a lot, when you were/are always surrounded by people who do nothing but make fun of everything you like.

#just... man it fucked me up #all I want to do is talk about what I like but I can't because I 'know' everyone will make fun of me #my mother my father my brothers every other relative except my grandma #and of course everyone in school including the teachers #like fuck man I still don't know how to get over it #this comes back to me not being able to let people see my art #though in a weird way. because that was always the only #thing I ever got compliments for. even the people who bullied me liked my drawings. #so it became this Thing #this super mega important thing I NEEDED to be good at so that anyone would ever say anything nice to me #like it's all I am and all I ever was #and I'm objectively not that good at it!!! I have this horrendous inescapable fear that paralyses me when I'm drawing or painting #because it matters too much. my entire worth as a person is this because I have nothing else #idk I'm way overthinking this but it just feels really frustrating #it's literally just some silly doodles in a sketchbook why can't I let people see. I've never thought anything bad about anyone else's art #so why do *I* have to be perfect?? when that doesn't even exist?! #I hate myself so much

[monsterbisexual]

if i call in sick to work i shld tell them im having symptoms of emotional turmoil, physical agony n excessive bleedinfg so im gonna stay home bye

#dont have to give details i just think itd be a funny way to describe this monthly torment #also i rly am lucky i work at ass oclock in the morning cuz none of the managers are there yet #n us 5am ppl are the earliest to show up in my department so i just talk to whoever has the guy in charge phone #n its no one who will care so thats p nice #i do get anxious anyway but im just insane #also i always feel all guilty n embarrassed bleh #unless ofc i rly am mega sick #n ill have to let my mom know sometime if i do cuz she drops me off before she goes to her job #i always feel awkward n bad having to tell her im stayin home #overthinking forever yay #gotta figure this out #i just know if im at work tomorrow even if everything isnt fucked or awful like it can be there #n i feel how ive felt sometimes today like physically #dont wanna be thereeeee n im already gonna be in pain from working n now extra emotional. dies #according to my phone call history i called in like Exactly 2 months ago #which is more than the 3 months they want in between call ins but i dont think anyone else cares abt that #like coworkers of mine i mean #hmmmmmmm #p

[omgitsbeewave]

i haven't listen my scaridarity playlist for a while and i feel my heart crying bc OH MY GOD I LOVE MY DUM GUYS SO MUCH I MISS THEM 😭😭😭

#i waited way too long to saaay everything you meeean to meee #in case you dooont live forever let me tell you noow i love you mooore than you'll ever wrap your head around #in case you dooont live forever let me tell you the truuuuth #im everything that i am because of you ♡ #beewaveofthoughts #i wanna know you but i can't make it right #there's something on my mind. there's something that i- #i wish i would've told you but you just don't seem to wonder what i'm doing when you close to me #there's something on my chest... i wish i would've said... #i think it over and it might be true i'm only overthinking when im close to you #one more #it's nice going out with you... but isn't it lovely coming home too? #take me home i want my bed i want my mum #we have had so much fun but i want to go home :( #we will sit on a window sell and look up at the sky and the clouds will spell messages adressed to you and i #we will water the plants for the first time in a while #and i'll say with a sigh... im home ♡

[buysomecheese]

It's fucked up that barely anything has changed yet I feel so guilty

#I always try and refute accusations of me being an overthinker but they may just be right #I can't predict people but I can notice patterns like nobody's business #told him I liked him (because I said I would tell him and I dragged it out a bit but I am true to my word) #he thanked me we moved on and I don't know if I'm making u the differences in behavior that I'm noticing #like ok obviously yes we have texted a crazy amount tonight that is not the behavior I'm worried about texting is eh #what comes of it comes of it #it's the stuff irl like what's real what did I make up #fucking hate this shit bro #it's nice to not be holding a secret but I just kinda wish it wasn't a secret I had in the first place y'know #also yes I'm pretty damn sure some of the things he's saying/texting are his way of putting out feelers for Something #but I can't tell for What #so I think I'll let it slide for a week or two until one of us (hopefully him) figures it out ig

[pikachugirltits]

Being asexual and having a libido is wild sometimes. It's like...I want to get dicked down so badly right now. But not like...with a person necessarily...but also not masterbation...I want the "platonic" ideal of being dicked down to manifest in my home and rock my world.

#lexi rambles on #I would like to be the kind of person who can have casual sex with people #the concept sounds enjoyable #but...at the same time...how am I supposed to be attracted to a person without deeply knowing them? #it's so complicated and made more difficult by me being a bottom but mostly liking girls #my ideal casual sex partner is a transgirl top who'll shove her dick in my mouth and not let me stop until I stop overthinking