#after doing me replies though

[noetic-noesis-noein]

[mmm brain no work no more, sleep is needed would anyone be interested in a college au situation? beep the heart and we’ll plot something out >:3]

#out of fabric || ooc #I might just post some opens in college au territory and see if anyone jumps on them #after doing me replies though #tomorrow #I'm so fried rn I had SUCH a long day #I hope y'all sleep good!

[beesorcery]

hello it's part 3 of 3 for my cool fun graphic design adventure!! part 1 and part 2 got too long. to recap i am recreating this t-shirt design but with the magic 8 ball songs instead of city names:

here is the current draft, updated through 3/27 (pittsburgh) (!!!!)

#aaaa!!! #tried doing image descriptions for this one #feel free to send me better ones though and i can update the alt text!! or just put them in the replies/reblogs lol #bees' graphic design adventure #only 7 more shows........ wowie #OH ALSO ppl have been expressing interest in getting this as an actual shirt which is!! cool!! #idk how to do that though!! #if anyone has recommendations for websites or something to do that please please send them or reply to this post or something #at the very least i'll make the file available at the end so ppl can print it on whatever they want #i was gonna make a poster #but yeah let me know if there's a good way to do that!!! it's really cool that people are enjoying this i am having a lot of fun doing it #fob #fall out boy #2ourdust #gonna update after nashville des moines and minneapolis so 3 left!!! #i have already changed it since posting this because i am a freak <3 and i cant leave good enough alone lol #also i now have all the fonts <3 for the cities anyway #not the states but i’ve only used the states a few times so far for like the parentheses or punctuation or whatever #so if i end up needing those ill go find them whatever #anywayyyy yeehaw see u all in like 4 days

[mobius-m-mobius]

a mr tesseract thought: the tva has so many infinity stones… just sitting there… they might not notice a handful of paperweights go missing

Anon you've got my full attention 👀👀

Absolutely living for all the renewed Mr. Tesseract theories and origin stores going around because he's just too perfect to continue the current story!?? I'd always pictured a Mobius variant eventually entering the picture, having succumbed to the power of the Tesseract after needing to save Loki in some way but never in a million years imagined before now that *our* Mobius could end up in that exact situation...

Plus tbh I almost feel Loki going about their self-sacrifice in such an isolated way, reliving all those centuries determined to find a solution without involving anyone else, had an obviously noble goal but a means in such a misguided way which has almost ensured Mobius will do something similar.

Mobius isn't okay. He's on a timeline that can never be his (partially to escape the memories of Loki by his side everywhere he looks in the TVA and hopefully so that back in the flow of time Loki can at least see him again as some form of company still), looking at a life I think he greatly admires but wouldn't personally want even given the choice, and seemingly the only one left directionless and without purpose with Loki being gone.

It wouldn't be a stretch to think loneliness would turn to frustration (because he's done nothing but repress *everything* in the past and deserves to finally burst and be angry and figure out how to express his emotions), confusion, and finally desperation at the thought he might be the only one who cares enough to burn things to the ground in an attempt to either find Loki again or bring him home. I've been headcanoning that similar to Loki in the last episode, Mobius will start putting himself more and more at risk searching for a solution and cut everyone at the TVA off while doing so to keep them from worrying about what he's getting involved in and stop him, which of course eventually leads right to the Tesseract as potentially one of the only methods left of traveling to what I assume is the end of time or somewhere similar.

Bonus points if Loki is watching every moment, unable to do a thing as the Mobius he knows slips further and further away while experimenting with the Tesseract until finally he can't see him on the timeline at all anymore, and as he mourns a crackle of blue energy opens nearby. Loki immediately realizes what's happened and calls desperately for Mobius, but when the figure who exits steps closer he's all cold, hard lines and an blank, electric blue stare. Temporary amnesia v4.0 let's go but make it even more angsty this time 😂😅 Eventually the Power of Love™ wins out of course but that's pretty much my dream arc for now!

#can you tell this is something that's been on my mind since like... the day after the finale asfjflksk #and don't get me wrong there's every chance the tva gang will reunite and work on a solution together to save the day which is great too lo #but i love angst mr. tesseract and exploring mobius' feelings so honestly feel like he deserves to live his worst life for a while #meaning give in to anything and everything he hasn't allowed himself to do or feel for a millennia or more #also owen clearly enjoys variety in his work and would be INCREDIBLE embodying someone more villainous for a while #thank you so much for this ask btw and letting me get this off my chest even though you absolutely wouldn't have expected such a long reply #well or maybe you did because it's me haha #but regardless tysm again and sending lots of love your way!! hope there's a great day ahead 💖 #ask #loki spoilers #just to be safe even though it's mostly just me rambling as usual lol

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

what da heck

#church today. holy heck. #my worship director is pregnant (again) #the youth pastor's wife is not going on the Big Youth Overnight Trip this weekend. she is arranging a ride for me though #worked with that specific sound guy :) #we were the only two people in the young adults age demographic who did not raise our hands when asked to during prayer time #(it was a young adults specific prayer time skskkffnsknf) #I pointed this out to my mom on the way home and my mom promptly replied ''you're meant to be :)'' #I promptly told her ''I dunno if I liked that comment'' and she said it was a joke. HOWEVER. #it has been a WILD day and it's only 1pm #EDIT: it's after 3:30 by the time I'm posting this and I have prepped donuts and also dealt with a dog #who is terrified of the stairs into the basement that unfortunately she has to walk past to go outside #oh also the youth pastor's wife asked me to help her out during her ''office hours'' this week bc she has to make a ton of phone calls #so I'm gonna do that I guess #Lu rambles

[besnouted]

i may not have many practical skills in life but getting academics on mturk to feel bad about rejecting my work is apparently one of them

#i got blocked by the main requester i do work for #apparently automatically by their system that flags for spam #and i sent them multiple emails like Hey uh wtf is up with this #and they finally got back with me after a month to basically tell me #oh you did too many and rated them too similar it messes with our data. we hope this explains why you were banned :) #even though i was rating the videos accurately #and i sent them a sort of last ditch email back not at all expecting a reply based on how they'd worded their first response #and #today i have been unblocked and bonused $1 #the $1 is really killing me too

[alchemiclee]

you've heard of cat in the hat, now get ready for

#i've been wanting to give him a stupid name for so long. becasue hes a stupid little guy and its what he deserves (affectionately) #i wasted the name change thing on this lmao i bet i'll come up with somethng better later and regret #i originally gave him a way-too-deep-over-thought-out name and i just didn't like it. he needed a dumb name i could laugh at. its necessary #genshin #genshin impact #scaramouche #wanderer #genshin scaramouche #genshin wanderer #genshins #honestly “Hat Guy” inspired me to do this lmao he truly does deserve a dumb name 🤣 #i wish we could gain one extra name changer just in case my brain has a better idea even though ive thought about this since... #before he was released? because i saw leaks that said we name him. and even then i couldn't think of anything good #the original name i gave him after the quest was a couple names i saw others suggest that i squished together #but in the end it didnt suit him imo. i was right that a dumb name suits him lmaao but im sure theres better ones out there #if YOU see this post and read all my rambling tags and if you also named your wanderer a silly dumb name you must reply and tell me!!!!!! #i either need genshin friends to share my genshin nonsense with or i need to post more random genshin posts here and pretend i have friends #* #lee screenshots

[izzyizumi]

Digimon Ghost Game ~ Hiro & Gammamon + {Tanabata}! (Japanese cultural holiday taking place on July 7th!)

#digimon ghost game #digimon: ghost game #hiro amanokawa #amanokawa hiro #hiro and gammamon #izzyizumi posts #(OK so Fun Story Time) #(Way back in 2k13 during Tanabata of that year I was very actively involved in a big 'pan-fandom' wide r.p. {role-play} game) #(This wasn't on Tumblr but it was elsewhere and Anyway so I wasn't playing from DigiAdvs at time though I did have my Koushiro he was just) #(Getting Started with my Koushiro Voice Testing & at time I was testing out other charas too & one is like Japan EmbodiedTM) #(Im Not Saying Who They Were {I had a few Similar} but anyway 2k13 was the year immediately after Grandpa on my not-Jew end passed) #(and I was close to Grandpa on that end & Grandparents in general too & Grandpas passing at time hit me *super* hard too) #(At same time. Multiple people were dropping from the rp game {it was still pretty active but} it had been slowing a bit as a result) #(So I got the idea to have my chara hold a Tanabata event post and it actually got like 1200+ comments total) #(of course half of those were replies during threads but anyway it was a surprisingly big success for me to have made that event work) #(At the time my charas 'wish' had simply been 'I hope for the remainder of the following year to be Good') #(What my Chara meant was 'I do not Need a Wish but if I have one I hope everyone elses Wishes can come true for them') #(and also 'if I must make a Wish I would Wish to not {be the only one left here} by the end of That Time') #(and my rp partner who threaded with me had their chara be like 'I'll wish for your wish to come true' & wrote it in charas 5 languages) #(They didnt Know I also meant re the rp games stability but like anyhow that event post was one of my most fun rp experiences ever) #(Fam deaths hit me super hard & I was in a very dark place at time but being able to experience that event really helped me that year) #(I probably wouldn't have kept this blog running on queue for as long if it hadn't been for things like That really helping in between) #(in general I'm really grateful cultural holidays like Tanabata still exist for Japanese people especially as I am {myself} a Jew) #(& we have our own cultural holidays & they may clash at times with Concepts but at the same time I *do* believe we can have solidarity) #(anyway im super Super Happy that if not Koushiro. *Hiro* could get a Tanabata piece because I feel it fits Hiro+Gammamon a TON too) #(Hiro would definitely be the type to be like 'I wish for the remainder of the year to be Good {for Everyone}' & Koushiro Would Too) #(but it does kind of Hit in a Certain way for Hiro+Gammamons storyline in itself Too & I'm just super grateful Hiro could get July theme) #(because if it really couldnt be Koushiro. & I wanted Koushiro for either Tanabata or Aug 1st in itself if not rainy season {June}) #(Hiro was Next Best Choice & anyway This is also what I mean when I say I think cultural themes with this series should be Acknowledged) #(When They Happen in Various Official Arts or even eps INVOLVING the Chosen themselves because these are *cultural specific holidays*)

[abigail]

musician in a band I love is doing tattoos while they’re on tour this spring,, but she only can do one tattoo on each of the tour dates and I messaged her about me having one, y’know thinking maybe someone would’ve jumped in quicker than me, but she replied asking what I want from her flash and I am 😳 oh my godddddd

#i told her and she’s yet to reply though and this was a little while ago now….. so maybe I do not have the spot but ! who knows #I imagine she got a ridiculous amount of dms after posting about it #but yeah wow if I do get one…. omggggg #I met her once before and apparently she was flirting with me the whole time and I was too excited about meeting her that I had no idea lol #my partner was there and was the one who told me she was flirting too 😭 #she’s soo so pretty and cool #truly love her.. #anyway listen to black honey <3 #a

[panharmonium]

I don't know if you've ever talked about this, but what would have been your ideal resolution to Kakashi and Sasuke's relationship in canon? What would you have wanted their post-canon life to look like? (I love love love your meta btw!)

Hi, and thank you!  You’re right; I haven’t talked about this, and the reason for that is because I’m in the planning stages of a project related to this topic, and for me, sharing all my thoughts before I start the nitty-gritty work of making something is basically the kiss of death for the creative process.  I have to keep quiet about stuff I’m working on, or it does weird things to my productivity. X)  

So, while I do have very clear ideas about what the most natural progression for their relationship would be and what their post-canon life would look like, I’m not going to answer this with specifics for now.  I am, however, in a general sense, going to say this: 

Naruto canon basically stops for me at the beginning of 479 (and if you’re interested in a longer explanation for that, I wrote up some thoughts in this old post).  Kakashi and Sasuke’s relationship is just one of many things that the conclusion failed to deliver on, and it’s not even the most important one - I would have been totally fine if the story had ended pre-timeskip and left us with just a tiny indication of a future resolution for them, whereas things like the Uchiha massacre/government cover-up never being mentioned again make me want to scream (I still can’t believe it...never before have I seen a more dramatic departure from a story’s original intent/previously established themes; never before has a more egregious crime against storytelling been committed) - the finale abandoned most of what it had spent the last 700 chapters telling us to wait for, and even though Kakashi and Sasuke’s relationship matters so much to me, it’s not remotely close to the sole or most significant place where the conclusion fell down.

But since we’re talking about these two specifically here - let’s put the other stuff aside.  When it comes to Kakashi and Sasuke, it is completely laughable that this story expects me to buy a conclusion where their relationship isn’t important, the same way it would be laughable for it to expect me to buy a conclusion where Sasuke’s relationship with Sakura or Naruto didn’t matter.  Kakashi is explicitly set up by the story as a parallel/precursor to Sasuke, the same way Obito is set up as a parallel/precursor to Naruto, and while this doesn’t mean that Kakashi and Sasuke are the exact same person or have equivalent personalities, it does mean that Kakashi can understand certain things about Sasuke that other people can’t necessarily relate to quite so easily.  

It’s not just about losing family at a young age (plenty of people in the Leaf can understand that, unfortunately).  It’s the particular experience of discovering your parent/parents’ dead bodies in your own home.  It’s the betrayal/confusion/pain of your family being taken from you not by war or accident or illness, but by the person you most loved and trusted.  It’s the subsequent self-isolation and cutting yourself off from other relationships, throwing yourself into your training and concealing your pain behind the ‘i’m wildly advanced for my age treat me like an adult’ facade.  It’s looking down on your teammates as “less than” and acting like you don’t need them for anything (“you thought the others were so far beneath you that they were worthless....arrogance”).  It’s being dragged inch by inch out of your isolation armor by friends who admire you and care about you despite your efforts to push them away.  

It’s about Kakashi’s unique ties to the Uchiha clan, and specifically to Itachi.  It’s about Sasuke and Kakashi being the last bearers of the sharingan, and both of them being targeted for it (by Danzo, to boot, if you like the anime ANBU arc, but the sharingan still matters even just considering the manga).  It’s about Kakashi’s father being persecuted into a premature grave by the traditional shinobi system, for the crime of defying the traditional shinobi system, the same system that said it was acceptable for the Uchiha clan to be sacrificed in order to accomplish the “mission” of protecting Konoha.  It’s about Kakashi and Sasuke being the children of so-called traitors (aka people who bucked the system and were mercilessly punished for it) and about the complicated social position they’re thus forced to occupy, as people who are deeply proud of where they come from even though they themselves sometimes have conflicted feelings about what their families did to them.  

It’s about Kakashi spending his post-Kannabi life trying to reconcile a desire to protect his home and his community with the knowledge that his home and his community did irrevocable harm to his family, the same way a post-canon Sasuke will have to wrestle with these same questions.  It’s about both of them being used as a weapon to kill the person they cared about most, BY the person they cared about most.  It’s about both of them being willed new eyes by people who were the foundations for their entire existences/philosophies/personal missions for years and years, about whom they now have confusing and complicated feelings, because Obito and Itachi did unspeakable things, but Kakashi and Sasuke love them even when they can’t excuse them, and how do you figure out how to feel about someone who cared about you that much but also hurt you that badly, someone who’s a reviled figure to the rest of the world and whom you aren’t completely sure you’ve fully forgiven, or that it’s even okay for you to forgive?  

It’s about post-canon Sasuke choosing to always keep his left eye covered, an eye he can’t deactivate or otherwise conceal, an eye that makes him (in)famous, an eye that makes him a target to enemies and a danger to the people around him - an eye that comes with baggage, that reminds him of a period in his life that he considers shameful, of a moment where he was lost.

The idea that Sasuke would ever come home to a scenario where Kakashi was not a significant figure in his return/recovery is not remotely believable, particularly when you consider that while all three of Team 7′s kids trained with a member of the Sannin, Naruto and Sakura are the only ones who had actual mentors.  Jiraiya and Tsunade both took on pupils who were reflections of themselves, passing on to them their personal powers and techniques (toad and slug summons, Sage Mode, the Hundred Healings, etc), because they truly believed in their students and cared about their development.  Orochimaru, by contrast, was using Sasuke for his own twisted purposes - he was the witch from Hansel and Gretel, fattening up a child until it could be devoured.  Sasuke was nothing more than a future skinsuit to him, not a student, and there was never any loyalty or respect felt on either side of that mentorship, just a cold craving for the power that each party could obtain by using the other.

In a universe where the master/student relationship is such a fundamental social structure, canon-period Sasuke is totally adrift, unanchored in an aberrant and uncomfortable limbo, because Orochimaru was never supposed to be his teacher.  Kakashi was.   

I think that’s probably the most fundamental principle I apply to Kakashi and Sasuke’s relationship, no matter what era we’re looking at.  Kakashi is sensei to all the kids, in very meaningful ways, but when it comes to the master-student apprenticeships, the truth is that where Naruto had Jiraiya, and Sakura has Tsunade, Sasuke has - was always supposed to have - Kakashi.  The natural progression of their relationship was interrupted the day the Sound Four showed up in Konoha, and it’s been on hold ever since, but the war is over now, even if the work isn’t.  Things are going to change for them, inch by painstakingly-fought-for inch.

#thank you so much for sending this ask to me #(even though i know i didn't answer it with the kind of specifics you were looking for; i'm so sorry!) #every day all i want to do is talk about kakashi and sasuke #or reblog stuff about them #but i end up just pacing back and forth within the confines of my own blog #because my brief foray into the wider naruto fandom after finishing the show #did not seem to indicate that many other people received this story the same way i did #and there's very little fan content out there about this relationship that doesn't make me want to bang my head against a wall #but anyway #the point is i think about them Every Single Day #so i really appreciate this ask #THANK YOU #<333 #naruto #replies #meta #he's like me

[steakout-05]

eeuuaghh i would like everyone to know that i apologise if i have not responded to your reblogs/mentions/posts on tumblr, i have really terrible social anxiety and for some reason people talking to me makes my nervous system think i'm being hunted for sport by a resident evil boss. sorry if i havent responded i'm not being rude i'm just having a panic attack :P

additionally: social anxiety is actually the reason why a lot of my old posts from late 2022 had weird spacing and spelling mistakes. i was too anxious to type properly

#sorry this seems like a random thing to post but it has been bugging me for a little bit now and i want to post it #and by a little bit i mean the entire time i've been on this website #as for the reason i have social anxiety: i went to a really terrible high school full of dangerous people- #-who were literally like. the worst most bigoted people ever. not everyone there was bad of course but 90% of them were- #-and that stunted by social development by 5-6 years and now every time someone talks to me i feel like i'm about to get murdered #also primary school was. bad. the other kids could sniff out the autism in me and didn't like me for it #this post isn't directed towards anyone specifically but also it kinda is because there's a DM from someone- #-that i haven't responded to in literally 8 months and every time i think about it i get anxious #i'm sorry!!! i'm not trying to ignore you on purpose and i want to say something but my brain literally will not let me out of fear :( #i'm not used to getting talked to directly so every time i do my entire nervous system starts screaming and running in circles #it's kinda ridiculous because it's like. come on. why are you having a panic attack over a message on tumblr it's LITERALLY just words on- #-a screen what are you freaking out about. but also it's like hhhhh unfamiliar social situation scary. help. #unrelated to that but i am very worried about what people will think of me and like i know i really shouldn't worry about that- #-because i can't control what other people think of me and it really shouldn't be any of my or their business. but also- #-i have legitimate trauma that backs my fears up and every time someone is even slightly critical towards me my brain just goes- #-''see? it happened again i TOLD you it would happen again. idiot. you shouldn't have said anything'' #and then i hide and cry and lay in bed thinking about how i'm going to die until i suddenly snap out of it and think- #-''wait hang on why should i care. i love being a weirdo on the internet why should i let my anxieties stop me'' #and then it happens AGAIN and it's just a viscous cycle at that point #be silly on the internet -> detect slight criticism -> think everyone hates you again -> go back on your bullshit after 3 days of crying #and it makes sense because that exact same pattern happened to me countless times as a child. #be silly in school -> get made fun of for it -> get hated for it -> rinse and repeat until you think everyone is dangerous and they hate yo #if i could put it in a metaphor it would be like me being a little rabbit who thinks everyone is a scary wolf because of their big shadows- #-even though they're all also rabbits and i'm just paying attention to the scariest parts of them because i only know what wolves look like #trauma does fucked up things to your psyche lemmie tell you #social anxiety #anxiety disorder #i'm literally the ''too scared to order food'' stereotype except it's not a stereotype because it's real and every time i look at the 7/11- #-at my campus i go ''hm but what if they hate me for the food i buy there'' even though they're LITERALLY SELLING IT what is WRONG with me #anyway um. social anxiety sucks and i don't mean to not reply ro everyone who talks to me i am sorr y

[caravanlurker]

Hi I'm Lauren I'm new to this app, I'm just trying to make some friends. Can i be your friend?

Oh—sure! Cursory glance at your blog shows that we have a few interests in common. Who’re your top 3 Owl House characters?

#talking #I’m gonna be a bit basic and say that it’s the family trio Luz. Eda. King. in that order I love them so much #luz is everything to me. she’s the most I’ve resonated with a cartoon protag & she brings out the best in people but also takes no prisoners #like YEAAAH make that pigeon griffin! #eda would also be so funny to be friends/mentees with #like she’s literally collecting and selling human junk to people at the start of the series #but she’s great to the people she cares about she’s been through so much #also im very happy that in the end her family got bigger #reconciled with her sister and her partner. got a cool battle harpy form. pirate hook hand. love!!! #king is a critical hit for all the character tropes I don’t relate to but LOOOVR #look at his design! #he names that robot JeanFrancoius or something after thinking it was gonna kill him 5 mins ago #he’s also so important the last two ladies so the affection rubs off onto him too #he roleplays Owl House with the collector for months to stave off the end of the world #his dad is the corpse everyone’s been living on and he’s responsible for the new age glyphs for his sister to study LIKE ARE YOU HEARING ME #HE’S SO CUTE AND COOL DOIBLE THREAT #bllaaaaaarrrghhhhh ok that’s enough talking I just got like 10 hrs of sleep yesterday feeling good #i usually have a delay between seeing messages and replying to them so if it takes me like a week to respond it’s not because I I’m annoyed #though at the same time I don’t mind if friends reply to me like months later since I’m never urgent about anything I text #how do I tag you #Lauren!

[gothamcityneedsme]

Trick or Treat! Do you have anything featuring Arkhamverse Jason? 👻

@thesandsofelsweyr sorry for the lateness!!! I hope you don't mind second-day candy.

I DO have one very rough premise for Arkhamverse so far, but I haven't developed it much yet! Here's a few of my notes for fun!

Premise: Post Arkham Knight Jason goes back in time. He rebrands himself as the Arkham Knight once he realizes his goal is accessible--to break into Arkham and save his own goddamned self.

"Why didn't Batman come?" "He thought you were dead. Joker sent them a video of him shooting you in the chest, then mailed them the bullet in a box. Then blew up a hospital--your missing teeth implanted into a burned up body. You have a grave." Why was he defending them? Justifying their actions? Their failure to see through the Joker's tricks?

"Are you him?" "What?" The Knight asked--two sudden bad feelings warring in his stomach. "Bruce. Are you so afraid I'd hate you that you've come to me with another face?" "No." he said under what felt like the toxic waters of Gotham Bay. "I'm not him. He couldn't find you."

I really like this premise, definitely want to write it out more eventually. (I've basically decided to practice with some more Batfam character stories before I launch myself into this one--it would be quite intense, I think)

#shitpost #thesandsofelsweyr #my writing #the title of this is SAVEYOURSELF as of rn #in my head its like. Jason runs into Batman and like #just basically evades him during Arkham Asylum. and then grabs himself. #and then sort of just. drops his young self off at wayne manor. its fine #I'm not sure what made the time travel possible but I'm thinking it should be impossible for him to go back so he's just stuck here #so he just starts doing what he does. As the Arkham Knight though. As a part of this I wanted him to reclaim the Knight identity #becoming the Arkham Knight specifically to save Robin!Jason #i dont know theres something poetic in it for me. #so either this Jason drops the Red Hood identity or he goes back before he's adopted it. #This story is VERY malleable so far LOL #also sorry for late reply i think you sent this after i was off my computer for the night LOL

[ionozoned]

( iono and who........ brain says penny or grusha but i can see it with literally 800 characters. )

#started to zone out halfway through a reply but hot chocolate fixed me. this might just go in the q though ough we'll see #ooc; we'll be back after a word from our sponsors #i keep trying to put emmets ooc tag thank god for auto tags. while they last......... #musings; do streamers dream of electric webs #yea this is on her playlist dw ofc it is #Youtube

[byanyan]

anyway I'm still struggling, still mentally & emotionally exhausted, and still just haven't got the brainpower for writing 🙃

#it took me longer than I'm willing to admit to even put that tiny hc post into words #so uhm. yeah replies & asks are still just not on the table and I'm sorry about that #I'm so mad bc I was getting caught up & I was doing well and now......... back to this adhgjsg #I'm so fucking tired dude I'm so adjgksh #why can't I just exist & function like a normal fucking person??? #sorry for all my complaining on the dash I just. have nowhere else to put it #and even though I tell myself I shouldn't feel bad for being slow... I do. I feel a constant need to apologize & it's stupid #I think part of me is afraid that if I'm not active enough everyone will lose interest #which is ridiculous but after all the self reflection I've been doing this week it makes sense #anyway adjgksh sorry. ignore me ig I needed a teeny vent #here's hoping tomorrow is better #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me. #negative cw #personal cw #tbd.

[bravevolunteer]

the urge to reblog memes with 120 asks in my inbox

#it never ends! #will not be doing that…. will try and write a bit after dinner though #i got a Start on the task ive been putting off which is good enough for me #aaa​and this might be my only other chance to get some more replies in this week #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[crossbackpoke-check]

15 questions + 15 friends (tagged by my beloveds @whitenikes & @acheronist 🥰💕 thank you thank you!!)

1. Are you named after anyone?

technically yes… i’m named after a character in a book but my mom has never been able to remember what book 🫡

2. When was the last time you cried?

i don’t usually log frequent crier miles but i definitely cried in december (??) watching the music video for “amelia” for a variety of reasons

3. Do you have kids?

nope! i do refer to my students as my kids sometimes on accident and have freaked out more than one person by saying “my kids” lmao

4. What sports do you play/have played?

currently i play rugby, although i grew up playing a lot of sports—i did volleyball, basketball, track, and danced competitively (which is probably the sport i miss the most)

5. Do you use sarcasm?

me? using sarcasm? never :) here i usually don’t because it doesn’t come across the same over text and irl it’s usually just with people i’m comfortable with and know will get it

6. What is the first thing you notice about someone?

oooo outfit maybe? voice? context dependent for sure

7. What’s your eye color?

legally, hazel. illegally, whatever color the nearest person to me says that they are at the time

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings :)

9. Any talents?

(insert the quinn hughes 😬 on the bench reaction meme please i’m trying ok!!)

i can bake pretty decently! athletic if that’s a talent? i would love to learn how to do more artsy things (got a crochet kit & paint with watercolor sometimes)

10. Where were you born?

michigan 🧤<- not a mitten but i’d show you where i’m from on it if i could

11. What are your hobbies?

reading, although i never have as much time to read as i want to (send me book recs please)… i count sports as a hobby and i just got a really pretty new puzzle! also, obviously, hockey.

12. Do you have any pets?

yes!!! i have a canary and a society finch (orville and duncan), a hypo corn snake (apollo! he has hearts on his head!), and two cats (john watson and effie). in the future i’d love to have a dog again, since i just lost him this past summer

13. How tall are you?

moritz seider (5’3”)

14. Favorite subject in school?

real hot girls speak german 💅 it’s either that or biology but i feel like that’s little bit of a cop out

15. Dream job?

re: the cop out above, dream job is working as a veterinarian for a zoo! so it makes sense i love biology lol

tagging @songsandswords @kj-op @hiding-from-reality-56 @catboy-mahura and anyone else who’d like to and hasn’t done it already!!

#liv in the replies #i don’t always do tag games because i am Shy but i am going to Make An Effort y’all i promise #assorted random comments: #the amount of googling i have done to try and figure out what book i was named after so i could read it… it’s a curse #you can have it in the tags because i didn’t want to put it in text but i am a SAP i will cry about/to medias a lot easier than my life #and generally i really only cry when i’m hormonal l m a o wish it weren’t so #i am a great lakes girlie now & forever midwest kids are doing alright. can’t imagine living somewhere w/o lakes although the ocean’d be ok #i did however make it a goal to read a book every day that i was on break and we did that!!! my other goal did not get accomplished #(finish a fic) because i was like oh i’ll have so much time!!! and then bam i worked like. 40h weeks lmao. every time :)))) #hopefully today i’ll write though if i get everything figured out for [redacted] and i keep forgetting i still have tomorrow too #the most important part about my pets is that orville & duncan (birds) are questionably gay for each other :) &are EXACTLY like their names #me vs my anxiety that i am Bothering People when i tag them: FIGHT #please know if i didn’t tag you but you would’ve done this i love you with my entire heart i just got scared i would be bothering you 💕 #but also like. tell me so i can tag you next time without fear because i love learning about my mutuals 🥺 y’all are the coolest #tag game