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sakura-code · 9 months

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Okay, I’ll admit, I was starting to have some doubts with my Yuma storyline for the Misfit AU, mainly because it feels like it overshadows the rest of the characters and the main point of the Misfit AU: a bunch of misfits from Kanai Ward coming together as a family to survive in the adult world of Kanai Ward. I mean, Yuma could very well fit the Misfit theme by being one of the few kind souls willing to act on their kindness in Kanai Ward.

However, I think his kind heart could be used against him by having Amaterasu and Peacekeepers (mainly Amaterasu bc the Peacekeepers are more openly corrupt) take advantage of his sense of justice for their own gains.

The main difference between Yuma and the Nocturnal Detectives is that they learn to overcome their struggles and become strong-willed. Yuma, on the other hand, is a sensitive boy who wears his heart on his sleeve, and was taken advantage of while still in his vulnerable state. Yuma is also known to be kind of a people pleaser and well-behaved, so rebellion is very unlikely compared to the other detectives.

Another thing to note is the potential the groups see in the detectives. There are individual reasons for why the detectives are outcasts towards Kanai Ward, and why the Peacekeepers and Amaterasu treats them as outsiders. They’re rebellious, they’re unpredictable, they go by their own beliefs and nature. They will not be swayed or bend to their wills. But Yuma, who was a kid at the time, he has potential and is looking for his place in the world. They see a gifted child who is reserved and well-mannered and obedient to the authority figures. He’s basically perfect to mold him into their image.

I guess I just needed to write it out to see how Yuma sets apart from the detectives, and I need to like figure out their own stories that could play into the overarching narrative so they aren’t really overshadowed.

But what are you guys’ thoughts? Since I believe I need multiple opinions to think on this kind of thinking.

#master detective archives: rain code #rain code #nocturnal detective agency #yuma kokohead #a bit of venting #I am also very tired so it might be my brain not working #Misfit AU

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smiggles · 1 year

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#because im mixed race and very white assumed #i have a huge case of imposter syndrome in regards to my culture and identity #sometimes other non white ppl will say to me #that i very clearly look mixed or not white #and it sends me into a vortex of emotional turmoil cuz i just can't see what theyre seeing #its something i will always struggle with #and part of why i dont show selfies #because i dont like people assuming im white by appearance #but how cant they when im..waves hand #lol #negative #a bit of venting #personal

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fanworldbuildingfun · 1 year

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I’m 35% into Valhalla and I need to vent a bit I have such a... Love/hate thing for this game??? I mean. From the “Mythology set” it would be my second-favorite, after Origins

(Which is an undisputed leader for the perfect mix of lovely world, lovely protagonists, and heart wrenching story which - most importantly - ties in to the Assassin lore)

Valhalla gets #2 after Origins for a very simple reason: while I may have issues with Eivor (not the writing; I find them pretty fleshed out, but for the moments when story decides to sod your dialogue choices and defaults to prideful hothead), I did not click with Kassandra, whom I decided to start Odyssey with. A little over 15% in, and I switched to Valhalla. I fully intend to see if Alexious would click better, after I’m done with Valhalla

(and just to clarify: I’m playing the “Let the Animus decide” option for Valhalla, co Eivor is female in main parts of game)

Now. One thing I have to mention: I’m a completionist and I’m easily sidetracked by non-mainline quests. Which means that, while I’m doing main plot quests in power level order and I’m only on Oxenefordscire Arc right now, I have a lever 5 settlement and 200 power for Eivor. Which means, I am at this point invested in the role playing aspect of game

And had a lot of time to tinker Eivor to my preferences Now, the thing I am having issues with: I have, as I mentioned, a love/hate situation for Eivor. I*like* how I got them acting at this point, and am managing to rock, more or less, the Hidden One aesthetic and behaviors now. Which yeah, comes with its own issues since you can’t really join the Brotherhood Point is, my Eivor isn’t going in guns blazing. They also aren’t going to get into your face and will consider other options if it’s beneficial for the situation. Even if it doesn’t exactly go with the “Dane” attitude to the problem Which makes the moments where the game goes more linear a problem Case in point, the start of Oxenefordscire. And the dialogue with Sigurd and Basim hit me right into the face. Because my Eivor isn’t going to toss accusations straight at Basim after seeing them act so odd. Not after having spent time running errands with Haytham and exploring old bureaus. The more likely option they’d entertain would be that someone got to both of them But instead, you have Eivor going all “Odin and Loki” in this situation - without any obvious reason?? I mean it would make sense if you play Eivor as the more aggressive type, but I did not. This kind of defeats the purpose for giving us the option to tune Eivor’s behavior - and in a scenario where, subjectively, Sigurd is the one acting more sus than Basim! (Subjectively because, at this point, one can either see Sigurd as being influenced by sus Basim who has Agenda OR, as Sigurd being unreasonable and Basim appeasing him to avoid confrontation) Anyway. I’m hoping there will be some shifts further on because this has been frustrating me something awful Moreso than Dag being forced as a critic on Eivor while I’m busy running Eivor around and securing us alliances, and making exactly zero claims at being a Jarl (And I did get a bit spoiled beforehand, so with how the entire Dag situation is supposed to play out? I feel like I’ll be feeling all “sod it, I quit, peace out” by the end but without actual ability to do it. Would have been lovely if there was an option to at least have a talk where you seriously consider joining Hidden Ones but alas) ...This is going to get frustrating won’t it. RPG but not quite. I’d say they should have kept RPG elements at Origins level - at least when it comes to dialogue / personality. Call me spoiled but my basis for good RPG dialogue-pick comes from Bioware’s Star Wars games / Dragon Age series. And those won’t fit into Assassin’s Creed, unless we are talking Alternate Universe / Modern Time line game

#assassin's creed #Assassin's Creed: Valhalla #A bit of venting #Raven branch Eivor #Cautious Eivor #Let me keep them as such if you are giving me options #Don't make me act like Odin when my Eivor is being super sus of Odin (at least in my head)

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starsarefire824 · 1 year

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I’m gonna vent a little bit cause I’m just a little tired of getting the same questions and weird comments time after time. I really love that everyone overall has been invested in The Pact. But can I just say....if you don’t like where something is going...I always say the back button is there for a reason. No one is forcing you to read 90,000 words of something you don’t want to read about. I think I’ve been very clear with tags, in my notes, and in many comment replies about the dynamics I’m exploring there...and that includes madwheeler as a friendship and romantic, byler, and elumax, as well as poly, monogomous, straight, gay, ace and bi characters.

I started this fic because I wanted to do something a little different. I needed a bit of a change in dynamics, and madwheeler in general has always intrigued me as a dynamic. I understand it’s a bit of a different take on Mike and Max as characters, and it’s not for everyone, but also...I literally am a byler writer. There are ten other fics to choose from that all center around them. Go enjoy them if The Pact isn’t for you.

#The Pact #madwheeler #byler #elumax #fic writing #a bit of venting #cause after 22 chapters your girl has grown tired #i'm a very easygoing person and want everyone to be happy #but sometimes it's best just to keep it to yourself if you don't like something?#personal

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naegashutyoassup · 2 years

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i just saw the teaser for 2 baddies (NCT 127) and istg this is the FIRST time in nearly 2 YEARS that i got excited over a comeback since the Blue Hour (TOMORROW X TOGETHER) release. maybe it’s because i forgot how sick the teasers are and so i never really saw them until way later on. but seriously, i’ve been so excited over kpop in so long that i tend to feel like liking kpop was a chore i had to do just to find friends, making me forget that it can be fun if i just did what i used to do when i was new and just went offline and danced in my own bedroom.

cw // mentions of d-18, cyber bullying, implied dep and sui

sometimes, it’s better to have fun and appreciate being alone. that’s what everyone says, right? i already know that because i’ve been through it for years. it’s not that i’m worried about, i’m just worried about being lonely and not having anyone if i needed it. i didn’t really have a lot of people to comfort me during the d-18 stuff and me getting harassed online which almost took me life until my great friends came back to me and helped me out during my bad days. i know i should be happy that i’m no longer in this space, right? but that again, it’s not a space, but a mindset that i cannot get out of due to the amount of mental abuse i went through. i now suddenly feel worthless, loveless and even unworthy of anyone’s attention. but with these moments, i could finally have a least a glimmer of hope that there’ll always be someone for everyone, even me.

anyone reading this, you are not alone. i really wanted to hear this, and so do you.

(for context: i’ve been diagnosed with autism at a young age, preventing me from going to school like everyone else and feeling alienated even if i go to school because i either go to a special needs class or i’d get bullied. at one point my parents dropped me out of school to go to a different country for my education but it caused me to get bullied even more and it got worse since i was exploring my sexuality and gender identity at the time. since nobody around me were supportive (that includes the students, teachers, parents, aunties and uncles, cousins and even my sisters at one point), i felt alone and wanted to end my life at the age of 14. however, what stopped me was that i got into kpop which was a big distraction for me since i would listen to their music when i go home and would dance with a dog my aunty got as a replacement for my other dog who passed away shortly before i got into kpop. but as soon as everything was starting to look bright for me, i started going on online apps such as amino, discord, etc and it has tremendously ruined my mental health due to all the harassment i would receive. at this point, it made me think that nobody would like me which made my depression worse and i tried to end my life again multiple times this year involving march, may, july and august. don’t worry, i’m recovering now which is why i post stuff like this to show my process.)

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berryliciousjam · 1 year

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I have too much shit in my mind from school to MK ideas like gusto ko sumabog!!! 💥💥💥

Maybe because I am imn my flop era lmaooo

#berrylicioustext #a bit of venting #but its not that bad #i think

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candraz · 4 months

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🍀Echo🍀

The last drawing made in 2023! It took a long time to create but I am very happy with the final result and I think I will continue to explore this new style in the future 👁…

Sincere apologies for my absence, truth is my mental health isn't as great as I wish it'd be and treating myself is taking time but I finally see some progress. It's slow but I'm getting there 🍀 also the political situation in my country (France) is getting worse and worse, despite clearly not being the worst in the world, I'm pretty privilege really, it's still terrifying to see the rise of fashism and people close to me slowly becoming far right wingers... It's incredibly sad and I'm scared for the people it's directly attacking... That plus the genocides happening right now...

Also my financial and work situation isn't really good right now, I don't really know where we're going with my partner, hopefully we'll find a solution this year.

I'm sorry, this is getting long ahah I probably sound really depressing rn and I apologize for that, I just always feel safe here writting about my life and all... I love Tumblr for that and for the wonderful people I met here 💖 I'm clinging to hope and the happiness I can find in life and I hope you all are doing okay as well, especially in these terrifying times.

A happy new year to all 🎉 I hope you all had a good holiday and overall a good end of the year 💖 I wish everyone safety, kindness and love because you all deserve it 💖🍀I'm proud of myself and you all for being alive ! Life is tough and it's amazing to still be standing 🍀

For my part the festivities were exhausting but overall nice ! Like every year, I'm slowly recovering from the holiday season and I'm preparing a lot of things for this new year, a lot of projects and things that I've wanted to do for a long time which I hope will finally see the light of day 🍀

Love you all 💖 Cheers 🍻🎉✨!!

#art #original art #tw : gore #tw body horror #a bit of venting #a bit of year summary #it's long sorry #tho I'm really happy to post here again ; v ;#I still see the reblogs of some of my stuff and the tags brings me so much happiness 💖#thank you all 💖#love #🍀

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depressoespressodeeno · 5 months

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I feel so worthless compared to her. Why does she get everything of him and I feel like I get scraps. I try so fucking hard it feels like and I still just don't compare at all. I feel like I'm too annoying. I feel like I'm nothing. I feel like I'm just not good enough. I don't think he'll ever understand how it is I feel regardless however many times I try to vocalize my feelings to him. He just doesn't understand. And he probably never will understand. I can't tell if she's controlling him or if he really just doesn't wanna do anything. I can't tell if everything's her idea and she's dictating things or if he's making the choices himself and he's choosing her over me. I try to just accept that it'll never be me. I try to just be happy that I at least get what I'm given but everytime I see them doing something and it's something I desperately want with him myself, I get so angry. I get so jealous and upset because why does she get that and I want it so so bad and I can't even have a taste of it.

They're trying to set up all these things for them. All these things that are exclusive to them. And I feel so jealous and angry cause why is it always her and him. I just wasn't ever meant to be in his picture. It wasn't ever meant to be me. It wasn't ever meant to be us. It was always supposed to be them. Only them. And I fooled myself and made myself look stupid. Sometimes, I really wish I wasn't born when I was. Cause a part of me feels as though if I was born years earlier, then maybe we'd have a chance. Maybe it would be us. But because I wasn't. Because I was born when I was, it isn't me. It isn't us. It's them. And I feel so heartbroken and alone.

#just ranting #this is depressing #a bit of venting #im a fool #vent post #vent

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ellevandersneed · 19 days

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I'll be real the second any trans person shows up on my dash making any kind of post generalizing transmasc or transfemme people negatively i check out. literally don't care if the evil trans woman or evil trans man said something upsetting to you or you've had bad experiences with a particular group of people; the generalization shit is lame, being defensive about it is lame, you are literally smarter than this - stop, reflect, take some deep breaths, go do something else

#vent #its so stupid #this wont change minds but this has been in my head for a bit #might delete later

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tinyspectre · 5 months

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