#accept that people are queer and move on

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Thinking thoughts about Abuela being back and with this backstory about her being taken in by charlatans and Eddies whole catholic guilt thing and how the two things kind of play into one another as an exploration of faith and being taken in by something.

Abuela giving all her money to the tarot card readers etc because she was searching for something - for connection (with Abuelo) - trying to recapture what she had lost, and How Eddie has spoken about trying to re-find the magic he had with Shannon - how Eddie hasn't actually fully reconciled the Shannon of it all when it comes to relationships and how his Catholic guilt connects into that.

How Marisol as a physical representation of Catholicism is part of that narrative - how Eddie is entering a place where he has to chose his path - in order to move on from Shannon he needs to fully square the hole - catholic or non catholic. And how that needs to happen first - before he can begin his queer journey!

#this is so incoherant #I'm also thinking about how Marisol fits into this narrative and how this idea of being taken in or fooled by a person plays into what we #know of her - how she wasn't upfront with Eddie (not saying she had to be right from the off but before moving in!!!) - how she is kind of #representative of secrets - especially around faith and ones connection with faith because she is essentially a stand in for catholicism #which (sorry to all the catholics out there) peddles in magic and secrets in order to keep the mystery of faith alive and therefore keep #people believing. How Eddie's reckoning with himself and the ghost of Shannon ultimately means choosing either to follow the path of #catholicism or non catholicism #How Marisol is a tie to religion and therefore his reasons for not having successful relationships after her (or even with her) and how #Eddie letting go will ultimately mean letting go of Marisol - how he can never fully move forward while catholicism still lingers #how I don't' think we'll be seeing the queer aspect of this narrative this season - that dealing with this first part is key and only once #he has figured it out can he then be free to know himself - is true self better - and accept and move into his full self as a queer man #so yeah - catholic guilt arc 7b and 8a - as its really a two parter - finally dealing with the remnants of Shannon - and its connection wit #his faith and then when truly free of that exploring his queerness! #So yeah - Marisol will possibly be here until towards the end of the season because she is meant to be the trigger point for Eddie in #relation to Shannon - its why they made the difference (and similarities) between S and M very obvious in 7x01 #they have the time to build this story arc more fully now with the s8 renewal - to do it justice and unfortunately as part of that it means #she'll probably be around longer than any of us would like! #I don't know if I even make sense at this point #but I do want to reitterate that the show is goig out of its way to contrast her with Buck as well #to really show how close and right for each other Buck and Eddie are so no one needs to panic - she's here for the narrative not forever! #911 abc #911 spoilers #eddie diaz

[voguewoozi]

can't believe people are still out here accusing real ass people of queerbaiting. at this point just admit you like forcing people to come out before they're ready because that's what the result of this continues to be. coming out to anyone isn't an obligation for any queer person and people shouldn't have to alter their behavior or personality or presentation just because you personally think they're cishet. that is literally your own personal problem to work on. keep it to yourself

#anyway i can't believe i actually saw - in my pride month - someone accusing onlyoneof of queerbaiting #and using gayness for 'clout' like. 1) if any of them actually came out it would probably end their careers. casually #like why do kpop fans constantly forget that queerness isnt a globally accepted thing #2) the fact that they even do these gay storylines in their mvs is insane to me and they already got so much hate for it #like literally what clout are you talking about. this was honestly a risky thing for them to do #and the only reason it paid off at all is bc they have a pretty big supportive international fan base #but otherwise libido literally could've been the end of it for all of them #3) despite getting straight-up hate instead of pretending like it didnt happen and trying to just move on they doubled down #like idk how ooo of all groups is getting ridiculed by gay people like you are sooo online like #meet a gay person from a different cultural background than yours im begging you #you can't say that gay people have to come out without compromising our autonomy #you literally sound like a homophobe forcing us to be categorized and this is why this mindset is not fucking safe #im talking again

[muppetbyers]

idk man but i think theres such a connection between will being possessed in s2 and like 'what happens when my boy is gone' and will giving the painting to mike under el's name. just like... will being replaced and then replacing himself. and like his entire person was being replaced by the mf, but also everything that he said was from el with the painting and speech was intrinsically his and his alone. and how his arc since s1 has been about hiding but also being right there. and how its all tied to his queerness. and how ideally in s5 this should lead to will not hiding/moving on from his identity and his feelings, but instead embracing them.

#like what happens when will has given away/up everything that he is. hes already Come Back Wrong and he just like. keeps removing himself #from things. even after it was done To him by the mf/vecna. and like the only people who can 'bring him back' are jonathan mike and joyce #ship of theseus moment (not really) #but also really. i mean idk about actual philosophy but will is the heart of the show like its literally about how people love him so much #and like. his identity and queerness is to integral to it all. and like okay some of his parts were replaced but the love brought him back #time and time again and it will in s5 too. #or whatever that means idk #which is also why will should kiss mike. not the other way round. and i will die on this hill even after it doesnt happen #and also why will just moving on and 'accepting' his feelings are unrequited would be a dogshit resolution to his arc with mike but wtv... #what im trying to say is in s5 will not hiding and being loved and not replacing himself with anything else and kissing boys is not just #smth that should happen bc he deserves happiness. but smth necessary to complete his arc. okay? okay #will byers #byler #i feel like ive made this post 5 times before but its just smth i feel very strongly about sorry #wheww... category 5 will byers moment. #me vs being coherent and concise #mine

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.

[badolmen]

Wrote out a big long phone call rant to have with my mother later because as much as I hate it she is my closest irl spiritual confidant 👍 here’s hoping her response to ‘hey I’ve been spiritually depressed and disconnected for like 8 months and for some reason these last two weeks advocating for Palestine has me feeling alive and burning with divine passion and love in a way I’ve never felt before in my life’ isn’t like. ‘Talk to your psyche abt your meds hun’

#ra speaks #personal #religion #oh god these tags got out of hand. look away I’m rambly today. #outing myself as deeply spiritual and devout on main oops #‘aren’t you gay and trans and -‘ listen Israel the person received that name after literally wrestling with gd in the desert #I’m allowed to put my faith leaders in a spiritual headlock for past and present crimes while I live my joyful life #maybe a physical headlock too. I’m down to body slam some wueerphobic racist pos who claim to be faithful while never exercising such faith #also lmao of the idea of a queer leftist being deeply spiritual makes you uncomfortable…bro everything about me makes ppl uncomfortable #I’m bi gender I consider myself a trans gay man and a nonbinary dyke at the same time. I’m disabled and ugly and autistic. im not palatable #accept the inherent apparent contradictory nature of the varied human experience and move on. #sorry thought about that post complaining abt observant jews being excluded from the conversations about queer jews like #you don’t have to get it. you don’t have to think it’s real! but it’s real to me! it’s important to me! #so are you gonna be my transphobic uncle and call me sick and deluded the same way he talks about trans people? #or are you gonna keep your mouth shut accept that you don’t have to understand someone to respect them and move on with your life. #anyways uh. here’s hoping I don’t lose my voice or start crying like I did while typing the script up. #vocational woes

[beemintty]

i fell in love with a girl and she fell in love with me. that's it.

#im sick of having to explain myself to people #yk the only people to not ask me all these questions about sexuality were my parents #im pretty lucky #my mum said nothing changes the way i love you #and my dad said i love you and i love her too #i feel like thats enough #just quiet acceptance and move on #its not that spectacular or crazy #and no one is entitled to a detailed description of my sexuality #because it doesn't matter that much #i fell for a girl #big deal #get over it #idk..... #i just feel like im in a pool of unanswered questions and unclaimed labels #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #on love #<3 #lgbtqia+ #queer community #queer #sapphic #wlw #i feel like thats the right word for me tho: sapphic #idk?? #don't ask me #potentially controversial

[girls-are-weird]

hi. unlabeled person here. i consider myself a part of the LGBTQ+ community. i don't identify as queer. come at me, bro.

#i am SO SICK of the way everybody has to fuckin' gatekeep EVERYTHING #even among a community that's meant to be about feeling safe and finding support for those of us who don't conform to a “norm” #but it gives some people out there some kind of sense of superiority to FORCE other people into labels they are NOT COMFORTABLE WITH #for no other reason than it makes you feel you're in the RIGHT #listen. i'm a science person. i understand the urge to want to categorize everything. #but people's IDENTITIES are not something that fit neatly into boxes #let alone a single specific box #some of us have really good reasons for not identifying as queer and those reasons should be respected #and fuck. even if we didn't. THAT STILL DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT #just FUCKING ACCEPT PEOPLE AS WHO THEY TELL YOU THEY ARE #just nod your head and move the fuck on #plus as i have said a bajillion times and i'm sure will say a bajillion MORE times: CELEBRITIES DON'T OWE YOU THEIR SEXUALITIES #CELEBRITIES DON'T OWE YOU SHIT #STOP ASSUMING YOU KNOW THEIR LIVES AND THEIR REASONS BETTER THAN THEY DO #oh my GOD i'm so angry #i'm gonna stop tag-ranting before my head explodes #thanks for coming to my TED talk k bye

[wild-at-mind]

It’s weird, I feel like when I first quietly entered online LGBTQ spaces in 2014-ish, it was really common for people to say ‘you don’t need to [physically] transition to be trans’. And by that they meant not just nonbinary or genderqueer, but like what we used to call FTM or MTF. Honestly now I see that sentiment expressed less and less now. What does that mean then? Are we prepared at all to accept a trans woman who only socially transitions, and a trans man who does the same? If it means low/high voices, stubble/lack of stubble, etc etc? I really hope so because otherwise we are less progressive than we used to be, ironically!!

#trans #just to be clear this is about social perception not dating or sex or anything #and it's about people who have made moves to socially transition #not to gatekeep but i can understand why people get frustrated with those who hang in and out of the closet #when it comes to social transition (aka me!) if there's no great safety need for them not to come out #anyway i know im in a different position than many i'm partnered and monogamous so would not be dating if i transition socially #but i think about this a lot and part of me wants to almost challenge queer people's acceptance #do you accept me if i don't get the top surgery when most other people do? #do you accept my high voice? #can you see me as a man? #we'll see i guess #normies just think i'm a tomboy i reckon #though i do have a femme side it's a man's femme side #i'm just rambling now #if you think this is all wank then please ignore lol

[timeisacephalopod]

People debating on whether "queer" is a slur or not acting like whatever pain they feel around that word being tossed at them (despite the fact that in my personal experience growing up in a town with less than 3000 people in it "queer" never once hit the insult list- I was gay, dyke, and a friend of mine was a tranny and another was a faggot but we never got called queer) means they can then treat the way other people identify as a slur.

Like "gay" has always been more of a slur to me than "queer" since only half of those were hissed at me insultingly by classmates, but the real issue here is that debating whether or not a word people use to identify themselves is a slur means it's less safe to identify as queer, even within a community that's meant to support you because instead of getting that support they're all debating if the way you identify is a slur or if it's been sufficiently reclaimed enough for them to bother with you. So if you have pain around that word I suggest you put it away, because supporting people who identify in a way that used to hurt you is far more worth your energy and time than giving cishet people even more power over a word we long ago decided was ours for the taking. And also as someone who identifies as queer I don't like being told I'm a fucking slur nor do I like being treated as a Gay Culture War- like don't news institutions do this to us enough without deciding to Culture War each other too??

#winters ramblings #i saw a post the othwr day lamenting about How Some People Dont Like Queer because it was used agaisnt them #boo ducking hoo gay amd dyke were leveled against me until i left high school and im not banning my local dyke march #or runjing years long debates on whether gay is acceptable to say to the point wjere im telling other people they cant identify that way #its a SLUR it caused me pain and my pain is more important than your ability to describe yourself in a way thay makes you comfortable #how about NO. how about we acknowledge your pain and then we move on from it with the knowledge that that pain may suck #but right now the more important thing is that people use this word as a way to wuestion their identity or to describe it without getting #into the weeds about it and about a million other things that are nore relevant than pretenting like people still get queer shouted at them #from windows. like maybe in the bible belt of america although i think theyd go with faggot or another slur #but like if my tiny town in the early aughts didnt even use queer HOW many other places do when that town #is minimum 40 years behind everyone else always??

[girlbossblackbeard]

sorry this post isn't ofmd related but thank god I got back on my meds on sunday bc if I had to hear my dad angrily grumble "it's every fucking show now" regarding one (1) extraordinarily insignificant character in a show mentioning her wife i honestly probably would've gone off the deep end. but hark, those sweet sweet amphetamines are kicking absolute ass when it comes to my emotional regulation and I'm simply opening my arms to my familiar friend; the same old feelings of disappointment and resignation 😌

#it's weird being an adult and starting to move away from that *desperate* need to be accepted by your parents #but still wanting/needing it a significant enough amount that it still prevents you from coming out to them #I'm like half wanting to cry and half wanting to be brazenly queer as a massive fuck you #but I already know I'm just gonna do the uzsh and....not say anything or ever come out to them bc i value my 'not fighting with my dad' time #also at this point it's really none of their business and all the people who matter know so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #we shall vibe on fam

[arthur-r]

hey so im going to nebraska on thursday that’s a thing that’s happening

#it’s for a college visit thing #the ‘‘ultimate husker experience’’ at unl #im not all that enthused about nebraska like compared to wisconsin but like. wisconsin wants people smarter than me. nebraska wants me #like literally im going to apply today and go to a party celebrating my acceptance on friday or saturday #so. as a backup plan for if the fancier and cheaper (in-state instead of midwest exchange) colleges don’t accept me #nebraska is a great place to have the option of. and there’s some really cool museum stuff that they have on campus which sounds great #and i would just be getting a regular history degree but that’s the same as im looking at for madison too #like duluth is the only place in probably a five hundred mile radius that has a program explicitly called public history #anyway nebraska is a nice distance away from home and my dad actively hates it which means he wouldn’t ever visit which is kind of a plus #like i don’t want anyone who knows me in college to meet my dad #anyway unl has hrt within it and so. im comfortable moving to a red state while transitioning as long as that’s true #also abortions are still legal there up to five months. so they’ve hit all my major qualifications of me having rights #speaking of being trans in nebraska i really wish i could go to the queer omaha archives on my way into lincoln but my mom is driving me so #i’ll just have to be kinda sad about that. they also have el museo latino but once again my mom is driving me and she’s not great about #embracing that side of my culture so. good luck with that. at least she knows and (sort of) accepts it about me though #so maybe kinda sorta. it’s more likely than the queer omaha archive she would never accompany me there #anyway im just talking about random things that exist there but. hey if you guys know of any cool places in iowa to go to on the way lmk #also anywhere in northeastern nebraska or southeastern south dakota is also on the table we haven’t decided the exact route yet #but yeah im going to be sleeping in a dorm and stuff like that on this upcoming weekend thursday-saturday. i’ll be around when i can but its #i’ll be sharing a bedroom with my mom. so it’ll certainly be something. anyway i’m leaving early thursday morning and attending a meeting #today at 6:00 on zoom. and i’ll just kind of check it out and get used to it and hopefully see the historic costume collection #(i have to call them on the phone about that. same for the textiles gallery too. but the quilt museum i can just go to anytime) #anyway considering that there’s practically zero universes where i can go to college with my friends. nebraska seems like a fine fit for me #and it’ll be good to check it out. anyway i know i told people to not talk about colleges in front of me but this is different it’s a trip #but im still talking a little too much about it. tagging it with college talk as usual even though that stuff wasn’t supposed to be the main #part of the post or anything. but it sure is easy to ramble about #anyway that’s where i’ll be thursday-saturday and i would love recommendations for places to stop on the way #me. my post. mine. #college talk #delete later (probably)

[vogelmeister]

love how serious my family takes the grandchildren rankings

#long story short my sister is the top but she made a joke at dinner tonight that we think dropped her a few rankings #i was quite high bc i used to go out with her for brunch a lot #but after dying my hair pink and expressing more of a connection to the netherlands than my home country of australia i dropped a few #if she finds out im queer it’s joever but lbr she knows my besties all are #also my refusal to get my license isn’t helping #my brother got a spectacular atar but unfortunately he argues back at her political views so he’s down #so she tells people about his 99.7 atar and then doesn’t make more of an effort? but he accepted an invitation to visit her brother #over in the hunter valley #so like hes the bottom but he’s moving up #so we reckon my six year old cousin is the favourite but one day she’ll form opinions and then we’ll really see it

[be-good-to-bugs]

i hate accepting money from my weird aunt bc ppl will act like i owe her a relationship with me bc of that. ive never even asked her for money. i just dont say no when she offers it.

#the bin #hhh. im glad shevsent me money bc im down $300 bc of my sister yet again and i need to for moving costs but god #after i move i really wanna not accept any money from her if i can help it. i really dont like her. #she is THE definition of performative liberal queer ally who is actually just a conservative about everything that isnt inconvenient to her #she refuses to change her mind about anything. and hates the weird queers. the type of person who acts like its my little sisters fault she #gets bullied bc she dared to wear dog ears to school once. she keeps trying to convince my mom that she needs to enforce a no dressing weird #rule onto her “so she wont get bullied as much” which is obviously bullshit for so many reasons #i have avoided a relationship with her as much as possible bc she has always made me uncomfortable. i hope i can continue that. #i dont wanna cause issues. i know my mom would be sad if she knew how much i dislike her and theres not much to be gained by being blut #about it. probs just stuff to be lost honestly. well my whole i dont like being around other people dont touch me persona i built my whole #childhood might finally pay off at least. #its weird to me that i like. care about my moms feelings now. i used to hate her so much and i could never imagine not hating her but now im #like. maybe even capable of forgiving her. she will never be my MOM. she never could be. i dont even really remember being her child #i dont remember being a child at all really. but shes a petson in my life who really isnt so bad. #i dont know how to come to terms with that. its. weird.

[x-v4mp3y3lin3r-x]

"transandrophobia/transmisandry are bad words because those things aren't real. misandry isn't real." you guys understand that words just describe things, right? they don't have to be "real." Unicorns aren't real. Vampires aren't real. If you ask any bigot, "transgender" isn't real! It doesn't fucking matter if you think something is real!

#and as a matter of fact. no more fucking stupid discourse about how you shouldn't use certain words #because the people who coined then were 'problematic' #that's stupid. it's just fucking stupid. #you chronically online fucking weirdos do this to EVERY QUEER THING #you move the goddamn goal posts more than we can create goals! #I don't CARE if people over the age of 40 still use the original gay flags. I DON'T CARE. it's not problematic! #I'm SICK AND TIRED of 'acceptable' queer culture being defined by dumbasses who get their entire knowledge of queerness from Tumblr

[bixels]

Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.

Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).

Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.

Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.

Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).

AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.

But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s

At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.

#mlp #yeah i wrote this last night during insomnia. #yeah i know an embarrassing amount of crap about this kids show #but whatever it's my hyperfixation i'll store as much useless information as i want!!! #i'm gay and neurodivergent i have an excuse #in case you needed more proof that aj's my favorite character #personal #delete later #unless you like this analysis stuff #i get why they didn't reveal aj's parent's death until way later and why they didn't do much with it but i wish they did #cuz narratively there could've been so much material with aj's grief. like. i feel like we gloss over the fact that she lost her #mother and father as a teenager #i tried keeping my personal hcs out of this to keep it unbiased #but i'll put some in the tags #involving rarijack –– i think aj can be (but not always) very self-conscious about her relationship with rarity #anxieties that she's not the right fit or that rarity will move away and leave her some day or that another woman will take her attention #(like in rollercoaster of friendship?? nudge nudge??). basic seperation anxiety stuff #long post #regarding applebloom whenever i think about her and her parents i think about that scene in steven universe where steven looks up at #a portrait of his mother and openly wonders what kind of sack lunches she would've made for him. that episode still fucks me up

[drdemonprince]

Imagine a world where homosexuality was still in the DSM but society had moved gradually toward some moderate acceptance of queer people, but only with the understanding that we are sick and that leading out our queer lives is medically necessary for us. in this paradigm, a person would have to get diagnosed with homosexuality by a psychiatrist in order to be permitted to have gay sex

this is basically the reality that trans people are living in right now. and that's for those of us that are lucky enough to live in a place where we *are* allowed to lead out trans lives once we get gender dysphoria written down in our medical charts