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mothwingwritings · 9 months

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Save The Date

F!Reader X Jean Pierre Polnareff

Today is my birthday!!! Yaaay! To celebrate, I wrote this self-indulgent, out of left field, Polnareff-kidnaps-you-on-your-bday-and-tries-to-force-his-love-on-you story because why not? I’ve been wanting to write more Jojo and I love Polnareff’s himbo ass sooo here it is. :D I decided to go back to my roots with this one, it was therapeutic loool.

This was a bit rushed because I want to get it finished by today, but I hope you enjoy!!! Thank you for reading and for being here! Love y’all~ ( ˘ ³˘)♥

Warnings: Kidnapping, imprisonment, reader is restrained this whole fic, forced/nonconsensual touching and kissing, brief mentions of sex, delusional Polnareff, probably horrible butchering of French pet names (I am sorry any French speakers, forgive my google translate indiscretions (；´∀｀))

Everything was perfect.

From the varying balloons and streamers that dotted the room, to the bows he had placed so lovingly in your hair, Jean Pierre Polnareff had worked hard to make this presentation immaculate. It was what his baby deserved after all-it wasn’t like it was your birthday every day.

It took weeks of planning and organizing to get everything just right. He’d spent countless hours calling the best caterers and bakers in town, and spent all his down time consulting with party planners to make sure this soiree would go off without a hitch. He was even able to score the perfect dress for you from the fancy boutique down the street-the very same dress you had been casting wistful (yet furtive) glances at for quite some time. The moment the ornate frock had gone on sale he could barely conceal his excitement and ended up purchasing it right away. He was sure you would be thrilled to receive the gown as a gift, and also be touched by his intuitive nature, his knack for picking up on the things you desired.

It was just your style, and he knew as soon as you donned it you would look nothing short of gorgeous. Envisioning you in it made his heart flutter, the smile that would engulf your face as you twirl around in it, giggling in sheer delight as the fabric swirls prettily around you, was sure to be a sight for sore eyes. It was hard waiting to see the dream become a reality.

When he finally got the chance to slip it on your body, he needed a moment to compose himself before he proceeded with the rest of the party setup. He had been correct in his assumption-you looked breathtaking, exactly like a princess in your new frilly, satin, dress. He wished he could have arranged to also have someone do your hair and makeup to really complete the look, but it was too risky to chance it. As much as he would have loved for you to wake up to a complete makeover, he couldn’t trust anyone to not be suspicious of the arrangement he had currently setup for you, and he dared not muck you up with his own mediocre skills.

But at the same time it didn’t really matter that he couldn’t have a cosmetologist stop by, you always looked perfect and ethereal, dolled up or otherwise.

Everything was splayed out before you, not a single item out of place. The table was neatly set with his finest dishes and cutlery, set at the ready to be topped with the feast that he was preparing for you. Vibrant bouquets comprised of only the fullest and brightest blooms of your favorite flowers sat on each end of the table, and fragrant candles cast flickering light over the scene, exuding a very romantic aura. Dinner (one of your favorite meals) was nearly done cooking in the kitchen, and its scent had begun to enticingly fill the room. He could practically hear your stomach rumble in anticipation.

The centerpiece of it all was an elaborate cake, decadent and rich, your name and a sweet birthday message sprawled on its surface in a pretty, curving script. It was far too large for just two people to consume, but that just meant there would be more to look forward to in the future. Maybe you would want to freeze some of it to share with him again on your next birthday, like some couples do with their wedding cake. The correlation made him blush as he fixated on it, giddy as he fantasized about all that lay ahead for the two of you.

With everything assembled, all he had to do was wait. He parked himself opposite you at the table, dressed to the nines to try and match you. As impressive as his finely tailored suit was, he didn’t hold a candle to your radiance. He sighed dreamily as he took you in, his eyes roving over your peaceful face while slumber still claimed you. You had a habit of incessantly frowning or shooting him questionable glances while you were awake. Whenever you noticed that his attention was turned your way, a grimace inevitably followed. This moment of peace where he could drink you in without any backlash was bliss, and as much as he was excited for you to wake up, he couldn’t help but relish this serene alone time he was sharing with you.

No kicking and screaming, no crying, no unnecessarily hurtful words flung his way when all he’s trying to do is show you love. Right now there was just you, him, and this lovingly crafted display of his affection that he prepared just for you, the love of his life. A small mountain of presents towered behind him, waiting patiently to be picked open by your delicate fingers. Most of them were little things he had picked up for you here and there that he thought you would like, trinkets and baubles he felt exuded a very ‘you’ aura and thus needed to be brought home to you. He used to try and give them to you the moment he purchased them, but you would always turn them away, telling him that he was spending way too much money on you. Silly girl, no amount of currency could ever be a waste on you.

The gift pile was a veritable array of goodies sure to delight you, teeming with big things, small things, and one very important thing that had been weighing heavily in his pocket for the past week. He had always planned on presenting it to you on your birthday (there was no greater gift than a perfectly cut rock signifying your eternal union, after all), but carried it around with him as a good luck charm of sorts, keeping it near till the moment he could give it to you. He kept it in his breast pocket as close to his heart as he could, childishly hoping that the placement would infuse it with the immense love he felt for you, each heart beat coursing through it making it shine more dazzlingly.

Though he enjoyed carrying it around with him, the time was soon approaching for it to go to its intended home, sitting prettily on your ring finger. Musing on it made him glance down at your hands as they rested daintily on the chairs arm rest. He tried not to focus on the straps he had placed around your arms, holding you in place to prevent you from bolting the moment you woke up. You were such a jumpy, shy thing, inclined to run and hide the moment you spotted him. He knew this setting would be overwhelming for you, that you would not take all the extra attention so easily, hence why the sedation and extra restraints were needed. As much as he wanted to do a more natural approach, there was just no way to keep hold of you otherwise. It was a necessary measure, but it was one he hated nonetheless.

Knowing you would be upset when you awoke filled him with dismay, but ultimately the drugs and confines were all just a means to an ends. After the initial shock wore off, you were certain to be pleased by all his effort.

Hesitantly, he reached out to grasp your hands, holding them gently in his own. His thumb slowly grazed your knuckles, tracing small circles over your soft skin. Were they not strapped down, he would have chanced giving your hand a kiss, his lips yearning to make contact with you in any way they could. It truly was a shame that you were so adverse to touch, for he constantly longed to handle you tenderly, treating you so lovingly you would become putty in his hands, melt at his ministrations. He could clearly picture the expressions you would make while he busied himself, running his fingers gingerly across your flesh, memorizing every inch of you in faithful reverence, kisses following where his fingers once tread.

It was his most avid desire, but he had yet to act on the fantasy. His dream would come true someday, but first you had to get used to him. Ease into your new life.

It was a torturous process, waiting for you to warm up, but he knew it would be worth it in the end. Besides, with how bashful you were he figured he would be your first time for so many things, and that was exhilarating in its own right.

Suddenly, you stirred. Polnareff perked up, his eyes darting to your face as he watched your own slowly blink open. You scrunched your face in discomfort, groaning as your head gradually rose from its lulled posture. The after effects of the heavy drugs made your movements sluggish and groggy, another small groan slipping past your lips as you rotated your shoulders in an attempt to stretch.

Your gaze eventually landed on Polnareff, his face lighting up when you didn’t immediately look away. Still heavily sedated, confusion dominated your features. At this point, you were unsure where you were, what was going on, and probably perplexed by Polnareff’s presence, maybe even so bewildered you didn’t yet fully remember who Polnareff was. A warm smile graced his lips as he watched you come to, your befuddled state too cute to resist.

“Ma chérie,” Polnareff purred, his voice drawing you further from your hazy state, “I’m glad you are finally awake. It wouldn’t do to have you sleep through your whole party now, would it?”

Disorientation was giving way to realization, a look of fear and agitation morphing your lax expression into a sharp scowl. You began to pull against your bindings, your tugs becoming sharper the moment you felt resistance, alarm mounting when you realized how trapped you truly were. Your eyes locked onto Polnareff’s, the haze that had clouded them gone, replaced with resentful animosity. It was painful being at the end of your enmity, but he reminded himself it was to be expected. You would be filled with contentment very soon, he just had to get you there.

“Jean what the hell,” Your words came out listless and slurred. As the final dregs of the drugs wore off, you struggled to get your baring’s. “Where am I? What is all this? Did you… did you fucking drug me?”

Panic was starting to course through you, wide blown eyes filling with tears that you tried desperately to blink back. Your breathing grew labored as you started to thrash, trying your hardest to free yourself from the man who had imprisoned you, despite your compromised state.

Concerned you would hurt yourself, Polnareff gripped your hands tightly to try and sooth you, but it only caused your struggling to grow in intensity. Noting this, he quickly relinquished his hold, instead opting to cup your cheeks in a manner he hoped you would find more reassuring. Your skin was moist from your freshly fallen tears, his thumb easily sliding across its delicate surface, trying to wipe them away as best he could. You attempted to recoil from his touch, but the restraints and his firm hold kept you in place.

“Please amoureuse calm down,” he shushed you, worry reflected in his eyes, “You’ll end up hurting yourself if you keep pulling like that-“

“Fuck off,” you seethed between clenched teeth, “Let me go NOW Polnareff, or I swear I’ll-“

He clamped a hand over your mouth, halting any further commentary. A deep frown etched itself into his face as he stared you down, patience waning at the immediate vehemence you directed his way. Today was not supposed to go this way, he expected some backlash sure, but you weren’t supposed to recover from the medicine he had given you so rapidly. It was supposed to take time, fester a bit so that you would slowly come around, giving him plenty of time to explain things to you and have you get used to the arrangement naturally.

All the extra precautions were to help you see this for what it was, a true celebration to exhibit his unwavering dedication to you, and not whatever horrific falsity you had concocted in your anxiety addled brain. He cursed himself for not giving you the larger dose as he originally intended, he was just so concerned you may sleep too deeply and miss out on your special day altogether.

“You need to be quiet now, (Name),” His voice was low, a serious edge to it that froze your thrashing, granting him your full regard, “I know you are upset and confused, it’s only natural with how you woke up, and I don’t blame you for it. But there is no need for your ire ma cherie, look around you,” he released his hold, sweeping his hand across the room to show off his handiwork, “This is all for you bella. I worked so hard to make everything perfect for you because you deserve nothing less. Each decoration, accessory, snack, present-they were all assembled lovingly with you in mind. I’ve been preparing this for months, so please don’t be-“

“I don’t want any of this,” you once more cut him off, your voice choppy as you forced it out through shaky sobs, “I never wanted any of this. How many times do I have to tell you that I don’t feel for you this way Polnareff? What you are doing is wrong, this entire ‘party’ is wrong! Please, if you really care about me at all just let me go and-“

Swiftly, he slammed his hand down on the table before you, rattling the dishes so violently it was surprising that none of them broke. Startled by the sudden upset, you lurched in your restraints, instantly shutting up out of fear. Your body quivered in distress, worried that if you said another word it would only further enrage him, and the assault next go around may not stop at just a whacked table.

“Stop it,” He annunciated each word, his eyes holding a sharpness that sent chills down your spine, “You don’t know what you are saying mon cœur, you are just blindly judging things before you even try them.” He took a shaky breath before continuing, “I have been patient, I have been kind, I have given you nothing but love, yet you constantly keep me at arm’s length, turning away from me in disgust even though I worship the ground you walk on. Please for one minute stop being so damn ungrateful and just be satisfied with all the hard work I have put in to meeting your lofty, unreasonable standards, or else you may actually have something to cry about.”

Tears continued to pour down your cheeks as your panic-stricken eyes drank him in. Your bottom lip quivered, sniffles punctuating your breathing, but you didn’t speak another word. He felt momentarily guilty for going off on you (on your birthday, no less), but seeing the success his rare instance of harshness awarded him quickly overshadowed any negativity he felt, instead washing him in a feeling of victory.

Now that he got his point across, hopefully you could proceed as planned and things would be smooth sailing from here on out.

In the other room the oven started to noisily beep, signaling that dinner was ready to be served. He rose to his feet, hovering over you before making his way towards the kitchen.

“Ah, perfect timing,” he forced a smile, doing his best to hide the hurt your brusque behavior had inflicted upon him. He squared his shoulders, composing himself before continuing. “Here is how the night will progress, amour. I will prepare our meals and then we will enjoy them peacefully in each other’s company. Once we are done, we can dig into this cake I ordered especially for you from the gourmet bakery down the street, the one that’s so popular it has a wait list.”

He sighed dejectedly, hanging his head in defeat before continuing, “You may not care, but I think it’s important that you take into consideration just how much of myself I poured into this celebration before you make another snide, thoughtless remark.”

His eyes flicked down to the cake, a brief look of sadness wavering within them before he directed his attention back your way. “It’s lovely though, isn’t it? I am sure it will taste just as good. Don’t worry, if you haven’t calmed yourself in time to be let loose I will gladly feed you chérie. Even when you are being particularly… bratty, I would not want you to miss out on such a delicacy. Then, once our bellies are full you can start unwrapping this mound of presents behind me, and we will just pray that it doesn’t take us through the entire night.”

He chuckled, his demeanor beginning to soften as he spoke, appreciative of the obedience you were displaying and the lack of unwarranted commentary as he got through the itinerary for the night. “Finally, we will end the party with a gift that has been a long time coming, one that is a truly significant mark of our eternal bond. I know you will love it ma chérie, just as much as I will.”

He saw a shiver course through you at his words, a small, sad whimper tumbling from your lips as your shoulders sagged. The gravity of his allusion bore down on your small frame, shrinking you down in a poor attempt at hiding from your inescapable fate. He tutted when he saw your attitude shift, his hand again finding your cheek to give it a gentle stroke. This time, you didn’t flinch away.

“I know this is a lot to take in ma beauté and I am sorry it frightened you at first,” he leaned down, planting a lingering kiss to your forehead before proceeding, “But you will come around very soon, I know you will. You are my sweet girl, and after you experience what a great time we are about to have you will be so overcome with joy that you will barely be able to stand it. In fact, you may already feel a little silly for giving me such a hard time, am I right?”

Suddenly, his expression turned bashful. A rosy hue illuminated his cheeks as he started to fidget uncomfortably, a slightly embarrassed looking smile gracing his lips. Your body turned cold as his hand slid from your cheek to your shoulder, idly toying with the thin strap of your dress. His roving eyes fell to your chest, a hungry look flashing through them before they found their way back to your gaze.

“And then, after you have finished going through all your gifts, to thank me for what a gracious lover I have been maybe… maybe I can unwrap something too?”

You shudder at his insinuation, a look of pure dread donning your features.

“Polnareff,” you choked out, strained words struggling to form one final, soft plea, “please.”

Before you could utter another word, his mouth aggressively claimed your own. He pressed hard against you, as if to engrain the scorching feeling of his lips on to your flesh. You whined, squirming against him until he pulled away, staring at you with longing, love struck eyes.

“Happy birthday, ma chérie. Let’s make this one to remember.”

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themole · 4 months

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yaaay i got a bunch of alcohol and stuff to do baking for my bday :333 im gonna make margaritas for the first time and burnt basque cheesecake also for the first time ever!!! yippeeeee!!!

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vintagelacerosette · 1 year

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myn. MYN. i need you to understand how completely and utterly floored i am by your gift!!! am i talking about the GGE yqhbr fan art or your beautiful brain? both. it’s both 😌 you are such a joy and the most incredible human and i am so lucky to know you and share this space with you. i WILL be printing it out on beautiful glossy paper and hanging it above my desk, by the way. for the joy and the smiles and the creative inspiration/motivation to keep writing & expanding upon this universe. thank you. i truly can’t say it enough. i love you beyond measure 💛✨🎄🎀

MACCCYYYY IM SIMPLY OVER THE MOON YOU LOVE IT 😭🥹💖💖💖💖

I love you too & I am unbelievably elated to help be inspiration for you 😭😫💘💘💘

Yeeeess the detail were so fun!! Yaaay Aangel numbers & 69ing 😂 I was combing over your brilliant fic to get as much details i could 😆 Also Mickey's likes is 10 for his bday & 9 for Ian's bday too 🥰

Ahh yes under the cut their red knuckles clasping each other firmly but reverently like they catch believ each other is real in the snow on their romantic walk 💙❤️💙❤️💙

^ me @ you flying to aus to give me a hug ily 😆💘

#most magnificent macy 💙💛#celestialmickey #got hand cramp from this but frankly my dearest macy it was so so worth 🥰#ask #💌

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whaleofatjme1920 · 2 years

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YOOOO I love kikis special delivery the most, always had my favor

Also to 💜 anon, happy birthday to you too! (I just saw it now im sorry, but yaaay bday buddies!)

Btw elsie that dress looks so good on you, it suits you a lot!

Im going home late today due too a team meeting exercise for work experience, i wont get my alone time till 7 rip, ive been awake since dawn too lmao

Everyone talks about Howl but Kiki, Ponyo, Cat returns, from up on poppy hill are gems. Thank you!!

Oh rip o hope you’re able to get some sleep soon

#conversations with a fish woman #lynx time

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minjiz · 2 years

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I am a lot better than i was back in january thank god :') u could say im doing pretty decent even haha fjdjjsjs getting therapy w my psychologist + seeing a dietitian regularly + hanging out w friends bc its summer = mental state improvement ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ im so glad to hear summer's doing u good too!! also fuck bio fuck high school so proud of u forreal !!!! u have like one year left right (I'm guessing) ?? have u made any plans for uni or is that too far away to think about fjfjjf

YAAAY OMGGG SO happy to hear that, proud of u champ !!! idc what ppl say about heat, summer is just that bitch lmao winter drains the life out of me :/ or am i just a cancer?? i have to see a psych too before school starts to get tested for both adhd and autism, i've postponed it for too long and i can't anymore kshdkwhdj 🏃‍♀️ i've got 2 more yrs of hs actually, i'm in so called "higher edu" school. they last 4yrs here and have similar programs to ur colleges, in opposition to professional schools that mostly last 3yrs. we pick majors at the end of 2nd year which means i'm a social studies major starting this sept !!

as for uni, i thought ab law but office jobs are a big no no 🤮 i did all kinds of dance when i was younger and stopped in 4th grade. now i wanna pick it up again but make it a job ?? wbu, something related to art or science ?? also ur bday is coming up, how r u feeling virgo kingqueen 😏💃

#have fun reading this novel <3 #asks #zay

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shynetyme06 · 2 years

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Human lust

#my art #utmv #lust sans #human au #human lust #genderbend #also happy (kinda) late bday to dis au #it’s only barely 40 mins past 12am where I’m at :p #yaaay

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juyeoon · 3 years

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It was by fate ❋ #HappyChanheeDay

#the boyz #tbznetwork #the boyz new #the boyz chanhee #choi chanhee #chanhee #the boyz fanart #kpop fanart #digital art #myart #can yall belive im actually in time to post this for chanhees bday :( yaaay!!!#to my dearest and most favorite voice ever! i hope he has a very well rested and joyful day #also wHY!! am i always incorporating pink in my drawings?? like? not even in purpose #maybe is part of my ideal tbzcore idk #but i love him :( pls send him lots of love today and always!!

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jjongslight · 4 years

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Was watching this video about the struggles of being in your 20′s especially the second-half of your twenties.

Two things hit hard : Me hating my birthday ever since 25 passed, because now everyone expects me to act like a real adult and to have all my shit together while I feel that I’m so behind and THE ANXIETY OF THAT IS ONE OF THE MOST AWFUL THINGS EVER. Also, feeling like the most inadequate, alone and destined to failure human being ever.

#first years of my twenties were good #because I could still get away with not having my shit together and having more fun #now it's like walls are enclosing around me and soon I'll be squished #yaaay #sarajinkipersonal #my bday is like in two months and I already want to vomit #*enclosing is not the word but I'm too lazy to properly english rn XD #also I don't have the same energy physically have chronic problems now #but there were perks like me finally getting therapy having accomplished stuff I guess and others lol #people be like I struggle too but they are much more successful so I give them the side eye

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raven-at-the-writing-desk · 3 years

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Happy Birthday Deuce! *Swings arm around Deuce’s shoulder’s to bring him in close for a selfie* Your beloved senpai, Cay-kun, has brought you the Light Music Club to play for your birthday! I also found this cute little pillow of a Spade that would brighten your room. And here’s a policeman’s cap I found in a costume shop. Be sure to strive to the heights I know you can! *Fits the cap on Deuce’s head before pulling him in for another selfie*

A flurry of actions sent Deuce into a daze.

First was the tug, followed by the bright light of Cater’s phone camera going off in his face. Next was the spade pillow being haphazardly shoved into his hands while he was still recovering from his upperclassman’s sneak attack. Then the policeman’s cap came down upon his head, set at an angle such that it obscured half of Deuce’s vision.

“Awww, you look so totally cute like that, Deuce-chan~” Cater gushed, wrangling the birthday boy close again. “C’mere, let’s take another pic together before the performance! Saaaaay ‘cheep’!”

“Huh? Don’t you mean ‘cheese’?”

CLICK!!

Again, Cater’s camera went off. A second blossom of light erupted in Deuce’s vision. He winced against it, burying his head in the spade-shaped pillow to grant himself solace in complete darkness.

“Nah! I mean ‘cheep’, cuz chicks are your thing~” Cater laughed, throwing his underclassman a wink—the tip of his tongue poking out teasingly from between his lips.

Already, his fingers were flying across his keyboard, typing up a storm.

Here today celebrating my qt underclassman’s bday! :DD He’s growing up so fast and Cay-kun’s becoming an old grandpa LOL 😂 Let’s all cheer Deuce-chan on, okay? The LMC will cheer him on, too~

#it’s party time #it’s show time too lmao #light music club performance #rae-chan’s attic

“Anyway! Thanks a lot for the photos! I’m going to post them on my Magicam now, so can you give me your account name? I wanna make sure I tag you 🎵”

Deuce pouted, peering out from behind his pillow. With a free hand, he adjusted the policeman’s cap to better fit him. “Next time, please warn me before you start taking pictures, senpai...”

“Aaaah, sorry, sorry! Deuce-chan was just soooo adorable, I couldn’t help it! This kind of cuteness deserves to be shared with the world, you know?”

Deuce heaved a sigh. “... It’s okay, I forgive you. You meant well, so I can’t be mad at you for that.”

“Really? Yaaay, that’s awesome!!” A mischievous glint shone in Cater’s eyes. “Now, about your Magicam account name~”

Fun fact, this is what showed up in the search bar when I was looking for spade-shaped pillows—

#Deuce Spade #Cater Diamond #twst #twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #Deuce birthday takeover

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yyxgin · 3 years

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a lot has happened at work recently!! but who cares bleh. libra season!!! which means bday celebrations!! except i’m at work BOO 👎 and my two assistant managers have officially left (i’m helping them move on wednesday) and they were probably the only two who knew when my bday was apart from my supervisor but he’s gone to a different branch to train to be an assistant manager before coming back so i’m super bummed bc now i have to deal w al the new staff by myself 😭

also one of the ladies in kp read my palms?? and she told me i spend too much money impulsively which isn’t false… but i have to spend money impulsively or if spend none at all (which is good for saving ig) but i’d also be doing nothing other than working and that would make me sad lol. she also told me bc i’m a libra this month i’ll be unlucky with love but lucky with money so 🥺🙏🙏 i was having a relatively bad day that day so she was cheering me up n all of that.

did i tell you when my txt and skz albums came, they also came like a week or two later (again) bc they’d accidentally doubled up my order? it was like heaven with skz bc changbin baby is my ult n he was in some of the pulls for the second album 🥵🥵 the limited edition of no easy confuses me bc it’s not like the last one of theirs i bought and typically groups stick to a style when they design albums like mamamoo are all in these cute magnetic flip box thingies and nct’s are all little books type things as well as txt’s but skz switched it up and there’s a fair bit of loose stuff? but it’s okay bc i have two posters n all of the mini flip card things for the members and some bangchan (i’m gifted in pulling chan).

im also hopefully getting a car?? the barman hasn’t gone to prison yet bc the court keep moving his sentencing date(s?) so when i discussed this w my mum she said they’ll probably throw it out and relief filled me!! but ik i shouldn’t be so hopeful but at the same time it’s like why would you mess someone around so much? anyway i’ll move on, i wanted to drop him home in my car bc he deserves a lift everyday what a sweetheart❣️ my co-worker facetimed me today as it was my day off and i said hi to everyone it was so heartwarming to see everyone missing me but also not bc my manager overworks me and he knows that after this weekend 💉🩸

im jumping about with my points and things i want to say but i’m horrible at internet friends so this is okay for me as recently i’ve just not had energy for any friends which is awful of me but i’m still trying to find the balance between work and social. also everyone’s gone to uni and i’m just chilling. i like my life.

i want to redecorate my room. i don’t like the vibe other than when people compliment my kpop wall bc it’s a bunch of my art and then other peoples art and i thoroughly enjoy decorating w pictures and stickers and stuff but it’s literally just a door and it’s depresses me that my happiness is reduced to the back of a singular door now. i want to redo the vibe in my room and make it more me. i’ve never felt comfortable until recently and even now i’m going back to feeling uncomfy now that i know i want it a certain way and to give a certain vibe. idk, maybe it’s bc i watched sex education and seeing lily’s room in the most recent season (i won’t say much more in case you are watching/haven’t seen it yet) really made me realise i want to love myself and love the space i create for myself more. do you enjoy your space you’ve created for yourself? i always feel like peoples rooms say a lot about them as a person but how they see their room in their own eyes always says more.

i want to ask loads of questions and am awful at asking them so please just tell me everything i missed or should be updated on!! ily, always

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LIBRA SEASON !!! omg did i ask you when's your bday ?? i hope i didn't miss it. >:( happy birthday !!!! you deserve so much love. also, i'm sorry about your managers leaving. dealing with new staff is hella stressful and i hope you don't have to have too much responsibility and nerves <3

ooh palm readings are hella interesting. i've never had one but i think i'd like to try. spending money impulsively isn't a bad thing, if it's not an irresponsible spending. and if it is,, well who cares. yolo. i feel you on that tho, bc even tho i am really stingy w money, sometimes i just buy stuff i don't need and act on impulse.

OMG THAT IS A DREAM ?? getting free albums ?? (at least i hope they were free lmao). i like it when groups stick to one type of packaging although i must say i dont like the book thingies nct uses bc there is no magnetic part so it falls apart on my shelf and i hate that. i acutally like the sleeve packaging txt's albums have ?? everyone seems to bitch abt it on tiktok but i find it the most conveniet. also i'm glad changbin came home to you <3

YAAAY TO THE CAR !! AND ALSO TO YOUR COWORKER. i am praying he won't have to go, then, i am really hopeful. he is a sweet soul and doesn't deserve that. pleeease don't put up with your boss overworking you. take care of yourself :(

YOURE NOT HORRIBLE AT INTERNET FRIENDS we are besties. okay ??? and its totally okay to have no energy for friends as well, bc as you can see, i am struggling as well recently. it took me so long to reply to this ask and i feel so bad but it is what it is :// social battery has been low and i am busy with studying and work and trying to put my shit together. i am rooting for you !! <3

go for the decorating !! i actually haven't watched sex education and am not planning on watching so i dont really understand what you mean, but i hope you get to create a space for yourself when you feel free and comfortable. i share a room with my brother so its kind of difficult to decorate it how i want it, but i honestly like sharing a room tbh. he's not here half the time anyway so it's good to see him at least when we go to sleep lmao. but i have a bunch of stuff in my corner that are kpop and my side is full of plants, so i feel good surrounded by them hihi. i like it here.

i don't have many updates. i am actually living a very boring life, so i have nothing to share. preparing for graduation exams has been making me anxious and also depressed with everything that's been going on lately, but it's okay. i'll pull myself together <3 i love you a lot, take care !! i missed you

#our convos are always so long i love it #missed you sm #sorry for taking ages to reply #💌ask #🌻 anon

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teirrart · 3 years

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hehehehehe new pages? OwO I can't exactly draw at the moment sad Y.Y but instead I will dub the next pages for Pigment's Birthday! Happy Birthday Pigment. (Tbh I kinda would wonder how PIgment would react to hearing my voice as his voice actor I dunno) *give you all the hugs and smother's Pigment in love* hehehe (Also no joke me and my lover legit play Pigment and Sandy XD your comic predicted us getting together lol (many thanks)

aw omg thats so cute sdfghjfdsafghj qwq

and yaaay exciting sdfghj his bday is now 2 weeks from now exactly omg mybabyboi

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angst-in-space · 3 years

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july ‘21 writing progress

words written: 40k

most words written in a day: 2648

least words written in a day: 131

current yearly total: 161.5k

projects worked on:

- ya sci-fi novel - renga practice kissing fic - sylvix dreamscape fic - sierra bday fic - jessie bday fic - sk8tts zine piece - outlining wenzhou fic

works published in july:

“you’re a dream (i’m never waking up)” chapter 4

july goals:

- write 40k for camp nano goal - write at least first 20k of my novel - write at least 20k of fanfic - finish sierra’s (very late) bday fic - start narumitsu commission - finish/submit sk8tts piece - publish chs 4 and 5 of sylvix dreamscape fic - finish draft of ch 6 of sylvix dreamscape fic - finish draft of renga fic, maybe publish by end of month ?? - work on matchablossom fic if i have time

august goals:

- write ~15k of my novel - write at least 10k of fanfic - finish sierra bday fic - finish jessie bday fic - start narumitsu commission - publish ch 5 of sylvix dreamscape fic - finish draft of ch 6 of sylvix dreamscape fic - finish draft of renga fic - work on matchablossom fic if time?? - start wenzhou fic if time??

notes:

so, july was.....wild. i went a bit bananas and wrote 40k over the course of the month––which on the one hand was cool, especially because it pushed me to make progress on a bunch of things! but... to be honest i kinda feel like i burned myself out, so i’m gonna try to reel myself back a little during august (even though i still have like, a zillion things to finish lol).

probably the most exciting part of my july writing journey was that i started writing my ya sci-fi novel! and, as i hoped, i got the first 20k of the first draft done, so i’m really thrilled about that. i still have a long way to go with it, of course, but... this honestly feels like a huge step for me. i’ve been like absolutely terrified to write original fiction and haven’t even attempted it in like 5 years, so it feels really good to be starting on that journey again!

related to that, i also applied to a writing residency that would like really boost this project forward if i were to get it (ha...) which is like the first time i’ve applied myself to anything with my original writing in.....many many years lol. not getting my hopes up super high cuz i think it’s pretty competitive, but i’m just proud of myself for putting myself out there, since it’s been such a long time! (and also, if everyone could send good energy out into the universe for me... 🙏)

outside of that, i got a good chunk of fic writing done as well... i didn’t finish as many things as i’d hoped, but i still worked on a number of things and am close to finishing a few of them. :) in terms of what i did finish, i edited/published ch 4 of the sylvix dreamscape fic, and completed/submitted my piece for sk8 through the seasons zine (preorders open on aug 7th btw!!) which i ended up being really happy with so YAAAY.

going to continue working on my novel this month, since i’m hoping to at least get a first draft finished by the end of the year SO i’m aiming to write roughly 15k of it per month (maybe more than that during november if i’m lagging behind on it....we’ll see lol).

besides that... i’m trying to prioritize finishing my bday fics for sierra and jessie since they are both late *cries*, and also starting the narumitsu commission bc that is also exceedingly late *cries some more*. but also really hoping to finish a draft of the renga fic since i only have like one scene of it left. also, i aim to publish ch 5 of sylvix dreamscape fic this month and hopefully finish a draft of ch 6 as well!

there’s also a couple of “maybe if i have time” things, i.e. i’d like to get back to writing my matchablossom fic if possible since i’ve barely touched it the past couple months. :(( oh yeah and...well, if it’s not already clear, i’ve developed severe word of honor/wenzhou brain rot so...naturally i’ve planned out an entire fic for them that i have somehow restrained myself from writing yet. but, i may be tempted to at least start that if i finish a couple other things on my list, haha.

so uh YEP!!! being my usual self i’m like “yeah i’m gonna like slow down this month” *gives myself like 12 different projects to work on* but hey i mean at least i’m having fun and writing things i enjoy so :))) YEAH i have a lot of things coming up and i’m excited!! hope everyone has a good month!

#brigidposts #writing updates #monthly writing progress 2021 #fanfic #original writing #text #long post

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